#Letters to self

[belovedapollo]

6th of January - reblog is ok, don’t repost/use

[creatingnikki]

Dear twenty-seven year old me,

You have your work cut out for you, let me just say that right away. I am sorry but this is all I could do. I, the twenty-six-year-old, who had to abandon the home she was happy and struggling to build. And the ones before me, the twenty-five, twenty-four, twenty-three, twenty-two, twenty-one, and twenty-year-old selves too — I won't say we did the best we could but I will say that we tried.

Of course, now, with five days left before I turn 27, I finally know that sometimes trying is not enough. For things that absolutely matter to you, for things you absolutely want, trying is not enough. And so you, you have to do better than try.

Too much pressure? But you only have to try for yourself. You don't have to try for the world or anybody in it. You don't have to try to be kinder, sweeter, politer, or more useful. Friends, lovers, corporations, ideologies will always demand more and more and more from you. And for them I tried and tried and tried. All of your twenty-something selves until now did. Your teen selves too.

Also, just because you are a good person, it does not mean that the world will treat you better. One of the hardest truths to accept and understand. Of course, you were never good because you thought there would be such a reward but you always just assumed that it would only be natural for life to be just and fair in these ways. Now I know it's not.

Please, remember, you do not have to be quiet and take it all lying down. You can still speak your mind and respectfully put people back in their place instead of letting them walk all over you. You are no Gandhi. You should only show your other cheek to someone when they have kissed one cheek and now you want them to kiss the other. Not to slap you again.

When you are tired, when you are upset and demotivated, please, take rest. Pause but do not quit or abandon. You know, our abandonment issues may just have something to do with the fact that we have quite easily abandoned our values, goals, and dreams at different stages of life.

Either because we wanted to accommodate another person or because of the hurdles that showed up. Or because it was us who did not believe that our goals and values and dreams were worthy of being faithful to, worthy of being met, worthy of being celebrated.

But dear twenty-seven-year-old me, listen to me. You are worthy. And I know you like proof and reason and not empty flattery or words of affirmation. And I could list a thousand reasons and this isn't even a hyperbole — I really could. However, all you need to know to believe that is that you have lived a life that is gracious and graceful. God loving, not god fearing. Fear has never motivated you in any walk of life. You are someone that if you were to come across you would not only really like but gosh you would be in utter awe and really respect.

Above any reason I could give you, however, is this — you have to support yourself, no matter who you are and how you decide to live your life, you have to support yourself.

Okay, now that all of this important stuff is out of the way I just want to say, while you work hard at what is important, have fun (as much as is possible and in ways that is safe) and keep writing. For dreams that do not seem possible right now, put them on hold but do not abandon them or shoot them in the head. For dreams that are possible now, don't overthink.

Balance, breathe, and go back to basics. That is all you have to remember when it all gets too much. I love you, your mother loves you, and there are a handful more on that list. If all else pales in face of pain, go to them. In joy and abundance too, go to them. In the mundanity of life too, be by them whenever possible.

All my love, now and forever, 26-year-old you.

[2truehearts]

today, my grandma peeled an orange for me. she looked so fond, so delicate and tender as she peeled back the skin and gave it to me. i hurriedly took it, got a slice, and took another one to try and peel. she said i shouldn't, but i did anyways because i wanted to give her one. i did dances in my head because as i peeled, a part of the skin fell off with my fingers. she smiled and told me this is better for your lunch, yea? you're already good at peeling it. i offered the one in my hands and she declined, saying that i should have it instead. it was too sweet for her, she said, and i all i wanted to do was turn back time so she could peel me one again. i felt little, like i was her grandkid again truly, for once.

[vizthedatum]

My self-despair during hard mental health times pushes me to distance when all I want is connection.

So - fuck that.

I can forego a healing modality or let myself go a bit—and ACCEPT IT—so that I can remain connected with myself and with others. (Note: Healing modalities are good, but not if they’re an excuse to perpetuate your misguided beliefs about the control you have over your life.)

It’s daring and challenging. It’s a mind warp if you’re not used to it. I know how easy it is to isolate or fall into dissociative vices… it’s hard to resist when things are scary, hard, uncomfortable - when you feel like you don’t have energy or can’t move your body! I know you don’t want to risk rejection. Or that you want to appear whatever your version of best or perfect is. This is all an illusion.

It is the illusion of protection that is driving you away from connection.

[oceanwithinsblog]

it'll be what it'll be

Dear me, I know you’re scared (and it’s alright to be), but I’m here to beg you not to give up. Not just yet. Things always get hard sooner or later. Don’t let that impress you, don’t let that deceive you. A new year has just begun and, if that means anything to you, it will be filled with surprises and achievements as long as you keep trying. I know you feel lonely. You’ve been feeling this…

[job-search-emotional-support]

if you've been rejected

So someone just rejected you. And it feels really hard to deal with. You feel it stinging in your chest. So what now? Take a breath. Remember, this is not the end of the world. Extend yourself kindness and compassion. They don't have full visibility over your whole self, and they are not judging your whole self. You have unlimited potential for improvement, for bringing value and being valued. Remember to be your own biggest supporter, and your close friend. What would you say to your close friend if she'd just been rejected? All that means, is that's not your path, for now. But there are many satisfying and fulfilling paths that you can take and seek out. And you are ever-changing, ever-growing, and your light will only get brighter. I believe in you.

[lovestruckpdf]

anyways goodnight world please be kinder and make me find comfort in the fact i exist rather than thinking of how death would feel much more loving than whatever the fuck this is

[brasideios]

‘At least I can talk about you in the past tense now, to put you behind me, piece by piece.  I’ll try to do you justice though, I’ve decided.  I’ll write you as truly as I can. I’ll probably fail, but I’ll try.  Perhaps you’ll be my novel.  Perhaps I’ll convince myself that that’s explanation enough for everything.’

- Letter Unsent, 14.12.2006

[belovedapollo]

sometimes I get sad when I remember my old friends, the time in my teen years, the things I used to like, places I used to go. the hugs I used to receive. all the things that made me happy and hurt me. but the past is gone, it’s done and it’s laying to rest. I shall not disturb it anymore. let it go, let it go, I keep telling myself. old habits die hard but it’s not impossible.

[2truehearts]

@yinyinggie

one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.

[2truehearts]

a lovely thing that happened to me today? i got complimented by my badminton coach and encouraged me to continue the sport bc i wanted to give up after not seeing immediate improvement

[i-came-for-the-fandoms]

Dear past me: nevermind, got dumber.

- Six Word Story (@i-came-for-the-fandoms)

[artistictouches]

Vintage Notebook - Whimsical British Scene Illustration

Product features - 90gsm paper for writing - Metal spiral for easy page removal - Document pocket for added storage - One size: 6" x 8" - Front cover print

Get it from Here

[dying4urlove]

letter to myself #1

someone who wants you in their life will show you that. they could have all the lovey-dovey feelings for you in the world, but if they never show up in front of you with those feelings, it’s not worth your time to keep wondering what the future has in store for your relationship. it’s better to just move onto people and things that you can commit to and will commit back to you. someone who has feelings for you, but has yet to show those feelings will either rise to the challenge of giving you what you deserve or they’ll just let you go. either way, you will get the life you deserve. listen to your intuition and trust that you know what’s best for you.

[lovestruckpdf]

think the reason i’m so anxious and probably disgusted abt my own writing that doesn’t cater to a fandom or person is bc of being in a way, disregarded by the attention it won’t ever get if it doesn’t reference to a certain writer, line, or piece of media the people i show it to would love

[star-millenium]

✨Call me Mill

🌸Magical Girl

🎀Fairy of Neverending Knots

📖Keeper of the ????

How longer... How farther... Tell me, Xueyi.