#I don't know which is worse
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“nightmare” - Jegulus microfic - @into-the-jeggyverse - 351 words
James loves Regulus. He really does, more than anything. But Regulus on little to no sleep can be a bit of a nightmare. James can handle Regulus’ most murderous glares and snarkiest insults, but sleepy, grouchy, cranky Regulus is one of the scariest things James has ever seen.
So, James has been dreading their 6am flight because he has to wake Regulus up at 4am. However, when James rolls over, he finds the other side of the bed cold and empty. Confused, James gets up to search for Regulus and he's not prepared for what he finds.
James walks into the kitchen and Regulus is standing at the stove singing and dancing while casually flipping pancakes.
“Reg?”
“James!” Regulus spins around and bounces over to James. “Good morning!”
“Good morning.” James says slowly. “What time did you wake up?”
“Oh, I didn’t.” Regulus tells him. “I never went to bed. I didn’t want to wake up this early, so I just decided to stay up, so I started drinking coffee last night around 10 and then I had an energy drink at midnight and then again at 2 and I’ve made a few more pots of coffee. How are you? Are you all packed? Any last-minute things you need to pack? Don’t forget your things from the bathroom. Did you shower? I already showered, so you can shower whenever you want. And I made breakfast. This is actually the second breakfast because I made some a few hours ago but then I realized it was too early and you wouldn’t be up yet, so I ate that and now I’m making another batch for you. There’s fresh coffee and I'm making blueberry pancakes, but if you want something else, I can make that also. Are you okay, you’re being very quiet.” Regulus says all in one breath and James just blinks at him several times.
“Reg…” James starts but he’s cut off when Regulus gives him a quick kiss.
“It’s going to be such a great day, James!” Regulus bounces back to the stove.
James has a feeling it’s going to be a very long day.
#regulus's caffeine crash is going to be brutal#if he doesn't have a heart attack first#i don't know which is worse#sleepy grouchy cranky regulus#or overly hyperactive regulus#james has his hands full either way#regulus loves james#james loves regulus#jegulus#jegulus microfic#jegulus fanfiction#marauders fanfiction#regulus black#james potter#marauders#james x regulus#regulus x james#marauders era#harry potter marauders#harry potter#hp#hp marauders#dead gay wizards from the 70s#dead gay wizards#starchaser#sunseeker#jeggyverse microfic
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i usually go through these periods where its like i have one constant string of panic attacks about death for like 2 weeks then back to normal but i think this time its different its really bad this time
#its never been like this before i feel like i have an understanding of it that i never thought about it deeply enough to have before#i don't think it's gonna go away this time because neither is the fact that i'm goint to die and i can't forget it anymore#i stop existing unless some heaven is real and in that event i go to hell#i don't know which is worse#but i cant get out of it either way i cant just decide not to die
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i feel like the pilates video is also gross bc its trying to sell a product, like them saying theyre trying to "squash the stigma" while promoting a product, it feels insincere to me
I agree that it is all made worse because they're selling a product. They're not squashing stigma, they're pretending to squash stigma. They're spreading horrific misogyny for money. And Harry agreed to it.
#I assume he's doing it for money#and at minimum has invested in the company#But maybe he's spreading misogyny for free#I don't know which is worse
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Something very twisted about the fact that i used my chosen name for years in every situation that didn't require my legal name, but I couldn't get it legally changed. And now, I got it legally changed, but I have to use my deadname in every situation that doesn't require my legal name.
#i don't know which is worse#but this is just one of the many ways im losing myself#i cant use my name#cant dress the way i want#or do the things i want#the desire to exist has been slowly fading#and i didnt notice#but its almost completely gone now#like theres just nothing left anymore#im just a shell that goes through the motions and never really lived#and i no longer have enough desire to do anything else
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WTF???
In other news, @ trans ladies: Fox News's trusted scientists just found a way to save y'all a lot of money for the procedure.
#trans issues#all solved#transitioning made easy#fox news#I know the truth bar is low but this low?#do they think viewers are this stupid?#or they know their viewers are this stupid#I don't know which is worse
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i just LOVE when i take a step closer to dropping my ed behaviours and then two days later i'm coming back to my stupid edblr account.
#i don't know which is worse#doing this or going from anxiety attacks because a fucking emoji reminded me of my groomer to fantasizing about getting groomed again#i don't like my brain.
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Surviving in a Place Not Meant for Me
I wish I could bite the metal File my teeth down So people no longer flinch when I arrive Fangs gleaming I beg to sew my own mouth shut To let the threads make me tame And hide the wild That threatens to spill out I put on the collar that binds Turn a wild animal into a pet The feral into tame And hides what I’ve been made into I remove my vocal cords Silence myself And forget how to sing with the pack Suppress the blood that fights in my veins Nature and nurture Were always something I was Taught To overcome But how am I to overcome When they both reinforce the same lesson To take the hit From the hand that feeds I look away To hide the wild in my eyes The bright yellow not meant to be seen Rather than the warm amber they should be I beg the moon at night To release me from my wolfish state To hide the things in me That prevent me from consolidating into society The moon sits in silence Watching me pull the fangs out of my mouth I will ensure that they know I will never bite I will swallow my teeth for love
#vent post#vent poetry#poetry#I'm tired of being treated like a rabid dog for not masking#Or immediately rolling over for anyone that disagrees with me#Being othered is exhausting but constantly changing myself for everyone is painful#I don't know which is worse#personal#im so tired
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It's not fair the Tylenol is barely working this time around
#don't mind me#the scarier option being it is working and the cramps are just that much worse#this is what I get for not having the emotional devastation I guess#I don't know which is worse
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i'm ready to try
#This drawing is kind of personal to me#I recently graduated (CUM LAUDE WOOOO!!!!) and its like. not to get depressing#but when i was younger i was never sure whether i would make it to this point#When i was going through what i consider to still be like. the worst time of my entire life#This fictional character was there for me and she was something for me to latch onto and cope with#eGem helped me a lot with being able to process my emotions at the time but also helped me to reflect on myself#which i think is a big reason as to why I'm really happy with where i am with myself right now#I'm going off to uni next school year to study astronomy!!! which!!!#Im also doing because of eGem!!! She ignited this kind of childlike wonder for space for me#I love doing math and physics and whilst Im still a bit scared because. honestly i don't know whether this is what i want to do with my lif#I think i'll be okay either way#either way i wanted to draw egem again even if i haven't done so in a while because its like#i think i wouldnt be who i am without her. i think i'd be a lot worse off#so like. thank you empires smp thank you geminitay thank you egem This drawing is me expressing my gratitude#AND THANK YOU AUTISM!#empires smp#empires smp s1#empiresblr#esmp#geminitay#art#fanart#alice.art#mcyt#mcytblr#song is andromeda by weyes blood... obv.. you guys know me by now :oP
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Today at work, some kid tried to hug me and and my brain malfunctioned, so I just very awkwardly patted him on the head.
#please don't touch me#My life#Usually when kids try to hug me I get anxious and say#I don't know which is worse
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“... there's so many layers to that to unpack because the characters are communicating in subtext in different scenes as well.”
#caught myself smiling like an idiot while making this#which is bad because is with someone i don't know#and even worse when that someone is a man lmao#just wanted to have his pretty fucking eyes here for a bit#sebastian stan#sebastianstanedit#sebstanedit#fysebastianstan#sstanedit#stansclan#gbbb
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I couldn't pick just one
#one piece#nico robin#soul king brook#hanahone#i know robin's is horrible but i don't know which of the two would be worse at this point#it's okay they have each other
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I'm sorry but I genuinely can't understand how people can look at Stolitz and Catradora and think these ships are healthy in any way, shape or form.
Stolas r*ped Blitzø. No, consent given in a life-or-death situation doesn't count
Stolas is racist towards imps, and this didn't change even when he "fell in love" with Blitzø
Stolas doesn't appreciate or respect Moxxie and Millie in the slightest (and was disappointed that his "Prince Charming" wasn't the one to rescue him)
He looks down on Blitzø and calls him things like "impish little plaything" and "his big dicked Blitzy" and doesn't stop treating him like shit even when Blitzø says loud and clear that he hates being talked down on like this (DUH)
The only thing Stolas knows about Blitzø is that he hates books and the only thing Blitzø knows about Stolas is that he's a boring bookworm. Keep in mind, the two figured this out about each other while they were kids, 25 YEARS AGO, after Blitzø was bought so that he could be Stolas' "friend" for ONE DAY
Stolas doesn't love Blitzø for Blitzø. Stolas loves the *idea* of Blitzø. The bird man wants to live a romance that is just like the romances in his cheesy novels. He wants to ride into the sunset with his one true love. He wants grand romantic gestures. He wants his "Prince Charming". Except, Blitzø isn't the type of guy for such sappy displays of affection, he never was. Especially combined with his trauma. And as soon as that other imp guy asked him to dance, Stolas not only accepted the offer, but Blitzø was no longer on his mind. And no, I don't think being drunk is proof that Stolas didn't mean what he had told Blitzø. Drunk people find it easier to say what's really on their mind after all
Blitzø fell in love with his abuser. This makes sense, actually. The guy always pushed everyone away and never got to experience true love, and now that he has the chance to be "wanted," even if the "relationship" is toxic, he finds it hard to let it go
As for Catradora, the things I wanna say about this ship have already been said throughout the years, but it all boils down to these things:
Catra mentally, emotionally and physically abused Adora
Catra had no problem ending the whole entire universe if it meant she'd finally be better than Adora
Catra was a war criminal and a fascist
Catra was responsible for what happened to Glimmer's mom and never apologized, let alone faced consequences
Their relationship was toxic even when they were kids
They were both raised by Shadow Weaver and were the only ones in the Horde who saw her as a mother figure, thus making the ship straight up incest, with even the official source material calling them sisters (adoptive siblings ARE REAL SIBLINGS!!!)
Catra got exactly what she wanted in the end (the girl she's always been obsessed with and dependent on) and, once again, faced 0 consequences for her actions
The show (and C//A stans) fetishizes abuse. As a SA survivor, I felt physically sick during the final episode, where the abuser ends up with her victim/sister and they kiss
In short, these ships are disgusting and the lgbt community deserves better representation
#i don't know which ship is worse#they're both ass#anti helluva boss#anti stolas#anti stolitz#anti vivziepop#fuck stolas#fuck vivziepop#stolas critical#stolitz critical#helluva boss critical#helluva boss criticism#spop discourse#spop critical#anti catra#anti catradora#anti spop#spop salt#anti c//a#fuck catra#tw abuse#tw incest mention#tw sa mention
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If I ever said anything today that might offend you, please forgive me. I might have been delusional from the fever.
THE LOYAL PIN | EPISODE FIVE
#the loyal pin#theloyalpinedit#freenbecky#aninpin#anilpin#rowan gifs#purpleguitar#tuseralexa#userrlana#tuserhidden#tusersilence#khaotunq#userdramas#aka: becky armstrong breaks my fucking heart.gif#don't worry i have another one to make it better soon :')#a note about “never mind”:#personally i think this could also translate as “it's okay that you don't know”#which really makes it all worse in my humble opinion
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How many people witnessed softie food addict horror who needed something in his mouth or he would actively kill and turn to cannibalism 🧍♀️ or was that just me.... anyways honestly it was silly.. he'd maybe get along with cook horror... I just like fanon crossovers guys*sadge
Anyways canon horror is also silly(really silly. What an asshole, man)(no seriously he's actually such an asshole.. I might love him for that but-) I don't think he would get along with the others(loser)
#me when I acknowledge as many sides of an argument as possible which just makes me confused because I am trying to take off of other people#but they're so diverse that I can't mix all of it and so I don't know how to interpret any characters anymore and what makes it worse is my#ahh not actually understanding people or relationships because I got minimum emotions maximum carelessness but I also love emotions so I#love the psychological torture of all of this but I also don't understand it so I'm depending on everyone else but yet again they're so#mixed I get confused and I don't know how to deal with any of it so I'm just here standing confused screaming in my own mind as I try to#understand how to make it all work together and then#....#Jesus fuck#sans au#utmv#undertale au#horrortale#horror sans#UwU#anyways disregard any ideas I may have ever because they will always change and I don't know what to do anymore.......#bro I'm boutta resort to Wattpad fics.... get ready for Wattpad highschool fic😼/j#I want to do that but I lost my fluidity in writing sighs...#I never graduated from Wattpad sorry guys😔#I didn't do that well drawing canon horror tbh but it'll have to do
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Today, the country indeed looks alien. The America many of us believed we knew now appears stranger in retrospect: The anger and resentment we may have thought was pitched at a simmer turned out to be at a rollicking boil. And one of liberals’ most cherished shibboleths from 2016—that Trumpism is a movement for aggrieved white men—unraveled in the face of a realignment that saw the GOP appear to give birth to a multiracial working-class movement. A second Trump presidency is the result of this misjudgment.
Democrats are a coalition party of the center-left
The Left has traditionally been associated with egalitarianism, which is by necessity concerned with the masses, the common people, the working class, but also the dispossessed, the marginalized, the disadvantaged
The modern Democratic party traces its roots most directly to the New Deal coalition of the 1930s, which it understands to have been a robust working-class and labor-rights movement
They also see themselves in the 1960s cultural revolutions and their repudiation of hierarchy, itself generally seen as the position of the common person, the masses, but also the dispossessed
The party takes its name from Andrew Jackson, great champion of the Common Man, at least as understood at his time, but it goes back to Thomas Jefferson, famous for declaring that "all men are created equal," and now excoriated for failing to live out that egalitarian principle
The Democrats are a party for the people, understood as capaciously as possible, the party that repudiates narrow nationalism and jingoism, in favor of spreading the benefits of American society widely, in opposition to favoring the privileged few
Why am I reminding you of all these things that you already know?
Because they believe so deeply that they are right in every way that matters, or at least incomparably superior to their opponents, they cannot begin to imagine repudiation from the very people in whose interests they thought they were acting, let alone in favor of the very person they swore was an existential, even murderous threat to those very same people
I think to appreciate the sensation, you might imagine a thief broke into your home, and then your family kicked you out in favor of the thief; someone broke in to ravish your spouse and they called the police on you; a sex offender told your children explicitly what he wanted to do them, and your children fought you to get out of your arms so they could crawl into the van knowing full well they'd never see you again
The shock is so existentially horrifying, such a betrayal of reality itself, that it would require rethinking all your most basic assumptions about the political order, human beings, and worst of all, yourself. Why would they do such a manifestly insane thing? Is there something I don't know? What did I miss? What did I do wrong? What do I do now?
Democrats cannot meaningfully internalize that they are the party of the privileged and the elite, by their own philosophy they are themselves the enemy, they write a blank check for the most lurid excesses of anti-colonial violence and call it "exhilarating" without dealing with the fact that given their assumptions, in this society, they are the power and not the resistance
But it's hard to ask yourself these kinds of questions and most people don't have the nerve for it, and so what we see instead, in another little paradox of human nature, is they're going to blame not the ravisher but the spouse
TL;DR, self-examination is hard, so now Democrats hate Latinos
#meanwhile republicans just don't give a shit#they are truly the 'i got mine and you can go fuck yourself' party#honestly for better and for worse#republicans are precisely as magnanimous or as vicious as their bank balance allows#but then#that is deeply human so how can you argue with it#a Republican is someone who not only knows that they would cannibalize their friends if sufficiently threatened#they know precisely the order in which they would do it#valuing as they do their personal security and survival above every other consideration#'well what do democrats value?'#the illusion of moral superiority at literally any cost#we will continue to watch these impulses play out
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