#IM SICK IN THE HEAD OVER THEM

[iho6hi2]

GO Chrono Stone is goated because I realized that in at least one parallel universe endou and hiroto are endgame and that makes me happy

[xuanelle]

hinata promising to face kageyama on the court all the way back in middle school and now he has and it's the final match of the series. their journey started as promising to meet each-other on the court and they finally have

[unbloodiedmartyr]

their doglike charm and pathological people pleasing have bewitched me body and soul

[ninvic-art]

i wouldn't fall for someone i thought couldn't misbehave

[tommygotwrittenoff]

bobby says to eddie one shift where buck is home sick with chris. going home to see your boys? eddie smiles and says. yeah. and your boys just Sticks in eddies brain and when he gets home he sees chris and buck curled up on the couch asleep and the sight makes him pause cuz. yeah. those are his boys

[blusandbirds]

eli moskowitz - "am i making you feel sick?"

[iridescentmirrorsgenshin]

I saw you said that Alhaitham fell first but Kaveh fell harder. I have always thought that Alhaitham did in fact fall first but Kaveh falling harder? How so?

Hiya! thank you for your ask, it’ll give me the chance to clarify some things from my previous posts about alhaitham and kaveh yearning <3

In post one and post two I discussed that I thought alhaitham and kaveh have both yearned for each other but this yearning manifests in different ways respectively - like through alhaitham’s actions ensuring a close proximity to kaveh, and also actions which could help with kaveh’s betterment, compared with kaveh’s complicated feelings revolving around his and alhaitham’s past friendship, and the current, complicated state of their relationship (pre cyno’s second story quest) resulting in him talking about alhaitham often, even if it’s just to complain

I mentioned that although it couldn’t be certain, it might be that alhaitham was the one to reach out to kaveh through journal critiques after their falling out, but aside from speculation, it can be seen that alhaitham responds to every one of kaveh’s bulletin board posts – in this, there’s an active pursuit of contact from alhaitham’s end, despite kaveh effectively ending their friendship. Alhaitham believes that kaveh is his mirror, and that this is essential to have in maintaining a broad ‘perfected’ perspective, but beyond this it’s evident in their exchanges (that alhaitham very often initiates through goading) that alhaitham enjoys kaveh as a person outside of his views as a scholar

From this, I see this as alhaitham understanding his feelings (be it platonic or romantic) towards kaveh, and that these have sustained from their initial friendship back when they were students. Alhaitham actively considering kaveh as one of priorities (as heavily implied in his story quest, thank you hoyoverse for the infamous framing) shows he’s fully aware of the influence kaveh has in his life, and has long since accepted this – which can be seen in the emphasis of his character stories, that the only joint project he undertook as a student was with kaveh, painting kaveh as a sole exception

Alhaitham’s peace with his feelings contrasts sharply with kaveh, who has a much more convoluted view of alhaitham due to miscommunication and misconception, having been built over many years. I’ve yapped about the reasons for their miscommunications here, here, here, and in my original post about kaveh’s form of yearning, but overall kaveh believes that alhaitham criticises his perspective, and therefore his character, and that alhaitham invited him to live in the house in order for kaveh to give him something in return – all the while kaveh considers meeting alhaitham one of the most pivotal points in his life, and that they were close when they were friends

kaveh is ultimately seen to bicker with alhaitham to the point of upset, and complains about alhaitham when he isn’t present, overall seemingly holding alhaitham in a negative light, until moments of concern crop up, and are poignant in comparison to their usual rapport - it’s very much ‘a mixed bag’

I interpret this to be kaveh still harbouring feelings from their initial friendship, but these contrast with his perception of alhaitham after the argument, and the state of their current relationship. Ultimately, he still cares about alhaitham, but he can’t face the pain this will bring where he cared about alhaitham before, and felt ‘cut’ through, essentially betrayed, so it’s better to reject these feelings in the context of their relationship post-argument. Overall, kaveh retains his feelings, but rejects them

There’s a clear contrast between kaveh’s treatment of alhaitham pre-parade of providence and post, where kaveh is seen to actively pursue/seek out alhaitham, whereas before he mostly shunned alhaitham’s presence. I said before that I think this can be seen to mirror alhaitham’s pursuit of kaveh pre-parade of providence, which can clearly highlight kaveh’s reversal of feelings, whereas before alhaitham’s were pretty clear, in that he wanted to be near kaveh; the most evident action being that he gave kaveh a room, where this wouldn’t be replicable for anyone else

I see this mirroring of actions as equating the two’s feelings for each other, where kaveh could previously be interpreted as genuinely disliking alhaitham, this can’t be claimed now with kaveh saying ‘I’ve been searching for you everywhere’ :’)

The trope of alhaitham falling first and kaveh falling harder can have different interpretations, but for me I see it that alhaitham has long since been aware of his feelings, and has accepted them. In kaveh’s case, it’s more complicated, as it could be said that he fell first, considering that he continually approached alhaitham first in the house of daena in order to form a friendship, but these feelings reversed after their argument

From then on, I interpret it as kaveh being aware of his feelings, but struggling with them, and sought to reject them. But now that the two have reached an understanding, kaveh’s acceptance of his feelings are prominent, and are highlighted (e.g. in him seeking alhaitham out, him telling alhaitham about his day, wanting to talk with alhaitham, whereas before he actively avoided this) in comparison to where alhaitham’s affections for kaveh have remained constant, and have previously been observed

(As for my personal headcanons, since kaveh’s sensibility is something he takes pride in, I like to imagine that him rediscovering his feelings for alhaitham, and realising that their shared bond is something he can rely on, and that alhaitham reciprocates these feelings, brings him this irrepressible happiness, and he’d have the urge to see alhaitham when he could, to fully embrace these feelings whereas alhaitham is used to living with his own feelings, although they aren't of less intensity than kaveh’s - which is my personal interpretation of this trope in the fic I write)

Overall, i interpret it that kaveh and alhaitham effectively fell for each other at the same time, only that kaveh’s changed perception of alhaitham and their friendship complicated things on his end. Despite this, his feelings evenly match alhaitham’s steady constancy. It’s at the point now where alhaitham and kaveh have accepted their feelings and the role they play in the other’s life <333

[toxooz]

been sick as a mf dawg but i managed to draw the ol Ollie n Kari halloween costumes for this year🤘

[carnivalls]

the 2025 urge to remake blog entirely. but my sideblogs... my lovely sideblogs

[fire-in-my-woods]

❗️LIFE IS STRANGE: DOUBLE EXPOSURE SPOILERS❗️

When. When Safi realized the last piece of her was inside of max and. And she placed a hand over max's heart and asked. Asked if it was weird that she wanted it to stay inside her

[lordartsy]

2/10 - Naga's birthday coincides with me watching the finale of this show. I miss him already 🐍

[mintedwitcher]

idk call me crazy but I don't think that being stalked and harassed, having your family and friends stalked and harassed, or having your family and friends doxxed online, should be something that anyone should have to get used to, no matter what line of work they're in. even when they're famous. especially when they're famous.

we don't accept this when it's a regular person. why is it suddenly different for celebrities. "oh well this is what they signed up for" wrong, they signed up to perform, to create, to entertain. they did not sign up for stalkers or threats or parasocial relationships that put them in very real danger.

"be grateful" tell that to the family and friends of Christina Grimmie.

[volivolition]

HI SO WE HAVE. ADDED MORE MUSIC TO THE PLAYLIST BUT WE THINK ONE SONG IN PARTICULAR IS NEAT IF YOU HAVE THE TIME TO GIVE US YOUR THOUGHTS ON IT: HARPY HARE BY YAELOKRE!

LULLABY FOUND THIS ONE LAST NIGHT AND SHE'S HAD IT ON REPEAT FOR HOURS NOW. IT'S VERY... ADDICTIVE? IT HAS A TON OF REPETITIVE LYRICS IN IT WHICH ALWAYS MAKES OUR BRAIN HAPPY. I THINK YOU'LL LIKE IT! THIS MUSICIAN'S SITTING IN THE SAME AREA OF OUR BRAIN AS SAY, HOZIER, THOUGH THEIR MUSIC ISN'T TOO TOO SIMILAR. THEY'VE BOTH GOT FOLKSY VIBES TO EM THOUGH!

THAT'S ALL! HOPE YOU LIKE THE SONG, THE OTHER FEW SONGS YAELOKRE'S PUT OUT ARE ALSO GOOD BUT THIS ONE IN PARTICULAR IS VERY. SOMETHIN' ELSE!

-BILL

!! HELLO BILL!! <33 <22 omg yayaya ive been listening to the ones y'all have added over the past few weeks, but the last three not yet!! :D ooh i LOVE folksy, it's one of my top genres (even though i never can figure out genres hgkj)

Harpy Hare! HOLY SHIT THIS IS A REALLY GOOD SONG HKGJ, i love the echoing choir (the "haah haah ha-a-ah") while the guitar strums in. the children singing it, it's so haunting (have you seen the illustrations on youtube, i LOVE the vibes as a hand-clapping game with implications behind the lyrics) <33 youre so right i love the repetition, they hit on such good notes in this, this is lovely :3 the melody dying off briefly while they angrily sing the final "TELL ME SO I SAY!" OOOH the drama and melancholy are stellar <333

ooh!!! i absolutely understand where the reasoning comes from <33 this song feels like hozier's discography had a child who got stolen by the fae and turned into a changeling hgkjg. there's a more storyteller feel to it, more mythical. hozier tends to keep a foot in the realistic side, even while poetic. this song wraps it in metaphor and implication, like it's pretending its oblivious to the ominous vibe. a shot of straight whiskey VS cream and sugar in a cup of hemlock tea.

wow does that make sense? probably not i havent slept hjgjkjg ANYWAY!! incredibly good song, i agree!! i'll have to listen to the rest of their songs when i can, i love the folklore vibes :3

[mysicklove]

whenever i see a hybrid fic on the dash i feel i turn into a feral animal

[chaosdemortem]

i tried to draw lamby... but how i imagine them

i do not usually draw animals or animal adjacent things... i will get there

[nbmudkip]

rehyperfixating on a children’s game that came out in 2015, is one of the least popular entries in its series, and has minimal content, the vast majority of which i’ve seen before. the series has been dead for nearly 10 years, nothing has happened recently that would warrant anyone’s returning interest in it, very few of my friends give a shit about this specific game, and those few who played and liked it in the past have no reason to give a shit about it at all right now. i have been coasting through on a playthrough i’ve been doing with a friend who’d never seen the game before and who was kind enough to let me show it to them, but we just beat the game, and after we play the epilogue we will have nothing left to do, and on top of that they really have just been humoring me as they have their own very strong current hyperfixation they would much rather be thinking about. also i am depressed enough right now that literally nothing else except for waiting to play this game with them and playing this game with them and watching them enjoy it at least a little has been able to briefly quiet the constant cacophony in my head screaming how much of a worthless, lazy, constantly-failing miserable excuse for a living person i am and how much better everything would be, especially for myself, if i stopped existing lately. would anyone like to volunteer to 🔨💥⚒️Kill Me With Hammers🔨💥⚒️ because i would really like for someone to 🔨💥⚒️Kill Me With Hammers🔨💥⚒️ right now