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“What if they kissed?” — Red & Acheron (She is a wifey collector. She can have my girls!)
((Your tribute is greatly appreciated! Enjoy the drabble!))
For how many hours did she stare into that abyss?
The ball of darkness that seemed etched at the very edge of reality had grown so big. Landmarks she had known all her life were consumed as it grew, and disappeared into nothingness, into silence, leaving her memories to fill in the blanks. It took more, lazily but surely, deforming the landscape to such a degree that she felt the entire island was warping, and slanting to one side.
Red had cried at some point, but the tears had dried up. Rain had been falling for a long time, and she would have been thoroughly soaked at this point, had it not been for a taller, stoic figure standing by her, a red umbrella open overhead, shielding both from the elements.
"..."
RED barely spoke, and her partner only answered her gaze by meeting it with her own.
The maker thought the emanator's eyes were so distant, and yet they followed her. RED could never truly get them. Something in the back of her mind regarded them as creepy. And yet, she couldn't stop looking at them. She could almost get it. The fixed gaze, a slight tilt to the head: surely that had been a question. The most obvious one.
"I-I'll be fine. Your alert got everyone out of the zone, and when you mentioned what THEY were, the goddesses were sure to respond. I'm sure they're in there, fighting it back! I... I'm sure..."
There was no being sure of anything, except how cold it was. She shuddered, wrapping her arms around herself as she took another look at the dark horizon. The sight was not inviting, and it just served to make her more paranoid.
"... I just wish I could be useful again. All my wifeys are fighting for everyone else, and you're going there soon! It doesn't feel RIGHT! I can fight too! Even if.... Even if I'm just human. I want to do something...!"
Her hand clutched nothing, and her gesturing went from wild to defeated. She couldn't just be consumed by emotion in front of Acheron, though. That would just be childish.
And yet, perhaps it had been those displays of emotion, so freely shown and acted upon when the two met, that motivated the emanator to make a suggestion.
The Nihility deprived her of much. Her sense of self waned, her understanding of her own past remained only at its strongest, most defining points, and her empathy was shown in actions more often than stirring in what was left of her emotions. But she had remained stoic to others before, as a beacon, even at times where she could spare no motivation for anything but killing THEM.
Channel your will to help onto me, and I will let it guide my blade.
RED turned entirely towards the other, hands still balled into fists, and tension boiling through her body. Channel it? She had already expressed it. She had already resigned of this will. What was left? She looked up to Acheron, whose pose had barely changed. RED shook her head.
She might be sad, angry, frustrated, hopeless, but she didn't want to express any of those things. And as the surface emotions cleared out, only that overwhelming need for someone couldn't be staved off, the same emotion that moved her ever forward in search of a wifey.
She looked up again, hand reaching to Acheron's own. And when they met, she pulled on it gently, urging Acheron to lean in. She kissed her as soon as she was within reach.
It was cold. Both lips met awkwardly, but RED made sure to spend time caressing each lip with both of her own, to warm them up with attention and love, to guide them in following her movement so that they could share their warmth. For a fleeting moment, RED was aware of how sudden that had been, but Acheron not doing anything against it bolstered her resolve.
Only after she started to feel them warmer did she make way for their tongues to meet, in a much more deliberate, passionate display of caring and affection. RED had never let go of the hand she seized at first, but now her other hand moved up, arm wrapping around Acheron, urging them to stay close and enjoy this moment of intense warmth in the middle of an otherwise cold, dark environment.
She loved everyone from her world so much. As wild and promiscuous as she might be considered, times like these meant the world to her. And she hoped she could convey it all, when their lips finally parted, and both took a moment to catch their breath.
For a moment, RED could swear that Acheron's eyes had a different spark to them. No longer did they seem distant and unfocused, or focused on something beyond the maker's own vision: they seemed like they really were looking at her.
And yet, in the next moment, she was sure she had imagined it, and nothing but a longer breath and slight flush in her features looked different.
There was a nod, and their hands also parted, with Acheron's now resting on the hilt of the blade. And finally, she offered RED her umbrella. When it was taken, Acheron moved forward: not in any hurry, still, but with what RED imagined were more decisive steps than she had seen before.
Now, she could only wait. And hope that her will counted for something.
#iceiclehorned#☷general-rping☷#☲darling-messages!☲#((There you go! That was fun to write#I should have these more often#then again I do write too much in these))
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love when senshi just kind of goes
#i should start drawing him like this more often#i have a bunch of senshi doodles#im speaking#senshi#dungeon meshi#senshi of izganda#big post
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heartblood
#artists on tumblr#blood#organ#the first one is actually a redraw of an old piece#from 2019#i should do redraws more often honestly#there were some cool concepts#that i didn't have the skills to execute back then#i hope years from now i'll look at my art from today#and think the same#i want to keep growing for as long as i live#becoming the best artist i can be#it often feels like it'll never be enough#like there's artists of such incredible unreachable skill#but then i remember almost all of us feel that way#those artists probably too
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when items which claim to be made of linen are like "hand wash gentle only do not use machines" it's soooo. guys linen is like. the durable fiber. I should be able to fucking boil this and hit it with rocks biweekly. you are doing something wrong
#RED FLAG AS HELL GUYS#i feel like this is bc its considered Luxury or some shit now?#ITS FLAX. ITS. I SHOULD BE ABLE TO PUT THIS IN. A ROCK TUMBLER#what if my other beautiful wife hemp was more accessible and widely used in clothing ... imagine...#WE COULD HAVE IT ALL#THE PLANET IS WARMING LET PEOPLE WEAR HEMP OKAY#SHHHH NO MORE PLASTIC ONLY HEMP#it wouldn't have to be fiber special interest hour so often if people were not so frequently wrong about fibers
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when I was up all night Friday, my eyes were swollen shut from allergies - that’s the only thing stopping me from grabbing a ride to the closest animal shelter.
#rabbits are messy and destructive but I do love having them#Chiefcake had such a big soft head#and if she got her way she’d have you stroking it for hours#she should have gotten her way more often :(
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Jack prost
Jack studies but I was only allowed to ref the rotg concept art 🤩
#I arise out of my grime ridden hole just to get blinded in the eyes and burn alive#I LOVEE the rotg concept art its so whimsy and whimsical#shoutout to my concept artists in the back#I also STRUGGLE drawinh Jack for some reason like his face is very unique#anyway I think I’m getting there 😍#I have too many ideas for the Viking/elf/fae jack design but those deserve another study day#the scribbles on the staff by Jamie + other kids respectfully#drawing is fun I should do it more often#jack frost#rotg
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I wholeheartedly believe that the last thing that should be said in response to aspecs hating their identity is "don't worry! Aspecs can still do X, Y, and Z" and I'm so fucking serious about this.
The least helpful thing you can do to someone who have not accepted their aspec identity yet is give them ways to compensate for it. If an aspec person is upset over not being able to enter a romantic relationship, the last thing that should be done is to tell them they can still enter one or instead enter a QPR - not because that's not true but because that is quite literally going to stunt their ability to accept their aspec identity. Telling them they can instead enter a QPR when they're upset over the lack of romantic relationships is at MOST a bandaid for the main issue. Instead of them coming to accept their identity and accept who they are you have instead handed them an amatonormative alternative on a silver platter that allows them to pretend they still fit into amatonormativity without every deconstructing it. This is how we get QPRs getting shoved into an amatonormative framework - these people NEVER got over the "I'm sad that I'm aspec" phase because they were handed alternatives instead of given actual support in deconstructing their internalized aphobia, self hatred, and amatonormative biases.
#text#aspec#aro#aromantic#ace#asexual#aroace#I'm not saying that bringing up the fact that aspecs can still interact in certain ways to be Bad or Wrong btw#I'm not saying we shouldn't talk about how some aspecs have sex or some have partnerships or whatever#but more just that the only response to people complaining about certain issues shouldn't only be “Oh but you can do x”#someone who is mourning the fact they dont fit into amatonormativity shouldn't be told “oh but you can fit into amatonormativity”#Like idk maybe there should be a discussion about how many people use favorability and partnering to avoid properly healing?#maybe there should be a discussion about how often people only accept aspec identities based on how closely they fit amatonormativity?#maybe there is a discussion about how other aspecs play into that and never actually leave their “sad to be aspec” phase#the fact so many can only “accept” their aspec identity when they are told that they can still partake in amatonormativity#like idk i feel like discussions can be had here and i think these sorts of discussions need to be had#especially if we ever want to be on the same page when it comes to dismantling amatonormativity
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I didn't know it was a gift. I wore it like a curse. I was selfish. I... I tried to make nights awful for you. I wanted you to suffer. Because I was suffering... I came to thank you. For the gift you offered me. The gift I denied. For the nights in front of me, where I might learn to live honestly. Thank you.
Interview With the Vampire Season 2
#interview with the vampire#interview with the vampire amc#iwtvedit#tvedit#thevampirechroniclesedit#usermicky#userriot#mygifs#rainbowedit#after 2 days its done#i should do these more often i say before having a 20 minute pacing session mid set about my life choices
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I think when people think of mental illness and what helps, especially with things like anxiety and depression, the treatment involves pushing yourself. Pushing yourself to get out of bed, to exercise, to take a shower, to go out in public, to order your own food from the cashier, etc.
And because the mental health movement has grown so much, people think that's the default of ALL illnesses. That the only way someone will get better is if they push themselves. That practice makes perfect. That you'll become more comfortable or strong over time the more you do something.
But what people need to realize is, with physical disabilities and chronic illnesses, pushing yourself in most cases is DETRIMENTAL. Pushing yourself past your limits can lead to flare ups or further injury. That's why it's important to know your limits, how certain activities may affect your condition, and learn how to either adapt or get help to complete the activity in question.
Also, most of us are already pushing ourselves. Most of us don't have access to the help or equipment we need. Most of us live in places where we frequently encounter inaccessible obstacles. Most of us NEED to rest.
So please don't try to be our physical therapists or doctors. There are people specifically trained to help us navigate our own conditions and limitations. There are people trained to help us strengthen our body's resilience without causing flare-ups or injury. Do not tell us "it'll be good for you" or "you need the exercise" when we say something is too heavy or too far or when we say we need our mobility aid(s). Your friend with depression may need to be encouraged to get out of bed, but your friend with chronic illness definitely doesn't.
Respect our rest.
#wrenfea.exe#DISCLAIMER: dont take this as me saying you should be pushing your mentally ill friends#this is more about how physical conditions often differ in how they are treated#also dont like. force your friends or anyone with anxiety to do things they dont want to#thats what therapists are for#also most mental illnesses require medication alongside therapy before they can get better#but even chronic illnesses and disabilities that benefit from exercise still require knowing your limits#and not being pressured to push past them#ive noticed some professionals who help both mentally and physically ill patients tend towards the push method#like my therapist and sometimes my counselors fall back on that method#and i have to remind them i am already pushing myself#and i need to adapt rather than push forward#chronic disability#chronic pain#spoonie#disability#chronic illness#cripple punk#cripplepunk#cpunk
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「 kafhime: four seasons with you 」
#hsr#honkai star rail#kafhime#finally finished! i had fun drawing and designing/coordinating their outfits#and since this is colored sketch it doesnt ended up stressing me out#i just have to#lightly shade here and there#i didnt have to line and render!!!! wau#i should do colored sketch more often#also someone mentioned about this and i just realized they're supposed to be the same height i thought hime is a couple centimeter taller
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I keep thinking abt his jacket lately, it looks super comfy...
Will rearrange the doodles on procreate whenever I get internet again hhhhh
#twisted wonderland#twst kalim#Idia's hoodie looks comfy too but there's an unexplainable appeal I get from those knitted jackets that don't close#I should draw other twst guys more often tbh everyone's design is nice#though I kinda struggle with drawing anything nice looking atm since I'm not at home and ppl are walking by and I don't have my usual setup-
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playing with the charcoal brush and felt pen
#deltarune#deltarune fanart#noelle deltarune#noelle holiday#susie deltarune#suselle#susie x noelle#i like how this turned out#i think susie would gnaw on hair like a cat#drawing noelle was fun#should do that more often#expand the deltarune horizons#have a nice day :^)
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"Huh."
#as with every game with some human mind stuffed into a machine i need to ask if he still has human instinct left in there somewhere#also i don't really think ordan would eat elegantly like some royalties anyways#you know the more i read about ordis the more i like him#i mean i never thought his talking is annoying like some people do apparently#but after going through the cephalon fragment thingy my thoughts about him-#-turned from “ominously happy” to “murderous but also kinda cute happy”#and you'd think it should be the other way around#hey if he has erased his memory a lot of times and probably has gone through the same reasoning-#-every time he chooses memory erasure rather than self destruction because he would probably also remember the previous attempts#will he someday choose the other option instead because of all the pain he endured?#(hopefully not i actually like him it's not destiny 2 i hope DE don't just yeet characters off their game that frequently)#also i like how he can take up some ordan karris knowledge by treating it as some stories / facts about others but not about himself#neat but he probably would have to erase his memories more often because it's still about ordan karris i guess#warframe#warframe operator#warframe ordis#ordis#my art
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final day
full image :3
#raaaaaa i spent a little too long on this#was fun tho! ive done like one comic type drawing in my life i should really make these more often#anyway the finale was goofy af but ill be damned if i dont dramatise the hell out of it#chunkbanning may have been a lame idea but the visual of them slowly inching their way out of it goes hard as fuck#roshambogames#clownpierce#branzycraft#lifesteal smp#lifesteal fanart#lssmp#my art#tealarts
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have you ever drawn a deer?
Yeah occasionally! I like reindeer/caribou in particular, their antlers have such unusual and interesting shapes.
#answered#anonymous#own art#I should be depicting them more often because they're such visually pleasing and inspiring animals but canines are more fun#drawing cervines is always a stressful event#I have a lot of deer pieces stuck in wip limbo
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L can be such a possessive character at times. he always strikes me as the type of person who is deeply aware of everything that he owns, both in a more literal sense and metaphorically-- like, he knows what money he has and how to use it, what resources are readily available to him and what he has to be sneakier to utilize, the habits and tendencies and emotional states of individuals and world governments both. the DN musical really puts an emphasis on the more computer-y aspects of how his brain functions, which isn't as obvious in the manga/anime but i think still works well as a way to follow his thinking. it's kinda what near does too: everything is a factor to them, every tiny detail a new opening to optimize for the best results, every person and location and object a part of a puzzle waiting to be solved. and as a part of that, L is deeply aware of every and any little thing he may or may not have control over, and exactly to what degree.
his habit of stealing titles as depicted in the LABB murders novel is such a good example of this. ryuzaki, eraldo coil, deneuve. he eats people alive and then takes their names for himself like some kind of fucked up fae or trickster god, creating new masks and personas to hide behind from the remains of the people he's devoured. i have to wonder if he would've used the title of KIRA for himself had he won-- i can hardly imagine what kind of power such a title could hold if held in his hands. of course, he could've just used the defeat of KIRA as a way to build up the L title even further, offering up the body of a dead god like perseus showing off the head of medusa. but L is so emotionally attached to the kira case, i struggle to see him allowing it to fade from existence so thoroughly as near does, even if it is only kept close on a private level...
this is part of why i think it genuinely makes a lot of sense that L's ultimate win state would include capturing light to some degree. even if the memory of KIRA somehow manages to fully disappear from the public consciousness, there is no fucking way L is letting light yagami out of his grasp. honestly, the moment that L truly loses this game is not when he starts investigating misa while still under rem's watch, not when light gets back his memories, not even when he dies, but the moment when he allows light to be freed from the handcuffs. the moment when he allows the other members of the task force to turn off the cameras and keep him from watching light and misa talk in the lobby. the moment when he gives up, lets light yagami go outside of L's personal sphere of control, is the moment when L starts the clock ticking down to the end of his own life.
this is one of the key ways in which i see light as a true equal and parallel to L, as after L's death he, intentionally or no, continues the same tradition and takes L's title for himself, twisting the two sides together into the L-KIRA amalgamation. only, the L title functions a little bit differently than every other persona or title that we see in the series-- because L's true name is L. that's all that he is. on a literal, legal, and emotional level, i don't think that L is anything more than L. he is the world's greatest detective, he's an incredible, weirdo super genius, but he does not afford himself much more than that, barely allows himself personhood or humanity outside of his work. light was the one to ultimately defeat L because he did not just put a stain on his character (as BB attempted), did not just kill him, but stole his very identity and took it for himself.
one of the biggest contradictions of L's character that i think you must accept should you attempt to portray him accurately is that he is both deeply detached from humanity while also having all of his work and effort and life be focused around saving it. it's one of the ways in which he is an exact opposite to light-- where light relies on humanity for external validation, to be Seen, while also looking down on it as dumb and immoral and spineless, L is so separated from it that he barely exists as a person, all the while dedicating almost every action he takes to helping it. remember: for all the emotional turmoil that wammy's house and the legacy of L may put on the kids living there, ultimately it's entire existence is nothing more than L's logical solution to his potential demise. if he dies, the world goes down with him, all of the cases that are yet to happen and he is yet to solve being left in the air. he has the foresight to set up a fail safe, but not to consider the emotional implications of what being that fail safe might feel like, how high the price of your own humanity is if you are not already alienated from it, the inability to have your own name on your gravestone-- though perhaps some of the blame also falls on watari's shoulders in this case, philanthropic old bastard that he is.
imo, playing his game really got it right in presenting L and light as one and the same, synonyms on either side of the mirror. in every action they take they are both so selfishly selfless, playing the game for themselves and their own pleasure but plastering the needs and will of humanity on top of it. L isn't invested in saving humanity for the sake of humanity-- he just likes the thrill of having the stakes raised so high. hard to shit on ryuk for wanting entertainment when the humans he finds are just the same as him.
#death note#astronaut rambles#l lawliet#*L voice* i need to get him in a collar#ahh the thematic cannibalism of light yagami and l lawliet#lawlight#also. i need someone talk to me about near's toys again#i reread mello's death + their final confrontation right before class today & i really like that near wears an L mask when they first meet#especially since that one author's note (?) about near probably hating L keeps standing out in my mind ahahahhaahah#that fucking house. it really fucks those kids up#did L ever even realize? probably not#too busy playing mind games with his psychological warfare fuck buddy boytoy to notice#feel like i should have more L thoughts honestly. i ramble about light often enough#but i suppose i'll just do with this for now and let it come naturally later#'what puts him at ease' 'the food that he likes' 'learn his routines' aww. they're planning a date :))
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