#PLEASE i need it endo

[ghosty-dsmp]

Btw might edit this post alot

Hi!! Welcome to my intro!! Im a proshipper! I mostly do dsmp, but only the characters (c!) (Although cc! Ships are starting to grow on me) i do this as a coping Mechanism and also fun, i find comfort in it, my name is ghosty, im a boy, i have dyslexia and autism i may also have hpd but im not fully sure but i do have those behaviors soo yea, i am a chronic ill person. i will post headcanons or reblogs or answer anonymous message that i get here, although it will be mostly proshipping, oh and im also 14 so please be 13+ if your interact!! Thank you for reading!!!! Oh, im also canadian, so i might use terms that americans people won't understand, english is not my first language, i asked my therapist if it was ok for me to share nsfw headcanons and she said as long as it doesn't harm anyone and as long as i enjoy it myself and that it distracted me from sh, that i should do it, so sometimes (or most of the time, nit sure) im gonna post nsfw dsmp headcanons. Oh and idk if i said this already but i only have one character that i ship myself with, and its c!tommy (c! Are the characters while cc! Are the irl people, i am shipping myself with c! The characters)

Yay little edit!! I might flirt ir tease you but don't take it romantically cause it will only be plantonic, don't think that everything i say is romantically like one of my mutuals did, people thinking that when i tease or flirt with as romantically way is weird, i am going to say this again, i am aroace and do not feel any attraction to anyone and anything, when do flirt or tease you i mean ot in a plantonic way.

Also ignore if i say something that isn't about dsmp, i use my tumblr like a journal since i can't afford it irl and can't find one in the trash, so yea

Oh shit oh and i forgot to mention but i have a partner @/bloody-sickness, please go follow it, their so cool and i love them, i love my partner hehe

Moodboards by @/laromi-immoral

[godly-rambles]

this isnt what i normally post but it's important to me that i say this

before you block me, please just hear me out

it scares me how much of alterhuman tumblr (and alterhumans in general) support(s) endogenic systems

systems are people who experienced severe repeated trauma before the age of nine. by removing the trauma factor its impossible to form alters.

before you turn nine, every emotion is a different state of self. (thank you @/quoigenicfromhell for helping me to understand this bit better) essentially you are a different person when you're hungry, happy, sad, scared, etc. when you experience such severe trauma that your body decides it's unsafe for your personalities to merge, THATS when you become a system.

Severe Repeated Childhood Trauma.

that is how systems form, thats literally how it works. the trauma factor is what makes the system a system

i wouldnt say im anti-endogenic, more like i'm endogenic cautious.

again i am all for hearing people out, please tell me your thoughts in the reblogs or comments, but this is just my personal take on it.

i wish no harm to people who identify as endogenic, live however you want to live.

this is how I've interpreted the topic as someone who isn't really qualified to have a take on it, i just wanted to share some of my thoughts.

UPDATE: I've read through the reblogs and comments on my take, and I still dont fully understand the identity itself, but it makes more sense now. Thank you to everyone who helped to explain it, I appreciate your help

I see everyone in the reblogs/comments talking about how being an endogenic system doubles as being alterhuman, but I really don't understand how that could be the case. If anyone's willing to explain it further please do

[twilightakiishi]

*shaking and holding a knife out in front of me* tell me which tr/wb guys have the sexiest happy trail. go on

[sirenium]

>goes onto DID tag

>sees like ten anti endos immediately

>closes DID tag

[analogpantheon]

Hello uh,

I have a very important question,

Is it normal for a psychologist to only give you one survey on dissociative experiences to try and diagnose all of your symptoms?

All the rest of the testing that occurred was for functioning.

That test was months ago, maybe three months ago by now.

I just got the results about 2 hours ago and my head is still spinning over the idea that she told me that I had NOTHING dissociative at all because I was “really aware” of everyone in the system.

Even my psychiatrist was confused, while we were waiting for the results to come in, about how my psychologist didn’t do ANY interviews or further testing with what I was dealing with, she wasn’t even fully aware of all of our alters!!

I really need some sort of opinion on this because my head’s beginning to hurt and I’ve been been vigorously trying to make sense and process this but the diagnosis I’ve gotten just gives me more questions than answers.

[sovereignsystem]

We want to make this perfectly clear:

We support all people with cluster B disorders (yes, all of them), and if you do not, block us.

We do not support transmeds, and if you do, block us.

Narcissistic abuse is not real, just like endos are not real. No one is "scientifically predisposed" to being abusive. (This also includes borderline abuse, histrionic abuse, etc).

People can and are, trans without dysphoria or medically transitioning, and thinking otherwise is just hurting the trans community as a whole.

If you do not agree with these statements, please do yourself a favor and block us. We don't want your hateful filth on our blog.

-🧟‍♂️ (He/him)

[kaiser1ns]

i love endo so much i can't wait for his anime debut so I can go crazy and write more for him and chika of course !! both of them are my favorite and they bring me so much comfort aaaaaaaa expect something to drop on my birthday with both of them because I just need the fictional unrealistic comfort from these drawings

[rqfreak]

every1 go follow my bah blog raaaaah !!!!! @bahfreak !!!

im super cool i promise !

[multiplesillylittleguys]

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE INFODUMP ABOUT LITERALLY ANYTHING IN OUR ASK BOX PLEASE

(Bonus points if frogs or cephalopods)

Thank you :3

-Alex !!!!

[nagy-bari]

[tarnished-angelcoric]

does anybody else with a cdd like. feel weird about identifying themselves as trans.

like. i (the host) am a "cis" man. i am not trans. im just some guy. unfortunately though, i happen to live in an afab body.

which to some people would make me trans, and since we're closeted as a system, thats how i have to identify myself to outsiders. but calling myself trans just makes me feel weird because im not. as a part, i am a "cis" guy. in headspace, i am a "cis" guy. i am in no way a woman aside from being inside one.

idk i guess its just hard to reconcile that thats how anyone on the outside would view me? just because im a guy who happens to live in a female body doesnt make me trans, does it? because calling myself that feels wrong

‼️ This post is by someone with DID. Singlets do not derail. Endos DNI.‼️

[windbreakes]

@cherriedrage, prompt —— ❝ a phone call would’ve been nice. ❞

what yamato will tell sakura is that he was simply too excited to bother contacting her in the first place, all bashful and pleased over being caught in the act—— what he was actually planning is a different story entirely. he looks over sakura with a placating and easygoing smile, and distinctly knows that if he had called ahead of time—— she'd have told someone. not maliciously, of course, she'd throw it out in the same breath where she'd promise to be careful—— but frankly? no one in bofurin of any sound mind would have let her meet with him alone. maybe they'd be right to.

❝ aw, don't be like that, sakura, ❞ yamato croons, ❝ it's almost like you don't want to see me. are you breaking your promise? ❞ he pouts as he leans into sakura's space, obviously delighted. ❝ that hurts, yaknow. i've been keeping mine, haven't i? s'only fair. ❞

[million-with-a-b]

Hey sysblr, has anyone experienced an alter regressing not in age, but in memory?

One of our alters (nameless for privacy sake) has been with us for five years. And suddenly he just doesn't remember anything about the system, or his time with us, or anything.

I'll be honest it's really stressful for him and the rest of us. Any advice?

[the-kiarah-organisation]

how does the element stuff work in you system? Feel free to answer privately or not answer at all!

Thought I'd done a post on this already, I'll assume I didn't because I'm always looking for a way to talk about this xD

An Introduction To EleWe »

EleWe is our elements and weapons system, it runs off ten elements and ten weapons - so it has a hundred possible entries - and because only one member per entry, it also runs off Phases.

Phases are a group of a hundred members, a Phase has to be completely filled before a new one opens. Phase III is actually just about to open, and we pray this does not break our database, which was only designed for the first two Phases, because we didn't think we'd exceed two hundred members. (It shouldn't, right? O-o) (I'm not bad at coding, I'm sure it won't-)

The Database »

Just a small section on the database. Our database runs by having all possible combinations as an entry, and having columns for each Phase. When searching the database, we look for things like "element in (x)" and "phase x is empty" (that's in English, I'm not going to write SQL here lmao)

Elements »

Okay so, elements. As I said, there's ten total elements, these are:

Cosmica | Dark

Sonia | Sound

Hydria | Water

Glaciera | Ice

Flora | Plants

Aria | Air

Lumina | Light

Terra (prev Eartha) | Earth

Inferna | Fire

Electria | Electricity

Each one has reactions to other elements. I used to have a list, no clue where it went (probably died when my pc corrupted), so I'll do this from memory (o-o;)

Cosmica + Lumina = Detonate

Sonia + Aria = Diffuse

Sonia + Electria = Boost

Hydria + Glaciera = Freeze

Hydria + Aria = Storm

Hydria + Flora = Grow

Hydria + Inferna = Vaporise

Hydria + Electria = Conduct

Glaciera + Aria = Blizzard

Glaciera + Inferna = Melt

Glaciera + Electria = Conduct

Flora + Terra = Sprout

Flora + Inferna = Burn

Flora + Electria = Burgeon

Aria + Inferna = Stoke

This was originally designed with The Kansukki Project in mind.

This list (with the reaction names) was only ever used in The Kansukki Project, whereas The Kīara'h Project just uses the reactions (have some random trivia)

Weapons »

As also said in the intro, there are ten weapons! These are: (listed with general classification and explanation if needed)

Axe [Short Range]

Bow [Long Range]

Crossbow [Mid Range]

Combat [Short Range] | Hand to hand combat

Gem [Mid Range] | Magic

Knife [Short Range - Long Range] | Depending on if you can throw / previously throwing knives

Polearm [Mid Range] | Death stick :)

Scythe [Mid Range]

Staff [Long Range] | Long ranged gem

Sword [Mid Range]

There were originally eight weapons but apparently we got OCDed ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (more trivia)

So.. How Does It Work? (And Why?) »

Each member is assigned one element and weapon combination, usually this is based on their past. Each member can only specialise in that element.

(except if they have a copycat ability, such as Amethyst who studied more than one element and use their Sonia to mimic other's elements)

For weapons, it's a little different. Most members only have one, and although some members may know other weapons, they only specialise in one.

Mostly, these will be used within stories and headspace, however some members may be able to wield their weapons in the outside world.

Energy »

Another part of EleWe is elemental energy, it lowers by using abilities/powers and when lowering, can cause members to not be able to cast spells, or even, if it gets extremely low, can impact their body and physical/mental energy and can't recover on its own.

(I won't touch on this too much because it's more or less its own thing.)

Technical Notes »

Element reaction names source: an old post we made on The Kansukki Project's server.

If I remember correctly, this is EleWe v6, (technically v5, but I'm calling it v6, because it will be soon with Phase III)

Most of this was originally done for The Kansukki Project, not The Kīara'h Project, but it has since been adapted.

Kuro from MeD wrote this post (and is very unqualified to write this post)

Hope this answers your ask? Lol

[thetentsystem]

just came into front after apparently a month or not fronting?? like what the fuck is a nehmofish and a system term ?? i was looking through notes idfk what the fuck

who the fuck is William and why is he talking to me

-kyoresu 🩹

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