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my heart hurts!! it hurts and hurts and hurts and hurts and hurts and hurts
#deepest darkest secret#talk about it with no one#why cant i just do it?#i am so scared#itll never be too late though#it just hurts#could fix the weird feeling of like youre puppeting your body#but you wont. youll try everything else first.#14 year old me was on some classic shit and shouldve stayed on it#wouldve been easier#but no couldnt do that#like it couldnt have been done.#it was done by someone else in your year#and they seem happy#couldve been you#i am mad at myself#knowing something is true and would be so cool but being unable just due to being scared#whats wrong with you?? you let fear control too much#cant leavr the house#cant transition#cant drive when its even mildly busy#cant committ#working on so much but will never hit the big one#very negative. it just hurts!!#i hate myself
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doodles
#dungeon meshi#laios touden#chilchuck tims#lauve to draw laios sorry i cant stop#he is like. transition goals to me .. happy smile face emoji
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Here's more comparisons of Arcane Gifs before and after I color and sharpen em!
#arcane#arcaneedit#caitlyn kiramman#vi#viktor#caitlyn#jinx#mel medarda#mel#gifmaking#arcane season 2 spoilers#IM HELLA BORED I WANT NEW CONTENT ALREADY#do i think gifmakers color grade better than the people behind the show? nah. the show itself and gifs serve different purposes#theyre two entirely different things ngl#its just fun seeing before and afters of gif/edit coloring lol#i used to have a more stylized coloring filter on arcane but later in ive transitioned into something that’s a bit more in tune with#the original colors of the show#ngl im pretty mediocre when it comes to coloring lmao i cant do complex stuff like the other edit makers here#arcane and many shows in general are so dark lmao its always tough to color em#send some love to your local fandom gifmakers theyre all still hella disrespected for what they do lmao#also if ur not a fan of the coloring and sharpening then buzz off i dont wanna hear your opinion lmao go make gifs yourself :D#personal tag
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does anyone actually have sincerely held nb laios headcanons (again: this is not even fucking at odds with trans fem laios hc, that is the hc of most ppl who see her as trans fem) or do they just Need to tell everyone that they dont think laios' is feminine enough to be a real woman
#also part of senshis character is that despite his deep scars hes fully realized#like if that character was trans hed have transitioned as much as he desired already. he is pretty comfortable with his lot in life#meanwhile laios is itching to burst from his skin at all points of the story#and furthermore why cant there be more than one fucking trans women in melini. huh. the fuck does this have to do with senshi
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i really love my friends
#had like. 10 people over tonight plus my housemates and it was. so nice#not everyone knew eachother but we all just chilled and ate food and played games and i . needed it#ive been. lonely lately. and it really felt like it was the first time in a while i could take my mind off things and relax#ive. been taking steps forward#i’m gonna take only four classes next semester I think. and get back into my hobbies and my solo art#im gonna try and go see live music more often and stuff like that#maybe go home on weekends more frequently#i am. going to try#i still cant believe how many friends i have#going to zero to 1 to like. so many has been quite the transition#im trying to be more outgoing
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shout out to trans people who want to transition but know they can’t. whether that be for legal, medical, social, personal reasons, a combination of those, something else entirely. i see u i love u i hope the world is nice to u today
#text#ive seen a lot of posts that are like Just transition whatever happens happens#and thats good advice for some people but shoutout to people who Cant#i love u
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I believe in not only corrupting eggs to transition to men but to light fires under the asses of men who transition but stop taking it seriously for whatever reason. With enough repeated failure and desires left unsatisfied, even these big shot, loud and angry, rowdy tboys start to have that soft boy fetishized weakness rigomoroll shit catch up with them. They start to familiarize and hide behind their own percieved inferiority, these hot young soldiers with all this potential losing steam and left to reminisce while they're still half-baked, a bunch of poor bastards. Steam powered, roided inertia slows to a vapid convention and stops at a stale, repetitive restriction of depleted self esteem. The raw abrasion of transition wears off and the bullshit we deal with as men wears on us, makes us minimize ourselves, keeps us bound to the same old same old, always for the best.
Doesn't have to be the case. In an age of mediocrity and the demonization of queer masculinity, be that man. If you feel unhappy and discontent and you don't know how, take your transition a little more seriously. You don't just do it once, you come out and take the steroids, heehee hoohoo i'm pinocchio and the blue fairy made me a real boy and you're done forever happily ever after. Masculinity is about constantly challenging yourself, and if you're being challenged as a man constantly it can be a sign of a good thing. You will grow in the face of, in spite of, and because of adversity. Shoot things. Hit things. Fucking stand up for yourself and stop letting people walk all over you. Step outside of your comfort zone. Make yourself dangerous. Make others dangerous. Walk the streets with no fear knowing if somebody gives you shit you've broken yourself in so many times you're equipped to deal with it. Don't slow down and remember who the fuck you are.
#forcemasc#autoandrophilia#forced masculinization#cause i see all these men who just lose confidence and choose to shelter themselves as much as they can. anxiety takes over they surrender#breaks my heart.#if you cant transition and its not safe to do so? microdose on transitioning. be that safe person that people can come to.#stand up and call bullshit out when you see it. don't let anyone push you around.#and honestly the most masculine fucking thing you can do is endure it i mean fucking live through it#work and live to see better days because i believe in u champ and i know u can do it#take it one day at a time. work with what you got.
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urgent care nadja i will always love you
#wwdits#nadja of antipaxos#wwdits nadja#natasia demetriou#wwdits fanart#my art#hey . kinda hate this one kinda dont#also its 4 am and i cant tell if drawings are good or not#tried to do a painterly technique in procreate and it worked fine i guess except i hate how the smudge tool looks but idk how else to blend#cant be bothered to do all the transition shades#anyway once u slap some highlights on most things look ok
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whats ur fucking deal
#GGGRRRRRRGRRRR GGRGAGGHHH#despicable me#maxime le mal#felonious gru#gruxime#spread the word.#pre transition maxime if anyone gaffffffff#realising i can just draw shit and not have to explain myself or provide full context. awesome (provides anyway)#non descript minion. i like the idea that they go to school w gru in like shifts each week#maxime has a cokcroach ☝️ on his shoulder#they look so fucking stupid next to each other i cant get them to look normal. sorry gru ur built so weird#i need to do more kinda doodly stuff and not alwayssss full pieces#this uniform is pretty cute btw but strange that the trousers and skirt colours r different?#i mean actually. my school did that at one point but its still odd to me#btwwwwww design notes.#was torn abt giving gru his scarf but i thought it wld clash too much. for me i feel the tie serves the same purpose#looking at the One scene we see the uniform it seems the dress code is… not soooo tight? but this is also 30/40 yrs prior soooo idk#(also yeah debatably the uniform wld have been different. but fuckkkk that shit)#forrrrr maxime i like to think his glasses r like actually prescription but he uses tinted ones bc 1. he saw nefario once and was like#‘FUCKKK THATS KINDA CRAZY COOL’ and stole the idea#and also 2. he is light sensitiveeeeeee. :3#gloves r again mostly cus of sensory issues but also this kinda body dysmorphia thing he has going on#samew the socks.#was considering tights buttttt i didnt see any of the students wearing them and also booooo tights suck. so just knee length socks#so he can get around dress code andddd still cover up more#plusssss it lets him not have to shave his legs :T#shoes i didnt see any pattern i assume u can just wear whatever lollll#i give him a hairclip toooooo just cus theyre cute. and put some greeeeen in itttt#btw drew the minion w the gay flag then realised it wldnt make sense w maxime being pre transition but#i think its funnier to imply the minion just sees right thru him immediately
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this is so so funny. u cant possibly b that stupid
#slw mad bc hes the transandrophobia truther zionist w the victim complex innit#calling me transphobic while wishing death on a trans guy over a joke post 🤔🤔#that one kid in the notes being like 'oh so im not REALLY trans bc im a minor living in an abusive family and cant transition?'#i never said ur not trans but u might just b illiterate
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TAG DER DEUTSCHEN EINHEIT!!!!!!! only day of the year where i become patriotic for dear ludwig beilschmidt SIGHHHH
#hetalia#germany hetalia#ludwig beilschmidt#italy#feliciano vargas#congrats on his successful transition#(mind the moustache)#aph#fanart#i cant stop drawing germany with italy on oct 3rd#even though he should be standing here with prussia#but i love gerita too much😝😝#gerita
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cringe is dead, look at my resi self insert
#aka chris mid transition#anyways i cant really draw guns soo just to specify#this is a sniper rifle#not particular model cause who cares#mainly off of vibes more so than anything else#art#fanart#resident evil#self insert#illustration
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TRULY A THEATER GIRL IN HIS HEART FOREVER
#HELP im transitioning to CSP from Sai and i cant find a good rendering brushhhhh#my art#munkustrap#cats the musical#cats musical#cats 1998#munkustrap youre so beatufiul i love you so much king#jellicle cat#meow meow meow
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No but can we talk about the transition?
Tubbo saying he wants to put this chapter of his life to rest because he has to think about his daughter and what she deserves. The fact that he goes from the funeral of the one person he thought cared, the person he called his best friend and dreamed about what could be with, the person he felt actually listened to him,. The fact that he now feels that he has no one, the one person he thought he did have is gone forever.
Tubbo holding in tears and putting a smile on his face to go and wake up his daughter who he hopes will never feel how he does.
#I cant stop thinking about what that transition means in lore#fuuuuccckkkkk#tubbo#qsmp#qsmp tubbo#qsmp sunny#qsmp fred#frubbo
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thinking about. transfems. and trans girls. and how cool they are.. literally if you're a tgirl or girl-adjacent transgender person i want you to know that. you are so wonderful and beautiful and kind and talented.. we need you on this site now more than ever, and im so sorry about literally everything that's happened here. none of you deserve to be treated like this; you deserve so much better, and i'm sincerely hoping that other people (especially people with power to instate significant change that affects a lot of people) will understand this and work towards making this a safer platform for all of you. please don't let anything that's happening right now on this literal hellsite make you think that you're any less than amazing; i love all of you so so so much <333 please stay safe out there!!!
#not fandom#let's get serious#transgender#trans#trans positivity#trans rights are human rights#transfem#trans girl#trans women#trans pride#literally whenever i find something new that i love so so much and i look at who made it#its always a trans girl. always#how are you all so awesome at literally everything#also this includes nonbinary transfems!!! that should go without saying#everyone whos transgender and feminine in any way at all. i love you so so so much <333 forever and always#fuck photomatt this will always be the trans people website#on that note seeing so many people posting transition pics in light of this incident is. really inspiring to me#it gives me hope that someday i'll look the way i want to as well#just... i love trans girls. it cant be put into words how much hope you all give me just from existing and surviving#please keep doing it. please keep existing and surviving#its so so so important that you live#please remember that#sorry if this post is kind of incoherent my brain is. mush. because im thinking about how cool trans girls are#scary crane rambles
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lmao sorry to everyone in my inbox, this month has been a mess and I'm just not really around enough for it. someone in my immediate family got a new cancer diagnosis, my not-art job got restructured because management is a joke and it's been.... not great, to be honest! to top it off, my mom's cousin just died because the major hospital didn't have enough beds open for the provincial hospital to transfer him. etc etc etc.
anyway. it's been a lot and I'm Very Tired Of Things Happening 🙃
#tbd later#SHDSSHSH im so behind on emails and emails take precedent over my inbox but i WILL get around to my inbox at some point#its also annoying (in general) that the healthcare system in america is in such shambles that i can't book an appointment#with any doctor in public transit distance because everyone's maxxed out like okay! i cant afford private health insurance so i guess#we'll just figure things out ourselves. I GUESS#AND because of how freelancer taxes work i still havent saved up quite enough for a new laptop and im running out of space on my phone for#books aughghghghghgh (books = art&history related research etc. it's for work. my current set up is very goofy)
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