#I'm even worse at organizing

[keferon]

Do you have a specific end in mind for the Mecha au? Or is it it more of a case of gradually moving on from the au? I understand that so many people's stories are intertwined so maybe that makes it more complicated- especially in terms of an ending.

But ya I just remembered seeing something about "the mecha au isn't over, but it has slowed down". So I got curious about your thoughts about an ending. Anyways have a good day lol-

I was thinking of something vaguely typical anime-like.

Shockwave unwrapping his evil plan and GIANT mecha and everyone have to work together to stop him. Classic.

Then at the end Shockwave manages to revive Orion but it's not really Orion so Shockwave fucking. Breaks and gives up. And. Idk. Humanity wins? I guess? Jazz transitions from being human to being a bot?

I never really cared for the global ending because I originally planned only JP storyline and it was ending with Jazz and Prowl just making out on Cybertron lmao. (And this ending was already written by multiple awesome people)

Mecha AU has too many plots and subplots and different takes to make it ALL into something coherent at the end.

[trans-leek-cookie]

listen I'm not gonna be a Curly apologist he did Fucked Up as captain but I genuinely recommend ppl watch a playthru that goes thru the game in chronological order. It kinda helps clear up the events and gaps between them, bc even tho u See the times, you still experience it out of order.

The stuff Anya says definitely sets off alarm bells but it doesn't seem like he Fully Understands what she means, and I'm going to be 100% honest I think she was trying to repress it herself. This isn't to say that she is AT ALL "at fault" for what happened after and she should've gotten help even if she wasn't ready to fully discuss the issue but I genuinely think she herself was still coming to terms with things, so she didn't necessarily process the full impact before talking to Curly, and a lot of what happens occurs after they're laid off- like this delves into personal interpretation but I genuinely think Anya only registered Jimmy as a serious danger after his outburst towards Curly. Ofc my interpretation is limited bc of the limited pov in game and not having gone through what she has, but it personally reads more akin to coercion over time than a singular Obviously Violent incident (like. Not to say that Sexual Assault isnt violent in nature, just that coercion often specifically works to obfuscate the fact it is a form of violence.) The layoff is a Massive catalyst for her bc of Jimmy, in that she now has a very clear understanding of his capacity for aggression.

To extrapolate a little from the "Dead Pixel" conversation, she starts by saying she Likes The Screen (even though it's fake). While Curly has his quotes about the pixel "not ruining the illusion" which. Y'know is Symbolic Of His Flaws. She doesn't say the pixel ruins it, just that she can't get it out of her mind.

If we take the pixel to represent her Or jimmy, either way the way she talks about it kind of downplays things, like it's a Minor Thing that's Slightly Upsetting, but she's still okay with the big picture. Idk I could be 100% wrong but that is my take

Besides that, Anya tells curly she's pregnant 2 days before the crash, and it isn't until she outright states it that he starts Putting The Pieces Together. I want to note, he says "I'd do anything" and "this doesn't have to go on our performance evals" 1. Before he knows shes pregnant 2. Under the assumption she might attempt suicide, and I doubt he even thought about her using the gun on anyone else before she brings that up. He says literally before the line where she tells him she's pregnant that "being laid off isnt a reason to hurt [herself]". Like I've seen ppl talk about the performance evaluation thing like it's about her and jimmy, but I think he's referring to (his belief) that she might attempt suicide or similar which might genuinely be a consistent thing he's seen her struggle with, given she's able to go through with it. Also just to note: assuming their society is like ours (hellish) reassuring her he won't blab Abt her mental health is like. Genuine reassurance- lots of mentally ill ppl will Not Open Up bc it could have long term consequences (like. For example. On employment) ANYWAYS I hope it doesn't come off like "Curly never failed Anya" but rather "Curly approached this specific situation without the context of why Anya is panicking and (possibly validly) assuming she's dealing with a very different issue"

Also let me say again the time frame is 2 days. We don't Really see what happens, but we know Anya tells Jimmy without Curly knowing. I genuinely believe he maybe didn't do a Great Job in those two days (the fact he says Anya should've talked to Him before telling Jimmy is uhhh. Mm. 1. Your job to create an environment where she comes to you my man 2. Weird to tell her what she should do with HER OWN PERSONAL INFORMATION) but like.

I get a lot of ppl want immediate consequences but consider that they can't really get rid of Jimmy (co pilot. Which is. Y'know it's Own Problems) but also like. Curly knows Jimmy, and we know that Jimmy tends to lash out. Curly should probably Not Confront Jimmy Unless He Knows Exactly How To Keep Him From Hurting Anya. Like I'm not an expert but this is something genuinely important- when confronting an abuser you NEED to take into account the impact it can have on their victim, and sometimes for the victims safety you need to wait until you have a Solid Plan. It sucks but it's important.

And theres discussion to be had about Curly kinda going along with Jimmy saying "well what if we all died" and like. I do believe he Didn't Realize What Jimmy Said. Like he was just processing/trying to keep the situation under control (and failing because he underestimated how willing Jimmy was to hurt everyone including himself).

Like he's definitely an enabler but I would say his problems are mostly before he understands the gravity of the situation, in that he's friends with Jimmy and assumes the best of a man with abusive tendencies, and fails to create an environment that can keep Anya and the others safe. Like, he definitely doesn't handle in game events perfectly (psych evaluation for one- he does do it instead of Anya which is actually helpful, but he still treats it like. Weirdly.)

Idk I have a lot of thoughts about this game and I don't necessarily want to defend Curly but more like. Anya's situation is very delicate (and light on details) so sometimes the way ppl talk Abt it feels like they aren't actually focused on what she wants and what it means to prioritize her safety y'know?

Edit bc I just now figured out kinda how I want to word it: curly is an enabler and making things worse bc he doesn't put a stop to Jimmy's BS, but in the specific scenario we see in game I think he's trying to use his Skillset of like, people pleasing not for Jimmy's sake but for the crews (like "if I nod my head and say I sympathize he won't lash out and hurt them") which like. There are situations which that is unfortunately the safest option (on an individual level yes, but sometimes it's also necessary to prevent abusers lashing out in response toward ppl who are more vulnerable) but it was the Wrong Choice.

It's like. I think Curly was trying and had good intentions, and understood that he needed to protect the crew, but he didn't have the toolset/experience to realize he can't Just go along with things and that he needs to be able to set hard limits, even for ppl he likes and trusts. Like he failed but the failure was "for want of a nail", where it began way before what we see (for want of an understanding of power dynamics I guess.) Again, don't think this makes curly more forgivable or whatever, I just think he's a good example of trying to make the right choices when you never realized you'd have to make these kinds of decisions and therefore are unprepared and/or unaware

Second edit: personally I don't think you can really incapacitate jimmy without there being serious risk (again he's the copilot) but curly should've given Anya the gun when she told him Abt the pregnancy

[delawaredetroit]

The pretense for Sir Nighteye's agency being involved in investigating the Shie Hassaikai was stupid. If he had suspicions about their connections to trafficking in quirk erasing bullets or trigger, that would make sense. But at worst what Bubble Girl was describing here was some unauthorized quirk use and potentially some theft. It didn't really justify a full scale investigation.

Also, Bubble Girl's costume aggravates me the most out of all the female character costume designs. How are they not falling out, that isn't how shirts work? Why are most of her vital organs exposed like that? Is she just never out in the field because Sir Nighteye isn't a frontline hero, so her hero costume doesn't really matter?

[capn-twitchery]

ok i understand now why i've been even more brainfogged & tired for a couple days. but oh god i am hurting so bad. ty for everyone's patience i will get back to you when i'm not dying

[pupuseriazag]

I dont ever want to hear anyone say "bukele saved El Salvador" when he is ACTIVELY enforcing policies to kill us slowly.

I dont EVER want to see random ass gringos justify our loss of rights "because he got rid of the gangs".

Wanna know the true situation of El Salvador? Of the so called "coolest country in the world and safest in latinoamerica"?

Where women are barely protected and men search for ways to take advantage legally of other women/their wives? Where abortion is illegal and criminalized EVEN WHEN ITS A MISCARRIAGE? Where women who cannot afford to give birth in a private hospital get mistreated and some even forced to give birth in the reception?

Where queer people got promised rights and later recieved threats by the government? Where the government censors anyone who is not actively spewing propaganda and silences those who dare to try to change things?

Where a girl had to leave the country because she dared to yell at cops taking away the ice cream cart of a person and they threatened against her life? Where several more actively leave the country because now its the military threatening them?

Where government officials are allowed to have a salary bigger than the us president yet doctors, teachers and EVERYONE has been denied to get a raise because "we dont have money"?

Where even though "the gangs are all in jail" the heads of those gangs appear walking freely in the US after the government boasts about having them captured months before?

Where the government actively LIES about EVERYTHING from murder rates, feminicide rates, salary rates, education rates, to give the outsiders "a good face" on the country?

Where ambulant sellers have their stuff stolen by the police and the center of San Salvador is getting more and more gentrified?

Where you cannot afford to move ANYWHERE and apartaments are only built in the rich zones to be used as AirBnbs for gringos and hermanos lejanos?

Where the president forced himself into the polls and re-elected himself as the president for another 5 years?

Where the governement is paying google 5 million dollars to put their logo on a random building to boast about having technological advances in the country while letting the ONLY public and free university in the country rot and using its campus as a hotel and base for international sport games?

Thats the "coolest" country in the world?

Oh but because the government doesnt outright act like a cartoon villain, people ignore the situation in El Salvador.

Oh but because people who were born here and havent lived here in years say "the country is fine" people believe them.

Oh but because if you are an outsider and you visit the country and nothing bad happens to you "its fine"

Oh but because if you visit the center of San Salvador, La Zona Rosa, El Tunco, La San Benito, Santa Tecla and Antiguo Cuzcatlán everyone "seems fine and happy" theres nothing wrong.

And what about us who LIVE here? What about us?

What about the women who wake up at the crack of dawn to go out to work for the minimum salary or less?

What about the hundreds of underpaid doctors without proper equipment and medicine?

What about the innocent people in jail who's only crime was being poor? Those whose only crime was implanted by police to boast about having more gang members trapped? The women whose only crime was not accepting the advances of a cop? The kids who's only way of "getting out" of the violence cycle is by getting jailed as if they were adults?

What about the thousands of students and teachers outside the capital having class in unsafe buildings because the government never cared to fix or rebuild them a new school?

What about the people having to build their own roads and bridges because the government doesnt care about their safety? About their comfort? About their LIVES?

What about the people who can barely afford to live paycheck to paycheck let alone the ones who cannot even afford to eat daily?

What about us salvadoreans just trying to survive and have a decent life?

Fuck bukele, fuck nuevas ideas, fuck everyone in the government and outside of it celebrating his dictatorship, fuck everyone without a single ounce of empathy towards us.

[jmtorres]

in a variant of useless arguments that unfortunately i can't just use the block button on, i am reliving a wtfry from like five years ago because i'm trying to sort through my medical history and figure out if i have any further lurking disasters and i'm currently stuck on

me: i am trying to eat healthier so i want to add more fruits and vegetables to my diet

nutritionist: no don't eat more fruits! that's too much sugar! sugar is bad for you!

like really we're not talking about processed foods or added sugars, this person straight up told me there was too much sugar in raw, fresh fruit

[pardonmydelays]

now why is spotify messing up my playlists & playing in the heights in the middle of hamilton?

[ghwosty]

when will these horrors (tummy upset) cease

[asinglesock]

just realized my fatal flaw and the great struggle of possibly the rest of my life. while watching a cdrama.

[pochapal]

anyone else ever been hexed by a doctor before or

[coolauntlilith]

Every now and then I replay the first episode of VLD and I wonder why I thought it be a good show lol

[thesporkidentity]

i don't think i'm ever going to finish these WIPs and i completely forgot where i was going with them, but it's quite vindicating to re-read them and discover they weren't the pile of steaming shit that my memory had convinced me they were. in fact, the parts that were written would actually have been pretty solid with just a little editing

[daz4i]

pain's too unbearable when sitting. more manageable when i'm lying down. BUT i feel like i'm gonna fall asleep 😭 which is a problem bc i really shouldn't

[sapphicautistic]

Bar soaps, bar shampoos > shampoo and body wash in plastic container!! Here's a reminder to save the earth❤️❤️

ik this is meant to be like cute and friendly but sending this to strangers anonymously with no context or like current conversation about this topic happening comes off as bizarre and tbh rude.

if you want to save the earth sending anons to random tumblrs is also possibly the least effective thing you can do.

we're doing unsolicited advice hour? go join an activist group to pressure corporations in the imperial core to use less plastic and/or to actually recycle what they say they will instead of shipping it to landfills in countries in Asia and Africa.

[princessnijireiki]

anyway our CNS & brains are pretty complex, like we've barely figured out getting people with partial spinal cord damage back driving their own bodies + when we do it's still a roll of the dice & the processes are not all well understood... encephalitis can caused locked-in-ness like with sleeping sicknesses, akinetic mutism, etc where the body itself is not physically incapable of movement & action, but nothing is out there that jumps in and takes over from a driver who's paralyzed or asleep at the wheel... that's not actually a thing, it's fun speculative fiction but not representative of reality— so really, no worries lol

[essektheylyss]

Guess who's in ✨*jazz hands*✨ hellllll week!