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next time if you ever feel like falling back to old habits just remember this
personally, there's no better motivation than remembering that there's probably many people out there who don't want me to succeed.
#when you fall back to your old ways you're actually giving the devil and your haters what they've always wanted#student#study motivation#studyspo#self improvement#studyblr#mental health#psychology#it girl#self care#self esteem#college#personal development#personal growth#that girl#studying#university#becoming that girl#it girl energy#glow up#healing#philosophy#medical school#med studyblr#medblr#quotes#self confidence#self love#faith
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NASA Spinoffs Bolster Climate Resilience, Improve Medical Care, More
When it comes to NASA, most people look to the skies as rockets, rovers, and astronauts push the boundaries of space exploration. But the benefits of going above and beyond can be found here on Earth through products and services born from NASA innovation. from NASA https://ift.tt/ch0iHDs
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self care based on your chart
I talked about the signs and houses connection to body parts and many of you requested this post. These are ways to do your self-care using your chart, the signs, and planetary placements and aspects. The same concept can be applied using simple self-love practices in other areas of life too.
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I recommend you look at your transits chart or solar return as well to better know the best self-care practices at the time. You can base your general self-care on your natal chart but the transits can tell you the best times to take action or avoid taking action on something significant.Â
Look for the planets placements and their aspects, mainly if in the angular houses or make many significant aspects. Like I mentioned before I got so much dental work done when saturn was in the 10th, conjunct my mc and opposite north node, it was expensive but I was able to afford it.
You can also consider the degrees if you're feeling extra, in your natal chart and your solar return. Degrees can be associated with signs, so they can be simply linked to the areas they rule.
Planets rule things related to body parts like diseases or accidents and influence certain parts of the body depending on the aspects they make. Also two planets can influence the same body parts.
⧠SIGNSÂ
Aries/1st house - head, face, brain, eyesÂ
â Prone to headaches so get quality sleep, wash your hair often, and do wash your makeup, nothing heavy on the head. Exercise and workout in general helps release any pent-up energy or stress. Take good care of your eyes, sunglasses, eye drops, natural eye products/makeup. Keep your brain healthy. Foods and supplements that regulate your energy levels. Head massages, soft pillows, facemasks, frequent haircuts, breathing exercises, get enough brain oxygen. Fast thinkers and can have racing thoughts, so journaling, running, meditating can help. Release anger in healthy ways.
Taurus/2nd house - neck, ears, throat, thyroidÂ
â The senses can be heightened so make sure your environment is comfortable, the temperature, the sounds, scents, fabrics, the food, arrange it like it's a visions board. Coffee, tea, warm soups, breads and oats, and warm herbal drinks that work for you. Can cling to that one thing they like, so do change your diet from time to time to get different nutrient. Renew your clothes, make your space cozy. Neck massages, aromatherapy, and body relaxation methods. Singing or writing, chill playlists, comfy places and peaceful walks. Cooking your own food can be therapeutic and healing for you.Â
Gemini/3rd house - arms, hands, lungs, shouldersÂ
â Tend to be anxious and restless, since it also rules the nervous system and is ruled by mercury, so the mind is central. Can't stress it enough, but writing, journaling, speaking just getting your thoughts out. Since the mind is always active, look for ways to release that mental energy. Cardio, pilates, fast sports, board games, socialising. Can have fast metabolism and lean long body parts so accustom your diet and exercise based on that. Massage your shoulders, read a book, and do stretch regularly. Honestly.. joke around, taking all those thoughts seriously is no good. DO YO NAILLS đ
Cancer/4th house - chest, breast, stomach, wombÂ
â Ruled by the moon, get a healthy outlet for your emotions, accept your emotions, write, speak up, cry when you need, watch something funny, your comfort show, make yourself laugh. Check your hormones regularly, find a good diet for stomach health, whole grains and high-fiber foods, take your digestive supplements. Do yoga, stomach exercises, breathing exercises. Drink lots of water. Choose your friends wisely, find people you trust. Make your bedroom comfy, invest in a quality bed, get yourself comfy clothes. Cooking your own food is again a self love thing to do, baking, homey places, nature and quiet places. Get you a furr baby. Â
Leo/5th house - heart, spine, spinal column, upper backÂ
â Ruled by the sun, go out more and get your vitamin d. Choose heart-healthy foods, leafy greens and soluble fiber foods and supplements. Check your heart health and blood pressure. Do exercises that work for both your heart, your upper back and shoulders, aerobic exercises, fun sports and activities. You can be generous to everyone but be generous to yourself too, buy yourself gifts, spoil yourself. Do a full hair and skin routine, find a hobby, watch shows that inspire you, make your inner child happy. Embrace you emotions, your skills, pursue your passions, be expressive and go out for adventures.
Virgo/6th house - abdomen, digestive system, intestines, spleen
â Listen to your body and keep adjusting your diet and routine to fit your needs. Your body can be just as picky, so be mindful of the food you consume, of any allergies or foods that are hard to digest. Get your digestive supplements and enzymes, do your research. Choose gut-healthy foods and the best times to eat for you. Go for a nature walk, exercise to release any pent-up stress, cardio or pilates. Get indoors plants or plant them yourself. Spend time with pets. Make your own natural medicine that works for you, even if as simple as tea. Read a book, journal to organize your thoughts, keep your space clean. Reward yourself and acknowledge your efforts and progress.Â
Libra/7th house - kidneys, lower back, bladder, buttocks
â Find a way to maintain a balanced lifestyle that works for you. Add a variety of nutrients to your diet, foods for healthy kidneys to make that skin glow, antioxidant foods and supplements. Keep your kidneys and bladder healthy. Lower body and buttocks exercises, strength training, dancing, going out for walks. Decorate and beautify your own place, try new recipes, go for a picnic. How you feel is more important than how you look, make yourself feel pretty, do a skincare routine, create a vision board, romanticize your life. Be the person you want to love and identify your own opinions from those of others, yours matter.Â
Scorpio/8th house - genitals, colon, urethra, reproductive system
â With all those transformative energies, change what you consume to fulfill your changed needs, feeding your body and mind the proper nutrients. Maintain healthy reproductive organs and balanced hormones, do your check ups. Maintain healthy guts, fiber and antioxidant rich foods, high vitamin drinks, herbal medicine can be beneficial too. Lower body and muscle exercises, stretch regularly, breath and meditate to calm your mind. Invest in quality skincare and unscented hygiene products. Journal, write your reflections, your progress and goals, positive affirmations, light your great scented candles and watch a funny show.Â
Sagittarius/9th house - thighs, hips, liver, legs
â Go out and wander around, exploring new places, foods, and random things will light you up, you know it. Find a diet that works for your energy levels, protein rich foods and shakes, citrus and greens, simple nutritious meals. Watch out for any leg injuries. Go out for running, do leg exercises, muscle building, any outdoors sports. Write a bucket list, update your wishes list, go for mini solo adventures, speak to the locals when you travel, learn new words, find authentic travel souvenirs. Listen to a podcast or watch a documentary, keep a positive outlook on your future, positive environment and self-talk.
Capricorn/10th house - bones, joints, knees, skin, hair
â Can get caught up in doing or not doing things, so allow yourself to both be active and rest when you need. Find foods and supplements that are good for bone strength and joint health, calcium and magnesium rich foods, going out and getting your vitamin d is good for both your skin and bones. Going for morning runs, muscle building workouts, chiropractic-approved exercises and stretches, any leg sports. Invest in skincare and dental care. Write down things like goals, tasks list, and self development notes. Watch things that motivate you and light you up, acknowledge how far youâve come.
Aquarius/11th house - ankles, calfs, achilles, circulatory systemÂ
â Can be very future focused, so do protect your hopes and find an outlet to express them but enjoy the present as it is. Add water-rich foods to your diet, foods that help the blood flow like fatty fish, avocados and other circulation boosters or supplements. Exercises that improve circulation like jogging, cycling, cardio, dancing, swimming. Find ways to express your ideas of the world and fantasies, music can put you in that creative energy, meditation, talking to a friend. Take a long bath, light some candles, write down your ideas, your hopes and dreams, your thoughts and what you're grateful for.Â
Pisces/12th house - feet, toes, pineal gland, lymphatic systemÂ
â Can also be spacey and future focused so any self expression activities can help that energy flow. Choose foods that help maintain your body fluid balance, water-rich foods, leafy veggies, omega 3 rich foods, and supplements that boost lymphatic drainage. Avoid foods that drain your lymphatic system. Find hobbies that light you up, listen to music, paint, be creative. Nature walks, swimming, cardio, cycling, dancing. Taking frequent baths and soaking your feet in soap and epsom salt water can release stress from the feet area, grounding activities, reflecting, journaling and writing down your hopes and thoughts.
⧠PLANETS
Sun - heart, head, spine, spinal cord, eyes â can influence vitality, heart function, headaches, fever, eyesight.. etc
Moon - stomach, breast, lungs, blood circulation, body fluids â can influence colds, blood flow, dehydration, stomach issues.
Mercury - nervous system, ears, mouth, skin â can influence ear problems, mental illness, restlessness, breathing issues.
Venus - face, cheeks, throat, bladder, skin â can influence skin issues, bladder infections, throat issues, carbs and sugar balance.Â
Mars - chest, muscles, blood, genitals â can influence accidents, wounds, muscles weakness, energy levels, genital diseases.
Jupiter - liver, kidneys, pancreas, thighs â can influence cholesterol issues, fatty liver, toxins overload, diabetes, kidneys issues.
Saturn - bones, teeth, hair, legs, joints, knees â can influence knee or joint problems, dental problems, wisdom teeth, bone diseases, hair loss.
Note that these are just suggestions that I hope remind you and inspire you to listen to your body and take good care of it, discern, do your research and take only what works for you. much love đ«¶
#astrology#astrology signs#astrology planets#medical astrology#self love#self care#self improvement#astro notes#astro observations#astro placements#astro community#birth chart#solar return#transits#astrology transits#astrology degrees#healthy habits#health
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Give yourself a little grace. đ Remember that your best is going to look different everyday. Healing isnât linear. đ«¶đŒ Sending love. đđ€
#mental health awareness#self love#be happpy#mental health#motivation#positive vibes#positivity#be positive#love#give yourself grace#be graceful#positive quotes#positive thinking#positive thoughts#positive mental attitude#positive suggestions#positive affirmations#positive mindset#positive mental health#positive mentality#positive memes#self medicate#self healing#self awareness#self care#self improvement#self help#motivating quotes#motivational quotes#motivational
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Pay as you can Plan C Pill Protocols from $5, with future use pill protocols for $250. It's election season in the Post-Roe era. Pass it on for your sisters.
#cvt2dvm#studyblr#self care#self improvement#self love#vet med#study blog#medical abortion#plan c#abortion#feminism#bodily autonomy#self governance#prepping#women's rights#womens health
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âDopamine downregulates serotonin: the more pleasure you seek, the more unhappy you get.â
âDr. Robert Lustig (Pediatric Endocrinologist)
#psychology#neurology#endocrinology#science#medicine#doctors#medical students#quotes#motivation#motivational#self help#self improvement#self care#addiction
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At least twice a week since July I've had people thanking me for my neuroendocrine cancer education and telling me how often they use the resources I built them :') idk imposter syndrome is ever present and in healthcare you can even have thoughts of "Man, am I spending too much time educating/researching on poorly understood cancers?"
I'm still struggling to decide on format, but I'm currently compiling my research and resources to make a self-guided cancer education resource for my team. I really enjoy my job rn but I think focused cancer education would be nice to springboard into later in life once I finish learning about the inner guts of the ACA. I'm finally healthy enough to consider higher education, but the catch is my employer insurance is the only reason I can get my medical care...and leaving for school to be able to focus more officially on cancer education means I'd lose that medical care security :(
#Creepy chatter#Idk I think I want another few years at least in my field since I can sample each medical specialty but oncology is my babygirl#The emails I get from the NCI..boy you would not believe the insane breakthroughs we've had in just this year#Literally modifying cancer cells to 'I hope we both die' to themselves + treatment resistant cells#Hi hello we are learning to hijack cancer evolution to make it kill itself with a series of kill switches#But first I want to understand this busted but improving system and how to protect affordable care for the most vulnerable populations#I learn the jargon. I break the jargon. I make an education series. Repeat lol...#Anyway biochem is my fun thought for a major and then focusing it into an oncology arm#Or maybe just cellular biology to learn more about immune checkpoints + mRNA revolutions#Last time I seriously thought abt going back school I was 22 and got diagnosed with Forever Expensive Sickness#đ§Me when I...me when I want to work w cancer closer but my health is too expensive to maintain w school đ§đ§#So I focus in the ACA until I can do school ig ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ do good where you are rn and all that#Cw medical#Cw cancer#Sorry forgot my tags lol...during my work day it's easy to forget
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bro I know we've all heard abt cloth mother vs wire mother but working in animal care its become so obvious everywhere
#this kitten season has been rough lately#all of the stray babies born in april are sick and dying#and so there's been a lot of death happening at the clinic#but its genuinely amazing to see how much better they do with another kitten#or with their mom or with a foster to cuddle and hang out with them#as important as medication and treatment plans are so is comfort#im overnighting a little spunky girl named spitfire currently#and she's improving with meds and fluids of course#but she isnt resting as much as id hoped which she absolutely needs to do to get stronger#so i just laid down with her wrapped up in a blanky on my chest and she slept immediately#she was so much more comfortable cuddling with me than sleeping in a crate with a heat bag#shes one whos mom was likely poisoned and is semi paralyzed so she finds it hard to get cozy#i was just happy to see her sleep#anyway im on a tangent now#but long story short: comfort is so fucking important in animal care and rehabilitation#and as grim as it sounds its also nice for them if they end up passing away#because at least they had comfort at the end#shelter posting#animal death
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HEY GUESS WHAT despite it all i am 2 weeks no migraine which i think is a record amount of time without a migraine this year >:3
#shoutout to actual medical care we <3 getting conditions treated and improving quality of life <3#can't believe i was living with almost daily migraine for ??? amount of time. it was so insidious because my main symptom is#'makes me stupid' that isn't a joke i'm like. experiencing significant neurological issues. and uhh that made it hard to tell what was#going on! such as 'wow i have a migraine almost all the time huh!' <- a discovery i made when i finally decided it was not good to#have a headache most days even if it was a vague one and then got treated for migraine and could actually kind of think again
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Here's my attempt of making a very short comic using SFM posters with my TF2 persona and Medic OC (still doesn't have a name for him yet)... Kinda for Halloween as well, but only for a bit...đ
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#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 fanart#team fortress 2 fanart#tf2 sfm#tf2 sfm poster#sfm#sfm poster#tf2 femscout#tf2 femscout oc#tf2 femscout persona#tf2 medic#tf2 medic oc#my art#also umm#let me know if there's anything that i can do to improve#either for sfm poster or comic#also also#take care and have a nice day ^^
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â "Scientists are particularly interested in psilocybin because of its potential to treat mental health conditions like depression, anxiety, and post-traumatic stress disorder. "Psilocybin has been shown in preliminary studies to produce rapid and lasting improvements in mood after just one or two sessions. "Research into its promise as a mental health treatment is expanding beyond mood disorders. In a new study, researchers found that participants who consumed the psychedelic substance in a therapeutic context reported reduced depression and improvements in their sleep quality. "Psilocybin is a naturally occurring compound found in certain species of mushrooms, often referred to as 'magic mushrooms.' When ingested, psilocybin is converted in the body to psilocin, which interacts with serotonin receptors in the brain. This interaction leads to altered perception, mood, and cognition." (see entire article here)
#mental health#psilocybin#sleep#depression#anxiety#post-traumatic stress disorder#PTSD#major depressive disorder#mushrooms#magic mushrooms#shrooms#medical#medicine#science#biology#aesthetic#nature#news#self care#therapy#stress#mental illness#beauty-funny-trippy#mentally fucked#actually mentally ill#mentally unstable#mentally tired#self improvement#mentally ill#social anxiety
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100 days of productivity !! - Day #005
The cat you always see in these pictures is named Crash :3
Friday, Nov 15th, 2024: Hello Tumblr, it has been awhile. I definitely came down with something, but I feel better today. I read about half a book this day, so I wasn't doing nothing! I had a quiz in microbiology that I think I did pretty well on. Some of my plants are dying which is making me sad.
GOALS ⏠I studied a good amount, as I have an exam on Wednesday in my Basic Med Lab Techniques class. It's mostly blood banking (HELP), so at least it's just one subject. I did not revive my Duolingo streak, sadly. I also need to pull myself out of the cycle of emotional eating again. I am doing very poorly at that. I am going to actually go swimming next week. I swear. I also am going to start bringing a water bottle around. I realized that on my closet app there are some clothes stragglers that I haven't uploaded yet, so I have to upload those.
OTHER ITEMS ⏠I read a lot, and I cleaned my room a bit, especially wiping down surfaces to try and get the sick out of the room.
I hope that this re-formatting makes sense. I don't want these posts to take a million years to read through.
#100 days of productivity#100 days of self discipline#100 days of studying#100 days challenge#studyblr#self improvement#university#nutrition#self care#self love#medical laboratory science#springstick100days
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We need to talk about healthcare and financial crises. There are a lot of us who wholeheartedly believe that there are cures to everything but that our illness is a form of profit for our country, especially within the United States. Just like the fact that instead of having fruit and vegetables and herbs be readily available and accessible for us, weâve got to go buy them and as inflation increases, the price tags on healthier food choices increases. In the United States, you can get fined for not having insurance, but when you do have insurance you have to pay a fee to have it, large chunks of our pay checks are eaten up and taken from us as well as tax dollars. We not only have issues in the health care system regarding racial bias and discrimination but we also have a problem with the maternal mortality rate, especially in women of color, and especially in regards to black women.
We know who is most likely to get sickle cell anemia and who is most affected by it, and we know who is going to have a hard time affording a 2.2 million cure for sickle cell anemia. We know a large quantity of individuals with chronic illnesses or life threatening illnesses that require intensive medical care and medication are people or color or minorities. We know that people of color and minorities have historically been and systematically been financially unstable, have been paid more, or have been offered the lowest standard of care and resources. Why are we creating cures and services that we know a large percentage of our population cannot afford or does not have access to? And now, we have a case where even a larger percentage of our population cannot afford healthcare and services due to the economic state of our country.
Weâre continuing to have children, especially as women, when we need to advocate for better healthcare and support. Women worldwide need to start setting better requirements for when theyâre going to have children and how. As someone whose been interested in midwifery for years and has been reading up on midwifery and birthing practices and what is absolutely necessary and essential in order to give a woman a chance at having a smooth, healthy, and safe pregnancy. Vast majority of women who are having children donât realize that todayâs practices for birthing children or preparing you for labor and delivery are less than the bare minimum. Women need access to good food and need to be able to eat well and have a nutritionally balanced diet, women need to be able to participate in physical activity and exercise throughout their pregnancy (yoga, Pilates, walking, etc.) and especially with trained professionals and staff who are educated on what type of physical exercise would best benefit a woman throughout her pregnancy and what will ultimately help her out when itâs time to deliver, they need access to good environments and practices that are created to benefit them and make their experiences easier, safer, and more comfortable. And they absolutely do not need to be required to pay an arm and a leg in hospital fees to have a child in the United States.
We need better health care that better accommodates women in the process of conceiving, women going through their pregnancy, women who are laboring and delivering, and women who are still alive during post partum healing. All these things should be requirements. All of these things should be covered by insurance. The issue is so large that women are having to travel outside of the United States to give birth to their babies and come back so that they could have better care and a better recovery and overall survival rate. Itâs expensive to hire a midwife, let alone a dula for spiritual guidance and support. All women should have access to midwives and dulas and there needs to be more women in the birthing industry. We know that traditional midwifery practices and practices that were created to better aid women and were more effective and atomically accurate have been let go of or replaced.
Children are expensive, motherhood is expensive, and at this current moment we have mothers who are going through their pregnancies and post partum without proper resources and care and we have children coming into this world constantly and repeatedly to environments, parents, circumstances, etc. that arenât financially, emotionally, or physically fit or stable to give them good lives. We need to stop having children at such a rate whilst we shift our focus to advocating for better health care and support for our women. Having a child is a privilege, some people may not agree, but just because we love them does not mean that we should all be having them because at this time we do not have the proper resources to bring them into this world correctly or provide for them.
Thereâs a lot going on here and a lot we need to advocate for. And those who are chronically ill or have been intense physical ailments and pregnant women who are giving birth to babies are just the tip of the iceberg. This isnât even including the chronically mentally ill or those with developmental disabilities whose families have to pay thousands of dollars just to get them what they need. Since weâre changing the world and there is a shift happening, itâs time we start having the right conversations at the right time. Thereâs no time to change the world like today.
#healthcare#healthcare gap#insurance#the united states of america#pregnancy#childcare#pregnant women#labor and delivery#midwifery#chronic illness#diseases and ailments#medical#financial crisis#healthcare crisis#self love#self care#self improvement#self discovery#dream girl#self expression#healingjourney#self healing#manifestation#divine feminine#divine masculine
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Innovations in Hospital Care: A Look at the Cutting-Edge Technologies Shaping the Industry
Introduction In todayâs rapidly advancing healthcare landscape, hospitals are continuously seeking ways to improve patient care, increase efficiency, and enhance outcomes through the integration of cutting-edge technologies. From telemedicine solutions to artificial intelligence, the innovations in hospital care are revolutionizing the way healthcare is delivered. Letâs delve into some of theâŠ
#advancements in medical technology#best practices for clinic management#case studies of medical breakthroughs#hospital accreditation standards#hospital patient care improvement strategies#how clinics are improving patient experiences#how hospitals handle emergency care.#impact of telemedicine in clinics#Innovations in hospital care#leading healthcare facilities#patient care success stories#profiles of top healthcare professionals#stories of hospital transformations#top hospitals in 2024#trends in hospital administration
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#really really hate how thoughtless and oblivious i can be to my own bad behavior#ill know something is important or that a shouldn't do a particular thing#but over time and assumptions and small acts of carelessnes shit just....fades and accumulates and one day#i look up and ive done something very stupid and hurt someone else#and i didn't feel it happening#my mind will take things and hide them from me is what it feels like. ill know they're there but it fades into the background noise#i am hard on the things in my life including people and relationships. and i am always so vulnerable to my own fuckin lmfao inattentivenes#this is why i struggle so much with the idea of ever having an intimate partner or children. it doesn't matter how much i care.#eventually and inevitably i do damage.#and i know consciously that people make mistakes and all you can do is try to course correct and make it right. but it's better#not to hurt anyone in the first place and i really don't know if i will ever be capable of that.#trying to convince myself this kind of shit is growing pains but man. man. i can't stop being what i am and it really#really feels sometimes like i am just destined to break and neglect#but then that ''im broken'' thing feels like trying to dodge around taking responsibility and improving. and i should be better than that.#but god how tf are you supposed to stop dissociating from the reality of what you're doing when you're. dissociated.#all i can ever think to do is isolate#*sigh* guys i think i might need to graduate to therapy with a trauma specialist#or adjust my medication. god. im so tired.#why is it so gd hard to be a normal decent person. it doesn't seem hard but then
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#dont call anyone im safe im fine im just venting. tw for suicide/self harm/kind of intense language. ideally no ones reading this tho#bro i cant keep living like this#i dread waking up every day so much that i dread even falling asleep#i got insomnia medication in my system and my brain is still like nope absolutely not#i cant keep up at my job even when i am rested enough#i get headaches every other day#my instant mental reaction in the face of stress is to hurt myself (i have not)#like fuck. i work for the disability department of an insurance company#i know for a fact that (probably) every contract stipulates we wont cover disabilities as a result of self inflicted injuries#which is supposed to prevent ppl from taking advantage of the system or whatever#and im always like if someone goes to the lengths of actively injuring themselves to the point of disability#in the name of 'getting out of work'#that person is not 'taking advantage of the system' THAT PERSON IS FUCKING MENTALLY ILL#AND I WOULD KNOW BC I AM ONE OF THOSE PPL#do not come for me on some shit about wanting to disable yourself being morally questionable i cant be concerned abt that rn#i gotta focus on the fact that i hate my life so much id rather break my own right hand than continue it#its an improvement from the active suicidal ideation but its still a symptom of the passive ideation#fucking hell. im too self aware so i absolutely feel like im faking it or making shit up so i can be lazy and not work and whatever#but FUCKING CHRIST theres no way. if i had a choice i wouldnt let myself feel like this.#i just got to a point where i can live alone and support myself. i was so happy and so proud of myself. I don't want to lose that#but god every phone call i have to make for work makes me want to hurt myself. every early morning (and there arent many!!! i mostly work#from home!!!) makes me wish i was dead. i have to sleep for hours after work more often than not. i cant really maintain my living space#theres fucking. mold and discoloration and shit on a bunch of my clothes and some of my bags and shit!!#cause i cant fucking keep my room clean and my basement apartment got fucking humid over the summer and so much moisture got trapped#i constantly have dirty dishes getting moldy before i get to them#i just dont have the fucking energy. i want to take better care of my space. i want to be more social. i just want to go to sleep without#fucking dreading waking up. i wanna go a full week without a headache. i want my stress response to be something other than the intense and#overwhelming desire to cut myself. if i start again i dont know if ill be able to stop and i know i wont be able to keep it to my arms/legs/#easily hidden parts of my body. last breakdown i escalated to my face and i know ill pick up from there.#fuck
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