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gregmarriage · 11 months ago

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i may know it’s healthy to interact with people and be social, but that doesn’t mean i find it easy in any way

#like i don’t actually mean to isolate myself i just get lost in doing my own thing #which isn’t bad in itself #but then i find myself feeling sad and idk why #bruh you haven’t spoken to your friends in quite a while #if i was a sim my social bar would be red #but i still don’t wanna talk to people sometimes #like i have to physically force myself just to say ‘hey!#everyone pray for gwen’s social life bc it sucks and isn’t really getting any better even tho i’m trying my hardest #i do wanna push myself more and talk to ppl i’ve always wanted to talk to #but my stupid brain won’t let me #i’m trying to push past it though #it would be nice to make new friends that i then neglect bc i’m bad at friendship #idk maybe that isn’t fair #but i still wouldn’t say i’m great at it #idk i just feel dumb for begging people to talk to me #or even just sending messages to new people #or even my friends who i know won’t judge me but still #idk i’m still sensitive after my episode and i just feel embarrassing and annoying and like i’m bugging people #and i believe them when they say i’m not but it doesn’t stop completely me from feeling that way #literally ‘hey’ feels like i just pissed on the floor in front of them #like god! way to be annoying gwen!!#yes i know it’s my brain talking but literally i use up so much energy trying not to feel it #and so much letting myself feel it #and i only have so much energy as it is #not that it matters #bc most ppl don’t care as long as i check in sometimes #but again i repeat my earlier statement #don’t wanna check in i feel cringe #need friends and communication but cannot maintain them #like the 100th post i’ve made but it’s what my thoughts are currently

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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a tribute to celebrate the finale of the manga that has meant so much to me these past few years

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #yuji itadori #gojo satoru #fushiguro megumi #nobara kugisaki #nanami kento #ryomen sukuna #toji fushiguro #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 271 #i would tag everyone but ik the most frequented tags in this fandom smh ghsdhfgdfjs #THSI KILLED ME #3 DAYS #IM DEAD DECEASED IN THE GROUND #i knew the minute i drafted the sketch that i would hate myself for it and yeah i was right #but honestly it was worth it it was worth every single hour #i got . lowkey highkey emotional wrapping this up bc like. what a RIDE it's been #ive grown so much since starting drawing fr this series i owe it a lot im so grateful to the things its taught me abt how i like to create #im so grateful fr the people its let me meet #ik it's not over-over and ill be around while the anime catches up but still something abt the manga ending #i'm sentimental u kno?#so i hope that i was able to convey those feelings #to jjk and to every1 who has engaged with my art for it: thank u <3

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lazylittledragon · 6 months ago

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i'm in one of those phases where i really wish i believed in manifesting and spellcasting and things like that bc you know when you want something so bad you're literally praying for the universe to let it happen

#ramble #this is not me judging by the way i think it's cool as fuck i just don't do it personally #context: a lot of my 'dream jobs' are now just 'ways to make money that i might not absolutely hate'#but i have one (1) legit dream job and it's literally FINGERTIPS away from me right now #i feel like most people who know me can guess what it is and know how badly i want it #i'm not even letting myself daydream about it or talk about it too much because i'm so afraid of not getting it and being disappointed #and also i don't want to like. jinx it #i've tried so many times before but this is the closest i've ever been and i feel SICK i want to bite something

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 29 days ago

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Happy Birthday to Fallen London; My favourite British people beefing it with bats simulator.

#fallen london #ambition: nemesis #mr.cups #Happy belated birthday to me: I finished my Nemesis ambition. I get to make a fun comic about it. THAT WAS THE DEAL!!!#...Is what I would have said had I not spent *four* days trying to draw a cool dramatic comic. This is all I have to show for it.#I also missed posting this on the Flondon anniversary so I'm double Smad and frustippointed at myself.#This is niche content but I know there are flondoners following me who will understand.#I had to make a second account because all my friends who I played with *also* picked Nemesis and dropped the game at various gates.#I failed every possible check at Knifegate. I was on the verge of madness. And yet I still love this game.#Little known secret about me: over 70% of the blogs I follow on tumblr are flondon rp blogs.#The cool art and character lore brings me a lot of joy!#With that said; what the hell is the coincidence that right as I finish Nemesis -#The flondon community starts a Nemesis Race.#Guys. it’s not worth it. It is a revenge quest about losing everything you have to see your task through.#All to culminate in the discovering that you are beefing it with a fanfiction writing bat.#That said; I do feel like this story was very satisfying for my melancholic doctor.#I knew I would get the choice between sparing or killing my nemesis (the bat) and I had a long time to think it through.#Someone who wants to save lives and (does as much as possible to do make things better for others) choosing against mercy?#Someone who never permitted themselves to let the city truly become a home because they were not a person - they were a tool for grief.#Alright..Yeah the ending was really good.#I will be back with a part two. Clearly I'm tenacious enough to commit to what I started.#If I am not excommunicated on sight by the flondon community I will be back with comics for the other ambitions.

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keferon · 4 months ago

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YOU KNOW WHAT. I WANT EARTHSPARK PROWL AND BEE TO BE LIKE THIS

AND THIS

Some of the images are taken from this analysis btw it's great

#maccadam #prowl #bumblebee #make them friends #make them brothers or something #make them found family🔫#or I will make it happen myself #Prowl is a great sweet guy? Nice! Now let him be friends with Bee #Prowl is complicated and difficult to understand? Cool. You know what to do #tfe Bee and IDW Bee treated differently though. IDW Bee treated like an adult while Tfe Bee is kind of...idk. He feels much younger #so maybe I can headcanon him as Prowls chaotic little brother hehe

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poxxxum · 5 months ago

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So I got obsessed w a certain song for a short period there....

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ipostmysimpingstuffanonymously · 1 year ago

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They both lost their team and their teacher....

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kylejsugarman · 11 months ago

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gus is so cracked. he really came up to mike during breaking bad and was like "it is better to have pinkman on our side. its ur job now to make sure he doesnt kill himself. i know that the last time we tried to do this with nacho he killed himself, so lets try to avoid that. remember that?? how nacho shot himself in the head?? we should not repeat that mistake. make sure jesse does not shoot himself in the head. here is ur paycheck for this quarter. okay, goodbye."

#syd squeaks #season 4 of brba makes me want to yellow wallpaper myself.#i just have to know more. we know that mike started to actually develop legit fondness for jesse but like. what more did he know #what more did he feel. jesse was actually on the ledge for so long. how much did mike know abt that. more than he let on??#what would he have done if it happened again. if this business took another one. if history repeated itself #breaking bad #better call saul #bcs #mike ehrmantraut #gus fring

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angelmush · 4 days ago

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magenta smoothie 4 breakfast, vibrant vase of tulips 4 my gf, black dragon dog 4 sharing the couch with, and a big stack of notebooks 4 writing

#i love my life <333 #how’s everyone’s morning going?#trying to Take Care in the midst of this nightmare that is the united states #the grief is never ending !!!!!!!!#but i am trying very very very hard not to let despair win #and so i made a smoothie #w lots and lots of mango and pineapple and a couple huge sweet cherries #and i’m tucking myself away to write and knit for the day without expectation #i’m not even dressed yet and it’s almost 9:30 #i got sleep like real sleep for the first time in a week last night too #and so i’m feeling a little better abt resting so much #the ptsd has been pretty rough recently #in that way where i’m replaying my worst memories on a screen in my head and can’t stop it #it demands my attention unless i’m watching tv and knitting and reading all at once LOL #like turning everything off and facing it while lying down trying to sleep is . harrowing #it’s awful #BUT i knocked myself out w sleep meds last night and woke up feeling a lot more capable of regulating after a week of staying up until 4:30 #so #i’d say things are on the up and up #we got a pretty little silver dusting of new snow again last night #and the SUN is out!!!!#big blue sky #no thick gray cloud blanket to speak of #anyway if you read all this for some reason #tell me how your morning has been #in my comments or dms or asks #i’d really love to know :)#love you!!#personal

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flowing-between-space · 2 months ago

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#ohhh my god the way my cock feels right now #I haven’t smoked all day and got myself sooo worked up before finally getting high and oh my goddddd the way this feels is incredible #if you haven’t gotten high yet today I highly suggest teasing your pussy and getting drenched first before you do it #your pussy is going to feel sooooo much fucking better after you get high #it’s so fun trust me #let me know if you do 😋

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heycallmeplease · 8 months ago

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Sylvia Plath

#You told me I feel too much #That i let myself unravel so easily #That there's no way I let myself have fun #But Darlin have you seen yourself the way I see you #Such petite beauty in one soul #That elegance and grace that you were made with #Have you known yourself that way i do #How i could not #When you're so divine beloved #When I burn for you #When I close my eyes and it's only you that I see #So utterly gorgeous #I feel too much #I know #And it scares me how empty I was before i loved you #It feels as if there was no life before I met you #No light before you #Just void

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koushuwu · 8 months ago

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TOGAME JO ↳ for @feitanporter happy birthday my love <3

#togame jo #jo togame #wind breaker #windbreakeredit #» gifs #animangahive #anisource #allanimanga #dailyanimatedgifs #fyanimegifs #dailyanime #animangaboys #useradrienne #usericybtch #userrashed #hello my beloved #my most wonderful darling #happiest of happy birthdays to youuuuuu <3 #i would like to let it be known that i really truly love you #we’ve talked about it more than once that what the two of us have is special #and it is #the way that i can shed my armor when i’m with you and never feel anxious in doing so is truly magical #i know i don’t have much of a filter in general and i talk about a lot of stuff with a lot of people #but the anxiety is still there #but not with you #with you i can truly and fully be myself without the anxiety and if that isn’t special i don’t know what is #thank you for everything that you have done for me through the years we’ve known each other #thank you for being my person #and thank you for loving me #happy birthday my love <3

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lemongogo · 2 years ago

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sry i dont know what 2 draw anymore T_T . elendira portrait #999

#trigun #trigun maximum #elendira #elendira the crimsonnail #my art #im sure u can see it but ive been so uninspired w art lately T_T #ive tried to remedy it by just looking and observing. breaking down other works that i want 2 take direction from #but i tjknk its like . just jamming ME UPPP #and now im tjinking Too much ab it and psyching myself out #help me sorry i blow up the tags on every drawing i post ab my art struggles😭😭#its like im whispering in here thouggh. just talking 2 myself and no one has 2 know except the ppl dealing w the same feelings #HAJAHA #anyways. i drew this just to say i finally drew smth agajn and im just going to be ok w it #like sure its not exciting but i like the colors and that shld be enough . OK !!!!#smth smth saw a post that talked ab how u get too in ur Head about this and then u dont share stuff and it becomes cyclical #and youll never get anywhere unless u just throw ur hands in the air and let it Be .#creating 4 the sake of creating . love and joy in sharing what we made and what we like #YAAAY #and bc i love elendira so much.. my go to girlie 4 art block #i need to draw her in fight scenes . i need 2 make art of her like sweaty and bloody yah . clenching my fist #maybe a livio fight scene bc i love it so much T_T

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eky11 · 7 months ago

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He's electric ⚡

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 month ago

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Another year has passed, and with it the opportunity to reflect back on all that has happened. While my growth was not as dramatic as last year, I can still see lots of positive change.

I'll never have enough ways to say thank you for all the love and support you have given me this year. On to 2025!

(2023 summary here!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #art summary #Since last year's independent variable was PD-WWX; this year I used Lan Wangji.#Unfortunately his appearances were not very evenly distributed this year! Lots of LWJ's early in the year #then a dead period in the middle. He is forever my silly rabbit. I love drawing him!#If I have to put a label on this year; I'd describe it as 'experimental'. I pushed myself to do llots of new things!#I drew lots for dungeon meshi and that really boosted my growth. More body types -clothing details - expressions!#Ryoko Kui is a great artist to learn from and It made me realize that I had a lot to gain from doing more studies.#I also started working on a whole new genre of art! While it has taken a backburner spot - I'm working on a game now!#Digital art was my enemy last year but I have been getting a feel for it now.#Goals for this year is to 1) keep working on my personal projects 2) finish PD-MDZS! and 3) practice animation!#I didn't (couldn't) draw as much as I did last year...but I had to take a lesson in humility and taking care of myself.#Drawing is something I do 'for fun' but there were many times it became more stressful than it should.#I'm still learning how to find and maintain balance with everything life throws at me.#We are all works of progress and I am trying very hard to love the process and the journey! I don't really know my destination!#But I will keep taking steps forwards. I never want to be stuck and lost as I once was.#If 2024 was a rough year for you too; We're in this together. Let's keep taking steps together. No matter how small.#Love you all so very much. You've given me strength on the darkest days. Thank you thank you thank you.

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imerian · 3 months ago

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Vr46 academy keychains

Set of five charms that all match in different ways

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Open for detailed pictures of each one

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I ran out of tags so I'll say it here but i would greatly appreciate a reblog, especially if you share your thoughts on these pieces in tags (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

(Also i forgot that bez have matching part with luca so I didn’t add that to tags sorry

#motogp #marco bezzecchi #pecco bagnaia #valentino rossi #celestino vietti #luca marini #mb72 #fb63 #vr46 #cv13 #lm10 #vr46 academy #okay so i fear tags won't be enough for me this time but I'll try tell everything anyway #firstly i used nicknames (should have used maro but didn't think at the time) for everyone because it brings more of a family feeling than #when i do initials and that's exactly what i wanted with them. on the same note the wolves #the wolves were tge first thing that started this idea because i wanted to make bez charm and picked one up and then it expanded very fast #because let's all face it - they are basically a wolf pack and it's extremely fitting. also after taking these pictures i found mettalic on #for cele. and it's a huge slay because i really don't like mismatching colours of metal #probably the only one that i did mismatch is vale but amazingly it looks pretty neat. i also put as many turtles as i physically could #also except for wolves he also has matching beads with cele and luca if you can spot them #while cele matches luca and bez #bez matches cele and pecco while pecco matches only bez. it was quite a challenge to find beads that would suit their different #colour schemes while looking organic in keychains #also for bez i used a wrench bc of his family and i think that's pretty neat detail #it was absolute mindfuck to find beads for five different keychains at the same time because of how different they all are but i tried #also put a lot of effort into not repeating myself as much as j could in structures so they all have their own personalities outside of set #also i love that “bez” part looks like fangs icl #if you see bead that stands out by colour from all others in keychain it's probably for their eye colour because i love to add that too #also used old bez livery because what we had this year was horrible #actually i made it some time ago just never had time to post

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