#I struggled with this so much ahh
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Don't give up on me...
#I struggled with this so much ahh#the perspective the anatomy the lighting#I tried to look at refs for the pod but then I took a LOT of creative liberties#it's okay. we live and we learn#Sorry if the effects hurt your eyes. They kinda hurt mine too lol#komahina#komaeda nagito#nagito komaeda#danganronpa 2#super danganronpa 2#hinakoma#hajime hinata#hinata hajime#danganronpa#danganronpa fanart#sdr2#hikoma#sdr2 fanart#fanart#my art
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Behind the curtains in Black Hat's room...
#I had this idea for a long ahh time#the only reason I never made it... I can't draw backgrounds.#and it turns out... I still can't! but I made art#I finished it#this was a fight#I was struggling#this was a toxic on off relationship and I'm still not sure if I like it at all#it's one of those “I put too much time and effort into this atp so I gotta see it thru” deals#villainous#villanos#vilanesco#dr flug#flug#black hat#kenning flugslys#paperhat#villainous flug#villainous black hat#cartoon#fanart#my art#painting#!!! for the first time this year#I lost my old style I feel... along with all the brushes when my old pc died in december#my new one is ok... but I miss my old ways and I can't find them
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He’s so ugly I love him 💙
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#total drama#td noah#noah total drama#total drama noah#noah td#tdi noah#total drama island#total drama world tour#td alejandro#total drama alejandro#alenoah#YES IM SNEAKING IN ALENOAH THERES NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT 😡#Bros a cutie patootie if I may say#huge ahh forehead but that’s okay#I struggled with the hand so much I wanted to cry#also I’ve drawn him frowning to much I must make him smile!!
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Guys I love Elena (and Rumi) so much I love her so much I love exploring her identity and her relationship with her masks and how she learns to be human and to love themself for themself and their whole relationship with Peter and angelstone but especially Elena and how it impacts all of that and them getting married and that acceptance and knowing they’ll grow and learn together and Elena is accepting herself and healing AGGH GUYS ELENA
#I’m always thinking about when angelstone got married that scene made me sob it lives rent free in my brain just ELENA AHH#And Peter too but Elena guys she’s my special little guy I love them so much#man i love elena so much#jrwi apotheosis#jrwi elena#elena sqloint#rumi jrwi#IM WRITING ANOTHER ELENA STRUGGLING WITH IDENTITY THING GUYSSS I COULDNT RESIST#Technically its a continuation but still
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no bg ver because i once AGAIN added too many details and thet got lost with everything else
#vargas#edgar vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin vargas#scriabin#zarla s#what vargas did y'all read ahh art#I'M BACK TO BEING MENTALLY ILL ( drawing stuff from this timeline ? idk i want to call it au but it's not an au#i wanted to draw something with fireflies and it was about time i drew them like this again#idk what happened man i used to draw them ssssoo much#and guys oh my god this is the third time i want to make a piece of these two with a nice background#but this is like THE FIRST TIME EVER I MANAGE TO FINISH ONE#this took three days . it was suuuper fun to do#did i struggle ? yes#still . i promised a background#and i drew one . i didn't say i'd be ggood .#they make me SSSSICK AAAAAAHHHH#okay so i'm into yaelokre now . and the art style is SO PRETTY#i'm going to try and make mine as pretty because ooouugghh#I KNOW FIREFLIES AREN'T THIS BRIGHT IRL OKAY leave mmme alone#idk i've seen fireflies like . once#i drew this while listening to park bird . really really love the vibe . it fits them#i think that's all CODE LYOKO IS ON BYE#chapter 20/21#illlustration#fireflies#i love park bird's music . makes me feel melancholic#sunny's art
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How to woo your human: hand holding
#svsss#shang qinghua#mobei jun#moshang#scum villains self saving system#the scum villain's self saving system#ahh i love them so much#i love the dynamic of mobei trying to court shang qinghua but he kepps thinking his king is about to attack him#no my love he just is STRUGGLING to express his UNDYING LOVE FOR YOU#he's trynna hold his hand tenderly but hes glaring at him the entire time 😭😭#also if anyone has moshang requests i am open to some#i#need more moshang#theyre my favorite#my art#nibbelraz
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Was supposed to write a quick fic of less than 5k words for @brainrot-has-overtaken-me prompt. So tell me why I just finished it and this happened
#I can't believe it#but then again#I can#I have had the HARDEST time keeping this short when it comes to this Advent Month#Like it's been a struggle#so idk why#I thought this would be short too#ahh well#I'm sure there are those at are giddy that it's longer#y'all better like this one#it's different than what y'all are used to#but I adore it sooooo much#spoiler#but I hope ya'll love Minks as much as I do#that's a person
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Hello again, I'm here to request once more. Feel free to take all the time you need btw! I would always be patient for your wonderful works ^^
This time I'd like to request from the Drabble List#2 - 47 with the 020607 Trio (mainly Mahiru though). And yes, this is hugely inspired by that one minigram with Mahiru. And as usual, feel free to change the scenario and/or the characters.
Thank you again, good luck with your future studies and take all the time you need!!
Woo thank you so much!! :'D This one was a ton of fun (and once again led me to get smacked in the face with unlikely character parallels I wasn't aware of before). It's from Kazui's pov but it's still mainly about Mahiru. I ended up going canon-compliant, but I did consider sticking super close to the minigram and do a little normal-au where Mahiru drags them across Japan to make a perfectly homemade cake 😅
Everyone knew Mahiru had a tough time distinguishing genuine from joke, but Kazui hadn’t expected it to come back to bite him. Mahiru wasn’t stupid by any means; sometimes she just forgot that others weren’t as unabashedly honest as herself. When she said something, she meant it. Kazui… not so much.
Which is why, following a conversation about her skills in the kitchen, in response to being pressed about his own household, he thought it would be inconsequential to utter the following words to her.
“Bake me a cake, and we’ll talk.”
Kazui had laughed his booming laugh, Mahiru had giggled in her sweet little way. Neither realized what had just transpired.
That is, until Yuno dragged Kazui across the prison the following day to make him aware of the monster he had released upon the kitchens. The two hurried over to find a massive operation underway: Mahiru had several layers in the works, she was stirring multiple fruit fillings, decoration choices scattered across the countertop, and anyone who dared venture too close was shooed away with a slap from her wooden spoon.
It took a few minutes to get the situation all worked out.
“So… you didn’t really want a cake…?” She asked, pausing mid-stir. Her eyes were so big and round.
Yuno came to the rescue. “Of course he does!” She interrupted. “Everyone here would die for a taste of your baking~”
Kazui nodded. “I just didn’t mean for you to work so hard for my sake. I’m really not worth all this effort…”
Mahiru’s jaw fell, offended on his behalf. “Yes you are!” Her attention was momentarily caught by a timer chiming. Kazui took the bowl from her so she could take a pan from the oven. He picked up where she left off stirring.
“Either way, why don’t I help you out?” Yuno had grabbed some ingredients from the counter as well. “While we bake, I’ll tell you a little bit about myself. A little,” he repeated.
And he did. Her questions were easier than he’d expected. While the others knew how to poke and prod about each other’s murders, Mahiru really did just want to know about his home life. While she buzzed around the kitchen switching pans and creating intricate icing patterns, she asked him about his childhood, his hobbies, his job. As soon as she saw his wife was a touchy subject, she let it drop (though with a bit of disappointment, to be sure). He scrambled a bit as Yuno the human lie detector would shoot him a look now and then. Overall, though, his measured answers managed to satisfy both women without giving much of himself away.
When they carried the spectacular cake into the common room to everyone’s amazement, Mahiru prodded him with her elbow.
“We should talk more! I mean, come on. How difficult was that?”
If only she knew the half of it.
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“Hey, Mahiru.” Kazui traded weak smiles with Yuno as he joined her by the bed.
“Oh. Hi Kazui,” came her weak voice. She tried her best to smile under the tangle of bandages that surrounded her. Then, silence.
Aside from a few coughs and small requests, that silence stretched on for hours. He and Yuno usually had a lot to talk about, but neither could muster anything up today.
He thought Mahiru had dozed off, but she surprised him by taking his hand. “Kazui?”
“Yes?”
“Do you really think I’m unforgivable?”
He blinked. “I can’t really say.”
The moment the words left his lips, he knew they were the wrong ones. Well, the glare that Yuno was trying to murder him with also helped. “Er, I forgive you, of course. But… I don’t know anything about you, Mahiru. Not really. I can’t say why others would think you’re unforgivable or not.”
“...I see.”
Yuno looked like she wanted to add something, but couldn’t find the words. Traces of emotions flickered over her face before she could cover them up. Kazui guessed she wanted to defend Mahiru. But maybe she also agreed with him. And that was when the realization struck him.
“I guess, I always thought you were so much better than me and Yuno when it came to talking about yourself. You do it all the time, and very easily. But now that I think about it, I probably know just as much about your situation as you know about mine. For such an honest person, you hide everything just like we do. Or maybe, you hide from everything, like we do.”
More silence.
A teary smile appeared on her face. “You know… you could bake me a cake… and maybe we’ll talk.”
Kazui didn’t laugh, and she didn’t giggle. He nodded, solemnly. “I think that’s a good idea.”
#milgram#mahiru shiina#kazui mukuhara#yuno kashiki#i know yuno faded a bit into the background but shes in the same boat as kazui ;-;#i love that minigram so much asdfdsf she would have such massive ambitious projects 😅#(and if the day 16 feast is any proof we know she really can pull them off!!)#so i think she could make this spectacular cake with limited prison resources -- the problem is no one is actually asking her to...#i know all the prisoners arent super open about their crimes but like if you ask the others directly it feels like theyll say a few things#even just to defend themselves#but yuno-mahiru-kazui may not even give you that much...#also picturing kazui very bad at baking so yuno definitely helps him with that cake he promises mappi :')#thank you so much for your kind words and patience ahh <3#i actually struggled a lot with this one (as in it took a while to physically write despite having the ideas early on) so it meant a lot ✨#i was so obsessed with this one --#one day i want to expand that first section and play out their actual conversation - i just love the concept of them baking and chatting#yuno coughing or bumping into kazui every time she can tell hes lying#mahiru subtly hiding things too without realizing#and cake shenanigans of course#it was way too much to cram into a drabble without getting lost but i do want to eventually 😤#and thank you-- studies are going well 😤 wishing you well in your current endeavors!#drabbles
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Thinking about a time when Clown said that one of the first things Wally learned was how to hold things gently, carefully. So that he didn't break them
#help i'm still figuring out how to draw frank!!#he just sees frank's reaction and is like oh!!#i think that he doesnt even realize that this is bad untill he sees how horrified frank is#wally darling#frank frankly#welcome home#whps#i love that his expression doesnt even change at all#i love wally so much ahahaha#his little face makes me smile so so big aaaaa!#ahh well he did a little oopsie nbd#apparently clown said this on a stream#jazzsketches#i rly like how i drew frank in the first panel but i struggled trying to replicate that#im getting really comfy with canon style wally but i want to stylize everyone else ahahaha#i want to give frank glasses#he deserves them#i want to do to wally what he did to the butterfly but affectionately#my loving gaze never changing as i crumple him up like a wad of paper#do i put a warning? no butterflies were harmed in the making lmaooo#my sketches are so light uwaaaa even with editing you can barely see frank in the first panel
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thank you for feeding chainshipping fans such good content. LIKE THE PRIEST LAWRENCE?? HELLOOOO?? literally so good ily and your art style so much
AHHHH THANKS SO MUCH!!!! actually tweaked my style a little here and there in the comic to give it a more… serious tone
#my style is so goofy ahh and i struggle everytime i gotta do something Serious ™#JSHDKDKDKDKF#AND THANK YOU SI MUCH!!! GLAD YOU LIKE IT#asks#saw#chainshipping
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arcade gannon im in love with you
#best companion in any fallout game not exaggerating#canonically gay and can be convinced to join ur side if youre gay (overt flirtation will get you everywhere) or stupid#lives in and clearly loves the desert and its natural resources. dies in the sun and bitches abt it So Much#name sounds cool (arcades are dope as fuck) AND is actually a reference to a fictional utopia he both yearns for and cannot reconcile with#middle name canonically israel as a direct reference to its meaning to struggle with gd. to both yearn for the goodness in the world#and struggle to accept it is even there. it is not his responsibility to finish the work but neither is he free to abandon it!!!!!!#i cannot explaing to any of you how important seeing him in a big game was to me as a kid ahh
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Im cursing [REDACTED] right NOW
#god i better never have contact with this guy again or i might flip out on him#im about to ramble about my past “dating" adventures (we were casual but sheesh cant even be friends with this guy tbh)#im realizing months later how much this guy i used to talk to sucked#like DUDE be a better or stay single FOREVER (ΘдΘ)#and by that i mean learn how to better handle approaching others feelings!#god the way he would just shutdown others ppls feelings and it was just an endless loop of “that doesnt make sense” or “thats dumb”#sure emotions can be irrational but if someone is desperately TRYING to explain why they feel a way (even if theyre struggling to be clear)#maybe dont be so dismissive#like literally one time i was annoyed cause talking to him was grating on my nerves#and i was like ik it doesnt make sense so let me step away cause im annoyed#and hes like trying to logic me out of my annoyance???#like worstie im literally walking away so i can cool off#leave it be!#god looking back on all this....#i hope to god whoever hes talking to (if hes talking to anyone) isnt dealing with similar things#ppl can change so ill just hope for that#or maybe he'll meet his match#someone who reflects the same energy he has!#tho im not sure if hed like that haha#the guy seemed to have a lot of relationship problems in general (romantic and platonic) and i wanted to have the benefit of the doubt#but now im thinking maybe his personality was also just clashing with everyone elses#which isnt necessarily a bad thing on its own#gotta get context for everything u know#but in this case....naur#like im a pretty anxious person so how ppl i care about will react to what im doing or saying is constantly at the back of my mind!#so ppl who just come off as flippant about my fee fees annoy me fr#im like “ahh what if i upset so and so” constantly#trying to make sure not to make things harder for them#and they cant even spare me a single thought before doing something and dismiss me when i get upset#but also they wanna come to me when theyre feeling sad about something???
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A youtuber has made a video about a place very close to my hometown and I tell u what so far he is not being very factual and the latent small town instinct to rip disrespectful outsiders apart in defense of Our Town has activated >:(
#theres an old airbase with abandoned housing units#BUT THE TOWNSHIP OF FINLAND IS VERY MUCH NOT ABANDONED which isnt as good oOoOo sPoOky content for your dumb channel but its actually hones#and also the people who live there are very much cranky about strangers fucking about (almost like they're used to annoying kids bothering#them while urban exploring. which is so fucking valid)#even i didnt go fuck around up there out of respect (and fear lol) of the folks up there who are just making the most of a $ depressed area#anyway im only 2 minutes into the video and this is what im already annoyed at#he's going ohmyGoDdD cRaZy i BeT its HAUNTED over the most milquetoast decay like its his first time exploring#the military activity poisoned the primary well and thats why people left seemingly overnight. it was just before the crash of 08#so the people who were invested in turning parts of the old base housing into low income housing pulled out#WHICH YOU WOULD KNOW IF YOU DID ANY RESEARCH BEFORW GOING TO A PLACE MR OOO AND AHH#it's the fake sensationalism that gets my gears so ground#its very poor and many folks struggled with addiction and when they had to leave a bunch of stuff behind it wasnt for fun#oh ive got whopper of a comment in composition for when through this 40 minute peice of rudeness#as an urban exploring enthusiast myself im not bemoaning that part. it's the Contentification and Chills voice commentary that has me riled
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#its always the fucking chemistry projects that ruin my life#not ready to go back to school ... getting home late & eating the same food everyday & having less free time & hanging out with the same few#people i honestly! don’t even like that much.. zzz i don’t wanna receive my test results either – esp not for math#and i KNOW it gets 100x worse in a college/uni/work environment i think i’m just being a bit of a crybaby but i can’t bring myself to#look forward to anything at all. pass my exams & graduate yay ^__^ -> immediately go back and study some more#then i’ll have to get a job and afhjdkf... maybe i’m thinking too far ahead but it all feels inevitable anyways so does it matter if i am?#i don’t know why i’m struggling so much compared to my peers who don’t see any of this as an issue at all#was i cursed to be sad since primary school#i can’t even talk to anyone about it because my dad [ though he has good intentions ] almost always ends up feeding me a variant of#think about your future Or thats just how student life is. meanwhile my mom will begin a competition of Who Has It Worse?!#my sister has her own stuff going on and my religious aunt will say something along the lines of [ have faith & go with the flow ]#i wish i had someone to confide in but i only ever really have myself i think. it sucks cuz no one seems to get it at all#i know objectively thats probably not true but. ahh i feel so disconnected from everyone#cw negative#cw vent#i didnt intend for this to become a whole thing but i got carried away#💭
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(Previous DCMK-game anon) That was exactly what I was looking for! Thank you so much, you are was so helpful and so kind to take time out of your day to respond! Hope you've been well :) ❤️
[Game ask]
Aww, Anon 🥺 I'm glad I was able to help! I love talking "niche" DetCo content—there's a lot of fun stuff out there that I like bringing more attention to!—so I love asks wondering about that kind of thing. Gives me an excuse to ramble!
Thank you for such a sweet ask!
#replies#anonymous#please excuse the ramblings that are gonna follow but#i've often answered asks that don't even get a 'like' from the person who asked in the first place#so this message just really made me 🥺#and for the record it's totally fine to not 'like' my responses! i answer asks because i want to--not for 'recognition' or anything#but it's really nice to be appreciated thank you 🙏#i'm sorry i don't always answer asks the most quickly and sometimes struggle to answer at all but i read and appreciate every one!#hoping to be more present now--my laptop (that i got at the end of *last year*!) broke down#it took about a month for the warranty replacement to arrive and the older laptop i had in the meantime shuts off constantly#on top of all the traveling i was doing and some other irl stuff i've been working through#it's been difficult for me to be very present on social media#but new laptop is here! and i'm done traveling for a while#so i hope to be here more#y'all have been making so much good stuff while i was going through it! feel like i've missed so much!#ahh ramblings aside thank you again for the asks! 🙏
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I love going out with friends, but it almost always ends with me having a breakdown in my car afterwards
#it's mostly with groups of friends i just get to my car and just breakdown#some of them are older than me and some of the younger some the same age#but they all have their life so much more put together and i end up feeling like shit afterwords#older friends have partners in life and are looking/have aprtment/house#same with friends my age#friends younger than me excel academically and have had experiences overseas or hold multiple jobs at once while fulltime student)#then there's me - struggles to keep mental health up while 3/4ths part time living at home reading when im not doing school/work/chores#doesnt know when she's going to graduate and has literally nothing to talk about#i love seeing friends and have so much fun being with them but i hear everything they're up to and then they ask me and i just gotta laugh#say nothing much and try to move the convo back to them bc i have nothing really going on - which is not their fault at all#this is 100% on me - but i see their lives and i wonder what its like to actually be living a life instead of just going through it#i've wanted to join clubs and stuff at school but its all so intimidating - people are intimidating and i always end up alone in a corner#bc i never did learn how to make friends - my friends growing up were friends of a girl who befriended me#i feel like a little kid (in a bad way) compared to everyone else and am afraid i won't ever catch up#---ahh looking online to see what to do has turned up the term socially inept - which i hit most of the checks on...great
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