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A silly little rant =p
okay, so maybe a trigger warning? Like, talks of wilbur soot (for that people that need that, idk, I don’t wanna be inconsiderate or whatever cause that guy is controversial) and incel and whatnot cause it’s of me being in Incelbur fickin? Pog ig
Okay, so how I came to be is that I remember saying that “oh, I’m so like this guy, I AM this guy” and just thinking it was totally normal to think like that until I met this one person on QuoteV and learning about fickins. After that I was like “OHHHH, THATS WHY I LITERALLY FELT LIKE THAT GUY1!!1!1!1” but now I’m confused.
But like, I’m not really like my source anymore… like, I still probably have Obsessive Love Disorder and I still am an needy fck, but I like, I also don’t remember much of my sources memories—
and it kinda hurts me because I really want to remember it and I want to feel more like my source and it kinda hurts knowing that I’ve strayed so far for it. Like, I don’t know if that just happens sometimes, I’ve only learnt that I was a fickin about four months ago and I’ve never really been in any fickin communities before Tumblr so I don’t know if this is normal. I can’t ask my friends for help because I’d be damned if I told them I was a fickin of a guy that was an incel and the person who played him is hella controversial.
I also look nothing like him!! Like, I was born female, and even though that shouldn’t matter it does. It so does. Like, I WANNA BE A MAN!! I WANNA BE A MAN AND KISS MY BOYFRIEND AS A MAN AND BE IN LOVE WITH A MAN AS A MAN!! Speaking of partners, I’m not in loving with a fuxking E-girl. Like, I use to make jokes about how I’m waiting for my E-girl, but I’m literally dating a ghost man….
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#tulpa#endo safe#tulpa safe#endo friendly#tulpamancy#pro endo#plural community#incelbur#Rant#vent#fickin#crying#gender dysphoria#I wanna be him#I lowkey hate myself#gay#i want to be a man and I want to kiss other men#I hate being a woman#like I don’t mind it but still#I wanna be a boy kisser#I’m in love with an E-girl#Wait does that make me a songkin?#I just thought of that…….#………#……….#I don’t wanna think of that right now#my head already hurts#And I wanna cry#hahahah#i need mental help
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a tribute to celebrate the finale of the manga that has meant so much to me these past few years
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#ryomen sukuna#toji fushiguro#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk 271#i would tag everyone but ik the most frequented tags in this fandom smh ghsdhfgdfjs#THSI KILLED ME#3 DAYS#IM DEAD DECEASED IN THE GROUND#i knew the minute i drafted the sketch that i would hate myself for it and yeah i was right#but honestly it was worth it it was worth every single hour#i got . lowkey highkey emotional wrapping this up bc like. what a RIDE it's been#ive grown so much since starting drawing fr this series i owe it a lot im so grateful to the things its taught me abt how i like to create#im so grateful fr the people its let me meet#ik it's not over-over and ill be around while the anime catches up but still something abt the manga ending#i'm sentimental u kno?#so i hope that i was able to convey those feelings#to jjk and to every1 who has engaged with my art for it: thank u <3
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I'm back on my bullshit I guess
that redraw I was talking about.. previous versions under the cut
I like how it's less stiff now
#murl drawing ruikasa again ?!?!?!?!?#probably not gonna draw that much of them again even if the hyperfix is coming back though#my brain is way more focused on other things this time </3#going back to my roots is fun ngl#this was the first ruikasa fanart ive done...... insane..#pjsk#prsk#project sekai#colorful stage#pjsk fanart#rui kamishiro#tsukasa tenma#pjsk tsukasa#pjsk rui#wonderland x showtime#wxs#ruikasa#murl draws#im lowkey proud of myself honestly#anyways. wanted to do this because i kinda hated the last one#people who initially followed me for rks you may celebrate /silly
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The House On Peachtree Lane — Rafe Cameron.
pairing: serialkiller!rafe x fem!reader
summary: the abandoned house across the street had always given you the heebie jeebies, its crumbling foundation, and overgrown lawn looking like something straight out of a horror movie. however, when you began to notice a dark figure sneaking in and out of the house at odd hours of the night, you started to wonder if the house across the street was really abandoned at all.
warnings: very dark; viewer discretion adviced, male masturbation, sexual fantasies involving violence, icky rafe, stalking, mentions of murder, degradation, reader is a little freak, some manhandling
word count: 5.6k words !
a/n: starting off october right, yall. i have a strange fascination with writing characters that are actually batshit insane
The abandoned house on Peachtree Lane had a looming presence that seemed to overshadow the other houses on the residential street. Perfectly manicured lawns with each blade of grass a blindingly vibrant shade of green and cut to a perfect two and a half inches—never more, never less—lined the street of white picket fences and pristine white two story homes.
Peachtree Lane was the picturesque suburban neighborhood that you envisioned when you thought of that perfect, upper-middle class lifestyle. Each house was filled with a matriarch that had placed their entire self-worth into being perceived as the nuclear all-American family.
Then, there was that abandoned house. It threatened the image that had been so pristinely crafted to reflect the traditional values of suburban America. It was a blemish on the otherwise immaculate, postcard-worthy neighborhood. It stood tall and haunting in stature, casting a dark shadow over the neighborhood like a storm cloud foreshadowing the eventual fall of rain.
You, like the house across the street, were out of place among the families and elderly couples that lived on your block. You were a single woman in her twenties that had inherited the house after your grandmother passed away—a fact your mother nearly had a conniption over.
Your grass was a dull green, always too long or too short to fit neighborhood standards—both facts that you'd been reminded time and time again to remedy, but you didn't pay the PTA moms much mind. You knew they didn't have anything better to do than fuss over a strangers lawn, especially when they were so desperately trying to ignore the fact that most of their husbands were probably repressed homosexuals or fucking their secretaries.
You felt a sense of kinship with the abandoned house, an odd comfort with the fact that you both seemed to be peculiarly out of place. you often stared at it for hours, observing every detail.
It was a beautiful house with dark, Victorian architecture that stood out among the carbon copies surrounding it. The windows that weren't broken were boarded up, the tall, waist-length grass that surrounded the property and the animal carcasses hidden amongst it acting as a 'keep out' sign for potential trespassers. The roof looked like it was practically caving in on itself, and you couldn't help but wonder why the house was still standing. Why hadn't it been bulldozed and been replaced with another cookie-cutter American Dream Home? It was strange, intriguing even.
Even more strange was the fact that the house, at times, seemed to stare back at you.
Your fingers curled onto the edge of the windowsill, leaning forward and sticking your head out to feel the cool night breeze on your face. Almost instantly, you felt the hairs on the back of your neck perk up, bumps raising on the backs of your arms as the feeling of being watched crept up on you.
Your gaze immediately fell on the house across the street. The pit in your stomach that formed when your eyes darted from each shattered or dirtied window to the next seemed to confirm that your subconscious was almost positive that the pair of eyes on you was in that house.
Your tongue darted out to wet your lips, your mouth suddenly feeling dry as your eyes narrowed, trying to see past the darkeness and into the old house. You felt a strange vulnerability despite having checked and double-checked the locks on every door and window in your house atleast ten times that night.
Everyone knew of the serial killer that had been plaguing your town for months, brutally killing the fathers and occasional mother of the exact type of families that lined your street.
Knowing that you weren't his target demographic did little to ease your worry, though. There was always that nagging thought in the depths of your mind that you could be next, and that's what made this uneasy feeling of being watched all the more troubling.
Unbeknownst to you, the house on Peachtree Lane that everyone feared—whispers and rumors of monsters and decaying bodies inside keeping anyone from staring too long at the decrepit structure—was not abandoned at all.
Cameron Development owned the building, and when Rafe Cameron took over for his father, he made sure that the house stayed in his possession and that any attempts to renovate or demolish the property had fallen through.
The house, despite being an eyesore, had actually garnered significantly less attention than one may think. No bored, gossip-hungry housewives or nosey elderly couples with nothing better to do with their retirement than people watch would be intruding on his business and noting his presence if it was perceived as uninhabited.
Any spare glances at the house were brief and filled with distain. No one wanted to look at the rotting wood and trash-littered lawn for longer than they had to, which worked in the man's favor. No one would notice him entering and exiting at all odd hours of the night, nor would they think twice about the sharp, metallic smell that permeated the air around the house. It was the perfect cover.
He watched from one of the battered second story windows, sitting on a metal fold out chair with his legs spread wide, his presence hidden by the cover of night. A camera stood on a tripod in front of him, aimed strategically at your bedroom window.
He had been watching you since you moved in, and he knew that some deeply in tune facet of you was keenly aware of this fact. Subconsciously, like the way your eyes flickered to the 'abandoned' house when you felt your hair stand end, you knew someone was watching you, and he suspected that a part of you even liked it.
The way you pranced around your bedroom in your short nightgowns—fitted with a lace trim and small bows or flowers that made his dick twitch in his pants—and got changed carelessly with the windows open, blinds raised, and curtains parted for anyone to see. You were putting on a show for him; he was sure of it.
His bedside table was filled with pictures he had taken of you through your exposed window. In some of them, you were fully clothed—just having gotten back from work or the gym. In some of them, you were wearing those tempting, delicate little nightgowns that he was dying to rip off of you, and in the rest of them, you were completely naked—or naked adjacent. Pictures of you in nothing but a towel, in your underwear, and even completely nude with your tits or perfect ass on display made up most of his perverted little collection.
Nothing came close to the highs he felt when he came to your photos. He had tried, and failed, to find release in other women, fucking them hard and without reprieve to let out his pent up frustration. He even tried pretending they were you, pushing their heads into his pillows, so he didn't have to see their faces and be reminded that they weren't really you, but none of it worked. You were the only thing he wanted.
He watched your gaze dart from window to window, brows furrowing slightly as you searched for the source of that uneasy feeling that had settled deep within you. Strangely, you seemed more curious than you were afraid. He couldn't help himself as he ran his hand slowly up his thigh, fiddling with the button of his jeans and popping it open before pulling the zipper down.
He had a victim in his basement, probably screaming their head off and tugging at the restraints binding them to the chair, but he didn't care. His attention was fixed on you, and the way you seemed to search for him despite not really knowing that he was there.
He pulled his hard cock from his underwear, spreading his legs wider as he leaned back against the chair. His tip was flushed and leaking precum, just the sight of you working him into a frenzy. He swept his thumb over his aching head, smearing the evidence of his arousal across his hot skin. A sharp hiss tumbled from his mouth as he captured his bottom lip between his teeth, watching the way your gaze lingered on the very window he was in.
For a moment, as he dragged his hand down his throbbing length, the thought that you could see him flickered across his mind, and for that brief moment, he wished it was true. He wanted you to see him, to know that you had caused this.
But, then, just as quickly as your gaze had seemingly fallen on him, piercing into his soul in a way that had him groaning with animalistic need, it had retreated.
He watched with frustration, his movements speeding up, mimicking his inner strife for your actions, as you pulled back from the window and drew the curtains. You were teasing him, and he didn't like it.
Your curtains were sheer, so with the wind blowing in your window and the blinds still hiked up, they did little to actually disguise anything going on inside. This fact only fueled his annoyance because it meant that your act was out of defiance rather than self-preservation. If there was anything Rafe hated, it was when people defied him, especially when that person was you.
He tore his gaze from your house, head falling back and lips parting in pleasure as he continued to work his hand up and down his cock. He let his eyes flutter closed as he imagined all the things he'd like to do to you.
He pictured you, bound to the chair in his basement that so many had met their demise in. He would run his knife along your soft, smooth skin and watch you shudder in a mix of fear and anticipation. He wanted you teetering on the edge of terror and desire, never knowing whether he was going to fuck you or kill you.
He let out a low moan, imagining the tip of his knife dipping into your plush thighs. The sight of thick, hot blood dripping down your flushed skin as he carved his initials into your perfect flesh.
He could practically hear your soft whimpers and cries, his hand moving faster as he felt his pleasure building within him. You would beg and plead for him to stop, looking up at him with teary eyes that would only encourage him to keep going, to see how far he could go before he lost all self-control.
He couldn't decide what he wanted more: to hurt you or to pleasure you? Just as easily as he could see you in the basement of his murder house, he could imagine you laying in his bed, blissfully unaware of his dark side and the hundreds of pictures of you just beside your head. He could mold you into whatever he wanted, filling your pretty head with lies that he knew you'd eat right up.
The combined images flickered back and forth between domestic and depraved finally sent him over the edge with a cry of your name—which he'd learned by looking through your mail—as hot spurts of cum covered his hand and jean-clad thighs.
He panted, picking his head back up to look at your bedroom window. You had turned the light out, your room engulfed in a darkness that signified you had settled in bed and would soon be drifting off to sleep, if you hadn't already.
His gaze lingered for a moment longer before he let out a deep sigh, his brows furrowing as he tucked his softening dick back into his pants and stood, stretching his limbs as he wiped the sticky, white substance coating his hand onto his jeans. He walked to the door, giving your window one last glance before leaving and making his way down to his awaiting victim.
You had eventually brushed off that intense feeling of being watched after carefully examining the house and coming up empty. You had chalked it up to your paranoia surrounding the serial killer running amuck in your little town and settled into bed, letting your unease be washed away by the comfort of sleep.
It was only a couple hours later when something jolted you awake, your heart racing as your peaceful state was torn from you, replaced by an indescribable panic of unknown origin.
Your eyes darted around your bedroom, searching for any potential threats that could have been the cause of such a violent awakening, but you were greeted with nothing of note. You exhaled in relief as you confirmed that you weren't in immediate danger, trying to slow the pounding of your heart.
You swung your legs over the side of your bed, toes brushing the soft fibers of your plush rug, which provided a sense of comfort that grounded you to reality as you pushed yourself off the bed and into a standing position. Curiosity gnawed away at you with each growing second that you didn't have an answer for what had stolen you away from such a blissful dreamstate.
For reasons unknown to you, you felt a pull inside you, urging you to tiptoe over to the window. You moved slowly, tentatively, as if any sudden movements would somehow put you in harms way.
When you reached the window, curtains blowing wildly with the force of the wind, you hesitantly reached out, pulling back the sheer pink fabric so you could get a good look at the dimly lit street below.
Goosebumps raised on your arms, a cold feeling creeping up your spine from the mix of the chilly night air and the anticipation of what you might find.
You didn't truly expect to see anything. You lived in a safe neighborhood where the greatest crime to be committed was bringing a gluten dish to one of the neighborhood potlucks, but still, in that same part of you that feared being the Kildare Killer's next victim and always knew to look across the street at the abandoned house when you felt a sense of being watched wash over you, you knew something would be waiting beyond those decorative curtains.
You squinted, eyes scanning the sidewalk for a moment for anything out of the ordinary when suddenly, movement in the tall grass beside the old Victorian home caught your attention.
A figure, clad in a dark jacket with the hood pulled over their head, was dragging something heavy toward the street where a large, dark-colored SUV was idling. Your head cocked to the side, brows furrowing in a mix of confusion and curiosity as you watched the person intently.
Even from this distance, you could tell they were tall and, judging by the size of the object they were lugging, strong, which led you to theorize that it was mostly likely a man. You couldn't help but notice how suspiciously human sized the trashbag seemed to be, your mind immediately jumping to the countless news stories detailing the crimes of the Kildare County Serial Killer you'd half-listened to while making dinner countless nights.
You were frozen in place, the rational part of you screaming at you to run to the phone and call the police, but again, that darker side of you prevailed, keeping you exactly where you were as you watched him load the person object into the SUV.
Your trance was only broken when the man lifted his head and looked directly at your window, almost as if he had known you were there. Your eyes widened as you quickly dropped to the floor, not even attempting to get a good look at his face as your self-preservation instincts finally kicked in, and you rushed out of view.
Your heart felt like it was going to beat out of your chest as you sat there, waiting for something to happen. You half expected to hear glass breaking or knocking on your front door as the man tried to dispose of the only witness to his crime, but your house remained silent, eerily so now that you were thinking about it.
You stayed on the floor, your knees pressed to your chest, for what felt like hours as you mustered up the courage to peek out the window and see if the man was still outside. When you finally pushed yourself up, glancing down at the street below, you found it completely empty.
A relieved sigh fell from your lips as you braced yourself on the windowsill, taking a few deep breaths to calm yourself as you tried to rationalize what you'd seen.
Maybe it was just someone cleaning out the old house. In the middle of the night? Your mind had nagged, despite your best efforts to push your doubts away. There was no way a serial killer was operating out of your neighborhood, and there was no way that you had just seen him. You wanted to remain blissfully ignorant as to what you'd witnessed, deciding against dwelling on it if you could help it.
The next day, around three in the afternoon, you were in your kitchen baking obsessively—your own little way of trying not to dwell on the possible murder aftermath you witnessed the night before—when a knock sounded at your front door.
You huffed, wiping your flour-coated hands on your jeans as you approached the door, expecting to see one of the mom's from the neighborhood that wanted to bitch at you about stuff you didn't care about or one of their children telling you that they accidentally threw a ball over your fence, and you had to retrieve it.
However, your eyes widened in surprise, a soft "oh" falling from your lips as you opened the door and came face to face with a tall, imposing man. He was incredibly handsome, clad in black dress pants and a white button up with the sleeves rolled back to reveal his forearms. His brown hair was fairly short and slightly tousled—a contrast to his otherwise put-together appearance.
"Um, can I help you?" You asked, your words laced with confusion. His smile seemed to widen as he took in your shocked expression, gaze darting to the white powder on your jeans before meeting your eyes again.
"I'm Rafe Cameron," he introduced himself, his blue eyes seeming to search yours for any sign of recognition.
"Nice to meet you, Rafe," you said, brows furrowing and tone uncertain. He found your confusion endearing in a pathetic sort of way, though, he was glad. This meant you didn't get a good look at him last night, and the lack of crime scene tape around the house across the street meant you hadn't called the police. Maybe you were more clueless than he thought.
You hesitantly introduced yourself because, even though you were completely unaware of who this man was or why he was at your door, it was the polite thing to do. You stared at him for a moment, cocking your head to the side as the name Cameron echoed in your mind.
"Do I know you?" You asked suddenly, crossing your arms as you pondered. The name was so familiar to you, but you couldn't quite place it. A flicker of darkness crossed Rafe's features at your question.
"No, I don't believe so. I'd remember a pretty little thing like you," he flashed a charming, disarming grin and suddenly, it came to you.
"Cameron Development," you said, demeanor brightening as you finally recalled where you'd heard his name. That smile he gave you was the same one you'd seen on signs in countless empty lots throughout town. "I've seen your signs."
"Right, yeah," he nodded, visibility relaxing a little bit. "I'm just in the neighborhood asking around about that old house across the street. We're interested in renovating it, but we need to do our due diligence."
"Well, what do you want to know?" You asked. There wasn't much to tell about the house. It was old, practically crumbling, but you could see that just from looking at it.
"Well, have you noticed anyone hanging around, maybe squatting inside the house or loitering?" He asked, watching you with an eerie intensity. "I only ask because it could make our job more difficult if we have to fight with any unwanted guests."
"Yeah, no, I, uh, I get that," you cleared your throat, shifting your weight uncomfortably. You didn't like to lie, but you couldn't bring yourself to tell the truth either. You were, undoubtedly, afraid, but overshadowed by that was this morbid fascination that you'd found yourself having for the house and the strange man you'd seen. "I mean, I haven't noticed anyone," you shrugged casually.
He smiled again, still regarding you intensely, but now, also with a glint of curiosity. He nodded, seeming satisfied by this answer. "Well, thank you for your time," he thanked you, your name rolling off his tongue in a way that made your stomach flutter. He said it so confidently, with a certain familiarity that put you strangely at ease for a reason you couldn't quite place.
"Of course," you smiled at him, your cheeks heating up as he stared at you for a few long seconds, taking in every dip and curve of your face, memorizing the way your lips quirked up and your eyes sparkled. He'd never seen you this close before, and it took every ounce of self control not to push his way inside.
"Have a nice day, ma'am," he nodded politely before hesitantly turning and heading back to his car, which was parked right in front of your house.
"You too," you called after him, leaning against the door and biting your lip as you watched him retreat. Once he reached the sidewalk, you reluctantly pulled back and pushed the door closed, not wanting to be caught staring and be perceived as some kind of creep.
Despite knowing where you'd seen his face, you couldn't shake this sense that you knew him from somewhere else, somewhere other than those advertisements posted around town. There was a strange nausea that settled in your throat as you watched him leave, a feeling of dread that perplexed you.
In the following weeks, that gnawing feeling only intensified as your paranoia did. Little things started to catch your attention, your perception of reality cracking with each slightly opened window or drawer, missing piece of clothing, and creaking noise that jolted you awake during the night.
You weren't sure if it was just your mind playing tricks on you or if something was really going on, but you felt like you were going crazy. You felt unnerved being in your own home, like you weren't safe. The feeling of watched had grown to something thick and suffocating, but for some reason, you couldn't bring yourself to do anything about it.
You should've called the police. You should've went to your mother's house or a hotel, anywhere to get away from the man across the street that you suspected was to blame for all the out of the ordinary occurrences, but you didn't. You stayed put, letting yourself be the mouse in whatever sick game he was playing because deep down, a part of you—that you wished desperately didn't exist—was enjoying the attention.
It was around two a.m., and you were tossing in bed, a restlessness settling over you. You'd been obsessing over that house, always staring and seeking signs of life now that you knew someone had been there, and it was starting to take over your life. You needed to know what was in there. You needed to know if it truly was a murder scene.
With a heavy sigh, you pushed yourself up, leaning back on your arms as your eyes darted around the room. Were you really going to investigate a potential serial killer's house in the middle of the night? You pondered the question, briefly wondering if this would classify you as clinically insane.
Clearly, your survival instincts didn't fully develop as a child because you found yourself pushing the comforter from your body and getting to your feet.
You grabbed a plush throw blanket from your bed and wrapped it around your body for comfort and to keep warm as you traversed through your house, down the stairs, and to the front door. You steeled yourself for what you were about to do, slipping a pair of shoes on.
You sucked in one last breath before unlocking the door and pulling it open. Stepping outside, you found yourself pulling the blanket tighter around you as the chilly air brushed against your exposed skin.
The house looked even more imposing the closer you got to it. In the darkness, it seemed like it could come to life and eat you whole. It made you feel so small, so insignificant in a way as you looked up at the looming structure before you.
The wind whistled, echoing through the silent night, which set you even more on edge, but still, you didn't turn back. Your curiosity was stronger than your fear—an incredibly dangerous thing.
You seemed to shrink in on yourself as you stepped onto the pathway to the front door, the untamed grass reaching across the concrete to grab at you. Grimacing, you pushed the grass aside with one hand, the other keeping your blanket securely around you.
Stepping onto the porch, you were careful to step around the patches of collapsing, rotting wood. The front door stared back at you, daring you to open it and satisfy your gnawing curiosity, and you obliged, shaky hands reaching for the knob.
You turned it and pushed the door forward, a deafening squeak of the seldom used hinges reverberating off the ruined walls. The smell of rot immediately infiltrated your senses, making your face contort in disgust as you stepped into the house, eyes flickering from the delicate ground to the dusty furniture inside.
A deteriorated stone fireplace sat against the left wall, the mantle filled with dusty photos encompassed in cracked glass and broken frames. An old, red cabriole sofa—which looked more like a muted maroon color from all the dirt and grime coating it—sat facing the fireplace, a matching arm chair adjacent to it.
You could imagine how lively and warm the house likely once was, with children's feet pattering against the hardwood as they chased each other through the home, careful to avoid their parent's precious vases and other expensive decorative items.
It made you feel sad that such a beautiful home that once knew vibrance and love was now left to be forgotten to the unforgiving perils of time—all the priceless memories and moments that had happened within the walls obsolete when compared to the true vastness of the universe.
You continued your journey into the home, the scent of decay growing stronger with each step you took toward the unknown. You entered the kitchen, brows furrowing as you saw a small doll laying in the middle of the floor.
You crouched down, refraining from reaching out to it. It was a pale fabric doll with stringy, dirtied yellow hair and big blue eyes. What caught your eye, however, was the big splotch of dried blood on the front of her pink dress.
You shuddered, standing back up straight and letting your gaze wander the kitchen, taking in the beautiful antique architecture and color scheme. The cabinets were a rich brown with green accents, a chunk of remaining glass in one of them indicating that it was once a lovely diamond pattern.
Suddenly, a hand snaked around your waist, pulling you from behind into a hard chest. Your eyes widened, and you opened your mouth to scream, but the person behind you quickly clamped their other palm over your mouth.
"You shouldn't be here," the man said threateningly, his breath hot against your ear as he dipped his head down.
Your heart raced in your chest, breath quickening in shock and fear. Your fight or flight instincts took over, unfortunately deciding to freeze instead of doing anything helpful.
Through your panicked haze, you realized that you knew this voice. You had been replaying the short conversation you had with that handsome man since it happened, his deep, smooth voice that made your legs clench and your heart flutter echoing through your mind on repeat.
"What am I gonna do with you, hm?" he hummed, his fingers dancing from your mouth to your neck; meanwhile, his other hand stayed splayed on your stomach, keeping your body firmly pressed against his. His large palm wrapped around your neck, squeezing gently, which elicited a gasp from you.
"Oh, you like that, huh?" You could hear the amusement in his tone as he mocked you. "You're fuckin' sick, aren't you?"
In one fluid motion, he turned you around and shoved you back against the kitchen island. You sucked in a sharp breath through your teeth as your back collided with the edge of the counter.
You looked up at him, your eyes widened as your mind raced with conflicting thoughts. You knew you should've tried to run, but when your eyes locked onto his cold, blue ones, you found yourself glued in place.
Your compliance seemed to please him. A sadistic grin tugged at his lips as he looked down at you, reaching out to grab your jaw roughly, his grip bordering on painful. "You saw me the other night, didn't you?"
Your breath hitched, and after a beat of silence, you hesitantly nodded. He cocked his head to the side, his eyes narrowing slightly as he studied you.
"God, you're fucked up," he laughed cruelly, causing your brows to furrow. Was the serial killer who gutted people and staged their bodies for their families to find really calling you fucked up?
"Aw, I'm sorry," he cooed mockingly, leaning so close that you felt his breath fanning your face and could smell the faint scent of beer and a breath mint. "Did that upset you?"
"You killed them," you finally spoke, your voice quiet and shaking with fear and uncertainty.
"Uh huh," he grinned proudly, his voice dropping as he spoke again: "Does that scare you?"
It probably should. You should be shitting yourself right now, screaming and crying while trying to escape. Instead, you were curious—an emotion you couldn't seem to shake lately.
You wanted to know more about him. Why did he kill, and more importantly, why mostly family men and father figures? You wanted to dive deep into his psyche. And, truthfully, the feeling of his hands on your skin was addicting. Now that you'd felt it, you wanted more.
"I don't know," you practically whispered, feeling your cheeks heat up as he regarded you with that same intense stare. His thumb caressed your cheek, feeling the growing heat against the pad of his finger.
He grinned at your answer, his grip on your jaw tightening as he pulled your face forward, smashing his lips onto yours in an aggressive, sloppy kiss. You gasped softly in surprise, allowing him to deepen the kiss by sliding his tongue into your mouth.
Every inch of you was screaming at you to pull away, but you hadn't listened to the rational part of yourself at all thus far, and you weren't planning to start now. Your hands curled into the material of his grey t-shirt, pulling him closer as a small noise of pleasure bubbled up your throat.
His hand slid back into your hair from your jaw, gripping tightly as he tugged your head back a little. His other hand gripped your waist roughly, his fingers digging into your skin through your nightgown.
Rafe had been fantasizing about finally getting his hands on you for months, but never did he think that you'd walk right into his little murder house and practically serve yourself up to him on a silver platter. Something about you knowing what he truly was and fearing him but also desiring him made him want you more than he thought was possible.
When you finally pulled away, your chest heaving as you tried to catch your breath, Rafe's grip didn't let up; in fact, he tightened it the slightest bit, as if he was afraid that you'd change your mind and try to run.
"You know I can never let you go now," he hummed, a hint of smile pulling at the lips. "Can't risk you exposing my little secret."
You looked up at him, your eyes widening slightly as you processed what he had just said. "What?" You asked, lips parting slightly and brows furrowing in confusion.
His gaze darkened as he imagined shoving his dick between your pretty parted lips. "You're mine now, doll," he clarified, leaving no room for argument. "If you're a good girl, I'll let you stay with me at home, but if you try to leave, I'll lock you in this very basement."
You swallowed hard, considering his threat carefully. You didn't want to know what was waiting for you in that basement if you decided to be difficult. "Okay," you conceeded, nodding as you sealed your fate and agreed to your new life under his surveillance 24/7.
As you watched his features soften slightly in satisfaction, you thought about all the barbaric things that had probably happened in this house, all the wonderful memories you'd imagined before now tainted by the sheer weight of what Rafe had done here. How had the once beautiful house on Peachtree Lane, filled with life and love, turned into a house of horrors?
tags .ᐟ @nemesyaaa
#🎀#𖦹 ׂ 𓈒 📖 sol writes .ᐟ#guys... was this lowkey anticlimactic or do I just hate myself#i'm so bad at writing endings#wdym it cant just... be over???#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x reader#serialkiller!rafe#rafe x reader#rafe x you#rafe obx#rafe outer banks#outer banks#obx#outerbanks#outerbanks rafe#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron x you#rafe cameron smut#this is a lil kinky#dare i tag it kinktober#kinktober#outer banks au
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Some more thoughts about the farm au by @oobbbear
It’s been so wet lately
#fun fact if hay gets wet it’ll catch fire#reason why you don’t wanna forget to cover it when it rains#fnaf daycare attendant#sundrop#moondrop#farm au#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#I hate drawing architecture so much omg#I was like inspired by bumble but like halfway through I was like omg what have I gotten myself into#it’s just like one house but I was literally crying dying decomposing#aaaaa#fanartception#my art#I wonder if anyone will notic they’re both lying in the second comic#lol lowkey tying it into my previous comic
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just finished malevolent relisten. needless to say the obsession has been rekindled tenfold its previous magnitude
#im so fucking isnane about this podcast#ok notable reactions:#john.. Oh my god. It’s so insane to go back and hear how much he’s changed in the way he talks and reasons and treats arthur#i love you john doe malevolent#fav trans allegory ever!!!!!#definitely relate to him a normal amount (liar voice)#and then. S2. I really need to make that animatic with lonesome dreams#godddd i forgot how painful the ep18 divorce was#and then!!!! the canna mentions helping noel escape!!! completely forgot about that part#s3. oh my god. absolute fav season. soooo many crazy moments.#like coda??? “You want him back.” “I want him safe.” You want him baaack.” “I want him back”#KAYNE I FUCKING HATE THAT RAT BASTARD.NEED TO BASH HIS HEAD IN WITH A ROCK BUT HES A FREAK AND HED ENJOY IT SO I CANT#piece od shit#and then 23/24??????? arthur’s happy cry-laugh???? dead#part 25. “I killed myself. For a voice in my head. Do you know how mad that sounds?” what if IIII killed myself#26. god. Then 27. And 28. Literally my fav season ever#followed closely by s4#ohhhh my god i forgot how hot the butcher is like genuinely#i completely forgot prelude somehow???? giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair the whole time#i need to be this homicidal gay irishman hes so hot oh my god#the 29 divorce. with the movie lmaoo#i need to draw them going on a night out and seeing a movie and getting dinner and drinks and dancing and (gets shot)#gooddddd i remember listening to 31 for the first time and being so fucking confused#PART 33. HIT ME RIGHT IN THE EMOTIONS. OH MY GOD. BELLA SALTZMAN I COULD’VE TREATED YOU SO MUCH BETTER#34….. i can’t speak about 34 without barking and howling like a rabid dog#dog. Is that a butcher refere(gets shot for the third time)#NOELLLLLL MY DARLING WIFE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH#this has just inspired me to keep writing hofth with ella tbh#lowkey don’t even get the obsession with oscar tho i can’t be talking#to each their own or whatever
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prongsfoot and wolfstar in the last chapter of Presque Vu by @starsworth
#re read this last chapter today and accidentally stabbed myself in the heart oops#lowkey forgot how violently emotionally intense and healing it was but ouchiieeeeee#YOU MADE ME A WIDOW??!!!#and not Remus going all red in the face two secs later just to admit he’s in love w Sirius#pls I love that man he’s so ridiculous 😭#also I almost drew the brothers but I was scared to make myself cry again so it’ll be for another time I guess#the prongsfoot scene was so important to me#“they were so bright together—shining so much they created a universe on their own”#ARE U KIDDING ME???#also yes I still hate tumblr for not allowing me commas#“I loved you in life I love you in death”#ZAR WHEN I CATCH YOU#I would send u my therapy bills and ask for financial compensation but also *that’s* therapy in itself so…#anyway#james potter#sirius black#remus lupin#presque vu fanart#hp fanart#mauraudeurs fanart#wolfstar#wolfstar fanart#prongsfoot#iris tries to art#and as always cries in the process
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just one more day, yeah?
heavily inspired by the song "die for me" by chase atlantic (and me if leon was real) + @mydarlingclaudia's amazing amazing fic that you can read here!!!
yeah idk what this is. thanks for the help bbg @held-in-my-heart this has been in my drafts since my hiatus so... idfk... mdni this is hardcore smut
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you don't know why he even bothers. not a single day has he returned from home without tossing his jacket across the house, not caring enough to keep it hooked onto its respective area. truthfully, you don't even need to watch him.
it's only a matter of moments before he's lounging on the couch, fingers curled around the cold beer bottles, wistful in the house's silence. yet where he would usually revel in it, he sees you.
he catches your eye through the space above the kitchen sink, open enough to catch you in the act of your eyes wandering - god, those fucking puppy eyes - and doesn't even need to bat an eye before you're sinking to your knees in front of him.
"yeah, that's a good slut," he mutters, barely making eye contact with you, fingers tangled in your hair, wet from the condensation of the bottle, the same bottle he circles his tongue over, intently eyeing the goddamn television, like he doesn't know what he's doing to you.
like you're not choking on his cock right at the moment. you look up at him, tears in your eyes, but he just tilts his face to sip the liquor and scoffs at the burn, like the very same isn't happening to your throat as he fucks into your tongue.
he's not heartless though, of course not. never in a million years would he imagine leaving off where he started, so when you're just a set of eyes floating through a dopamine haze, he tugs you onto his lap. fully clothed, but he can still feel you drenching his thigh.
"you've been waiting for me, huh?" he smirks and you know the bastard loves it when you drop your head onto his shoulder, muffling your moans into the fabric of his shirt as he pushes your soaked panties to the side, prodding at your entrance. you see it coming, and every time you're still not prepared.
there's a strangled cry unlatching itself, free from your throat when he fucks himself up into you, finally having his undivided attention, washing over you with that same searing gaze.
"yeah, you like that? been craving this cock, haven't you baby?"
he does it in a strange order, has you get him off first, then fucks you like its the end of the world, (which it may as well be, considering how long its been since your last... treat) and finally looks up at you.
leon pries your thighs open, delving his tongue further into your slick folds, denying what you really want next. because the truth is he doesn't want it to end. he needs this as much as you do. as much as you need him.
"just one more day, yeah? come back tomorrow, my sweet little princess." but he's lying, of course he is. neither of you know why he bothers to do that, either.
he doesn't know the next time he'll see you. hell, it's gotten to the point where he doesn't even get a few minutes of peace before he's hard, thinking about you in those little skirts you prance around the house in.
your legs lock around his head, but he doesn't stop. he's been an asshole to everyone around him, so he thinks that doing this, making you feel good, will make up for it. make up for all of it.
you collapse further into him when he picks you up, lying your body onto his lap, curling you protectively into his chest. his fingers have abandoned the bottle to draw lazy circles on your inner thigh, drawing you closer to him.
warmth he's never craved like this before, and he can only get it from someone he has to usher back to their house in the neighboring community, someone he can't keep.
his job is the barrier that stops him from marrying you. of course, that and one other thing. even though you're quick to slide to your knees, there's always been a problem with that.
the wedding ring on his finger.
#leon kennedy#resident evil#leon s kennedy#leon kennedy x reader#leon scott kennedy#leon kennedy fanfic#leon kennedy smut#leon kennedy vendetta#vendetta leon kennedy#leon kennedy x reader insert#lowkey kills myself#harshi <3#jj writes#ew i already hate this wtf
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Powerpuff Girls !!
#I lowkey projected my fashion sense onto buttercup and made it punk ngl#Otherwise I think she’d dress like Adam Sandler#Blossom definitely posts her outfits on Pinterest idc#Bubbles also has a large collection of keychains#digital art#my art#procreate#art#fanart#bright colors#powerpuff blossom#powerpuff bubbles#powerpuff buttercup#cartoon network#ppg#powerpuff girls fanart#ppg fanart#buttercup#blossom#powerpuff girls#I KNOW they don’t have fingers and noses but I couldn’t help myself#I also think they all paint their nails#Buttercup smokes also and Blossom hates it
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Thought I was done? Nope!!!!
I was almost done bc this background made me want to kms
#do I write a fan statement??#I know wtf is up but do I like actually write it?#I was Lowkey thinking of making a comic but I would hate myself#maybe just a few illustrations#aleksi petrova#the magnus archives#tma#jon sims#magnus archives#the magnus archive fanart#tma jon#jonathan sims#jarchivist#tma oc art#tma oc#tma fanart#tma art#offbrand art
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So, as part of my language course, I had to give a speech in front of a bunch of teachers at my homophobic college, and me, being the rebel that I am, decided to do it on 'why aroace people deserve better representation'. The day arrived where I had to give it and I was so nervous because there were so many teachers and I was definitely not prepared. I said it and when I was done they were all silent. No questions, no claps, no nothing. Until the deputy head just said "see, they get it"
And that's how I found out that the deputy of a majorly homophobic college was, in fact, an aroace.
#aroace#aromantic#asexual#story time#like what possessed me at 3am to decide to do something worth 40% of my grade on something the school as a whole hated#I got full marks though probably because I was brave enough to do it on lgbtq#the guy before me wrote his entirely on chat GPT#and it was on why hard drugs should be legalised#so I guess the bar was set pretty low#lgbtq community#lowkey actually proud of myself
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#can i yap for a moment#im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused#also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting#anyway#made out w a boy tonight#and he wanted to go to his place#and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies#and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid#that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him#i just hate when boys think they're so superior#so i argued with this stupid but hot man#until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things#anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship#but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again#it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times#and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends#anyway and then we left the party#this guy pulls me aside the parking lot#and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it#and i just wanted to die#and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute#but i legit have zero feelings for him </3#and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one#actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3#the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes#but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3
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tell me I'm wrong
#look me in the eyes. look at me in the marrow of my bones and in the depths of my cobwebs and ashen soul. tell me i'm wrong#I'M NOT#“motherfucker i wish i could say you'd die alone” I WAS ALREADY HEARING ROWAN IN THAT MOMENT#and if ryan or another writer/producer in the film considered heir of fire? READ heir of fire?#what's going to happen to me? i'll be inconsolable.#none of you will be able to talk to me for months#i'll talk to myself. i'm a yapper. we know this#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool 3#deadpool 2024#deadpool#wolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#rowan and aelin#prince rowan whitethorn#princess aelin galathynius#celaena sardothien#throne of glass series#heir of fire#queen of shadows#books by sarah j maas#never you mind that i had to reach up to my shelf to open this book#mind you this is only in heir of fire. i'm lowkey scared of qos or eos rowaelin#how much more poolverine am i gonna find there#even though Cavill made a cameo and he was our go to fancast for Rowan#I HATE THAT WADE FLINCHES 😭❤️#JAIL FOR YOU FOR THAT LOGAN
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thinking abt old men kl… literally always…. bc what if they were old…and married…and if they didnt have to wear those fuckass belts…
my kl fic 🫣
#old man lance having to button his old man husband's jacket because he's too busy talking about the kraggle#i forgot about rendering the tablet so you get a cameraless ipad#i feel dangerously old and being older than all my fav characters when i used to be younger than them is?#really though i also feel incredibly young#but also unaccomplished#but then what are you supposed to have done at 22. living should be enough#klance#vld#vld lance#vld keith#kl#klance fanart#keith#mine art#lance#vld klance#kind of a lazy render but also it somehow took me 8hrs#i’m very unhappy with my art rn#but i do like some parts of this a lot and i’ve been doing so anatomy stuff in my sketchbook#so hopefully i learn something#and start liking my art again#all i see rn though are mistakes#but legend ibyms did like my last drawing on instagram so maybe im being hard on myself#that was lowkey my magnum opus though#going wild in tags because im convinced that my followers who voluntarily followed me hate me and dont want to hear me speak (dies)
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okay so ik everyone kinda takes it to heart that peter betrayed everyone in canon (for good reason ofc)
but it hurts some part of my soul when i see young marauders fanart and they just don't draw peter
#peter was a great friend b4 the betrayal in canon#thats fs#bc james potter would have never been his friend if peter wasnt at the very least funny#like hey if we are gonna ignore canon for everything ELSE why cant we ignore canon peter...#makes me sad tbh#fanon peter has sm potential :((#peter pettigrew#lowkey never thought i'd catch myself defending him but i hate jkr and yk fanon is fun so!!#in my head peter didnt betray them#nope#marauders#the marauders#marauders era#dead gay wizards from the 70s#dead gay wizards
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I’ll be honest I got tired of trying to color this over and over expecting different results so I’m calling it here
Maevelight angst is all I can offer in these trying times
#maevelight#maeveannie#anniemaeve#the boys#fanart#grew to lowkey hate this over the many many hours I spent on it#but maybe it doesn’t look so awful to people who aren’t me#color theory? never heard of her#shading??? who is she lmao#I shouldn’t be so hard on myself since I didn’t draw for years before this. I’ll work on it#annie january#queen maeve
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