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some-mari-thoughts · 4 months ago

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In his defence, it's literal superhell,

Assortment of doodles that are drawn along with the asks, and one featuring my guy helping his more tangible version from @ask-bad-end-sunny with the stabbings

#the ms paint one features me dying bc of a rlly funny follower username #OMORI #OMORI Stranger #OMORI Mari #Stranger OMORI #Stranger #Mari #Omori character #Ksenya #Truth boi #BIG SIS BIG SIS #Knife boi #My doodles #OMORI spoilers #Im so tired. shitty id #ID in alt

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knifeslidez · 9 months ago

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𝔇𝔢𝔪𝔬𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔰

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naamahdarling · 5 months ago

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Raleigh's big baby eyes were not just big because of the dimly lit bathroom (I had a low light setting turned on), he appears to have some reduced pupillary response. He's otherwise totally normal and he CAN see, so I'm not overly worried he needs attention for it right now, but it is concerning, so I will be calling the vet to see if they can work him in sometime in the next few days. I took a look at some recent pictures and it seems to have been going on for maybe a week and I just didn't really notice because there's so little light in this house.

I'm tired. Everything is vet visits and doctor's appointments and managing my symptoms and bothering clinics and the pharmacy and new things going wrong everywhere, and I still need to call my GP to make a telehealth appointment so he can refer me for ANOTHER appointment, after which I can have a THIRD appointment with the GP to discuss test results and see what fresh new hell THAT unleashes.

I really wanted to go to the local orchard's summer festival but there's so much going on that week so close together that I'm not going to feel up to it. And it'll be too hot anyway. I can't tolerate heat or sun anymore, thanks COVID.

Ugh.

#im afraid about a thing i have going on that they randomly found during an unrelated cardio scan in January #i don't think it's bad-bad as the doctor said we could just wait and see if it's still there or whatever in six months #but like if it WANTED to be bad-bad this would be a shitty and therefore likely time to do it #and id have dealt with it by now but other clinics wouldn't fucking let me do telehealth and those appointments were for MEDS #so i can't just not have them when the only other time is three months from now #i hate the way our system works and i hate the gatekeeping and the pointless repetitive meaningless appointments #that could be 5 minute phone calls or even totally avoided if they just answered the actual question i asked #I'm so so tired and i want to go home

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geolato · 2 months ago

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Day 4 of reposting my old Dan and Phil art because the old posts are gone phorever apparently.

These are my phavorites so I left them for last <3.

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Please do not repost.

#ohhh two in a row who is she #yeah i wanted to be done with these bc im working on something else mayhaps??#multiple somethings actually #so with these you can be as mean to g from three years ago because i actually really love them #the halloween one was such a painnn cause my project hadn't saved and i had to redo sooo much of it from a shitty screenshot #i got so so tired that after a certain point i started hiding porter robinson lyrics in the art #my favorite part is the bats. the bats look great.#the phil one id started for phils birthday but i didn't know what to do with the background #went on discord and my friend said do stripes! so we went with that #dnp #phan #g does art #g talks

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dreamsy990 · 3 months ago

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my laptops like super fucking dead and its gonna be a couple days before i can get a new one so uh. have a ghost roxas au doodle from procreate instead. returning to my roots i suppose. do not ask me to explain the story context for this or whats going on because i will not explain ok. you can figure it out yourself <-( theres absolutely not enough information for you to figure it out for yourself )

#doodles #kingdom hearts #sora #roxas #ghost roxas au #my goal is to make a story as hard to understand as kh lore itself #aka not that complicated but people love being dramatic about it #eheh #anyways man on one hand i would love to tell this story as just a comic. bc i think im better at storytelling visually #but also i. really like writing shitty prose #idk ive written an absurd amount for this au #idk if youre at all even interested in this au lemme know if youd prefer a comic or a fic #if i do a fic id probably do art to go with it #sigh idk sticking to one feels really limiting to me #bc i dont think i can like. convey the emotions id like to do with just a comic #but i also naturally feel a bit more inclined to do a visual format since im more comfortable than that #with that* sorry im tired #idk maybe i could do a comic w some optional stuff to read as a supplement #i wish there was an easier way to mix the formats #anyways idk if anyone even cares about this au its mostly a self indulgent little project for me #but if you do care lmk #ok i have to get up early so im gonna. go to sleep. <- lying

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orcelito · 2 months ago

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Actually is there any cure to feeling like I'm a failure of a person if I don't keep posting fic regularly. Like I know this is not a job or anything. It's just for fun. But with how most people comment only within a day or two of when something is posted, I end up with weeks and weeks of no comments, even when the hits on my works still go up, so it makes me feel rather forgotten.

Like idk. This is probably just feeling worse bc im apparently phenomenally neurotic today. But I wish people commented on older fics more.

#speculation nation #like it's not in my head it's the same thing. everyone experiences it.#theres a spike in new comments for the first day or two. by day 3 id be lucky to get 1 or 2. and beyond that?#well i do get some Sometimes but it's usually the stragglers in reading an update or the rare wonderful person who comments as they read #highlight on the rare. ive only had a handful of these types of people. wonderful when it happens. but it's not the rule.#no after day 4 of posting something new comments drop off into practically nothing. even as hits and kudos still go up.#so it's hard to not feel shitty about it. why do people think it's so bad to interact with older things?#it makes me feel like i Have to keep posting things just to have my writing be recognized.#and logically i know it's not like ppl dont love it anymore. clearly at least a few do.#the people who are supportive on my posts or reach out to me about it. you know.#but overall... idfk. mass majority of readers just dont interact after the first few days. if at all.#and it makes me feel so forgotten. like i have to be a fast fashion poster always and forever to keep ppl's attentions.#i dont want to write under that pressure. im so tired. and im Still grieving.#idk. i just feel so under appreciated. even though i know im one of the lucky ones with how sweet my readers are.#it's just... hard. when the vast majority of my readers dont bother to give back to me. even a little bit.#idk. i should probably stop thinking about it. im just making myself sad.

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dogbunni · 3 months ago

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#brother i am convinced i was not built to be alive #i was supposed to die at 16 of appendicitis the way god intended #everything is so stressful and i have an anxiety disorder and high blood pressure and zero support from anyone in my life #just me and my shitty trembling body against the world #ive been shaking and my hearts been racing and my vision has been blurry all day #im the only motherfucker here who bothers to clean or do anything to improve our living situation #ive been battling this flea infestation alone for months now #trying to get everyone to play ball long enough to flea bomb the house today was life on insane mode i am convinced #i had to bribe everyone into leaving by 11am by handing over my bank card so they could buy snacks while i went to my dr appointment #of course all the cleaning pre-bombing was done by me #i asked my sister to tidy her room and she did not so like whatever. if the flea bomb dodnt work in there like what do i even do #she actually waited until id cleaned every other fucking room in the house and then made MORE mess in those rooms #i asked my mother to do 2 things #she did neither of course <3 #im so tired and in pain #and im pretty sure we are still going to have fleas anyway #im just one disabled man #i cant keep house for 5 other grown adults #what do i even pay my parents housekeeping for anyway?#dogbunni diary log

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 19 days ago

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#'well you cant win em all.' okay but i would like to win at least one!! (not my quote i swear ive seen it on tumblr just cant find it)#like i would kill for just one win. i would pay a crisp $10 to anyone that could provide a single win for me #today was yet another fucking loss and that was all i had lined up. like theres nothing set up to possibly be a win in the future #ive got nothing there. so weve ended on a loss and thats all i have for the foreseeable future #i counted all the wins and losses in recent memory. ive got like 13+ losses and about 1 win #i tried to count up all of my wins but truly i managed like. one.#even some things that i didnt know could become losses! like did you know you can just be refused an adhd reassessment?#like you can say 'id like to pay $160 for you to fuck up a diagnosis again' and they can actually say #'youre not even worth the trouble to misdiagnose so go fuck yourself'#but they can! i didnt know that #and then you can have the audacity to tey to hope for something and think youll get it. like hope a little too hard #truly shouldve lesrned my lesson after twelve losses in a row not to get my hopes up #but i did! i made plans! i was gonna buy a cute water bottle specifically for that job. snd take myself out to dinner if i got it #can you guess what happened? when i had the audacity to hope and plan for a job that i was so passionate about and wanted so much?#(i didnt get it. the job ive been posting about. didnt get it)#didnt get the apartment in the city i love and miss either. didnt get an adhd reassessment (which is still wild to me)#and i tried to frame them as better in my head. 'this is a chance to tey a different job youd be better at! this is a chance to save money!'#nope its just another shitty thing in a long line of shitty things and im just getting tired of it. im so fucking tired of it #i am back where i vowed id never come back to and i cant escape in any way shape or fucking form #just needed to vent because saying all this in my head wasnt helping. saying it here doesnt help either but whatever

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aroacesigma · 6 months ago

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parents are so fucking stupid why is the reaction to your child hitting himself over schoolwork 'STOP THAT RIGHT NOW (angry edition)' and not 'oh boy maybe we should finally see a psychiatrist about all those issues thatve been piling up!'

#ramblings #i hate my fucking life #theyre not shitty parents because im stressed theyre shitty parents for pulling this #ive explained so many times it doesnt help #and yknow what !! actually you guys should be fucking grateful im not doing worse !!!#if i wasnt ironically too tired to cut myself thats what id be fucking doing instead #vent #self harm tw

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confusedalpacart · 5 months ago

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dont think im going to do artfight this year tbh. got Stuff happening that month and i do not have the energy to make oc refs im actually happy with in time

#not an art #i also really need to redesign several of the characters theres a lot that look. pretty similar.#yes hello im still making stuff but most of it has been quick shitty doodles not stuff i feel ok posting #just. been v unmotivated this year. and so. tired. so ive not been working on much Quality Stuff #vaguely considering a sketchdump but. not been liking most of them so idk what id actually post #oh i think i was supposed to post about the zine i did stuff for recently too. that was something i did that looked ok #i should do more zines so i have Deadlines so i actually make stuff good sometimes. external motivation and all that #idk tho most of the ones i see are for fandoms i dont really give a shit about #and the nonfandom ones are topics i cant do things for or have so many applicants they can afford to be Super Picky #and like. i can make ok stuff!! i know that objectively my art isnt bad! but.#its also the quality where if u have more applicants than positions it wont be considered.#idk ill keep my eyes out i guess

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snobgoblin · 2 years ago

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i don't think my mom realizes how badly i could roast her like i could demolish her i could destroy her spirit with a single sentence but I don't bc I have restraint. it's a shame she doesn't have the same for me

#like girl i know ALLL your business and youre so shitty to me #LIterally just got home and youre lecturing me already and im so tired i dont even know what it was about #you know what i wanted to say? this is why your husband cheated on you because youre a nagging bitch #and if i was married to this id never wanna be home either

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hermoglobiini · 2 years ago

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