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doctorwhommm · 3 months ago

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we’re so back

#MORE TORCHWOOD DOODLES !!!! been working on this for months my ideas have been so nonexistent #torchwood #torchwood fanart #ianto jones #captain jack harkness #owen harper #toshiko sato #gwen cooper #can u tell I’ve been watching miracle day >:)#this one is kinda chronically online pls forgive me #wales did apparently win the 6 nations in 2008 I did google it #two cookie memes in one drawing the worlds gone mad #apologies for the lack of tosh and owen here I do love them #the top left being more empty is annoying me but my brain won’t make any more ideas for this and it’s been like 2 months #I am projecting onto Ianto btw I got IDed for redbull recently and I’m 22

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lokiusly · 1 year ago

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okay so apparently Tom Hiddleston said Lokius instead of Loki on a panel lol, TH and a fan held a banner that said “Lokius Endgame”, Martin called Mobius a sweetie pie AND said that Mobius was the only one Loki is emotionally naked with,

So what other Lokius news did I miss 👀 I’m so out of the loop,, please let me know in the tags or in the notes, thank you!!!!

#I’ve been gone for two months and !!!!#miss you all so much and I miss Lokius lol #I fucking screamed when I saw Martin call Mobius a sweetie pie because hell yeah he is THAT WAS SO LOVE INTEREST CODED #lokius #loki show #mcu loki #mobius #loki season 2 #loki x mobius #loki spoilers #mobius m mobius #loki laufeyson #loki

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lesbianboyfriend · 1 year ago

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millions of thinkers around the world are applying themselves to one question: is my new roommate real?

#it’s been a MONTH i’ve never even SEEN them i don’t even know their NAME #earlier today i heard the bathroom door open behind me while i could visibly see my other two roommates i turned around and they were #already gone.#jules.txt

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irish-belle · 5 months ago

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Need. A. Spa. Day.

#rant incoming #I’ve been on my own with my kids from 6:30-5:30 every day except Sundays for two months #two are special needs #my four year old has a really really hard time regulating his emotions his anger especially #this week he’s flat out punched me in the face and used his stuffed dragon to slap my across the face #my six year old also has issues calming down but she just screams. for hours.#I’ve cried twice this week because I can’t calm her and myself down at the same time #I’m just so emotionally spent #and my husband!!!! went to a wedding!!!! and was gone three nights in a row #came home drunk around half one in the morning #and he sleep walks when he’s drunk #and I just.#partner my ass yknow?

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justtogetthrough · 6 days ago

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After crying for hours today after speaking with my vet my body finally demanded several glasses of water to replace everything I’ve cried out in the last day and a bit it seems.

My cat may need to be put down real soon. Possibly this week kind of soon.

They’re calling me back tomorrow to check in and decide whether I need to take her to an emergency vet.

I messaged my step kid to tell them she might have to leave us soon and I thought there’d be more time to organize a visit so they could say goodbye, but I’m not sure that’s possible anymore. This kid is the sweetest person you’ll ever meet and they made my night so much better. They’re going to come visit me anyway in a couple weeks even if my cat is already gone because they know not waiting longer than necessary is the best thing for her. They said they’ll come and be with me and make me food so I don’t have to be completely alone for at least a little while after she’s gone 😪

Haven’t heard back about the file recovery and quitting my masters is still on the table.

I don’t know if I’ve ever hated my life more, and felt so out of control.

#please please please let my cat hang on until a day or two after my kid arrives #i want them to be able to kiss her one more time #I think I’ve been in a lot of denial #her symptoms don’t seem that bad though. her quality of life isn’t terrible #it’s just a handful of things that show she’s really struggling #my vet spent so many months telling me there’s a good chance she’d stabilize with treatment that I kept clinging to that #I knew in December I needed to start accepting I need to put her down #but it was so hard when I kept being told let’s see what x amount of time on the new dose will bring #now it’s clear the meds weren’t working and out of NOWHERE she’s taken another decline #no change to her meds or food or anything.#she’s showing signs now it’s time and it’s like a punch to the gut and I’m still screaming no no no no no #my whole life has gone to ruins #the only light right now is knowing I’ll get to see my kid for a few days soon. and then it’s back to total darkness #mb #late night thoughts #delete #probably

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unawakening-float07 · 6 months ago

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legit can not tell if the hair loss medication i’m on is doing anything or if the hair i still have is just getting super long and it’s covering my balding areas

#i’m applying rogaine twice a day along with taking both finasteride #and minoxidil #i thought i was seeing new growth with the finasteride but maybe it’s too soon #every time i part my hair to add the rogaine foam #the areas of my head that have incredibly thin hair still look thin #styled my hair upward and it’s very obvious the frontal lobe of my head #had incredibly thin hair #you can just see through my hair and to my head #kinda stressed about getting a haircut because i’m scared if i cut it any shorter than the length i have now #i will not be able to hide how much hair loss i’ve gone through in the last like year #only been on the fin for like two months #i read online it can take 3 months at the earliest to see results and #it sometimes won’t show anything for a year #just kinda scared all this stuff is not working and i’ll have wasted another year on hair meds when my hair is actively getting worse #and i could have been using that time to get a hair transplant or plasma injections or something

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lesbiansanemi · 1 year ago

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I know people have always been weird with fic updates but I swear recently people have been even more impatient and weird about it. I get comments on fics that have been updated WITHIN A MONTH asking if it’s been abandoned or when it’s going to continue. Like…. My guy…. Idk where you’re from that fics are apparently getting updated like fucking daily but you need to chill

#like generally if a fic has been updated within a year at ALL I don’t assume it’s abandoned???#and even if I did I’m not gonna ASK the author?#I’ll just happily read what’s there and enjoy it?#also like. it’s annoying when ppl leave comments like that on an older fic that really hasn’t been updated in a hot minute #but when it’s on aforementioned stuff that’s just happened to have gone a month or two without an update #idk. something about it is kinda disheartening #like if I don’t update things AT LEAST weekly ppl will lose all interest and my audience will be gone #because there’s no patience or grace for the writer #idk. it’s just.#maybe we shouldn’t assume something is ‘abandoned’ just cuz it hasn’t updated as quickly as you’d like #maybe we shouldn’t assume that at all but even if we do don’t fucking comment phrasing it like that??????#idk even if that’s not how ppl mean it it feels kinda rude and VERY passive aggressive #it’s just something I’ve noticed in uptick in recently and it kinda makes me :/#kaz rambles

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gatheryepens · 1 year ago

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#giving a mini life update #I’m gonna start this off by first apologising for being really inconsistent 💀#I’ve just been very #I don’t really know how to explain it but I’ve just not really been myself #I guess down in the dumps #or winter blues #recently just doing daily life stuff is really hard #and I keep on thinking I’m not doing anything productive at the mo #or not doing stuff that I think ‘normal’ 18 year olds should be doing #so I’ve been beating myself up about it #and the motivation to do anything is gone #like I have no motivation to read or write or to crochet #or just do things I actually enjoy #but hopefully I can get back into the swing of things #since I’ve got some stuff I want to post like more book post before the year is finished #and also finish this book I’ve been reading for like that past month or two #but it will probably spill over into next year 💀#gatherrambles #g/personal

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seilon · 6 months ago

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shouldn’t have checked my bank account as expected my mother has taken thousands more dollars from my savings and has almost run me dry more or less. Cool!

#I’m going to fucking call the bank and ask about a second checking account because she’s never going to make her own fucking account #it’s been like a year since she said she would and it’s just not gonna happen #she owes me thousands of dollars via me paying her fucking overdraft fees and she always says ‘what you think I won’t pay you back?’ no!!!!!#no I don’t!!!!!!! because you literally never have!!!!!!!!!!!#and where the fuck are you going to get like 8000 dollars anyway. because that’s what she owes me at the very least #even if you want to factor in like. paying her monthly for the groceries she buys and cat food and whatever that’s still. thousands of #dollars. and the worst part about it is I just have no safety net anymore #because my savings is basically nothing at this point. like nothing that can help in a dire situation anymore.#I keep thinking about whatever im going to have to end up paying for top surgery and I WOULD have a significant amount saved up to #contribute to that but haha! no I don’t! it’s fucking gone!#and I’ve been getting paid basically fucking nothing lately because of how few hours they’re scheduling me so that does not fucking help #my last paycheck was literally like half of what I should be getting. I made like 1K in the past two paychecks. that’s fucking depressing #anyway I’ve given myself a headache #I’ve been avoiding looking at my bank account because I knew it would be bad and it’d stress me the fuck out but I also have been anxious #not knowing and my mother making a few vague comments that implied she must have fucked me over. so I checked today and yeah she sure did #if I don’t make a new checking account that she can’t access i am actually going to be broke within the nenxt few months at this rate #my head hurts and I am so upset I am so upset I work so fucking hard and it doesn’t even matter i just lose money constantly #I get nothing I just pay her fucking fees and pay for my tuition and pay for everything else of any significance #and I am not exaggerating I work my ass off. I am the only person I know at my job who begs to work holidays and extra days and stay as late #as possible and it . doesn’t even matter #im going to kill myself I swear to god. there’s shit I need to buy. what am I supposed to do.#kibumblabs #vent #like shit I need to buy for WORK. my manager is getting on me about not having proper shoes for example and yeah I can get a discount #through shoes for crews but I still dont have the fucking money for anything anymore #not unless I want to run myself into the fucking ground #I need a new binder badly. I need new black pants also for work since mine are so faded at this point.#I only have one fitted sheet that doesn’t have giant holes in it #I can’t stop thinking about my last paycheck it was literally the worst I’ve seen since starting this job a year ago. fucking infuriating

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loderlied · 1 year ago

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posting on here is like my sisyphean boulder i'm constantly rolling tbh

#god i am trying so hard to just have fun and be myself #but when i do that i'm immediately a strange outsider creep #and since i can't really mask my version of masking is just not talking and then obviously you don’t find any joy in fandom spaces either #i will always be a shitty unlikable freak no matter how much i pretend otherwise. it was obvious from the start that getting involved in #fandom spaces was a fucking mistake. it's always a mistake because you're some laughing stock at best and a horrifying freak at worst #i don't blame people for not liking me i've realised what an awful person i am long ago #but it's always so hard witnessing something like fun social groups from the sidelines knowing you'll never be a part of it #this is why my mental state has been deteriorating so severely in the last few months. that Realisation once again nothing fucking changed #i know it's stupid to get so upset over fandom but it's only a pattern for me #i stopped trying to be friends with people when i was a teenager because it hasn't worked a single time #this attempt at integrating myself into the wotr and bg3 fandom by sharing my shit was just one mistake #gortash/zeke is so different from anybody else’s work and i wish i could find joy in something that it isn’t fucking deranged but i can’t #like yes it’s just fandom bullshit! gortash/zeke is a fucking oc x canon ship! why am i getting so upset over it!#i love writing them. i’ve never been this happy writing anything. and it’s entirely indicative of a common pattern in my life #when i earnestly share parts of myself/things i’m passionate about people get creeped out. and honestly? rightfully so #i would leave the discord servers i’m in because it’s fucking crushing me dude. this is so petty but i’m so jealous of what you people have #but in one i am server owner and i don’t want to just dump that responsibility onto someone else and then dip #and in the other two i’m not sure anyone would even notice that i’m gone but i still worry about being rude #though i’m not entirely sure i didn’t get invited to one of those just so people could laugh at me. idk probably just being paranoid but i #it’s been gnawing at me #ok no if i’m being this vulnerable on tunglr.com i can also say that part of me staying is also still having the hope that i could fit in #one day. logically i know it won’t happen but it’s nice to have hope sometimes #watching you all from through the window having fun like a creep #so yeah. i’ve always felt like this but it’s been rapidly getting worse with my failed attempt at the bg3 fandom #idk just been crying non-stop for the last few hours. went through an entire pack of tissues in an hour it’s very disgusting #they’re all lying around me as i’m typing this like a pillowfort of snot lmao #so yeah. idk. if someone could come over and lobotomise me that’d be nice. orin where are you when we need you most #i never had any friends irl so i foolishly gave this a shot. i’m sorry #also doesn’t help that i can see someone dropping me for people that are easier to be around in irl rn #it just hurts because it’s always like that. someone you are around when you have no other option at best. not even that sometimes

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angelofblackblood · 10 months ago

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I’m so tired.

#how do people make friends as adults #like I’ve been at uni 3 years #I’ve joined clubs #gone to events with people #cooked dinners and had takeaways sat in the living room #and yet somehow always seem to be an after thought #I’m literally a week away from handing in my dissertation with lots of work today #and the housing situation here sucks #and two people who I’ve been talking to about housing #who know how badly it all sucks #have put in for a flat of their own without saying anything #and I get it #it’s not really a shock cause like they’re a couple that can get a 1 bed and split the cost #they’ve been together 18 months #but I’m not even worth the talk apparently.#is it me is there something fundamentally wrong with my ability to make friends #or am I just really crap at picking people out #and like. they’re not awful people don’t get me wrong #but I also reckon if I went home from here for an extended period of time.#or left after uni #I’d never see any of them again #and apparently I feel badly enough about it all that I need to shout into the void here.#something that I do not do at all #but I have no idea what I’m doing now and finding somewhere new to live that is walkable to the uni is really difficult cause #for a uni town they sure don’t like students in any of their properties #I have so much work to do I should not be worrying about any of this right now #but I’d like to just play the switch instead and forget about this project or other people for a while #and I can’t cause this is due in on Wednesday and there’s still lots to do #and I can’t even complain about it to anyone cause they all talk to each other #a little circle of gossip that just goes round and round

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julesmikas · 8 months ago

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I just don't understand

How you don't miss me, in the shower

And remember, how my rain-soaked body

Was shakin', do you hate me?

Was it hazing? For a cruel fraternity

I pledged and I still mean it

Old habits die screaming

(Four months) of breathin' clean air

I still miss the smoke

Were you makin' fun of me

With some esoteric joke?

Now I wanna sell my house

And set fire to all my clothes

And hire a priest to come and exorcise my demons

Even if I die screaming

And I hope you hear it. . .

AND I HOPE IT’S SHITTY, IN THE BLACK DOG

When someone plays "The Starting Line"

And you jump up, but she's too young to know this song

That was intertwined in the tragic fabric of our dreaming

'CAUSE TAIL BETWEEN YOUR LEGS, YOU’RE LEAVIN’

(tail between your fucking legs, you’re leaving.)

#the black dog lyrics #if you see this. you know who you are.#small improvisation with lyrics (switched six weeks for four months!)#still fucking insane to me #liiiiike #two years! just gone! down the fucking drain!!!!#words will never be enough to describe the fucking pain i’ve felt from your betrayal #your honour i hope it’s fucking shitty in the black dog!!!!!#i thought you were my best friend for life no matter what #when i said i’ve NEVER been more hurt in my entire life i fucking meant it

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what-even-is-sleep · 8 months ago

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Can’t wait for my drivers license to arrive so I can be driving legally again for the first time in 1.5 years!

#for legal reasons this is a joke #SO THIS IS WHATS UP #as a youngin #a young adult one might say #I was starting to learn that some systems are bullshit when I’d previously been a pretty big rule-follower #my mom showing me how to navigate the healthcare system a bit/showing me how student loans legit have practices to confuse and fuck us over #also im really bad at getting things in on time (this is an important fact)#so when I see that my drivers license is abt to expire. I’m like ‘Oup gotta get that done!’ then promptly forget abt it #next time I remember it’s 3 months expired.#I check the date and realize that wait! in a year imma be turning 21 and just one yr after that Real ID’s will become mandatory (im p sure)#so I decide to push off renewing my license! I think that the whole process will b annoying asf bc I’ve only dealt with the DMV in-person #and it SUCKED and took forever. I’m thinking that if I renew my drivers license right on/after my 21st birthday I can knock out two birds #with one stone: I can get it as a Real ID and I can get an updated picture that’s flipped sideways so getting age-checked is faster #little do i know: it’s v much illegal to be driving around with an expired license!#I drive around for a year (over a year? I don’t remember when I first realized it was expired) j having fun #then one month b4 my 21st birthday I get into an abroad study thing and have to get my passport. which I realize is also expired. and #realize that to renew my passport I have to have a valid drivers license. At this point I also realize how fucked I could be if I get pulled #over with my expired license. so I check out the process for DL renewal and rejoice! it’s online!#AND THANK FUCK I CHECKED THEN. bc if I had waited LITERALLY two more days I would not have been able to renew online and would’ve had to go #in-person. and there were no in-person appointments until after my 21st. and I learned in this process abt the fines my state applies when u #renew a DL late and ALSO that u have to entirely retake the test/redo all the paperwork shit if it’s expired for too long. I would’ve had to #retake the test n everything if I’d gone past my bday. I was also in another state for college. idk how incoherent these ramblings are but #basically I would’ve been Ultra Fucked. anyways! got that figured out #renewed the DL and had it sent to my home. then da house floods and crime goes up in the neighborhood and my DL ends up either being lost #Or tossed (with other flood-damaged things) or stolen.#I don’t realize this for 4 months bc I am silly. also in college out-of-state. also other reasons.#finally got around to calling DMV and telling them that my DL never arrived… 6 months after I renewed it!#and they were v sweet and are resending me my DL for free. so in the next few weeks I shall finally b driving legally again #!!!! the end #mypost

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elprupneerg · 1 year ago

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You know, you’d think tumblr staff would be too busy with the literal hundreds of spam bots I reported yesterday (and the other hundred a few days before that, and the other couple hundred last week, and the literal thousands I haven’t had the time/spoons to go through and report) to ban random trans people or censor screenshots of tweets about trans rights. And Yet guess which blogs are still up posting stolen pictures of random peoples breasts and genitals and which blogs are just straight up gone

#like. I literally spent an executive function spiral just going through random tags until I found a spam bot #and then reporting every bit that likes the post #there’s so fucking many y’all #every single one of their posts that’s been up for more than a day has exactly 120 notes #and they’re all likes from other spam bots #the older ones have names made up of two random words #but over the course of the month they’ve gone to three words and then four #I think I’ve seen a couple with numbers at the end #they’re all hyphenated together like this: random-cream-very-fridge #just completely random words #and a lot of them use the same pictures as each other #like there’s one pic of a person in a dress with both their genitals and their chest exposed #so all the bots have posts that zoom in on either the upper or lower part of the picture #(or they’re from the same photo shoot? it’s the same dress and background in both pics)#but like. youd think staff would be too busy banning the literal goddam genitals getting plastered here #(which like. say what you will about the censorship but it IS against TOS)#but instead they’re censoring pictures of women going ‘wow this is what I looked like last year. I love gender transition!’#and it’s just pictures of peoples faces #staff. y’all REALLY aren’t beating the transphobia allegations here

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beepborpdoodledorp · 10 months ago

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Well

That was a lot quicker than I thought it’d be

#I’ve been gone from this game for two months let me do a bit of flex posting #stormbringer cookie

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babacontainsmultitudes · 2 years ago

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:3 Guess who withdrew from her master’s degree btw (THIS IS A VERY GOOD THING)

#I know it doesn’t sound like it is but it is *trust me*#(For context in case you haven’t heard me complain about it I am finishing my bachelors this month and was set to start my master’s #*immediately* after)#And when I say that for many many reasons I regretted my decision to take it on and have literally been struggling to sleep cause of it #But withdrawing felt impossible cause I’d already gone through all the trouble and accepted the position and didn’t want to disappoint my #supervisors- BUT I DID IT ANYWAYS #Erm as gracefully as possible and they were surprisingly cool about it but still it was SO HARD TO DO #But I decided I didn’t want to spend the next two years of my life miserable!!!#I’ve had enough of school!!!! Er for now anyways who knows life is long #I’m not out of the water yet with school but come June!?!!?#😎 I’m gonna have me a hot Glenn summer babeeey

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