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ilikecarsandlike4people · 10 months ago

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Sometimes you just need someone to tell you you're doing a good job

#personal #Its been two hours or so #But I keep replaying it in my head #I really needed to hear it #Kept me up most of the night

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ineed-to-sleep · 4 months ago

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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it

#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL #AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP #yep that was meee :3 #man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did #but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying #I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious #I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep #then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh #I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking #so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital #luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point #so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like #I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do #and I was scared it might make things worse #but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack #luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone #and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there #I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city #bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there #so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by #I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before #I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches #so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die #cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome #but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug #but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication #now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf #sleep.txt

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moonkhao · 3 months ago

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hi.

#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone #but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3 #it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere #like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july #which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault #i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY #anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like #flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation #i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D #and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen #it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold #(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all #like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love #ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place #anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls #and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE #he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual #i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now #i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3 #AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks #@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3

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sea-beam · 29 days ago

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saw your tags on the leaked gen 3 art about how creepy pokemon stuff has been your main interest for a while. if you don't mind me asking, what sort of stuff do you know about? i wanna learn more about it ^^

ig the best way to answer this would be to share some of my favorite weird things, so i'll drop a few here..

bad egg and the other missingno-esque creatures decamark and ??.. they're likely to show up if you're using cheats but bad egg can also just kind of show up at the drop of a hat when you're using an emulator in my experience

mystery zone (and other out of bounds areas)

and honorable mention goes to chief. Who are you

#most of them are unintentionally creepy but still kept me up at night and fascinated me at the same time when i was little #there needs to be way more art dedicated to creepy pokemon stuff besides just gen 1 missingno theres so much potential for surrealist art #pkmn #ask

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deus-ex-mona · 7 months ago

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you’ve heard of the lovers bench

now get ready for the divorce couch

#there’s now enough space on the couch to fit the ‘x’ between the first lip and the second lip #im sorry please bear with me for a moment im tryna stay awake on the 11pm train else i’ll miss my stop lmao #haven’t had to take the train at night in a while. it’s… surprisingly crowded. hm.#anyway it’s been a strange day i didn’t expect to finish my work so quickly on a friday help #and during what little i did i just. kept thinking about last stage and made more typos than ever in the span of 5 mins #im glad i finished most of my work before the mv dropped. i’d have messed up even more otherwise lmao #anyways!!!!! lxl divorce arc was glorious and everything i could ever ask for. i think they should divorce again.#lxl regretful divorce arc r e a l

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sysig · 3 days ago

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Coming in to play! (Patreon)

#Doodles #Webkinz #Webkinz hours! The cute lads have wedged their way back to the forefront of my mind haha #I'm honestly really glad I kept all my Webkinz plush over time and they've survived all the moves and whatnot #Some are still missing - most notably my horses for some reason - but I have the rest onhand and they're still cute and soft and I love them #Getting the opportunity to name and play with them as a young'un made them stick quite strongly in my mind ♪#And I still find some of my design sensibilities with their roots in the gameplay/game design/UI design/interactivity #I think it inspired some of my Video Game Design brain which is an aspect of myself I'm quite happy with :D #And I /love/ plushies probably now more than ever <3 So I'm doubly glad younger me didn't get rid of them haha #Got my lineup that featured in Tala's Requestober this year ♥ I left out a couple for what are probably obvious reasons ahem ahem #If you haven't seen what the Official design of the clownfish is in Webkinz... The plushy is arguably worse lol why that one of all of them #Hire me to design Webkinz fish I dare you #There are actually several cute fish - and several ugly ones! Lol I don't know why they're so inconsistent #It's not like the differences between Signature and Classic! Most of the fish are Classic or eStore! I don't know what gives lol #Anyway lol the other one I left out was my Night Mare since I couldn't remember his name either - which is a shame! I liked him #I still have some fairly clear memories of playing Webkinz with those lads <3 Of the different rooms and relationships and games #It's nostalgic! It's nice to reminisce on something so cheery and cute and light and fluffy :)#As for the rest hehe - I tend to pick up 'kinz whenever I find them at secondhand shops and the like - much like Lalaloopsies #They're out of production! Harder to find - rare and valuable haha totally #I haven't found any New With Tags so far but I'm on the hunt still!! Someday it'll be my turn...#But I Have found some really adorable fellows for cents on the dollar haha <3 Two Blue Whales and a Sheep and Duck!! So cute #My latest find was a Lil'kinz Lioness Cub and she is - So tiny <3 Really adorably constructed with a fluffy nose ahhh ♪#The Long Eared Bunny is my current Free 'kinz! I unfortunately lost the account with Baaby so I had to start over again but that's alright #This time I've got Embroidery and she's in a closet cosplay of Edgar haha - black-and-grey striped shirt with dark pants and round glasses #And angel wings! I was able to snag those from the Ganz website and they're perfect honestly haha ♥ She won an Open Beauty Pageant with it!#Couple of her with Sugar - my first Webkinz I got to play with since Diamond's tag was thrown away :') Sugar's my oldest 'kinz <3 #And of her with smol's Free 'kinz since I convinced her to play with me off and on haha - her Leonberger named Borgus :D #And then one final one of what I'd really like - a Webkinz Spider ;;♥ I /know/ they've made spider objects that are really cute!#And April Fools' fake pets of a spider!! Give me the fluffy spider please Ganz even if there's no plushie I just need to pet the spider

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brehaaorgana · 11 months ago

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People joke about ADHD all the time, even swear up and down they totally think they also have it, but then if you ask for an accommodation, to please please please provide things in fucking writing, EXACTLY what they want and need, you will even work it out WITH them, like they promised they would do — repeatedly over and over, and then you don't get it people really will fucking be like:

I am using the incorrect bathroom (TM) to place my shelving and store my things. Homegirl literally removed various sundries and toiletries from a CLOSED CABINET and SHELF because she's interested in boundaries and accountability for my mess.

I said months ago I wanted to improve things for her comfort level and needed a written list of what precisely that fucking looked like in order to achieve it and not miss anything she deemed important. I explained how ADHD works, why I needed a written reference. Why I had to have it laid out, and if something needed changing we needed to write it all out. I would've made the list myself, but they said they would make it for the whole house to hold up their end of things. And, thinking this was a very reasonable adult solution to keeping the house in good shape, I said okay, come up with the list of expectations and what is needed and that way we can update how we handle chores. Awesome. I will do that to uphold my end.

No list ever gets made or drafted or anything despite my bringing it up, knowing we need to do it, but I DO get berated for failing to meet expectations and boundaries that were never fucking provided or delivered and include "don't store toiletries in this particular bathroom because I don't like it."

I can't believe I am a goddamn adult who gets treated like an idiot child for expecting adult communication instead of snide ass passive aggressive bullshit and basic respect for my things.

Because when I fucking get home, my shelving has been removed and a cabinet emptied of my things and placed in the "correct" bathroom.

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

Oh shit she solved it, this doesn't look cluttered at all!

What a vast improvement to storing things in appropriate storage!

#my mortal sins include a laundry basket in the kitchen which is where the laundry room is #doing something INCOMPREHENSIBLE to work with my adhd like use the downstairs bathroom to get ready in the morning #instead of the upstairs one because that works best for me and keeps me moving in the morning #storing hobby supplies i was using in the living room in a milk crate basket to clear space at night easily #i left an oil painting to dry on a tabletop easel on MY coffee table and she tried to clean it up causing some of the paint to come off #i used to keep an empty up placed on the mat next to the cat water fountain to remind me to fill up often #not a mess of cups not half emptied cups. a dedicated refill cup tucked behind the fountain #when it kept getting removed i switched it up and placed the cup on top of the cat food bin to clearly indicate it was a cat item #no this is UNACCEPTABLE #also all my coats were removed from the coat rack i feel insane #coats GO ON THE COAT RACK #have you ever had someone actively sabotage your tools to manage your adhd bc its not fun lol #'i can understand why it feels shocking now' literally the most vile snide snake shit when you didnt communicate boundaries at all #its not communicating an expectation to gather up my personal belongings and dump them somewhere else and then text me about it during work #this is how you know shes only ever lived with blood relatives before this lol the entitlement #adhd blogging

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trying-to-jew · 4 months ago

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Deeply tired (but unsurprised) sigh

#Well shit #I was breaking down about it this morning but now I just feel… empty #Like I guess the back-to-back experience with losing another friend who believed violence against (((Zionists))) weren’t hate crimes-#last night just. Poured me out emotionally #Oh yeah I was literally talking about how I’d lost 4 friends to the leftist antisemitism rabbit hole (after I explained the most recent one #And she kept asking for “context” to make sure they were “really antisemitic” instead of “not wanting Palestinians to die”#LIK GIRL THEY’RE SUPPORTING TERRORISTS AND USING PALESTINIAN VICTIMS OF HATE CRIMES AS A GOTCHA TO TELL JEWS TO SHUT UP #HOW MUCH MORE DO I NEED TO TURN MY POCKETS OUT?!?!#She kept saying she just wanted to “understand the context” so that she could judge if the antisemitism I saw first hand was real #And she kept bringing up “gEnOcIdE” as a rebuttal to me saying that there were people using Palestine as an excuse to be antisemitic #I’m so fucking done.#I told her off for making my personal trauma about I/P and told her that I couldn’t have a romance with #someone who doesn’t trust Jews to define their own oppression #Leftist Antisemitism #Personal #Okay to reblog #Vent #Prospective Convert #Jewish Convert #Jumblr #My Post

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bedbugbiting · 2 months ago

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Oh! I forgot to mention that my most recent therapist quit. I barely even started with her. Remember when I used to count my therapists?

I lost count. What is this, Eighteen? Who knows? That numbering convention got ridiculous after a while.

Edit: This was Nineteen, at least.

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nemmet · 1 year ago

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question: how did you discover/get into scooby doo?

this is something i'm always so interested to hear, being that there are few people who don't have at least some small tie to the franchise. whether you would consider it one of your biggest current interests or it's just something nostalgic from your childhood, i'd love to know how you found scooby and what it means to you!

#for me it was my dad! he grew up with the original show and wanted to introduce it to me #so one day when i was maybe? seven?? he came home with the winter wonderdog dvd and we watched it that night #from there we watched every single scooby doo movie that had ever been made #and got the new ones as they came out in subsequent years!#watching a new scooby movie with my dad every weekend are honestly some of my favourite childhood memories #also what's new scooby doo had also started airing on one of the main cartoon channels here in the uk around 2010 #so that's the show i watched the most consistently as a kid #velma was my original favourite of the gang because i looked a lot like her (big glasses/same haircut/etc.)#people would always compare me to her and it genuinely gave me a lot of confidence in my appearance that stays with me to this day #but fred was always my firm second favourite - he made me laugh the most of any character #and took on a deeper meaning to me in my adolescence when i realised i was autistic and strongly identified with his portrayals as such #the characters are probably what's kept me coming back all this time - they've been with me forever #and i love them individually + as a team who support each other with their unique skills and love for one another #but also the wacky adventures and general aesthetic #many people joke about the basic plot being the same every time but it makes my autistic brain happy #i love permanence and consistency baby!!!!!#and the different variations on that same formula always keep things fresh and fun #anyway ramble over #looking forward to hearing you guys' responses! :D #scooby doo #nem misc posts :]

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ultimateyakazoo · 1 year ago

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chapter 3, hajime makes murder investigation much more difficult by not trying to watch the video call to the end

#my point being if hed kept watching for 2 more seconds he would have been able to see #that the person on the stepladder was never going to hang themselves #did he really think he could run from one building to another quicker than a person on a stepladder could walk up two steps anyway #sdr2 #super danganronpa 2 #hajime hinata #hanging tw #my art #press night tonight!!! super excited #ive had my hair in rollers all night n most of the day and completely forgot that im supposed to have my hair in a tight bun #for the show itself #hopefully my hair will have retained at least a bit of bounce for after where were all glammed up and drinking bubbly and posing for cameras #wish me luck queens #hehehe

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erisolkat · 4 months ago

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god i hate everyone

#who thought it would be cute to immediately start ribbing me about how hairy and bald and ugly im gonna be when i go on t #one. im taking minoxidil. two. i wanna be hairy. and three. im not transitioning to attract you guys im transitioning to attract other trans #people! other trans guys find it hot come on!#like ok so dads brother is out here rn right #so first mom tells me hes gonna ask me questions about being trans. ok fine.#second she starts going on about how i had to be emotionally vulnerable with like 3 different therapists for this. whatever.#then when i start participating in the conversation she immediately asks “so how are you feeling about losing all your hair”#THEN she has the audacity to say to my uncle “yeah its sort of a gamble hes either gonna end up hairy like the italian side or fairly #baby smooth like yall“ when she fucking KNOWS that im dysphoric about my lack of body hair #and this happens every time! and its out of nowhere constantly!#all the while the cis men in the room are fucking bullying me with all this toxic masculinity bullshit!#sometimes i just wish i had never come out is all im saying #kept this a secret until i became an adult yknow. yeah i would have to do everything myself but it wouldn't be like this #just because i told you that you could call me a fag doesnt mean youre suddenly allowed to do microagressions constantly #shes tickled to fucking death with calling my future bottom growth my “teenie weenie” what the fuck! what the fuck!!!#and meanwhile every time i try to say words or make a joke my dad and grandpa jump on the fucking opportunity to correct me! or cut me off!#sorry im fucking exhausted i barely slept at all the night before last and got i think maybe 7 hours of sleep at most last night #and i just got out of therapy which always wears me out

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skitskatdacat63 · 7 months ago

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Here is a badly drawn comic of my terrible, awkward group project experience from yesterday. I thought it was very absurd so I wanted to share it other people lol :)

Let me know, how do you find their conduct 😭

#i tried to small talk #and they werent rly listening and were like i just wanna get this done w so i can eat #yet talked to me abt smth random after #but the moving the laptop is what made me draw this 😭#like is that not absurd????#i dont wanna rewatch the video #but i wanna see what the camera frame looked like #bcs from what i saw my drawing is p accurate #but yeah they also talked for the majority of the time #even tho i did more research bcs they took up most of the slides #AND ALSO TOOK MY IDEAS #im like uhhhh im p sure [insert slide topic] is required!!!#and i went to go start writing it #and theyre like oh okay ill do that slide #and even tho i kept reminding them of the slide requirement #they kept being like ugh i cant think of anything #and then would take my ideas when i proposed them #like the conclusion part was to write a proposal abt what solution can be made for the current event topic #AND i took notes the night before and wrote down the idea for the solution #and i told them and theyre like oh yeah thats okay and started writing those slides #i know i should be more assertive but im so conflict avoidant and was kinda like oh. okay. ah.#lmao i hope this doesnt make me come off as someone victimizing themselves #im just annoyed 😭😭#and also this person was on my abroad trip and we all hated them #but i felt bad abt how much we hated them and theyre(I THOUGHT) much more chill in a classroom setting #so i kinda softened my hate for them and theyre the only person i know in my class rly #so im like ahhhh we should work together!#and now i remember why i dislike them 😭😭#catie.rambling.txt #catie.art.

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skrunksthatwunk · 4 months ago

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i think i mentioned this a while back but im working on an "every kuwameshi" video right (yes it's ridiculous i know somebody take them away from me) and i just need to say im so fucking sick of editing the saint beasts arc </3 pls i love that one normally but this section of the video is like. 70% silent group shots it's so bad and not fun to watch or edit and i hate it :[

#the rules are: (roughly) every frame they're on screen together and as much of their voices referring to/addressed to each other as possible #(this becomes very complicated during group conversations if you can believe it). so anyway it's TOO MUCH #im also making a much shorter highlights video concurrently bc like. that's a good idea #so you have light dose kuwameshi and EXTREME CLINICAL GRADE kuwameshi for the sickest of us #despite my complaining im almost done w great beasts. yusuke's about to fight suzaku so there's not a lotta kuwa there #truthfully im not too excited about editing the yukina rescue arc either but whatever. at least the highlights video is fun #anyway idc if it's unwatchable idc if everyone including me thinks it sucks the every kuwameshi video is gonna have every kuwameshi i can #possibly put in there from the dub's 112 episodes and im not giving up. im in too deep ok im committed #it's already like 70 mins long... houghh #i kept thinking in their voices last night it's getting genuinely ridiculous. sheesh #but i'll do it. for the bit and my pride if nothing else #also i haven't figured out if i wanna do movies/ova/eizou yet :p we'll see how i feel when i finish this in like 7 months. if it gets done #anyway this is the most insane thing i've ever done probably and if i were my tumblr mutual and i saw this i might be concerned

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kuromi-hoemie · 5 months ago

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lol i love how yesterday morning i was like “i love nightmares pls send me one” and i had 3 back to back 💀

*hesitantly* i ... i love nightmares..? send me one... once a week? no, twice a week

#one was living in a kind of big 1 story house w other ppl and trying to survive a bear attack #my middle dream i don't remember #and my third dream is kind of long to explain ૮ – ﻌ–ა #but basically me n a bunch of other ppl were trapped in a big house by ppl who were analogous to the iof and we needed to get out #before they killed us all.. most ppl were too scared to try running but compliance does not guarantee safety.. only 2 others left w me #and there was some thing.. like an ogre ig?? sorta looked like a v tall v buff dude and he kept trying to throw a ball at us w full force #but it hits like a cannon so we had to dodge that or be obliterated (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) we made it but i def left some stuff behind back at the #house like my wallet n maybe my phone etc so they had more info to go off of but i woke up a lil after the ogre guy #all i remember from the second dream is i remember being atop a large tower and the stones in the walls were part of an #ancient magical seal that had something to do w the creator's connection w birds and it was sort of a sacred site?#bc the stones together formed an invisible barrier over the area and birds were attracted to the area. u could pull the stones out #the wall if u wanted to 🤭 ur not supposed to but You Could. all else i remember is being in my car w three others #w me in the back and we drove past a fucking tornado akfkakak. i don't remember the actual plot of that dream or what #pushed it into nightmare territory but i have had quite an adrenaline filled night 🫡 being locked up in the torture/slavery/prisoner house #was the one that made me get up. where did these come from???¿ i basically just fell asleep watching Steven universe #👉🏾👉🏾 at least they weren't emotional nightmares.. i much prefer situational ones

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tittyinfinity · 3 months ago

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No seroquel means no sleep for me I guess. I've been trying for hours

#decided if im gonna be awake i may as well do something other than wallow in thoughts that cause me anxiety #just super fucked up that i went from believing i could no longer feel romantic attraction #to suddenly being flooded with feelings #and like he didn't even confess romantic feelings for me he just said hed be down to fuck sometime #usually id just be like yeah that's fine i don't usually catch feelings #so it's fucking me up that im having romantic feelings towards someone who probably doesnt feel that way #and it's fucking me up that i caught feelings from being TOLD he'd like to fuck we haven't even done that #sigh i can't pretend like those feelings weren't already there and just extremely repressed....#kept having so many dreams about being in love w him... I'd do everything i could to shake the feeling off #it comes down to insecurities #feeling like i make too many mistakes to be with someone as good as him #the fear that I'll stress him out #one of the most amazing people I've ever met. he has respected my boundaries for years #and i guess those boundaries were only firmly in place bc i knew deep down it would spark something #honestly i felt a huge spark hours before he even told me #whenever he came up behind me and hugged me on the neck #his lips accidentally brushed against my neck and i swooned #we haven't talked since that night but he said he wants to have a conversation about it when he's not busy #he has two jobs #his 2nd one lasting til 1am #but yeah thinking about what he might say is making me nervous #like what if he suddenly decides that it IS too risky #i don't think ill be able to kick these feelings #at least i let him know head on that i might fall in love w him if we pursue anything else #but we haven't even pursued shit!! and i feel this way already!!#i guess not ''in love'' but the crush is hard-fucking-core #the kind of crush i havent had since meeting my ex 7 years ago...#i forgot what the feeling was like. and it's.... so strong #.bdo

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