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ropebuny · 1 day ago

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maybe I’m just a weird freak into fauxcest. maybe I want someone to love me unconditionally, meaning that they’d cross any and all boundaries to show me how bad they want me, how badly and desperately they love me. how nothing could ever come between their love for me, and it all plays out in my sexual desires

maybe it’s because I never had any meaningful or caring relationship with either of my parents and was born a single child, forced to hold my own hand through any hardship I ever faced with my parents never being there for me. how I was sexually repressed for all my life due to never having ‘the talk’ with my parents or having them be there when any major events in my life happened and unfolded. maybe that’s why I now so desperately crave to find this parental figure in a romantic partner, to experience the love and safety and security I never did. to feel the parental love and care and adoration I never did. maybe that’s why I’m now unable to let this parental figure fixation go. maybe that’s why I’m so bound on having my romantic partner act as if they were my parent. I want to feel safe and secure and loved unconditionally. I was always so sexually repressed and now as an adult, I can’t help but have sexual urges. I’ve never gotten over how my parents weren’t there for me through my childhood, and how I want to so desperately have another chance at having one. maybe that’s why I am now unable to separate this need for my partner to play out this parental role but to also want to be sexual with me at the same time because they are sexually attracted to me as their partner. I want my partner to act like my parent in a caring and loving way but also in a sexual way. I want to feel completely vulnerable and safe with someone. I want to heal my inner child, and the child I once was who was left to fend for themselves without any parental guidance nearby, but I also want to experience love and sex like the adult I now am, at the same time. maybe I want to be loved and cared for unconditionally and in order to believe that my partner does so seeing them break these immoral boundaries for me in roleplay as undeniable proof, since I struggle so much with believing anyone could ever love me in general, much less unconditionally

#I’m feeling really sad currently #idk who cares about this psychoanalysis jt makes me bust a nut though

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pamouche · 1 year ago

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If I was able to choose, I’d choose you. Because you’ve always been my number one since the start.

- ayan to akk (in the first trailer of THE ECLIPSE)

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saltpepperbeard · 1 year ago

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#EXCUSE THE LITTLE SPIRAL HERE QKDJWJS but I just want to talk it through as a crew #Feeling very very gracious towards David’s lovely message #But also feeling sad #Because I was happy to see him being so quiet and being so secretive #Because to ME that seemed like a good sign that negotiations or some kind of discussions might be taking place #And that there subsequently might be some sort of intense NDA #But now with THIS…#Idk it just feels like we just took so many steps back #Like to me it reads as though there are NO current negotiations #And that we’re actually still just suspended and have BEEN suspended #Which…jakdwjdnwjdwkdk #And no I don’t understand how all of this works so who KNOWS what’s really going on the background #But idk man. Idk.#Not to be such a negative nancy either when I’m usually so energized #But I was just sort of taken aback and wanted to see what yall were thinking too #Things just feel a little more…DIFFICULT again #praying for some hope and ALSO praying that jac makes a thread for additional clarity AKDJWJ

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fangbunny · 7 days ago

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We just want to live.

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“I cannot hide myself in a shell

Empty of all the speckling

that marks me as the “other”

I cannot change something as profound

As the skin that I live in

As the skin that I love in

Because it is an external show

Of everything that I am

In the deepest parts of me

I just want to live

I just want to live”

#I just feel so deeply sad #this is about my current lived experience as a Latino and a queer individual #things feel so hopeless sometimes but I’m trying really hard not to let the despair overcome me #I am trying to find solace in my community #things are scary #poem #vent art #ok to rb

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snowbunnytrick · 10 months ago

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(Not og anon) I agree with separating the art from the artist and pirating music but it seems like you still buy merch/go to shows/like these people genuinely?

well msi has been dead for years so i’m never gonna get to go to one of their shows anyway but i think pete could bring a loaded ak-47 into an all-girls catholic school and go to town and i’d still suck him fat and dirty so when it comes to faII out boy specifically i have to admit that it’s a bit of a moral failing on my part

#no fr i don’t think that pete is currently a genuinely bad person. i think he’s done horrible nasty shit in the past #but i do think he’s not still currently engaged in that lifestyle that he used to thrive in #yeah i joke here. we all joke here. but i do think that pete is not currently a sex abuser and a lot of what he did was informed by #horrible addiction and a refusal to get treatment #if you feel safe in drug abuse and fetishizing your own sadness you will do bad things #he did shitty awful things. i don’t think he’s still doing shitty awful things #and i want him to have a little walking around money #also i don’t think that any of the people i currently listen to are like. Insane #really i’m not married to a lot of artists lol i fucking love the front bottoms and aIex g but they’re good guys #i just listen to a lot of random shit #i did stop listening to swmrs when the Allegations came out mostly just because i was like. too sad #bunnyaskz

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gregmarriage · 11 months ago

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i may know it’s healthy to interact with people and be social, but that doesn’t mean i find it easy in any way

#like i don’t actually mean to isolate myself i just get lost in doing my own thing #which isn’t bad in itself #but then i find myself feeling sad and idk why #bruh you haven’t spoken to your friends in quite a while #if i was a sim my social bar would be red #but i still don’t wanna talk to people sometimes #like i have to physically force myself just to say ‘hey!#everyone pray for gwen’s social life bc it sucks and isn’t really getting any better even tho i’m trying my hardest #i do wanna push myself more and talk to ppl i’ve always wanted to talk to #but my stupid brain won’t let me #i’m trying to push past it though #it would be nice to make new friends that i then neglect bc i’m bad at friendship #idk maybe that isn’t fair #but i still wouldn’t say i’m great at it #idk i just feel dumb for begging people to talk to me #or even just sending messages to new people #or even my friends who i know won’t judge me but still #idk i’m still sensitive after my episode and i just feel embarrassing and annoying and like i’m bugging people #and i believe them when they say i’m not but it doesn’t stop completely me from feeling that way #literally ‘hey’ feels like i just pissed on the floor in front of them #like god! way to be annoying gwen!!#yes i know it’s my brain talking but literally i use up so much energy trying not to feel it #and so much letting myself feel it #and i only have so much energy as it is #not that it matters #bc most ppl don’t care as long as i check in sometimes #but again i repeat my earlier statement #don’t wanna check in i feel cringe #need friends and communication but cannot maintain them #like the 100th post i’ve made but it’s what my thoughts are currently

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doodleduck · 1 year ago

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I miss the dsmp era so bad. I know it’s not “dead” completely cause the fandom keeps it alive. But god do I grieve as if a living breathing thing died.

#I’ve been sad and it’s 1am currently and I just really fucking miss it and how I felt during it #idk I’m really tired and no other fandom has made me feel like tjis before #goodnight.

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jaeyunverse · 2 years ago

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only 6 more days for 12th grade to officially finish and my exams to be over. perhaps jaeyunverse comeback with a long fic ????? 😳

#first order of business will be to finish that damn jeno fic #then i will work on one of the valentine’s event fics who’s masterlist i posted Last Year 💀#i will prob make a poll for that bc idk which one to write 😭 i have 4k for the heeseung one but i’m STUCK #i have 4k for the halloween special fic i started in 2021 ummmmm maybe i’ll buckle down on it too #THE ALICE IN BORDERLAND AU???? i have the entire plot but it is going to be So Long i just know it.#i hope i can finish my current wips before any other long fic ideas come to me 😭#i have to finish the stupid headcanon series too what was i thinking when i started it #IM TERRIBLE AT HEADCANONS #fffff i only have a few weeks of peace after boards 😭 i have to start grinding for my other exam in june once april starts #i hope i can be more active on this account and actually get some writing done bc ngl i have sm plans for the small vacation i’m getting #but i wanna be delusional too 🫡#also i have so many unfinished projects here sometimes i feel like abandoning this account completely #and this place is lowkey dead in terms of activity ngl 💀 i will have try to revive it #but then i remember that i put effort into building this blog so seeing it go to waste would be sad #plus i Really do not want to repost my fics for a third time ppl will call me crazy

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cherrydippedkisses · 2 years ago

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it will never be the same

constantly picking my own self up.

constantly nurturing my own soul. forcing myself to take of my mortal body, no matter how much I wish to bicker with my own self.

when will someone else take care of me? when will someone rather than myself make sure I’m okay?

nights are tedious, while I long for my mothers’ touch once more. oh mother, please hold me like you used to. please don’t look at me with disgust. I am your daughter. I am your flesh and blood. please hold me close. tell me you’re proud.

I’m hardly hanging on to this mortal being. seems nearly hopeless to even make sure I’m okay at the end of each day. I hardly care, why should anyone else? clinging onto nostalgia is going to bury me alive.

#my words #in a really bad headspace currently #gonna start writing my feelings down #will probably work on this more I’m so sad

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restricted-access · 7 months ago

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in my macro freak era & constantly torn between “i don’t have caffeine after noon!/try not to have after 10am!” and wanting to drown in celsius/gfuel every day for the appetite suppressant

#(gripping my leg violently) just because you lost 30lbs in two weeks once by grossly overconsuming caffeine doesn’t mean it’s sustainable. j #sleep is so so so important for weight loss & im not in a super harsh deficit just yet #(i’m working my way down slowly (hard limit 2k -> 1.5k -> currently like 1.3k w/ strength training & cardio)#and it def feels more sustainable than how i’ve approached this in the past (see above)#and Shocker! I have Energy!) but results being /so/ much slower is a little sad #and cutting down on caffeine throughout the day means you have to eat more consistently throughout the day #for energy n whatnot #but tbh that’s not really a bad thing? bc eating Nothing kills your metabolism #Bad! Stunts progress!#but Augh it’s a hard hurtle to get over sometimes #and Also because of this i don’t think i can really get away with under 1250ish a day without being literally bedridden #(i have. some kind of problem & experience some level of chronic fatigue :/ )#which is why i’m kinda focusing on working out as well #i don’t rlly wanna be muscle-y at all but more muscle mass = easier to burn calories/fat. fun fact!#so like. means to an end ig #sigh #i do miss early afternoon caffeine sometimes but i’ve def gotten to a point where i don’t usually feel like i need it #i drink a cup of black coffee & green tea in the morning and eat a few eggs n im good to go #anyway. hi chat #pro for me not for thee #not ed sheeran #notpro

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trivial0ve · 2 years ago

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you know what they say about you never forget your first love? yeah bts is my first love that I’ll never forget

#honestly feeling pretty sad and reminiscing of the times I used to be so involved in kpop specifically bts #i grew up listening to their songs and I found comfort in them and armys #I got into their music when I was only 14 and I’m now 24 #I graduated high school and college in that span of time and I’ve learned and grown a lot since then #and although I’m not into bts like that angmkre watching bangbangcon is a bittersweet reminder of how much happiness I found in them #and their music #sigh #things will never be the same tbh and that’s ok #as of now I’m currently getting into Kpop again after taking a 4 year break in that time I discovered and listened to new artists #one memorable one is joji #recently I went to a txt concert on a whim bc I really wanted to experience a kpop concert #funny enough you never stop being a kpop Stan and that concert woke my old self up lmao #I guess you can call me a yeonjun Stan now #I miss bts 😔

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redflannelsheets · 1 year ago

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One day I hope I’ll love someone who doesn’t want to hide me in a dark crevice away from their “real” life where I can’t make them look bad to their family and friends. One day I hope I’ll love someone who knows what I want to eat when my tummy feels grumbly or wants to cook me a meal because I’m precious to them and they want to take care of me. One day I hope I’ll love someone who actually wants to cuddle me on cold days instead of wearing jeans and shoes until bedtime and putting all sorts of devices between me and them. One day I hope I’ll love someone who wants to love me back instead of hurling me away like trash. One day I hope I’ll love someone who doesn’t seem to see me as just part of the furniture.

One day.