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i feel like dear john by taylor swift gives kevin vibes
its because riko is an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry never impressed by kevin acing his tests all the boys that youve run dry have tired lifeless eyes cause youve burnt them OOUUTTTTTT!!!!!
but yeah i agree :-) [i took your matches before fire could catch me / so don’t look now] is very kevriko
#dear john hits way too close to home i will never in my life discuss kevin days weird age trauma in public#OR SOBER FOR THAT MATTER#asks#kevin&riko#kevin#speak now in general is just a very kevin album i think#she was at the peak of her eighteen year old insanity chasing older men around with guns#it just fits really#i wish i couldve met 18 year old kevin…. what a baby
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something something katsuki can't keep his hands off you when he's had a little too much to drink (see: denks the worst at-home bartender in the world, believes a shot of vodka really means four).
it starts off innocently enough, gathered in eijiro's living room, when he cracks a foul-mouthed joke and you double over into side with laughter. the heat starts to creep up his neck, but it's easy to blame it on the alcohol. he nudges you back playfully, a grin quirking at the corner of his lips.
two more shots of whatever vile concoction denki mixed up and he's melting into the couch. he's sitting on one end, a little squished with how mina, eijiro, hanta, and denki are piled on top of each other - chatting away, drinking, and desperately trying not to make eye contact with the wasted blond. katsuki's got you perched all pretty in his lap because "there isn't any room left to sit." a convenient excuse.
you're flushed and trying to keep up with mina's story and you're having a great time with your friends but katsuki's hands are looping casually around your waist and pulling you closer to him and he's leaning a little on you for support and you feel a zing speed down your spine as his lips brush against your arm. an accident.
his head's a little fuzzy, but katsuki's practically melting with the alcohol swimming through his veins. and you're so soft it's making everything even fuzzier. before he even finishes that thought he's testing out the plush of your waist, your thighs, pinching a little at the small of your back, and back down to your thighs. you squirm in his hold, and he retaliates with a soft grunt and by biting what he could reach.
the spit on your arm is more uncomfortable than the rather tame bite he gives you. you can see his eyes wobble, flitting to different parts of your face. "hol' s'till," he garbles and your heart leaps into your throat. you can feel four sets of eyes boring into you both, but you can't break away from katsuki's heavy, lidded, lovesick gaze.
#no idea where that came from#the holy spirit took hold of me#maybe i'm just touch starved cries#i think katsuki doesn't drink often so his tolerance is piss shit#and he already struggles to keep his emotions at bay when it comes to you sober. even worse when drunk#and i like to think this is early enough your friendship / crush that the physical barrier has not yet been breached or#has just recently been breached#he wants to touch you so bad! not even sexually (although he does) it's just a matter of a new level of intimacy#that drives him wild and spills over when drunk in a single-minded way#ok goodnight#bun.writes#char.katsuki#suggestive ?#bakugo x reader#bakugo katuski x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#katsuki x reader#bakugou x reader#bakugo headcanons#bakugou headcanons
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drank too much
[ID: Digital Art of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. Vash’s body is turned slightly away from the viewer as he holds a staggering Wolfwood by his shoulder. He has one foot ahead of the other, the foot in the back used to stabilize himself from tipping over. Wolfwood is tethering into Vash, his weight pressed into him with his arms wrapped around Vash’s waist and his face is hidden away as he leans against Vash’s shoulder. Vash’s expression can be seen, his eyes wide and mouth tight-lipped, and his face is flushed red. A speech bubble comes out from Wolfwood, saying a drawled “Spikeyyy...”. The background are desaturated pastels of blue and green, showing night time, as they stand in the middle of an empty street that is also lit by the moon not depicted. Yellow light is seen coming from the inside of a saloon. End ID]
#vashwood#Vash the Stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#when i think of who handles their alcohol best -- it's going to be vash naturally. considering his age but also his plant biology?#idk how his plant biology comes into things but it feels like it makes sense... and helps build his tolerance... also he's canonically#a bit of an alcoholic i think... one of his vices. and im sure ww drinks but his go-to comfort is through smoking not drinking#slight detour but the barkeeper was also like i'm the angel that provides drinks for these troubled souls. all i could think of is#a parallel from ww to vash... vash going thru this hell on his own during that point in the chapter and ww is the angel who will give him#his space and then also save him later. But anyway. that's a completely different topic. as a result of ww Not being much of a drinker#i feel like he'd be clingy... a LOT less verbal but more physically affectionate#i feel like he'd be able to speak as he normally does but when he wants to ask for something he'd just reduce it down to names#spikey needle noggin while tugging on vash's arm. vash explodes immediately#this is also very self indulgent if u cant tell.#i was just thinking that ww while sober is a hard cage to crack through no matter how close vw gets to one another.#while ww can end up being emotionally vulnerable -- has to at some point within their relationship -- he still just has tons of trouble#navigating his own personal wants.#ruporas art
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can’t remember the last time i had something to look forward to. can’t remember the last time i actively enjoyed anything
#at least not sober#don’t think it matters that much i think most people aren’t happy#im just tired of feeling like this
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just wanna thank the universe for tonight's sobriety. i feel like a person again. i'm a person with trauma, psychosis, depression, anxiety, chronic pain & fatigue... but i'm still a person. i'm still a person and i don't need to drink and drug away my life, my soul. whether i relapse again or not doesn't change that.
my future self could try all they want to erase my humanity, in a desperate attempt to see my ego as the sole cumulation of all i am... but that will always be wrong. that will always be sickly, deadly, and unnecessary suffering. that will always be far less than i deserve.
i am sober tonight. i hope i'm sober a minute from now, an hour from now, a day from now. i hope i feel that way every day i have left on this earth, however many or little that is. i'm a person. a whole world exists inside me and for tonight, in this moment, that world gets to simply be. exactly as it exists right now, pain and hardship and all.
and it's beautiful. hold on, pain ends. h.o.p.e. i love you all.
#julian rants#softspoonie#addiction recovery#recovery#good things#hopepunk#hopecore#mental health matters#sobriety#sober#addiction#addict positivity#addiction positivity#mental health positivity#mentally ill#trauma#ptsd#psychosis#anxiety#depression#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#spoonie
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r u chill w non transitioning ppl?
Why wouldn't I be? At one point, every trans person who is transitioning was once someone who wasn't (whether or not that was a choice or their need is a separate discussion).
Hatred of any kind of trans person is not a Righteous or Good Thing - every single trans person has their place, their entitlement to safety, community, and respect of who they are
#ask#anon#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#when i was a kid i cared way more about Earning a spot - about every trans person Proving ourselves#and then i grew up in many ways and experienced many unfortunate things - as a kid who couldn't transition nonetheless#that quickly sobered me to the reality that it doesn't matter what you do or don't do as a trans person#divided we fall. you canNOT give into the divide and conquer strategy - you will NEVER survive#the second you decide that some trans people are worth discarding entirely is the second you set a precedent#and that precedent will eventually choke you. that precedent WILL exclude you eventually#i think a lot of people end up in the place of You Have To Earn Your Spot because they think it will save them...#...those ridged requirements tell you what you need to do to Earn Being Alive...#...if there is no goal where you have earned unconditional respect and security what is there to do?#what would the point be? why should trans people even bother if we aren't guaranteed safety over all?#that misses the true foundation for so many of those requirements is control - not safety or respect#as i have transitioned medically i've learned so much about what the point is#in so many ways i have had really negative experiences because of transitioning - but the joy always outweighs the pain#that joy is what made it worth it
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Trauma is a wound
Let's talk about trauma. talk about it in a way that honors the person who has been wounded. talk about it without being condescending or dismissive. talk about without making disgusted or shocked facial expressions, further shaming the wounded person. talk about it with empathy and compassion. talk about it without guilt-tripping the survivor.
Trauma is something that happens inside of you as a result of what happened to you.
There is no set standard for healing. There is no timeline to be followed. There is no expectation of linear progression toward healing.
Treatment is not the same as healing. Healing doesn't happen without remediation. Remediation doesn't happen without change. Change doesn't happen without affirmative action. Action doesn't happen without making decisions. Decisions don't happen without discussion. Discussion doesn't happen unless you can talk about it. So, let's talk about it.
#trauma#trauma recovery#personal development#mental health matters#mental health support#therapy#stress#psychology#reflect#actually mentally ill#mental illness#mental health#relationships#real talk#talk to me#talk#living with cptsd#actually cptsd#cptsd recovery#just cptsd things#complex ptsd#ptsd recovery#ptsd#actually ptsd#recovery#sober#soberlife#sober living#clean and sober#sobriety
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Literally, I think I'll be genuinely angry if we go some huge amount of time without ever seeing Yaz again. LIKE I CANT GET OVER: There is a Woman out there, who loves you so much. Sometimes to her own detriment, but God is she truly in love with you. You, The Doctor, are in love with this woman. You wished for forever with this woman. You regreted not giving voice to how much you love her so much, that it almost fucking fixes you're next incarnation. You! The Doctor!! have a whole lifetime of therapy, or whatever you quantify as that idk, in part to work on that whole "so emotionally repressive, its killing the vibes in the next galaxy over" and are back and traveling and whatnot. AND THAT WOMAN IS STILL OUT THERE!! If I were you, The Doctor, I would go tell that wonderful woman who loved me and stood by me when I was actively breaking her heart and pushing her away that I love her. That even if those emotions have changed in the lifetime I've been away, That there was a time that I loved her like she loved me. That I carry that love we shared still and what has become of it with me.
#doctor who#thasmin#the doctor#yasmin khan#char.txt#in my imagination the doctor/yaz reunion actually happens with 15 but that's because i love ncuti most#i wish I could say this is a product of some kind inebriation but the truth is im stone cold sober#i just get really impassioned abt shit that doesnt matter past midnight#anyway if i was a companion of the doctor and i heard about them and yaz and learned that shes not even dead and he said nothing to her#I'd bludgeon them until they regenerate into someone less stupid (i have a taste for violence that my therapist should hear abt)
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wild that "one night at Rosie's" was the first time Mulcahy had been to Rosie's bar. This means that even though everyone was Kung fu fighting, and the whole place got destroyed, Mulcahy still had a really good time and decided to go back again in "no laughing matter"
#Dudes got taste ill give him that#Mash#mash 4077#father francis mulcahy#no laughing matter#One night at Rosie's#I'm not sober but I am having fun
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When people say that they don’t want to be around addicts, they don’t mean recovered /ex- addicts - they mean active addicts or “dry drunks” who haven’t changed their behavior and are still selfish and manipulative and playing the victim. Active addicts hurt everyone around them. If you’re a recovered alcoholic people aren’t talking about you.
"still selfish and manipulative and playing the victim".... you are aware that addicts, even addicts who are not in recovery, are complex human beings with a broad range of characteristics and behaviours, yeah? the diagnostic criteria for being an addict is not "selfish and manipulative cunt"
I never said that anyone has to be friends with an addict, and it is never morally wrong to cut off someone who is being shitty to you. people can have their boundaries and that's fine. but when you say that you don't want to be around addicts, you are making a fuckton of assumptions about what an addict is. and you know what? I don't want to be friends with someone like that. I don't want to be excluded from the category of "addict" so that people like you can still feel okay about demonising addiction. they're talking about me because I am an addict and always will be, and I stand in solidarity with my fellow addicts. peace and love
#not that it matters but I'm literally 16 days sober. some might call that 'active addiction'#personally all my addiction is active even when I'm sober because I am actively participating in being a recovering alcoholic#anyway. this is the only one of these fucked up asks I'm answering (I've received a few)#this is all that needs to be said on the matter as far as I'm concerned#asks#addiction#this is okay to reblog btw. I don't care who sees this#just. christ alive. christ. alive.
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Some context and clarification.
#kendrick lamar#mr. morale & the big steppers#mother i sober#this has some Heavy subject matter proceed with caution#Spotify
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you know what I think would be really funny?
Truth or dare or something similar with pre-relationship codywan.
#i imagine it as a crack fic scenario but treated seriously#maybe after they won the war everyone goes into a club or something and gets drunk#some people more than others but the thing is it doesn't even really matter that Obi-Wan only has 2 glasses and Cody only sips on his#while Anakin has 4 and Rex refuses to say how many he's had#coz at the end of the day all of them are equally fucked#they didn't pay attention to the kind of bar they ventured into in their victory bliss and so#they didn't pay attention to the kinds of drinks being served (very unjedi like i know...or is it? im eyeing the Hondo episode)#long story short their drinks were spiked with some fancy syrup that makes them unexpectedly truthful and they don't realise this#not until they're sober enough again to realise what kind of questions they've been answering#codywan
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🎶 they tried to make me go to rehab and i said PLEASE PLEASE HOLY FUCK I FEEL SO BAD WILL NOBODY HELP ME I CANT STOP WHY DOESNT ANYBODY NOTICE HOW BAD IT IS PLEASE HELP
#IM SUCH A LIGHTWEIGJT NOW AND I FEEL SO STUPID I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IM FINE I CAN HANDLE IT WHAT'S ONE BEER YOU CAN DO IT YOU LIKE BEER#AND I HAVENT HAD WATER OR EATEN ALL DAY AND IM LIKE WHEEEE I KEPT MY TAB OPEN (DUMBASS) ORDER A SECONS#even a second is too much#i cant stop#like actually i dont know what to do bc i know even if i went to rehab WHICH I CANT AFFORD AND NONE OF MY FAMILY WILL HELP i just would#return to the same shit bc no matter how sober i get i cant stop bc that's how fucking addiction works#and im too scared to tell anyone i actually need help#the people who know i need help are just judging me and watching me fall into this fucking pit#i dont know what to do#im just gonna pass out drunk now#i hate feeling like this it's so fucking humiliating#i dont even like it#and im admitting defeat to WHAT? A LITTLE GLASS OF JUICE? YOURE KIDDING ME#prolific linguistics researcher and author cant stop.. why do we always treat academics like we're the pinnacle of society#im fucking awful man im a schizophrenic with an addiction problem#but im so much more than that! anyone who knows me knows that! but i cant stop#i want to stop#and im trying and then every few months I think ive tried enough and i expect it to go away but that's how the cravings trick you#fuck this man#drugs tw#sobriety update#lessons of the hand and the mouth
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THANK YOU Only Friends for saying that trying to quit for someone or something other than yourself is fine. The addictologist didn't even question it and I might have shed a little tear.
I've seen many people say that Ray had to want it for himself, much like Sand stated, and I get that. I get what you mean. Ideally, that's what would happen. But the situation isn't ideal and, with his self esteem currently being a tripping hazard in hell, Ray can't do that. He can do it for Sand though.
And that's fine too. What matters right now is that he quits drinking. Doing it for Sand puts his recovery on shaky grounds, but shaky grounds is better than sinking lower and lower. As he drinks less, and addresses his issues and trauma and doubts, he might grow strong enough to stay sober for himself. Doing it for Sand is a good enough start, a huge step forward. He could say he wants to quit because he keeps spilling beer on his favorite Teddy bear and I wouldn't care. He could do it for Britney Spears. He could stop drinking for a rock. Whatever. What matters is the first step taken.
It kind of reminds me of a very bad depression I had. As in really, really bad. I couldn't do anything. I didn't even want to do things anymore. What kept me from letting myself rot wasn't self love. Hell, I did it for my dog and for a book -yup, a book. I had been waiting for it to be released for almost a year at that point, so why not focus on that ? A couple months and the book would be out. I kept taking my meds in the meantime, and the depressive episode reached its end eventually. Self love and dreams were beyond reach, but my dog and a book weren't.
So hell yeah, Ray ! Quit for Sand, do it, and then you can keep moving forward. GO RAY GO
#what matters is to start#that's the only way you can go forward#I don't care what keeps you alive or safe or sober at your darkest hours#what matters is that you stick to it#you can heal from there#but I promise y'all it's okay not to do things for yourself at first#it comes bit by bit as you heal#your reasons are valid fuck anyone who says otherwise#only friends the series#only friends#tw suicide mention#tw alcoholism#tw alcohol
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Aight so if my f/o dies, no he didn't even though he did. Because he didn't though <3 he's safe with me forever
#he don't have my PERMISSION!! to die#hoping my ass remembers this when I'm sober or w/e#he is safe and happy with me forever no matter WHAT his creator says idc. FOREVER#also i am a proshipper so if this bothers you block me right now because i do not believe in harassing people over literal works of fiction#me and him are happy raising our little family together in peace#proship selfship#antis dni#edit: i'm glad this post i made while drunk and in my feelings resonates with a lot of you and your own f/os lmao#{ship: life eternal ❤️🐀💀🦇}#tagged for the f/o i wrote it about ✌️#{crowsdove original posts}
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anyone else seeing some distasteful kurt busch dwi takes or is it just me
#like don't get me wrong... it's bad. he had a LOT in his system and he shouldn't have been driving#but oh my god...#calling him disgusting?#when (if you take like 5 minutes to look) a lot of his fans seem to think he might have a drinking problem...?#I don't know anything about the guy honestly. he could be the worst person in nascar or a literal saint. it doesn't matter#I just think it's weird for people to hop on their soap boxes to publicly decry him worthless for this#like you don't have to like him to not be condescending to addicts??#holy shittt#it's truly awful#and it's coming from a LOT of ''left leaning'' accounts I follow too. sad.#like sure you want to help alcoholics/addicts but do you show compassion.#instead of ''this is disgusting I am repulsed by [man I don't know]'s actions''#how about you try ''wow this is disappointing but I really hope he seeks help for both the community and his sake''#otherwise your comments are just performative bullshit#addicts shouldn't have to read your garbage and shame themselves into healing.#cause yknow that doesn't always fucking work. sometimes it makes them want to harm themselves MORE.#because if they're already so terrible how can they live sober/clean?!#so maybe shut the fuck up.#anyway. you can socially condemn things without trying to humiliate addicts and potential addicts who are ultimately#victims of their condition.#sincerely. the son and grandson of several addicts.#P.S. THIS POST IS NOT SAYING ADDICTS ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR ACTIONS. NOWHERE DO I SAY THAT.#ok bye
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