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Just gonna make fun of myself on main for a minute here but how on gods green earth did I not know Dinah's mom was Black Canary I'm sobbing I still called myself a Black Canary stan at the time
#I knew litterally nothing about her except what was in the Young Justice TV show#this is so funny#truly the inner workings of my mind are an enigma#anyway let people be stupid about comics because they get to look back on it years later and laugh#mine#IDK if I want to character tag this tho#actually fuck it yeah I do#Dinah Lance#I'mma want to find this post again later#Mike is braver than any US marine for going digging for our first tumblr interaction and unearthing this btw
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YURI AND YAOI JESUS 🙏
#could this be offensive idk orry if it is...#madoka magica#yuri jesus#puella magi madoka magica#pmmm#madoka kaname#dramatical murder#dmmd#aoba seragaki#yaoi jesus#confession i know nothing about these characters#admittedly i do want to watch madoka and play dmmd but yk how it is#either way i respect yuri and yaoi jesus#fanart#ok 10 months later i realised my dumb ass tagged and wrote aoba seagaki ??? horribly embarrassing#fixed my mistake tho….. i’ve played dmmd now btw :3
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I finally finished my Meg designs 😅
#I had started this like a month ago and just got back to it#I initially wanted to draw all her outfits throughout the series but we’ll see if I actually follow through with it#also Meg is Asian#just so you know#idk what flavor of asian#what do you think?#meg mccaffrey#my art#fan art#artists on tumblr#pjo hoo toa tsats#trials of apollo#toa#character design#meg mccaffery#percy jackson#lol there’s two spellings of her name in the tags#I’m on a roll with all this art lol#I’m probably gonna crash and not post anything at some point tho#damn I yap a lot
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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am
#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils#but it's ok i just needed a nap#something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me#wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas#something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh#i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn#(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeee😢😢😢#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e#i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real#i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel#also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay#is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level#when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic 😑BRU#look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it#at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal
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If macden were to actually happen I'd want it to happen in a way that it's not actually happening. Like, the joke was that Mac was gay and didn't know it. That Mac and Dennis were/are in a committed open relationship without knowing it. That Dennis is very obviously ignoring some blaring signs, but doesnt know it. That's been the joke with their identites and relationship through the whole show.
Mac is gay, someone points it out, he gets weird about it, then represses the shit outta it and pretends like thats not what it is. They're in a relationship, someone points it out, they get weird for a bit, but they repress repress repress so they can still do what they're doing without having to actually deal with it. That's the joke right?
So if macden were to go cannon it'd have to be "subtle", like, to them. It would be very very obvious to literally everyone else. Thats the joke. A scheme - that was purely their own ideas, no one pushed them into it - got them sleeping in the same bed. Out of his own want, Dennis vibrated Macs ass with remote anal beads. For months. If it happens, a scheme is gonna get them to kiss and a scheme is gonna get them to fuck. And it looks like it'll be their own damn fault too.
#like these last schemes have all been dennis amd macs ideas right#in the past it was frank that pushed dennis into sex work#and dee that got dennis and charlie to kiss#i guess honey and vinnegar was their own idea but Frank provided the means and opportunity#but dennis and mac decided to just sleep in the same bed just cuz! they werent even selling their inflatables yet!!#and the beads. i mean#honestly not sure if i want macden to go cannon any more than it already is ya know tho#like id want it to be sloowwwwww and never 'official' bc I dont think thats what the characters are like#a scheme would break the levey and theyd 'hook up' or be fwb without realizing thats whats happening and also theyre in love too so.#macden#mac mcdonald#dennis reynolds#macdennis#specialtysacrifice og#idk if i should put this in the iasip tag lmao
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hi i made another goober .
her name is Dooby Deebo
if anything @candyheartedchy inspired me for this cuz raaaaaa her sona is so cute i had to make an oc too jehfgbvc
#darknoverse#art#digital art#fosters home for imaginary friends#fhfif#dooby deebo#oc#original character#idk if i want em to be a sona or just an oc yet tho#but in all cases they're goober#selfinsert#i'll tag em as both for now lol
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So i headcanon that demons (maybe angels too) have more than 1 heart…
Imagine that one day your demon darling invite you to dinner and ofc you agree! So you’re talking with them waiting for ur meal then it arrives. On the plate it’s a cooked DEMON heart and it’s not just any demon heart it’s your demon’s heart. Them smiling and said “do you like it?”
Apparently, demon do that to express love to their mates and it’s also one of the most imtimate ways (in demon’s sense) to show love.
I need more contents of the boys actually being demon 😔
i fuck with this, not gonna lie
the monsterfucker in me is always intrigued by the differences in how a nonhuman would express their love lmao of course most people would be surprised if their demon lover presented them with their second heart but after initial shock and them explaining if you think about it….you cant help but be (strangely?) touched like wow this person really likes me huh (///∇///) so we r pretty much soulmates! presenting one of ur hearts is a pretty big deal just from a logical standpoint, cause u forever nerfed urself for someone
now actually eating the heart is a whole nother question lmaoo
yea you know demons sometimes like to eat each other (and humans sometimes) but humans dont really do that as a casual activity and it usually gets you ostracized lol
u cant help but feel a little bad not eating it though…they cooked their whole second heart, they had it removed from their body which probably wasnt a painless thing to do but for your demon its mainly a way for them to show their devotion more than anything ,,,tho i know some of those brothers were actually expecting you to eat it lol it would be very funny if you both were sitting there after you were like aww thats so sweet and then he was like….well r u gonna eat it? :]
asmo and mammon come to mind first honestly LMAO
asmo is “kind of” intense when it comes to love and the mammon is a tsundere--"well...are you gonna eat it or what?"(//︶^︶)typa deal--so thats why i say that
and then maybe beel and belphie
beel cause i feel like it might go over his head at first (especially since this involves food) but then he'll remember like oh right humans dont eat that my bad
belphie i just think is hopeful you know...if that makes sense, so hes not surprised if you dont wanna eat it but maybe a bit huffy about it
i think satan and lucifer are too smart and like “normal” to actually expect a human to do that
while levi is... levi
hed probably get self conscious and be like well yea of course they wouldnt wanna eat my heart...
and then u gotta really reassure him its not him its you :d
#obey me nightbringer#obey me#obey me x reader#not taggin all those brothers im sorry lol#i like playing guess how that character will react#especially with characters i dont know very well lol#okay that was fun#thanks for the ask!!#its nice getting surprise messages :]#idk even how to tag this!!#like gruesome or something??#tw body horror#tw gore#maybe??#ACTUALLY#i wanted to say#remember when the threat of demons eating mc were constantly brought up in the beginning of the game lmao#that feels like a whole other world now#i wonder if the boys still get urges to eat mc sometimes tho#cause i was reading a novel with a demon ml and he fell for the mc#and he has demonic urges sometimes that he has to control#and actually a different demon in the past was infatuated with him and wanted to eat him because of it#so that was normal down in hell#like that would be considered love#fortunately for mc the ml isnt full demon anymore so i think it helps muddle those eating urges a lot#but hes yandere tho cause his version of love is still very intense and strange by human standards#i need to finish this story btw
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I gave up on rendering the weapons but GUNS N' ROSES RAAAAHHH MY FAVORITE KIND OF DYNAMIC I'M SO HAPPY THEY INTERACTED IN GAME EFVWJKV
inspo from @/reikiwie-art's so we're official now ?!! ♡♡♡
#my art#animedrawing#lmao i'm questioning what style am I applying here aaaaa#metal be shiny tho#ALSO YUS THAT'S ROBIN BOOSTING THEM#imma draw my favorite hsr team next as a meme#fanart#fanart of a game#honkai star rail#hsr argenti#hsr boothill#not gonna tag robin cuz she smol in this art#breaking my alphabetic characters routine once again#argenthill#i will never forget how i got argenti#only because i wanted hanya and then got him in the first 10 pull#my besties told me his my favorite character type LMAO IDK WHAT THAT MEANS FOR ME#considering my favorite genshin character is Noelle it aint too far ig 😂😭🙈#i'm too shy to tag other artists pls#don't mind me DON'T PERCEIVE ME
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And as I said: funky colored Emmeline to round out the trio
#their design is never the same twice#and i love that for them#they’re so cool tho idk I feel like I don’t draw them enough#they’re the least developed of the trio but I’m WORKING ON IT!!#because I don’t want them to be just plain BAD EVIL you know I want there to be a REASON#and so far it’s that they act that way and do what they do because they believe that’s what’s right#like what needs to happen in order for the word to function (because it’s their JOB to make sure the world functions)#it’s later Liam’s job and that’s why they exist to make his life miserable the second he was born#also idk if their name is pronounced ‘em a line’ or ‘em a leen’ because I always think the latter#my art#digital art#procreate#artists on tumblr#digital illustration#illustration#original art#my ocs#doodle#art#drawing#original character#oc#oc art#original character art#oc art tag#oc artwork#oc artist#digital doodle#digital artist
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hehe, more memes
i sincerely apologize for the lack of posts recently. i have been so fucking stressed, frusturated, tired, and anxious because of the amount of work i had to do at school and its been keeping me from posting and now i post sporadically for the time being. god do i hate school esp bc im a sophomore this year (tbh there are a few positives i can say about this year, i have MUCH better teachers than i did last year. the teachers i have for this year are genuinely really nice to me.)
anyways here is another post with that new twst character. i found out his name is skully j graves a few weeks back. i am actually really happy we got nightmare before christmas representation in this game (i mean i was already really happy to see that we have herclues and hunchback of notre dame in this game, those two movies are so goddamn underrated fight me)
people were comparing his looks to gojo (myself included), but he also kinda reminded me of l from death note, mostly his skintones and the fact he is voiced by yamaguchi kappei (an absolute icon in the seiyuu industry) so have that one spongebob meme with them (no jokes when i first saw skully i went like “if gojo and l lawliet had a baby”)
anyways im gonna go to bed soon goodnight yall
#that one spongebob meme idk its name#twisted wonderland#twst#disney twst#disney twisted wonderland#gojo satoru#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#l lawliet#death note#skully j graves#yamaguchi kappei#no joke i legit think skully looks like as if gojo and l lawliet had a baby#shitpost#shitpost status#i just wanted to post this#school has been killing me#school is kicking my ass#i hate school so much#i have been busy on other sites too#tbh this new twst character is kinda hot tho#i wish i had the motivation to post more#i still need a big break from this site tho#tags tags tags#idk what else to tag
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preview of the potential main character design if I do end up doing the blog
will note this blog would use like… exclusively beta pokemon? unsure what the general opinion on that is. like I’ve used beta pokemon since Glorious Guild (Ruins is a Dynabear after all) but as far as I can tell I’m the first in the community using stuff from the recent leak ^^;
#I love ubausagi a lot tho. it’s definitely the pokemon I’d make real if given the chance.#the peanut one is a firm second place tho#roseate screams#pokemon leaks#<- only tagging this in case people have that blacklisted#anyway I technically could change the characters around to be canon ones if I wanted so if this is generally kinda considered iffy#considering the circumstances we learned of these pokemons’ existences I could change them. that said the story was made with specific beta#mons in mind.#idk I myself am kinda on the fence about it
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uhhh drawing from today =] love these two sm
#scribbles#pokemon#pokemon kieran#pokemon carmine#idk how to tag pkmn stuff i hope im doin this right XD#pokemon dlc#pokemon scarlet and violet#eyestrain#<- just in case.?????? genuinely idk#furry designs cuz uhm…… its fun 🙃#pretty much the only reason ive ever had motivation to draw humans over the years is for. making object gijinkas#and over the summer i got like realllyyyyyy insecure over my Human Drawing Abilities + lost interest in that stuff for the time being#(does that make sense? my interest in object shows will probbaly never leave but its not like smthn im actively into / thinking abt like#how it was just a few months before. so im not as invested in drawing the characters or making gijinkas…….. plus furries are just more fun#to draw (for me at least XD#uh theyre coati nd badger hybrids or whatever cuz i just picked coati randomly and my sister really#wanted carmine to be a badger for some reason#sorry for the massive paragraphs uhmjhhbhh i never know how much to say on individual art posts#it feels weird posting on here whenever i randomly manage to pop back in . idk why it just does#like its weirdly nervewracking even tho it really shouldnt be??????#lately ive been realizing i fucking hate most formats of posting art. maybe that has smthn to do w it#idk sorry im ramvling t try and get myself to actually ppst this stupid thing cuz i like how it turned out#but also the thought of posting it is making me weirdly nervous i could just Not Post It but i like sharing stuff =(#okay whatever this sounds really stupid now that im typing it out bye
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Hi I crocheted Kofi the rat from Small Saga.
Thank you so much @sketchylogic for making such a fun game and thank you @neitherabaron for giving rat Kofi your voice!
[ID: three photos from different angles of a crochet bipedal rat. They have dark grey fur, short curly hair, a light blue shirt and a purple vest. Their nose, ears, hand, feet and tail are pink. End ID]
#small saga#my first very own amigurumi. it was fun but also hard to figure out the shaping and such#im working on turning my notes into a full pattern so you can also make a kofi if you want#i could probably also make a guitar for them. but idk#and kofi if youre reading this yes this is why i was asking about their feet.#took some liberties with the vest to make it less empty. tho idk how it really looks cause the guitar is always in the way#remember kids: ask important questions about character design like how their feet are positioned instead of such useless things as clothes#anyway ya i liked the game enough to try to make my own figurine of it. play small saga#crochet#amigurumi#cat talks#cat draws#← i don't want a different tag for crochet
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squints
#ocs#my ocs#my ocs art#original character#reassassination#no name = no proper tag yet#i think she looks too similar to marie from skullgirls but i dont want to change her 8(#idk#she is one of octavia's rivals#her weakness : she thinks glasses are ugly#and is scared of contacts#but shes good at using a scythe just dont go too far away#i want to add a bit more detail to her blazer#even tho i want reassass characters to be simple to an extent#im rambling now bye
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A succubus and a demon! (The succubi don't have names but the demon is Kronos and the succubus is one of his bosses in Hell and he's not /fond/ of the succubi for many reasons but they all adore picking on him)
Also because I love them and like to point it out, the succubi act more as pleasure dealers in the sense of they offer up whatever a human wants most in exchange for their soul. It's rarely of a sexual nature since it's what they want MOST in life. And most people's ambitions are outside of a bedroom. (happy pride, asexuals are able to get affected by a succubus now without discrimination)
#my characters#did i make succubi in a plot that i could fall victim to as an asexual personally? yeah#kronos is just a petty lil baby with a younger brother who is very nice for a demon#kronos is responsible for being a dick to everyone in the plot and yet has the weirdest morals and its not fine#but hes gonna make that everyone elses problem not his#for instance he originally goes to earth bc a human has somehow just stolen all of the Devils attention and its annoying#why fixate on one human doomed to Hell just let the guy live and die then fixate#so he goes to kill the human but ends up saving the guy and then agonizes because even as a demon#its REALLY tacky to save someone and then kill them#so he doesnt kill him and instead demands to be a roommate until he returns to hell#and then they team up to kill demons and other creatures that seem obsessed with the human#and so they just kinda kill and banish demons back to hell and its fiiiine kronos is just causing problems for Hell#thats not even a new issue hes always doing that !#and then they meet a siren who refuses to talk and kronos is like oh time to be the biggest dick ever#and is like well if she wont talk and she needs a name i vote halibut#as a mean joke bc why would she want to be named after a fish#and she lights up and is SUPER happy and nods and beams and is so happy with her new name#and then the human is like well she needs more clothes than one outfit right#also shes barefoot and its cold i need to buy her shoes idk what tho#and kronos is like here buy her these rainboots and so the guy buys them and is like just wear these#until you can show me what you want bought ok and halibut is in love with her cute lil yellow rainboots#so basically everything kronos does out of spite to the weird mute siren (by choice) backfires#and she adores him and doesnt know hes trying to be mean to her#anyway the succubi collectively like to pick on the really silly and childish demons they outrank#like kronos! so he is constantly a target for them to mock which is why he isnt fond of them which fuels them more#the succubi are just really chill most of the time though ?#and its just. i love my succubi ok theyre wonderful#and that has been another story time in the tags bye
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maybe next time
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fandom: buffy the vampire slayer
characters: tara maclay & rupert giles
summary: tara attempts to break the ice with giles after the birthday incident with her family.
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Tara saw what Mr. Giles had with Buffy. She saw what he had with the whole group. She knew just how badly she wanted that, and it felt so big and powerful that she wasn't sure if she could ever touch it. He didn't know her that way. She didn't really know him that way, either.
She might never see her father again.
a/n i do not have an ao3 account and do not remember my ff.net password so yall are getting my first fic since 2012 on this webbed site have fun everybody. perhaps i will write again in another 12 years <3
In no particular order, Tara had three goals for her trip to the Magic Box.
Goal #1: Formally apologize to Mr. Giles for the spell that got his shop attacked by demons and for involving him in the family drama that followed.
Goal #2: Have a real one-on-one conversation with Mr. Giles.
Goal #3 (optional): If he's open to it, get a job at the Magic Box to get to know Mr. Giles better.
She'd had it all mapped out. She'd been taking notes and rehearsing whenever no one was looking. She had a whole story about being on an errand for Willow so that she had an excuse if she needed to make a quick exit. She knew exactly which crystal she was going to buy, exactly what coffee order she had to pick up on her way back to their dorm, and exactly where she would hide to look busy browsing if she started to panic.
The truth was that Tara adored Mr. Giles. Unfortunately, she was painfully aware of why. It didn't help that Willow had been dropping hints that the two of them should be closer ever since the recent birthday incident with her father. It wasn't that Tara didn't appreciate the encouragement, but every time Willow mentioned his name and gave her that Knowing Willow Look, it just felt so important that the pressure got the tiniest bit debilitating.
Tara saw what Mr. Giles had with Buffy. She saw what he had with the whole group. She knew just how badly she wanted that, and it felt so big and powerful that she wasn't sure if she could ever touch it. He didn't know her that way. She didn't really know him that way, either.
She might never see her father again.
The last thing Tara wanted was to embarrass herself in front of Mr. Giles by letting him see how much she wanted him to like her. She knew she was projecting. But every day that passed without her saying a word to him was starting to feel like another nail in a coffin. If she averted her eyes from him one more time, she was sure he'd think she hated him. That or that she was terrified of him - not entirely untrue, but not in the way he probably thought. Maybe if they started working together while the shop was still new and there were tasks to complete, it would help them break through whatever polite-off they were having.
Before her birthday, she'd almost given up on being his friend. But now she had two pieces of evidence that it wasn't a lost cause:
Exhibit A: He'd stood up to her father for her.
Exhibit B: He gave her a birthday present.
He still hardly knew her. But it was proof that he cared. She wasn't imagining that, as much as the self-conscious worms in her brain kept trying to tell her she must have been. She was there. She saw it. She had the crystal ball on her desk. That was real.
If there was ever a window, it was now.
So she found herself at the Magic Box replaying her script over and over in her head. The plan was to get right into it so she wouldn't have time to overthink it, but as she walked in to see Mr. Giles and Anya in the middle of a semi-heated but clearly petty argument, she realized this wasn't a scenario she'd planned for.
As Mr. Giles heard the door open and made a split-second of awkward eye contact with her, Tara gave a weak smile and a wave. He smiled back politely but his attention very quickly went back to Anya, who hadn't stopped talking long enough to take a breath, let alone notice that someone else was there.
Tara waited about two seconds before making a beeline to her hiding spot among the books.
She'd made it 3 pages into a book she already owned by the time Anya let out a long dramatic sigh and went downstairs to storage. She took a deep breath. Tara liked Anya, but it was always hard to predict what she was going to say. If she wanted to eliminate as many variables as she could, she had to do this now.
Acting as natural as possible, Tara walked over to the crystals. Even though she was expecting it, she still flinched a little when she heard a voice calling from behind the counter.
“Sorry, Tara, did you need anything?”
“Hi, Mr. Giles,” Tara replied, “Oh, I was just here to pick something up for Willow, she's in class right now so…”
Tara fought back a wince as she heard herself speak and mentally updated her list.
Goal #4: Figure out a way to organically stop calling him Mr. Giles.
She'd already said it once today, so it might be too obvious if she dropped the “Mr.” in the same conversation, but maybe by the next time they talked, they'd be familiar enough that he wouldn't notice.
Keeping that in the back of her mind, she forced herself to get started on goal #3:
“Oh, but while I'm here, I was actually just…” Tara stammered, fidgeting with the crystal she'd picked up as her script escaped her, “well, I wanted to ask if… I’m happy to help out if you need-”
“Of course,” said Giles before she could finish, “Well, you have, you've- everything you've done for Buffy, for all of us-”
"No, I-” Tara stopped herself for a second and reminded herself that he was giving her a compliment that she needed to acknowledge. “Yeah, always. I just meant... In the shop, if you’re looking for an extra set of hands for anything, I'm available."
"Oh, well, if you're looking for a job…” Giles paused in a way that made Tara's heart sink.
He was looking for the kindest way to say no.
“Well,” he continued, “Anya's not one for taking days off, I’m afraid, so there's not really a position- that is to say the budget at this stage is still- but-”
“Oh, that's okay,” Tara interrupted so he wouldn't have to come up with any more reasons to justify it, “No worries. I was just-”
“And I wouldn't want to interfere with your studies-”
“Totally get it.”
“Perhaps during the holidays, I might have some extra work for you. It's a bit early to say for sure, but I expect I'll need everyone's help on Halloween if nothing else.”
“Maybe then, yeah.”
“I'm sorry that's all I can really-”
“No, it's no big deal. I was just saying if you needed… And I mean, I'm not so great with the customers anyways.”
Giles blinked. “You've met Anya?”
Tara chuckled softly and felt her shoulders relax just a little.
“Well,” Giles continued, “if anything, keeping the floor stocked is probably where I'll need the most backup. You'll certainly be the first to know.”
“Yeah, of course.”
There was a brief pause. This counted as a one-one-one conversation, didn't it? That was goal #2. Goal #3 of getting a job had been eliminated and #4 was for the next time they talked. So all that was left for today was #1: apologize. That was the real challenge. She wasn't sure if this was going to naturally come up, but if she could just spit it out and leave as quickly as possible, she wouldn't have to see his reaction.
“Speaking of holidays,” said Giles, “you've got somewhere to go?”
This caught Tara off-guard.
“Huh?”
She hadn't been looking at him since he'd politely rejected her, but this got her to finally look up and see a softness in his face that she wasn't prepared for.
“Yeah,” she said when she finally remembered how to speak, “Willow and I haven't made a plan yet exactly, but whatever she's up to. I know she wants us to do my first Hanukkah this year, so I'm excited for that.”
Tara felt her voice drop what felt like a full octave when she started talking about Willow earnestly. That subject was always easy. Giles clearly noticed this and smiled.
“That's wonderful.”
“You did Thanksgiving at your place last year, right?”
“Well, Buffy did, it was my place, but that was a bit of a-”
“Oh, I don't mean to-” Tara stammered, hoping she hadn't just accidentally invited herself into his home. Sometimes she spoke just to make sure words were coming out of her mouth and would realize at the end of the sentence that she might have implied something she didn't mean.
“I guess you wouldn't really celebrate it,” Tara went on, “Willow usually doesn't either.”
Giles gave that polite laugh that was more of a quick exhale. Tara knew from her own experience that this meant he didn't know how to respond to that.
Was it rude to assume he would celebrate American Thanksgiving? Should she be asking about English holidays?
Goal #5: Learn about English holidays later.
A few agonizing seconds passed as Tara desperately tried to flip through her mental script for the next talking point that felt the most organic, but Giles spoke before she could.
“Well, last year, we all got together at Buffy's with her family for Christmas,” he said, “I'm sure they'll be hosting again this year. Of course you're welcome to come.”
Tara smiled. “That sounds nice.”
“You're not the only one with a, um… difficult family situation. You'll fit right in, I’m sure.”
Tara didn't know how to process when anyone said something that implied they'd been thinking of her, much less someone she admired as much as Giles. She also didn't know much about the other Scoobies’ families. But as she thought about each of them and the things they didn't talk about, it hit her that maybe her own family didn't make her an outsider after all. Maybe that was actually the one thing she had in common with everyone.
She found herself suddenly curious about how Giles grew up. What were his parents like? Were they still alive? Did he ever have a family of his own?
So many questions that it wasn't time to ask yet. For now, she was simply grateful.
“Thanks. And I um…” She took a deep breath. It was now or never. “I wanted to apologize about that. I didn't mean to bring my family stuff into your-”
“No, no, that's-”
“Really, I-”
“Tara, believe me, if it's not demons threatening my life in the workplace, it's angry customers. Between the two of them, I'll take the ones I'm allowed to hit, if I'm being honest. And as for the spell, I mean, it's not as if I… as if we all haven't… Just as long as you're all right.”
“It's just…My dad was so-”
“Your father I could have taken if Buffy wouldn't have gotten to him first,” said Giles, his accent getting just a little less posh for a moment. His lips tightened as if he had more words that he thought it best not to say out loud.
It was hard to picture Mr. Giles in a fight. But Tara had heard stories. Apparently he could be terrifying when he needed to be. Willow had described it as him being two completely different people: one a mild-mannered British librarian who couldn't hurt a fly, and the other a man with that look you only have if you've killed in cold blood before and aren't afraid to do it again. Tara had only ever seen glimpses of the second one. Every time she'd seen the scarier Giles, though, she'd noticed he was always protecting someone.
Now that she was the one being protected, he didn't feel like two people at all. She didn't know all the details of what he'd done in his past. She didn't need to. In this moment, as far as she was concerned, the gap between the gentle Giles and the terrifying Giles was bridged. At the core of both was just a man who cared.
“Thank you,” Tara said softly.
“Of course. And you're…?” Giles trailed off, gesturing to her nose where Spike had hit her.
“Oh!” Tara exclaimed, remembering to breathe again now that she'd been reminded she had a nose and lungs attached to it somewhere. “Yeah, I'm fine. Not broken. I put some ice on it.”
“Glad to hear it. Sorry he hit you. I'm sure there was another way we could've-”
“No, it's fine. It was quicker.”
Giles shrugged. A few more seconds of silence passed and Tara felt her face getting hot as she became hyper-aware of herself. If she let on just how much this talk meant to her now, she was sure to blow this whole thing. It was best to make her exit for today and do this in small doses.
“Well, I'd better go,” she said, placing the crystal by the register, “Just this.”
She quickly looked down to dig into her bag for her wallet, letting her hair fall in front of her face and praying that she hadn't turned into a tomato in front of someone whose approval she was so desperate for. Giles put a hand up to stop her.
“On me.”
Tara's eyes widened. “Are you sure?”
Giles ripped off the price tag and glanced over to the door that Anya was sure to return through any moment now.
“Well, best to keep it quiet,” he said, discreetly shoving the sticker into his pocket so he wouldn't be caught giving away free product, “but really, I insist.”
“Okay,” Tara said, freezing for a second. When it came to her birthday, she knew that gifts could have just been because of an unspoken social rule, or maybe just to please Willow. This, however, was a kindness Tara had done nothing to earn. Before she'd put the crystal down, she'd been gripping it so hard there were indents on her fingers. Now, as she picked it back up, she was cradling it as if any movement would shatter it completely.
“Thank you so much,” she said, knowing that it wasn't enough, but not knowing what else to say. “Well, I'll see you later, Mr. Giles.”
Tara saw him think for a second, almost open his mouth to speak, and then stop himself. Maybe it was wishful thinking, but she could have sworn he was about to tell her that she could just call him Giles. He looked a little embarrassed for a moment, but gathered himself quickly and just gave a gentle nod.
Maybe next time.
“Take care,” Giles said as Tara waved goodbye.
His smile was a lot like his usual polite customer service smile, but there was a hint of warmth in it now. She'd seen that before, but she couldn't remember ever being on the receiving end until now. But maybe she had been. Maybe she'd just been too nervous to look at him long enough to notice.
Two out of five goals achieved. And one new piece of evidence to put next to the crystal ball on her desk.
She could work with that.
#maria writes fanfic#i learned today that u cant just. make an ao3 account like theres a queue and stuff thats wild#i need to get back into reading fanfic again tho dude#these days i only do it under these v specific circumstances when i need to see 2 characters Speak To Each Other#idk how the writers r formatting their fic on tumblr dot com in 2024 so bear w me gang.....this healed me tho i think#i am simply healing my inner teen rn that is just where we are at#buffy brainrot tag#btvs#tara maclay#rupert giles#cannot decide how many ppl i want to percieve this we r going simple on the tagging system for now
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