#Never happens to anyone else ever again

[kaythefloppa]

My Abuse Story - A PSA

For those who don't know, or are new, here's the rundown:

Hi, I'm Kay. Some may refer to me as Kan, or K. Since I was young, I've immersed myself in many online fandoms, including The Lion King, Tangled, and of course, Wild Kratts. But there's one fandom that I've been in where a series of events that 'unfortunate' wouldn't even scratch the surface of. Events which for my own safety and salvation, I've had to keep in lock and key, and have only recently found the bravery to come out about in its entirety.

The year of 2020 is reviled as hell on Earth. Which it was, for various [and obvious] reasons. However, for some worse than others. I thought I had seen the worst in that year, but I was wrong. I was dealt a very nasty hand, by very nasty individuals, all of which in the last place I'd ever expect. As a result, I was left with many scars that have stuck with me throughout my adolescence. And now, four years later, I feel as though it's finally my time to speak up about what I've waited nearly half a decade to pull from under the rug; The mistakes I've made, the abuse, the impact it had upon my life, and most importantly, the people responsible for this. All within the MLP fandom in its niche audio drama community.

This video below details the abuse I went through, including the evidence I had gathered (partially from a witness of the abuse who was also victimized by these people). Massive trigger warning for mentions of abuse, self-harm, and suicide.

In the description of the video, there is a Google Document that details the exact bucket list of abuse that MLP users Pretty Pegasus Wings/Empire Productions, @pand4monium, Vchart, KikibatVA, Mara/McFlurryVA, HollyJSFrosting, ZarosianPony, ect. are guilty of.

Go through the doc and watch the video entirely before coming to your own conclusions and commenting. This is something that has been swept under the rug in its entirety for far too long and needs to be brought to light.

[forestgreenlesbian]

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[buddiebitch]

i know my buddie glasses blind me but i genuinely don’t see why they wouldn’t make buddie endgame

no way any love interest will ever add up to the chemistry eddie and buck have, how would either of them having a long term partner allow buck to keep his place in eddie and christopher’s lives? (who cares about eddie’s girlfriends when he still goes to buck with christophers problems? how could buck dedicate himself to a long term relationship without shunting his role in christopher’s life) it’s such an important part of the show, tim minear has said before that not writing buck and eddie makes the show worse.

not only that but within the fandom, how would it make sense to go with endgame relationships that a majority of that fandom dislikes? like such a large portion of the fandom has agreed for years on one ship (plenty of the actors and people working on the show have been on board the whole time too) why wouldn’t you take that opportunity? the only reason it hasn’t happened already is because fox/old show runners wouldn’t allow it (bi buck was written for s4 and scrapped, you cant convince me that would have played out in any way that didn’t involve buddie endgame)

and obviously they have to draw it out, i wouldn’t expect the first season on a network that allows it to immediately end in canon buddie, but i just don’t see how anyone sees it playing out any other way.

[iamfuckingsorry]

"Do you know where we are going next?" I asked ART.

Y'know what, I think maybe I don't need any more Murderbot books. I think maybe ending things here is fucking perfect and as much as I love Wells's writing I'm genuinely not sure it can get better for me.

Like, so much of the books are about MB learning how to be a person, about becoming okay with being a complete individual with everything it entails. The first thing it does once it's actually allowed to decide on its own is it runs away from it all (admittedly to go on a mission to confirm some things about its past, because it genuinely just wants to be *good*). It shoves all its emotions away as much as it's able to. Then shit happens, and it makes its first friends, makes decisions based on these friendships, goes through a lot of emotionally intense situations...

And we get to this point here. MB having zero doubts about going with ART says a lot about its relationship with ART, but it also says a lot about its relationship with its humans - it knows that wherever it goes, when it comes back, the humans will still be there. Its humans actively acknowledge its struggles with being a now-free SecUnit and MB is willing to entertain the discussions to an extent and share information about its deeply personal experiences. Hell, System Collapse ends with MB admitting it might be somewhat broken, but that's okay as long as it can keep doing its job, and agreeing to basically do counselling - this is the guy what would rewatch its favourite TV show again and again in order to avoid acknowledging it even had Emotions a couple books back.

Reading this, I know that MB will be okay. It has hopes and goals and genuinely believes in itself and it has an amazing support system that its willing to lean on for the first time in its life. I'm convinced it'll go on to do great things with ART. And that's really the only thing I need to know.

[count-geiger]

seriously debated whether or not i was gonna say anything about this but i use this blog like a diary anyways so. whatever

chat i think i may be hyperfixated on rocky horror picture show. okay let me provide some background because that might seem kinda out of nowhere

for those of you who may not be aware: i am a theater kid. yes i know i can hear you booing through the screen. my college's theater group does a rhps shadow cast every year, and i am on the makeup crew for it this year. id seen the movie once years ago and liked it but also found it deeply uncomfortable (because i was in like eighth grade or something and people were all but fucking and sucking on screen).

i was front center in the audience last night and HOLY SHIT yeah that was cool (guy who played frank sat on my lap, i completed the herculean task of not passing out crying because a hot guy sat on my lap and was also yknow doing frank n furter things DIRECTLY IN FRONT ME like a for a big part of the show MAKING DIRECT EYE CONTACT its a miracle im not dead this guy almost killed me he looked back at me a few times while he was sitting on my lap and i was making the biggest dumbest nervous smile ever and im 99% he could feel me shaking we made eye contact at some point guys please send an ambulance)

guys please i know rhps is. deeply deeply questionable. but the movie is so stupid and the music is good i love it so much. also shadow casts are so epic THE CALLOUTS HELP. i have the callouts rattling around in my brain theyre all so funny.

im coming out as a faggot, a pathetic faggot, a rhps fan, AND a theater kid in the same post. i think one of you just needs to kill me

[skunkes]

if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

[tittyinfinity]

contemplating deleting my blog soon I might make a new blog but idk

[phagodyke]

the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

[mushed-kid]

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[danthropologie]

Even if he has made peace with it all (couldn't be me), that just means that he'll give an interview promoting wine or the hulu thing and just toss off some line about not wanting it to end like that or wishing he had his parents there for the last race, but otherwise he's fine and it'll get more attention than anything Christian has said in months + blow holes in their narrative. And it'll be a one sentence throw away

your lips straight to god's (daniel's?) ears fr anon

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

[mcalhenwrites]

Still alive, writing and editing a lot and even drawing (mostly dragon sketches at work). Seasons has some new chapters now... I saw something earlier about writing being something you can hone by doing lots of reading and writing. I wonder when that will apply to me. I've read a lot of books this year. I have almost hit my goal of 90 books, and while a couple are nonfiction and half are comics, the rest are novels. I expect that to increase again, now that I'm going back to the library. (I stopped with the bed bug scare.) Then I'm setting aside time each week to write. I work on stories at work, even if it's mostly just planning. (My laptop is falling apart so I just gave up taking it to work.) Yet here I am, still the same idiot who doesn't have anything appealing enough for most people to read. I can't get 99% of my followers interested. Sales of Geckos have dropped to next-to-nothing. Nothing else I put out there matters either. The fault lies with me. I'm not good enough. After having this stupid blog for 12 years, I want to delete it. I want to delete my twitter account. I want to delete every single account and shut up for good. There is nothing I can offer. My writing is a good hobby for me. I can get pats on the head for doing a little thing for myself. Aww, look at the cute little dumbass adult doing wittle storwies!!! Isn't that silly!!! They're not good, but he's having fun during the process. Too bad he hasn't figured out that not even 39 more years of practice can save what he's handing out.

[elliesbelle]

NOW I HEAR YOUR VOICE EVERYTIME THAT I THINK I’M NOT ENOUGH

[holocene-sims]

ursine subplot: vacation!

birdie maxed out all the music skills for her lifetime wish and reached level 10 of the music career, so i awarded her a trip after the twins aged up to YA!

actually collin was supposed to be a WA explorer for his gen but i forgot he and claudia got the STUPID DUMBASS IMAGINARY FRIENDS AND THEY CORRUPT MY TRAVEL EVEN WHEN I LEAVE THE DOLLS BEHIND

[tariah23]

Noooo…… first it’s Yuuta and Shoko, now they’re yo-yoing back around to Megumi.

[noraqrosa]

suddenly remembering the time (2017 or 2018 iirc) i went to an anime convention cosplaying as Grell Sutcliffe from Black Butler and proceeded to get misgendered by nearly everyone at the con. for the record, for those unaware, Grell is canonically a trans woman; in-story characters constantly misgender her, but these characters are very obviously being mean, and at every opportunity she asserts her gender.

(the same con i saw people persistently misgendering someone in a cosplay of Diamond from Land of the Lustrous, a series where the majority of the characters canonically go by they/them in official English translations)

what i'm saying is the late 2010s were a hellish time to be a trans person in cosplay, especially as a character who isn't a traditionally "passing" character (or, in the latter case, as one who doesn't go by he or she).