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Me, at 11:48 at night: Alright, I’ve decided to stop staying up so late. It’s a good decision, a healthy one. I’m really glad I’ve settled on this. Let me just check my phone one more time before I go to sleep.
Me: *opens up ao3 and immediately finds a 50,000+ word fanfic with my favorite pairing and an intriguing plot*
Me:
Me: Welp. Sleep is overrated anyway— LET’S GOOO!!!
Bonus:
*The next morning*
#star wars#sw fanfic#I’m trying so hard to be good!!#but then authors put out this amazing crap and I just can’t#I’ll close my eyes and count for like ten seconds#then pick the phone up and keep reading#it’s a problem#but I love it#ahsoka tano#you know it’s gonna be her#she’s my muse#can’t beat her#ao3#ao3 fanfic#fan fiction
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this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen
#lol good luck finding all of the photoshopped versions in the rb history. ‘manatee restored’ is still my favorite of all time#misc#I encourage anyone dyslexic to try rotating him in your mind. I can’t do that; which is why I’m asking you to.#also: a bunch of tags are surprised this isn’t ‘shopped#it’s the lighting. backlit by the sun (which is diffused through the water) but also forelit artificially#the artificial light - a flash pack or something - casts a hard shadow under the creatures arm#which normally wouldn’t be possible if backlit by the SUN; you’d see a less-hard/more-fragmented shadow above water#as light sources ‘compete’ in a sense - and since there aren’t any light sources which can outshine the literal sun#it looks a bit weird when the darkest shadow is being cast from any other origin point - which is what’s essentially happening here#I don’t know the mechanics of how light travels through water; but I know the effect is substantial even with relatively short distances#also: it’s been balanced and color corrected by the author of the photo - who made deliberate choices to bring out the full potential#so it’s not like it’s a fresh and untouched export#but the kind of ‘tacked on’ appearance of the creature is a result of the lighting conditions within the image
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Abandonment issues go brrr
#trying not to cry rn lmao#he’s my FP and there’s not a damn thing I can do about it#why is growth so damn hard#I know I’m making progress but moments like these make me feel like I haven’t grown at all#I’m trying but I feel like it’s not good enough rn#abandoment issues#boyfriend#relationship#relatable#mental health#BPD#actually bpd#actually borderline#relationship problems#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#bpd problems#bpd mood#bpd feels#bpd stuff#bpd shit#bpd fp
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something about how Lorraine Baines McFly raised her son to be someone that her younger self would have felt safe around. Especially since she was mistreated and harassed near-constantly by Biff. She raised her son to be kind and emotional and unafraid to stand up against bullies. No wonder she fell for him in the past.
#“Eww she fell in love with her son”#No she fell for someone who literally is the antithesis of any other guy she knows#And that’s by design#Also#its not like she knew#lorraine baines#marty mcfly#back to the future#bttf#ALSO#think about it#marty tried so hard his whole life up til the movie trying to be the opposite of his dad#Outspoken attentive confident#But he’s so much like George regardless#Their fear of rejection#“What if they think I’m no good”#Their being afraid to pursue their passions/being shut down#Lorraine was always going to fall for george#She fell in love with the George she saw in marty#But Marty caught her eye because of his confidence#Lorraine lived a miserable life with George originally#But when he started believing in himself and became the more confident version of himself#Lorraine fell for him harder and they lived a great life together#Jesus that’s a lot of tags#P-14f
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I saw an interesting post a while back that said “Capcom made us [Miles and Diego/Godot] only have like two(?) interactions because they knew we would be unstoppable with a brother dynamic” and tbh it stuck with me bc it was intriguing.
So yeah that potential brotherhood, but that Godot/Diego AU I made (that I still need a name for)
Also I bet Gregory Edgeworth would have smelled like a bit like coffee, and so Diego just reminds Miles of that comforting presence 😭 (the von Karma estate was a tea household, so he didn’t smell much coffee after DL-6 and didn’t realize how much he missed it/reminded him of his father)
#doctorsiren#ace attorney#ace attorney au#diego armando#prosecutor godot#miles edgeworth#comic#ace attorney fanart#good guy godot au#art#digital art#my art#fanart#procreate#loving the inconsistent styles for Miles in the panels HAHA#that post also made me think of an AU where after the Fawles case. miles goes to Diego asking for help because he can’t stop thinking about#what happened on the stand and he can’t go to his mentor bc he’s showing weakness and that’s not allowed#and essentially long story short. miles decided to drop prosecuting after one case and be a defense attorney and he asks Diego to protect#him from von karma and also to be his mentor#so it’s like Mia and Phoenix but it’s Diego and Miles and then after Diego gets poisoned. Mia has to mentor Miles and she’s a little#hesitant at first because of how cocky he was in that trial but she sees that he’s genuinely trying to be better#also Diego would ask miles: you’re trying to be what von Karma wants you to be…well..what do YOU want to be?#and miles would answer: I want to be my dad#JUST LIKE IN MY 1985 ANIMATIC#ANYWAYS I’M BRAINROTTING SO HARD RN EXCUSE ME LMAO#ALSO MY FRIEND SAID THAT IN THIS AU (the one in the post) DIEGO AND PHOENIX ARE ENEMIES TO BROTHERS#and that’s the best thing I’ve heard all day it’s such a funny statement AND IT’S TRUE!!!!
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da three stooges
#HB PENCIL BRUSH SAVE ME#i’m trying to learn to draw bones so hard. these are pretty good but i still need to get better#star trek#spock#jim kirk#leonard mccoy#my art#tos#my trek
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some more Arthur practice from being bored in class today
#as someone who’s used to copying the features of real live people I always find it very difficult to just conjur up a face from scratch#so I’m rlly trying to experiment with his facial features so that he actually looks unique and distinct and not just like. Default Guy No.5#but it’s hard to translate bc my image of him in my head is very vague lol#arthur lester#john doe#malevolent#art#my art#doodles#ah. feels good to be doing some good ol honest fanart again.#and purely for my own enjoyment as well!
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WELL THAT WAS AN UNEXPECTED RESPONSE :( /pos
#good to know I could make people insane about them#I’m trying so so so so hard to be normal about them and I do a bad job of hiding it#but at least I don’t have to feel bad about it too much if y’all are enjoying it hehehe#<3#ty for your support as always (makes the most pathetic face ever of all time)#art escapades#docsuma#dbhc doc#dbhc xisuma#the shepherd#my sona#ask#dbhc ask#ALSO#DANCINGLIFEBOAT I SEE YOU AND IM LOOKING AND NODDING
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am I the only one who feels like the crowd that’s always crying “ooo this piece of media addresses [this heavy topic] without a character explicitly calling it out as bad so therefore it’s ENDORSING it and bad media!” is the same crowd who wouldn’t shut up about “the curtains are just blue 🤪”? Like sorry you slept through English class and are incapable of recognizing subtext or unreliable narration while the rest of us learned how to read
#this feels so old man yells at cloud of me but I’m reaching my limit here#media literacy#tbd#this is getting reblogs so here’s a disclaimer:that doesn’t meant that stuff can’t be bad#it absolutely can be#‘bad’ meaning rephrehensible for the sake of being so#or specifically to make reprehensible ideas seem palatable#propaganda comes to mind#but that’s why being able to distinguish between an author making a choice for narrative purposes#or when they’re just straight up proselytizing#is a SKILL that can be PRACTICED#also: I am ALWAYS leery of any calls for censorship for the sake of moral purity. historically that has not been a good idea.#why do people keep trying it?#I’m afraid to say that you must use your brain and do the hard work of figuring out what you can/cannot handle as far as media#no one can do that for you and you should not LET them#you should also not be trying to push YOUR limits on the population at large. they are not you!!
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Calling all body positive ppl
Does anybody have recs for fat & body positive creators I can follow. Especially about movement and intuitive eating.
But also just seeing other fat people doing hobbies and being visible on the internet would be nice. I like gaming, books, the usual nerd package.
I’m having so much trouble searching for these sorts of creators without getting suggested fatphobic or pro-ED content instead which is very upsetting :(
Even if you don’t have answers please reblog so I can find people who do!!
#I really hope this finds people somehow#I really need role models :(#I’m going through some weight changes right now due to changes in my medications#working SO hard on not trying to diet or think negatively about my weight#and instead focusing on feeling good#intuitive eating#body posititivity#fat acceptance#body neutrality#chronic illness#disability
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I am surprised that you still can't find a partner. You're gorgeous, interesting and cute at the same time.
(probably because you may be a federal agent)
i suffer from “can’t communicate effectively because of anxiety” BUT it’s getting a lot better!!!
i’ve also had a lot of “you are great but i’m seeing someone else now, bye” experiences. like, this happened three times. two in one year 😭 it takes a while to get over that and restore your self confidence, lol!!
#the first time especially destroyed me#like. it was my first feedee/feeder (more like encourager) thing#i was trying so hard#but after it ended i lost a lot of weight#it’s funny to me now lowkey bc it wasn’t serious at allllll#but i was emotionally invested#and he reconnected w a vanilla former gf so. idk who really lost there#the FUNNIEST part is that two of them happened on the exact same day 2 years apart#that fact helped me thru it#plus. it’s good to be fat on your own!!#it makes u stronger#i’m so worried the ppl that did this to me stalk my page.#i really doubt the first guy does but the second.. there’s a chance. he knows the account#but i doubt it if he’s w someone seriously
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i’m afraid of diving into good omens tumblr discourse but i just–i have to say
Aziraphale’s face. it’s. that is the expression of someone who does not want to be kissed, but knows it’s inevitable. though even more subtle than that, it’s the face of someone who does not want the thing to happen not because they don’t want it, but because they do, they really do, and yet it is not the way they wish it would be. Aziraphale knows something here. and he isn’t telling Crowley, nor us. he’s got some kind of higher pressure weighing down on him, forcing him to act against his nature and heart, forcing him to act against Crowley. he backs Crowley into a corner with his talk of joining Metatron in Heaven, and knows it. and that is what he wants, because that’s where he needs Crowley to be–away from him; but he pushes too strong, pushes Crowley to risk it all and end up cornering Aziraphale right back. all Aziraphale wanted, all he needed to do, was protect Crowley by breaking his heart and abandoning him, but you can’t undo 6,000 years of companionship without a miracle. it’s a failure.
whatever the Metatron told or did to Aziraphale that was hidden from us, it terrified him enough to make up a wobbly plan that could keep Crowley safe, if he would just go along with it. Aziraphale may have been strong enough, may have loved Crowley that much, to put his heart on the line and sacrifice himself if it meant Crowley could live on, but he underestimated Crowley’s love for him. underestimated Crowley’s courage and capacity for honesty.
the angel lied and the demon spoke his truth and everything crashed and failed.
and it is painful failure and remorse that i see on Aziraphale’s face.
it’s Please don’t ruin my attempt at saving you and Can’t you see what I’m trying to do and I’m sorry I’m breaking your heart but I have to if I want to keep you and To choose you I have to choose Heaven but I know you’re not seeing it that way and Crowley look at me I’m lying just go along and
Oh no, you believed me entirely too much, what have I done?
with the kiss, Crowley seals his fate as undeniably tied to Aziraphale’s. and Metatron will know.
#sorry aftg fam for this special good omens broadcast#anywhoo#i’m trying so hard to articulate what i see in every line of aziraphales face in this shot#he’s so afraid#not of crowley but FOR crowley#like he’s watching Crowley doom himself all over again but this time it’s for him because of him#and he wasn’t good enough to protect his demon#´No Crowley no no no no don’t do this please don’t do this he will know Metatron will know you mustn’t please!’#nothing can stop Crowley’s love for Aziraphale and angel wants to cry for the unfairness of it all#where does this face fit in the grand scheme of s3 i don’t know#good omens#good omens 2#ineffable husbands#ineffable divorce#ineffable fandom#neil gaiman#david tennant and michael sheen#david tennant#michael sheen#anthony j crowley#aziracrow#good god good omens#terry pratchett
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“Why did you go without me?! […] You KNOW what happens if you don’t have allies!”
-Grian, to Joel after he not only messed up a demise trap yet again, but also managed to kill himself in the process.
I am so normal about this. I am so normal about last life and limited life. I am so incredibly normal, but Grian can’t just go and say this after Joel’s desperate spiral in limited life. Or just how he get’s in the life series in general.
#this is very good angst#is what I’m trying to say#it’s the lighting strike in front of the clocktower all over again#Grian is on his way to help _ he’s trying so hard to help_but he’s just too late#Grian#joel smallishbeans#hermitcraft s10#hermitcraft#hermitcraft spoilers
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a bit late to the party but im a big fan of the Puppet Jack design by @doomthegloom
Have an old doodle~
#been a good while since I’ve posted#life has been hitting pretty hard ngl and I’ve lost a lot of motivation to draw#I’m trying to get that back so hopefully I’ll be more active moving forward!#sdj#sunny day jack#something's wrong with sunny day jack#swwsdj
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y’know generally i try to limit colour palettes to as few colours as possible to make things more cohesive but despite my best efforts only jay ended up being able to stick to that </3
ANYWAYS here’s the as-of-right-now fully updated designs for these dickheads. these will no doubt undergo even more tweaking as i draw them more but this is a start i guess. also pls open the pictures to look at them properly i worked so hard LOL
some random notes under the cut yaaaay
chip —
he jingles when he walks. somehow he’s still stealthy. i do not know how
kept the platinum ring that bonded him to gillion in the block! because hey he doesn’t really have a reason to take it off (and it’s a nice reminder of how much gill cares about him, and how far their friendship has come since that ice arena)
his tattoos shift and flicker like actual flames, and sometimes (harmless, purely aesthetic) sparks fly off them when he’s excited
i just think smoke coming out of his mouth when he’s angry would be cool :]
chipped teeth from biting rocks and coins all the time :/
he has scars from the red lightning, they’re just mostly contained to his back and shoulders. they’re a similar red to his coat even once they’ve healed
gillion —
the tail sleeve thing is so he can rest it on the ground without damaging his scales, he doesn’t usually wear it when he’s just on the ship because the wood is soft enough that it’s usually fine + it can hinder swimming a bit. it’s mostly meant for places where there’s cobblestone or gravel streets and such. i think his armour would probably have a version that looks similar but covers the whole tail minus the fins, maybe with some armour plating of its own. i didn’t draw it because there wasn’t any room lol
his scars from the lightning are pink mostly because red stood out too much tbh. they softly glow in the dark the same as his coral and the pink parts of his fins
also kept his ring! his hands aren’t really made for jewellery, though, because the webbing means it won’t sit very secure on his finger. so he keeps it on the same chain as the necklace he got from aslana to keep it safe
tried to make him look a bit bulkier and more his age than in my original design? i feel like i was leaning too much into the naivety and. shortness. originally lol. he also has thicker eyebrows now and i’m still trying to decide how i feel about them but i think? i like it? i don’t tend to give many character thin eyebrows so it could’ve been a unique thing for him but alas
i think i made the sword too small but like ignore that
also forgor to include pretzel </3 that’s okay though she can get her own design sheet later. she’s special like that
jay —
i believe in tall jay supremacy
blue magic! i was considering gold but that’d look a bit more like a canary than i wanted for her wings so. blue jay :]
her hair is supposed to look kinda like fire to mimic her dad ! kinda showing that even if she runs from her family and the navy they’ll always be a part of her. and also i just like drawing messy hair
i gave her sturdier gloves just because i feel like it fits her better. also changed up the shirt to more of a button up solely because i don’t like tank tops very much LOL
i did WANT to make her outfit a bit flashier to match the boys better but i couldn’t quite figure out where to Put the flash. maybe that’ll come later, the way the story’s going i might get to design some cool prosthetics for her or something
overall —
because there’s just so many fucking colours i triiied to add at least one or two colours from each of them into the others designs. jay has her necklace with each of their main colours on it, her wings are the same blue as gillions eyes, her jacket and right eye are the same dark blue as destiny’s blade, her hair is the same orange as the lighter part of chips tattoos. chip has a dark green sash under all the belts, the same as the hilt of destiny’s blade. they all use the same shades of black, gold, and brown
the only real exception is gillion doesn’t have anything from the other two because he has Such a specific colour palette and he already had so much going on as-is orz jay was obviously the easiest to do this with because she has both warm and cool colours in her palette by default lol (and i did her design last, so that helps)
#.png#jrwi#jrwi riptide#just roll with it#jrwi chip#gillion tidestrider#jay ferin#jrwi spoilers#THEYRE FINALLY DONE zoo wee mama#the lines are thicker on the little armour drawings because i did the sketch thing and then went yk what. good enough. and just coloured tha#also got rid of gills button nose it was too annoying to draw#i’m so used to straight and aquiline noses#another thing that could’ve been unique for him in terms of my character designs#but nah#pls ignore that i drew them all standing on diff planes/angles btw i wasn’t trying very hard w that#weirdly proud of myself for managing to give them all pretty unique profiles#that’s normally something i kinda get stuck on. drawing people from the side#in different ways besides nose shape
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The thing is I want an accurate but GOOD Mansfield Park adaptation so so bad but I don’t trust anyone except for 5 or 6 people on this webbed site in the depths of the undercity of the internet to make it because NO ONE understands Edmund Bertram except for me, the author, and a handful of my beloved mutuals and friends
#no one understands Fanny either but I needed to put in a word for Edmund#he is BOOK SMART he is STREET STUPID he is WELL-INTENTIONED AND GENUINELY GOOD but NOT THE GREATEST AT EXECUTION#the fact that he is PRETTY AND RICH gets him out of a LOT of situations but he doesn’t realize that half the time because he doesn’t VALUE#those things (for better or for worse)#he cares SO MUCH but he’s the middle child being forced to be the parent and so much of that care comes out in his strictness#he is NOT preachy for the sake of being preachy it’s because he GENUINELY CARES and is worried about others’ well-being#the king of delulu yes but NOT delulu enough to get bullied out of his chosen profession or morals#he’s so smart and so dumb and I love him#I’m convinced that people wouldn’t be half so hard on him if he weren’t going into the clergy#(anyway rant inspired by trying to read The Murder of Mr Wickham and Claudia Gray not understanding him or Fanny in the slightest. urghhhh#but what did I expect)#mansfield park#edmund bertram
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