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epersonae · 5 months ago

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Hi - good morning.

this may be a weird, out of place message.

I was mutuals with Ryn (when they went by Kath) many many years ago. We interacted briefly, but Ryn was one of my favourite follows. They got me into Mass Effect, which is now my favourite franchise. I deleted tumblr years ago, but would think of Ryn and the passion for Tess from TLOU often. Though I was not a TLOU fan, the stories and world Ryn created for Tess really stayed with the me.

Ryn came to mind recently and I was curious to know their thoughts on the live action Tess. I remade tumblr to find their blog as I had forgotten the url. I found their tumblr because of the joel miller "foxy grandpa" profile pic, which still made me laugh even years later. I was devastated to find Ryn had passed.

I know I am just a stranger on the internet, but I wanted to share that is not infrequent that Ryn crosses my mind. Ryn's love for Tess, their creativity, and their humour really stayed with me through the years. I will think of them for years to come.

I am so sorry for your loss. Ryn was truly a bright light light in this world that we have lost.

Not weird, not out of place -- I teared up when I saw your message, and thank you for this.

I always feel so honored when people reach out about their experiences with Ryn. They had such an effect on so many people who I never met and probably never will meet, and I especially love hearing from friends from other fandoms. We met through fandom, we became friends and creative collaborators and then fell in love, and our first date was a liveshow for The Adventure Zone. And so I treasure that this was such a huge part of their life.

They were restarting Mass Effect, the new (? remastered?) version that came out in 2021, the summer before they died. I got to see them play just a little bit, and they were going to show me all their favorite things and share the lore, and what they loved about it. (I am terrible at most video games, so I probably won't ever play it myself, alas.)

I know they loved Tess from TLOU - I also got a little bit of their hot takes about Joel, and iirc about people woobifying him? I had no idea what the hell the "foxy grandpa" Joel Miller icon was about when we first became friends, but I also associate it so much with them.

I don't know if the live action was any further than having been announced by the time they died; if it was, I don't remember their thoughts. (@adreamingofguns can you check me on this? between it not being my thing and 2021 being entirely consumed with the Horrors and the wedding, I cannot remember) I thought about watching it for them, but got warned off on account of a variety of themes that are a little too close to my various traumas, but I have vicariously enjoyed it through various mutuals who were watching.

Thank you thank you thank you again for the ask. I got a bunch of messages on various platforms when I posted from their accounts, including some folks who I am still mutuals with now. We had such a short time together, in the grand scheme of things, that it brings me both intense joy and intense sorrow to encounter other people who cherished their passion, creativity, and humor.

#and this week of all weeks #our wedding anniversary (legal) is this coming week #so I have been thinking of them extra lately #so silly and earnest and bitchy #I carry them in my heart #I'm glad you do too #not all exits are made equal

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vepppy · 4 months ago

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guiding key ✨

#kh #sora #riku #kingdom hearts #soriku #kh4 #kindaaaa #I originally wanted something for my calm SR playlist but got carried away hdkdmsaomocnf #I love them #like i loooveee them a normal amount #i think for the past month ive cried a total of 350 times after an edible just thinking about sora and riku #their bond and love for each other makes my heart so full #anyway. :). just thought I’d share that. welcome to the bathroom

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suckdickforcoin · 4 months ago

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Peri and dev doodles !!

#my art #fanart #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents #dev dimmadome #fop peri #got too carried away with the peri full body drawing LMAO #GIVE THAT MAN HIS LASHES BACK #i hope they become happy #PEASE MAKE THEM HAPPY #I heart peri #reason why i got pushed into watching the show #thank you peri

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ruporas · 2 years ago

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i’ll find you again in every universe. let us be a little more honest, let us have a little more time.

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #despite it all though badlands rumble is like. the only universe where we get wolfwood thinking vash died first... and i think that means a #lot to their relationship and how it may bloom if there was more to badlands rumble considering vash literally saw wolfwood carrying a piece #of vash after his supposed death. u know! despite the short time they were together vash still meant so much to wolfwood that he couldn't #just move on or forget him in anyway. needed to keep a piece of him for himself and the rest of his days. but ofc vash lives and wolfwood #was like ill beat ur fucking ass into tomorrow. there's just so much honesty in vash being able to see that gesture bc he wouldnt know #otherwise just how much he might mean to him. ANYWAY. trimax with with the eternal pining featuring the two chapters where imo #where the both of them really fell for each other... i wrote my thoughts about this on another comic i did before #but vash solidifying his feelings during the hospital arc -- ww solidifies his when he realizes his allegiances are permanently with vash #98 my lovelies but also to me they are so one-sided bc ww pined like no tomorrow and vash only realizes after ep 23?24? his heart did tickle #whenever ww complimented his smile though #and tristamp vw my beloveds. it really just feels like they get the chance to be closer and closer and more honest with each other #with every version that comes about. in trimax they knew how little time they had but struggled so desperately to get closer. in 98 ww felt #more willing to forsake for vash. in badlands rumble theyre Angry but as mentioned earlier ^ more blatant truth... due to circumstances #mainly but has the chance to lead to discussions and tristamp literally. first day of knowing each other ww saves vash - 2 days later vash #saves ww like. Man. AND NOW THEY MAY POTENTIALLY GET EVEN CLOSER!!!! with s2....#ruporas art

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nenoname · 24 days ago

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weirdmageddon 3 group hug my beloved

#they love him!! he loves all of them!!!! appreciate every single frame dangit!!!#including that frame of him crying that literally only lasts for a single moment!!!!#mabel and soos also crying and wendy wiping tears from her eyes #waddles running around them...#gravity falls #stan pines #stanley pines #mabel pines #dipper pines #soos ramirez #wendy corduroy #soos easily carrying all of them is so adorable #i need post series stuff of him carrying them+ford too #also man we really needed that wendy+stan crime story #i mourn its loss everyday but it's canon in my heart!!!!

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7cfc00 · 11 months ago

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home is where the heart is (and yours is gone)

#happy holidays #dndads #dndads fanart #dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #dndads s1 #glenn close dndads #dndads season 2 #dndads odyssey #dndads glenn close #im so sick and fever rn so forgive me for any mistakes in this drawing or in my following explanation #background is covered in crosses for the bad day book. the chains represent his time in meth bay prison #the three swords are a reference to the three of swords tarot card which means like heartbreak or smth #also can be taken literally because his heart exploded #the swords themselves are modelled after the sword of justice to bring in themes of justice and punishment as well as referencing the trial #i also drew the same sword in the blackjack thing.#bottom left is his funeral pyre (referencing his death) and nick jr (representing his son's “death”)#the door is the door to his apartment its number 48 because ep 48 is carry on my wayward son #christmas decor cus of course hed had them up all year round #the plant is a peace lily representing death and funeral s again #headstone is morgan's the crysanthemum represents her death. this is because its also featured in the “remember death” thing i drew once #also i just associate flowers w the close family because it very easily represents both mortality and love #anyway. fuckin. his heart (loved ones + literal heart) are gone and its like. can he ever return home #idk smth about not being able to go back to the way things were smth about having the comfort of a home anymore. leaving all that shit behi #d. i feel so tired #sorry for the long explanation i think i may have went a little too hard on the symbolism but i didn t know how else to #express the feelings of glenn's conversation w darryl in that one episode

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hgvhehehe · 4 months ago

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Let. Them. Hug.

"What's gotten into you, Diavolo?" "Just very happy to see you, i presume."

The sequel.

No one is actually immune from Diavolo's great love.

#obey me #obey me!#obey me shall we date #obey me boys #obey me fanart #obey me lucifer #obey me diavolo #dialuci #lucidia #diavolo x lucifer #lucifer x diavolo #I've spent too much time on Dia's butt actually #and it wasn't supposed to be a full art #but I got carried away #because they look so precious so soft so cute i love this my art with all my heart #they've healed me #i love them so much you have no idea

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 10 months ago

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Hi! I hope this is okay but I would love to hear more of ur thoughts about the Yunmeng siblings because they are important to me and your tummy hurt comic hasn't left my brain as just,,, such good immediate characterization! ^^ Thanks!

I have too many thoughts on the Yunmeng siblings to fit into a succinct post, but I can offer you a Jiang Yanli addendum to the tummy hurt alignment.

#ask #poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jiang yanli #They way I analyze characters is in two layers - the first is how these characters act as literary devices #(i.e. their relationship to the protagonist and themes of the story)#And the second is who they are as independent characters.#Which means I have extensive thoughts on JC and JYL on a scene to scene basis as well as overall thoughts.#The tummy hurt comic was always about the different ways we process grief #and Jiang Yanli's role as the 'comforting older sister figure' despite the hurt she carries in her heart truly fascinates me.#I can relate in the sense I find it easier to care for others than care for my own grief.#But that grief caught me eventually. And it was ugly and raw.#JYL is grief in rose tinted glasses (minimized). JC is the messy chaos of grief when raw and exposed. Clever move to make them siblings!

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mintjeru · 8 months ago

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it probably wasn't the smartest decision to start an ongoing 1000+ chapter webnovel when i know it'll consume my every waking thought but here we are

open for better quality | no reposts

#turning novel #터닝 #kishiar la orr #yuder aile #when i tell you i read the manhwa in one go last night and then started reading the novel today bc commenters said it was good #and my god were they right #i'm 40+ chapters in so i've just passed where the manhwa is at rn and wow #first of all thank god there are high quality and easily accessible translations #second of all kuyu-nim has a way of making all the lines carry weight. the dialogue and body language cues especially #like i'm definitely not that far in but there are already a few lines i can point out that made my heart clench #and the tension between the two leads is so so palpable #kishiar is very enigmatic i'm very interested in finding out what he's really thinking and what his abilities are #and i really appreciate the way yuder's development is focused on him caring about others and relying on them #ok and third the fact that it's a slow burn romance but focuses heavily on the plot and politics and relationships is so good #based on the tags this could have been very tropey but they didn't go that route and i'm glad for it #in other news i'm upset about how yuder came out but i have to post him bc i will not separate them ;;;#thought kishiar would be harder to draw bc he's pretty:tm: and i struggle drawing pretty boys but yuder put me through the wringer fr #anyway!! i love them very much!! going a little insane over them as you can see!!

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shannonsketches · 8 months ago

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Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

#dbtag #I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd #Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao #they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of #Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind'#and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life'#toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned'#and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit'#girl hWHAT #Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants #to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!!#Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies #They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted #He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok #He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be #because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that #Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt #+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow #realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??'#now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader.#and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat #you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play.#You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here #And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship #and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there #you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad #anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay #And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe

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iamamythologicalcreature · 1 year ago

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Carry On Countdown, Day 1: Creature

(Quotes from "Wayward Son" and "Any Way the Wind Blows" by @rainbowrowell)

My first ever @carryon-countdown! I immediately saw this image in my mind when I read the prompt for day 1.

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chooh2 · 6 months ago

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A Very Happy Pride to and from 2 characters that are so incredibly important to me, that each carry a piece of my heart and have been integral in my own journey of becoming more comfortable and happy in my own skin 🌈💖

#cyberpunk 2077 #mass effect #nonbinary v #femshep #oc: Devan #oc: Murphy Shepard #when i tell you i legitimately teared up just seeing devan when i brought them back for this aldhfkahfk :')#in hindsight i havent had these characters for very long- tho it feels like forever #created devan sometime early 2021 and introduced myself to mass effect in 2022 #but the impact both of these characters have had on me is crazy #neither of them are self inserts in the technical sense- but i mean it when i say they carry pieces of my heart #while im still in the closet with those in my irl circle i can live openly through these characters #and then to share them in this online space and for them to be loved!!! its liberating <3 #anyway- all this to say once more #🌈 Happy Pride!

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undertheredhood · 1 year ago

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jason accidentally trauma-dumps to this masked vigilante who he’s somehow immediately comfortable trusting while willis todd who is not dead and is very much still alive (but still hasn’t told his only living child yet) is internally screaming “WHAT DID THEY DO TO MY PRECIOUS BABY BOY?!?!?!?”