#I’M THE ELDEST BOY

[thatsacriticaldump]

What if they do a mighty nein one shot where it follows what happened to Beau and Caleb after the apogee solstice

[evercornelias]

i love not having a lick of business sense so that i can confidently say that kendall roy should’ve been ceo of waystar royco

[lifesucksheres20bucks]

These spot the difference games are getting harder

[idontmindifuforgetme]

Just a girl who wants to be her mother’s daughter in the ways that matter

[doublel27]

I know how deep we are in the Phum and Fang trauma train.

But it’s so horrifying when you consider Beer put Phum at like 4-5 if I remember correctly.

Which means at the oldest they were when Phum got sent away, they were 5 and 6 respectively.

Six is so young. And it was a six-year old Fang that made relentless international phone calls when his brother was sent away. It was a six-year old Fang that was trapped in that giant house alone, because of how focused on the business his parents were, listing to his brother cry in the middle of the night. And you can only think that he probably tried to convince his parents that Phum could stay, that he could take care of him.

According to Beer, they were inseparable before Phum was sent away. And they’re only a year or so apart, Fang has no memories that pre-date Phum’s existence at this point.

Which leaves me with how traumatic it is for your best friend, your constant companion to be ripped from you or you from them, and just trying to hold on to each other across the distance and time. And you would think, as an adult with the best intentions, that best case scenario is they sent Phum away theoretically because they were busy and that way Fang wouldn’t be responsible for him, but Fang still remained responsible for Phum with the distance between them. Fang promising both of them that everything would be alright when Phum came home.

But it wasn’t alright. And Fang spent the last 7-10 years trying to fix the things that are broken and Phum has spent the last 15 years trying to figure out why he’s not enough.

And then the line that killed me was Fang asking Tan not to just disappear on him. If Fang wasn’t enough, to tell him straight, instead of disappearing into the ether. And while Tan reassured Fang how madly in love he is and how he’d never be the one to break up with Fang, my mind flipped back to episode 2, where Fang looks at Tan and observes that Tan isn’t dead. And Tan responded with you haven’t been around either.

And we can assume it’s because neither of them knew what to do with their feelings unsure of how the other one felt…but Fang has already felt Tan disappeared on him once and I…remain not okay.

I need to continue the TanFang fic I started last week that meditated on this particular thought of Fang’s psyche and that line from ep 2.

[naytrate]

I keep seeing edits of Luke being their mother’s favorite and now I can’t stop imagining / hyper fixating on Jace just being a depressed fuck.

Everyone seems to think he’s well adjusted, oh he’s doing his duty as heir, very good at shutting down idiots at the small council, debating with his uncle about future plans and whatnot, the commoners absolutely love him! And don’t forget how devoted he is to his family! Everyone can see he’s making time for his little siblings, making sure they’re alright, that they’re well and loved and cared for. The perfect heir indeed!

But then if you look closely at his eyes all you see is a LACK of will to live. He just smiles so disarmingly, so very dutiful and charismatic, so loving to his family, and yet all he can think about is when the pain will stop.

[shieldmaiden19]

The Bridgerton boys really are all hoes.

Anthony - the ‘so intense it makes him stupid’ hoe

Benedict - the ‘hoe for a good cause’

Colin - the ‘self-absorbed, dumb of ass’ hoe

[yuwuta]

every time i show signs of being hyper independent i look at my list of faves and sigh like. it’s so predictable

[sskinlikepuffpastry]

while i do agree that saying rhaenyra’s inheritance is rightfully hers based on the fact that her daddy said so is incredibly weak and very much entitled of her (i can literally talk about this at length) it’s also a weak take to say she isn’t the rightful heir because of *checks notes* ah, misogyny. like, come on.

[ssecond-hand-faith]

Alex isn’t a fan of being touched without warning

[casterlypriderock]

people are still so unwell (derogatory) about sansa stark it’s getting embarrassing

[senatortedcruz]

Nothing fires me up quite like my juniors outpacing me

[f1inl3ey]

I feel like before Vance got kidnapped he wouldn’t really stand up to his dad because he’s scared so his mum cuts his dad off for Vance but after he makes it out of the basement alive he’s just out to make his dad think of him every second of every day while he crumbles under the guilt of being a shitty dad to Vance.

[skyward-floored]

mmmmmmmmmmm

what LU boy would you be?

...probably Twilight, not gonna lie

Let’s see; eldest* sibling, pretty good with animals and animal lover, my favorite time of day is dusk/twilight, and I can get angsty at times... all we’re missing is the broken heart and the wound in the stomach that won’t heal!

[reesiereads]

I’ve noticed that my favorite characters of any fandom always fall into 3 different types of blorbo.

The Relatable Blorbo: The one that I personally relate to the most, either because my personality is similar to them, I have similar trauma/issues to them, I view them as trans, or they’re some level of autistic. This is the kind of blorbo that when I read fics or analysis about them I feel like I come away learning something about myself.

The Well-Written Blorbo: Whether this Blorbo is actually, objectively well-written or not doesn’t matter, only that I believe them to be well-written. Whether this is because I think they’re good representation for something or because they have significant parallels to those around them or because the way they’re written forces me to think and examine them more closely to understand them fully. This is the blorbo that I have to search through constant misinformation and mischaracterization about but when I find a good fic or analysis it’s an actual work of art.

The Bluescreen Blorbo: This is the Blorbo that when I look at them my mind becomes nothing but a keysmash. I can’t articulate why I like them or what it is specifically that draws such a strong reaction out of me when I see them but by god I love them. 100% the blorbo I am the most likely to be an apologist for. They’ve raided my brain and turned it into a microwave, no thoughts only blorbo. Don’t read as many analysis and fics for this type but look at a lot of fanart.

And then there are the Blorbos who fit all three catagories and they go into my personal Blorbo Hall of Fame.

[wheelofyearning]

Honestly I think a factor in why I’m single is that I have big caregiver personality and vibe,and less of a protector personality and vibe. Coupled with the type of women I tend to like and I it just makes it harder to find a match for me.