#Not. Disaster venting

[mistystarshine]

God... I want to continue my Hazbin fics? I really loved them. But I feel so shitty and anxious about my writing in general, I'm not sure that I'll be able to. Any of them. Which sucks, but. My bigger issue is thst I'm starting to get scared that I won't be able to bring myself to submit any of my original stuff either. Like, submitting a short story I'm not proud of to a publication that I know will reject me is one thing. Making the attempt with something I put love and effort to and discovering that I'm not actually a good writer is another.

[dying-marshmallo]

☆/🪼 ; Water Under the Fridge [Explanation below cut]

☆ This is mostly about rejection sensitivity, the inability to apologize/say what you're thinking and so on, when you know you're in the wrong, and you make one of the people you care about upset. And it feels so much bigger than it is.

[reagi-df]

Nardito sketches

Some twins and some comfort

[likesdoodling]

So after just having finished Chapter 46 of The Harrowing, I had to do something with all the -Feelings- it inspires, which I don't think I can accurately express via writing alone so here goes:

Based on the warnings I had an idea of what I was in for, but impatient as I am I decided to go ahead anyway, and this is my immediate reaction post chapter read. The feelings needed somewhere to go. So we got this!

@chthonion

:D

[netscapenavigator-official]

You know what? On the verge of sounding hypocritical, I’m so fucking tired of people acting like the politicization of Helene and Milton is a bipartisan issue. It’s not.

It was Predominantly Republican police forces that threatened to arrest civilians for rescuing one another.

It was Republican congress members that failed to adequately fund FEMA.

It’s Republican talking heads who are currently villainizing FEMA.

It’s Republican voters who are currently spreading conspiracy theories that Biden is controlling the weather.

This is not a general politics problem. This is not a moral problem. This is not an “ugh, people these days” problem. This is a Republican problem.

Lest we forget that the Biden & Harris administration has worked quickly, efficiently, and as effectively as they’re legally allowed to, every time a disaster hits a Red state. Meanwhile, Trump threatened to withhold FEMA funds from California when they were suffering devastating wildfires because he didn’t like their Democrat governor.

So let’s get it straight: This isn’t a case of American morals going down the toilet. This is yet another case of Republican weirdos being off their rockers and getting away with it by framing it like a bipartisan reaction.

Don’t even try to pretend it isn’t Republicans doing a vast majority of the dehumanization to these survivors. Doing so is not only completely incorrect, but a complete and total disservice to those who would greatly benefit from Republicans shutting the fuck up for once and being normal about a tragic situation.

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

Thinking about padawan Cal being on Coruscant during Fives’ arc and somehow running into him and getting an echo off of something Fives had on him. Then helping him, whether by getting him in contact with Quinlan somehow (I think the council would be more likely to believe him over a child, even if they could feel Cal wasn’t lying)

Or in a disaster lineage Cal AU going “I’m gonna call my dads, no offense (full offense) to Anakin, but I think he likes the Chancellor too much to think rationally about this.” and then calling Cody and Obi-Wan, and Palpatine’s plot is uncovered and everything is OKAY and Fives is OKAY and nothing bad ever happens again.

[tuxedodragon-art]

[heartnosekid]

so it turns out the damage done to my state is rivaling hurricane katrina. it is extremely sobering to see the absolute destruction that has come upon my home. i am so thankful we are safe, when there are so many that have lost their lives or are displaced or missing.

if you want, please do look up the damage done to western NC to get an idea of what we are going through here. i cannot believe some of the pictures from the places i have been frequenting my entire life. buildings and houses are just gone. roads and natural beauties are destroyed. water is contaminated everywhere. gas is scarce, but is becoming more available. power is also scarce, but is also becoming more available.

i just. i am devastated. i am reeling. my heart aches so deeply for the families around here that have lost loved ones, their homes, their belongings, their animals. it is heartbreaking. i have nothing else i can say. i just needed to say it.

[fromkenari]

I know some of y'all are devastated about Buck and Tommy breaking up. Still, Tim, Oliver, and Lou have all been harping on it being "fresh and new" since they started talking about the season, which is why I have been holding off on throwing it all down for the ship because, yes, I DID want a place to talk about whatever was going on between them without getting bashed for it. It took me a WHILE to find that, and I don't plan to just leave those spaces because it ended.

Still, this relationship only existed for 13 episodes and was shown in less than half of those episodes. I didn't even understand why and how they were in a relationship until 8x05. I was prepared for that dinner to be their one- or two-month anniversary, not SIX, with the way Tim, Oliver, and Lou have played it in interviews, insisting they're still in the "honeymoon phase."

Six months is a long fucking time for a "honeymoon phase," which is why that reveal threw me so hard at the beginning of the episode. And for how long have we been saying Abby's ex was named Tommy since he showed up and kissed Buck? And then that's not even the reason they broke up. They had Josh give Buck a pep talk before they broke up. This episode was a shitshow, yes, but are you honestly really that surprised they had another Buck love interest do him dirty? And come to find out that Oliver wants Buck to get dirty?

I'm kind of pissed about how all of this went, yeah. Still, I can't imagine what it's like going through the character you've played for seven seasons being the goddamn scapegoat for the relationship-ending trauma nearly every single season, which makes the fans put your character on a pedestal and the one time you finally get to have your character screw up and cheat SINCE his life-changing relationship in season one, your character not only does not get to fall off the pedestal, it gets higher because he doesn't get a single bit of the blame from the fans. No, they're too busy trashing your character's love interests for what your character did to them, mainly because they're women.

Y'all can say, "Wow, that must be a breath of fresh air for Tracie to have Karen not be the unmoved, understanding wife and be petty for once," but say you're "betrayed" by Oliver wanting a piece of that same nuance for his character? I mean, unfollow and block him if you must, but fucking christ y'all, the man has to be tired of being the golden retriever. No wonder he fully leaped into this arc. Let him have some fun, and Buck get a little tarnished. He's made of solid gold. He's gonna still shine in the end.

No, I am not in any way condoning the biphobic implications of the shit Tommy said to him at the end. I can see why Lou didn't want it to end that way. It's an incredible disservice to the bisexual community, and I do take offense to that. But they can't erase that now. So fine. Let this new Buck break some hearts. There's nobody (except maybe Eddie) that can doom spiral like Buck can. He's going to be impulsive. and (for once) he's not looking for a relationship. And he even said in this episode, he kind of worshiped Tommy so as shitty as what Tommy said was, it's going to go to Buck's head and heart for sure.

The Daddy said "you're just gonna break my heart" to guy with Daddy Issues. Y'all keep calling Buck a brat. Maybe he is. And maybe we're about to see it on blast. That affection-starved man has never done anything half-measured in his life.

[dying-marshmallo]

☆ Something about comfort.

[datamodel-of-disaster]

Swordtember 2024: Floral/Poisonous/Jewelled

"EGO RETRIBUAM" - I WILL REPAY

This was both one of my favourites and one of the most frustrating pieces I've so far done for this challenge. It was the first time I tried my hand at drawing flowers - these are Nerium oleander, famously so poisonous that even honey made from the plant's nectar can be lethal - and in conclusion: turns out flowers are actually really hard to draw?

It sure made an interesting contrast between the jewelled sword/dagger, which I just whittled away at until it looked like I wanted it to, and the flowers, where I was kinda lost on how to make them look like anything.

Also yes, once again, vent art. Where I live, Nerium starts flowering in May. I guess that felt significant at one point.

[gingersnaptaff]

Can't work out if I have burned out again, if I'm going to burn out again, or if I'm just thinking I will but I'm alright. I am very close to tears. Head desking, actually. I want to get my book and history post done but my brain is either procrastinating or the words aren't right and I'm just going WHEE WHOO WHEE WHOO comparing myself to others. This is so dumb. I am dumb. Who even wants to read a fuckin Welsh myth/Arthuriana re-telling narrated by Guinevere anyway?

[sharetheartman]

The stupidity of the people supporting Trump astounds me. "No more funding endless wars!" they cry about Ukraine while we literally switch to backing a dictator. The very one RESPONSIBLE for starting the damn war in the first place! RUSSIA is the aggressor, Ukraine is just defending itself!

Wouldn't even fucking let Zelensky talk man. And out here accusing HIM of trying to start WWIII. Fuck Trump. Fuck Trump and Elon and all their little cronies.

[caffinated-day-dream]

“I’m obsessed with you” “I’m falling for you” AND THEN DIESNT TALK TO ME ALL FUCKING DAH

Leaves me on FUCKINF READ

I’m going to throw up. And punch something. I can’t fucking do this shit fuck you fuckt you fuck you fuck you!!

I’m not getting abandoned this time I’m jumping ship. I’m ghosting you. See how it fucking FEELS!!! FUCK. YOU.

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

Cal: Apparently, it was rude of me to pitch in my two cents on a conversation I happened to overhear, despite agreeing with them.

Cal: On an unrelated note, I am no longer allowed in the vents.

[macadamiastudies]

December 29th, 2024

Spent the day at a coffee shop, after a few days of not studying at all. I’ve been upset by some things in my personal life lately; i feel like I’m loosing my closest friend. On top of that, my family visiting for Christmas has made life extremely busy. I was still a bit down while studying- I still am and everything feels like it takes 45x more energy, but being in a familiar coffee shop in a new location really kept me going. I didn’t do too much, but I’m happy with today because 

I did something at least

I created a program I’ve been struggling with

What I got done today:

🧸Current CS50 unit (+ finished 4 remaining assignments for that unit) 🧸Completed an API/requests Python project 🧸Did my December budgeting 🧸Laundry + hanging up my clothes 🧸A little scrapbooking

To-do tomorrow:

📜Not break down 📜Study the next CS50 unit (lecture + notes + assignments) 📜Complete the next CS50 assignments 📜Make a collage to post

Playlist for today: