#Or 14 year old me hated myself

[graysanatimony]

I’m sad cause I know how to draw realistic looking things like faces and bodies and shit

but I don’t KNOW how to if you get what I mean

[blessthishouse]

I really wish I could make enough money to just support myself and move away

[cwbuggo]

CAN I HAVE THE KHAN X TEACHER IMAGE I’VE BEEN REELING EVER SINCE I SAW THAT PLE

ok so fun fact it’s not from a full image, i drew it for the sole purpose of the bit. but here’s a bigger version without text. big version (with text) and inspiration are beneath the cut.

and yes, i did use the grammatically correct form of “mitochondria.” i may not be above drawing crackship old man yaoi for a singular joke, but you will not catch me supporting the mistaken pluralization of mitochondrion. smh

[astral-catastrophe]

me and the generic extra strong Tylenol and the pure rage in my system

[kimtaegis]

the bitter hilarity of not ever wanting to be perceived yet feeling incredibly hurt whenever you’re being overlooked

[bitegore]

god i really forgot that every business management professor specifically is the most unpleasant human being alive for no good reason. i have two business classes with like econ and accounting professors respectively and those look fine and then oh my god if i have to go back to this class with this professor i think i might actually kill myself

[sweetvalentinescandy]

im so disappointed in my art lately . im not a beginner artist, but i feel like everything i do looks like i am . i feel like it would only be acceptable for a beginner . i havent made any progress since i was 11 . today is not a good day

[comfortstars]

maybe it's too early to say. but i like the person i'm turning into

[queen-mabs-revenge]

oh it's real depression hours

[walmart-miku]

Reminder to everyone that someone you know loves part of you that you hate so pls treat urself kindly <3

[super-done-dead]

my heart hurts!! it hurts and hurts and hurts and hurts and hurts and hurts

[bornfromfragments]

TMI and discussion of irl rape tw

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why did my mom make it sound like me being raped was inevitable from a young age and she was like if ur being raped just enjoy it ^u^ while I mentally prepped myself for my eventual rape by hating and being so fucking scared of men

[flippedorbit]

you might as well just fucking call me by name at this fucking point

[strawbebyjam]

need someone to take the ex RO trope away from me

[ghostslikeflowers]

Celebrated my new pen display by redrawing my first digital art ever!! Not to be a sappy shit but if 14 year old me saw this she would be so impressed and it gives me so much joy knowing that.

I can be overly critical of my art and everything i do but putting things into perspective like this makes me feel really good.

I know im not perfect, im far from it, buf if in just 4 years i managed to do something like this i cant wait to see how my art will develop in the future, maybe in 4-5 years ill draw something current me would drool over maybe i wont be drawing at all, but as long as it brings me joy now i cant bring myself to critique it now.

[davrinassan]

i need help with vet bills (again).

hi. for those of you who remember, earlier this year i asked for donations to help me afford toos' vet bills, who we found out through your help had kidney failure, and again with your help we got her on medication for it. unfortunately it wasn't enough, and we lost her. and then shortly after, dexter began deteriorating, which we put down to his grief of losing toos - she kept him young, he followed her everywhere, he only played because of her, he only ate when she ate, etc. without her he just stopped. and then he started to have seizures and fits daily. we got him blood tests, but he was suffering so badly. we made the decision to put him down. i didn't ask for donations this time, because i was so deeply embarrassed to ask for help again. but we are still recovering financially from that, as well as the parts of toos bills that didn't get covered from donations. my mother hasn't worked for a very long time, she's disabled and very sick, and she receives PIP from the government that only covers her monthly medications that are not covered by the NHS. my father retired early to become her full time carer, and we are living off his pension. i am too disabled to work, but because my mother already receives PIP and i live with them, the government are resistent to giving me any help - so i have zero income, and rely entirely on my parents.

this is jenny. she's a 14 year old cairn terrier, who loves when we garden because she wants to help dig holes. she helped us bury dexter and toos, digging their graves for them with my dads help. she's an angel, and loves people so much she likes to escape under the fence and join other families for awhile. one time she got into someones back garden and asked to come in as they were eating lunch. she really hates flies, and will try to bite them out of the air (she has never succeeded but i believe she will one day). she will rub her face against you until you start stroking her, and will growl and even bark if you stop! we don't have the money to take jenny to the vets, for a checkup or for anything they may want to do. this has been an ongoing issue, but toos and dexter took priority, and it hasn't been a bother to her. she existed as normal for a long time, but that's since changed.

jenny has this lump in her mouth, it is larger than the picture shows, but she is a nightmare to force open her mouth since this got so big, i think it's uncomfortable or painful for her. she can't properly close her lips now, and it has pushed all her front teeth away, misshaping her mouth, and sometimes it bleeds profusely. eating has become difficult for her, she can't eat anything hard, and currently will only eat soft human foods like rice, scrambled egg chopped up so small she doesn't have to chew, and things like soups and gravy. she's lost a lot of weight, and i'm getting frightened. to add onto it, i've found lumps like this across her body. i've done as much research as i can, and i believe it to be an oral tumor, it fits, and it looks right, and it spreading across her body is called 'full staging'. and going by all i've read - they will want to remove them in surgery. according to my research, this will cost anywhere from £585 - £4,740 for just the lump in her mouth. that's not including any checkup/test costs, or the other lumps on her body.

she hasn't been to the vet yet, i don't have any secure goal or bills to share, just my assumptions and beliefs from researching myself online. my parents refuse to take her because we can't afford it. i want to save up money, have it in my bank, and show them that we can help her now, before it gets worse, or it's too late. as i said before, i don't have any income, so the only way i can do this is with help.

here's a link to my paypal.me

the icon is a little mouse, and the @ is rivellon

i struggled so badly posting the first post like this for toos. i felt so guilty and embarrassed and ashamed. but i have no choice again, i want to help jenny. i don't want her to suffer. and selfishly, i can't handle losing another dog so soon. this year has been waking nightmare, and i need your help to stop it getting even worse.

please reblog and share, even if you can't donate.

thank you for reading.