#Idk if panic is the right word

[kimetsu-chan]

Kimmie you are absolutely beautiful! Don't say that! >:3

I'm just literally telling everyone inspiration 😔

Okay, nonie, I need you to know that your ask came at the perfect time because I am actively panicking over my appearance rn.

like, it’s not good

so thank you

[lazylittledragon]

hi! I absolutely love your art and I get so happy when I see it come up on my feed! 🥰

if I can ask, why does cyra use a cane sometimes? I just saw your art where gale and cyra are with their newborn and cyra is walking with their toddler and she has a cane and I was curious.

have a good day! 😁💚

thank you so much!!!

i don't think i've said much about it other than 'she almost died' aksdhsh but everything went very wrong when the first one was born and she got sepsis, which can really fuck you up long term and she developed chronic fatigue.

she definitely tells the children that she's got a sword hidden inside it

[ruminativevagrant]

"Problems"

I saw somebody else attempt to transcribe this writing made by adam, but they couldnt decipher some things, so i thought id try. there are some other handwritings of his that i plan to also decipher in the future (to the best of my abilities)

Problems:

The lights were too bright.

There were too many dirty dishes.

I kept spilling food and such.

You were in the room while I was in the kitchen.

The spiders.

My arms kept touching things.

My hair touched Ryan's towel in the morning.

There were not tissues.

There were not tissues in the pantry.

My corn was too wet.

My quinoa fork was dropped with quinoa and I had to pick it up and there were not tissues and my hands had quinoa on them.

It was too warm.

You were speaking angrily.

There were not enough towels.

My hair touched my desk towel when picking up quinoa.

I could not eat my quinoa because I dropped the fork.

The corn had spots.

Ryan used the bathroom - the bathroom was not clean before I was asleep now.

There are more reasons.

My towel fell into the shower twice.

External(?) water was on both eyes in the shower.

You threatened me twice.

judging by the content of the writing, i'd guess this was written when he was younger, my estimate would be maybe age 10-13.

i dont know any context behind why exactly this was written, but its obviously a list of things that had upset adam throughout the course of a day. perhaps it was written as a way for him to communicate what lead up to a panic attack.

i think this is a very clear example of how severe his ocd and sensory sensitivities were, and how things that would be miniscule inconveniences to others were deeply disturbing and debilitating for him. I often see people judge adam for requiring so much accomodation or perceive him as being controlling or demanding, and I think it comes from a lack of understanding of just how truly difficult it is to live and function with these issues.

i also find two of the problems listed here particularly interesting: "You were speaking angrily." "You threatened me twice." even if the person in question, presumably one of his parents(or even both) were not doing those things, adam had perceived it that way.

[puppyeared]

footnotes arent enough I need you to talk to me like im fucking Amelia Bedelia

[ratwars]

My new plan of action is to be more unapologetically me at work while still being work me because I am fucking tired of everything and my lack of fucks has apparently hit a new level so instead of fretting about that I am just accepting the damage periods of unemployment does to my personality (work personality? Ability to maintain said personality?) And going with it. If it works great. If it doesn't then they gotta fire me it is whatever I am not even pretending like I care to make a cookie cutter impression.

[kodzukoi]

have to make the decision of my LIFE rn:

do i pull for blade (idek if i have guaranteed- i don't think i do) or do i wait for kafka..................

[steampunk-raven]

spider in room but everyone else is asleep so no one can help me :/ panic time i guess lol

[vampiremourning]

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[emily-mooon]

This Fire Emblem AU for Stranger Things has me in a chokehold cause instead of doing Jancy week or historical au week stuff, I’m fleshing out the designs I made for the party yesterday and thinking about what classes the other characters would be and their colour palettes.

[crybaby-bkg]

I finally parted ways w my old therapist of almost two years to find someone new and after having to hound him for two weeks to get my documentation from him, I’m just now finding out that I have panic disorder like. wow. fucking news to me ig

[folkinsomnia]

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[windrunner]

I've gotten night terrors for the past two nights and i have zero idea why

[kavehater]

THIS IS SO HUMBLING FR CAUSE the only ppl who did reach out were Hal dahlia and meto (out of the billions of ppl ik)

[timeisacephalopod]

I saw a tumblr post like a week ago about people in America wanting to change their votes because they didn't like that trump won but like... You voted for him. If you didn't want him to win enough to want to change your vote after he did why did you vote for him to begin with? Could have voted Harris, independent, or not at all, why vote for a guy you wouldn't have voted for if he won? What fresh hell

[milo-is-rambling]

Weight talk tw I guess idk how to describe the post sorry im a little high

It’s so weird being around people who talk about weight problems (IOP) and like idk it brings up weird shit in my brain almost anxiety that I should feel bad about myself somehow like I’m doing this wrong being confident idk. Weird self doubt thing that happens when you’ve loved yourself (hmm. Rephrase. I don’t care about being fat. let’s say that.) and then you’re in a room full of people having a group discussion about how they avoid living their life in happy ways because they don’t want to become like you. But you love yourself. But everyone in your life since you were little has been dieting and talking about weight and specific numbers (someone was anxious about gaining seven pounds! SEVEN. If they saw my scale they would shit themselves. I put on seven pounds taking a big bong rip Jesus fucking Christ seven pounds. I wanted to rip my hair out.)

Next time weight issues come up in IOP I’m stepping out of the room. Like idk how to explain it cause it’s like not a trigger but I guess it is ? But it’s just so weird like the way I’m triggered makes me want to cry why does the world hate me for being fat what the fuck !!!!

[skylightdistraction]

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