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âŒïž PSA - Creators, BewareâŒïž
It's taken a lot for me to come out and do this, but after this situation escalating to a point of manipulation that's flat out disgusting, I have to.
There's a person within this community (goes by at least 5 or more different accounts...I've only been able to weed those out because I've been messaged with them) that's been disrespecting my boundaries and is now traveling into the realm of harassment. I've blocked him an amount of times I can't even count at this point, but he just deletes the account and comes back. The ones below are his two main ones.
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I'm going to give a little bit of background. He started out dming me from these. I would respond occasionally. He would tell me how he wanted to get to know me and how he wasn't like all the other "nasty guys on tumblr"...yadda yadda. I made it clear that I have trust issues and I'm not just opening up to anyone, and that I wouldn't mind being friends with time. He then goes on to accept this, claiming that he didn't want anything sexual. Well...my trust issues proved me right, because a little while after that, I noticed a pattern.
So I confronted him one day about what I noticed, and you see what he said. After that, I went back and forth mentally about what to do, and stupidly made the decision to give him another chance to not lie again. I feel like an idiot for doing it because he did end up lying again, but the part of me that believes people can change from a weird mistake took over.
So fast forward. I caught him in another similar lie, and that's when I blocked his two main accounts. This is when the random account making started; he would spam me with apologies that were half the time guilt trips. (Painting me as the villain for blocking him and not wanting to hear out his apology.)
The apology in the middle was the one I somewhat believed. But when I made the decision a few weeks ago to continue to block him, he kept creating accounts up to 20+ times to keep spamming me and trying to force interaction from me. Now, see on the left how he offered to get me something off my wishlist? This was a normal comment in every other message...but today, it's escalated because he actually has bought me something and is trying to use it against me.
This has been weighing on me mentally and making my tumblr experience stressful. I haven't shut off my dms because it isn't fair to people I actually speak with, but it also isn't fair to me that my blocks aren't respected, and I'm being made to feel like being lied to and mistreated is my fault. So other creators in this community, please be aware of this person. I don't doubt he's done this to others, I don't want it to happen to you.
My safety isn't in danger, but my mental health is rattled. Tumblr is fun for me, but not when someone won't back off and let me make decisions in my own time. He likes to say I've agreed to working it through...but that was only me saying I'd TRY. After witnessing this behavior, it sent me to blocking because I realized how stressed I felt.
Again..I hate that it had to come to this, but now that I'm being made to feel uneasy because he's using gifts to try and force me to interact, it's gone too far.
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Hello! Hope you're having a good day! âïž
I saw that your requests were open (Hope I got the time right...) and I wanted to request a Kimi Raikkönen one-shot during the time where he and Sebastian were still in Ferrari, for plot reasons.
So, imagine this: You're one of the beloved drivers on the grid â who is close to the Ferrari duo â known for their love of nature, especially flowers.
One day flowers kept appearing in your locker room (?) and it kept going for months. At the end of every race when you went to change there were different flowers but no info about the sender. Naturally, you suspected Sebastian because that man is mother nature himself. After learning he's not the culprit you try to find out who's been sending you flowers. (Spoiler Alert: It's the Ice Man himself.)
Sorry if the ask was long... Have a good day and remember to drink water! âïž
I need me an ice man also Iâm sorry this took forever to write literally forever like since June forever đđ
A Silent Bloom â Kimi Raikkonen x fem!reader
Word count â 675
Fluff
The soft fragrance of freesia lingered in your office, mingling with the faint smell of coffee and grease from the garage. You studied the bouquet in front of youâan artful arrangement of freesia, sweet peas, and delicate eucalyptus leaves. It was stunning, like all the others that had appeared after races for the past few months.
This one was no different: no note, no clue, just flowers left in places only someone close to you could access.
At first, you thought it was a mistakeâsome mix-up with deliveriesâbut as the bouquets kept appearing, you couldnât ignore the growing mystery. Someone was sending these flowers on purpose, and they clearly knew about your deep love for nature.
The grid wasnât short of suspects, but your first and most obvious guess had been Sebastian Vettel. Who else had such a deep appreciation for the environment?
âSeb, I know itâs you,â you said confidently one evening in the paddock.
Seb, in the middle of peeling an orange, looked up in surprise. âWhatâs me?â
âThe flowers,â you said, crossing your arms. âI keep finding them in my office and locker after races. Youâre the eco-warrior; it has to be you.â
He blinked at you, then smiled, shaking his head. âIâd love to take credit, but itâs not me,â he said, popping a slice of orange into his mouth. âThough, whoever it is has great taste. Very thoughtful.â
You narrowed your eyes, unconvinced. âSeb, donât lie.â
He raised his hands in mock surrender. âI swear on all the bees in the world, itâs not me.â
That should have been the end of it, but of course, he couldnât resist teasing you about your âsecret admirerâ for the rest of the weekend.
If it wasnât Seb, though, who else could it be?
Your next suspect was Fernando Alonso. After all, Fernando had been known to stop and smell flowers during track walks, and he had a certain flair for surprising people.
During the Canadian Grand Prix weekend, you decided to confront him. As you approached, Fernando was casually leaning against a wall, scrolling on his phone.
âHey, Nando,â you said, trying to sound casual.
He looked up, an eyebrow raised. âWhat?â
âI need to ask you something.â You hesitated, then dove in. âAre you the one leaving flowers in my office and locker?â
For a moment, he just stared at you, then his lips twitched into a smirk. âWhy would I do that?â
âBecause you like flowers,â you said bluntly. âAnd you have a weird way of surprising people.â
He let out a low laugh. âI like flowers, sĂ, but I donât sneak into lockers like some secret admirer. Maybe itâs someone who doesnât know how to talk to you.â
That thought stayed with you, even after Fernando walked away chuckling.
The answer came at the Silverstone Grand Prix.
It had been a grueling weekend, with a tough battle for points leaving you mentally and physically drained. When you opened your locker to change, you found a new bouquet waiting for youâthis time, tulips and white roses. A small piece of folded paper sat between the flowers.
Your breath caught as you picked up the note, unfolding it with shaky hands.
âNature deserves to be appreciated. So do you. â Kimiâ
Kimi? The Ice Man?
You stared at the flowers, your mind reeling. Kimi wasnât exactly known for grand gesturesâor any gestures, for that matter. Yet here he was, revealing himself as the mysterious sender who had brightened your post-race weekends for months.
You found him later that evening in the quiet of the motorhome area. âKimi,â you said, holding the note and bouquet.
He didnât even look surprised. âYou found the note.â
âWhy?â you asked, struggling to understand.
âYou like flowers,â he said simply, his tone as steady and unreadable as ever. âIt made sense.â
âThatâs it?â
He met your eyes then, something softer in his gaze. âYou look happy when you see them. Thatâs enough.â
For a man of so few words, he somehow managed to leave you utterly speechless.
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OMG! I WAS LOOKING THROUGH UR BLOG CUZ MY HETALIA PHASE IS BACK AND WAS LIKE "I LOVE THIS WRITER SM WHERE ARE THEY" AND BOOM!
So request, if that's okay, the main 8 with a reader who cries during confrontations and or arguments. An imagine where ofc the main 8 says something hurtful and reader just covers their ears because 1.) Ears do be sensitive and 2.) It causes them to shut down completely
Can we know how they'd handle it plus how it'd go? Ty đ
hetalia main 8 saying something they regret in an argument
2.8k words ~ gender neutral headcanons
tw: they say hurtful things, and are kind of assholes in general lol
America - Alfred F. Jones
âIâm better than this. Whyâd I keep someone as seriously uncool as you around?!â
Even as you immediately begin turning away from him, curling into yourself for comfort, Alfred would be less than sympathetic. If youâd ever doubted how self-centred he could be, this was more than enough evidence to prove it.
âWhat? What- just- donât do that! Youâre the one who started this!â
Itâs unlikely heâd let up even after the tears start. Heâs really that callous when he feels hurt. After a few tense minutes of silence broken only by your quiet whimpering, heâd start tearing up too. Not from guilt, seeing how much he hurt you. But instead from how heâs only now realizing he has to put his own feelings aside to take care of yours.
Heâd approach you like a rabid animal, a lump stuck in his throat as he tries to say anything to get you talking again.
âListen, itâs uh- not that serious. Iâm sorry, ok? Letâs just⊠like- do something else?â
His comforting consists mostly of trying to get you out of your own head. Once itâs been long enough that youâre less scared, heâd take your hands away from your ears gently and kiss your cheek. If youâre sensitive to other things, heâd wrap his jacket around your shoulders and turn off the lights until youâre up and talking again.
âSee? Not that hard, just like I said. Good job, babeâŠÂ letâs just keep going like this, yeah?â
Somewhere, past all of the self-absorption and pride, he does have a heart. And that heart will immediately take you out to get ice cream. Itâd take him a while to admit fault (and I mean real responsibility, not just his usual âsorry not sorry, move on,â schtick,) but maybe once your tear stains have dried, heâd realize what an ass heâd been.
England - Arthur Kirkland
âG*d, youâre pissing me off already! Just- fuck- get out of here if you hate us so much!â
Like usual. Heâs desperate to just leave as soon as thereâs conflict. It may be annoying, but at least heâs only doing it because he knows how awful he is when frustrated.Â
If you donât take up his offer to abandon the conversation, he will. Youâd have to be seriously struggling to keep him with you in that moment.
âTrust me, everything will be much, much worse if I stayâŠâ
Heâs always acting like that. Itâs like his conscience disappears when he speaks, but only returns when heâs already said the hurtful thing. Never taking responsibility, always panicking and leaving just as your tears start to fall.
But, the more you tell him how much that hurts, the more he might be willing to stay.
Itâll take him a while to be able to choke out a cowardly âsorry,â but at least heâll stop trying to push you away at every occasion.
âWait- donât cry so much love, Iâm- I⊠I didnât mean it. Ok? Is that better?â
Itâs impossible for him to keep arguing once youâre truly upset. Instead, heâll take you by the hand to the kitchen so he can start making tea for the two of you. In that silence, he encourages you to speak whatever awful thoughts youâre repeating to yourself. Heâs just trying to get you in a comfortable environment again at that point.
Quiet affirmations are the only things heâll bring, looking at you sympathetically and still holding your hand tight while you talk about whatever you want to. Whether that be something completely random, insults towards him, or actual constructive discussion is up to you.
At the end of the night, heâll apologize. Not well, mind you, but enough to dissuade you from whatever hurt you earlier. All that matters to him is that you donât go to bed upset.
âIâll do better next time⊠or- I mean- Iâll do my best to⊠not be like that⊠again. Promise.â
France - Francois Bonnefoy
âBut is it that impossible for you to put in some effort? Itâs just⊠embarrassing to be with you right now!â
Heâs always been a fighter for sport. When he argues with you, itâs not to prove a point. Itâs probably not about anything he actually cares about either. He honestly just does it for fun. To him, arguing is how you really get to know someone.
So when you take his words to heart and, in the worst case, start crying, he just really doesnât know what to do.
âMerde, darling, you know I wasnât being serious! Come on now, donât take it so personallyâŠâ
He may grumble about how he didnât want you to get so upset, but at least heâll still calm down and quit pushing you. Whatever tension there was before will dissipate as soon as he sighs, making his way over to you and wrapping you in his embrace. Unless that makes you even more uncomfortable, in which case heâll just grab your favourite blanket and gently drape it over your shoulders.
âI am so sorry I made you so upset, I really didnât mean it. Youâre wonderful to me, always so stunning!â
For as long as you need him to, heâll apologize over and over again, playing with your hair and wiping away your tears as delicately as he can manage. He may be just as upset as you are when he realizes what he did, but heâs shockingly good at compartmentalizing that when you need support.
But, if you focus too much on how he hurt you, he might start crying too. He canât help it. Ignore him.
Either way, heâs there to hold you and validate you in whatever you might be feeling at that moment. Be as irrational as you need to be, he understands the urge well. And either way, heâll just nod along to anything you say and insist itâs everyone else's fault. Including his, unlike basically every other man.
âHow can you expect to survive when you hold all of this in? Please, always come to me even with small things, we share everything as lovers, yes? I cannot bear to see you as upset as thisâŠâ
China - Yao Wang
âCanât you act your age? How do you expect anyone to put up with you like this?!â
As soon he says it, he knows that was an awful thing to say. He doesnât need you to tell him, he can tell just by your expression that it was too far. You didnât deserve that, he told himself.
But that doesnât mean his ego is gonna let him give in so easily. Even if he was an ass, he still canât let himself give up âauthorityâ in a fight.
âAgh- thatâs not⊠its not what I mean to say, alright?! So just⊠pretend I did notâŠ.â
If you quit fighting, instead becoming more upset, heâll really struggle to calm down instead. Like, yes, he knows he should be trying to make you feel better, but thatâs- he just doesnât want to! He entered this fight with a purpose, and just because youâre crying doesnât make that purpose any less important!
âWhy wonât you argue back?! Aiyah, I knew you were childish but-â
Then he cuts himself off. Does he want to be the bigger person and apologize? No. But will he do it if you stop crying? Yes.
Heâll rest a hand on your arm and suggest in the gentlest voice possible that the two of you should go for a walk. Maybe the fresh air will help both of you clear your heads. He doesnât know what mustâve happened to him to make him say all of those things either.
âI donât think those thoughts, tiĂĄnxÄ«n. Iâm sorry I said it, I was upset but⊠I still should have known better.â
For as quickly as heâs willing to take responsibility, heâs not as much good at the âgetting you out of breakdownâ stage. Hopefully, youâve already communicated with him about that so he knows to stop being so loud and trying to touch you. Heâll do whatever you request of him, but whatâs best for you in that moment is probably not his first instinct.
âIâm sorry I was being such a huge ass. I love you, I promise.â
Russia - Ivan Braginsky
âYou think you are special? I can beat sense into you just like I can them!â
Good luck getting him to understand that you canât just threaten people within the next few hours. It will not work. When heâs angry, he really doesnât care about feelings. Just about getting you to cooperate with whatever he says.
He may usually think of both of you as equals, but when you start seriously challenging his authority while heâs in a bad mood, itâs impossible for him to not be cruel. Itâs always just better to leave than let him spiral and hurt both of you in the process
Although, he (obviously) would never actually put his hands on you. He just acts like a big baby andâll stomp his feet and tell you whatever will get the most reaction out of you.
âĐŃĐ±ĐžĐŒŃĐč, wonât you come out? Iâm very sorry, I promise⊠canât we just talk?â
But if you do remove yourself from the situation, he would never chase after you and force you to keep being in that awful environment. He knows better than that at least.
The moment you turn away and refuse to engage with his childishness, heâs already planning how to get you to forgive him. For as callous as it seems, your disapproval hurts him more than anything else. He would come to you on his knees, snivelling and pleading, if that was what he had to do just for you to look at him again
The moment you let him in though, he just rushes over and captures you in his arms. He would dry your tears as gently as he could, treating you like you were made of glass.
âĐŃĐșĐŸĐ»ĐșĐ°, ĐșŃĐșĐŸĐ»ĐșĐ°, you know I never mean any of that, right? Iâm sorry, sorry, please- please, forgive me? If I kiss it better, will you forgive me, Đ»ŃĐ±ĐžĐŒŃĐč?â
Heâs so pathetic. Ask anything of him in this state and heâll do it without hesitation. Unless itâs staying away physically. Heâll be quiet and let you ignore him but donât try to push him away or heâll get whiney. If you stress that it isnât personal enough, maybe heâll let it go though.
North Italy - Feliciano Vargas
âWhy arenât I good enough? You always abandon me, like-Â like Iâm nothing! Why do you hate me!?â
The moment either of you pick a fight, heâs already sobbing. Sure, he can argue with his brother for hours, but you matter to him in a much more vulnerable way. If youâre at all upset with him, he instantly feels like you donât like him any more.
But when he feels attacked, he attacks just as much. In his subconscious, itâs always easier to push you away than have you abandon him yourself. That doesnât result in very productive conversations, though.
âYouâre just pretending you love me! Youâre a liar, I- I know it!â
When you start crying along with him from all the awful things heâs said, two things can happen.
One, he cries harder, interpreting your hurt feelings as being an admittance to what he accused you of. Why would you be crying if it wasnât from guilt, and whyâd he say that when he so dreaded it being true?!
Or two, youâll tell him about how truly terrible it feels to have him think those things about you, and heâll snap out of it. His overwhelming emotions make him incredibly selfish at the moment, so he truly hadnât considered how you felt from all of that.
Then he immediately lowers his voice, giving you plenty of space until you feel up to talking again.Â
âOh⊠Iâm sorry! I didnât- you wouldnât do that! I know that, you know that, so just- Iâm sorry! Please, forgive me, amore mio dolce!â
He pulls you into a hug immediately, keeping the two of you as close as physically possible as he whispers promise after promise of his love. Until your tears dry, he wonât stop strangling you with unabashed affection, doing anything he can just to get you smiling again.
The feeling of guilt is not something heâs used to. Itâs not out of the realm of possibility that heâll start crying again too.
âIf I ever make you feel bad again, please shut me up, please! I canât take the thought of you so hurt by my words!â
Germany - Ludwig Beilschmidt
âMy word should be more than enough for you to shut up already!â
Itâs exceedingly rare that he ever loses his temper around you like that. Normally, youâre the one thing that can always calm him down. Just looking at your face makes his chest fill with butterflies, drowning out whatever dark thoughts heâs having.
So, needless to say, he immediately regrets snapping at you. Immediately.
âWait, no- no, I didnât mean to say that. I didnât mean to. Itâs not true, just- just stupid, Iâm sorry, lieblingâŠâ
Whatever you two were arguing about is instantly forgotten as he rushes over to you and takes your face in his hands. It just breaks his heart to see you hurt, much more at his own actions. You donât have to worry about him taking responsibility, he would never try to dodge the guilt of making you cry.
Itâs not the first time heâs lost control, and he knows itâs his fault. But maybe if he takes you in his arms gently enough, rocking you back and forth as you cry into his shoulder, itâll make it a little easier for you.
But if you just need a silent moment to yourself, thatâs perfectly fine too. Heâs autistic, so he certainly understands the feeling and will happily provide you with whatever comforting items you request.
âIâm sorry⊠you didnât deserve what I said. I love you, please tell me you know thatâŠâ
Even if you pretend you werenât that upset by it, Ludwig wouldnât let it go like that. If he gets to his breaking point like that, whatever fight you were having is put aside for the night. Now all that matters to him is that the two of you make up and get back into how things were before as soon as possible.
Expect him to be beating himself up for a while though. He just wants you to know how sorry he is, how much he regrets snapping at you, even if it does seem a bit excessive. But heâs just had too many people he cared about leave to not make a whole thing out of it.
Japan - Kiku Honda
âDonât you have any sense of personal space? You are like- choking me with all of⊠you! I canât stand it!â
Heâs a logical man. Thatâs one thing he always tells himself. Never, not even when heâs emotional, does he say things he doesnât mean. Was the way he said it less than perfect? Yes, of course, he canât believe he had just acted so impolitely, especially to someone who he cares so much for. But he still⊠meant what he said.
But, for the first time, as he watches your face break slowly, heâs not so sure of himself. Whether he meant it or not seems suddenly so inconsequential compared to the thought of hurting you. He⊠upset you? That wasnât supposed to happen.
âAh- why are you crying? What is wrong? You⊠you- it will be⊠alright, you know? You are ok!â
Wait- no, donât cry more from that! He has absolutely no idea how to comfort you, but if he really has to, heâll do his best. Although itâs a little difficult for him to resist drawing your hands away from your ears, heâll do his best to just let you have your process (no matter what that means for you.)
Before you can even hear him coming closer, youâre suddenly drawn into an intimate hug. His hand drawing your head underneath his and kissing the crown of your head so lovingly, it's almost like another person possessed him as he turns so soft just at the sight of your tears
Would his pride usually reject this? Yes, but, itâs certainly not the first time heâs had to put that aside for you.
Heâll sputter generic apologies, purposefully hiding his grimace as he forces himself to forget about whatever you two were arguing about before. Well, at least for now. Most likely heâll bring it up not long after, but in a much more⊠non-confrontational way.
âLet us go do something else instead, hm? Youâll only get more upset like this, and I want that as little as you want it.â
On one hand, heâs a little annoyed he had to put aside his own gripes to calm you down. But on the other hand, he hates conflict. Anything that gets you guys back to normal is worth it, especially if otherwise youâll be crying in his arms. Thatâs his absolute nightmare.
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The problem with what youâre saying is that Tolkien allegedly drew inspiration from Lovecraftâs Mythos. In it the Lovecraft devil Nyarlathotep is the son of & ensksved by the demon sultan Azathoth who dwells in the void. Azathoth is kept asleep by the playing of flutes & the food Nyarlathotep brings him, he is nuclear chaos, blind & mindless but omnipotent & when he wakes in the void he will destroy the Lovecraft universe.
Reading between the lines Iâm going to go out on a limb her & say the void in Lovecraft & the void containing Melkor are the same thing. From there was can deduce that Sauron may have a similar role to Nyarlathotep. Itâs said when Melkor comes back it will be the end of the Tolkien world. Given the rate at which Sauron feeds Melkor & how he was bound too tightly to return to Valinor I think he at least knows something about Melkor. I wonder if he didnât do something to put Morgoth there in the first place.
Additionally his rings he taught the elves to make actually saved them, I think when Galadriel confronted him he was hoping sheâd wait until he could prove the rings work. Which would be a means to verify he didnât intend harm, in Lovecraft Nyarlathotep likes to live among humans. He just finds people interesting. I think Sauron thought it was a win win like heâd help the elves (& everybody) then heâd have stuff they need & get to rule over them. Tolkien writes by the end of the second age Sauron had become greater than Melkor, I think heâs got a secondary goal he doesnât talk about. But I do think he imagined this scenario where heâd be this benevolent god who was a bossy, scheming, if pleasant, figure.
Emergency Awesome hypothesized he may be doing something to keep Melkor away. I think given what successful blue prints have looked like for this archetype in the past thatâs not unlikely.
Sauron is a conniving pain in the rear but heâs capable of helping & wants to try. Heâs like an anti villain he does bad things but not necessarily for bad reasons.
Can we stop treating Sauron like he is some kind of tragic antihero? I think it's time to accept the villain for what he is, i.e. THE VILLAIN.
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Fanfics I Really Liked in September 2024
So. Since I keep a list of what IÂŽve read anyway (thereÂŽs always a list), I will rec all the fics IÂŽve wholly enjoyed on a monthly basis. Old and new, canon or AU, big or small authors, long or short but nearly always Johnlock (-ish).
Clean Start by standbygo @blogstandbygo
UniLock - John meets an odd man at the laundrette who deduces people from what's in the dryer.
Delightful different first meeting.
These Hours That Define Us by predictably_unpredictable
Sherlock has just been discharged from hospital, not knowing what to expect or what he'll be coming home to. He's convinced himself that he should never see John again for John's well being, believing himself to be a hindrance to him. But when John shows up unexpectedly to 221B in the middle of the day hoping for a place to stay, things take a different turn, forcing them both to confront their past and their future.
Awesome S3 fix-it!
The night visitor by Snoozydog
John Watson, former army surgeon, employed by the secretive and indefinable government official Mycroft Holmes, accidentally saves the life of his employer's younger brother and ends up being hired as his private physician. John is immediately fascinated by his new patient but not only is Sherlock engaged to be married to someone else, but he is also a man surrounded by many dark secrets. Under the looming threat of Mycroftâs watchful eyes, as well as Sherlockâs imminent wedding there is also something else that lurks in the shadows, something that threats the budding relationship that has started to develop between the doctor and his enigmatic patient.
^^ Says it all, go read!
The winding road of secrets and lies by Snoozydog
John Watson takes on a mission to infiltrate the household of Mycroft Holmes by order of his new employer, Sebastian Moran, to access information their boss is wishing to get his hands on. To be able to get to Mycroft John will have to befriend his younger brother Sherlock and try to establish a bond with him. But what starts out as a seemingly simple job proves to be much more complicated for John as the Holmes household harbours many dark and unexpected secrets, especially about the very complicated relationship between the two brothers. Under pressure from his boss to follow through with his assignment, Mycroft suspiciously watching his every move and, to complicate matters even more, John beginning to develop feelings for Sherlock, he is beginning to regret ever taking this job. Can he complete his initial plan to steal information from Mycroft and what will happen when Sherlock finds out the truth?
^^ Says it all, go read!
The Printer Is Jammed by startrekto221b (snowandfire)
John is a disgruntled customer who just wants his money back for a shoddy printer Harry ordered for him off of a catalogue. Sherlock is a bored customer service rep working the summer he has off from Oxford. They are both about to get more than they bargained for.
Fandom classic AU different first meeting. Grumpy John and snarky Sherlock and hilarious shenanigans arĂłund the printer. Lots of fun.
The Printer Is Still Jammed by startrekto221b (snowandfire)
Life after happily ever after still has its pitfalls. Glimpses into the lives of Sherlock and John after they said âI doâ.
Part 2 of the printer fun.
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i always said that once i stop caring what other people think about me itâs over for you bitches and itâs finally happened iâm literally untouchable
#everyone else my age like oh iâm getting married ! oh i had a baby ! me iâm becoming evil#i decided months ago that iâm done i live in the worst place in the country or on earth even and these asshole people are not getting any#more out of me. i donât smile at anyone anymore. i donât make eye contact. iâm done with this place and these rude ass people#so today i was at the gas station and pulled up behind someone and got out and the pump didnât work so i got back in#and waited for the girl in front of me to be done bc everywhere else had a line anyway#so when she finally leaves the asshole in the jeep behind me is yelling at me through his window and literally about to rear end me#and iâm trying to tell him that one doesnât work so heâs still yelling at me through the window and i keep mouthing IT DOES NOT WORK#bc he simply is not getting and finally he sticks his piece of shit head out the window and LISTENS to me and i said it DOESNT WORK.#itâs BROKEN.#and i realize he thought i was just waiting to be at the first pump and holding up the line but i donât fucking care#so then he goes. oh. and he gets out and i said you can try it but it says itâs broken.#monotone bc iâm not trying to be nice#and heâs like oh ok. then i take back everything i said about you in the car LOL#and i said. ok.#and he said nah i wasnt saying anything about you#and i said nothing#then heâs a fuck face so heâs all embarrassed and acting like weâre buddies now#so heâs like huuuh. usually thereâs an attendant walking around.. and i say i havent seen anyone. not looking at him#and he goes huuuh usually they put a sign or something out that itâs broken and i said nothing so like#the slimy piece of shit he is he silently gets back in his car and waits and then i leave and iâm like#in this circumstance 100% normally my heart would have been pounding out my chest bc iâm afraid of confrontation and who isnt afraid of#men yelling at them but this time i felt nothing except anger bc why the fuck are you trying to start something with me in the fucking gas#station go to another fucking line if youâre in that big of a rush and also learn how to fucking read when it says pump out of order#before you try to fucking rear end me which go for it btw bc i have dash cams and anyway#iâm so fucking sick of living here and iâll never get out#but. iâm proud of myself for not being afraid or scared and just dealing with that piece of shit straightforward
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I never tried the option myself bc it'd probably mean skipping the Reason You Suck speech at the end (fire for speedrunners though) but I Love that you can frame your Phoneys in 3, especially so if you've already killed the previous two. Like yeah couldn't send you off to die so i'll let the goverment do it for me 𧞠like its just Peak evil imo.
#luly talks#i do relinquish in the pain and the agony but dont get me wrong the thought of any of them 3 getting jailed makes me SO sad#rog esp since he's the one im writing about and the biggest nerve wreck#gingi voice they'll be the last one to pick the board game for prison-game-night..........#actually yknow i wonder if rog would end up almost believing it after all when you try to gaslight him for the shits and giggles#(as in: telling HE was victim of the bite of 87 and the like) he tells you to not do that bc his brain is already scrambled or something#so there's a chance perhaps he'd believe it if he had everyone constantly accussing him of it?#not like it'd matter much i have no hopes for the dsaf justice system i know its been 35 years since jack got framed but still#i just remembered when the option popped up i said ''god im really becoming steven đ''#first time i made the joke too was when i said ''imagine your boss sucks so bad you turn suicidal'' no clue what the context was#OH YEAH JAKE SAYING HE'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN KEEP WORKING HERE yeah. poor guy.#anyway im derailing my own post again uhhh. yeah. yeah i dont trust any phoney is avoiding the death sentence#dsaf#roger jones#dsaf roger#btw just for the sake of yapping longer i truly cant decide whether harry or jake would survive better in the enviroment#probably jake to be honest. I mean Harry has a lot of experience inside freddy's but he didnt really live outside it muhc#jake is so confrontational though#hey did you guys watch the hit movie felon? sure that guy wasn't framed but. i feel like jake would end up w that attitude#except for. you know. everything else that happens in the hit movie felon.#hey actually forget about this game go watch the 10/10 movie Felon from 2008 starring Val Kilmer and Stephen Dorff#because its one of my all time fave movies and probably the saddest i've seen#not bc there arent movies that are more tragic but bc no movie was able to break thru my walls of idgaf and make me cry anyway#yeah you thought i couldnt bring up my movie fixations on my different fandom posts well you were WRONG in fact#im gonna go tag my other post i left untagged yesterday bc my ass was Cooking
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I think one of the craziest things that a former object of my affection has ever said to me is âyour boyfriend is just a less attractive version of meâ like?? why would you say that?? are we still doing a Nick and Jess or are you just deranged??Â
#he's deranged. he's just deranged.#last month we both had boyfriends and yet that did not stop him from saying this#or saying 'how do we know me and bri's boyfriend aren't the same person if we've never been in the same room at the same time'#or constantly bringing up my romantic history for no reason and acting weirdly jealous whenever there's someone new#telling me why all of them are terrible and deflecting whenever i confront him about it#last time i pressed him on it he said that he only thinks about my romantic interests this much because he's making a tier list#like okay yeah for sure for sure that's why you bring it up in front of all of our close friends and judge all of them so harshly#yeah keep never unpacking that one#i swear some men would rather d*e than do basic introspection to figure out why they act the way that they do#bri speaks#LIKE HE'S BEEN OUT OF TOWN FOR ABOUT A WEEK AND HAD A PACKAGE DELIVERED TO HIS HOUSE#AND WHO DID HE ASK TO PICK IT UP???#WHO DOES HE DEFAULT TO WHEN HE NEEDS SOMETHING AND NEEDS SOMEONE HE CAN TRUST#never his boyfriend nah why would you go to the person you're dating for anything when bri is right over there??
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repeating my therapists words in my head like the bike message in pokemon
#i am not responsible for other people#i am not responsible for their actions or feelings i am not in control of that#if its not in my control then i need to take a step back and accept that#tw drugs#soooooooooooo my dad picked up the op of the iods. which he was addicted to for about a decade and stopped a decade ago#like if he had gotten them when the hospital offered it to him it would be whatever yk because he has suffered burns#but he said no at the hospital and stressed that he wouldnt take that poison again#his words idk anything about them#and now that we're talking about weaning him off of his gabapentin (what hes been taking for pain)#he picks them up dawg you say youre not in pain enough to take regular old medicine anymore#i am quite so very stressed about it. our genepool is very heavy on addictions and yk my mom never stopped so i Experienced it#and of course i Experienced it as a child but i dont remember any of my childhood#but i would really rather my father not get addicted to them again i think that would be really quite terrible#i confronted him about it and he said he was just going to keep them as a backup just in case#like ofc i dont want my dad to be in pain. but he cant just say hes feeling really good and then pick them up#because that sets off the âhe just wants to use them for Using themâ alarm in my head#but i am not in control of him i cant control his actions i tried my best and now whatever happens happens i guess#trying very hard not to freak out very hard right now (everything in my body wants to have a cheeky panic attack and/or spiral)#have no close friends/friends i feel like i can just vent to for freesies is kind of a nightmare#i miss my Friends i miss my Friends i wish i could tell them my situation and just feel like i am Supported and Cared For#being lonely is all fun and games until bad things are happening in your life and you have no one to distract you or help you
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I can't stop thinking about Ghost being such a gentleman when your boyfriend is an ass....
warning: domestic abuse, adult language
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You were mortified that it happened at work this time...
Your boyfriend was a brute of a man, made worse over the months by drinking alone at night while you bartended to help pay down your student debts from several years ago. He got a little rough with you, but only when he was plastered. And you forgave him, because he was decent the rest of the time.
But suddenly you had to start coming to the pub to pull pints with a little extra makeup on your face. The random patrons out for a casual drink wouldn't have noticed, but your regular boys did. You only knew them by Ghost and Soap. They were military and mean looking, but they laughed together like teenage schoolmates. It was always a good night when they sat at the bar, but you could often feel their eyes on you.
"Y' alright, love?" Ghost asked the first night you wore extra eye makeup and a bright red lipstick.
"Yes," you told him, not meeting his eyes. Your face hurt. Your boyfriend had slapped you two days ago. Your skin was puffy and bruised, and you were embarrassed and afraid to move out, so you stayed. "You boys need another round?"
They left you a sizable tip. They always did.
The next time you saw them, your lip was split open, and you were desperate for a way out of the mess your life had turned into. Trying to hide your face while you mixed drinks was a chore, and as soon as Ghost and Soap arrived, you knew it was useless.
When Soap disappeared toward the washrooms, Ghost leaned across the bar, his hulking shoulders taking up more than their fair of space, making you smile slightly. His voice was deep and soft, but his words made you shiver and freeze with your hand on a pint glass. "Y' know, a pretty little thing like you belongs on a pedestal. A man should touch you with reverence."
You stared at him silently as his eyes tracked the mark on your lip. When Soap returned, you didn't charge them a cent for their drink, but they tipped you well anyway.
When a confrontation happened at the bar, tears stung your eyes, and you wanted to hide. Your boyfriend was drunk and angry, and tonight he beckoned you from behind the bar to a dark corner near the hallway where he could have some privacy while he berated you and roughed you up.
"Please," you begged, running your hands nervously on your shirt. "Just go home. I'll be off work in an hour."
"How many of them have you fucked?"
"What?" you gasped, thinking he'd finally lost it. "What are you talking about? I need to get back to work."
He pushed you up against the wall with his other hand on your jaw. "How many of the men here tonight have you fucked?" His thumb brushed the spot on your lip that was nearly healed, and you flinched. "You have the guiltiest expression. So, tell me how much of a slut you've been. As your boyfriend, I need to keep you in line."
Then he was being hauled away from you as your legs shook. With wide eyes, you watched Ghost's massive bicep wrap around his neck like it was nothing. "Y' alright, love?" he asked you softly, and you nodded without saying a word. Then his face darkened, and his voice was an angry snarl as he told your boyfriend, "Ya' been relieved of your duties."
"The fuck?" he responded from his headlock, gasping for air.
Ghost sighed and rolled his eyes. "Fuckin' prick don't even know military protocol." Then he raised his voice a little louder. "I said, ya' been relieved of your duties. I'll take over from here."
Somehow, you found your voice. "Take over?"
Ghost's face softened again when he looked at you there against the narrow hallway wall. "With the boyfriend duties," he told you while Soap dragged your ex-boyfriend toward the exit. "Sound good, love?"
He was holding out his big paw of a hand, palm facing up, and you knew he'd be incapable of using it to hurt you. The softness in his gaze right now and every time he looked at you was proof enough of that. You didn't respond, but you smiled as you slid your hand into his grasp.
"That'll do for now," he grunted.
That was the night you came to know him as Simon.
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#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#simon riley cod#ghost simon riley#simon ghost riley#simon riley#simon ghost x reader#simon riley imagine#simon ghost x you#ghost call of duty#ghost cod#ghost imagine#call of duty#ghost riley#call of duty x reader#cod x reader#ghost x reader#ghost x you#ghostsprincess
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can u make headcannons on sub!yanâs tendencies in the relationship?
also can i be đ or đ anon?
dating sub!yandere boys hcs âĄ
sub!yandere boys when they date you.
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dom!fem!reader, unhealthy relationship, mention of killing/murder, both sfw and nsfw!, mention of feminization, bondage
note: yes you can be đ anon!
â your yandere would be possessive of you, even more compared to when you two were just friends
â well, you thought you two were just friends. he already assumed you two were together sometime earlier during his friendship with you
â he would do anything for you in order to make sure you're happy and safe
â a friend of yours is getting too touchy with you? well the next day that friend is ignoring you and when you confront them, they look at you scared and quickly scurry away from you. did your yandere do something to them? surely not
â a weird guy keeps following you around your neighborhood? well a couple of days later you see on the news that his body has been found near a river and weirdly enough, you havent seen your yandere on the days before the guy's death
â you complain to your yandere about how a teacher gave you a bad grade on something you worked so hard on? suddenly your grade changes to a A and that same exact teacher suddenly resigns from the school
â he'll try his best to know where you are most of the time and try to follow you back home to make sure you're safe (though its really obvious, you don't acknowledge him so he thinks he's actually doing something)
â but no matter how scary and possessive they are of you, they just want to be good for you, really
â its almost as if they're a puppy for you, always there for your beck and call
â give them a simple command and they'll do it immediately, no questions asked
â ask them to buy you a snack from the nearest store? he'll return back with a bagful of others that he thought you would like
â they're super clingy and always want to be near you
â somehow they manage to have the same exact classes that you have and at the same time. maybe you guys are just lucky? little do you know that your yandere hacked into the principal's computer to change his schedule to fit with yours
â if you're sick, they would immediately fetch you some medicine and make so many bowls of your favorite soup that you're not sure you could finish them all
â they would be so sad when you're sick cause that means they can't be as close as they usually are with you :(
â in bed, nothing changes at all. rather, he becomes even more infatuated with you
â they're still so good and obedient for you, always following your commands. its cute
â like what i said with him doing it with no hesitation, your yandere is eager to do what you say
â tell him to get on his knees? say less as he's already doing so, staring up at you with such innocent eyes
â tell him to open his mouth for you to stick your fingers inside? he opens wide and sticks out his tongue in such a sinful manner, hazy eyes absolutely begging you to make him choke on your fingers as drool drips down his chin
â order him to suck your strap and get it all wet? he's quick to get in between your legs and get his hands on the fake dick, his mouth going straight to bobbing it up and down and gagging as it hits the back of his throat. he'll try to subtly grind his hard on against your foot without you noticing but you do anyways but he's being a good boy so you allow it
â and oh my god is he so shameless in public
â no hesitation in telling you what he wants you to do to him when there are people around
â you'll be at brunch with some of your friends and suddenly you'll feel a hot breath on your ear, such sinful words coming soon after
"im wearing lingerie under my clothes, your favorite set too. wouldn't you like to just ruin me right here and now? make me cry and look so pretty while you show everyone im yours?"
â safe to say that you immediately dragged him to the family bathroom and fingered him until he was gripping onto you for dear life, begging and crying out for you to stop and take pity on him (he's lying about wanting you to stop)
â when you're out with errands or just at work, he'll take such sinful pictures of himself to send to you randomly
â the pictures would include his legs spread out, a obvious bulge in his underwear, and something adorning his body whether its lingerie, a maid outfit, or rope that's tied so tightly on him
â if he's feeling like teasing you even more, he'll send whimpering audios that beg you to come home and fuck him and if you listen close enough, you'll hear some wet noises that let you know that he's masturbating
"f-fuck, [name] come back s-soon, please? i-i miss you so much! i- ah! i-im wearing your favorite outfit right now! i'll be a g-good ngh boy waiting for you âĄ"
â itll end up with you rushing home after you're finished to fuck him dumb in that outfit, making it stained with his tears and cum
â he knows you can't really get him pregnant but your yandere just loves those straps with cum in them that you can just shoot inside him whenever you're fucking him fast and rough
â that'll make his eyes roll back and head throw backwards as he lets out such a loud mewl at the feeling of your fake cum filling him up
â and afterwards he'll tease you by using his fingers to push the cum thats gushing out of his hole back in before licking his fingers
â although your yandere is a good boy for you most of the time, theres times where he's a brat
â he'll talk back to you whenever you command him to do something or cum without permission
â but just some long edging or overstimulation will break him and turn him into a sobbing mess
â tying his hands to the headboard and keeping his legs spread apart whilst a vibrator is inside him on the highest setting is his favorite punishment
â your yandere thinks you don't know that since you do it all the time but you actually do know it, you just love the way his face is stained with his drool and tears while his chest and the sheets underneath him is covered in his cum afterwards
â such a slut but we love him for it
ty for reading to the end! †- chaepink
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I get why the real-life players are mad about the Rat Grinders doing power leveling -- like, that's fucking annoying. I get it.
But I love Riz's anger about it. I need more of that, to be honest. What do you mean, he's had to save the world 3 times and he's maybe 17? What do you mean, his friends have died in front of him over and over? What do you mean, after all of that, it's still not enough to keep his mom from worrying about his future? What do you fucking mean???
Gorthalax said that the fucking Rat Grinders have killed like 80,000 rats. At 10XP a pop, that's 800,000 XP just for the rats. Which puts them at, like, level 12 or 13 or something when you divide it up.
They didn't have to die or watch their friends die. They weren't kidnapped by a mirror person or confronted with watching their parents be interrogated in hell. They got to go into the forest after school for hours and kill tiny forest creatures over and over.
It didn't have to be this way. None of this had to happen. They got a fuck ton of trauma (that they're only vaguely dealing with, really, if that) and pain and time spent away from their loved ones and birthdays missed and none of it had to happen.
So yeah, fuck the Rat Grinders. But, more than that, fuck the whole fucking thing.
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#d20 fantasy high#fantasy high#riz gukgak#fhjy#d20#the rat grinders#milestone vs xp leveling#d&d#this is not a criticism of brennan#and i also get that the rat grinders are kids who don't deserve trauma#but i hate how superior they act about it#the bad kids#they didn't deserve all that either
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This will be the last update about the accusations against Nyx and me from last year and recent months.
VERSION EN ESPAĂOL:
I cannot force everyone to forgive or believe us, but I would like to provide a closure from our part on the events following Hopeless Peaches' false accusations last year, and a few more that have been reappearing this year, once more.
In recent months, we resumed communication with CrystalFlame, one of the victims of the Glitchtale server. Crystal acknowledged that the accusations against us for allegedly being sexual towards minors and bribing her to remain silent about our "crimes" were entirely fabricated by these people. It was never our intention to hide our past mistakes with money. The separate donations Nyx and I gave to Crystal were solely intended to help her.
Regarding the conversations on Skype in 2017, neither Nyx nor I ever forced the minors present to engage in sexual behavior for our entertainment, nor did we sexualize them in any way. There were inappropriate conversations between adults, in which they should not have been involved, and we recognize our mistake in being negligent and not caring enough about them. I must admit that Veir also disgusted me, and I reacted foolishly by not confronting him or by saying things he liked just to make him leave me alone. I deeply regret this. Although we have apologized to Crystal for this, I also want to apologize to the minors who were there, even if they don't want to know about this anymore, and to the entire community for this huge mistake. Since Nyx and I stopped using that chat short after our irl meeting that same year, plus our detachment to the members of GT, we have changed our views significantly both in public and in private, creating a healthy community for everyone. I will add more details later regarding my experiences with NSFW material, for which I have also been accused of being a depraved person.
I disagree with how Nyx tried to explain how these behaviors were so normalized, but he never intended to endorse the toxicity and unpunished crimes occurring in Latin culture. Nyx acknowledges this, and we discussed it again privately with Crystal. We apologize once more to our Latin members who might have been offended by this take, which could have been better explained. Nyx and I said a lot of things out of fear and frustration, which caused more harm and distress rather than solutions due to the explosive harassment we faced because of the false accusations by Hopeless Peaches and their group. I won't go into too many details because I have chosen to keep my mental health private, but this wave of harassment severely impacted my mental and physical health, and I am currently undergoing treatment to manage the aftermath.
However, I want to take full responsibility for causing Nyx to act out of emotion rather than with a clear mind in a desperate attempt to protect me, as Crystal ended up in a very complicated situation during the harassment wave created by Peaches, making her believe that our lives were in her hands and dependent on her choices. This was not only inappropriate but also unfair, considering Crystal was going through a lot at that time. Nyx and I poorly worded many things both publicly and privately. We should never have let our emotions take over while trying to defend ourselves. We could have handled the situation more maturely. None of these mistakes will be repeated ever again. Crystal has also admitted her mistakes. Many things would have taken a different path if dialogue had been the first option instead of public statements, but both sides have learned a lot.
With all this, I don't want to hear anything about Glitchtale, its creator, or its still-active members. Nor do I want to hear about Hopeless Peaches or their community, or what's left of it. My purpose on the internet is to entertain people with my art, and on the rare occasions I interact publicly, to maintain a calm and healthy environment, as I have been doing for years. My boundaries with fans are very strict and defined. It may sound ambitious or silly to many, but for a long time, I have wanted to make a difference and show that not all artists with a large audience are people who hide dark secrets and seek to harm others. I just want to tell stories and brighten people's days.
People have become used to seeing random individuals or public figures being exposed daily for horrible acts and behavior, which is very depressing. However, when those accusations are false, it is sometimes too late to undo the damage. No one likes to be pointed at and accused of something they didn't commit, especially when those accusations are serious, like harming another human being.
Some people today are confused and believe that I am actually Camila, and that Nyx is Veir, that my husband has been dating minors despite us being married, and that I defended my "pedophile" partner and protected other groomers. People are not only mistaking us for other individuals, but we also don't have anything to do with that other than the 2017 Skype chats. We have been put in some sort of black list from parts of the fandom due to misinformation or because some people seek an excuse to justify their dislike for us by wishing we had harmed real children. This is sickening, sickeing and frustrating if you actually think about the victims not only in fandoms but everywhere. So, please, I beg you to distinguish between names and what has actually happened. Even if you don't like us, don't seek or wish for us to be monsters just to feel proud of yourselves.
I feel I could regain some peace in my heart by having the opportunity to talk to Crystal about all what happened and ending in good terms. This should be the end of the whole controversy regarding the Skype Chat and the GT Server.
Now I would also like to take the opportunity to talk about other accusations still aimed at me to this day, which I once explained on a Twitter thread that was eventually deleted due to unnecesary arguments between fans. I'm being accused of being a horrible and irredeemable person for drawing a comic in my early years in the fandom that insinuated a non-consensual act between Cross and Dream.
Before any explanation, I want to emphasize that I still feel immense regret and shame for creating that nsfw comic, even if I didn't feel comfortable doing so, I still made the decision as an adult and shouldn't have done it in a space where there were minors and people who might find that material triggering. Even though it happened many years ago, it was not right, and I will apologize as many times as necessary.
I haven't had any contact with the creator of Dreamtale since 2017, so I'm unaware of her current viewpoint about this topic in general, but one thing is certain: both of us don't want to be associated with that ship between our characters and want to move on. We want it as far away from us as possible. I don't want anybody to harass her over this situation.
During that time, I was in an unstable relationship with the creator of Dreamtale, with whom I used to roleplay privately. This, along with being pressured to make the ship "canon", led me to create the comics for that ship. Among them was the infamous scene for which I'm accused of supporting rape. This content and private interactions reached a point where the entire situation made me uncomfortable, along with the toxic attitudes in our relationship, I ended up closing the blog, though not before writing a summary of what would happen next in the story -that didn't have any other sexual moments, to clarify-, simply a closure for those who enjoyed the comic. Not long after, we broke up.
After this experience, I began to realize that any NSFW content, both fictional and real, made me very uncomfortable. This is connected to future members of the fandom, like Veir, who tried to sexualize me, and later, ex-friends whom I wanted to please for their support during my growth as a content creator by drawing them private NSFW commissions. I ignored my discomfort, believing I was doing the right thing and that I could trust them, but what happened later finally made me understand that I personally cannot tolerate any of this content.
This group of people shared these private commissions among themselves. One of these people was someone I considered a close friend and was even my Discord moderator but began abusing their power towards other members, trying to escape the consequences just because of our friendship. They even tried to offer me money to remove a character from another artist who would appear in my animation as a cameo, just because they both had personal issues. I decided to end our friendship because I saw no changes or improvements on their part and I felt i was being used as a power tool for them.
It wasn't long after this that I found an alt account of them, posting these private NSFW drawings, tagging me to attract attention as a form of revenge for cutting ties with them (They also got Nyx's phone number to trying to get in contact with me despite what they were doing). These images spread last year among a few people who, unaware of the background, used them as a reason to question me as an artist. However I explained the rest of the story before it became more public, and I appreciate that they listened to me first, however, the damage was already done.
In March of this year, I made a thread on Twitter explaining this and my reason for not supporting or consuming NSFW content. I want to stay away from this whole debate. I don't want my words to be used to attack others. My reasons for not enjoying this are because I had people around me who caused me a lot of harm with this matter, it triggers me, and I don't like any sexual topics around me, even as an adult reaching my 30s. I simply don't like it, I'm not interested, and I want my feelings to be respected. I'm very aware that more than half of my audience are minors, and I know how to behave and what to show in my art, but there are still others looking for any excuse to call me or my husband horrible things. It has happened before with accusations of transphobia for making Frisk and Chara from Xtale male instead of non-binary as they are in the canon version. I have been called a pedophile for portraying Frisk and Muffet from XTale in an innocent romantic context, even though there is no age difference, just because is not following, again, the canon (which with all honesty, I'm not aware if it has been confirmed she is a child or not). I have been accused of racism because of the characters' skin color, and so on.
Being hated in a fandom as an artist with a big following is supposed to be normal, but, to what extent?
I know I should ignore those comments and move on, but I still don't understand why it hurts so much that people want to discredit my efforts as an artist and as a person by believing they have found some dark secret in me⊠I really can't understand, I just want to live in peace.
My art is my only escape from negative thoughts. Nyx is my only support in real life. I have been working on how to deal with online criticism and harassment, but it is really hard when people tell lies in order to ruin a life, especially when those lies try to make us look like disgusting human beings. This puts me in a lot of distress, mostly because I hate conflict and prefer to be left alone. I want to be a role model in this community by not getting involved with problematic people and toxic environments. Even if there are people who don't like my work, I want to show that there is still a bit of decency and common sense in the art community.
For this reason, this will be the last time I talk about this because I want to focus on what makes me, my husband, and my audience happy. I want to set an example, and I want people to read this, try to understand our position, and give us a chance.
Once again, we deeply regret the mistakes we made in the past.
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Fandom: The Last of Us Pairing: Joel Miller x Virgin!Reader Rating: 18+ Warnings: girth age gap, virgin!reader, eventual loss of virginity (not in this chapter), gratuitous descriptions of Joel Miller's body, somewhat creepy!Joel, fetishization of youth, dom!Joel, breaking and entering, playboy magazine, objectification, fingering, sexual discoveries. Word count: 6.2k Summary: Joel's warnings about what men like him would do to girls like you only makes you want him more. A/N: Back in the depths of hell again, you guys. Now this isn't the most depraved thing I've written by any means but it's up there. Come say hi in my chat or inbox, I'd love to talk. Keep a look out for follow up parts and pleeeeease give me comments. I am very very desperate.
Joel Miller was a bad man. That much he knew.Â
Even as he fixed taps and renovated houses that were falling apart, he could see the blood on his hands. The very hands that packed lunches for Ellie snapped necks, pistol whipped men, stole from a starving child so he could feed his grown brother. But there were lows even he didnât stoop down to.Â
Not that he didnât have the opportunity. Men always did. And in this world, opportunities had only tripled. Even the Boston QZ, as strict as it was, had an underground brothel. He knew Tess to frequent it and never asked questions. Sometimes she needed to bury her face between a good pair of thighs and wrap her lips around a pretty pussy, and this wasnât something he could give her. There was a lot he couldnât give her.
Being in Jackson shouldâve civilized him. It did in many ways. Heâd reverted to the southern gentleman with table manners. âYes, Maâamâ spilled out of his lips effortlessly when he spoke to women. He held the door for anyone walking in after him. He even went to Churchâ sorry, the multifaith house of worshipâto help renovate.Â
That was where his troubles began.Â
There was no point in him going where people prayed. Being back in civilization did not erase his decades of disbelief in a cruel God who would take his baby and keep him on this accursed Earth. But he did because he was back to being a contractor and Tommy asked him to go fix up the pews instead of him. He didnât have much time, being a new dad and all.
He was on his knees checking out the rotting wood and evaluating how much wood heâd need for building new ones when he was confronted by a pair of legs and a sweet voice. Yours.Â
âLemonade, Mister Miller?âÂ
He looked up, his eyes traveling up your legs, bare until he got to your knees where the hem of your flowery skirt sat. Pure, unblemished knees, never taken a fall, didnât fucking creak, and never knelt before anyone but God. You looked down sweetly, eyes wide and innocent like a newborn cow. Everyone had a kind of darkness about them in this world. Everyone except the kids who didnât know a world outside the insular walls of Jackson. And you, it turned out, even though you werenât a kid.
He wiped his sweat off with the greasy rag he carried and looked up at you once again. You had a pitcher and an empty glass in your hands. A sweet smile on your lips and hair falling down your shoulders and reaching your breasts. A yellow ribbon sat in a bow where your neckline dipped between your breasts, adding to the innocence of your look.
âYes please, Maâam. Thank you,â he said, giving you a nod. Your pretty plush lips curled up, a giggle escaping them as you poured him a glass of lemonade.Â
His hand brushed against yours as he accepted the glass, his hand too large to curl around it without making contact with you. You giggled again before retracting your hand and occupying it with adjusting your hair.Â
âIâm younger than you, you know? Donât have to call me Maâam.âÂ
âJust being polite. Maâam.â He took the glass to his lips, mindful to take only a small sip instead of downing it in desperation. Another adjustment to make when food was no longer a scarcity. Sweet, sour, and salty danced on his tongue before it glided down his throat. Just a sip refreshed him. And the sight of a nice girl didnât hurt the cause either.Â
Itâd been so long since he had a nice refreshing glass of lemonade. Summers meant worse infestations of infected, not the barbecues, lemonades, and swimming of past. When surviving each hour was under threat, small luxuries like this became out of reach of even oneâs dreams.
âWell, guess I should call you Sir then,â you said, leaning against the wall. You held the pitcher up to your chest and the tails of the ribbon on your chest dipped into it, the soft shiny yellow turning dark, tainted.
His mouth watered and fucking hell, it wasnât the lemonade you just gave him. He took a sip of the drink and licked his lips, imagining how youâd taste if he wrapped his large hand around your neck and pressed his chapped lips to your plush ones. Better yet, if he held your legs apart and devoured you other pair of lips until you were leaking down his mouth. Would you call him Sir then? His cock twitched in his jeans as he pictured you bent over one of these pews, your skirt pushed up and his hand in your hair as he slid his cock in your hole.Â
Jesus fucking Christ! What the fuck was wrong with him?Â
âMade the lemonade yourself?â He asked, groaning as he managed to get himself back up on his feet. His knees creaked like the floorboards of the houses he renovated, but ultimately supported him as he stood. He towered over you, making you appear smaller, more fragile.Â
âDepends. Do you like it?âÂ
âItâs wonderful, of course. Hot summer day like thisâŠI really needed it,â he said, raising the glass up a little before taking another sip.Â
âWell then yes, I did make it.â
He chuckled, feeling himself pulled in by your easy charisma. It was nice to have normal conversations like this once again. No agenda, no need for establishing himself as someone who wouldnât hesitate to beat someone up if even mildly threatened. It was justâŠnormal.Â
âItâs very sweet, Maâam. Like you I assume,â he added, mentally dusting off the part of his brain where he stored skills for conversing with pretty girls.
You laughed, holding your free hand up to your mouth to cover your lips that widened and revealed your teeth.Â
âIs that the southern charm that I hear our townspeople talk about?âÂ
âThey talk about my charm? I didnât hear.âÂ
âOh yes, they do⊠Joel Miller, charming pants off of everyone in town.â
âPants? Well thatâs disappointing. I was hoping Iâd charmed some pretty skirts off.âÂ
âLots of experience with that, Mister Miller?â you asked, sliding your hand over the soft fabric of the skirt of your dress. Such delicate fabric. He could fist the hem and give it one tug and itâd rip right off.
âMore ân what you got for sure,â he said, loath to hint at how infrequent his encounters had become in the recent past. Tess died, he did a cross country hike with an annoying kid, he needed to maintain a good reputation in his new town. One buried after the other. Enough to leave a man with nothing but his fist and his imagination. He would kill for a fucking Playboy magazine. Literally. Heâd killed for less.
âWhat do you know about how experienced I am?âÂ
âBeen experiencing longer than youâve been alive, Maâam.âÂ
âOh well. Nothing I canât learn.âÂ
He laughed nervously and stuck his hand in his jeans pocket. Surely you couldnât be flirting⊠Why would a young thing like this flirt with him? He was in his late fifties looking like mid sixties and you were⊠He didnât know. Young.
âIf you could teach me, Mister Miller. Give a girl some experience?â
âIâm sure you can find someone else.âÂ
âOh. Not your type, am I?â you asked, and he deluded himself thinking you sounded disappointed. No chance.Â
He didnât have a type. Long time since he thought of frivolous shit like that. But you shouldnât be his type.Â
âThereâs much more eligible men in town is what Iâm saying,â he said, suddenly hesitant to lie. Lying had never been an issue for him. The right thing was to lie, say you werenât his type so he wouldnât cross lines. Itâd been a long time since he did the right thing.
âIâll be the decider of that,â you said with a shrug of your shoulder before taking the empty glass from him. âHave a good rest of the work day, Mister Miller.â
Later that night, he wrapped his fist around his cock in the privacy of his room. His mind flooded with images of you spread out for him, sweet lips and a sweeter pussy milking him. He couldnât even recall the last time he was with a woman. It was Tess, of course. Sometime before she got thrown in FEDRA jail for the last time. Too fucking long ago.
Surely it was only because itâd been a long time since he got his dick wet. Heâd never, in his entire life, pictured a woman so much younger spreading her legs for him. Sucking his cock. Crying out his name. How old was she even? Not past mid twenties for sure.
It was wrong, he knew, as white hot spend spurted out of his cock and covered his hand. A sour tang took over his mouth as the fog of unadulterated lust cleared up to reveal the ugliness in his head. He shuddered, feeling like something had crawled under his flesh. He hadnât felt guilt like this in so long.Â
Wrong, wrong, wrong.Â
You werenât even as old as his kid would be had she been alive.Â
Heâd known men like that back in the day. Grays in their hair and skin like old leather, but pretty young things old enough to be their daughter hanging off their arm. It was obvious that none of them kept these girls around for love or for their personality. It was always sex and the feeling of self-importance when a sweet young thing paid attention to balding heads, beer bellies and limp dicks that needed a blue pill to get up.Â
Fucking disgusting.Â
He began avoiding you whenever you happened to be in the same space. At the house of worship, the town clinic where you interned, trading days when people exchanged what they had for what they wanted. His eyes never met yours and he always quickly looked away when they stared too long at your uhâŠfeminine featuresâ pretty legs, cute ass, round tits. Where the fuck did you get sundresses anyway? Who kept that shit around in this world?Â
He didnât know that when he avoided you, you took note of him. When he took glances of your features, you memorized his for later in the night when you buried your head in your pillow and pushed your fingers inside your pussy to simulate what it must be like to be with a man.Â
He was older. That much you knew from his grey hair, sun-damaged skin, and gait that exuded bone-deep weariness. You knew Tommy had just turned fifty. Hard to miss occasions that meant a free slice of cake from the canteen. Joel had to be in his mid-fifties at the very least. At first glance, he wasnât what youâd consider handsome. There were younger men in town. Fit and muscular. Didnât groan and scrunch up their faces when they got up. Didnât have lines on their foreheads. No bags under their eyes.Â
Yet there was something about Joel that was more entrancing.Â
After your first meeting when you offered him lemonade, you made sure to visit under the guise of worship. You didnât know much about religion and were conflicted about embracing a god. The only faith you had rested in your medical instruments and the medicines the townâs chemist concocted. But it was a nice place to meet people, to check on healing patients.
The visits were worth it for a glimpse of Joelâs large hands wrapped around his carpentry tools. When the sun was the hottest, he sometimes stripped down to his tank top, giving you a show better than any film played in the community theater. His broad back looked masculine enough in his flannel shirts. But you didnât know desire like the first time you saw him in a white tank, showing off his muscular arms as sweat dripped down his tan skin.
When you pleasured yourself in your room, it took time, imagination, your fingers, and a lot of effort to make slick pool in your pussy. That day, all it took was the sight of Joel Miller working. You sat with your thighs pressed together, rubbing them against each other in the most inconspicuous little movements.Â
Could it be blasphemy if the God who was supposedly orchestrating everything made this man take his shirt off in front of you?
It made no fucking sense. Joel was old. He looked like he woke up on the wrong side of the bed every goddamn day. He had been chewed up and spat out by whatever the fuck was outside Jackson these days. Hardened expressions, graying patchy beard, hands calloused from carpentry and decades of using weaponry. Features that only indicated a long life lived, not attractiveness.
You were supposed to be attracted to the soft, sweet ones like the guys in the worn out copies of romance stories that the previous inhabitant of your house stashed in the basement. Even his little brother would be a more reasonable target for your lust. Younger, taller, softer, head full of dark, silky hair with few grays. But you wanted Joel Miller with his rough graying beard that would prick your skin were you to cup his cheek like the women on the novel covers.Â
Something about him just screamed Man. Something that none of the other guys in town had. There was nothing wrong with any of the other Jackson men, but none of them made you want to take the plunge and lose your virginity. It wasnât the lack of offers, per se. Youâd gotten looks from many eligible Jackson bachelors. You had drinks with a few of them. Dinner with fewer and shared a kiss with more than one. Alright, two. But anything beyond that had you trembling in anxiety.Â
It wasnât anything precious to you, virginity. But youâd waited so long. Focused so long only on survival and then helping to build this town and now training to become a doctor. Whatever passed for doctor these days. With all your life dedicated to everything but your love life, you simply had no experience. What if you messed up and they laughed? You knew anatomy, but that didnât translate to practical stuff. What if you couldnât make them feel good? Youâd have to see the guy all the damn time in the small town. There would be no escaping the awkwardness.
Sure it was counterintuitive to keep pushing away sexual encounters because you had no experience. But you didnât know what else to do. You were too old already to not have done anything. But each day that passed with you rejecting perfectly nice men meant you were getting even older for your first time.Â
You didnât know where Joel fit into your need for exploring your sexuality, but it didnât hurt to stare. God knew everyone else in Jackson did.Â
So you stared. Work with his carpentry tools. Riding on horseback into Jackson after patrol. Helping with the fucking sheep. Walking around with Tommy. Carrying his nephew around town. It should be inappropriate to be fantasizing about a man when he was doing something as innocent as carrying a baby. But seeing his large hand cradling the babyâs little head made you want to scream into your pillow and kick your legs.Â
âYou alright, sweetheart?âÂ
Your heart fluttered and you let out a nervous laugh at being caught. You smoothed out the wrinkles on your clothes just to make it look like you were alright. Unfortunately you were wearing a pair of fucking jeans. You didnât even want to know how awkward you looked.Â
ââm alright, Mister Miller.âÂ
âJoelâs fine,â he said, rocking his nephew in his arms.
Oh fuck, his fucking arms!
âOh I donât know,â you said, fidgeting with a belt loop on your jeans. âWouldnât want to be impolite addressing you by your first name like that.â
He smiled, recalling your conversation from the house of worship when you called him Sir and had him fucking himself in the shower to the memory. âAh. âcause Iâm an old man,â he said, more as a reminder to himself to fucking behave.Â
âYouâre not that oldâŠâ you trailed, looking him over in a way that set fire to every inch of skin that you laid eyes on.
Behave, Miller. Youâre out with your nephew.Â
âThat so?â he asked, eyebrow raised.Â
âMhmm. You donât look a day over seventy.âÂ
He snorted, making Miles stir in his arms just a little. That stung a little. It shouldnât. Your estimation of his age, whether you were serious or not, was reminder enough that he was too old to be lusting after you.
âThanks. Iâm actually eighty-two.âÂ
You giggled your pretty little giggle, lowering your gaze to the ground and looking back up only when it had turned into a wide grin. âHow old are you actually?â
âOld. Fifty six.âÂ
âFifty-six isnât that oldâŠâ you trailed as you brought a hand up to his bicep. Joel gulped, praying to the non-existent God that you would stop before praying to the same God that you would keep your hand right there. God answered his second prayer. You squeezed, licked your lips and looked up at him with your doe eyes.
âChecking if the hardware is still working, Doctor?âÂ
âIâm not a doctor yet.âÂ
âWhen do you become one then? Ainât no Harvard handing out medical degrees in this town.â
âHoward?â you asked, squinting at him. Ah, of course you didnât know. Harvard didnât mean the same thing to you. Now it was just like every other building in Boston. Run over by infected. These ones were just the nerdy kind with glasses on.
âThat was a thing, too. But I said Harvard. They were big universities back then.â
âAh. Did you go there?â You asked, with no malice or bite. Oh, bless your heart. No one expected a dummy like him to have gone to university at all, much less Harvard. No one in his family had gone. Sarah was meant to be the first.
âYeah. Traded some oxy and threw molotovs at clickers in the campus.âÂ
You rewarded him with a giggle and that was incentive enough for him to keep going. âGuys like me didnât get into Harvard. Or Howard. Didnât even go to community college. I finished high school and got a job in construction.âÂ
âYou didnât go to uhâŠconstruction college?â You asked, cocking your head and raising an eyebrow as though testing out the term.
âNo such thing. Well, there were civil engineering programs, but I just learned on the job.âÂ
âLike me.âÂ
âGuess so. I see you reading from all those fat medical books. But thereâs no need to study any books in construction. âcept if you wanna be an engineer or architect or something, which Iâm not.âÂ
âMaybe you should write one. We could all do with some knowledge from before. Itâs important to document it, pass it on to Ellie and little Miles over there.âÂ
âI ainât writing books, sweetheart. Donât think I even remember how to write much. Iâll just keep to fixing things up in this town. So, if you need some help with your placeâŠIâm happy to help.â It was the least he could do. Maybe as some kind of penance for having impure thoughts about you. Or as a fucked up trade for starring in the mental images he conjured to jack off in the shower.
âThere is something, actually. But I donât have anything to trade for, so Iâll wait until I do,â you said, clasping your hands behind your back and swaying in place in an endearing manner.
âNonsense. You patched me up just last week. Youâve done enough for the townâs health to not have to trade for anything ever again.âÂ
âWell, no. Thatâs not how it should be⊠Itâs peopleâs health. Canât put a price on that.â
âBelieve it or not, health had a steep price back in the day. Cost four thousand something just to give birth. Double that if they had to cut you open.â And that was just how much it cost when Sarah was born. He was sure it had only gone up by 2003. If he hadnât worked his ass off, there was no way he couldâve escaped debt. It helped that his Ma and his then wifeâs parents helped with childcare. Wouldâve been even more expensive without that.
âDamn. I donât know how much that is, sinceâŠyâknow we donât have money now. But that sounds like a big number. It shouldnât cost anything just to be born.âÂ
âTell me about it,â he said, shaking his head. âBut listen. Anything you want fixed, Iâll help out. You can give me something later if youâre worried. I know Ellieâs always on the look for new books to read and you seem to have a lot of them.âÂ
âNothing Ellie would like. Not like the special limited edition of Savage Starlight or anything. Just medical textbooks and romance novels.âÂ
âWe could trade for the lemonade from that afternoon,â he insisted, desperate to do something for you. Take care of you as you took care of everyone who walked into the clinic be it papercuts or a fucking knife in their abdomen.Â
âAlright. Trade for the lemonade it is then,â you said, giving in to his pressure.
âNow tell me. What dâya need fixed?âÂ
âââ
It had been a few days since Joel promised to fix your shower for you. Each time he came by and rang your doorbell, you hid somewhere away from your windows. When he caught sight of you in public, you quickly walked away or engaged in conversation with someone else. You didnât need shit fixed. Everything in your house was perfectly alright. Tommy and his guys had given the place a complete makeover just a couple months before Joel and Ellie arrived.Â
You were no paragon of honesty, but you didnât make lying a habit. There were a few white lies here and there and this was meant to be one of them. It just didnât fucking hit you that if you lied to a contractor that your shower was broken, he would eventually come over to fucking fix it. All your desperate sex starved brain wanted that day was for Joel Miller to come use his tools in your room and flex those muscles while at it.
So invested were you in that particular fantasy that as you unwound after a long shift at the clinic, it was with Joelâs beefy arms in mind. You stood in front of your mirror, taking in your reflection. One of the magazines youâd found in a box under your bed laid open on the dressing table. Playboy. Entertainment for Men. Each had a scantily clad woman on the cover. And many more inside.Â
You made comparisons to yourself and the woman in the center page of the issue.
She stood in front of a dressing table too, but much different from how you stood. Her legs were on either side of her dressing table chair and her hands on the top of it. Between her arms were breasts, big and round and with smooth skin. They didnât have any marks on them like yours. No moles, no stretch marks. Just plain. And she just stood there, soft brown hair down, tickling the top of her breasts and her lips parted as she gazed at you. No, at the men she was meant to entertain in this menâs entertainment magazine. All she had on was panties that went high up to her flat belly that connected to high transparent socks.
You reached behind your back and unclasped your bra, wishing that you had something nicer like the woman on the cover of another one of the magazines. Bright red and showing off her breasts wonderfully, but pulled down to reveal almost everything. What was the point of a bra then if it didnât cover or support anything? Entertainment, you decided. Men seemed to be very entertained by breasts.Â
Many a man had stared at yours even though you had them behind layers of fabric unlike the naked women of the magazines. Many had conversations with them instead of your face. Some brushed up against them âaccidentallyâ. Joel thought he was being covert, but you felt his brown eyes rove all over them. You thought maybe that he too would brush up against it sometime, but he never did. Maybe entertainment stopped at just looking, as in the magazines.Â
You wondered if Joel sought out menâs entertainment magazines like this. He was from before everything went to shit, so it was very possible that he did. Did he like the women in these pages, sticking their asses out and looking through the pages at him? Would he be entertained if he saw you like this?Â
You didnât know that if you turned your head to your bedroom door, you would have your answer. Joelâs cock strained against his already tight jeans as he stood awestruck by your figure. He swallowed as you held on to the top of the chair and lifted your knees, one after the other and placed them on the plush seat. You arched your back, a little too much at first before reducing the curve. Your ass stuck out enticingly and he didnât know whether to grab, squeeze, slap, or spread your cheeks apart and fuck your ass.Â
He should leave.Â
It was stupid of him to walk into your house with a box of plumbing tools to fix your shower when you hadnât yet given him a date or time for it. Plus you were avoiding him. Running away with your little friends and picking up stuff to hide your face from his view. He was plenty sure that when heâd rung your doorbell, you werenât always away from home.Â
He should leave.Â
Fixing the shower could wait. He could confront you some other day.Â
But you were putting on such a pretty little show in nothing but your panties and he was only a man. A bad one.Â
His boots stayed put on your hardwood floors as you enjoyed yourself in front of the mirror. You spread your knees and let your fingers between your thighs, eyes closed, lips parted and low whines escaping your lips in just a few minutes. He palmed his growing erection over his jeans, consequences of being caught be damned. He was a foul beast already. What bad was another sin on the list? Besides, you were the one whoâd left the fucking door open.Â
Your soft whimpers grew into moans as you brought yourself closer and he forced his feet to stay put despite their urge to walk up to you and give you something to really moan about.Â
âFuuâ mmm Joel, pleeease.â
He let out a gasp, all his restraint flying out the window as soon as he heard his name from your lips. You couldnât actually be doing this⊠There had to be another Joel in town. Younger, better looking, smarter.
Your voice grew needy and the pitch higher as you kept at it. âFuck, fuck, fuck! Gimme it, Sir.âÂ
No, it couldnât be anyone else.Â
Joel toed his boots off and took quiet steps towards you, emboldened by the filth that spilled from your lips. If this old man was what you wanted, he wouldnât stop himself from reaping the benefits. He wasnât a goddamn saint. Never was.Â
He stopped in front of you, surprised you still hadnât sensed his presence. As though the universe heard his thoughts, it had you open your eyes. You gasped as soon as you saw him and buckled off the chair, but Joel caught you. You shuddered, unable to cope with the sudden touch.Â
âJ-Joel?âÂ
âYeah, sweetheart,â he said, touching your cheek with the back of his hand. You whined, your body molding itself against his chest. You brought a hand to his arm, feeling the rock hard muscles underneath his sleeves and your other hand worked between your legs. Â
Your fingers no longer felt adequate as you felt his large fingers on your cheek. âWant you, please,â you whined, desperate to return to the edge where you had been right before you saw him.Â
âYou donât know what youâre asking of meâŠâ he spoke dangerously, soft brown eyes clouded with a kind of desire you had longed to see in him for weeks.Â
âWant youâŠwant you to be with me,â you repeated stupidly, your desperation clouding your senses too much for you to say anything else. While in the past you only wanted to get rid of your virginity, your goals had become more specific with his arrival. You wanted him. You wanted his big hands and broad shoulders, to hold on to them as you rode him. To watch his grumpy expressions turn to ecstasy under you.Â
âTell me not to touch you,â he said, his tone low and almost threatening. Any other threat from him, you wouldâve heeded. But not this one.Â
âTouch me!âÂ
It was as though something in him snapped at your words. While darkness only loomed over him before, it now completely took over.The hand that previously only caressed your cheek now wrapped itself around your neck. Before you could completely process the move, his other hand slapped yours away. He replaced two of your puny fingers with his middle finger, eliciting a strained moan from you.Â
âTouching yourself to a Playboy magazine, huh?âÂ
You only nodded, unable to form words now that a fantasy of yours had finally come to life.
âDirty little thingâŠThought you were a nice girl and all. Helpinâ out at the clinic, head buried in books all the time. Turns out you actually got your head in dirty magazines.âÂ
You whined, your pussy clenching and gushing around his finger at the way he was speaking to you. The same man who insisted on calling you Maâam despite your protests was calling you a dirty girl now. The veil of respectability seemed to have floated away at the sight of you naked and pleasuring yourself. Had you known that this was all you needed to get Joel Miller to touch you, you wouldâve done it much sooner.
He added another finger, the girth of him enough to stretch you more than you had done for yourself. You brought a hand up to his shoulder and fisted his shirt, needing something to anchor yourself to.Â
âYou ever been taken by a man, sweetheart?â He asked, his tone too cool and casual for what he was doing to you. You shuddered, partly from his phrasingâ taken, he said. Taken. Like you were a thing. Like the women in the magazines positioned so uncomfortably just so their breasts could look a certain way for the picture. Printed on the cover page with the words Entertainment for Men written on top. You shook your head, feeling small as you confessed it for the first time.Â
âAny man?âÂ
âN-no,â you managed to breathe out, whimpering at the way the bulge beneath his jeans twitched at your simple answer. He took a step to position himself behind you, letting you lean your back against his chest. The angle at which he touched your pussy changed, opening your world up to a wonderful new kind of pleasure.Â
âA virgin. Pretty young things like you ainât for men like me,â he whispered in your neck, making you shiver. His thumb roamed between your legs as far as they could reach, caressed you gently, his softness with you contradicting his warning about men like him. The hand around your neck slithered down your torso, cold air forcing you to face your new desire of having your breath kept hostage.Â
He took your left breast in hand, squeezing the flesh like someone starved would hold on to a piece of bread. It felt more like a punctuation to the warning he issued than a part of sex. Just then, his thumb between your legs stopped its search, stopping a little above the fingers inside you.
A moan you didnât recognize as yours at first filled the room and you buckled forward. Blunt nails sunk into the flesh of your breast as he saved you before you could fall. He hauled you back up, making you collide against his chest.Â
You gasped and quickly grabbed the hand between your legs, the sensation too intense for you to know what to do with. His thumb kept on, rolling over something there that set your person on fire.Â
âFuuuck! Joelâ Iâ Iâ hnnngââ
âI know, sweetheart,â he crooned, keeping at whatever the hell he was doing to make you feel this way.Â
âPlease⊠I donâtâ what was that?âÂ
You felt his chest rumble before you heard his laughter. Heat rose to your face and your throat felt strained though there was no hand around it anymore.Â
âNever touched your clit? Do you even know what that is?â He mocked, the cruelty somehow not repelling you from him. He forced you to look up at him. Your heart lurched at how close you were to his face. You could see every gray hair, every minute blemish and line.
âDonât know your own fucking body but you want a man? You donât know what youâre handing me on a silver platter. I ainât like the other guys in town. I walked across the fucking country and lemme tell ya, thereâs no pretty things like you out there. Iâm starved.âÂ
âTake me, then,â you begged, using his own words from earlier. âPlease. Whatever youâ a-aaah!âÂ
He ramped up the pressure on that spotâ your clitâ and with it, took your ability to speak coherently. It was as though heâd done it on purpose. You hated it. To be so bereft of control. To be a puppet in someoneâs hand. For someone to acquaint themselves with parts of you that you didnât know of. But it was too much to fight, so you let go. Let him play with you. Take you. Like a thing.
You renounced control of your lips too, his name slipping out effortlessly like it did when he caught you. Then you renounced what was left of your dignity and began begging relentlessly. For what, you didnât know. In his hand, youâd gone from woman to pupper, your strings pulled by a man, your voice now his. Sounds that would be indiscernible from that of a wounded animal emanated from somewhere deep within you.Â
Perhaps none of this was real. Why else did your own voice grow so distant from you? Why did your vision become blurry? Your thighs shook uncontrollably and your heart felt like it was beating out of your chest. Your eyes clenched shut, depriving you of your blurred vision. Your toes curled. You wanted to shrink into yourself, shrink away from all this goodness. You went higher and higher, soaring like a bird. Every nerve ending in your body felt electrified, awoken like one switch turned on every light on last winterâs Christmas tree.Â
You let out a loud cry, the soaring bird in you reaching its peak before beginning its fall to the ground. You could hear your breaths again, labored but doing everything to stabilize itself. Your thighs still shook. Your chest rose and fell. A hand caressed your hand. Behind you, something strong supported your back. Kept you from falling backward.Â
âJoelâŠâÂ
âI know, I knowâŠâ he whispered into your head. You opened your eyes and looked up at him, surprised to see a softer visage. He picked you up off the chair like youâd seen him lift giant logs before. With ease. You didnât protest as he carried you. Didnât protest when he laid you out on your bed.Â
He bent down and picked something up. No questions, no instructions. He simply spread your leg away from the other. Cold air touched the gushing mess dripping out of you and you shivered, feeling a sudden need to cover yourself but unable to defy him. His hand was on your pussy again. His hardened, calloused fingers behind a soft fabric this time. He wiped upwards, collecting the mess he made out of you. When he lifted the fabric up, you realized it was your panties.Â
He tucked it into the pocket of his jeans and then looked back at your face, the intensity of his gaze making you want to run. Problem was your weak legs wouldnât take you anywhere. You didnât screw your eyes shut. You didnât pull your blanket to conceal yourself. You looked back at him, defiant. Like you were trying to prove something. I can handle a man like you.Â
âBe a good girl from now.âÂ
That and a condescending pat on your pussy and he was gone.
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Part 2
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title: gala gone wrong?
pairing: prohero!bakugo x prohero!reader
katsuki was suddenly forced to confront his feelings for you, when you were put in the date auction for charity.
the heroes gala was something katsuki wouldn't look forward to normally. but this year he had a plan. he was going to ask you to be his date.
...originally. he chickened out last minute and owed kirishima 1000 dollars.
he was surprised to see you come alone though, opting to sit next to him which made him fist pump internally. you were a very successful hero who also doubled as a model. for what reason you ask?
none really, you just did it cause days off of hero work were boring. walking runways, topping charts, and beating villains with style was just another day for you.
you looked especially gorgeous this evening though, working with another up and coming designer to design a dress that perfectly complimented everything from your skin color, to you hair, to even references of your quirk.
katsuki suddenly felt underdressed in his suit, but to be fair every hero who was a man was dressed in a suit. except for monoma.
the auction portion of the gala started before the awards were to be given out.
the awards were pretty pointless in katsuki's mind. the only ones that mattered to him were the final rankings of popularity, efficiency, and the overall category.
"you nervous?" you whispered, talking over the first few lower ranked hero's to be auctioned for a date.
"nah, i know i won at least in popularity." he said, trying to keep eye contact with you without stuttering.
"hmm. what if i won? huh?"
"shut up."
she put a hand over her mouth, when suddenly-
"and the last date to be auctioned, a night with the top ranked woman hero [name]!"
"huh? oh that's me!" you said, collecting your dress as you walked to the stage, leaving katsuki blinking in confusion to himself.
you were in this? i mean it shouldn't have been a surprise, you had a rabidly loyal fan base, even since U-A. but what was he supposed to do? bid?
"the bid starts at.. 15,000 dollars." you rolled your eyes and gestured for people to go higher, and they did.
"17,000!"
"20,000!"
"30,000"
numbers were being shouted from all around the room, with the highest bids barely even being able to be tracked. the bids ranged from new heroes who definetly could not afford you, to old men who you really wish couldn't afford you.
you covered your mouth as you let a laugh escape you, this was hilarious to you, you'd have to do this more often.
after a bunch of back and forth, one booming voice cut all the others off.
"500,000 dollars. cash." to your surprise it wasn't an old creep. grand, also known as shindo yo, had suddenly bid. just as they were about to call off the auction and announce shindo the winner,
katsuki's internal dialogue won and 'forced' him to bid too. "750,000 dollars." he declared.
he doesn't think he'd have done it had it been any other idiot who wanted a chance with you, but that loser had to go.
"sold! to dynamite! we've broken a record here folks, 750,000 for the charity of --"
the words faded into the background as he looked up at you, smiling and walking over to him. he felt is heart speed up, his hands drown in sweat, his hair puff out.
"if you wanted to take me out you could've just asked katsuki." you joked, taking him by the hand as you pulled him back to the table towards the back you two were settled in on.
"whatever, now we have an excuse to."
"don't tell me you like me or something katsuki? how embarrassing."
"i told you shut it."
she laughed and settled down, poking him on the cheek. "its okay if you do, i like you quite a lot dynamite."
he flushed red at that, tiny explosions being let out from his hands inadvertently because of how caught off guard he was.
she held his hand under the table, before looking straight ahead to the ceremonies going on in front of them. he smiled and leaned back.
the awards were pretty boring when compared to the view of you, so until they had gotten to the cool stuff he just eyed you.. daydreaming about the life you'll have together someday.
he focused again when the top three heroes in popularity, efficiency, and overall were to be announced by all might.
at the end of the night, not only did he leave with a number one trophy with 'popular vote!' embedded in its side and an all-might signature at the bottom,
he also left with a lipstick mark from you right on his cheek, some flowers, and a small note that read 'see you tomorrow :)'.
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daylight â s. reid x reader
in which communicating with your boyfriend is scary, and spencer reid can't stand to see you cry.
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader genre: comfort/fluff! tags: reader avoids her issues... for a little bit. that's kind of it. it's just fluffy and simple! word count: 1.5k a/n: something short & sweet because i thought it was cute and i write the most when i'm procrastinating assignments... um⊠inspired by a conversation sam willow and i were having a few nights agođ«Â reminder that pretty girls cry when theyâre confronting somebody!!
Spencer Reid was not oblivious to all things in the world. In fact, he was rather perceptive compared to most people. Psychology degree and human behaviour-based job aside, he noticed things.Â
A lot of it was good. He knew exactly how to wake you up on mornings he started earlier than you. How to keep you half-asleep enough to allow you your return to sleep, but also awake enough to ensure you'd remember him kissing you goodbye (there had been an argument a few months ago about it â you thought he had left without a word). He knew your go-to Thai order from the restaurant down the street, and he knew which pair of wooden chopsticks your favourite were to pull out of his kitchen drawers.Â
He was also observant enough to know something was wrong.Â
He was back from a case. A long one, that had worn him down enough that he felt like a pile of creaking bones when he re-entered his apartment earlier that afternoon. You had returned from your own job an hour after that, and despite the initial excitement that came from your boyfriend being back in the state again, you were a bundle of nerves.Â
And he knew that.
You were on his couch, legs across his lap and back up against the arm, his hands resting comfortable in the dip between your two knees. There was a quiet episode of New Girl playing on the television (you had convinced him to watch it after he had sat you through every Star Trek movie), but your thoughts were anywhere but the sitcom you had been using to entertain yourself as of recent.Â
"You've been awfully quiet," Spencer said, piercing the less than comfortable air settled around you two.Â
"Sorry," you answered, tearing your gaze from the screen to look at him, meeting a worried expression you had somewhat expected.Â
Hands ran up and down your legs, erupting goosebumps along the skin. "Is something wrong?"Â
"No," you immediately shook your head and forced a smile onto your face. "Nothing's wrong."
He furrowed his eyebrows, lips parting in that confused look he always had on his face when he was thinking, and he stared at you for a few seconds longer, before, "Yes there is."
Profilers. "Seriously, Spence. There isn't. I'm just kind of tired tonight."
"I am as well," he said, hands stilling on your legs rather abruptly. "I was in Idaho for a week. I'm also exhausted. And usually my girlfriend is a little touchier and more talkative than this when I come home. So I'm assuming something's wrong."
"You're assuming incorrectly, then," your shoulders shrugged.
He said your name chidingly, and it was at that tone of voice that you retracted your legs from his lap, instead tucking your feet beneath yourself, gaze dropping to the couch cushion.Â
"I just missed you," you told him, a slight stretch of the truth.Â
"I missed you too," he said, and your shoulders softened. "But that's not all it is."
You blinked, before you fell silent, shaking your head instead.Â
"Talk to me. What's happened?" his voice was achingly soft, your heart shattering in your chest to the point you wanted to take back every thought you'd had over the past week and burn them to ashes. They didn't mean much now in front of him. Not when he was reminding you of how kind he was.Â
"You barely talked to me," you said, hands dropping to your lap, and you fidgeted with them under his gaze. "I never knew what was going on. You didn't call once, except for when you landed."
"I was really busy, honey," he answered, and you could hear the frown in his voice. "If I had time to do anything other than the case and sleep, you know I'd have talked to you more."Â
"I know," your voice shook, and you could feel your emotions overriding your brain. As usual. So, you kept your head down. "But I would've liked you to tell me that, at least."
You heard him sigh, and curiosity got the best of you as you lifted your gaze, inspecting to see if he was sighing out of irritation or not. He wasn't â just exhaustion â and that made you feel a little better.
"I know for next time then," he said, and he met your eyes, which had watered since the last time he looked at you. Which wasn't very long ago, and so he was drawing his eyebrows together, again, confusedly. "What's that? What's wrong?"
On instinct he leaned forwards, and you let him shift his body closer to yours, hands coming up on either side of your neck. You sniffled, trying to suck the tears threatening to fall back into your eye sockets.Â
"I can't communicate," you mumbled, quietly, a tear escaping and dripping down to the lower half of your cheek.Â
"You communicated pretty well just then, angel," he said, voice soft as he caught the remainder of the tear and swiped it away with his thumb.Â
"Yeah butâbut now I'm crying," you moaned, pathetically, more tears slipping down your face. His lips twitched â though not in humour, you noted â as he adjusted his hands to your jaw, thumbs continuing to wipe falling tears.Â
"Yeah. That's okay," he answered. "You've got a flood of hormones going through you right now, and so your body reacts to it in the best way it sees fit. In your case, it's tears."
"I hate it," you mumbled, and this time he did laugh a little, nodding his head.Â
"I know," he said. "Are you feeling embarrassed about communicating with me?"
"I guess," you replied. "I don't know. I think I just..." you trailed off as your voice disappeared, breath beginning to hyperventilate acutely. "IâI just feel kind of silâsilly."
You cursed each sob that broke up your speech, and yet his gaze and focus on you never once wavered. In fact, his touch seemingly had grown softer, and the concern in his eyes had only grown.Â
"You aren't silly," he said, once he was sure you weren't going to continue speaking. "If me not talking to you for a week upset you, I'd say that's pretty reasonable."
"I don't know..."
"Want a secret?" he asked, fingers poking into your cheeks enough for you to crack a small smile. You only nodded your head in response, chest still jolting with each sharp intake of breath. "I have to physically restrain myself from calling you every hour on a normal day."
"You're lying," you mumbled, and his smile only widened, a bashful laugh leaving his lips.Â
"No, honestly. I have so much I want to talk to you about during the day, and I need to remind myself that you're busy and at work too."
A few uncontrollable tears dripped down your face, and your gaze dropped to the top of his shirt, though the smile never left your face. "I don't believe you."
"I wish you would, but that's okay," he said, evidently seeing right through your defying statement â you believed him a little.
His forefinger and thumb caught your chin, and he tilted your head back up so his eyes could meet your glassy ones.Â
"I'm sorry," you murmured, before he could get a word in.
"For what?"
"Crying."
"Do you take in anything I say to you?" he chastised, though the smile on his face eliminated any fear of him being genuinely irritated, and so your shoulders simply shrugged.Â
"Sometimes," you said, and his eyebrows shot up.Â
"Sometimes?" he repeated back to you, and you had to bite your lip to keep the amused expression off your face. He was smiling back at you, before his face settled into something more serious, as he continued, "I don't mind you crying, angel. It breaks my heart to see it, but I'm not sitting here and judging you for it. You know that, right?"
"Yeah."
"Good," he finalised with a short nod, and you sniffled with a nod of your own.Â
"I mean, technically, crying is good," you said, tongue poking between your teeth as you forced back a smile.Â
"Yeah? Why's that?"Â
"Releases endorphins and oxytocin."
He huffed a single laugh through his nose, nodding his head. "Yes. It does."
"I know things," you grinned.Â
"You do," he agreed with a nod. "My smart girl."
"Yeah. Don't ever forget it."
"I could never," he replied, and a comfortable silence enveloped your two bodies, your heart fluttering in your chest.Â
"Can you tell me about Idaho?" you finally asked him.
"You really want to know?"Â
You nodded your head, and he sighed, but complied regardless. And you eventually found your head in his lap, staring up at him as one hand danced gently over the skin of your slightly exposed stomach, the other entangled in your hair, brushing through it.Â
And he told you about the case he had been away on â it became glaringly obvious behind why he hadn't called or messaged you at all â and consequently eased any other remaining worries behind it.
And it dried your tears up.
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