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meownotgood · 2 years ago

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I've already napped like five times today... I dreamt about aki... literally all I remember though is he was holding my hands and I felt really embarrassed about it lol

#his hair was also down in my dream and it looked really pretty #I miss aki so much... I wanna read or watch chainsaw man again...#I need to see him....#but I won't today cause I think I'm gonna eat and go for another nap lol #I'm so exhausted from this week #I was supposed to work today too but my coworker gratefully took my shift for me #I've got so much sleep to catch up on it's not even funny #zzzzzzzzzz.. z. zzzzzzzzz aaaaki xzzzzzzzz #his hands were big and warm szzzzzzzzzzzz

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Good Morning, World.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang yanli #jiang cheng #'Good Morning World' because to wwx the jiang household is what grounds him. It is his burrow and blanket.#The familiar soup and banter is his home. The familiar arguments and tension are also his home.#Notice how quickly he throws LWJ to the side once he has JC back in reach! 'He was so boring; I wish *you* were there!'#WWX is very quick to constantly remind himself that he fits within a very specific power structure and role.#He pushes boundaries but almost always only the boundaries that he knows he can push against.#Sitting here now and realizing that if WWX did take life more seriously and act more diligent he would totally usurp JC.#Because the contrast with Them (tm) is wwx is the one that gets in trouble and JC is the one that sticks to the rules.#That responsible appearance especially in contrast is the thin line that holds JC's self-esteem together.#And lets be fully honest. From JC's perspective the last week was also extremely intense and stressful.#It truly was a feat to travel so far so fast despite also being exhausted. Never knowing if it is all in vain.#JC said with his actions 'I would move mountains for you and dig through stone with my bare hands if it meant reaching you.'#and WWX said '[read]'#It's about wwx chronically asking 'why would someone care for me? I'm always tool to be used' than accepting that people love him.

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solitaireships · 7 months ago

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I feel like I should say since there's been a recent uptick in a lot of communities I'm in/see stuff from a lot of white people pretending to be Asian, but you are not welcome here if you are in anyway stealing from Asian cultures for clout or the aesthetics of it

This includes if you're white and you give your self inserts Asian names, I truly do not care if your f/o is from an anime, you should not be using an Asian name under any circumstances. I hate that whenever I see someone using an Asian name online, I feel like I have to start searching their account to see if they're actually Asian or just a white person who likes the aesthetic of it bcs far too many white people will use Asian names here just bcs it sounds cool, with no regard for the actual cultural meaning behind it. Meanwhile actual Asian people will be mocked for their names, or treated like their names are too hard to learn to pronounce, or discriminated against based on their names

Asian cultures are not a fun little costume for people to dress up with. They aren't just a nice aesthetic, they aren't just a thing you can borrow from bcs you think it sounds cool

#my posts #selfship community #anti asian racism #like it's definitely a perpetual problem of white people not seeming to realize asian names are like #a thing that are tied to culture and identity #but it's gotten crazy lately with people pretending to be asian online for clout #just in the past like 3 weeks of things i've seen #we had the white woman pretending to be a japanese woman on comic twitter #the white woman who pretended to be korean to get a 'ownvoices' book published #(who btw. named herself kim chi. you cannot make this shit up)#and then the white guy pretending to be japanese to try to justify his hate of the new assassin's creed game using stuff around yasuke #like it's so draining. i hate how much this is a never ending problem #i hate how casually white people will use asian names #like worstie. i am a korean woman. but i am whitepassing and mixed so i never use korean names for my self inserts #bcs i have the privilege of looking white and people generally only knowing i'm asian if i say it #it feels inappropriate to me for me to name my self inserts a korean name #bcs that would then mean they experience the world in a different way than i do #even being whitepassing bcs of the way people treat korean (and other asian) names #if you are white you have no fucking right to asian names #idgaf if your f/o's an anime character. stay away from asian names bcs they are not yours to dress up in #vent a little bit sorry team #i've been dealing with white people doing this shit and being assholes to me about it for well over a year now. it's exhausting

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pain-in-the-butler · 19 days ago

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yesterday was the 15th anniversary of me officially being in the fandom!

here's to fifteen years of forcing people to read my kuroshit 😌

#kuroshitsuji #also on a slightly more interesting note #I was supposed to be home from Japan on January 3rd but literally just returned a few hours ago #while waiting for our original flight to board I nearly passed out and had to be taken to the clinic for an IV #(it was a mixture of stress / exhaustion / dehydration / period arriving a full week early for some reason??)#my sister stayed in the country with me and a long string of bad luck kept us there until Tuesday #we've been traveling for over 24 hours. not counting the cancellation of our Monday flight home. yes it has been a total nightmare!#I felt pretty weak for a while so it was good to have extra time to rest #but I'm so lucky my job is really low maintenance and that my sister's boss is nice because we both had to miss three days of work #and I'm glad I can work from home because the time change is going to take a while to reacclimate towards #anyway. what a relief to be home at last! I missed my cat so much

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azaracyy · 1 year ago

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a lesson on good karma digimon survive week 2024 day 4: supporting characters

#digimon #gomamon #digimon survive #survive week #survive week 2024 #rambling ahead. you don't have to read the tags beyond bc there's nothing that important tbh... you can just look at the art...#exhausted from being out and doing housework yesterday. then got a last-minute job with very urgent deadline today #finished everything but yeah basically i did anything but art so #irl do be like that aint it #anyway it's been a long time since i played survive and my memory isn't that good #but i always remember the part where we had to protect the gomamon #and later they showed us a path via the dam allowing the team to continue exploring #it reminded me of just how important it is to be nice and do good things whenever and wherever possible #and be mindful with the not-so-good things you do and say #be it good or bad. karma is real even if you don't know when it will get back at you #and you know in visual novel settings. whatever choice you make really determines what happens later on #yeah believe it or not i end up thinking stuff like that by helping a bunch of adorable seal mons...#mmm i'm officially behind now so i might as well take my time while also rest a bit haha ;;#this week has been fun with survive week tho fr. even though i came in unprepared (when will i change)#gotta keep surviving #png

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junkdyke · 1 year ago

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I have officially graduated from college, bitchesssss!!

#did not drop out of art school W #finally finally finally doneeeeeeeee #i'm so happy #i feel even more motivated to work on art shit now #i cant wait to make more animation more drawings more traditional work #such an exhausting last few months #exhausting last WEEK #but we made itttttttt #personal #school stuff #my film will be coming out next year i cannot wait to have extra help and really polish the animation and get it looking amazing #really happy with the reception from our trailer

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yukipri · 2 years ago

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Good morning.

A very kind follower let me know that my clones art has been stolen and reposted, again. This time on Tiktok.

So here's a new version of my art. It's called: "Apparently putting 'Do Not Repost' on the art 4 times + in my bios of every social + FAQ isn't enough, so how's this?!"

I'm feeling very defeated and exhausted.

I just finished filing a DMCA yesterday. This new art theft version already has more views than every like/note on all versions of my art on all of my socials COMBINED + multiplied. This art was only posted a few days ago. I'm beginning to deeply regret drawing it.

Art thieves getting views and likes does NOTHING for the community. Imagine of those likes/comments/followers had come to me, on any of my socials. Think of how excited I'd be to connect to new folks, how hyped I'd be to draw more.

(how maybe, just maybe, someone official might one day notice and it might lead to more😭)

I don't think I've hit 10K likes on ANY art I've ever posted on Twitter in 8 years, and certainly nowhere near that on Tumblr in a while. That's ok, I understand that's due to my own lack of skills, which is why i work hard daily to improve!

But ART THEFT DOESN'T HELP. This person did NOTHING but stress me out, make me regret sharing my work, and take away valuable time and mental energy from me producing more work. And I promise you, they will not be able to make my art for you.

Don't worry, I'm not just complaining about it. I've filed a DMCA (tho gosh TikTok's form is WEIRD, really hoping it worked🥲)

But please. If you see an art theft account, please don't give them views & likes. Someone else worked hard on that. They could really use your support.

Anyway, here's the link to my art on Tumblr. On my account. Since, y'know, I drew it.

#YukiPri rambles #art theft #idk i'm just so tired and sad and wondering why i worked so hard what's the dang point #yeah this is from my twitter thread bc i'm too exhausted to write it again this ate all my spoons and then some #yeah u may be wondering aren't u used to this why are you complaining #because this art literally went up days ago and i almost died marathon working on it for an entire goddamn week #because i still feel exhausted and then this fucko who did absolutely NOTHING is just like hehe look at how many views i'm getting!#and i am just. yeah. exhausted

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qteachoice · 2 months ago

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PINATA [it's Live] Kang Yuchan

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not-your-bro · 1 year ago

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THE WITCHER 3: BLOOD & WINE ribbon ending vs. prison ending

#something something the way theyre always trying to protect/take the fall for each other #regis being like this from jump vs. geralt unexpectedly getting regis back & being newly determined not to let any harm come to him #feeling very normal about it #anyway sorry if this has been done i didnt do an exhaustive search #i just had a pre-ribbon save and i'm off work this week so naturally i'm spending my time unwisely lmfao #the witcher #the witcher 3 #tw3 #geralt of rivia #emiel regis #blood and wine #geregis #geralt x regis #witcheredit #tw3edit #my gifs

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khaire-traveler · 5 months ago

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My third day of work was, in fact, so wild that I left with a migraine and threw up four times when I got home. My back hurt so much that I could barely bend over by the time I left. 💀 Someone's stalker came in so we had to call the police, someone stole something, a manager yelled at someone through the radio that we all have while I was working with a customer on that guy's last day, a lady kept asking me whether or not she should buy a brand new red jeep Cherokee then proceeded to advertise her old black Lexus to me (I was just her cashier, like, why), some guy told me about how he can't give anyone his email because he's part of the FBI senior program (?), I saw two dogs, I didn't get to take either of my 15 minute breaks so just my 30 minute lunch break, my trainer was talking so much in my ear that I straight up disassociated during the middle of a customer interaction, I helped a super angry customer fax something and he told me that his partner had died and how he needed to get stuff to the state or else, and many, many, MANY other things. This job is low-key awful for me, personally. TvT

#vent post i guess?#personal #I'm so exhausted from this job #I don't want to leave it without another one in place #but idk if i can do this with college classes in a less than two weeks #plus they keep fucking up my schedule #it's clearly taking a physical toll on me #and it's just my third day :(

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deoidesign · 8 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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ilovedthestars · 4 months ago

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i have. too many things to do.

#and of course what i WANT to do is write fanfic and read the ten different books i want to read and make art just for fun #and also be a couch potato and watch youtube videos for a couple hours with no guilt #but i was sick for a week and that's a week's worth of missed classes and homework i'm now trying to catch up on #in addition to new stuff #and i was already falling a bit behind in a couple classes because they don't have enough structure for me #and like. i'm managing. i'm getting stuff done.#but it's exhausting to know that tomorrow when i only have to go to one class i will be spending all day on homework #....i need to not tell myself that. i need to build in space for breaks or i will burn myself out #i do not want to be at risk of burnout in the first month of school with an intentionally very low courseload #this is just. so frustrating and stressful #and i'm coping. but i wish i didn't have to #vent #school stress #stars rambles #i am somewhat grateful that needing something to wind down from homework with has made me excited to write fic for the first time in months #but the downside of that is that i do not have enough time right now

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writingonthemoon · 7 months ago

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made this while on the train at 7 am but we're finally done the season and I'm Not Normal

#i took a break from riptide for a few weeks because I was fighting an infection and was delirious from exhaustion and pain #and then now i'm on project duty at work so the shorter shows have been nice to listen to while sorting things #jrwi #jrwi the suckening #just roll with it #also also actually actually i will never not (lovingly) bully grizzly for everything he does and says and this is a part of that vow #made this to send to my friend (hey girl hey) that i regretfully recommended should listen to the series because this is how i communicate

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dawnthefluffyduck · 7 months ago

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New game interest unlocked

(crow in bottom right belongs to @patchwork-crow-writes)

#ramarl #phantasy star online #long tag warning lol i rambled #so i was introduced to phantasy star online #i think its safe to say i really enjoy the game #thank you mr crow for showing me this game :D i have new creatures to scribble now #there shall be more of these doodles #i promise you that #meant to post this wayyyyy earlier today but uh #my car broke down :') ....again :')#last week it wouldn't turn on and the headlights weren't working so we were like ''ok this is a battery issue and i need a new one''#because jumping the car didnt fix it #so we took my old battery to a shop and they tested its charge before showing us which new one we should get #but the battery had charge???????? so we went back home to troubleshoot #and then found the hooks(?idk what they're called) that connected the battery to the car had something corroded on them #so we grabbed a can of coke and scrubbed away #hooked the battery back up and bam car was working #so the issue was those hooks #until two days ago when my car didnt work again #looked at the battery again and the hooks came loose; tightened them up and bam car working again #and now at this point I'm scared to go anywhere cause what if i get stranded on my own??#so this morning i said ''alright I'm gonna drive myself to church just to be sure that my car works''#AND WOULD YOU GUESS WHAT HAPPENED #at this point i just wish the damn battery was dead and that i could replace it and move on from this #i know they're a bit pricey but jesus this is exhausting #but i can't just buy a new battery if im not sure that's the actual problem because then I'd have a battery and nothing to do with it #i hate having a car sometimes i just want a bus system #or a jeep #but preferably a bus system #sorry rambles thats a long way of saying i didnt post this earlier because ive been working on my car lol

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californiaquail · 12 days ago

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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before

#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up #sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation #even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been #some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss #but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time #over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either #i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane #i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after #i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at #it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same #silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time #it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen #of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately #this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country #again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want #things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao #i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot #everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me #and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d #anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that #to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm #recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca #also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before #anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun #and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have #i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired #and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that #i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip #whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn #(<- guy who should be in therapy)

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wikiangela · 1 year ago

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last line tag

tagged by @jesuisici33 @thewolvesof1998 @daffi-990 @jamespearce9-1-1 @lover-of-mine @hippolotamus @disasterbuckdiaz 💖💖

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It’s a good few weeks, and it feels like everyone’s back on track, settling into their lives again, figuring everything out one day at a time. Buck’s happy. He has his awesome girlfriend, his best friend seems finally more at ease, even if the divorce is adding some stress, and his other best friend is happier than ever with his mom around. Everything’s finally starting to go great.

And then it all gets disrupted again.

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no pressure tags: @elvensorceress @gaydiaz @diazass @thebravebitch @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @arthursdent @diazblunt @911onabc @spagheddiediaz @housewifebuck @gayhoediaz @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @monsterrae1 @honestlydarkprincess @underwater-ninja-13 @eowon @exhuastedpigeon @weewootruck @loserdiaz @evanbegins @steadfastsaturnsrings @ladydorian05 @malewifediaz @pirrusstuff @theotherbuckley @911-on-abc @spotsandsocks @hoodie-buck @giddyupbuck @wildlife4life @fortheloveofbuddie @nmcggg @diazpatcher @jeeyuns

#the alive shannon fic #last line tag #buddie wip #buddie fic #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #clearly struggling to segue into the bombing lmao #my wips #skipped wip wednesday so have a lil line haha #thought id have the bombing written already but need to start getting ready for work so i guess writing's done for today lmao #i might be a little absent from the writing games in the next few weeks bc im just so exhausted lately lol #this scene I'm writing is so disjointed and out of order rn and i hate it i need to find more time to write it properly haha #but pls keep tagging me i love reading y'alls wonderful snippets!!#also what do we think shannon's job could be bc im trying to figure it out and have no clue lol #(also i have to actively remind myself of ali's existence and i can't wait until the break up so i don't have to anymore lmao)

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