#I’m already grieving
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“UNHAND MY MEN THEY ARE INNOCENT!!!!!” i whispered internally as i sank to my knees and reached for their belt buckles
#i’m already grieving a fluffy valentine’s day card guys i can’t lie to you :(#BUT ZAYUMMMMMM my two mains with wolf cuts??? i’m hardly giving a fuck#love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#love and deepspace xavier#love & deepspace#lads#lnds#l&ds#sylus#xavier
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toa spoiler??? this but valgrace
#pjo#pjo hoo#valgrace#tropes#jason grace#leo valdez#if I don’t read toa does he rlly die??#haven’t even gotten there yet and I’m already grieving#leo x jason#trials of apollo
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“You okay Darius?”
This is the scene I was talking about in my previous post btw. A good chunk of JP fans I’ve seen think of it as really silly.
Music used in the BG: Jurassic Park 3 Soundtrack: Plane Ride/Alan’s Nightmare. At around the 1:30 mark
Transcript undercut
Transcript:
[Darius relaxing in the passenger seat of Ben’s van. Large footsteps approach causing the Dino ornament on the rear view mirror to bounce. Darius looks in the rear view mirror to see a glimpse of something]
[Darius turns to the driver side to see he’s alone]
Darius: Ben?!
[The footsteps stop and a shadow falls on the passenger window. Darius turns round in his seat and is met with an Allosaurus]
Allosaurus, in Brooklynn’s voice: Darius.
[Darius is frozen as the van disappears from under him, leaving him on the ground. Defenseless]
Allosaurus, still in Brooklynn’s voice: You said you’d be here.
[Darius unable to speak, sits in terror at the theropod circling him. Until the Allosaurus roars, mixed with Brooklynn’s screams, lunging at him. Darius throws his hands up in a useless effort to protect himself.]
Unknown Voice: Darius!
[Darius is shaken away by Ben, who is keeping his eyes on the road while driving. The grip on his shoulder is firm and almost painful, but grounds him from his night terror.]
Ben: You good, bud? You were having a bad dream.
[The screen changes to black with text meant to be read as Darius]
Darius, off screen: Yea… I’ll be fine.
#chaos theory#jurassic world chaos theory#chaos theory spoilers#jurassic world chaos theory spoilers#jwct spoilers#Other artists: *drawing sad grieving Darius and the other camp fam*#Me making this: I’m about to be hilarious#Darius my beloved son. You are so traumatized. Where’s your therapist?#I had to trace the allosaurus skull I drew for my Yoshiki drawing for one of the frames lol#I loved JP3 as a kid. So of course I had thought of a dream scene for Darius. Like he hasn’t suffered enough already#I DIDNT REALIZE HOW MEAN THIS WAS UNTIL I GOT THE AUDIO PART. WTF AM I TRYING MAKE MYSELF CRY????#INFLICTING DAMAGE ON MYSELF PSYCHOLOGICALLY WITH THIS DAMN.#AL’s scribblings of Nublar
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I went to go read one of my favorite persons work. Js found out they deactivated. I WANT TO KNOW HER LAST WORDDD BEFORE DEACTIVATING IM DEVASTATED, HER WORK WAS ANAZING AND STUNNIGN I LOVED EVERYTHING SHE WROTE FROM BEGGINGING TIMO ENDND i LOVED REREADING HER WORK SM BROO SHE NEVER FAILED TI MAKE THE CHARACRRS WHO THEY ARE UGH IN SO SO SAD
#˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚#I’m grieving.#I loved her dadizuku headcannons and all her work#gglitch1dd was her name if yall kno her#HER WORKS WERER ARTTTTTTTT TRUST#I reccomented her if yall find her ever again🙁#I miss her already#she was the only person who’s work I would REREAD and fully enjoy
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if i see any more Chloe hate i’m going to fucking explode. i’m not even kidding this makes me physically ill i’m going to create a fucking uQuiz about Chloe Price’s character and if you get a bad score you officially do not understand her character and has no right to talk about her whatsoever because you cannot just……say shit like « yeah duh of course i chose Arcadia Bay over her she was so dramatic and annoying and so mean omg 🙄🙄🙄 » i’m coming for you. like you can chose Arcadia Bay it’s a choice based game but if you did it because ‘Chloe was such a meanie 😓’ OH MY GOD. i’m. aidiaoisoz. can someone plz stop me i’m going to jump off a roof /j
#life is strange#lis#chloe price#that was random but i needed to have this out i hate how this fandom treats their characters sometimes#the ppl who don’t get a character are the ppl who talk abt them the most like??? stfu???#but chloe price is a young woman OF COURSE she’d get shamed for having feelings#like leave her alone my girl had every right to be angry and she could’ve been way angrier but she wasn’t what more do you want???#like. her dad died. her best friend left her. her mom married some guy who was physically and verbally abusive.#ppl were treating her like she was overdramatic when she was just. grieving.#and the only person who understood her (rachel) had been missing for six months already at the beginning of the game#like. DO YOU WANT HER TO BE FUCKING OVERJOYED???????#i’m genuinely going insane over this#chloe price get behind me
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tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things
#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao#feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy#danbles#and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth#or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities#or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to#or whatever else#i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy#I’M certainly not going to#but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer#and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc)#i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where#i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything#but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on#it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way#idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences#even negative ones are valuable to me#but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem#maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem#fuuck guys i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀
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Y’all telling me that Stranger Things has a whole plot line set in Russia, and that in Russia yellow flowers represent sadness, dishonesty and when given to a partner an inevitable breakup?!?!?!?💀
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#yellow flowers are most commonly associated with joy#and together with the russian symbolism it underlines that mike is only pretending to be happy here#and i’m fairly certain that the big yellow flowers are either:#1: black-eyed susans which represent justice and are apparently great gifts to express sympathy for someone who’s grieving😀#or 2: coneflowers which represent good health and are perfect gifts for someone who is recovering from a health issue 💀#plus there are also craspedias included which also represent good health#so mike literally gifted el a get-well-soon bouquet that not only reflects that he’s being dishonest in this scene#but also foreshadowed the melvin fight + that they’ll inevitably break up#milkvan is bones but we already knew that#anti melvin#byler
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What will it look like without you?
My sweet beloved hound
Your handmade collar
Bright blue stones that danced when you ran
Empty on the bookshelf
A candle lit for you, perhaps
A flickering flame, never warm enough
Next to my childhood dog’s collar
Empty on the bookshelf
I’ll have to buy another few frames
Your photos to fill them with memories
Empty on the bookshelf
But you’re still here
But you’ll be gone
And all I have will be empty
When your warmth is gone
When you’re gone
All I’ll have is memories
Empty on the bookshelf
#I guess I’m already in the grieving process and writing poetry so that’s fun#he’s snoring softly in his bed#I’ll miss him#so much#god damn it fuck this fuck cancer#Mozart noodle#poetry attempt
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AND TUMBLR FLAGGED 2 OF MY POSTS???!!! Leave me aloneeeeeeee :(
#not now tumblr! I’m already grieving!!!!#y does the internet hate me!!!!!#sigh#y do I even bother :/
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Fnaf au where William figures out how to actually resurrect cc and then the aftons just have to live with that— not only is cc undead now but dad is freaking victor Frankenstein !! (like, literally, I imagine William discovered how to harvest remnant from recently deceased corpses rather then killing anyone himself, thus the mci doesn’t happen and Charlie doesn’t die either)
They just have to pretend this is normal and fine
#I imagine it’s especially awful for cc and Micheal I mean#think about how odd that is for cc#most of him are the original parts but many internal organs had to be replaced#the parts that become unusable quicker..#he looks the same on the outside but he knows the difference. he knows something is very different#furthermore he wouldn’t age normally#if he ever wanted to look older he’d have to add new parts.. new bones and skin#and I imagine that’s a disturbing prospect for him so he’d avoid it at all cost#trapped in an unageing body for presumably eternity#and then theirs Micheal#while the whole family grieved Michael’s grief was in tandem with guilt#he killed his brother- it’s his fault this happened#but then he just.. came back.. as if it didn’t happen? how is Micheal supposed to be ok with that#how can you ever reverse the death of someone in your mind when you’ve already lived the grief?#I wonder how this would effect Williams relationship with his family#Clara I’m sure would be upset with him for not telling her#like he was digging up corpses and experimenting with forces beyond human comprehension#and he didn’t think for even a second “maybe I should tell my wife??”#she’s worried she’s not getting the full story- that’s it’s worse then he’s telling her#and I think Williams relationship with his kids would change too#Elizabeth could go either way but maybe she’d side with him#she in her naivety would believe that it’s a good thing#cc is alive! isn’t that what matters? didn’t you miss him? aren’t you happy he’s back?#I’m gonna cap this here#I’ve been going on too long
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I swear to fuckin god, if I hear that any fans or paps that are showing up to Liam’s funeral to try and get a picture of the boys or any of the mourners, I will be kicking somebody’s ass
#I’m not fucking around#this whole thing is already so messed up#I’m grieving my childhood and the memories we shared with the boys and seeing them succeed#I also don’t wanna see anyone bullying any of the victims that spoke out against liam#he wasn’t being a good person towards the end but I know he was struggling as well but it’s not an excuse either way!#i hate this#liam payne#1d#one direction
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LIKE YEAH I GET IT. I GET WHY THEY CALLED HIM THAT. BORDERLINE GENIUS OKAY ?!????? BUT…. I’m so used to fellow honest…….
#check back in in 1 hour I will be calling him Ernesto probably#I’m just mourning. give me time to grieve and I’ll accept it#Gino has already grown on me I actually like it#💛!me talking💀
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if it’s gotten to the fucking point that the Ministry of Education has to announce that “the school year is cancelled” for part of Gaza because all its students have been murdered, humanity has failed, failed at everything— flat out, point blank, and unequivocally failed.
#I will not pretend that I’ve known the extent of the situation up until now#I feel I’ve been out of touch with true reality and have only now been catching up#and my heart and mind will never fully be able to comprehend why and how and WHY this is happening#but GOD these children#I once worked with Syrian youth who had come to Canada with their families#to hear their pain and listen to their cries— I still don’t sleep well at night. I hear them all the time.#now children are writing their names on their bodies so they can be IDENTIFIED.#humanity has failed; this is NOT humanity.#it’s just so insane and unbelievable and just simply UNFATHOMABLE that this is going on#LET ALONE FOR OVER 17 YEARS.#to hear my friends and coworkers cry over their lost friends and family members#to have to hold them for THIS REASON.#I have never been a praying person in my life but I am believing in any and every god for the people of Palestine.#I will not believe that choosing to pray does nothing.#because while those beautiful people keep praying I will keep praying.#and it’s not even corny to say that I’m praying for that bright break in the clouds#for the sun to shine upon them SOON AND QUICKLY.#for my friends and my coworkers and my neighbours who grieve and mourn but still pray for an end.#hugging and kissing and holding everyone very tightly from where I am. because I can do little else than I already am.#palestine#free palestine#free gaza#✦ nc vb.#cw murder
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god the hits really don’t stop fucking coming do they.
#genuinely cannot take much more of this#i hit my limit about 4 weeks ago#and it just won’t fucking stop#coming up on six weeks of having varying levels of Horrors(tm) happening to me on a weekly basis#and sometimes multiple Horrors(tm) in a week#lost my job#my cat died#had an asbestos scare#my partner’s cat almost died#he had to have emergency surgery#and then when he came home had to go straight back to the emergency vet to have emergency surgery a second time bc they fucked up#had a huge fight with my partner bc oh yeah this whole time we’ve also been moving!!!#but there was some stupidly unnecessary drama around the security deposit/getting the old house clean#and this whole time while grieving and losing my income and all of this shit I am also still a disabled/chronically ill person#so I’m forcing my body to keep working through increasingly instense flare ups#on top of all of this we have a houseguest who has vastly overstayed their welcome.#they’ve been here for SIX WEEKS and are showing no signs of going home#so much shit has happened in the past six weeks that I don’t even know if I’m remembering all of it here in these tags#and now. I have been denied for unemployment and received a notice that I have to pay back what they already paid me#bc i ‘missed the deadline to verify my identity’#except they NEVER SENT ME THE IDENTITY VERIFICATION LETTER#I’ve been keeping an eye out for it and I’ve kept every letter I’ve received from them#nothing has the verification password.#I filed an appeal but the confirmation page said it could take weeks to get a hearing#so what the fuck am I supposed to do in the meantime#i wish I were fucking dead to be honest#that would be preferable to the last six weeks
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I can’t wait to have to go back 4 days
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So far my experience reading North and South is 80% loving the descriptions, the characters, Mr. Thorton’s smile, the array of discussions set against such a bleak backdrop
And 20% is me yelling “yes, ok, we GET IT. EVERYONE LOVES FREDERICK OK.”
#Margaret: I’m grieving so badly I feel like I was just beginning to know my mother#Mrs. Hale up until her death: my boy. my sweet child. he’s never done a bad thing in his life. maligned by everyone. he’s a good good man.#a great man even. he was so sweet and beautiful and precious as a baby. I love him so much I miss him I want him here.#I don’t care if it’s worth his life I need my good pure precious handsome brilliant son.#also Margaret you were an ugly child.#(don’t get me started on Dixon. but even Thornton is like ‘alas who is that SUPER ATTRACTIVE MAN Miss Hale is standing with’#so far Fred’s only flaw is being Roman Catholic#and they’ve already got Mr. Hale the dissenter so#2023 reading list#North and South#Elizabeth Gaskell
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