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herewithinthevoid · 5 days ago

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#ripped from my own twitter cause i really don't know how else to express the tiny dose of comfort seeing sesame street doing this gives #but it also just feels ominous like bracing for the fallout and trying to soothe preemptively #i'm so fucking tired #i'm not doing okay elmo #i wanna go to sesame street #please vote #us elections #us politics #election 2024 #election day #presidential election #sesame street #elmo #hwtv rambling

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doubleedgemode · 3 months ago

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Happy summer, everybody!

This has been a big project to take and while there's stuff to improve I'm pretty happy with it. Be sure to zoom in the big picture for details and read the comic from left to right. (Needless to say, please don't try A.B.A's behaviour.. For your safety)

Bonus doodle:

#a.b.a #paracelsus #slayer #guilty gear #I almost forgot slayer's shirt pattern! I was also supposed to draw his cape floating over sharon to shield her from the sun but...#this whole drawing collection took roughly a month to complete and I forgot. I'm too tired right now #speaking of. it's my first time drawing sharon I hope she's okay!#yes slayer carries and wears in the nose his 200 spf sunscreen from xrds treasure hunt animation :)#as for the big main picture. it left me quite exhausted and I know the lighting leaves a lot to be desired but I'm proud! learnt a lot #first time drawing blue para too. I hope his metallic sheen is alright #more than aba's skin sheen for sure. I'll improve it in the future! btw tweaked a bit her attire's palette from last time and made her keep #the headband cause trying to figure out how her hair would properly fall was a hassle lmao #fun fact: the bird is an european herring gull #the crab is an edible crab and the palm trees are coconut palm trees with no fruit lol #I wanted to draw fan palms which are a kind of palm tree that deserves more love but the leaf shape was so difficult to draw #I did struggle a lot with these two.. they look more like feathers but again. that can be studied and improved in the future #despite all the lows summertime can have for me whenever it's a nice day and we can go to the beach I feel everything is worth it and will #be okay. hope I could translate that here. hi new people I tend to ramble a lot in my post tags #art tag2b named #sharon

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hakusins · 5 months ago

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just wanted to say that i hit 300+ followers a long time ago and i just want to say 🥺🥺🥺 thank you !!!!!!! honestly i'm so grateful for all of you, especially as i just yap about different things that you may or may not be into! HBREFHJERBF

i actually do plan on doing an event to celebrate it!! but im so busy ;;A;;; thankfully though, i only have 4 more deadlines for the year and i'll prob start the event somewhere around july and hopefully by then there'd be more!!!!

but right now with like 3 hours of sleep in my system, all i can say now is thank you and i hope you guys continue to support me for a long time 🥺 i'm having a lot of fun here with you all!

#wop wop thats all i rlly wanted to say bJRFBERF #im sorry yalls im so tired #i've only had enough energy to just doodle for close friends in discord #nothing post worthy though #(mostly cause its ocs anyways hbREHJFHBJERF)#but yeah #i'm taking care but i miss drawing BHJRFBEBF #so most likely im gonna do an event where i open art requests for a bit??#but thats a very big depends #if im tired for the whole month of july then im tired for the whole month u know 😭#but i'd love to do a lil small event #we'll see umu umumu #dean rambles #again wanna thank you guys !!!#love u!! mWAH

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supernovaa-remnant · 4 months ago

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I am so incredibly slowly reading through the dreblr big bang fics, but even though I've only read a few so far, I'd like everyone to know that all the fics are so good and everyone should go check them out <3

it was a really fun event to be a part of, and everyone put so much work in, and all the fics and art are absolutely lovely so yeah go check it out <33

#I know it's been like a month since the posting day #but I've been busyy #figured if I'm still too busy to read through everything than I can at least encourage others to read through all the fics #cause genuinely they're so good and I'm looking forward to reading all the ones I haven't yet read #<- is that a comprehensible sentence? sorry I'm really tired right now lmao #stella rambles

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iwanttobepersephone · 4 months ago

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Sometimes I have to take a deep breath and remind myself that the person making a post about how there's no aroace rep anywhere clearly doesn't have my algorithm, where all I see is aroace rep, and if they did, they would have worded this post differently, and there's no reason to get frustrated

But at the same time... ALL I SEE IS AROACE REPRESENTATION AND YEAH Y'ALL DESERVE IT BUT PLEASE I JUST WANT TO SEE SOME OF MY FELLOW LESBIANS P L E A S E

(I haven't written the tags yet but I have a feeling they're gonna be important to read lol)

#funny #rambles #pride #I have scrolled that tag liking every single post I see for 3 hours on end and then. it doesn't change my algorithm at all.#PLEASE I AM SO TIRED OF SEEING “Aroace people are so forgotten!!” I CANNOT FORGET YOU #AND I KNOW THIS IS A ME THING AND I KNOW THATS MEAN TO SAY AND I'M SORRY #BUT PLEASEEE I WANT TO SEE A LITTLE BIT OF MY SEXUALITY??? PLEASE????????#And like literally the first identity I researched in depth eas asexuality...#soon after aromanticism #cause I learned about sexualities by literally just googling “pride flags” and looking at wiki articles for whatever I saw #and I saw the asexuality flag first #so to me it's a very foreign idea that aroace people are forgotten or that not enough people understand what it is #I'm like huh??? thats one of the basics of the community????#but to so many it's not #anyways I feel awkward tagging this as aroace cause it's kinda negative...#and I don't wanna bring anyone down if they're scrolling the tag of their sexuality...#so I'm not gonna tag ut #for now atleast idk

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ying-doodles · 6 months ago

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my brain is running a million miles a minute rn

help

#ying rambles #let me try to just spew out my ideas in here so i'm not making so many individual posts #uh let's see #i wanna make an underwater version of void ying (my main sona rn)#where instead of having stars all over there's little fish? and they're wearing a clear raincoat and boots #i wanna draw myself in little outfits again (like those old wardrobe memes that are like pjs casual formal etc)#i need to actually sit down and draw new pfps for main and spam cause i'm tired of my current ones #it seems like the reverse absolutes are winning the poll so i have to come up with an archangel javier design (not that hard actually)#but i want to try to draw his rainbow wings in that piece?? maybe??#and then there's the turnaround i just talked about that i have to figure out #cause that's like what. 4 frames if we keep it simple (front left back right). or 8 if we do quarter turns (so many angles..)??#and then there's the drifting closer comic that's in second place in the poll #i have a vague idea of what i want it to look like but i need to sit down and sketch it to actually figure it out #and then at some point i need to figure out what the fck i'm drawing for the tged zine #cause i don't actually know what i'm gonna do yet (but i have until june to think on it i guess)#and. and...#... i think that's everything?#no there's still a lot of other stuff i wanna do but these tags are so long by now..#if you read them all uh good on you i guess?#i gotta go to bed i need to cease thinking-

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visdiefje · 11 months ago

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I'm pretty sure my experiences haven't changed from when I last asserted my identity labels but my view kinda has I guess

#in the sense of. who cares about an orientation label if nothing ever really comes from it yknow.#it's fruitful yearning towards individuals my brain latches onto. that's the extent of it #there's no reciprocated dynamic that allows it to ever get to grow into sexuality #so like yeah I'm demi but 99.9% of the time sexuality just doesn't play into anything at all #and when it does it's brief blips that also don't go anywhere #and I have a pretty good idea of the pool of people I'm theoretically attracted to #but that also just. doesn't matter much once my brain latches onto someone and runs its tiring one sided course #and my gender is still accurate technically but I also have Nothing to say or think about it. it's all whatever #basically all the labels are still accurate it just means very little to me anymore.#it's weird cause it used to be an identity point right. of like hi! I'm [gender] [sexuality] and it's rooted in how you see yourself #and now if I think about how I would introduce myself. well. I wouldn't know but those elements aren't really on the radar to be honest #it comes into play so rarely that like. literally who cares #it's just wild cause people my age who I used to share online spaces with are still strongly debating over what it means to be x or y #and it just. doesn't matter to me anymore. I'm Anders and I like people out of my league generally speaking. hi etc #anyway musing rambling. it's okay if you feel different also #I guess those posts about how definitions matter less when you're older and more in irl spaces were right #bien rambles

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stellacadente · 15 days ago

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i clearly really love my family bc i'm willing to watch movies i know i'm gonna hate just bc they wanna watch them together

#so it's my mum's bday soon #and she wants to watch a movie all together tomorrow so we can do something together #(we're also gonna make pizza)#and the choice is. between deap*ol & wolv*rine and l*ve l*es bl*eding #i don't wanna watch either. sorry. ugh #i am so strong for not screaming and begging them to watch something GOOD #i'm resigned at this point #i've tried before to suggest something we could all like - both them and me #and it wasn't like fucking mrinal sen cause i get that kind of movie that i like isn't for them. but like. the king of comedy. i think they #would LOVE it. but my brother refused to watch it and we watched a fucking lame action movie instead i can't even remember what it was #like come onnnnnnn.......... martin scorsese isn't niche. i'm not suggesting anything “weird” as they like to call the stuff i watch #pisses me off a little bc i know my brother always gets the last word and i get why but aaaaughhhhh if one time they'd just let me put on #a movie and TRY to watch 15 minutes of it at least. i'm sure they'd like it and watch all of it and maybe get something out of cinema #for once #this is silly to complain about i know i'm just like tired of always having to go with what they want and like when they make no effort to #do the same for me. lol #nico rambles

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gxlden-angels · 1 year ago

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Hello! I apologize if this is a nosy question, but what is the silly feelings wheel app you were talking about in a previous post? My therapist and I have been working on identifying feelings but I still very much rely on a list of feeling words to have any idea what I’m feeling, so it could be a helpful resource. No worries if you don’t want to share, just thought I would ask :)

It's called How We Feel! I'm not sure if it's available on all devices yet, but it's on ios and the google play store for sure.

I've been using it for about a year. It's more of a chart than a wheel but people usually recognize the wheel better so that's what I call it. When you first start it has a 10-part tutorial about emotional acceptance and regulation, then it has suggestions for each category of emotion. You can access both at any time tho after those first 10 days.

It has a share option so you can have friends, which has been great for me cause it prompts me to check on friends and them to do the same for me. It allows you to just respond with a little emoji in like a "I'm here for you" little notification to your friend, or you can reach out to your friend on your own. Its really helped me cause I'm bad at reaching out when I need support so to me and I'm bad about taking on other's problems even when I can't handle it so being able to send a little emoji instead to make sure my friends know I'm there if they need me and them doing the same has been great

#I know I sound like I'm a being sponsored by this app but it's genuinely been incredible for my mental health #whenever I get frustrated in therapy now about not being able to describe a feeling my therapist asks me to think about the chart #he'll ask me what color I feel and go 'good! do you want to narrow it down from there or continue with just that?' and it's so helpful #I have such terrible alexithymia from both cptsd and autism #it took a year of working with him to even recognize when I felt angry or hungry or sick #my friends and I check in on each other regularly now but it feels less intrusive #cause it feels like indirectly reaching out so it's less pressure to directly respond #and it might not feel the same for everyone since it could be jarring to get a notification saying friend feels miserable #but now that I've gotten used to it I don't feel like I need to solve their problems and make them feel better #Like they might be miserable because they're sick! So I check in and they say they're sick but okay and I don't feel the impulse to solve #like I would if I just didn't see them then saw them in person and saw they looked miserable #I don't blame myself or feel like I personally need to fix everything because I know they felt like that from an outside source I can't #control but I can certainly help them if they want! It's their choice tho and I don't feel bad if they don't/I can't #I feel less need to control my emotions/force them to be positive like I used to cause nobody feels positive 24/7 and I can see it #I don't feel the need to be politely content like I did in church because no one can be 24/7. I've attempted to get my family to start but #they're still stuck in needing to not be openly negative. It also helps me accept that negative feelings don't last forever #Someone feeling miserable because they're sick eventually puts they feel tired. Then chill and I know they feel better and I feel better too #Anyways thanks for listening to me ramble about my silly little feelings wheel app I hope it helps you like it helped me anon <3

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moinsbienquekaworu · 1 year ago

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I'm sorry I'm going to be insane for a second, avert your eyes

#i will mention i'm aroace and combined with this kind of like. moe-ness i exude apparently?#will lead people to immediately think i'm so pure and cutie pie and shy and uwu adorable #and of course people never know what aromanticism is but even after an explanation they just think it's an extension of my asexuality #bitch no it isn't. they're two separate things and i am going to killl you with psychic lasers #i swear to go they hear aroace and suddenly all the contrastic aspects of my personality disappear #some people will forget that i get loud and enthusiastic about men i think are hot #suddenly i am a meek angel who's soo cute and pure!#and i can mention how much i know about & like sex in theory and kink and romance #and every time it's 'that's funny cause you're asexual' 'you're aroace but your special interest is sex what a contrast' like argh #i need aro friends!!!! more!!!!!!!!#sure i like being cute but if people could stop equating that to being a pure angel it'd be nice #like. i'm into the theoretical side of sex! i like reading about kink! in sexy AND educational ways!!#i know what sex is and i have been the friend who does specific sex ed to others a few times!#but nooo she's kind of small feminine a little shy at times and asexual so surely the millions of words of sex & sex ed don't exist anymore #vagueing people i live with <3 #and i've corrected the specific person i'm thinking of!! i have!!#i've told them 'oh yeah it's a fun contrast but it IS a genuine interest of mine that i've put a fair amount of time into over the years'#and they just forget it and keep making the joke every time!#oh i am Tired #wow i have a ramble tag now

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teenytraveler · 5 months ago

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hi guys i'm still alive btw work's just been kicking my butt cause i've been working over time for over 2 weeks now pls don't forget about me i just don't have the time nor energy for art rn :((

#fr guys never work in tourism unless u like it #i accepted the job cause i was desperate #i miss art so much but when i have free time to draw i'm constantly tired #or when i want to draw i can't cause i'm at work #also i work at a private company and they obvsly don't know what work life balance means #my boss's business partner calls me even on the weekends to ask me stupid questions like #leave me alone!!#sorry for the rant guys :(#i never missed being a part of art community and drawing so much like i do now #wish i could just quit my job and do art but i gotta earn money somehow ;__;#meg rambles

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heyitslapis · 2 months ago

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Ok

#kinda vent post cause ive been anxious ever since we got coffee this evening #I promise I'm not trying to be weird or anything. I'm just #I just really don't want to screw this up. I know we spent almost the last year avoiding each other #And I know things between us were rocky for a bit before that #and I hope I'm not overwhelming you. I know things won't be better overnight #I know we've distanced so much and theres so much awkward history there. I know things are different now #And I respect that. I respect your relationship and your new life. I'm not trying to impose or make you uncomfortable #I'm just anxious and tbh scared an nervous too. I don't want to fuck this up. If theres a chance for us to be close friends again I want it #Im so so so scared of fucking it up. I feel like I forgot how to be friends & after the way I left things Im scared that I lost my chance #I'm scared that it's not gonna work and that a permanent goodbye is in our future. I'm scared that you won't want me around after all #I would understand if that became the case.. but I really don't want that #I cant text you this without seeming like an overbearing clingy anxious mess of an ex but ive been on the verge of a panic attack all night #just for the fear that I'm fucking up already somehow. Just the fear that this isn't going to work and I shouldn't even try #I think I spent so long avoiding you that now I don't know what to do with myself. But I'm trying to be normal #I promise I dont have any motives other than missing a really great friendship and being tired of missing friends #And maybe I still have a ways to go in the emotional healing department but I think I'm ok enough to try. I've been ok for a while now #If you see this please know that I mean every word. If you never see it thats ok because I just need to get it off my chest before I burst #I don't want to scare you off or lose you again. if thats what it comes to then know I'll always miss and appreciate you for all my days #Thats all. Ive been a ball of nerves all evening & I just needed to air this out cause having this weight sitting on my chest is too much #emma rambles #personal #vent post

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aceofstars16 · 8 months ago

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Ugh, I want to write but also just...don't want to do anything at all...

#like i know why but it's frustrating #because i know it's probably for the best #but i'm still disappointed you know?#i think it's probably because i'm aching for connection tbh but i know online isn't the place to find that #but i don't know how to get it in person either #so i just feel stuck and lonely and not sure what to do so that's fun....#and also like...i will probably try out to create but also...i feel like i shouldn't expect much (aka getting in or even being a backup)#just cause i don't even have that much confidence in my work...like I like it but does that mean other people would chose it? debatale #which is also a sucky feeling to have ugh #plus my motivation has been so off and on it's like...helping out seemed easier to do than committing to create #but at the same time yesterday i literally said i shouldn't be a mod because my mental state has been so crap #which is like...why i know it shouldn't effect me that much but i'm still disappointed and i'm tired of being disappointed i guess #anyways a lot of venting there i'm just kind of sad #but i also want to write and know i need to draw...#but i don't really want to draw and writing is kind of just reminders of what happened so....ughhh #aceo rambles

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nmzuka · 1 year ago

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I hate starting my day caught in a loop of being miserable

#zuka rambles #im just tired bro #i wanna get some time off #but I know they dont have anyone to cover me taking time off #cause this godforsaken company cant hire anyone #so I'm just running myself in a loop of being bitter

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illdothehotvoice · 1 year ago

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One day I will be brave enough to order a mystery item from Fangamer because of how cheap they are but that day is not today

#I'm just a little nervous to cause fangamer has a LOT of stuff i do not care about personally dshjgkfh #But also a LOT fo stuff I DO care about (ut dr professor layton ace attroney ib-)#It's just a little silly cause you get no say in the matter but I BELIEVE there's a section to put items you already have??#So they don't send a duplicate item?? which is nice but #If I do I don't think I'm gonna go for a t-shirt cause I don't #I don't want fangamer to know how many undertale shirts i own- (3?? I think???? too many sdhgkjndfh)#I might get a pin cause they're like $6 so I COULD get like 2 of them. And if I don't know the media it's still a pin??#and I'm sure I could find SOMEONE to give it to if i don't know it qwq. I know a LOT of people that like at least SOMETHING fangamer has qw #anyways ramble over I've always wanted to get a mystery item but i am a coward #COULD YOU IMAGE I GET SOMETHING PIZZA TOWER THOUGH THAT WOULD BE SO FUCKING FUNNY <--[Has a weird vendetta against Pizza Tower]#[don't ask me why I think i just got tired fo seeing it everywhere dsjgfknh i'm sure it's a good game Pepino seems silly]

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davinaclare · 1 year ago

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you know how i said in an older post that i probably deleted how it wasn't worth it to feel this amount of stress and anxiety to go to a dinner party where i would probably get ignored the whole night anyway? yeah... i was right. i could have dropped dead at any point and nobody would have noticed. expect my "friend" who kept leaving me her purse. i love being a coat hanger.

#i wish people would stop inviting me to things #oh and i didn't even mention the drunken guy who started to psychoanalyze me at 1 am cause i never smile #how about you TALK to me like a normal person if you wanna see me smile?? huh?#how about you involve me in things like you do with the others?#people would literally take pics with my two co-workers and i was just standing by behind them like a fucking moron #'you have sadness in your eyes' oh you noticed? why would that be i wonder?#telling me 'life is full of ups and downs but you gotta react' when you know nothing about me #you don't even know what you're talking about #i didn't react? it's a miracle i didn't jump off a bridge and you're telling me i didn't react?#i'm sorry i'm not jumping up and down from happiness when i don't feel it i guess #of course HE was happy he drank the entire bar!#that wasn't real happiness either my guy #so i guess he just wanted me to pretend to be happy so i woulnd't make him feel uncomfortable #which i do btw i try to smile and laugh as much as i can so i look normal #i'm sorry if after 5 hours i was tired and my feet were killing me and i couldn't keep up the pretence!#rambling #don't mind me just let me vent

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