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bloodied-dagger · 15 days ago

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1-70 then

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yeah, sure. Although my dad’s a transphobe and they’re both Trump supporters who eat whatever fox n Facebook (respectively) serve them so. I’d say it’s more mediocre

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? no idea

03: Do you regret anything? yeah a shit ton of… well, shit

04: Are you insecure? Yes, definitely

05: What is your relationship status? single taken, surprisingly

06: How do you want to die? painlessly

07: What did you last eat? String cheese

08: Played any sports? marching band currently (it’s a sport imo) and I used to play baseball and soccer as a tiny child

09: Do you bite your nails? yea

10: When was your last physical fight? never got in one

11: Do you like someone? yea

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? don’t think so

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? hate’s a bit of a strong word, isn’t it?

14: Do you miss someone? used to definitely still do

15: Have any pets? my dog, who Tommy says “looks like she skipped leg day and is depressed about it”

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? Not Good™ Alright, although these old responses are kinda bumming me out. I suppose that life, rat

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? wouldn’t you like to know, weather boy

18: Are you scared of spiders? not really, but I’m not the most fond of them

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? yes. All the yes. So much yes

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? once again, wouldn’t you like to know?

21: What are your plans for this weekend? rest, and probably feel bad that I’m not cleaning play dnd with some friends. If anything major happens btw, that’s why.

22: Do you want to have kids? How many? No, fuck that

23: Do you have piercings? How many? none

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? Uh, band technically. Got a 115% in it

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? from like, a long time ago? Not really. Within the past year tho? Yea

26: What are you craving right now? Whole lotta nothing

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yes technically I think

28: Have you ever been cheated on? nope

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? N/A nope

30: What’s irritating you right now? nothing and I hope to keep it that way the original formatting of these 70 questions (why is it so small?)

31: Does somebody love you? I certainly hope so

32: What is your favourite color? Blue

33: Do you have trust issues? uhhhhhhhh maybe

34: Who/what was your last dream about? Great question

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? uhhhhhhhh probably my parents when I was like 9 or something

36: Do you give out second chances too easily? maybe?

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? forget

38: Is this year the best year of your life? no clue

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 16

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? yeah actually

51: Favourite food? Wings

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Not really

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? your mom

54: Is cheating ever okay? if they cheated first then I see not problem with cheating back. But honestly I would just end the relationship, revenge is unnecessary

55: Are you mean? yes, I think

56: How many people have you fist fought? none

57: Do you believe in true love? like, pre destined? Nah

58: Favourite weather? rain and thunder

59: Do you like the snow? not really

60: Do you wanna get married? not sure really

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? My brain would malfunction /pos I think if my girlfriend called me that. But to be completely honest I don’t know if I’d actually enjoy being called that on a regular basis

62: What makes you happy? That’s a long and short list I don’t feel like typing

63: Would you change your name? Already have, but not legally

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? ohhhhhhh yeah

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? So funny thing about that… yeah turns out she did like me. I liked her so uh yeah now we’re dating

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? yup

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My teacher

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? dunno. Probably Kyndyr

69: Do you believe in soulmates? nope

70: Is there anyone you would die for? plenty

#I originally started filling this out a while ago while I wasn’t feeling good #Now I feel pretty good #So anything crossed out is an old answer that’s no longer true #clearing out the drafts

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bacchuschucklefuck · 4 months ago

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typical tavern scene

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy #fabian seacaster #riz gukgak #adaine abernant #kristen applebees #figueroth faeth #gorgug thistlespring #got my version of this in lol. I feel like this is mandatory if u draw fh art #trying to remember whats on the menu at a typical swensen's. its been years since I last was at one #tho I am so absolutely unfamiliar with like elmville level of town scenery. just immediately drew from my own experience lmao #I used to think malls are the same everywhere.... but then I hear from my US friends and. wow they sure are not #mm. good day to reminisce a little bit. but I am now sleepy #not a lot to say abt this I think most of this is pretty straightforward. I did use this to test out some overlays in SAI2 #that I never really touched. the talisman on fig's guitar case takes from the house protection talisman you'd put on the front door #and also I think kristen slipping while fully sat down is very funny and special. she means so much to me #okay. alright. I should really go to sleep. and tomorrow I should take my dang walk... see the sun #have a good night lads! enjoy ice cream

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hinamie · 5 months ago

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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk megumi #megumi #looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops #i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear #i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle #fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain #god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow #lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear #had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it #the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes #its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair #nothing else feels Right #but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it #i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment #smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1 #his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see

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bubbarnes · 2 months ago

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“... I can remember being a kid myself and going to school and wondering whether I was going to make it or, you know, anyone was going to care.”

#no leave me alone i am not feeling like crying #he's so pretty and so good and he's so good with words unlike me #because right now i am gonna be rambling #oh god that... and then his reaction? i can't deal with this right nowww #sebastian stan #sebastianstanedit #sebstanedit #fysebastianstan #sstanedit #stansclan #gbbb

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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering.#it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now...#... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy.#(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

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stinkypeanutbutter · 10 months ago

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He eepy . .

But seriously , he’s a heavy napper

someone help her

pls

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amphibianaday · 2 months ago

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day 1821 - half a decade!

redraw of day 1, 364, and 1000, but with a twist - now it's also my frogsona :D

for now i'll be taking a (maybe permanent) break for at least the rest of the year! see you in 2025!

previous versions for comparison below!

#amphibian #frog #frogsona #self #actaully i used a toad for reference i like their shape most #so i guess my frogsona is technically a toad (which is just a more specific frog but. you know)#also i cannot stress enough everyone has been so kind throughout the years it's been a pleasure to know my art has brightened your days :)#ok one funny thing is #i've been looking through the old art reminiscing. seeeing if i can pick a favorite per 100 days (the art is sorted in folders of 100 each)#and every single folder i look through i can't pick a favorite because i like so many of them #and every tsingle folder i think to myself 'oh that was a good 100 days there's lots of great ones'#even the earliest days where my anatomy was pretty terrible and my style was so different from what i like now. it's sitll great #it feels really great to be able to look back at my art and think that :)#and my favorites range from ones that are technically skilled to just cute or funny ideas #i think it's a good reminder to myself that art doesn't have to be perfect to be good :)#another important thing im realizing is a majority of my favorites are the ones that tell a story or joke in some way #a scene and/or background do SO MUCH for my own enjoyment of my art #even just some shapes and color in the background elevate it imo

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dennisboobs · 19 days ago

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:) i certainly have no issue dressing in drag :)

^guy who has no issue dressing in drag btw

glenn said that dennis' drag name is victoria von hemen btw

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#glenn howerton #guy who should get to dress in drag #im just. ill never be over the fact that glenn wrote Two episodes in season 3 that involve dennis doing drag #i know he doesn't really want to write for the show but there's something so special abt how early sunny was an actor's sandbox #esp hearing glenn talk abt how den is like. an outlet for him and a way to play around with shit he would never do for one reason or anothe #my point being that i think its been a while since he was able to utilize dennis again in that way #but 16 was a definite change. especially with dtamhd it feels like dennis is becoming more glenn again. like he was in the early days #theres a pretty good stretch of the show once it got into the double digits that feels like den was. co-opted.#but like i wonder how it feels to explore sexuality and gender via your character #it must be similar to doing that through fandom and OCs but there's a whole other layer to it here #esp when its not Just being presented as comedic as it was in past seasons. like dennis is Actually queer and this is a normal plot point #its not the punchline like den's femininity often is its literally just part of what makes him able to help mac and dee #id argue we've gotten this in the form of. dennis doing dee's makeup and shit. but #anyway. glenn. now that you have two of your former writing assistants in that writers room i hope you get to do drag again 💀#its been 16 years. show us the new and improved victoria.#i honestly can't imagine pitching something like that to a room of people Without some sort of comedic twist but #man.#ada speaks #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #rcg #i won't ever forget the way he lit up talking abt queer dennis jhksvfjhksvdfgjhkds #love u king...... i hope you get something in s17 that you Certainly Don't Mind

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reimeichan · 10 months ago

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Signs of having DID that I ignored (note that these are not exclusively signs of DID but they were for me):

I don't have amnesia, that's just short term memory loss because I have ADHD!

I actually have a very good memory, I'm great at memorizing things (what do you mean that's not the same thing)

sure it may seem like my mood changes drastically but I've read online that's common in people with ADHD! it's hard for us to regulate our emotions!

so what if I have different preferences from time to time? that's normal right? like when your mood changes you may prefer different foods? what do you mean that's not the same as going from "I hate spicy foods" one day to "omg I LOVE spicy foods!" the next?

yeah okay I tend to space out in the middle of conversations then come back to and need you to remind me what you said for the past 10 seconds or so. that's just my ADHD inattentiveness. what do you mean that I only do this when stressed. what do you mean that's a form of dissociation.

speaking of dissociation, sure sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself say and do things without my own input but that's just because I was tired/stressed out

yeah sometimes I go on autopilot. my autopilot seems to have its own agenda sometimes though. weird.

sure I changed usernames a *few* times but isn't that pretty common? yeah I also wanted to change how I presented online and also my pronouns and stuff but again isn't it common for people to want to start over sometimes?

*making multiple accounts to play the same game because I play the game differently on different accounts and don't want to mess things up on one account*

oh yes, I'm genderfluid! I say that because my gender absolutely changes from moment to moment and sure it seems kinda tied to other aspects of myself like color preferences and energy levels and personality traits but I'm pretty sure that's just par for the course with genderfluidity?

"you're so different when you're around your parents vs when you're at school/work vs when you're hanging out with friends!" yeah that's called being a complex person we all have different masks we wear in different social situations and I'm no different even if it seems more extreme for me

"how was school/work/the hang-out/going to visit your parents?" I don't know I'm tired and have a giant headache and can't remember

"you said this to me the other day and it made me feel <x>" what????? I literally have no memory of this and that's so incredibly out of character for me wtf I would never do that I was probably just really stressed out and tired and had no filter on.

#did #dissociative identity disorder #actually did #actuallydid #did osdd #osddid #cdd #there's like. so much more but I have therapy right now and honestly this is a pretty good list #by green #by gray #by purple #putting this here in case other people may see this and relate and not feel as alone in their own journeys #we're going through a denial spike rn so it was helpful for us to write some of this stuff down

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serpentface · 1 month ago

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Scenes from The Baby Wars Part One: The First One

[Hibrides never wanted to be a mother (though the concept of childbearing has always occurred to her as 'inevitable and necessary'), underwent very severe post-partum depression, never really bonded with the infant, and was extremely uncomfortable with nursing her (they had a wet nurse who covered most of it).

Brakul ended up being the Designated Housewife throughout Erubi's infancy and was effectively the only member of the household providing parental care, was Extremely bitter with Hibrides for not really wanting anything to do with her daughter (among other things), and was raised in a context where fathers allowing their infants to comfort nurse on them is a standard practice (which is not widely conceptualized as a Thing men can do in the Wardi cultural sphere and comes off as bizarre to the rest of his household).

These combined factors lead to tense standoffs where he looms behind Hibrides trying to guilt her into Feeding The GodDamn Baby while looking, from her perspective, like he's trying his absolute hardest to breastfeed.]

#(Not treating men comfort nursing as a joke here btw I think it's fucking absurd that people get freaked out about it #Completely normal thing to do. Not weird or gross.)#Hibrides bonded with both of her children more when they got older and started walking and talking and being unavoidable but #she's never felt like a mother ''''should'''' and feels a heavy background layer of Gnawing Guilt about it #She was very close with her own mother (who had a pretty good marriage) so a lot of the advice she got was like #that these things take time and patience and a lot of pain but Someday she'll settle in and be happy with her husband and kids and etc #And now she's like 'well I no longer feel like I'm going to fucking hurl with terror when I notice my features in my daughter's faces.#And my husband and I sometimes go on hunting trips alone where we verbally abuse each other in ways that Almost come #full circle into being friendly banter. Is this it. Is this how it's supposed to be. Have I Fucking Made it.'

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skrrtscree · 5 months ago

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burn my dread 💀💙

[redraw of sorts of official art, the og under the cut]

#persona 3 #persona #p3 #makoto yuki #minato arisato #persona 3 protagonist #yukari takeba #junpei iori #p3 thanatos #thanatos #sort of #persona 3 art #persona fanart #persona 3 fanart #HAPPY REALLY LATE ANNIVERSARY P3 #originally i didn't plan on drawing anything but i changed my mind #p3 is just really important to me so it felt wrong not to celebrate it some way #this took longer than i thought though #even looking at it now perspective feels a bit off #i did take some libertys and draw thanatos is his death form instead of his persona one #i thought it would look cool and would be easier (not rlly)#i was also debating putting them in their reload equipment but this is the og games anniversary so i opted not to #i also tried out lineless and i think it looks pretty good #all of this to say im tired #and my files crashed when i was almost done which was annoying #ok gn! i promise ill draw more i already have something else cooking!#minnidraws #persona 3 fes #p3 fes

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koiifsh · 10 months ago

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i found a hatching brush finally yaaaaayyy also i turn 15 tomorrow

#digital art #ibispaint #fanart #genshin impact #genshin venti #venti #i constantly worry about not being “good enough” for my age #especially as i get older #now that im 15 i feel like i should've reached all the art goals i previously made #like being better at backgrounds #which you can see i attempted here #im pretty sure this is a universal experience so at least im not alone #sorry for the rant #but i know if i saw an artist that i liked voice their thoughts on this i might have felt better about it myself #so i hope this helps one of u #sending good vibes and peace and love mwaaahhh

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ironunderstands · 8 months ago

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God I love being correct (2.2 leaks incoming!!!)

“Jade saved Aventurine!!!” “Jade helped him out of the kindness of her own heart!!” “Jade is such a mother figure to Aventurine!!”

mmm yeah, definitely yup 100%

Honestly this fucking speaks for itself, and I’m so glad hoyo committed to the evil on her, she’s very compelling and that’s extremely cunty I must give her credit for it, but god do I absolutely despise the people who believe Jade and Aventurine have a healthy relationship, or that she “saved” him out of the kindness of her own heart or something.

To Jade, Aventurine is an investment, nothing more and nothing less, which is why she puts her faith in him, he’s a reliable business opportunity, but that’s not the same as caring about him personally and I really need people to get the difference

If Aventurine hadn’t proved himself useful to her, she would have left him to rot in prison or succumb to his death sentence, this isn’t saving, it’s exploitation.

Jade knows Aventurine couldn’t decline whatever offer she made, and anything is worse than death or slavery, the things he’s trying to escape, so she offers for him to join the IPC to make more money for them. That’s it, that’s all she wants, she doesn’t care about how bad being in the IPC is for Aventurine’s mental health, how he literally took on a suicide mission so he could escape being a stoneheart, how even if she “saved” him, his banner name is literally “gilded imprisonment” and his lightcone “inherently unjust destiny”, so damn she did a real good job at saving him and fixing his life, definitely didn’t just put him in a pair of gilded chains.

Also like can we talk about how weird Jades comment about his eyes were? Like it’s genuinely creepy to me considering Avens eyes are a) one of his biggest insecurities and b) people fetishize them, something which Jade knows and chooses to still comment about. I hate to say it, but I feel like if this was a male Jade saying that to a female Aventurine, yall would never let that slide and Jade would never beat the p3do allegations. Aventurine was likely a teenager/young adult in that scene, and either way there is a visible power dynamic between them (I mean Aven is literally in chains looking up at her), and I don’t think if the situation was flip flopped people would be treating Jade like some kinda hero. If they were the same gender I feel like people would be shipping them though 😭

So, yeah. Being correct feels amazing, pls use your brains and realize that just because one character sounds kinda nice to another, does not mean they actually care about them or are a good person!

#honkai star rail #aventurine #hsr aventurine #hsr jade #penacony #hsr spoilers #hsr leaks #Ah it feels so good to watch the “Jade is mother figure to Aven” truthers lose #Now we have to prepare for the second wave of annoying #That being the “omg don’t end that flop jade”#I hope her kit is absolute dogshit just to limit the size of her annoying ass fans #Ik it will probably be amazing but still #Jade is a pretty amazing villain and I hope her fans don’t keep ruining her for me

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bacchuschucklefuck · 5 months ago

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