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#this has been such a shitty week and were only on wednesday#my rent will be raised in may w 30 euros#i spairned my back yesterday and everything is pain#and top of everything i just. cant get myself a fucking job#for the last month i have been waiting an answer while constantly exchanging emails from this one place i really really wanted to go#and the ceo there said id really fit there but none of the project managers seem to want to take#me as their apprenctince or whatever i cant come up with a better word#so now i gotta keep looking but ive already sent so many applications and 0 asnwers#i just dont get it what is so incredibly wrong with me that i get no answers#its this same struggle every single spring#im so so so scared i wont have a job this summer#like hello im turning 25 and have had like . one proper summer job since turning 18#it fucking sucks so fucking bad i just dont get whats wrong with me#am i really that bad at writing applications??? i just dont get it aaaaaaaaa#im so sick of everything i just want a job please give me a job#im so tired of stressing out money everything costs so fucking much and i just know the prices will never lower again#bc we live in a capitalistic hellhole#im disappointed in me and everything and#idk i wish i could sleep for the next 3944 months
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#fields of mistria#fom#balor#fanart#art#sir...im so in love w you...#if anyone else like me loved the fuck out of stardew but was disappointed in the romance options...please play this game#the characters/interactions/dialouge is top notch#i knew nothing about this game i found out about it 2 days before release#i thought i was gonna go for march#and immedately met this guy and just#his first line is like (im a traveling merchant) and i went (oh no)#i have such a THING for merchant characters#i can finally live out my dream of romancing volo pkmn#sort of#except not evil#i think#love that the romance options in this game are like... adults with jobs/dreams/aspirations#unlike stardew where everyone is supposedly an adult but is like a teenager??#but in this game everyone is a contributing member of society#love that <3333#the dialouge for real is amazing#anyway. it still in uhh...early access? so you cant do everything youll be able to do one day#but thats good for me bc i tend to blast through these games and do 90% of things within a week#fanart???? from my ass???#only because i love this game and him#im so fucked up for him#not me tracking his ass down everyday to talk to him#also what i love about this game is being able to talk to everyone multiple times a day#like every hour or something
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Aubrey Plaza in Addicted to Fresno (2015)
#aubrey plaza#addicted to fresno#jamie babbit#filmedit#filmgifs#aplazaedit#dailyflicks#wlwgif#wlwsource#dailywomen#nessa007#usersugar#userzo#mine#my gifs#RAWRRRRR#sorry. yeah#quite a delightful little movie for a lazy evening. however i hyped it up for myself immensely#as it is by a director of but im a cheerleader#(didn't get around to watch it for literally years)#and couldn't help to be kinda disappointed#i love that kind of restrained awkward comedies but i feel like they could've done more with it#however the cast makes the movie so it's a good watch!#also if i were in a situation where aubrey plaza is into me i'd drop everything and focus ON HER. sorryyyy
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i lied i had like atleast one more weston thought to expell from my brain, before i miss this boat entirely. we're heading to green lands woooo
#god i had a fever this entire morning and afternoon so I think it was my inability to do anything that finally pushed me to finish this#seriously it took a month... disapointing#more disappointing is that i didn't have the time to tear up the internet in order to find what a professors break room looked like in 1899#if there was such a thing#really tragic#ah yea welp im very glad it's out there atleast. I want to release all of my black butler stuff so badly but guh...#tragedy has struck and i have been inspired to finally make a person project of my own#so that's taking a long time#but not to worry after like 5 years and some pondering i know well that black butler will always be one half of my brain#coooool#anyway i got more dorky stuff coming I hope??? wasn't lying before I am thinking of the midfords#and ill pray i can find the strength to get everything done soon#hope my rants are more tasteful after months of absence if ur still here#kuroshitsuji#black butler#kuroshitsuji fanart#fanart#sebastian michaelis#digital art#animation#animatic#video#weston college arc#black butler anime#black butler agares
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i'm tired of being nice to people who aren't boycotting
#they keep asking me to tutor them and in the same breath say that they're going out to get starbucks#im tired gang like genuinely#everything is so disappointing
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Is it a little sacrilegious that they're killing the slow burn right before the gut punch of true love's nat 20? Yes. Did I love seeing the 'I open up the door completely naked' scene come to life even though it was (WAY) earlier then I expected? Also yes. I'm trying to go with the flow and am holding out hope that they're doing things differently, and they obviously have less time to work with (which is the most critical thing to understand), but will still pull it off. It's hard because from an analysis perspective there is something so crucially important about Vex's repressed feelings only coming out under extreme duress and still not admitting she loved Percy until they talked later and even then finding their footing in a very different way than we're seeing here?? Like it's kinda throwing me for both Vex and Percy to be so open and upfront about their desire to get together? It's certainly a different take on it that does have an interesting dynamic to explore. At this point I'm trying to trust the process and just enjoy what we're given and acknowledge they're not creating the exact same story as the original.
Eventhoughi'mgoingtobegoingbacktowatchthecampaignafterthistofixthelossofthelongestjuiciestslowburnihaveeverexperiencedbutthatsfine woahhhhhh who said that
#im pretty happy with everything else that's my one gripe but im like. fine with it because it's still only the first three episodes#i was also kinda expecting being a little disappointed with it not translating exactly to screen after syngorn?#like it was great but didnt give my the same feelings the stream did#which makes sense but it just signalled to me that i have to adjust expectations and learn to enjoy those parts in a different way#and the og campaign will always be there! :)#critical role#vox machina#tlovm#the legend of vox machina spoilers#the legend of vox machina#tlovm spoilers#lovm spoilers#tlovm season 3#cr1#perc'ahlia
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I commissioned a shy but flirty looking Vincent from @vaatil and it was so SO worth it. Look at him, he鈥檚 perfect 馃槶鉂わ笍.
Bonus under the cut: (Thank You, Til. You are amazing)
#Im my head hes about to slowly take his clothes off for Cid. yup. everything is valenwind based here babes#also the Cait Sith in the bonus comes from the reference picture which was me and one of my chihuahuas#Im so happy. COMMISSION THEM GUYS I SWEAR YOU WONT BE DISAPPOINTED#thank you so so much#vincent valentine#ffvii
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You're telling me that I wasted 15 years not reading this book and instead, middleschool-me went and read the matched and divergent series?? WHEN THERE IS THEM?
#thg#the hunger games#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#everlark#myart#designs super inspired by c-kiddo i really didnt wanna picture jennifer lawrence as katniss lmaooooo#josh hutcherson... you can stay#anyway i just recently finished the first book of the trilogy#im so mad that THIS was the series 12 year old me decided to dodge#and then went and read the most disappointing (/neg) dystopian trilogies in my life#peeta and katniss are everything to me now. i think about them all the time
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I hate the stretch lines in the front of Curly's uniform because that means the devs rushed to make a model in like a month or so and thought "They gotta at least know he has huge knockers, gotta know he's got back pain." Cause like what is the thematic importance of his tits having overhang?
What responsibility is that representing? Breast reduction? It shows an inherent greed in his character due to the excess and heshouldletmeholdone and that he clearly is blinded cause if he tries to look down his damn ladder all he's seeing is his own cleavage.
#this is my curly slander post ig#disclaimer i need you to understand i see all fictional men i like as like butches Curly is no exception#but like they didnt need to add that many polygons to his chest like its unnessary and honestly a little mean he already has so many things#to handle and you expect him to hold those boys up like that just aint right this is like something so stupid but i know you can tell im#having strong feelings about it cause like what was the point why did they survive the fucking crash it has to be a injoke at this point#with the devs it shouldnt make me this mad im turning into a misandrist but only towards large chested men#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#shitpost#suggestive#ig because this is just about his chest but like also they made him objectively pretty for no reason like yeah like ideal man and work ig#but they went over the extra mile like i have a right to be mad they did that much for a model we see canonically for like two seconds its#crazy actually how little we see of curly pre crash because we also lose his physical movements to help characterize him the way we see#body language with the other characters and how it gives way to their struggles and personalities and sentiments in certain moments#like all he does and how he emotes is stifled by the fact we always play as him until the last moments where he takes over to try and save#the ship and crew and even right before that the scene is so wrought with tension we cant tell what that look he gave Jimmy meant due to#the limitations of the models and how stiff Curly is like was it fear acceptance denial we dont know enought about how he acts himself#to tell and then everything else is charaterized by what Jimmy had done to where we dont really just get to see Curly as himself like Anya#and Swansea and Daisuke we have no idea how theyd act in a regular moment outside of a few glimpses and even then it is them doing#their jobs like grrrr we hate an unreliable narrator but also its the fact jimmy clearly does not interact with them or try to outside of#his position as copilot and then captain harkening back to the entire capitlist view of utility and how he views all of them as useless eve#Curly which fandom tangent the fandom also tends to do to Curly as they base every trait on what they think he failed to do as Captain#between Jimmy and Anya when the QnAs kinda make him out to be a rather open and willing person but still someone who isnt like a push over#just thinking of QnA three where it mentions hes very open to trying new things and you need to be an open minded person to open urself up#to failure like that and ig this is just the weird view that Curly needs to learn that or that theres redemption he needs personality wise#verses healing and learning from trauma like idk its the idea that people assume he did abosultely nothing when the games points out direct#and throught parallels he was taking actions its just wasnt enough and an over focus on absolute inaction vs ineffective methods used to#tackle the issues and themes the game grapples with plus wanting someone to take the blame and have to make it up to Anya even tho#i think it would mean nothing from Curly because she saw his efforts and would be disappointed it wasnt enough but the idea she would#disregard the attempts or not acknoweldge Jimmy as the epicenter compared ot Curly is weird and too focused on someone
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heyyy a fellow math teacher! 馃
I'm actually not a math teacher! I do special ed. I currently do most of the math inclusion support at the school, so between my actual classes and support from learning center/skill development hours and study hall hours, I'm doing everything from sub-separate Intro to Algebra all the way up to Pre-Calculus.
So my students know me as "the math lady" and they joke whenever they see me out of the math hallway that I've breached containment or "escaped [my] dungeon!" It's pretty funny!
I absolutely love working with the math department though! They are some of the best people in this entire school. Unsurprisingly, they're probably the department that the sped department is the closest with! They're so deeply passionate about public education and setting up the students for the best success possible after high school, and they really do their best to stand up against a lot of the silly top-down level grade inflation types of things happening within district admin right now! So yeah, can't hype these math ladies up enough! They go so above and beyond for the students, and it's unfortunate that they're some of the most underappreciated teachers cuz god damn these kids have nooooo clue how much this group of women care about them!
#not dp related#sorry to disappoint!#im a fake math teacher LMAO#i told the sped chair to put me in whatever math classes she wanted#cuz last year i had my sub-separate class and then an algebra 1 class#and i literally loved it so much#so she was like 'aight' and p much gave me everything!#i just got assigned today to the pre-calc class because of a student schedule change#so i spent an hour catching up on all the material#since i haven't taken this course since i was in high school#but it seems straightforward enough!#thank god for Khan Academy though I swear kajdsnkfsjn
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started stardew valley for the first time. born to remember villager likes and dislikes forced to immediately forget it the moment i take my eyes off thw wiki
#HELP. HEEEELPP <- THE FORGETTER#i have 18 different tabs open and im pretty sure half of them are duplicates. i have not made anything past 5000G i am so cooked#rn im at summer 11 ish?? i cant remember dates in real life either jesus christ GRIPPING THE COMMUNITY CALENDAR WITH MY BARE HANDS#my ass really went into this like 鈥渋ll just take it easy and go into it blind so i get the newborn baby deer experience" completely ignoran#to the fact that i get anxious disappointing ppl and not having any background knowledge going into smth new. like a FOOL#also the walking speed is just slow enough to make me space out and forget where i was going and what i needed to do head in my hands#ive had to backtrack all over pelican town so many different times im in fucking adhd hell. resource management hell#im saying this like i hate it but its actually pretty fun and engaging when im not gripping my head trying to remember what i was doing#i got linus' 2 heart event and it made me whimper a little. LINUSSS LINUS I LIKE HIM. AND WILLY AND MARNIE THEYRE SO NICEYS#marnie kinda like.. reminds me of my friends mom even her face is pretty similar. shes sweet i like her. also willy calls me lad hes cool#i think im just gonna start a new save and NOT rely on the fucking mixed seed forages bc my ass was too stubborn to buy seeds#i just got sebastians 2 heart event too ughhh ive never had to work so hard for an emo boys approval. but it was satisfying#corn will fix me. its a replenishable summer-fall crop corn has to fucking fix me PLEASE#i also. made a stardew valley farmer. the one im playing as. their name is cosmo they have a backstory and everything im making#him a ref. his backstory is so fucking funny just wait#yapping#diary#puppy plays sdv
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it just hit me that the movie is coming out next month imgonna throw upppppppp
#to be clear this isnt an excited post this is a scared post .#i feel kinda guilty about it with how excited i was about the first 2 movies#but i just cant be anymore paramount and the scu have disappointed me so much within the past year in so many ways ......#shadow is one of my favorite characters his lore makes me go crazy and is one of the things that pulled me into loving sonic so much#but i literally felt nothing while watching that trailer aside from confusion at some of the writing choices being made#like i wasnt expecting an exact recreation of sa2 but why is sonic working with gun . wtf is gerald doing here . why are there no girls .#the only positives to me were things that were cool visually . which doesnt outweigh all the things that have annoyed/disappointed me#like who cares about another cool sonic and shadow fight scene we already have plenty of those .#Anyway. saw some of those new promotional images.#i swear to god if they actually start calling shadow+eggman+gerald team dark#like they suggested they might in that survey from a while back#im gonna become the joker for real#(insert the NO that is NOT solid snake image but it says team dark instead)#also maybe im taking the hedgehog games way too seriously here#but having gerald still be alive and present in some form feels like such a bad idea from a story perspective ... like .#for one shadow lost Everything in the gun raid having gerald still be here feels like its undermining that in a way#but also gerald's whole thing in sa2 is being long dead but still impacting the story despite that . why is he ALIVEEEE#and why is he here over rouge ???? do they just hate women or something#(before someone goes ''it would take too much time/money to animate another cgi character''#maybe the movies should have just been fully animated if that sort of thing was a concern . just saying)
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#ok but fr marking undergrad essays is such a rollercoaster#i gave two very high marks today and was genuinely impressed and then the next three i marked were practically incoherent#one just copy and pasted their intro instead of writing a conclusion. like it's verbatim the same paragraph#i dont mark down for minor grammar and syntax errors because there's a high rate of ESL students...#... but some of the papers from native english speakers have me more concerned about functional illiteracy than I've ever been#these are 19-20yos in a humanities field at a top university! even the highest scoring essay had basic basic grammar errors and vocab misuse#at least i could tell what the student was trying to say there but some of the others...#if your punctuation and spelling and syntax are all so bad that i literally cant tell what you're trying to say there is a serious problem#even setting aside how many errors like these there were there's the flip side of the issue: actually writing an essay#the last one i marked yesterday had no structure or thesis or secondary sources#everything between the intro and conclusion was the same claim phrased in different ways with some irrelevant non sequitur quotes thrown in#no analysis other than the words 'analysis of this shows' which is *gasp* not a substitute for analysis#OH AND OMG#one made a direct claim about a figure's political stance and attached a footnote. i went to see what the student's source was.#the footnote literally said something like 'i know i should have a source here but it's only context and i don't want to waste my word count#like what???? do you think claims about relevant context don't need evidence??? and the audacity to not give a citation...#... and claim it's because it would take too many words away from your main argument??#just providing the actual citation for the claim would have been 3-5 words max but the footnote about not having room was 30 words#kid do you think i can't tell that you dont have that citation? do you think anyone's buying that you didn't include it to save space?#it's the very first footnote and most of the others are full-length bibliography entries jammed into the footnotes (which we don't require)#so either you were 'worried about space' at the first footnote then changed your mind as you wasted 250 words on unnecessary formatting#or you were over the word limit and were like 'gotta cut something!' and the only footnote you 'simplified for space' was a short basic one#^assuming i believed you. which i dont. because why would you think that would fool anyone.#i still have half the essays left. im tired and so disappointed in how little we're told we should expect from them
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tbh im personally tired of shitty parents and shitty families drama like can one (1) person on this show have normal parents who are normal and nice. yes i had to say normal twice. it needs emphasising.
#send post#i feel like im watching the same story recycled 4-5 times#call that laundering innit#911 writers like: we have parents issues and we're gonna make it everyone's problem#boofuckinghoo. go to therapy.#sorry it just does not compel me at all#i could have given tommy a better family lore backstory#i could have also given chimney a better resolution with his pos dad while i'm here#and inb4: better family lore does not mean good happy family where everything is normal#just something different and exciting and interesting#anyway no question about it i am ready to get disappointed again
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Okay I said I'd wait until the season was done before forming final opinions and I WILL but-
- what the fuck was that
#i am. Not Impressed#where is my depth from the books#the ONLY part that slayed me was sally and you know who talking at the end#and it was VERY well done#but the rest?? nah#pjo tv crit#im so disappointed in the show i cant pretend im not#full rants and reviews will come next week but. its not looking good guys#everything is being handled so badly and the characterization of Sally and the gods is my final straw#also continuously making Grover a fuck up bc. my boy does not deserve that.#im so irritated with how they handled the pearls#and with pretty much everything else tbh#but ugh#pjo show crit
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in light of the news that riot games is letting go 11% of their workers (over 500 people), including long time workers responsible for big parts of the best lore in the entire league ip, AND cutting down LoR AND abandoning Riot Forge (the best idea they had in years lol)-
i stopped playing league a long time ago for multiple reasons, but one of the big ones were my annoyance with the increasingly shit ass monetization (thats only getting WORSE and MORE exploitative) and my frustration with its constant boring ass design decisions (like every new champ being either sexy girly girl that looks like all of the rest of them or sexy guy thats also starting to have the same problem plus all skins putting female champs in just another dress no matter how monsterfied the male champs were-) with my only interest in it being the lore and the attachment i felt to certain characters
im not even really interested in arcane anymore .. i was looking forward to it bc i like fortiches work alot but given how riot immedaitely wanted to make it canon (a dumb and stupid idea) after the first season was successful, which already made it less enjoyable for me, this is just ... idk, what does it matter
these news together with how bafflingly badly written totk was and its subpar quality (especialyl for that PRICE) that made me fear the future of loz yet it was still wildly sucessful (we deserve better than this!!), the recent commercial success of the plagiarism pokemon slavery/trafficking game and the general situation of the games industry, with AI rampant and CEOs sucking it up to shareholders only, constant massive lay offs everywhere in every studio
i have little hope left there will be new, good, games from big studios .. what an exhausting shitty world we live in
#ganondoodles talks#random#personal#save me good indie games#good indie games....#good indie games save me ..#im well aware that there are more important things than video games#but this just adds to the oeverall exhausting feeling of everything everywhere in every industry and every part of the world getting worse#like fuck#cant soemthing good be happening for once#maybe less death and destruction#both literally and in an artistical sense#genuinely not looking forward to anything anymore#im not gonna dare to hope for a new good loz game bc hell it will be years and totk was a grim view into the future of the franchise#i dont want to be disappointed like this again-#i wanna mention again that i set my expectation extremely low for totk- all i wanted was a sequel to botw- or just a good game#and my god was it not#dont try to argue with me#im angry and tired
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