#MentalStruggles

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[8blogsthena]

I wish someone would just point out all of my flaws & tell me there's something wrong with me that's causeing all the flaws, I'm sick of having to wonder what's wrong with me cause my stupid family won't let me go in for a diagnosis test, sometimes I try to gaslight myself into thinking there's nothing wrong with me but, I can't push it away forever, can I? Why does my brother get to have an autism diagnosis done but I don't? Even though my brother & I act & think nearly exactly the same, it's ridiculous. I just want to be acknowledged for my struggles for once instead of being told to suck it up cause there's "worse in the world".

[ejaydoeshisbest]

And so we must part until I learn to swim and get myself back to shore.

I understand you want to see me smile genuinely again. I understand that you want to see pictures of me against backdrops adorned with gold and silver to match the ivory of my teeth, instead of the suffocating blue gloom that drips down my life. I understand that you wish for me to be healed. But to comfort me now is to accept and understand all my sorrows. You must sink into my waters to know how deep it is. And so we must part until I learn to swim and get myself back to shore.

I realize that you don’t entertain my negativity whenever I spew it out in every toxic phone call because you’re probably tired. We’ve been repeating the same lines over and over again: Me with my frustrations over my weak body, the panic that sets in, the loneliness, the desperation, the anxiety that never seems to end, and you, with your steadfast faith, your grateful spirit, and your loving arms. You want me to focus on the positives because to entangle all the jagged thorns of my mind would prick your fingers and waste the limited time you have to instead be doing other worthier, holier pursuits.

I miss the days when I could talk to you about anything. About the brightness of the world and the love I have for mankind. I miss sharing the stories that pop randomly into my head. I want to do away with all this angst. Until I have new good stories to share, I’m afraid I have to keep my silence. It is for your sake as well.

You must be weary of hearing that I am still jobless and relying on the generosity of others to feed me. You must be sick in praying that I maintain my season of healing, which is a nice way of phrasing that I am still experiencing panic attacks, still feel anxious, and have difficulty convincing myself that I am strong as I make the quick journey to the nearby mall for groceries or whatever. You must be tired of hearing my woes of loneliness while you are happy living in a bright place with your healthy, strong, independent, mature children, and can’t wait to rejoin the company of your like-minded friends thriving in a place where you belong.

I also want to part ways to stop the envy from spreading and diminishing the love I have for you. Such a child I am to admit that I feel envious of you partying with your peers in your nice homes wearing nice white dresses. It hurts me whenever I try my hardest to limit my calls, and when I eventually make one, you choose the church over me.

I hate that I feel so abandoned and unimportant on my depressing days, even though you are still trying your best to comfort me, and I feel envious of the power of your laughter; the kind that echoes years of golden adventures, because I’m still alone and I am still poor and I am still weak and reliant on others. You are a constant reminder of how I should be. Your life is a painful vision of what mine could be like.

Words: Ejay Diwas

Art: Lisk Feng

[release-by-eileen]

Despite Of

I have realized that despite how I feel or think, I can still achieve my goals. They can come along for the ride if they want to, but they won't be in charge of the direction I am going.

[thecpdiary]

Illness and My Mental Health Struggles

My mental health always takes a knock around illness, particularly around a terminal illness. Autism doesn’t lend itself and my anxiety levels currently are high.

My autism isn’t bad enough for me to be mentally unaware of what’s going on around me. Come to think of it, I’ve never been good around illness. Even as a small child, anything illness related, freaked me out.

It is because my 'spiritual' beliefs are so strong, that the idea of losing someone close doesn’t fear me anymore. I believe there is a life after death. I believe in the ‘spirit world’ and believe in the afterlife.

What I have always had a hard time coming to terms with is dealing with and watching someone struggle through illness that leads them to their untimely death. My twin is too young. She struggled with mental health.

As the child, I remember the same painful struggles and memories. With no safety net, as the adult it makes this all worse. Parents are our safety net. Without my parents, I am on my own, having to deal with autism and trying to cope with my twin’s terminal illness.

For more inspirational, life-changing blogs, please check out my site https://www.thecpdiary.com

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[jmikepatt]

Searching for Answers in My Struggle

Enjoy the day you create

#DemonsWithin #FindingStrength #BibleReflection #InnerBattle #SpiritualJourney #MentalStruggle #SeekingAnswers #OvercomingDarkness #FaithAndStruggle #JMikePatt #HopeInTheDark #ResilienceAndFaith #EmbraceTheStruggle #YouAreNotAlone

[powerixnews]

The Hidden Thoughts of Soldiers in War #history #WarHeroes #SoldiersMind...

Discover the untold stories of soldiers in war and the emotions that occupy their minds. From survival and family to victory and honor, these thoughts reveal the mental and emotional impact of war on men. Learn about the constant fear of death, the role of religion, and the dreams and longings that drive soldiers in the midst of battle. #WarHeroes #SoldiersMind #EmotionalWarfare #BattlefieldThoughts #MilitaryPsychology #WarStories #MentalStruggle #EmotionalImpact #SoldiersMotivation #LifeInWar

[tallmantall]

#JamesDonaldson On #MentalHealth – Behind #Hollywood’s Rise In #Suicides – And What To Do About It

“#Suicides among famous people are up because #suicides among everyone in #America is up. It’s a national disaster,” says #KurtCobain biographer Charles R. Cross Sharon Knolle Celebrities, from left, #Stephen"tWitch"Boss, #NaomiJudd and #AngusCloud are among the celebrities who struggled with #mentalhealth The tragic deaths of “Euphoria” actor #AngusCloud and Irish singer #SinéadOConnor are only the latest stark reminders of Hollywood’s prevalent #mentalhealth and #suicidecrisis. Although, as of this writing, neither has been officially determined to have died by #suicide, both had been open about their struggles with #mentalhealth. After every high-profile #suicide, such as “Breaking Bad” actor Mike Batayeh, country singer #NaomiJudd and “So You Can Think You Can Dance” judge #Stephen“tWitch”Boss, the question is debated whether the industry, as a whole, has done enough to support people who may be in crisis. “Euphoria” actor #AngusCloud was open about his #mentalstruggle, family said A number of #mentalhealthexperts told TheWrap that although #suicides among the general population rose during the #pandemic, people who work in entertainment can be particularly vulnerable. “Entertainment is already an occupational group that’s at increased risk,” said Colleen Carr, director of the #NationalActionAllianceforSuicidePrevention, citing a study conducted by the #CDC in 2016 that demonstrated people who work in entertainment, #sports and media had #suiciderates significantly higher than those of the general population. “#Suicides among famous people are up because #suicides among everyone in #America is up. It’s a national disaster. And we only pay attention to it, it seems, when a famous person dies,” said Charles R. Cross, author of the #KurtCobain biography “Heavier Than Heaven.” Nirvana front man #KurtCobain plays his last U.S. concert at the Seattle Arena on January 7, 1994 in Seattle, Washington Cross cited the lack of access to #mentalhealth care even for those who are insured as well as the often unmanageable costs of treatment and taking time off from work. “If this were a disease you caught, there would be benefits every weekend, with everyone in #Hollywood doing things to raise awareness,” he told TheWrap. The conversation about #suicideprevention in #Hollywood is ongoing, but it’s not always easy to tell who is having a #mentalhealthcrisis, let alone get them help in time. Judd, who died by #suicide in April, talked publicly about her struggles with #depression. Judd’s daughters, Ashley and Wynonna, said in a statement at the time, “We lost our beautiful mother to the disease of #mentalillness.” #NaomiJudd Fans were shocked by the seemingly out-of-nowhere December death of tWitch, who was always upbeat and smiling on the Fox competition series. Speaking six months after his death, his widow, dancer Allison Holker told “The Today Show,” “No one that saw this coming. No one…” She’s now committed to bringing awareness to #mentalhealth and helping people who are struggling to get the support they need. Support on set “There are not a lot of industries that have done a terrific job getting ahead of this current #mentalhealthcrisis,” said Ashley N. Kolaya, lead impact and engagement officer at USC Annenberg’s Mental Health Storytelling Initiative. “The entertainment industry is especially demanding in terms of time you spend working away from family. You can be in situations where you’re confronted with #trauma and if you’re playing a character who experiences a tremendous #stress or traumatic experience, or if you’re editing a scene where that’s the case, these can fall under that risk factor category,” Kolaya continued. She added that unions usually have some form of #mentalhealthcoverage, “but if I’m doing a scene that’s got me really triggered or upset, there’s not a clear, universal path for what to do in that situation.” Kolaya cited the work done by one of the initiative’s coalition members, Amazon Studios, where “Underground Railroad” showrunner Barry Jenkins “made it a point” to have #mentalhealthprofessionals on site since the series dealt in such heavy topics as slavery and abuse. “That’s the kind of example we would love to have everybody following. One of the things that coalition will be thinking about is how can we get the industry to adopt some best practices,” said Kolaya.  “Yellowjackets” star Jasmin Savoy Brown, who had to take time to “decompress” after filming the very dark second season of the Showtime hit that involves murder and cannibalism, said the mostly #female cast relied on their intimacy coordinator for emotional support. “Last season was there for a couple of sex scenes. And then people started requesting her for other stuff — anytime there’s anything that might cause an emotional or psychological response. She emailed us and asked if we wanted her around, and towards the last couple episodes, she was there every day,” Brown told TheWrap in March. The intimacy coordinators TheWrap spoke to for our June story about how their on-set roles have expanded, stressed the importance of also having a mental health expert, and not just an IC, available for actors and crew. Kathy Kadler, who was an IC on Netflix’s “The Night Agent,” told TheWrap in May, “In my personal opinion, one of the reasons why we have such high levels of #suicide and #druguse in the industry is because we ask these performers to delve deep, to go vulnerable, to feel these big feelings. And then we finish that scene, we put them through wardrobe, hair and makeup and we pack them up in a car and we send them home.” Kadler explained that ICs, along with professional #counselors, can help actors “debrief or de-role, which is a way of shedding the character.” She added, “So they’re not taking those leftover emotions z emotional bleed off is huge — back home, and then self medicating, however they choose.” #James Donaldson notes:Welcome to the “next chapter” of my life… being a voice and an advocate for #mentalhealthawarenessandsuicideprevention, especially pertaining to our younger generation of students and student-athletes.Getting men to speak up and reach out for help and assistance is one of my passions. Us men need to not suffer in silence or drown our sorrows in alcohol, hang out at bars and strip joints, or get involved with drug use.Having gone through a recent bout of #depression and #suicidalthoughts myself, I realize now, that I can make a huge difference in the lives of so many by sharing my story, and by sharing various resources I come across as I work in this space.  #http://bit.ly/JamesMentalHealthArticleFind out more about the work I do on my 501c3 non-profit foundationwebsite www.yourgiftoflife.org Order your copy of James Donaldson's latest book,#CelebratingYourGiftofLife: From The Verge of Suicide to a Life of Purpose and Joy www.celebratingyourgiftoflife.com The media’s role “I think entertainment plays a big part in portraying potential solutions, and contribute to the problem,” said Kolaya. “In a worst-case scenario universe, stories that are being told and consumed are actually causing more harm. And we know #suicidecontagion is a real thing. We want to make sure that content creators have a resource that they can turn to with experts in telling those kinds of stories that are informed and with the right knowledge and skill sets. Netflix’s 2017 series “13 Reasons Why,” where the #suicide of one character sets the entire series in motion, was linked to a steep rise in online suicide searches and #suicidalbehavior, said Carr of research conducted by the #NationalInstituteofHealth. “That really underscored the importance of responsible portrayal of #suicide and that helped to inform prevention efforts and outreach efforts,” she explained. “It’s really important when we think about #mentalhealth and #suicideprevention, to recognize the key role that entertainment and news media played in changing the conversation about #suicide from one of #hopelessness and despair to one of hope and help-seeking and recovery,” said Carr. “We know that the overwhelming majority of people who struggle with thoughts of #suicide do not die by #suicide, but instead access the resources, gain the skills needed to live full lives,” she continued. “The power of the work that the entertainment sector does every day can reach millions with stories that can help them on the road to recovery.” The #NationalSuicidePreventionLifeline #988 is a free, 24/7 confidential service that can provide people in suicidal crisis or emotional distress, or those around them, with support, information and local resources. Read the full article

[walix19]

The Happiness Factor

The two ways in which you can be happy again or help others get happy #socialword #thesocialword #depression #fightit #youcandoit #strength

Whenever something bad happens, one of the first few things that people tell you is that “Life’s tough”, “things happen”, “Mother Nature is cruel”, and so on. After that, come the remarks of “I’m sorry this happened to you”, “Bad things happen to good people”, and such. Some even take it one step further by explaining how strong you are, and how you can get over it. People often try to get you to…

[thejudgementalmom]

Emotional vulnerability is emotional sensitivity, emotional reactivity, and a slow return to emotional baseline. (Linehan study 1993a) An invalidating environment is when people/parents tell you you're wrong for experiencing your emotions. They may even punish you or ignore you when you get emotional. In some cases, people may acknowledge your emotions, but in a case where they are the ones causing them they will not stop, and instead keep doing what they're doing to hurt you. Another example of an invalidating environment, is when you are punished for being defensive or reacting in a defensive or emotional way during a conversation or argument. For example, if someone does or says something and you tell them that's not fair to you or that what they have done has hurt you and their response is 'waah, it's all about you isn't', then in turn you get defensive and upset because they didn't care how you felt, and finally their response is 'i'm not your emotional punching bag'. This will make anyone go crazy. Now put someone like a child a who naturally is emotionally dysregulated and its adults jobs to guide them into regulation. Invalidating children and any adult plants a seed of mental distress and disorders; that over time, without help and WITH persistent unhelpful invalidating environments, blossom into a plethora of mental and emotional struggles. ••• #bpd #mentalstruggles #invalidation #invalidatingenviroments #emotionaldysregulation #emotionallyvulnerable #parenting #relationships #kids #parents #moms #dads #childhood #family #growingup #mentalhealth #mentaldevelopment #attachment #understanding #yourinnerchild #innerchild #honestmomconfessions #honestparenting #embraceparenting #blogger #momblogger #thejudgementalmom https://www.instagram.com/p/B-5uHCSpoUY/?igshid=xcv9as8ttrqc

[robintheghost]

One of the big subjects on my troubled mind is friendship these last few weeks. Especially those where a friend says A, but does B. I wanna go a bit deeper into this, as like I said it’s been hunting my mind with questions

I cannot understand why one would continuously say A, yet do the opposite of what’s been said. Especially if you already know you can’t make A happen. Why continue on saying this?

It’s why I had to burn some bridges this year. I cannot continue to accept this happening to me so much. Gotta clean ship before I screw myself over.

Just to give you all,  the void peeps, a few examples. I met someone here on Tumblr, and became friends. Fast forward some time, and I’m at the point of being a “great friend”. Now, you’d think that’s all fine, but reality is different. I’m only a great friend, as long as no one else is giving her attention, or when she’s single. Else my messages get ignored, and I’m a nobody. If you claim I’m a good/great friend, act like it. I understand I can’t claim everyone all the time, but seriously every so few days, hell maybe even a week, you can create some time to at least reply to my message(s). In the end, I even asked her if she still considers me a friend. The silence was telling. Continuing this story, via her I met another friend. Same goes, saying A yet acting like B. Hell, I even removed that friend from Facebook half a year ago for the first time. When she noticed, she told me my decision was ridiculous, and that I was all wrong, and that she still wanted to be friends. Gave her another chance, but the months following were even more silent despite me trying to initiate a conversation a few times. I don’t get it. Why can’t some people not put any effort into people they consider friends. Friendship needs maintenance as well. Can’t only call upon it when you need one specific person for a specific issue. It’s not how friendships work, at least in my humble opinion. And last, well the most painful of cases. Saying A, nearly acting like A, but when someone else comes along, doing B. Visiting friends you first met on the internet isn’t always working out. However, when the chance gets along, why not go for it? With enough willpower, money, and time, one can make such meetings happen. Be it for a day, be it for a holiday. I’ve met my fair share of online friends, and I can say it’s great to see your friends up close. This goes especially when such a wish has been there for multiple years. But then there’s the disappointments as well. The logical reasons for a delay/cancellation (lack of available time, lack of money, location/time/weather not permitting it, etc.) I can understand. Not everything could work out. But what I don’t get are the illogical reasons when the situation is just fine. Yet again a case of saying A, acting like B. And that’s what happened this summer/autumn with an ancient Tumblr mutual of mine. First it’s “sure, come over!”, with some blueprints of the trip being put on the table. Finally, after years a meeting might be on schedule. Finally things could work out. Some stuff has been talked about before, yet now the pieces aligned. At least, that’s what I thought. Apparently a friendship and being mutuals of and for multiple years mean fuck all when meeting new folks. Things I don’t get: When a girl is in a relationship, no other guy can apprently talk to her or else the boyfriend gets jealous, therefore opting to cut you out off her life for a pathetic reason. Things I get even less: Blowing up these trip plans, because someone of interest has been met (nothing official). I mean, why do that in the first place? People should be able to hang out or talk with friends, regardless of sex, relationship status, etc. A friend is a friend, end of story. But yeah, guess what happened? The whole idea got cancelled. Fastforward a few months and a few guys later, I’m still not hearing a thing. Not about a trip, not about anything. Apparently strangers get prefered over a 5+ year mutual/friend. Well, if that’s the order of friend- and mutualship, I don’t want anything to do with that. I’m treated less than dirt, and I should no longer accept that. No matter how bright all the above peeps claim I am to them, or how bright a meet up will be. If you can’t show you consider me a (good) friend, why bother keep on acting like I am one. Say the truth, no matter how harsh it could be. Truth above lies, all day every day

Enough outburst from me. It’s time for some sleep. It’s weekend, I can finally get my rest. At last

[8blogsthena]

I haven't worked out in 3 days since I went down a bad spiral again.. I'm pathetic.

[release-by-eileen]

Inner Echoes

On this journey of self-discovery, I have come to realize just how many of my thoughts aren't really mine. Instead, I have taken on the voices of others. Believing their truths and holding onto their thoughts. Realizing that my inner echoes are coming from the external echoes.

[itsanchortime]

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[jmikepatt]

Searching for Answers in My Struggle

Enjoy the day you create

#DemonsWithin #FindingStrength #BibleReflection #InnerBattle #SpiritualJourney #MentalStruggle #SeekingAnswers #OvercomingDarkness #FaithAndStruggle #JMikePatt #HopeInTheDark #ResilienceAndFaith #EmbraceTheStruggle #YouAreNotAlone