#I took a walk with my soul
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
69% of Tumblr users are millennials.
Text
me and my need for bedman and faust friendship
#guilty gear#bedman#faust#ギルティギア#ベッドマ��#ファウスト#this is another case of go go bullshit go#need to finish that chibi doodle#and i want to actually draw proper art of them#lord have mercy on my soul#wanted bedman to have like a cane or staff that he has around to lean on when he walks#idk what design yet#before he got to this state it took some time#he was mostly bedridden and in a wheelchair#when he physically got better and can move properly he started travelling around with faust#to help along the way and maybe find more clues about his condition#boy he is lost#he doesnt know what to do yet and if he can face his sister#iruiruart
244 notes
·
View notes
Text
i need to cry for like 2 hours and go to sleep, i think that would fix me
#god guys this poor old dog of mine.#we were already helping him stand up on the linoleum because he couldn't get traction#now we're having to help him lay down because his little old legs are hurting#and he's walking so strangely and i know he must be in pain#i don't know what to do#i know what we Should do though it breaks my heart and soul#but i'm not in charge of that and i don't know if i could ever convince my parents that it's the right thing to do for him#i love him so much and i can't stop crying every time i look at him#what do you mean this is the same dog who was a tiny puppy with huge paws when i was 10?#what do you mean this is the same dog who would used to run around and jump on the couch and act wild?#what do you mean this is the same dog that i took to the vet last week who was walking fine?#it doesn't seem possible but it is#why is time so mean to animals#diaerie#dep#dl
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
why does entering a new grocery store feel like u are covered in blood head to toe... oh we got carrie up in here! give it up for the blood drenched woman buying a single set of pears
#i never realize how much i hate not knowing the layout of a store until i do this shit#took my 40 min walk home to feel somewhat lucid again#i hear the sound of a grocery store playlist and my soul leaves my body#and yeaaa i think i am not being normal about this also#lost myself in the pasta aisle but i survived#wandering aimlessly and mumbling nonsense to urself like “pesto. pestoooo....erm..pesto--”#personal
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Oh! I did design an actual sona!
I don’t think Starchaser is a valid last name but my whole motif is stars (gender BABYYYY) and my sona’s actual backstory involves her chasing some magic stuff down so
Starchaser.
#My main OC is super cool and awesome and I am a walking GLITTER BOMB#I swear to god that jewel on her jacket isn’t a soul gem#I kind of took vague inspo from Kyoko in some places bUT MY SONA DID NOT MAKE A CONTRACT#Wizard101
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
im just so fucking sad and scared all the time and its ruining my life
#i feel nauseous#shitpost#philosophy#memes#thoughts#writing#sadg#sadgirl#lyrics#like what do i do with me#i dont know what to do with me#thats a halsey lyric#security guards make me nervous#people in general really#im so sick of it#sick of myself#im so moppey ugh#maybe thats fine but i know too many people whod call me lazy and stupid for letting everything get to me so easily#i mean i had a shitty headache but#it got worse when security took my outside mfing alcohol#and the shame oh the shame#actually i thought that to myself while i walkednout the door#i feel a deep sense of shame#chronic shame#did you know thats a thing?#it fucking shouldnt be but what are you gona do#fucking christ and the one security guard who hit on me while i was breaking down in the library is walking around i wana kms#have a lit or really really really depressing funeral and done#i think my soul would be restless in the afterlife if i didnt have a worth while death#i want to have something thats worth dying over
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
The experience of watching Jackson trying to have a "relationship" with Maggie is like being forced to sit idle while watching your best friend make the most questionable life choices that will land them straight in therapy 😬 🤦♀️
#the second-hand embarrassment i feel!!#it physically hurts my soul#wth was krista thinking? she took the best man on that show and tried to make him into a walking red flag. thank god jesse bolted#jackson avery#greys anatomy
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
i don’t have sewing pics from today to dump thoughts in the tags of so here r my boyz instead (charlie left joel right)
#this has been a text post#had a shit day at work bc my idiot manager didn’t schedule us heavily enough#couldn’t nap bc of fuckass daylight savings#had to pull an espresso shot to have the energy to walk charlie before sunset and do french zoom#took a bath but had no energy for homework today#movie night (30 rock) w lindsay was nice. that was great.#i’m just so so soooooo tired#the good news is that my lawyer is a magician fr and got my speeding ticket worked down to $48 & not on my record if i behave for 180 days#tomorrow i have other french zoom. but a shorter shift#work and school EXHAUSTING#i will also finish 30 rock either tomorrow or wednesday and i’m devastated#i don’t want it to be over!!!!#i watched this show all the way through almost exactly a decade ago#and watching it again has been like a spine adjustment but for my soul#like damn i was fucked up! i needed that!#ok gn
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
6/10
#me#me irl#Sasha#Gacha Life 2#Ferngully#ferngully the last rainforest#Hexxus#Comic#Toxic soul#My AU#tw#scopophobia#Okay. I'm possessed with the alternate form after Hexxus gave it to me. And I'm sleeping.#Well. Since he took my soul he owned me for his toxic love#I'm sorry. But I'm trapped with him now...#But hey. I was walking outside in the foggy field like in my dream were i was walking in liminal space#Such a beautiful day outside
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
hey what do you mean pocketcat had daans soul
#walked up the museum and pocketcat comes out w a wheelchair. says olivia got lonely and wanted to join the party. went in and fought the--#--mechanical dance. map still said there was a contestant in there so i tracked down pocketcat. hey man why do you have daans checkered--#--pants. kill him and get the blank soul. loot him and get daans loot. okay ??????#like pocketcat is an entirely separate entity right. rhers light affects only the people themselves stripping their humanity away and--#--supposedly revealing their true nature but i bought fuckin skin bibles from pocketcat AS daan. is this some sort of possession situation-#--did pocketcat somehow take daans body. WHY did he do that if so#daans blank soul and the whole idea there of him following the lead of authority does lend credence to that idea. a total imposition of--#--pocketcats essence on daans body (while hes got daans pants + loot he says the same exact lines as he did b4 night3) or something#then theres the whole angle where pocketcat is a creep and there is NO way daan does not have issues around sex after getting raised in--#--the cult of sylvain. head in my hands#also pocketcats fight when alone is a BITCH. dont have the salmonsnake rune so i only get a few free turns w the armguards--#--b4 he insists i choose smth else / goes after black kalev instead. i am keeping this stupid goat alive the entire game this time around#small aside. rlly interesting implication that olivia held out against the moonscorching long enough that it took direct interference--#--from pocketcat to turn. does that always happen or is it bc i didnt find a wheelchair for her + thus she spent most of her time in the--#--protected train cabin ?
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
I go through a quarter-life (actually probably mid-life considering climate change) crisis like every day of my life and it really kills my vibe i cannot lie
#I have to work a really long event today and idk if I can even do it but I need money so I have toooooo#at least I finally did my dishes this morning after I walked into my room and I realized it smelled like a fucking landfill LMAO#FUCK idk how I will make it another semester of this evil place#this place is seriously bad it feels like my soul is rotting not to be dramatic#actually since I’ve set foot here in 2019 my mental health took a steep decline#but ummm idk I guess I didn’t have any guts to drop cuz I thought I was just being a baby#ACTUALLY ITS FIIINEE#I am NO LONGER above crying on the bus (joke)(not joke)#I wanted to go home this weekend but today was the only day they’ve scheduled me in forever and so I have to stay and work so I can like#buy food#I hate u…….
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
daily shuffle ting 📸
#im having a mid crisis when im not even middle aged n i dont wanna go back to school#good day and good night. i wanna sink into the floor#bc a football club i decided to support with my heart n soul has betrayed me n i dont even like to watch games anymore#also im reading a drarry fanfiction like im 13 again.#and my skin is awful. and and and im having a crisis n so many emotions that i dont even know where they stem from#i cant even smile properly anymore ive been facial training again bc ive slacked during covid n now —#i dont know how to my eyes have expresseds n i dont know how to smile or look like i care and i TOOK A HARDER HISTORY CLASS FOR NO REASONNN#I DONT EVEN LIKE HISTORYYYYYYYY#and i hate everything n ive been avoiding all my friends n texting ppl less n im just in a Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#i feel worthless n disgusting n my first thought when i wake up is 'i gotta take my acnetame and maybe if i deserve it i can shave my legs'#i naired one of them— my right. she is smooth in ways she hasnt been in a while. my left? chewbacca#n my school changed my passwords for my canvas so now tmr at 1:30 !! I GOTTA WALK UP THERE N GET MY NEW PERSONAL INFORMATION#the clothes i bought i didnt rlly like. but i just wanted to leave the store n make my grandmother happy. now im going into the school year#with clothes i hate n they dont feel gpod and theyre Not the right texture theyre too tight. But not in ways i love theyre too Tight.#n i .s.msneenen all my shoes r blk !!!! theyre all blk !!!!#sjsndjddjd and my hair !!!! my hair!!!!@ sjdjdjdu#God i just wanna lay in my room take showers n rot#roll around and hit myself on my headboard so hard i go into coma n i miss my entire year#n then i fuck off to hershey for chocolate bars and chocolate bags#cant even scrapbook right itsall paint its all paint n aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im in agony bc im not even saying whats rlly wrong with me#im focusing on the little problems and not the one it stims from. Like a web but if the spider only hang off the edge n never the middle#n everyone keeps talking at me n when i respond they yell at me for everything n i get pushed to the side#bc they hate whatever i have to say for whatever reason n wtv ig i hate them back. always pushing me down fuck them fuck them get out.#n now my friend is texting me her stuff after never speaking to me unless she has a problem#Anyways. sorry sorry. im whining im complaining im really depressed rn n def not in the right headspace to post any of this#or talk to anyone who is reading this. this probably doesnt make sense i left holes in my sentences#so sorry super sorry#that is a photo of me as a baby btw. it is the only one. please love her and maybe tell her she has nice eyebrows. she'd love that#we always take rlly good care of our eyebrows. thats a rule. we just plucked them today#anyways. see you. ill post hp gifs later n forger i ever felt bad to beginning. all of the best.
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
whenever i think/talk abt a "you" it's at least 5 different people usually
#ive been thinking about how you separated the star of david into triangles and taught me about the equilibrium about as above so below#are we in equilibrium? ive been thinking about the star of david and the rest in peace beneath it#fuck the fascists and fuck how they took you and fuck how theyll take everyone. am i good at analysis?#it turns out weve all been lying a lot. it turns out the person weve all lied the most to was ourselves.#ive been thinking about your 5 journals and a whole week of crying just to realise our sin. you felt like a nucleus inside a fuzz of#electrons and i felt like the fuzz of electrons. we caught a ribbon and followed it past the point of discomfort#this is how you breathe so that you dont die and this is how you breathe so that you do. on your own terms.#i am going to be a good architect. i am going to be a good engineer. i am going to be a good neuroscientist. i am going to be good.#i reserve the label for being a let-go-of-labels person. i am going to be the one who lets go of identifiers#and make it my identity. how do you achieve constant bliss? separate the nucleus and the fuzz.#suffering from the impact of the self and the self-image، you told me about the bliss of separation.#okay. let them hate the cloud. youre inside of it all. i am nothing. this is not a label for the self. mereology is a lovely thing.#baby you are ripping through all these spiderwebs just to live. this is part of the normal developmental process. i am surrounded by people#who throw sums of millions out of their mouths like any other lovely word. i cant stand the thought of your loss#except only in theory. ive been thinking about the bird with the broken wing in florence and how we stood around it until#two friends picked it up and took it home in hopes of nursing him back to flight. ive been thinking about how we are designed to care#for each other. tomorrow you will have your dreams crushed. the day after you will keep going. we are sharing#in the wonders of being perceiving beings. isnt that enough? why do you need to perceive the monstrosity of your own soul? is it#because i love you? is it because you love yourself? you love yourself enough to allow yourself to feel the terrible corners of you.#you can finally stand on your own. you can only stumble forward until you walk for the first time.
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
just woke up its nearly 2am but i gotta listen to taylor swift to confirm something
#gotta wake up 4:30 am to do stuffs (take yearbook pictures with my class)#okay im oversharinf its time ive got antihero in my ears im going to pour some soul out#so my favorite car trips are ones my dad drives around taiwan as we visit places from taichung (hometown) to taipei#the car had a usb of music from his brother and all the songs were like some rock or old pop in chinese and i was like im 12 i dont like#this so i scoured through the contents of the usb and found oh! taylor awift i know her from shake it off let me see whats this#it was the entire 1989 album#and i was in the car my entire family tires rolling through urban and rural-esque areas i took off my glasses (i wanted to see with#my eyes fr like idk i wanted the authenticity of viewing the ‘home’ i never got to seefor the last decade) and im practically blind without#them optical lenses so the entire trip in my memory are changing colors#cool air (it was 25°C out) and taylor swift blasting through the car between the lulls that we’re all content to be in silence stead of#mindless chatting#plug in 1989 and its the most calm you’ll get me. specifically style (i see green trees and feel the breeze through the window’s palm-wide#gap) or all you had to do was stay and i see bubbles of lights floating through the front of the car and big blocks of indisternable#buildings and wide empty intersections parralel to the bursting sprawling walking streets#okay imma go to sleep#good night#thinkingaboutmusic
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
had a locked tomb dream in which one of gideons lowkey-only-bc-she-glosses-over-it-in-her-narration powers was teleportation as in she fucking kept teleporting and didnt seem to notice or think it was weird and when people called her on it she was like ‘yeah its called flash-stepping i read about it in some ancient-ass comic books i dug up in a back corner of the library on the ninth’ and everyone is like ‘???’ bc she says its not a necromantic technique bc everyone who did in it the ‘comic books’ (only the sixth know what manga is) she read was a warrior and most of them used swords so clearly its a secret advanced cav technique. and, she says, its not like it uses any spooky necro stuff, its ‘just a matter of honing yourself until you can move really fast’ so it might look like ‘teleportation’ to all of them but clearly that just shows that she got really good at it and is better than all of their fancy smancy ‘properly trained’ cavs. anyway, it turns out that using flashstep as the framework is the only reason why its been short line-of-sight bursts for her until now, once the penny drops she can straight up pop between planets. also she at one point mentions how ‘the wind’ roars really loudly in her ears while doing it and it turns out thats the sounds of the feral river ghosts bc she is, and i cannot stress this enough, constantly taking brief dips into the river.
#also this time canaan house was derailed by a teleportation accident and they all ended up in bayou country#which in my brain was only at like. somewhat apocalyptic levels of having rotted and been reclaimed by nature rather than 10k years worth#i assume my brain drew some l4d connection here bc gideon ended up stealing a white suit from a dusty wedding store which didnt quite#achieve the full tower prince look but which did passably reach 'nick l4d cosplay' a#also yes the rest of the planet was still pretty haunted. not canaan house mad science lab levels of haunted but it was definitely#more active of a haunting by which i mean there were zombies and creatures and ghosts and during the first of the regular possession checks#that the canaan house crew ended up instituting after a few incidents it was discovered that gideon and harrow#were both possessed at least a little by wake and alecto respectively and possibly counted as being lyctors bc like. gideon just by existin#had ended up tying wakes soul to the conglomerate pile of earth-ghost souls that constituted johns lyctorhood with alecto and that by#maing a connection to harrow like she did alecto also tied harrow into the same. when john showed up towards the end he defended his#sabotage of other attempts at lyctorhood outside the technique defined and oushed at canaan house as being bc it gets 'way too complicated#and messy (both necromanticly & in terms of personal drama & trying to keep track of who is where) to allow multiple bodies running around#as part of the same soul network#also to escape the first gids had to take everyone one by one to the ninth#bc its the only other planet shes been on and thus knows how to get to#and 1) everyone is like damn yall live like this? 2) the secrets of the ninth are exposed to the whole canaan crew by this 3) everyone is#severely adversely affected by going through the river like this and gideon is mostly like 'dont be a baby lmao just walk it off'#4) yes its still cytheria and yes she is having the time of her goddamn life. whatever the fuck is going on with *gestures at the ninth* is#both something shes possibly the only one equipped to fully understand how insane it is and also revealing to her so much about potential#ways to kill john that she is just rolling with it despite the fact that dulcie latched ontoher when gideon took her through the river and#is fully attempting to possess her with the full support of the sixth
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
@leadmetosymphonies
#this was from when I took a short walk on Christmas Eve#it’s like the goldenrod seeds were given a soul#my poetry
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
anyways don’t be a stranger
#I had the busiest day ever I barely socialized with anyone at work because I can’t stand anyone all my friends left and I’m not even sure if#I ever liked them but that was fine cause I knew that I will be taking that walk at 5 pm and it’s omw to my other job that kills my time but#it was ok cause I knew the sky would look like this and there was not a single souls around me so I enjoyed all of this to myself and so#I took this
0 notes