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[strebcr]

Anyways I updated my rules! Please give them a read and like this post 👍

[strebcrarchivess]

Due to the situation I updated my rules

[diamondnokouzai]

mental health blogging under the cut (but im not like, suicidal or anything, just pondering)

ive been feeling more and more dissociated (<- how the fuck you spell that) lately in like, the split personality sense. and ive kind of identified a few specific 'aspects' of myself that are like, very separated in my head, but im not sure if thats because im psychotic or not. idk if psychosis & did can even overlap (or if i even HAVE any sort of DID related mental health issue) but its kind of upsetting when i cant understand why my thought patterns & behaviors are so different somtimes

[dottore-truther]

about me and this blog

Call me Myth or Nagi I use he/them pronouns and I’m in my early twenties I’ve been playing Genshin since it’s initial launch.

I’m Asian and indigenous. I speak/write English and Japanese. I use a translator for everything else.

I like the bad guys a lot in Genshin I just think they’re neat. I don’t condone what they do I just think they’re cool as characters.

I criticize Hoyoverse/Mihoyo because I know they can do better. I don’t condone Hoyo’s colorism nor do I spend actual money on this game. My criticism/venting at hoyo is tagged as #mhy critical and #hyv critical if you want to filter it out.

I like to speculate over possible lore and such I’m hyperfixating on Genshin Impact so blacklist #GI-info-dump if you don’t want to hear it.

I like to make edits of Genshin sprites and manga art and even do fan-art but I’m not sure I’ll post that here.

Game info:

playing through the Sumeru Quests. I haven’t been on Genshin since the 2.2 update tag my thoughts as: “#live Genshining”

C3 Kaeya, C4 Noelle and C4 Chongyun main AR: 55 Server: NA and DM for UID! This is a side blog so I cannot follow you back from here. If you want to talk about Genshin Impact or character/team comps DM me!

Boundaries and before you follow and such:

I’m an adult so if that makes you uncomfortable don’t follow me. I don’t post explicit content and I’m uncomfortable with it. I still prefer to talk to other adults.

I post a lot about villain characters, especially Dottore hence the URL. I don’t condone any of the character’s actions. Please no death threats

I don’t like works that includes with the following topics: dubious consent/non consensual, underage content, incest, very visible and prominent age gaps between characters.

[haupkmn]

I can't tell if I'm a terrible fucking person who is destroying everyone around them or if I'm just speaking some sort of other language that makes people impossible to understand me or if it's a case-by-case thing or something else but I'm so scared to talk to some people that I love more than life itself because I'm so scared of dragging them down this fucking hole that I'm in and I don't want to vocalize that here cuz I feel like I'm being a piece of shit and I don't want to make other people feel bad for me because I don't want pity or sympathy.

I completely understand that it's no one's responsibility to stick around and help me until I'm better or even wait until I get better but at the same time I don't know how to help myself because every decision I always have to make is between a rock and a hard place and I'm so scared of losing anybody and it hurts that I'm so scared of hurting anybody else cuz the last thing I want to do is hurt someone.

I can't trust anyone and I don't have boundaries anymore cuz I can't tell what they are anymore and I'm too scared to ask for help anymore cuz I feel like I'm just using people dear God I need fucking help.

I just want to stop hurting people. I want to stop being fucked up I want to stop so bad but I don't know what I don't want to kill myself I feel so bad about that because I know a bunch of people want me to kill myself but I just can't do it I'm sorry and I'm sorry I can't prove that I'm not everyone in the world I'm sorry

I'm so scared of being lonely and being alone but because of that I'm burning every single Bridge around me and there's nothing I can do and I don't know what to do when I'm sorry. Pretending to be funny isn't helping anymore and there's not much I can do when I'm really sorry

If anyone has an issue with me or hates me or wants me dead or if I've upset them please just fucking tell me please just fucking tell me please just fucking tell me please just fucking tell me

I'm so scared of being lonely and being alone but because of that I'm burning every single Bridge around me and there's nothing I can do and I don't know what to do when I'm sorry. Pretending to be funny isn't helping anymore and there's not much I can do when I'm really sorry

[almond-gallery]

an enjolras because i miss him

[coquelicoq]

if you're wondering what the big deal is about the louis-philippe sentence in les misérables, it is, in the original french, 760 words long. the subject of the sentence doesn't appear until 95% of the way through, at word #711; the main verb is word #712. the sentence contains 91 commas and 49 semicolons and is almost entirely a list of laudatory adjectival phrases describing the erstwhile king of france. this is perhaps especially notable because les mis is, shall we say, not known for being particularly gung-ho about the monarchy.

this sentence copied and pasted into Word takes up more than one page single-spaced. in the 1800-page folio classique edition, it is fully two and a half of those 1800 pages. that means that les mis is 0.14% this single sentence. more of les mis is made up of this sentence than earth's atmosphere is made up of carbon dioxide (0.04%). if the page count of les mis stayed the same but every sentence was the length of this one, les mis would consist of only 720 sentences total.

incidentally, guess who named hugo a peer of france 17 years before the publication of les mis?

[la-pheacienne]

I wish there was a way to actually convey in english the transition between the plural and the singular verbs used by Javert depending on who he's speaking to. In french (and in my own native language, greek) we have this thing where, if we are addressing someone important, or even someone we respect, we have to address them as if they're mutliple people? Idk how to explain this in english. In english we just have "you", but in french we have two words for "you": "vous" (plural of "you") et "tu" (singular of "you"). But in greek culture we don't care about this that much and it is very common to talk to the waiter for example or to a stranger who is your age, in a normal way, not addressing them as if they're multiple people. And this doesn't necessarily mean you disrespect them or that you consider them inferior to you, it's just a sign of friendliness and familiarity.

But in France oh boy this is such a no no. If you address a stranger without respecting this formality it is so so deeply impolite. It's the equivalent of calling your Professor "bro". You just don't do it. However, if a state officer does it it's not just impolite, it's extremely offensive, it's perceived as an actual attack, which it is. It's saying "you are inferior, a second class citizen, and I will treat you as such and the state will treat you as such". And guess what, it still happens, but it happens almost exclusively to homeless people, immigrants or just non white people, mainly arabs and black people. These groups of people are often being addressed by the police for example as "one person" (singular of you) and not in plural, and it may sound ridiculous a to someone who is not familiar with that formality but here, it is an insidious but very real way of asserting authority over marginalized citizens while stripping them of their value and humanity.

And yeah Javert of course is extreeeemely polite to Valjean when he thinks he's Madeleine, because he's the Mayor, so he's a superior, so he addresses him using the plural form and of course he uses the singular form when talking to Fantine and of course he switches to singular form when he talks to Valjean later, once he discovers his real identity. This small detail really conveys how Javert treats Fantine and Valjean like actual flies that he can just squash with his boot. Also it should be noted that while Javert has started addressing Valjean in singular form, Valjean still continues to respect the formality, addressing him in plural. Perfect depiction of class hierarchy.

[tennessoui]

it’s like baby gorl there’s no way I, the author who wrote the fic you’re commenting on and who is the intended audience for this comment, am gonna agree with you 😿🙏 some things can just stay on your chest 🙏

[pilferingapples]

OK there's definitely other things to discuss in this chapter but I gotta highlight this bit:

Courfeyrac said to Bahorel:— “Would you believe it? Marius comes home nowadays at one o’clock in the morning.” Bahorel replied:— “What do you expect? There’s always a petard in a seminary fellow.”

especially because it's a bit where some translations I otherwise love and cherish Fail Me Utterly

Because yes on the one level it's a pretty standard "it's always the quiet ones" kind of comment

but also: Bahorel is straight up saying Marius is an explosive/carrying an explosive

you know. Like a powder keg, say

this is how Marius is going to show up at the barricade

Bahorel Knows The Future

(also I very much love that everyone really DOES sit around gossiping about Marius' love life, if only because Courfeyrac won't shut up about it XD)

[e-louise-bates]

Anne remembered that Miss Cornelia had given her a very different impression of Leslie’s mother. But had not love the truer vision?

NO, Anne, for heaven’s sake, no. Even taking into account Miss Cornelia’s bias, there is no way Rose West comes out of this story as anything but the villain of the piece. Even in other versions of this story as told in short stories (i.e, Only a Common Fellow, Four Winds), it’s never a mother who sells her daughter into sexual slavery so she can stay in her house. There’s no way to paint that as anything less than horrific.

Still, it *was* selfish of Rose West to make her daughter marry Dick Moore.

I’m glad you can at least admit that much, Anne! I do love your desire to think the best of people (as shown even in your younger years in your attempt to defend the women who raised you prior to Green Gables as meaning to be kind), but there are limits.

It’s amazing to me how I could read Anne’s House of Dreams as a kid and recognize the inherent tragedy of Leslie’s story without in the least understanding its implications, and then read it as an adult and realize that Rose West made her daughter marry an abusive r@pist so that she wouldn’t have to get kicked out of her house—granted Leslie claims that Rose never knew how bad Dick was, it’s still appalling.

(As a kid it was the bit about Kenneth that hit me the hardest, especially Leslie having seen his face as he was killed and never being able to forget it. I wonder if naming her own son Kenneth was an attempt to replace the old horror of that with new memories?)

[frnkiebby]

HIGH QUALITY PHOTOZ OF FRANK

UGH PLS

fucking love late lm frank

i love all lm frank

fuck~🎃

[iilmunchkiin]

STRAWPAGE DOODLES!! + asks

That is honestly so real of you, this is me but with the stupid metal pipe. I have an option on my keyboard that makes it when ever I type something it makes the metal pipe sound effect so you'll just hear *CLANK* *CLANK* *CLANK* *CLANK* *CLANK* (i LOVE IT)

THE RAT ANON!!! YOU'RE BACK!!!!

HELP I LEGIT CACKLED WHEN I SAW THIS HELP ME WIYGASDSDAS HE LOOKS SO DUMB I WANNA WJASHDJ I LOVE HOW STUPID THIS LOOKS wait why is he bald

No I'm prettttyyyy sure I have an idea who you are... a certain oc x dalv shipper perhaps... ( •̀ .̫ •́ )✧

LET ME IN. LET ME INNNNN!! I will be the president of the club. I have so much proof of me legit tweaking over him.

Oh my god no way dalv x decibat fan child lets go /j I love how the rat is presenting it like it's the nurse that helped them give birth to it "Here's your healthy baby!" *fucking throws it*

FUcking RAT

WHoaaa the martlet I just realized how little I draw martlet when I have such a cute design for her.. hm. I should draw her more.

"So cool" -Sandal Underwear Thank you btw ur cool too <3

HE'S SO CUTE I WANT HIM DEAD Oh this reminded me when I was talking to him in character AI and I called him a goofy goober, istg he sent the funniest fucking response ever like "Pardner, what in the rootin' tootin' hell is a GOOBER!?" I was cackling broo, I should draw our convo like I did when he said asked in that one comic if they knew what bleeding was when clover was, idk, DYING? This comic btw hihi

shut the FUCK UP!! IM GOING TO COOK YOU!!

[fagsex]

equinox show of devotion + altar alterations updates 🩷

[lillipad72]

Emily of New Moon Book Club ~~ First Time Reading

Chapter 3: A Hop out of Kin, Part 1

This post will be slightly different from my previous ones, a little less like an essay and more of my personal thoughts but I hope to provide some analysis as well!

Emily's Grief

"Emily thought they were the most precious of her memories. They were beautiful weeks--beautiful and not sad."

This quote comes from the narrator, who tells the reader how Emily looks back on the weeks before her father died years later. It is a beautiful and accurate depiction of grief and the grieving process. Yes, she felt pain, but after some time, the pain lessened, and one could see the beauty in that person's life.

2. Ellen Greene

I tried really hard to like Ellen. At the very beginning, she reminded me of the character archetypes of Mrs. Lynde and Susan Baker: a little loud, brash, and physically on the larger side. However, unlike Ellen Greene, Mrs. Lynde and Susan quickly became beloved characters who care deeply for others. I waited for Ellen Greene's big redemption moment, for it to never really appear. While I do give her credit for physically taking care of Emily and making sure that her relatives come for her and try to help Emily make a good impression, she does nothing for Emily's emotional needs, which she needs deeply because her father just died. With no big moment for Ellen, I had to finally take a negative opinion, so unless she has a surprise return where she changes, that is where I stand on her. But, I do believe that Emily and her father were overly harsh and, to a point, mean to Ellen Greene, so maybe her grumpiness was somewhat well founded.

3. Emily's Sense of Identity

"I don't want to learn sense and be done a world of good to . . . I--I want somebody to love me."

After losing her father, the one person who truly loved her, all Emily wants is someone to love her for who she is, not the 'perfect' child that Ellen wants her to learn to be by living with Aunt Ruth.

"The fact is, Emily Starr, you're queer, and folks don't care for queer children."

"I don't reckon the New Moon people will want to be bothered with you."

Here is Ellen Greene once again destroying Emily's feelings. She just lost her father and here is someone telling her that she is a 'bother' and 'queer' and not worthy of being taken care of.

I would not be surprised that after moving in with the Murrays she has to deal with a rigorous upbringing that tries to shape who she is into a 'perfect' child. I predict a struggle with her sense of identity in response to this new life.

This book has many topics to discuss, and I can only do so much at once! Expect another post tonight that covers what I think about our introduction to the Murrays!

chapter 3, part 2

[batrachised]

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