#MY FACTS THERES NOWHERE FOR MY FACTS
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where am i supposed to post this shit now. look at that smug face his ass is on the queen mary having yet another affair w marlene dietrich
#dietrich first had him as a curly haired bespectacled ingenue who she sent to the studio w a pat on the ass and a packed lunch#and then she had him as the monstre sacre starbody that drove siodmak out of hollywood#what a powerhouse of a woman#MY FACTS THERES NOWHERE FOR MY FACTS
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lying here in bed and thinking abt how alienated out i feel in the cookie run fandom. and then theres a polish sitcom playing in the background from a different room.
#mostly like. i feel so alienated out for like. having such different views of chars.#dark choco is a char i find myself to relate to a lot. i see so much of myself in him.#and yet. i cant get fully interested and that makes me feel. am i even a true fan of his character#if my interpretation is so vastly different from the fandoms#and how his kingdom is probably my least favourite out of all the ancients' kingdoms#for how i feel like ppl and the narrative tend to forget how dark cacaos kingdom is so flawed.#like the whole “no sweet meals” thing. i am not talking abt irl influences and how it impacts the presentation of the kingdom but more like#i feel like ppl tend to perfectionize dark cacao kingdom while ignoring a ton of systematic issues in it.#then theres my opinion on hollyberry. i love her. shes my favourite ancient. but i wish we got a more serious storyline with her#im not all catched up on the lore but i just wish rlly wish we got more of the hollyberry kingdom. and see holly display a wider range of-#-emotions.#i hope the eternal sugar update will get us some hollyberry kingdom angst because i need some more serious characterization for her that r-#-not just snippets#then theres. white lily. i feel like im the only person who liked the fact white lily got her own kingdom and was split into two versions.#it DID come out of nowhere but like. i feel like its sort of more interesting than just white lily being fully DE?#her update was a fiasco with how shadow milk stole the show that was meant to be hers.#but like. so many of my opinions are different than the fandoms that i just cant help but feel like an intruder sometimes#i dont want to sound like a pick me or someone who thinks they r special for being different. because im not.#i do not like this feeling. but i needed to be open abt it ig#cookie chat#theres also like. the lack of proper characterization for carrow besides “good loyal soldier”.#that annoys me as hell too#fyi i DO NOT hate dark cacao kingdom to be clear. i love it a ton. the cultural influences are so interesting and i love the setting.#i just wish ppl didnt brush off a lot of systematic flaws abt it.
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pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:
the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon
to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)
the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon
pretty much everything about that gible
blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)
boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen
pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character
#sorry ik i keep bringing up the throwaway line but like. its SOOOOOOOOOO bad holy shit#the heracross one isnt aaaaaas bad tbf bc they really make up for it in the sinnoh league#but aside from one ep in the miniseries we never quite get an episode where oshawott proves itself in a battle#i still love that episode bc it still kinda feels like an apology for all the oshawott bashing in bw but i am a little :/#that battling didnt even come up once#ive kiiinda eased up on gliscors benching episode bc at the end of the day it isssss pretty good to her. also its the best animated one#but its treatment like what i mentioned that still really drags it down to me#and also like. i know ppl praise gliscor being so powerful after the episode but i really dont get why we couldnt have just#had a gliscor training arc onscreen. but ig we wouldnt have that stupid ass gible plot that went nowhere now would we#but like.... we had such a huge stretch between that episode and the league. i really dont get why we couldnt have had a mini arc#where gliscor realizes shes not pulling her weight that well and really starts hauling ass#she doesnt really even sweep in the paul fight. she gets beaten immediately by ninjask#the drapion part was awesome tho yayyyy#but my point is that it wouldnt really change much if gliscor just stayed and got stronger on its own#have the bench episode be a wake up call for gliscor rather than a goodbye one and she becomes super competent#like im not just saying this bc gliscor is my favorite character in the entire show. i feel like its straight up kinda lazy and less reward#rewarding#imagine how the drapion fight could be EVEN MORE cathartic if we saw gliscor struggle and fight to get better throughout the show#as much as i like that specific battle and ash vs paul as a whole... it just kinda proves my point that sending gliscor away at all#was kind of a shitty move#like ohhhhh ash's team is all getting revenge for lake acuity yay!!!!! oh one of them was kicked off for the sake of a shitty gible plot th#which really only served to make shitty piplup bashing jokes and only actually had a conclusion in the league itself#by which time it was too late to actually do anything else with it. yeah we kicked someone off for that. but shes back now!!!#like it doesnt weaken the battle THAT much. in fact theres some value in how ash went out of his way to make sure gliscor could be there#so her defeat could also be avenged. and its still my fave battle in the whole anime. but it just proves to me how pointless that was reall#echoed voice
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I really hate how my physical body looks so so so much. unfortunately there isn't much I can do about it.
#ive got fat genetics from both parents families going back generations and ive been trying to lose weight forever#my stupod body likes being fat i can excercise like crazy and eat barely anything and i wont lose anything#i was excercising 2+ hours a day before i got sick and it made me stronger but i.stayed fat. now that im sick im weak and still fat.#and im not the kind of fat anybody can find pretty. if i could somehow not be fat id be decent to look at my face isnt bad#my skin is bad though my skin sucks#in my eyes im disgusting#and its so messed up because i dont think other fat people are gross#but i hate how i look so much that i cant imagine anyone being okay with it#like no matter how kind and understanding and sweet i am to people its never gonna make up for the fact that my body is grossly ugly#and i cant blame anyone for not liking me i get it.#sorry#this is a problem i have#bacause i just usually pretend my body doesnt exist and i wear pretty loose fitting dresses that cover me completely so but#even though i am what i am#sometimes you happen to meet a nice person and they are polite and dont seem disgusted by your existance so then your traitorous brain t#thinks hey maybe this person would be willing to marry us someday if they got to know us. which is so silly becuz theres no way thatd ever#so it makes me sad when i should be happy that a nice person talked to me. yay good job successful friendlyness. but it has to remind me#that i had this expectation from when i was a kid that id marry somone and have at least 3 kids and love my kids and take care of them and#give them everything i needed when i was a kid. and of course that never happened. because i never dated anyone. because people dont just#magically get married out of nowhere. its stupid. so i keep trying to be okay with whatever. but i guess i never stopped wanting a family.#which we know im aroace now so. i need to stop. but my brain is always bothering me about this.#why can't i just accept that no one will ever love me. why cant i be happy that they dont?#ive got cats#someday i will have irl friends again#sorry i think everything would be so much easier if i was just#this isnt a problem with an easy solutiom#i guess im gonna try to do the useless excercises again because at least it will look like im trying even though nothing will change
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trying to stay positive in the face of continuous inability to get even liquids down without discomfort is becoming more and more draining ngl
#uggggggggh#i was up in the middle of the night with bad throat pain#so of course i go to drink water to help with the pain#but then i cant. swallow at night at all for some goddamn reason so i proceed to reguirgitate it#and just been dealin with constant regurgitation problems even tho ive gotten stuff down this morning has been. a trial#i try really really hard to not let this completely destroy my quality of life#but i truly dont think people can understand how fucking awful it is to be entierly unable to swallow properly unless you experience it#i know theres potentially surgery that can help (terrifying but hopeful)#but still grappling with the fact that i somehow got an uncurable rare disease completely out of nowhere in my early 20s#blegh#okay back to ignoring my problems rant over#medical cw#the prophet speaks
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for a long while when I'd visit my relatives on the chesapeake for a brief respite from the hells of home life, there was an odd beat-up little cardboard box sitting amid the plastic-cased ds games in the gamestop I'd always visit (rarely to actually get anything)
finally, one time before the journey back to hell, i actually had a scattering of bills in my pocket. after looking around at the shelves of shovelware (i didnt have enough for any of the proper titles like mario or pokemon), i finally decided to bring the story to a close and give the ragged little box a home
it was Sola-to-Robo, one of the rarest ds games ever published, possibly the most technically advanced engine ever devised on the system, and among the most unique and emotional experiences I'd ever encountered in a video game (which is saying something considering I'd already all but lost emotion by that point)
i barely remember it anymore, but for the time it became my favorite standalone game of all time (although it technically is part of a series, succeeding the PS1's equally obscure Tail Concerto)
I still dream of returning to it and seeing just how well it holds up from a more experienced point of view
the one thing i do remember is that it had and still has by far the most beautiful and powerful opening song of any game ive ever encountered, which is saying something considering the hundreds out there! it's up there with Atelier Meruru's Cadena
also the fact that when you beat the game, after the credits it goes "chapter 2" and there's an entire sequel within the game. altogether both parts are probably not longer than any other rpg, but on the original ds where full 3d action rpgs were resource intensive and typically limited in scope, it was mindblowing
also it apparently had like undefeatable copy-protection and to this day still requires a modified rom to emulate or even run on original hardware without a card?
anyways.... remarkable game. i was shocked to find that it's one of the most sought after titles on the system. in rarities ive personally enountered it's second probably only to Retro Game Challenge, which I encountered at regular price once in the late 2010s but didnt have the money for at the time... that's my "one that got away"
#for me it's also up there with klonoa and a handful of old sonic titles for having anthro designs that are actually great instead of weird#i always start thinking anthro designs are just a lost cause but then i remember like solatorobo and redwall and beatrix potter and am like#“no theres tons of room for animal folk in art it's just that modern 'furryism' is usually so soulless and based on corporate mascot styles#anyways..... my short recollection of a remarkable game#hotel dusk and last window are very rare too but theyre so obscure their prices aren't actually that high#tingle's rosy rupeeland wasnt expensive either back in the day but i bet it's gone way up now. wish i got it back then#mario 3-on-3 is another one that's insanely rare but absolutely no one remembers or cares about it lmao#i found it at a gamestop in ass-nowhere shenandoah in 2020 long after the stores were supposed to have done away with their ds collections#anyways..... original ds is a favorite system of mine... not actually for nostalgia reasons (i barely experience any anymore)#but for the sheer variety and uniqueness of titles to be discovered on it... maybe the most of any platform ever#and the fact that many of them had SSS-tier stylistic direction#ive yet to find another title that even comes close to the blue-skies beauty of bomberman land ds#OG ds was definitely a blue-skies system
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This is really weird but like hello hi I like games that let you make a protag design then let you design someone else to be like. Your follower/ally. And you can make em different heights. I feel the need EVERY TIME to make a tiny protag and a tall secondary character.
I also am so weak for the secondary being non-human, too. Please let me love my weird companions.
#freedom wars#this is outta nowhere supposedly but like lmao i tried a different game and i was just reminded of fw#and im like dang i really liked my sinner who got the title accessory-obsessive and never changed it#weird fact of while i prefer to be called salmon myself very much so??#i named my sinner in fw something different then named my accessory salmon#he was the love of my life#i still love him tbh#he hates me for spending my life running around not fighting abductors bc im too busy gathering#its true i drew a comic for it ages ago#im a useless wittle fella#my wonderful prison warden beloved salmon hello i love you all these years later#its like in dd:da where you have the arisen and pawn#there is something deep in me that has a profound love for my pawn my beloved weird humanoid pal#listen i just like having tiny trouble makers and tall rule abiders who are very done with my antics#bc tbh i suck at games i am so bad at playing games if my life depended on being good at games i would die#theres also a secret third game that i am very much not mentioning out of shame that i started last night where you can do this#and my only complaint is i made the mc a guy and the other guy a guy and i feel so sad#that the height gap isnt as big as it was in fw and ddda#im not gremlin enough in the secret third game
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I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away
#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd#ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding.#i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way#when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee#but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo#and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards#not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony#my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like#marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there#i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my#parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL)#but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school#nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is#same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL#i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not.#i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds#but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice#i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring#that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases#and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason#you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident#im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like#i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS#i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3#i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔
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some guys i made for a slasher story im making currently called firestarted. i love them oh so much
#oc: patricia tyson#oc: brooke#oc: trevor#oc: aamira#oc: mandy#oc: issac#oc: violet ashbel#firestarted#art#slasher oc#character design#a fun fact about how this story ends is tyson and violet end up gay and in love#oh yeah for actual story info violet was going to burn down the house that the main group decided to take residence in#and while she wasnt planning on killing them she was still going to burn down the house#but once she kills brooke out of panic she decides that theres nowhere to go but down#anyway. im silly about these guys#my art
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already starting to get birthday presents
#just the fact friends remember??? even friends i haven't talked with in MONTHS and haven't seen in YEARS but they'll be in my life FOREVER#and yet out of nowhere they're like hey is your address the same like a few weeks out from my birthday#and then theres a little thing !!! on the doorstep!!! that i didn't order!!!#A FRIEND TOOK THE TIME TO PICK OUT A LITTLE SOMETHING FOR ME AND IM VERY EMOTIONAL OK#gonna go lie down from the love of it all#personal thingys
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i can fall asleep anywhere
#fun fact! anywhere theres nowhere i canr sleep!!!#i nearly fell asleep in the middle of a lake while floating on my back at midnight last year O__O
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got a text from the car shop earlier saying my car would be fixed within a few hours. its been several hours and im trying not to compulsively check my phone
#my cars been in the shop for a bit over 2 weeks now#which isnt that long... if you ignore the fact that it hasnt been useable in a month and a half#i just wasnt able to get an appointment til 2 weeks ago#so i feel like ive been waiting FOREVER#and i dont currently have a working bus pass so i feel like ive been stuck at home#cause theres like nowhere worth walking to within a mile of my place#and its so cold that walking more than a mile outdoors fucking sucks#tree talks
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My friend got me tickets to shin ultraman as a present!! It was really kind of him and I'm so excited to see it next wednesday
#it'll be my first ever ultraman thing im seeing so im very excited#im also glad theres actually a theater by me showing it#i kinda live in the middle of nowhere so im grateful for the fact there is a decently close screening#and im just really grateful for that gesture from him too#linky posts
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#i cant . understand why theres so mucb resistance to my brain wanting to let this go lol.#like . take a look at all the facts teal wuick. at what point does this become ridiculous. bc#on one hand . i am ok w wanting nothing to do with him and moving on with my life#but on the other. if i Dont end uo w him ive aomehow sworn off relationships again like#dude . cna u . not . like .#im going to fuck8ng implode or explode or both ! bc i cant fyckinf take this#im getting him banned from my place od work . or the very least. kicked the Fuck Out#if he decides to show up on tuesday and i mean that. fuck off. give me One Night where i can hang out w#ppl i wanns be friends with and attempt to build a connection with. without your shitty irritating presencr haunting my place of work#like . its fuckibg war at this point im done. in over being nice i fucking TRIED . but its gotten me fucking nowhete.#i bit my tongue and its gotteb me nowhere. so . fucm it. harrass me for 3hrs and im going to make ur life hell in whatever way i fucking can#i also odnt care too much to actually do anythung abt it jm hudt irritated as all hell rn.#but i am bent on kicking him out. like .#mostly out of pettiness bc he mentioned that i g9t him yeeted out#and i did. but ut was Once And it was fucmung ages ago. like the first month i was working thete kinda thing.#'who else couldve it have been' i literally admitted to it. im not ashamed to admit tbat i did lol. im ashamed as to WHY but u were#being s dick and i didnt know what to do to work that night .#but . jesus fuck learn how to read !#grow the FUCK up dude. seriously.
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managed to accidentally brick my entire phone (temporarily) last night in an attempt to stop myself from reading past my bedtime which is a problem that would be much more easily solved by better self-control.... and yet
#.txt#i have a custom launcher installed so my home screen is limited only to a select number of apps & a media player visual#and they're all white icons to minimize the appeal of color etc#more streamlined and i like it#but the thing is when you set up a scheduled block with the app i use for limiting things around bedtime#you can do one where you select the only apps allowed instead of deselecting#which made sense for the secondary 'go the fuck to bed' blocking!#thing is being on my homescreen counts as using the launcher app#which i did not think to select as allowed because i wasn't planning to do any edits to the launcher ?#resulting in me getting kicked out of my book at 10:30. great. bedtime.#and dropped to my home screen! cool!#and given the popup that i'm being kicked out of my home screen.#but theres nowhere else for it to go. so i am now stuck on the 'this app has been blocked. do something else or go to sleep' page#very funny to realize that in fact i couldn't navigate to any other feature of my phone without going thru the home screen or app selector#both of which are part of an app i accidentally blocked
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Crazy random Saturday afternoon thought: what if I went back to school and switched careers
#i just got a yt ad for the penn foster vet tech program and i was like . hm#akshakdhsjs#its not completely out of nowhere tho#i graduated high school from penn foster#and ive always said my 2 main choices for a career would be something with baking or something with animals#i had decided a long time ago that i didn't think i could emotionally handle being around a lot of sick animals#but idk. i was really young when i decided that. now im thinking maybe i can. and its not all sick animals#its been a lot harder to find a baking job than I thought it would be#and made worse by the fact that i dont have a degree#and i dont have any other options for pastry school other than the one college i left#and i left for a reason 😭 i truly dont think they have or will improve#(one reason was the crazy amount of required internship hours.#and the penn foster vet assistant program is only 100 hours in 8 weeks#the culinary internship was like 300 or 400 or something?#theres 2 required internships and each was .... a lot#or you could combine them and and have the hours reduced to ×1.5 instead of the ×2 classes#but you still only have a semester to finish. while in other classes. 🤨#INSANE to me that they are requiring more internship hours than literal MEDICAL programs. but whatever)#idk. thinking.
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