#I can't even be mad properly

[francy-sketches]

People give joffrey way too much credit acting like he's some kind of all powerful megasatan or smth. Like it's nice that you believe in him n all but all you'd need to do is slap him and he'd start crying lol

[robinsnest2111]

okay sooooooo I somehow got my hands on the cheese dispenser manual and apparently we're not following proper maintenance protocol as detailed in the instructions (like with so many of the machines at work tbh. WHY IS NO ONE READING THE DAMN INSTRUCTIONS)

and apparently the part of the machines that's giving us trouble is supposed to be removed, thoroughly cleaned and reattached at least once a week???? and idk if we've got a dedicated educated worker doing that in secret or if no one's read the manual and no one's actually done the proper cleaning routine ever????? uhhhhh

don't wanna be a disruptive force at work on purpose (at least not more than I am on accident sometimes oops) but I would looove to print out the manual and ask the managers about that weekly maintenance passage ngl

but the incessant need to FIND SOLUTIONS AND FIX THINGS AND DO THINGS THE PROPER WAY AND MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR EVERYONE GRRRRR

(also apparently there's kinda hidden air vents on the dispenser that need to be cleaned weekly as well???? and idk if that gets done either???? HELP?????)

[insomniacs-keyboard]

Going to the dentist tomorrow 😔 gonna find out why my mouth broken

[rose-tinted-vision]

Ok I've done this before but after ep 12???? I think it fits Lu Guang more instead????

[coockie8]

Okay, so my Samhain piece of Vlad and Plasmius may not actually get done by Samhain, 'cause the deeper I get into the piece, the slower and slower my art program is running, to the point it's starting to take several seconds to load in a single brush stroke, so I may be confined to working on this on the weekends, and I only have one weekend left.

Words cannot describe how deeply frustrated I am with this.

[peachznscream]

genunely sometimes do not know how to cope with the world being so cold and bureacratic and people who withold care and essential rights to people over arbitrary rules and money and

[unproduciblesmackdown]

in yet another W for lovelessness, the concept exists

[umemiyan]

my abdomen is sore today and i just know it's gotta be from me moving around trying to decorate and shit but 'TIS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY BITCH like ain't nobody else here to put this damn christmas tree up

[cuteniarose]

what if vaatu got midori instead??

Well.. "got" is kinda the wrong word here because honestly, I don't see Vaatu willingly fusing with a human in most circumstances, the exceptions being Adumbration by @katkastrofa – which barely counts since it was less fusing and more him being inside her already by virtue of growing inside Raava – and my Avatar Suiren AU, in which it's done on Vaatu's terms and Suiren doesn't remain fused to him a second longer than she has to, as much as she loves her little emo kite (may or may not be falling under the influence of both Kat and @shadelorde by implying that whatever the fuck Unalaq was doing with Vaatu was coerced and barely consensual since Unalaq was the one who had the most power in that sitiation. Do with that information what you will). And if he were to, I doubt Midori would be his first choice, nor would Midori herself wish to be the Avatar, Dark or otherwise

BUT if we operate under the assumption that it does somehow happen, Vaatu would have access to all of Midori's inner workings and I'm afraid that listening to her anxiety-ridden internal monologue of "I will forever be inferior to my gorgeous, powerful and capable sister. She will always be better than me, more beloved by everyone whose opinion matters, unaware of the inescapable shadow she casts. I'm doomed to remain the pathetic, useless little sister who can't even stand up for herself" will hit way, way too close to home and he'd yeet himself out of her within five minutes

[p2ii]

blocking the tag isn't enough I need it to stop existing

[hotfuss]

You don't understand I need this dunes pin and mcr stickers I ordered to arrived asap (pretty sure they are just blocked at customs right now) to give me some kind of serotonin bc my job is dragging me into a deep depression hole

[noones-untruly]

Listen, Fitz, I love you. But.

Oh, my. fucking. gods, you are so motherfatherfucking dumb

I'm so mad at you, for what you said to Beloved, for how you treated him, and Chade, and Kettriken, and Nettle.

And you dare to be disappointed that everyone thinks you're hot-tempered and unable to reason? JUST LOOK BACK AT ANY OF YOUR STUPID ASS DECISIONS, YOU ASSHOLE

OF COURSE PEOPLE ARE AFRAID OF YOU, YOU'RE UNSTABLE AND SOMETIMES EVEN UNRELIABLE

I can't. I wanna punch you in the face, you little fuck. Get some therapy, please.

And also why is it that you're mad at Beloved for loving you despite that you think you're unlovable?

[one-futilerat]

✨oH My GoD I'M lOSinG mY fUCkINg mIND✨

[averagelonelypotato]

MY PROF JUST GAVE US BACK OUR MIDTERM AND EVERYONE GOT LOWASS MARKS, THE HIGHEST MARK WAS A 60%. 

[princessclefairyberry]

Closing asks for a while because the scams are getting EXTRA nasty and by nasty I mean anxiety-spiral-inducing

[playingplayer2]

Trying to be introspective and I honestly just send myself spiraling. Spiraling where? No idea, just spiraling.

Definitely spiraling lmao

Like, I've dated before. I also spent nine months third wheeling two of my best friends when they dated and then the few weeks before school started again attached at the hip (the divorce was awkward but it took like a week before the three of us went back to relative normal?? we were in high school and we basically spent like, all of our time hanging out w/ just us three) and while it definitely wasn't romantic, very platonic between me and them, it was infinitely more comfortable and functional(?) than any other relationship I've been in before and since then.

(honestly went on better dates w/ them than I've gone w/ any of my bfs or gfs.......... Aish. Well. Eh, had a couple nice actual dates w/ past partners who... Hn.)

Ironically that was around the time when I started to prefer hearing/reading about other people's relationships and becoming curious about polyamory. So. Hm.

I'm well aware that I do have an actual interest in romantic and sexual partners, each to their own fluctuating degrees. I'm also keenly aware of my own personal issues, half my life in therapy said a lot, didn't fix, heal, or help much.

Would probably rather watch (hypothetical) partners than actively participate in most things, sexual or otherwise. I'm both stupidly touch starved and touch averse, and frankly almost worked myself into an anxiety attack last night releasing- rather putting into coherent thoughts- that I expect touch to hurt and, masochistic preferences aside, I fucking hate that.

Also a firm believer in not using your partner to fix yourself and I'm fuuuuucked in the head in some ways lol. Not nearly as nice as my friends say I am either. Mean streak 100 miles wide, I just actively work to not be cruel. Emotionally stunted with more intellectual emotional intelligence than empathy. Blunter than most people like, with an unfortunate side habit of not saying anything at all if I think my opinion would be poorly received. Trust issues almost 23 years in the making and anxious attachment shit. Would rather cook someone a meal than say "I love you." Enough baggage a cargo plane would struggle.

Would probably be happier as a couple's third who gets to take care of them in materialistic and domestic ways more than anything. Granted I'm broke asf, disabled in a way that makes working difficult, and kinda permanently stitched to my dysfunctional family. So. Hhhn. Driest texter in the universe too. Fucking suck at talking. All hn hm mh mm and shit instead of actual words because I don't know how to fucking talk to people at all.

Don't even know how to figure this shit out with the - hello yes it's still a problem, getting worse by the day, folks - ongoing fucking global pandemic fucking shit over in addition to my isolationist tendencies, because it's better to rip away like fucking velcro than to get burned again in my books, spent enough time alone and enough times where people stabbed me in the back to know which I'd pick.

Idk. Maybe I'm just lonely and spiraling because my social battery's been dead for like 3 years now because I haven't gone out with people since everyone else started to abandon masking and treating me like I was absolutely nutters for still masking. And I've always leaned towards being an antisocial, isolating, catastrophizing, pessimist at heart no matter how extroverted I am.

Idk.