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bloobydabloob · 8 months ago

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Alternative hairstyle ideas for Roxy

#homestuck #homestuck fanart #hs fanart #roxy lalonde #I need to upload my drawing of all the alpha kid faces #it’s one of the only “old” pieces of art that I still like #(and also agree with)#Also no DirkJake week past couple days #I could not think of anything good at all #I really should have known in advance. I have no idea how I didn’t #Also finally buckled down and completed space channel 5 today #game is hard as F (can I swear on here) for no reason #I was genuinely shaking by the end.#Maybe I am too easy #blooby posting

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 9 months ago

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not "i ship these characters" or "i want them to bond platonically" but a secret 3rd thing (I want them to be forced to interact by the Narrative bc they would HATE that)

#who needs romance when i can watch two narrative foils painfully tolerate each other's existence #bonus points if they are forced to Work Together To Solve A Problem #and they end up working surprisingly well together!#they make a surprisingly effective team!#they even confide some backstory with each other & bond a bit & understand each other better #and when it's all over they shake hands & amicably agree that they still cannot fucking stand each other #'this was an interesting sidequest & I'm glad we got to experience it.#but all things considered i genuinely never want to see your face again'#Enemies to Chained-Up-In-An-Abandoned-Bathroom-Together #to Enemies #two stray cats forced to share a cat carrier for a trip to the vet

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lunacias · 1 year ago

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of five people, three must pay a price

#honkai star rail #hsr #dan heng #jing liu #jing yuan #bailu #blade hsr #high cloud quintet #hoyoverse #artists on tumblr #digital #“this update already passed though” time isn't real to me!!#perpetually slow artist syndrome strikes again!!!#anyway! jing liu's story quest genuinely had me shaking by the end of it i cannot believe the theories were right #also love that it released at the same time belobog's update did #march and stelle off doing sillies while dan heng over here having the worst afternoon imaginable

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sqtorux · 3 months ago

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wheweweww deep breaths, sobs, hiccups , tears and snot

#literally shaking looking at this photo #im not even joking #they are so dear to me #im already grieving for the ending thats like a month away LOL #it's actually not funny at all #like #what are we supposed to do after it ends #and what about brhdjddndj #all the people that died #theyre not coming back #oh my god #im still stuck in the sister school games during s1 IDK #im tweaking genuinely #like wtf #i need a spin off or something #a slice of life version of jjk #something ANYTHING ATP #bc no im ready to move on helloooooo #𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬

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sidesteppostinghours · 2 months ago

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ok. question.

ortega ended up hallucinating sidestep after they "died", but sidestep doesnt know about that. they know it got bad, but never the full extent of how their death affected them. so if your sidestep Did learn, if they found out ortega looked for them in every little piece they could, would that change anything for your sidesteps? would their relationship with ortega be any different?

#pulp speaks #Am i thinking of my “ortega sees sidestep posthb” fic again? perhaps #shameless plug btw yall should read it its called 'seen' on ao3 and i still like it #but anyway the important bits: ive been thinking about it with my sidesteps and its really interesting to me how different they are #but theyre all some variation of “i didnt know you /cared/”#caine is. uncomfortable with the idea #i genuinely dont know why but i do know that in the end their feelings on the matter are “whats done is done and im back now” with a small #“ill try not to leave again” mixed in #meanwhile cyrus is a deer in headlights over it #itd be way worse if he learned it when they met again- i feel like if he learned ortega was still that attached he wouldve left and never-#-come back. he would still want to Now but hes too tangled in his relationships and ortega is his /friend/ and leaving would just explode i #-his face‚ god Damnit ortega you son of a bitch‚ he shouldve just run. you werent supposed to drag him into caring about people again.#cecilia would have mixed feelings about it. i think shed resonate with it a lot for reasons she doesnt want to face #but it would also hit her like a goddamn Truck that he chose to move on/replace her rather than try get her back and its easier to get mad-#-about that than question her own feelings. but also maybe she could use this to her advantage? maybe this time he knows theres always a-#-chance hell come back for her next time. maybe. shes hoping there wont be a next time.#cynthias an interesting case because shes in love with ortega. deeply. but ortega /never came for her/ when she /promised/ and cynthia-#-is still furious about it #ortega hallucinated her in death but she couldnt put the pieces together and go looking herself? she cared enough to look for her but-#-not enough to save her?#she would still end up settling on bitterness for abandoning her but the information would shake her to her core #anyway. i think ortega should be used as a squeaky toy 👍#caine lynzal #cyrus becker #cecilia rider #cynthia garcia #ortega #sidestep #fhr

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revehae · 5 months ago

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we need to kill everyone at sm entertainment

#you know how i said i didnt want to elaborate on RJ’s bbl messages #because i would go on a tangent about how sm doesn’t protect their artists #yeah well imagine how i felt when i saw them made him apologize for that stupid ass shit #like really making your artist seem like the bad guy when he has psycho bitches invading his privacy #for 2 seconds of attention #not even positive attention btw #like can you imagine getting calls from random crazy bitches when you’re just trying to live your life #ppl who aren’t supposed to have your number #freaky ass fuck #but no they dont gaf how that makes him feel #they aren’t even imagining it #brainless fucking cunts #and even worse the company you’re under is doing bare minimum if even that to keep you safe #or to even make you feel some semblance of safety #like genuinely evil as fuck #it doesn’t even end with that #ppl crawling through vents to see hc #breaking into his fucking house like maniacs #like bitch are you out of your rabid ass fucking mind #company taking forever to address hc/jn’s scandal #which was false btw #and you have their unintelligent fucking fans believing the shit immediately and throwing photocards out like they killed someones mother #over something they couldnt even wait to see was true or not #bc if it’s in a headline it must be true right #wrong #but that’s an entirely different issue #honestly all of this just goes back to how kpop companies market their artists as like minimum 5 sublevels below human #not just sm #which is really stupid like you’re grown as fuck shivering shaking throwing up at the IDEA of your idol getting pussy #like he’s grown asfk

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icewindandboringhorror · 11 months ago

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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atsushis-fangs · 25 days ago

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Scotland: get in the halloween spirit and make a ghost!!

Ireland: that’s called murder and I heard somewhere that it’s illegal

@winterwrites23 I’ll have you know that I am NOT dead, SoT is STILL my all time favourite fic, and I MISSED making these. Happy Halloween! :D

#hetalia #sot #incorrect quotes #outlander au #sot incorrect quotes #hws scotland #hws ireland #who would have thought that a higher education would be more difficult than the previous one?#not me that’s for sure #I’m sorry once again for my absence #I was originally planning on posting on sep 1st #yk like sot anniversary date or whatever #but then I FORGOT #anyway I pulled up sot the second life got difficult #it’s such a comfort to close many tabs at once after doing research or something but specifically leaving the sot tab #anyway. genuinely shaking because I NEED to boop winterwrites23 #didn’t get to do it on April 1st #it’s so important to me you don’t understand #I remember the sinking feeling from half a year ago so clearly like #WDYM I FORGOT #haha my bad memory aside #I hope to actually get around to posting more #because I miss it so much #I should get a diary or smth instead of abusing tags like this #end of rant :)) love this fic and all its fans good to be back fr fr

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jichanxo · 5 months ago

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don't talk to me until i've had my morning kuwana coffee (yapping under the cut)

this is the silliest thing i've done in a while and it was worth every dollar. laughed so hard i cried when it was served to me (and yeah. table service means a stranger had to serve it to me. i'm so sorry to her 💀) i need you all to understand that photos don't do justice the visual impact of having this served to me irl

ate him btw

goodbye kuwana 😔

#jitxt #my stuff #kuwana jin #sorry i have to post this for internet clout + it's so fucking funny #genuinely i would stop mid meal and mid conversation to shake my head and say “kuwana” out loud #take a sip and then start laughing again at his ruined face 😭#the necklace i was wearing broke earlier that day and honestly i was so ecstatic about this drink that i nearly forgot all about it #thanks kuwana 🥺#honestly i was tempted to do Gay Head Tilt Kuwana from passthroughtime's post a while back but i was worried it would be too small so 😔#but i think this one is just as funny. either way the end result was perfect #10/10 would buy overpriced coffee again #lots of possibilities.... i wonder what i should have printed on a coffee if i go again.....

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johnslittlespoon · 7 months ago

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it's almost time. when? idk, when i stop being a coward LOL

#would be kinda funny if i waited to post it on 4/20 like haha happy bday curt *lights blunt*#genuinely can't bring myself to hit post tho been staring at it all day #it's so much scarier than posting a oneshot i want to do this right and i want to do the way i see them in my head justice #posting my writing never gets less nervewracking for me #like oh hello strangers and friends i just poured my heart out onto a page and now i'm offering it up with shaking hands #and i'm trying very hard to be normal about it because it's not that deep but also i care very much SJDGJK #but i think i'll post it before tonight i just feel NAUSEOUS #still need to write an end note anyway #i'm fr just yapping to stall atp LMAO #dog coded bucky fic #johnslittlespoon yaps #i'm also like what if it doesn't live up to expectations. LIKE YEAH WHAT IF. the world goes on. but i will be so hard on myself bruh

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eggs-can-draw · 2 years ago

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UDG was pretty good if I ignore the parts that made me wanna rip my eyes out

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jayktoralldaylong · 7 months ago

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TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF RAPE

CAPTIVE PRINCE SPOILERS

You know what? This is.... Paces the room and slaps the wall with an open palm. No, this is definitely..... Punches a hole through the wall.

At this point, at this point, if I was Laurent, I would just let my uncle kill to be fucking honest. This is the height of things that have happened and I am losing my mind. It's not like I'm surprised, it's just the overwhelming audacity and endless betrayal.

I'm the one with unnatural feelings? ME?? YOU'RE the one who f*cking RAPED ME at the vulnerable age of THIRTEEN!!! I would lose my shit.

Not only has the Regent let this stupid believable rumour foster because everyone is well aware of how much Laurent worshipped his brother Auguste, but now he raises it as a countermeasure against Laurent ever revealing the truth. Like who the fuck are the people going to believe? Their bitchy prince or their seemingly benevolent leader with a heart of gold (he goes around fucking children!!! He's been bedding Nico since he was TEN!!! SCREAMS IN UNDILUTED RAGE!!)

I can't! I can't stand him. How?! Omg. Hoooow can people lie like they speak the truth? How can they do it without a shred of remorse? He took advantage of a young child at the time he needed him the most and he's flaunting that vulnerability, he's using it to his advantage because no one knows he likes children, because those who do know would never fathom that such a good man would do such a thing to his fucking nephew! He turned his nephew into a viper, he is the reason Laurent has no friends, no allies, betrayal and betrayal and yet another betrayal. And when the truth about Damen comes out everything is going to fall apart and I can't stand it. I can't stand any of this! I'm losing my mind. How? How has Laurent possibly put up with this for nearly ten years? I would have just given up and let the Regent take me, this is madness!!

#Please ignore how incoherent this whole thing is #reading this book has been an.... experience #It is so good #omg #not the dynamic I expected but i #genuinely adore every single narrative choice that went into the creation of this book #I'm just losing my mind because I've got to one to talk to and the happy moments are coming to an end and the slow is finally burning #but nah #some people are just shamelessly despicable.#I hope the Regent's balls rott off from the same diseased poison he keeps in his heart #Laurent would have been so small and slightly naive and so very trusting at that age. His brother being the only thing standing between him #and the Regent #and Damen took him away #the revelation will shake him #I feel like I'm going to cry #captive prince #damen of akielos #damianos of akielos #laurent of vere #the regent #The fucking asshole

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vaperarmand · 3 months ago

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god i will admit this is so tempting to come back to that fic now, especially since im in the middle of a more plot-heavy longfic that's going to take sooo long to finish outlining and this would be much shorter :)

anyway. will probably have a sprinkling of loumandaniel in the mix because i think daniel getting to be very smug about knowing more about these assholes than they do for once and reverse-engineering a situation wherein louis is the one asking "did we...?" in front of armand's salad is a fun little treat. before he finds out he's missing a decade of memories of getting his back blown out by armand <3

ANONNNN ANONNNN WE NEED YOU. I NEED YOU. PLEASE PLEASE

#asks #genuinely such an incredible concept. im shaking #im such a big fan of louis torturing him with the ‘did we….?’ i think he should get to do it in reverse. the torture brotherrrs #if you do end up writing it and need any kind of support or cheerleading me and many others will be here for that for sure 🫶

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blujayonthewing · 4 months ago

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SUPREMELY frustrating that we found something actually really cool and intriguing and plot relevant in tonight's session but I'm still so constantly preoccupied with whether the DM is going to 100% kill us with sheer poor game design that I barely have enough brainspace left over to even enjoy it

#the first half of the session was a random-off-a-rolltable encounter that had nothing to do with anything and gave us literally nothing #and used up all our resources and took a REALLY long time because it was-- you guessed it! another deadly encounter for some reason!!#that's 100% of the encounters we've had so far!#and EXPLICITLY not related to what we were trying to investigate AND creatures that drop neither loot NOR BODIES #(two wil o the wisps and a water wierd)#we did a lot better in this encounter but it WAS deadly going off CR #and the point is now we've done just a short rest and THEN found the Plot Thing-- which our bard used up a bunch of resources to access #SO NOW IT'S LIKE. OKAY LOOK. I WANNA PLAY IN THIS SPACE BUT YOU KEEP TRYING TO KILL US WITH THINGS THAT AREN'T EVEN IMPORTANT #ARE YOU ABOUT TO WHOOPSIE-DOODLE US INTO A TPK ON ACCIDENT HERE???#like... it FEELS dangerous and A Bad Idea to engage with in a way that paradoxically SHOULD mean it's safer in a game like this #like-- okay if this was ACTUALLY as dangerous as it feels we wouldn't BE here on session six. does that make sense?#like when justin had us encounter a lich at level two in session three and I was immediately like OH okay he must have a plan here.#clearly some Scripted Plot is going to happen because there's no other reason he would put us up against a lich three sessions in. you know?#we started dying immediately and I was not afraid at all as a player because I trust justin wouldn't do that for no reason #or be so stupid to have that happen accidentally #THIS CAMPAIGN HOWEVER.... I DON'T TRUST LIKE THAT!!!#ARE WE GONNA FOR REAL PERMADIE BECAUSE YOU WASTED ALL OF OUR RESOURCES ON A RANDOM ENCOUNTER FIRST AND YOU DIDN'T THINK ABOUT THAT #ARE WE GONNA FOR REAL PERMADIE BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T REALIZE WE COULD USE THE ITEM YOU GAVE US TO OPEN THIS DOOR WITH A 5TH LEVEL SPELL #I WANNA PLAY IN THE SPACE BUT IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE THERE'S ROOM FOR RISKTAKING WHERE THE BAD OUTCOMES WOULDN'T BE UNFUN CATASTROPHIC #AAAAUUUUGHHH #[shaking him violently] what do you mean that random encounter was a deadly encounter again what do you MEEEAAN #'oh huh this fight's taking longer than I thought' THEIR AC IS 19 AND THEY'RE RESISTANT TO NONMAGIC DAMAGE??#THE WATER WIERD KEEPS DISAPPEARING BACK INTO THE POND WHERE IT'S INVISIBLE??? MY BROTHER IN CHRIST HOW DID YOU EXPECT US TO DO IT FAST #hhhhhHHHH!!!!#I SHOULD BE THINKING AND TALKING ABOUT HOW COOL THE SECOND HALF OF THE SESSION GENUINELY WAS BUT I'M TOO STRESSED TO HAVE FUN #cannot stress enough that I'm in a million campaigns and I never have this problem with other DMs or with Highly Dangerous DnD Situations #melliwyk's party are in mortal peril constantly and it's... reaching a point where it's tiresome for how badly it's wearing on the PCs #but it rarely feels unfun stressful as a player playing a game #I never feel like the DM is about to accidentally end the whole campaign by bumblefucking us into a TPK at random #you know? it's different. this just feels unmanageable

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franeridan · 3 months ago

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thinking again about how in trigun 98 they had nick kill someone with the face of a child posing as an orphan for vash, and how in tristamp they had him kill a child in the body of a monster who had no choice in what had been done to him, and how instead in trimax nick for vash kills a man who'd approached vash for a death match, who'd demanded to either kill or be killed, a man nick had given vash a fair chance to fight and win against and who nick would have left alone hadn't said man attacked vash when his back was turned after the duel was over and done with, a man who'd been one step from possibly seriously harming vash hadn't nick stepped in. and about how after in all three versions vash yells at nick for it, but only in trimax nick tells vash that he's lucky he's there to play the devil for him so that he can stay a saint, and only in trimax in the arc right after vash ends up thanking nick for killing for him and protecting his home when vash couldn't because of his own morals, and only in trimax in the end when nick isn't there to play the bad guy for vash he ends up being right, and vash ends up having to dirty his hands himself to protect what he loves - while both in 98 and for now tristamp vash stays a saint until the end, and that fight they have ends in itself, and the only lesson it leaves you as a viewer is that nick is jaded enough to kill a child

#this is in the same category in my brain as 98 and tristamp making vash the nice kid between he and knives #while in trimax knives was the nice hopeful naive kid and vash was the guarded and skeptical one #and also the same as vash in 98 never losing control of himself and in tristamp only losing control #when knives literally brainwashes him into becoming a husk of himself #while in trimax vash loses control of his own negative emotions all on and by himself and That's #what puts meryl and nick and milly in danger #not someone else's actions but /vash's/#and to me that's like #yeah maybe 98 came out before trimax was over so the authors didn't have a full grasp on vash as a character #and maybe it's true that the tristamp writers love the story their own way honestly and genuinely #but the way both anime make vash so objectively Good™️ and everyone else just too jaded #to see how he's right and being Good™️ is the only way to move forward #like...#I'm sorry #that's the opposite of what i thought nightow was saying when i first read trimax #the world isn't black and white and some choices are unavoidable but that doesn't make them any less bad #and people aren't perfect but that doesn't make them any less able to be good #and all that #yk #?#the way the anime always make meryl so unwaveringly strong and corageous too when in trimax #she's actually so scared #reasonably!!#same with nick too all his fear of knives and conflicting feelings about vash all gone always...#then again when you make vash to perfect what's there to be scared or conflicted about?#it's something I always come back to ESPECIALLY the nick killing for vash moment #the manga makes it so hard to decide who's right #and in the end it takes you by the shoulders and shakes you and tells you nick!!! nick was right!!!!#while in the anime nicks kills /a child/ so of course you're brought to assume vash was right #i dunno it's just so flat to me

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number1girl · 3 months ago

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my boss is abusive like straight up <3 <3 <3 not even in a "donate to my gofundme to help me escape an abusive living situation and by that i mean my roommate asked me to do the dishes" type of way. like i am literally trapped in the cycle of build up explosive incident honeymoon phase

#WOMEN IN MALE DOMINATED FIELDS!!!!!#she spent literally all day yesterday (which is 12 hours btw bc there are no boundaries in this industry) berating me and making me feel #like i couldn't do anything right and i cried like four times and called my dad (lol) and was genuinely shaking like a chihuahua by the end #of it #and then today she's acting like my best friend and giving me cigarettes and i cried on a call in front of everyone and told her i felt lik #she was hostile to me and she apologized and was like yeah im fighting with my husband so that's why i was feeling hostile #which is like okay but not an excuse to terrorize me like that lol #ugh. i had this moment of perverse relief yesterday when i thought she was basically just looking for reasons to fire me and i was like oka #well at least this might be over soon even though that means i have to start the job hunt again #but now the horror is dawning on me that she wants to keep me here and It's Never Over #like this is insane i need to leave i need a new job

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