#now i have to draw some post game heinana ahh

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some thought about diana

thinking about how diana growing up very ‘empty’. her power awakened when she was very young (7-8 years old) and the black ship clearly didn’t help her to grow up healthily after she burned her home and her parents along with it. she survived by shutting herself inside and killed who she used to be. she stopped caring about what being done to her and who she became so she can stay useful and survive another day.

her relationship with her commissar brought back a sense of personality and humanity back to her (even though she’s imitating him as she wanted to be less of an empty shell) after decade of interrupted growth. he didn’t get into her traumas or fixed her like that, i mean what he did later gave her imposter syndrome and even worse self-esteem issues even if it’s to protect her, but the moment that diana knew that she it’s not a weakness if she feels guilt and regrets, it’s the proof of her humanity.

in game she’s still a very broken and lost girl. she’s confused and scared of what’s happening to her and all the sudden responsibilities, decisions she never had to make, still afraid to open up and deal with whatever that scarred her body and mind. still she wants to do ‘the right thing’ and her bleeding heart gave in because she couldn’t abandon people depending on her.