#I hate who I am

[belowthestatic]

i wish i could care for myself as much as i care for others.

[unlovablereject]

My mother was right. I am unlovable.

No one wants me. I ruin everything I touch.

I just want to sleep.

I can't bring anyone down if I'm not conscious

[burn3d111]

Sorry for asking for reassurance so much. I think I'm unlovable and disgusting but it's sweet that you don't think that.

[aranostra]

my toxic trait is that this weekend i've written armand supporting louis' serial killer era, wanting to shut down all of paris so he and lestat can get nasty in the middle of the street, and breaking and entering so he can chat with the guy he's been stalking for years and i still just said aloud, and I quote "he's so baby"

[little-mimikyuwu]

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[cryptid-on-a-string]

i think being taken out behind a shack and shot in the head like an injured horse could fix me

[buckieduckie2]

"i hate who i am" feels like a fever dream

[17deadmoth]

SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID BITCH (me to myself)

[queen-of-wisdom]

I'm not angry in the "girly way"

For that I don't cry in dispair or hurl myself into a bed

I don't rage like your "female rage" aesthetic

That I shout and scream and curse upon ever meeting you

I hate

There is this rage inside me

Like a dragon

Like an all consuming flame

That just destroys everything it sees (even me)

So no, I'm not angry

I just hate

[youarebetterthanwaffles]

It’s been a year since scriptgate… how are we doing fellow bylers? 😭😭😭 I’m still in pain…

[cokexaine]

told my best friend abt my drug use and she told me that if i get any more of anything she’ll tell my mom abt it. looks like i’m not telling her when i get my shit this week !!

[someonehearme]

I just want a friend. I know I'm not alone but that doesn't make me feel any less lonely. I try to tell my loved ones how I'm feeling, something from my past I've struggled to cope with, or whatever is holding me captive in my own mind.

I know I'm supposed to feel like I can talk to these people but I don't. Even if I try they shoot me down or find some way to contradict me. I guess I don't know my own feelings or my own past. It's difficult. They say they aren't angry but their faces go red at the sight of me.

I guess I've always been a monster- I shouldn't feel so surprised that everyone keeps treating me like one. I deserve it. They say I don't but keep treating me the same. I must deserve it or they wouldn't do this to me.

I just want a friend. I want someone I'm not afraid to talk to.

Won't someone hear me before it's too late?

I just wanted a friend.

Maybe it is already too late.

[saaraahka]

Being self awarene to know I need someone with no more expectations than for me to try but also understand im most likely going to fail if left alone. But also aware of how unrealistic it would be for someone to choose loving someone like me instead of someone else.

[darkmothsy]

I'm so sick of being ugly

[looooooper]

when I look at old photos I silently think, "I have gutted myself, slowly and painfully, slipping out of the cuccoon of my old self, I did not do this willfully of course, but it is happening nonetheless, I will never be that little girl again, and it is killing me