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ihearthes · 11 months ago

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buglaur · 10 months ago

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simself college fits

#nothing will ever seperate me from the giò ferrari jumper i found in a charity shop #these past few days have been tough as fuck but i'm going to treat myself next weekend by going to a record fair #and i'm going to buy a carhartt patchwork jacket i've had my eye on for months #hope everyones keeping well i haven't been around here much #my friends and i started a minecraft server which we've been obsessively playing #so i haven't really played any sims..#inspiration to do anything at all has been sparse lately i won't lie #side effect of doing a creative course i guess..#college starts up again today.. getting up at 6am was a joy 😐😐#see ya simblr

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p1x1x · 6 months ago

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#momonina #kindof. embarrassed to post this one bc its just pure fluff lmao… theyre so LAME in this pic (/j)#i can hear mmk going ったく…#nn’s outfits are always soooo cute though #waaaaaah i love the fashion….#miiiight color it though..#edit incoming #future pix here #mmnn #<- decided the drawings of the two of em can have momonina in them but if it leans more romo than plato it has mmnn #bc i rotate them in my head so fast #but as the days pass i get really crazy over them being Not Romantic but still More than That #im losing my Mind tbh #the only thing im certain of is that mmk is definitely a lesbian all things considered like look at her LMAO #everytime i rewatch i do consider how gay her actions are...???#(i've been rotating mmnn around in my mind since ep 1 tbh... the codependency was tempting...!)#but i keep thinking abt mmk herself saying “i saw my past self in you” in like. ep 2 already... and it would linger in my mind #i had written in my notes a While back #like when ep 4 was airing #that it just felt like mmk was trying to be kind to her past self ykno #because she believed that the her now... had failed in her dream #so yknow... by giving the guitar she was trying to have nn continue that dream for her (leading into mmk “guiding nn”)#ofc nn gives back her guitar though and i thank that person on twitter everyday for putting it so well #LIKE AGHHH THEIR MEETING WAS FATE BUT THE ACTIONS THEY TOOK TO PULL EACH OTHER UP... KILL ME!!!!#the choices they make regarding themselves... of staying true to themselves... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgjhg #idk how many people will see this edit so im just treating it like the void (haha Void) here #(i've made that joke multiple times to myself now #i still think about. how mmnn were drawn to the honesty of each other #and yet. didnt exactly recognize each other as an actual person yet?#nn loved void and so loved mmk for creating it and saving her life. so mmk was a savior to her

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deoidesign · 6 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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knifebaby3000 · 11 months ago

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the wind has carried us too far, it's blown the moon down

#artists on tumblr #illustration #art #oc #digital art #my art #tian #happy bday to zhu's man tian tian we luv u tian tian a man for the last day of the year #''i won't be able to do anything for his bday bc i won't have my graph display'' false i love him and technically i have an ipad #''okay i'll just do this quick'' false i've been agonizing over this for 24hrs. the procreate timelapse is hilarious #''OKAY i can't look at this anymore i am DONE'' false we're adding chrysanthemums #this is the first thing i've actually forced myself to do in procreate start to finish........... many things i want 2 fix but not bad #973963747347525000% diff from doing in photoshop. learned many funny things abt my [ checks notes ] process #funniest thing was finding out i know exactly what t looks like in photoshop but in procreate...... whuh. huh. sorry to this man #anyway happy new year's (eve)!!!!!!!! i hope 2024 treats us all so well pls take care!!!!!!!!!!!!

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juls-art · 6 months ago

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i had a revelation

#here have an extra meme as a treat #Mitsugi #paradise bl #paradise vn #helga g. pataki #meme #JAST BLUE please translate Musubi so I can witness this in real time 🙏😭#ive been laughing crying about this connection ALL DAY #im burning for this fandisc more than ever #ITS TOO FUNNY I HAVE TO SEE IT FOR MYSELF #and honestly will rescue my opinion of mitsugi from the Negatives

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daddy-long-legssss · 2 months ago

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i took a sick day and took myself out to breakfast and baby waved me. life feels good again.

#im very lucky to get paid sick days (which is fucked that people don’t get paid days to begin with) but they don’t carry over #and work has been so stupidly busy and it will only get busier #and im changing roles at work which is nice (i guess) but its just a job and more responsibility #and im trying to always not treat my job like it’s my life or something that defines me or the only place where i give value #cause that’s not true but that’s what the corporate world WANTS YOU TO DO #and feel guilty when you take time for yourself cause if you aren’t around things will fall apart #but all of this to say: if you get paid sick days please take them. even if you aren’t sick or just need a break.#it’s so needed. life is so crazy busy and weekends are enough time to do everything #so taking a day to do the things you need to do or (like something I need to learn how to do) do nothing at all and just chill #my dream sick day is having the house to myself and i can take a bath and then go back in bed and read fic all day #and eat pasta #but one thing at a time

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itz-pandora · 4 days ago

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Huh. If my life was a quote, it'd be "one of those sad ones with a deceptively happy tune"

#quote from MLP:FIW #sorryyyy been kinda angry about my step family all day #sorry but im so tired of my Stepmom acting like she raised decent kids #my step brother is like 25 and living in my dads home. hes unironically an andrew tate fan and treats his very disabled girlfriend like shit #step sister always got compred to my sister who's the same age and put step sis in the light every time EVEN THO MY SIS WAS LITERALLY BETTER #<- like grades n shit #also both step sibs are gross. never cleans up ever. step brother and his gf are banned from the basement #step bro went to juvy when he was 16 and step sis had a trial last year and almost went to jail #also step sis has mono and would rather die than cover her mouth #i feel bad for SB's girlfriend because she has no other support system and sometimes it feels like SB or SS is trying to kill her?????#my dad threatened to kick out the adults if the house is dirty (adults being SB. SBG. SS. My sister. Aunt.)#My sister does SO MUCH HOUSEWORK and nobody cares and im mad #also bullshit rules recently have made my potential eating disorder worse #i don't think its healthy to rather starve than wash a dish but i actually have cried several times over this #not to mention how much i accidentally starve myself #also our food has been less and less because I don't know what I'm allowed to eat anymore because of my step family #also i have to share the smallest room with my sister. its okay tho ilh and i wouldn't want to get rid of her #sometimes it feels like my stepmom doesn't like me or my sisters because we're “weird”. childish interests and artistic #she lectured me about having missing assignments and I started crying #i said i just forgot to turn in some before the deadline and she called me lazy #<- Oops! so close. its actually THE MENTAL ILLNESS #my sisters and i feel like shit #i feel like my safe space is with my oldest sister.#and you all too! i love you guys #i just feel trapped. trapped by my step family. trapped by my own mind.#i was just starting to feel free from the burden of school and she just made me feel more stressed.#i didn't want to study because she killed the little motivation I had #Spanish exam is now “Fuck it we ball”#sorry for the personal post

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satans-knitwear · 2 years ago

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Could really do with some proper alone time 👀✨

Treat me ~ Tip me

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queenofbaws · 2 months ago

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i know it's 2024 and i have no doubt this point has been made a million times before by a million people more eloquent than me, but here i am again, wishing there had been an

"okay, and...?"

dialogue option during blackwall's big reveal, like...........................what if my inquisitor truly did not care???????? the drama in that!!!! the drama!!!!!!!!

#queenie rambles about dragon age #i know there are SO many bigger and more glaring issues w the dialogue choices in dai and how youre railroaded into treating certain charas #i dont want to minimize those in the SLIGHTEST #but like????????????? idk dude like my inky was a mercenary/sellsword for a hoT MINUTE before the conclave like #she would narrow her eyes like edgar allan poe in that kate beaton comic #idk all the veilguard talk has me thinking about dai again and since im a blackwall girlie i find myself returning to that scene a lot #and i GET that HE feels wracked with guilt and can't live with it - THAT part i get!!! but my inky would just be like ????? okay????#and wouldnt THAT have been a crazy reaction to explore??? he's beside himself w guilt and getting this horrible thing out in the open #only for the inquisitor to like shrug and act like it's a normal tuesday???? idk i'm deep in it tonight lads

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monkee-mobile · 2 months ago

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Don’t you know that Tork is a wifebeater?

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#guys i’m sorry i don’t need this right now #i’m done being ‘funny’ and trying to make it lighthearted #yes. i know. i have very conflicted feelings about peter and ive been really upset abo it it especially this week #i have had a horrible start to the school year. can we not get really heated about the monkees right now PLEASE #i am sorry to be rude this is just like the fiftieth anon ask i’ve got in the last few days and idk what i did wrong #and people seem to be really mad. we all know peter was not the saint right? i’ve said it like fifty times. i made the whole post about it #i deleted the post that seemed to get people angry where i talked abott it my dislike of torksmith #people treat peter like he’s so innocent. i know that he was not. i distance myself from real life peter. are you happy?#i am tired #please stop spamming me with asks whoever you are

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purpurussy · 3 months ago

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#tw suicide #idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT #i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone #and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess #but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm #but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing #hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse #to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house #and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like #to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age #but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me #also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently #tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me #i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship #but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation #i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself #and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons #most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks #idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear #this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly #sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point #and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have #the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona #so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem #anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope

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tetzoro · 4 months ago

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good morning friendz & happy tuesday ! ! i hope today is a great day for everyone ! please remember to do something sweet for yourself because you are doing your best and that’s more than good enough !

#yesterday was soooooo not it i’m ngl #but today is a brand new day !!#and it’ll be a good one <3 #🫂🩷 hugging whoever needs one rn . the world can be scary sometimes but we will find joy in the little things !#you’ll put on your fave show or eat your fave treat and the world will seem a little less harsh ᰔ #give it a lil time and you’ll start to feel okay again . . slowly but surely <3 #<- using this as a lil reminder for myself as well 🙂‍↕️#going to queue up a lil zoro blurb that’s been in the drafts for far too long #idk if it’s rlly my best work or anything but it’s done & feels good enough so we move #need to stop hoarding onto stuff !!!!#reminding myself it’s not that serious and if it’s not 110% the best thing i’ve ever written then it’s okay bc i had fun writing it #and if i don’t post now it’ll just be endless edits for the rest of my tumblr days … shivers .#FHDJDDJDJ #i hope u all have a great day & remember to stay awesome mhm <3 #sending out lots of love #₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims #ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.

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fluffs-n-stuffs · 11 months ago

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"For a self-proclaimed researcher... I thought you'd know by now that Psychic-types are weak against Ghost." "Morty-ehehe! B-But I'm nohohot a type specialist!" "Maybe should've thought of that first before deciding to wake me up so early."

A spiritual successor to this lil doodle of mine 🫣💖💕

#sacredshipping #morty x eusine #morty/eusine #gym leader morty #morty pokemon #eusine #mystery man eusine #eusine pokemon #pokemon tickle #'tis the season to be giggly or however that song goes askjdasnd//////////////////#pretty much a self-indulgent treat for myself this holiday season SDKJFSNKDFNS it's been real quiet this time 'round #I honestly don't usually look forward to christmas anyways since I have some bad memories tied to it :'D though it has been exceptionally--#--all over the place this year; partly on the busyness and errands being run on my household's side--#--though mainly on my own headspace and how I haven't.............. been great- these past few months #December in particular has been a time of reflection for me and it's just--been a lot - to grapple with #I needed to distance myself from things to try to make sense of myself---and still - I'm not quite sure where to go from here just yet #but I'll figure it out - one day. I finally do have a schedule with that new psychologist so that's something to look forward to #and I'm trying to get my bearings where I am now so--that's at least something to be grateful for I feel ❤️#got a bit sad there so I deserve to draw my sillies being tickly as a gift for myself yes yes akjsdajsknd #I've always wanted to draw a lee!Eusine ever since he's been implanted in my mind graaaaaaAAAHHHHHHHHHH /affectionate #let them be soft and sweet and domestic and silly with each other it's what they deserve 🫵🫵🫵

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thatone-churro · 3 months ago

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chat. chat i have a question. i know ive always had guilt when it comes to getting things for myself, but like. would it be stupid to drop like $116 on the special editions of two games ive been wanting for a while (now because one of which is on sale)? i mean, ive been saving my money literally all summer to use for myself like i haven’t bought anything i didn’t need and i KNOW im not gonna blow through all of it in school because i don’t go anywhere & dont do shit and i know it’s my money and i can do what i want with it but. idk. it feels stupid. is it stupid or is my brain stupid??

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#i mean i got paid like $700 last week and i get paid one more time next week before i’m off for school but still :/#like. like is thinking it’s stupid reasonable or should i. ahem. ‘treat myself.’#the two games in mind have a TON of content so i know they’re gonna keep me busy for a LONG time so that’s kinda why i wanna get them;m #so i can have long grundy games to keep me occupied and not really want to get anything else for a long time you get me?#i know $116 won’t be a lot from my $3000 account but like. still. idk. :/#ofc i have to jump through the many hoops of setting up a paypal to use in the nintendo eshop #or i could just. ask my sister to help me unlink & relink her card so it doesn’t charge hers instead (because her card’s linked for NSO)#but aside from that i could have that shit like. tonight.#not like i play games a lot on the days i have work because i get home so late but still y’know?#i think it would be a nice ‘good luck back at school’ gift for myself #because i love skyrim & pokemon i really do but that’s literally all ive been playing for like over a year now i need to spice it up :/#anyway chat should i or should i not?#grace being stupid #text post #personal

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creaturefeaster · 2 years ago

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sigh

#i have been thinking about them for days.#i saw holly art earlier too i need to rb it in a bit #host holly gets so spoiled by me #i also gotta draw them blushing all the time too i cant help myself!#anyway i just picked my tablet up for this and only this idk when I'll get to draw again next #so i wanted to give it some color as a treat :3 #okay ramble over #brambleramble

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