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Another gym session 💪🏽
#getting a lot better#instead of 5 minutes on each machine I did about 10-15 mins#which super proud#I’m going to keep building it up#but the stair-master#I think it’s called#is ROUGH#I did like five minutes of it and my thighs hurt 😭😭😭#I also saw people from my school#since I used the treadmills facing the window#and they waved at me#and I’m like there fighting for my life like 😔😊👋🏾#also this guy was on the treadmill wearing jeans#and I’m like damn kudos to you my guy#gatherrambles#g/personal
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#I’ve been trying super hard the last year/year and a half to be diligent about writing alt text#so im just kinda idly curious how many people on tumblr directly benefit from people doing that#storytime I guess but I had a classmate for most of my grade schooling who had prosthetic eyes including a pair she wore for Halloween#that had nails sticking out of them#people did Not like those#also she started a warrior cats themed fight club in like 4th grade#she was such a character lol#I hope she’s doing well. I think last I saw she’s working for some kind of legal. firm? I actually don’t know#op
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Stobin Different First Meeting AU where they go to prom together. This was meant to be an au post and turned into a mini fic oops (written completely within a tumblr post so sorry for the poor quality)
(edit: realized I should link the fic I was inspired by for those who don't follow me and so didn't see me reblog it earlier)
Steve doesn't necessarily want to go to prom, right? Like yeah, he'd been imagining it for a while, but now that he was very, very single it just didn't have the same shine that it used to. And he really wasn't ready to start dating yet. However, he didn't want to just, not go to prom, and also knew it would seem really weird (and pretty fucking sad) if he didn't go.
Which leaves him in a conundrum.
He thought for a while that maybe he would go with one of the junior cheerleaders. While he didn't have any close friends anymore, he was still friendly with plenty of people. There were girls that wouldn't be going to prom unless they had a senior boyfriend - some he had even gone on dates with in the past who wouldn't think a single prom date meant that he wanted a new girlfriend.
However, he is pretty sure most of those girls would have... other expectations for the night. And honestly? He isn't quite sure that he was ready to get back on that horse either.
... Not that he thought women were horses.
He's pretty sure men are normally the ones called horses in riding metaphors.
Anyway.
That left him stuck. He couldn't just not go to prom, but also didn't want to wind up trapped on an actual date with someone. So who could he ask?
His solution ended up coming from an odd place.
Robin Buckley was... quite honestly, kind of a weirdo.
She was cute, in an alternative sort of way. She never took any of his shit (he wasn't completely sure she even liked him) but also reluctantly laughed at the snarky shit he said under his breath during their Film History class. And not in the fake giggly way girls did when they were flirting, but didn't actually care about what he was saying, just the way he said it. She actually seemed to think he was funny. Even if that revelation seemed to piss her off.
The only reason he was even in Film History that semester - and therefore, knew who she was - was for the easy A. He got to watch movies in class, and watch movies for homework. He was willing to plow through a couple of shitty essays in exchange for a class that he didn't feel like a complete idiot in.
(Well, he was pretty sure Robin thought he was an idiot about movies, but just because he had trouble remembering the names and shit of characters, didn't mean he couldn't analyze the themes, fuck you very much, Buckley.)
They had gotten assigned a project together early on, and it hadn't been completely terrible. She had quickly taken over doing most of the writing portions, but hadn't thought all of his ideas were terrible. By the end of the project he thought they were even sort of having fun together.
He'd always been one to try his luck, take a little more than he was given. So, after that assignment was over, he started sitting next to her in class, not wanting that easy, if sharp, camaraderie to end. Robin rolled her eyes at him and asked him what he thought he was doing the first time he did it, but she never sent him away.
They ended up chatting more and more during down times, passing notes to each other and sharing sly comments under their breaths during the movies. Steve often had trouble paying attention at school, his mind easily wandering away, and it was almost as bad during most movies, but Robin helped keep him on track.
The class turned into one that was done for the easy grade, a last ditch effort to improve his already hopeless GPA, and became one he actually enjoyed.
The more he thought about it, the more he liked the idea of going to prom with Robin. It made the night seem a little less unbearable.
He thought about making a big deal out of asking her, because he knows that's what girls (and even Nancy) had enjoyed for past dances. He quickly scrapped that idea, however, because not only did he not want to put pressure on her like that, but also she seemed to hate public spectacles like that.
Or at least when aimed at her, they both enjoyed watching drama unfold in the halls a bit too much to say she hated it completely.
So Steve waits until the end of the day, their film class being their last, to pull her into an empty classroom. She follows him without question in a show of trust he didn't realize she had in him. The notion warms him, and for some reason makes it more difficult to get the question out.
"Why do I feel like you're about to try to sell me drugs or something?" Robin asked, raising an eyebrow at him. He squints at her in offense.
"Why is that your first assumption?!"
"I don't know! Why else are you pulling me out of the hallway all secretive like, making sure no one followed us, into an abandoned classroom," she asks, throwing her arms into the air.
"The classroom isn't abandoned, it's the end of the day! Also, who does drug deals on campus, that's just stupid?" He asks rhetorically, before waving one hand through the air, as if trying to erase the current thread of conversation. "That doesn't matter, you're distracting me."
"Well then, get on with it! Some of us have practice we need to get to."
"It's like talking to the kids," he mutters to himself, "Whatever. I wanted to ask - will you go to prom with me?"
That stops Robin up short. There's panic in her eyes now, though Steve isn't sure what exactly put it there. Was his reputation that bad that even band geeks are terrified of getting asked out by him?
"You want to go on a date? With me?" she asks slowly, disbelief coloring her voice, though it doesn't hide her unease.
"No, I want to go to prom with you," he scoffs, "Not go on a date with you."
"That is a date, dingus! The person you go to prom with is literally called your date!"
"Okay, sure, maybe, but I don't actually want to date you," he said, rolling his eyes at her.
Like, okay, he understood his reputation for being... what did she call him last week? A 'huge effing rake'? But that didn't mean that he was trying to date any girl that looked in his direction. A lot of girls looked in his direction. That was too many women, even for him.
Robin relaxes a little at that.
"Then why are you asking me to prom instead of someone you actually want to date?"
"Because!" he says, resisting the urge to flail his hands back at her. "I don't want to date anyone right now. Most people I ask are going to expect all these things from me - they're going to want dinner, and at the very least a kiss at the end of the night if not more, or another date the very next day. Because Steve Harrington is supposed to want those things!" He takes a deep breath and runs a hand through his hair to calm himself. "But right now? I really don't."
"Well then, what does Steve the Hair Harrington actually want?" She had relaxed fully at this point, a smile playing at the corner of her mouth.
"I want to go to prom with someone I consider a friend, someone who makes me laugh," he says after a moment of silence. "I want to dance badly to really corny pop music and drink just enough spiked punch that I don't remember how much I hate wearing any sort of tie. Then I want to go get milkshakes or go see a really trashy midnight horror flick, just because I'm having so much fun I don't want the night to end."
That small smile has grown into a reluctant grin on Robin's face. It makes her eyes shine and her freckles pop. Steve thought that if he was in a better place, if they had met at a different time, he could have fallen in love with her.
But they had met now instead, in some shitty public school elective course, and she was the closest thing he had to a friend that wasn't a snotty middle schooler.
"That sounds... like a lot of fun, actually," she says, mischief sparking on her face. "Who would've known the hidden depths hidden behind all that hair."
"Hey!" he protests half-heartedly, unable to keep a grin of his own off his face. "So what do you say? Wanna go to prom with me?"
"I guess," she sighs, acting like it was such a trial to go to prom with him. Him! But her next words make up for it. "Since we're friends, and all. However, I still expect you to buy me dinner, though you can keep the kiss goodnight to yourself."
Steve can't help the giddy laugh from spilling out of him. For the first time in weeks, he is actually looking forward to prom.
#stobin#platonic stobin#st fic rec#mini fic#steve#robin#my writing#writing tag#this was got out of hand#all of the stuff about prom is pulled loosely from my own experiences with prom#both from it being seniors only (juniors at my school had their own dance) to what people did after prom#(i went to two proms and one group went and saw a bad horror movie after prom and i went to a diner with the other group)#also this is barely editted so there is some weird tense switches in here im sorry!#this wasnt meant to be an actual fic i had just meant to throw out the idea of steve asking robin to his prom#and steves voice got away from me quick#this was inspired by the fic i reblogged earlier today about steve taking robin to her prom
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Mystery twins Headcannons
Mabel pines
Bisexual (obviously)
Realized at a young age (like 13-14) she liked girls and was very open and confident in it
Falls in love easily (sapphic girly fr)
Dated a lot throughout middle and high school and would immediately claim they they were the one (the longest one was two months lol)
Loves going to parties and always goes all out in the outfits (Goes to every and all pride events she can)
ADHD and autistic (all the pines are autistic but ya’know)
ADHD causes her to hyperfixate on her arts and crafts projects and can cause her to pull all nighters and forget to eat or drink
Has trouble focusing on things that don’t directly retain her interest (as seen in the show lol)
Very talkative
Stimming types
Arm/hands flapping
Pacing/running in circles/Spinning/ rolling around on the ground
Hair chewing
Vocal stims
Frequently changes her aesthetic all thought high school like every week
Makes her own clothes
Impulsively changes her hair (shaved it half off once because she saw some on TikTok with a half half shaved off with it dyed and thought it looked cool)
FaceTimes Grenada and Candi back in GF every night
After graduation she gets accepted into art school in Oregon
Travels down to gravity falls on holiday breaks and most weekends
Sells clothes online for extra cash (college is expensive lol)
Dipper pines
Trans masc
New he was a boy from a very young age but socially transitioned right before leaving for Gravity falls (like on the bus there lol)
Thinks Grunckle Stan doesn’t know but he was there when Dipper and Mabel where born (cannon I think) so he knows but is waiting for dipper to tell him before he brings it up
Has only officially came out to Mabel (as off the start of the summer;comes out to Stan at the end of summer before leaving where Stan reveals that he always known lol )
Autistic (duh)
His autism presents through lack of proper social skills, special interests, and stimming
Stimming types
Chewing (rip his pens lol)
Pacing
Repeating words/phrases
Special interests
Mysteries/Conspiracies
Cryptids/monster
Wears pretty much the same outfit every day lol (flannels too bro thinks he’s Alex hirsh)
Is into the unexplainable for the same reason as ford
He feels like an outcast so we relates a lot to Cryptids because who’s more of an outcast then the moth man
Develops a proper friend group (like two to three other people ) in high school they’re also nerds lol
Started dating Pacifica northwest one summer but his friends don’t believe him
“Like yeah dude you’re dating Pacifica Northwest the richest girl from a small town in the middle of nowhere yeah and you also got chased by an army of gnomes that was trying to marry your sister, sure dude.”
One day she shows up and everyone is shocked lol
Runs a ghost hunting YouTube channel and all his videos are real but everyone thinks it’s fake cause it’s to much evidence
After graduation he moved down the gravity falls full time and takes Ford’s apprenticeship
Take night college classes in film for that ghost hunting show he mentions in that one episode
#jd rants#gravity falls#dipper pines#Mabel pines#also they both travel to gravity falls every summer throughout school#but that’s obvious#lowkey I forgot this was in my drafts lol#welp here it is#also I could make a whole other post about dipper’s#innate need to prove himself and his experiences and therefore his worth to other people and how it stems from an inferiority complex#and feeling inadequate lol#and how the ghost hunting show plays into that#where as Mabel is able to just let stuff go for example if mable saw a ghost and told someone and they didn’t believe her she’d probably#be chill and move on they’re loss ya’know#but oh no not dipper he’d have to prove the ghost exists#and he really does have a pretty rich girlfriend she just goes to a different school#but that’s another post I’ll probably never post
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#prefacing this with I Know Spanish. i cant not know spanish‚ my parents don't speak english#but im the only one of my siblings that didnt get to go to school over there 🇲�� (just pre school)#adn the thing is like. my siblings wld talk to me in eng of course#(if they talked to me at all! what do u say to a baby when you're 9 12 and 15 yrs older.)#and my parents wld similarly jst not talk to me? i did not have conversations with them from birth to now lol.#thjere is something about how like. my sisters kids are also learning the languages at the same time#but when they mess up in spanish theyre corrected‚ by my sister (their mom)‚ my other sister‚ my parents#why not Me. why wasnt that extended to Me as a child...#the same reason I have the least amount of baby pictures while my siblings all have one full book each i bet#the same reason why my and my eldest sister are 15 yrs apart LOL#igts so crazy to me. i hate mentioning this bc people assume#im one of those ppl who isnt fluent bc their parents speak english and spanish and never taught them#my parents dont speak english❗❗❗❗#my nephew thats older than me who is my fave family member and also only speaks spanish#is coming up on sunday idk that i can fully carry convo with him!#pure spanglish bc i didnt grow up having convos in it writing it reading it#thats why im so desperate to read books in spanish now. im so deeply ashamed#igts so crazy. i hate it.#saw a comment on smthng the other day thats like ''idk how u can have parents that only speak spanish and not know it lol''#well can you take a guess. can u take a guess as to how that would happen via interactions. lack thereof.#idk why but its even more embarrassing this way. genuinely how cld u not know...?#its like i was born to feel isolated from my family in every single way...youngest by so many years#the language thing. the Hates Eating thing. the trans thing. most severe failure to launch#im so embarrassed to be alive....!#and i dont belong anywhere. and i am Alone wherever I am.#abandoned by direct and distant relatives. ancestors.
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By implying that children are too stupid and rude to learn about the world and learn how the world works and how to interact with others, you are casting responsibility away from the people who are responsible for that child's upbringing and placing the blame on the children (who don't have the autonomy given to them to be allowed to decide what they want) who can't help what they do and do not learn, often.
If the children aren't okay, then investigate why before turning to thought-terminating clichés of, "Well, the kids are just stupid and dumb and aren't even worth the effort because they're lazy!"
#youth liberation#i was really bothered when i saw this clip where this person was saying almost verbatim that...#...'kids [these days] are too STUPID and they're teachers are scared!'...#...why is the blame placed on the kids who have no control over school curriculum and what their home life is like or if they have money...#...it's because when you place the blame on the people with no power or control you don't have the responsibility to change circumstances..#...you essentially keep the status quo while simultaneously belittling a group of vulnerable people...#...and thus you feed into the cyclical nature of the broken education system#the kids these days AREN'T okay but it ISN'T THEIR FAULT...#...it's the fault of late-stage capitalism and poorly-funded education and a world that wasn't even built with them in mind...#...they had NO PART in the creation of the world which is hostile to their entire existence#don't mind the incorrect usage of their in the second tag i was so focused on how pissed i was#also remember how a good chunk of these kids lived through *checks notes* the fucking PANDEMIC LOCKDOWN#which was a clown show in terms of supporting kids and their parent/s#some places handled lockdown in the US better than others but holy fuck in my area at least it was a nightmare#what do you expect from parents who are now working full-time and teaching part/full-time and parenting full-time?#what support exactly are you expecting they recieved? because you'll likely find they got either a little or NONE#hilarious that i used the wrong their in a post subtweeting about education LOL#look i was focused on how PISSED i was lol cut me some slack here
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i saw that you used to hint at oc stuff on twitter (don't ask me why im digging im looking for zola stuff lmao) why don't you post more about them?
i am simply terrified that if i post oc things online someone will steal the concept and run with it faster and better than i ever could have and then i will be devastated forever and ever
more seriously i have very little to show for any of my oc things (adhd brain making life difficult as per usual awawawawawa) and every time i've shared oc things in the past i've ended up never following up on it and it makes me feel bad and guilty so i've just convinced myself i will Never talk about my ocs until i have something substantial i can put out there
#mio answers things#anon#i'm getting a little better with making things for my ocs#on account of having friends i can actively share my brain rot with#but i still dread the feeling of posting a character and being forever haunted about never doing anything with them ever again#(echoes of custard howling in my mind)#just like how i dread having a repeat of that time in middle school#where i talked about my werecrow oc in the comments of a bigger artist's works#and they ended up making their own werecrow oc immediately after#they very much directly aligned with mine#but it got wildly popular on their account and they made a ton of art for it and i just#ended up deleting any evidence of mine because i felt so bad about it skjdfhgkldhfkgj#like i have no problem with people taking inspiration from my designs#i think it's fun seeing people design vy2s with two toned hair and kyos with pink eyes and hair pins w#but like. the thought of posting my oc and having someone run them through a blender to make their own character makes me feel. bad.#i can't articulate the specific reason Why it makes me feel bad but it does skjfghdkjfgsdhkjf#like if i finally posted theater gang stuff and then saw someone else take those concepts and make them into their own characters#i might just collapse into a pile of beef trimmings and never get up sdfkjhglksjdfg#it's silly and i don't know why my brain's like this but because of this in combination with my fear of posted oc things haunting me foreve#i simply will not be posting <3333#(and also just that. i'm incapable of producing enough artwork to make my ocs matter in a public context i think.)#(like you breed affection for a character through familiarity)#(which you only really get by creating A Lot Of Art)#(and i cannot do that <333)#(so instead most times i post it's a few handfuls of likes)#(and that doesn't really feel worth it to my brain when i could just settle for going insane over them with my friends skjdfhgkjsdf)#i really think this last year has just taught me that i really. honestly truly prioritize the reactions and feelings of my friends#over strangers on the internet#and it feels a lot more comfortable that way w#AH
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I knew about the post concert depression but no one told me about the post concert constant feeling of AAAAAAAAAHHH that lasts days and makes everything much more bearable and beautiful and some sort of ethereal type of hope is restored into the world, or maybe it's just the "seeing your favourite band after first thinking that it would never happen and later spending many months waiting for it all the while fearing that it wouldn't happen after all because of circumstances outside my control or feeling like it was too beautiful and wonderful to be true so ofc it wouldn't come true" part of it all
#guys i love they might be giants. did you know about this#me days before the show: crying because i will see they might be giants#me days after the show: crying because i saw they might be giants#truth is that i didn't actually full on cry until yesterday evening though so once i was back home so it was all officially over#and it was time to just slow down and realize that oh well wow. so all that just happened. like for realsies#i also finally looked through my videos and my recording of the whole show (yes as an archivist freak who records audio from most concerts#i obviously had to record this one also. now i can listen to it again and again and be remided that i didn't dream it all up after all)#but yeah all this and now i'm supposed to move on and go back to my stupid daily life#like i didn't just have one of those real actual life experiences and moments of pure fun that other people generally get from time to time#and that i haven't had since idk even when a year and a half ago#thats the last time i consider truly amazing on a level somewhat comparable to this. but back to the show and the whole thing.#like this wouldn't have been quite as perfect if i didn't share that time with fellow fans / friends that i ended up attending the show wit#you don't realize how badly you've been wanting to be included in things and for people to be genuinely fond of you and like your company#until you get included and shown that fondness. like wow i'm allowed to have fun too after all. can it happen again someday please. anyway#i'm just glad that in midst of my big bad awful times i could have this truly amazing 10/10 time#and i guess it doesn't have to be the last such time right. even if it's easy to give into the feeling that it is#but ok anyway i'll get to that proper show recap later when i can think clearly again#and maybe more on that more personal side of it all too because well i have many more thoughts obviously#but whether i get to that in 3 days or 3 months is a mystery for now. just kind of a lot to think about once again#and my stupid baka life continues on also whether i like it or not so that has to be taken into consideration as well#time to think again about school that i'm so totally fully failing now with my two weeks long absence yayyy. its fine i'll figure it all out#goosepost
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i am just now realising that starting this blog in my final year of hs was a not so great idea ☹️☹️ i barely have time to draw anything for myself.. but i managed to finish this piece that's been sitting in my wips for half a year 👍👍 anyway
meet paweł and ryba!! (paweł - on the left, he/him for the character, ryba - on the right, he/they for the character, ryba belongs to my lovely gf kassr00n (on insta/tiktok!!))
#these two are the first ocs we've ever wrote together#even before WE became a couple lol#it's lowkey just a regular queer friends to lovers ??#but it's very special to me because we wrote their relationship based on our own experiences early on as a couple#so they've become saturated with us. to the core#and i always get so sentimental when thinking about them#so basically paweł and ryba are both art high school students#paweł joins ryba's class because he's transferred from homeschooling#ryba is overall very friendly and has a strong duty of helping people#when he saw there's a new person in their class they immediately wanted to befriend paweł#because hey. a NEW person in his class! he doesn't know anyone yet! it must be hard for him to find himself in a entirely new environment!#ryba really wants to show paweł that he won't be alone and that's why he offers himself as a friend#but paweł is. well. not interested to say it lightly#due to his past experiences with friendships (his childhood best friend of like 10 years started ingoring him out of he blue)#and he spent approximately 4 years homeschooling (so he just got used to being alone and learned to find comfort in that)#he's not really inclined to immediately trust a new person#but day after day of seeing ryba at school paweł gets used to their presence#and seeing this green haired dork makes him feel at ease#i knoooooow it's so silly and corny but isn't love like that??#original character#oc#drawing#digital art#oc couple#friends to lovers#queer#oh and also their shipname is rybaweł :3#my art#my artwork#digital drawing
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Do you know what John's hang ups about not being good about playing with kids was about? Like the Kyoko tape sounds adorable, and so do the the audios with Sean that are around, and even that moment in GB where he's joking with Heather about eating kittens. I don't at all get the sense of a man bad at hanging around with and entertaining children in the slightest.
I can't help but wonder if it was because he had some idea of how a dad "should" be that he felt he couldn't live up to because he didn't have one around. But then Paul also mentions in MYFN iirc that John couldn't play with kids, so I guess it wasn't just in his head, but I don't get it.
(Hi. Sorry, I had family over for a few days, so I am a bit late with replying.)
I actually don’t know. I think it might have just been one of the stories you start telling yourself and that sticks, or like you said he thought he should be able to do a certain kind of play that he found difficult to do. I do think he we can see that he was able to be fun with kids and doing a lot of goods things like we see with the tapes, playing guitar with them, teaching them swimming, riding bikes, flying paper planes, making drawings, taking Julian picking flowers in the garden for Cyn, or just being in idiot with kids like Julian said. So, maybe he thought that his way of hanging wasn’t really considered play? "I'm not a daddy with a set of bricks to play with. When I'm with the kids, they just come along with me and be with me, whatever I'm doing."And then I guess he knew that he didn’t have the patience, the endurance for constant repetition, or the will to put a child's needs first all the time, but those probably more blended into his uncertainty of fatherhood than a question of being entertaining with kids. I think it's in Giuliano, but definitely someone talking about the diaries, where there's a lot on John reading parental guides and trying different techniques and feeling frustrated, when he doesn't feel like they are working. In that context it definitely sounds like John thought there was a manual and a correct way to be a father and that he instinctively was doing it wrong.
#i feel like i am kinda missing the point but i can't seem to be able to formulate it the right way#my guess is that a lot of the self-doubts come from missing the opportunity to bond with julian early on#i also think that his interest in forming apple school to provide a better way for educations shows his interest in those topics#long before sean. so that's not play related but shows that he is maybe already thinking there is a way it#'should' be like anon asked though play/education and kids in general/fatherhood is difficult for me to differentiate right now.#was paul saying john said he couldn't do a certain kind of play or that he observed that he couldn't play with kids altogether?#people would have to ask him what he saw that made him think that.
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Ok so these designs are cute as hell, the Internet is just mean
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I have too many thoughts about a game I still need to watch
#goodbye volcano high#i dont have the money to buy it but god i need to watch a playthrough when i have time it's so interesting to me#like; the theme of 'yeah we're going die but that doesn't mean we can enjoy what time we have left' sounds amazing to me love that#its so funny i was actually watching a review of it that was basically 'this game sucks and here's why'#and then it just started listing off shit like- 'the characters designs are pastel they're nonbinary you die no matter what'#and then my neurons just went off and went '👁️👁️ oh! sounds amazing i want to see more'#fuck yeah pastel nonbinary dinosaurs lets go#well i think its just fang thats nonbinary and then two other trans characters#i saw a cutscene! and it was about the experiences of being an apart of a family as sec-gen immigrant and trans-#and i thought that was cool as hell dont recall ever seeing that in any of thr arts ive seen before (but there's lots of art out there!)#heard it got some glitches tho (havent looked in depth of what those glitches are) hopefully it got patched out#also im so fucking pissed i saw the gator game before i saw this 😮💨 (context; apparently made by people who made a fangame where they#the mc of this game a datable side character and they only have a happy ending if they detransition? which fucking yikes���)#i saw people say 'oh but they did it empathetically' like how the fuck is taking a canon nb character and making them only happy through#detransitioning empathetic that sounds super fucking shitty and gross#i think a character that detransitions can be done and would be interesting to see- but this just reeks of people being transphobic for real#oh also purple dino has a slug or worm or something apparently! seems cute! just a lil thing#apparently its a rhythm game; listened to some of the songs and it sounded good! sadly i suck at rhythm games#but apparently failing doesn't affect the story? kinda wish it would but honestly better for me lol-#pink one and fang end up dating i believe- from what i saw pink is like- soft spoken artist? dunno if accurate but she's cute#all the characters are cute just look at them!!! awesome#also they have to just continue school like normal before they die and honestly thats so real#also saw people dislike the fact you dont see the characters actual die or the meteor#which is ??? dunno i just think some things are better left implied than shown-#anyways man i keep trying to find neat stuff about the game and all i see is people bitchin about it or praising the shit fan on instead 😔#man if i had two nickles for a time i grew to become obsessed with a media only for loads of people to hate id have two nickles#first nickle is kat elliot she's such a cool character Internet wasn't ready for her#also yes i saw obsessed i can just tell this is something ill go bonkers for#i mean god look how much text is in my tags for this already! and i still need to see the game in it's fullness!#im sure there's other cool shit
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I can’t imagine being so young I need an audience to feel real
#thank you universe for giving me a childhood outdoors#and by universe I mean my parents#not high school sweethearts because they went to different highschools but they lived like two blocks from each other#my mother saw him playing baseball in the street and said mine and so it was l#lmao#they were 17? he mighta just turned 18 if it was summer#his father was already dead and he actually got drafted to Vietnam and didn’t have to go because he was “head of household”#I think his mother did work but I don’t know and can’t ask lol I could ask my aunt or uncle tbh#idk why my mother like cut us off from them but she had better judgement than father so I kinda uphold that despite not knowing why lol#they have kids and grand kids like I don’t need to be a focus of theirs anyway#how much are people supposed to care about their cousins or nieces / nephews lol cause once you have your own it is like …. priorities#my sister sells them weed and that bothers me lol like my cousins and uncle - why you encouraging her to break the law lol not okay with me#and this is how I know I’m old because shit that does not impact me or my life is pissing me off lol#tbh if midget (i call my sister midget and always have fuck off) goes to JAIL it would impact my life tho#what the fuck would her freeloading boyfriend do lol thank god they aren’t married#bro if they’re secretly married I’m not going to be happy at all#I don’t think my sister is that stupid but she might be that codependent#whatever the point was lol that I had good parents#and that makes me lucky apparently#when I feel like that should be a priority like why are you making people if you can’t take care of them#abortion is less like murder than whatever our military is doing and it saves preserves defends your life as you know it lol#you can be pro abortion and also think it’s murder and I know that because I am that#my parents planned me and I think that’s why I seem weird to everyone whose parents did not want them just like dealt with them#& by my parents I mean my mother - I realize she needed the semen donation but my father - once I was 22 lol - told me he never wanted kids#and tbh same dad lol seems like either hard work ..or just shitting into an overflowing toilet#thank god for cats man lol what did we as humans even do (we were dirty probably lmao like leaving crumbs then mice came then cats came) for#THIS BLESSING#THESE BLESSED CREATURES#I’m going back to sleep lol tf
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Fuck fuck fuck low self-esteem has ruined my life.
#uchiha-gaeshi overshares#i should've known the signs when i got evaluated for adhd and my self perception was like#hold up gotta pull it up#and also disclaimer that this was a separate assessment for overall emotional wellbeing (or something like that) and this was just part of#the many tests that i had to take#ok. we're reaching even newer levels of oversharing here since i'm literally sharing evaluation results. but anywho#i was in the 96th percentile for sense of inadequacy; 17th percentile in (good) self esteem; 3rd percentile in self-reliance#and 3rd percentile in ego strength (i.e. satisfaction with self and one's abilities)#i saw this and got shocked and then forgot about it (in my defense there was a lot of stuff in the evaluation)#looks like it's more therapy for me. yay.#like there have been more times than not where i have felt less than to people around me. and fearing that people will see how pathetic#i actually am. god no wonder my desire to socialize decreased as my self esteem decreased#i might be repeating the same point over and over#ok so imma bring up the si/oc fic that i just dropped. like i think i *tried* to make a like a more confident version of myself; but i gues#i'll have to put it on pause because my teens were defined by feeling shit about myself. like idk what to do with a character like that#who's supposed to be making moves. like nothing would happen besides survivor's guilt#anyways back to the subject. as my gpa got pathetically low (i can't even share it here or else i'll probably deactivate this blog) and i#started losing jobs. i lost patience with myself. it seemed like other people were able to chug along with the demands of life while i was#fumbling around with no end in sight (tbh i wasn't the only one my close friend from college also has adhd and was really struggling and#another one might have dropped out. my childhood friend who also has adhd is in the same. exact. situation as i am with being unable to#go out in public since we feel like we can't be our “best selves”). then the old question came back: if i can't handle#high school/a part-time job/college on a low courseload then what the fuck was i going to do? some days i'd keep going with new strategies#or new ways to be more productive. but other days i didn't want to keep going#who knew it's not healthy to always assume that people are better than you? even though i have been reframing the more obvious thoughts#it's an automatic and unconscious impulse that just runs in the background of my head. idk if this is just a human thing or...#but because of this at times i'd hold myself back from fear of failure#anyways that's all i've lost my train of thought and have to do errands i've been putting off#txt
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Sometimes I remember the people I’ve met irl over the years and I’m just like. Oh. Wow. I have odd taste when it comes to the people I choose to be around
#I knew a girl who’s a year younger than me who would probably try to get me hooked oh heroin#she also had 3 assault charges by the age of 14#her dog bit a hole through my hand#she’s chill though#I also knew a chick who when she was a junior she had to stop going to school for a couple months because people were actually trying-#to harm her irl and were sending her death threats#there’s this one guy I know who has schizophrenia and gave himself a god complex to cancel out his depression#(and it worked!)#he also literally brainwashed one of our friends to where if anyone snaps their fingers 3 times near them they think of killing their mom#also the girl who was getting death threats had her family put alarms on all the windows in her house#‘I don’t know why’ GIRL YOU SNUCK OUT AT NIGHT AND ROBBED A CONVENIENCE STORE!!!#this is what I meant when I said some of y’all need to know more people btw. like I know someone from every social group#not to mention the one person who texted me (I didn’t have their contact saved) who opened with#‘I saw some roadkill you might like’#this isn’t me dissing any of these people btw#these are all my friends I’m talking about#tbh this is why that whole thing with the dramswap/Ibvs stuff was so stupid to me#like these are just some of the things off the top of my head from my irl teen life#‘the characters are minors so make them wholesome’ meanwhile real people act like this LMAO#andy rambles#might delete this later lol#this is all with a positive connotation#just need to clarify that
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Like some kinda shark fin a now unrebloggable post on my dash has let me know whats going on on Twitter right now
Which is people going "UMMM NOT EVERYONE LIVES IN AMERICA OFC I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE ODYSSEY IS NOT ALL OF US HAD TO READ YOUR AMERICAN BOOK IN AMERICAN SCHOOLS" about being told it kinda sucks they dont know what the Odyssey is
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I'm from Macedonia. That's like NOWHERE. WE had to read the Odyssey for school. And I knew of it BEFORE we had to read it for school because it was common knowledge. There was also some multi part Hallmark adaptation of it they kept playing on TV
#Next we're gonna call the Iliad American too. Idk about other places but over here they were like a package deal#You either had to read the Iliad before the Odyssey or you had to read both at once as one book#I swear to god if the next step of media illiteracy across the internet turns the valid criticism of how the internet is very American cent#centric#And doesnt really think 'hey not everyone is from America' irt their reactions to people not knowing things like events or foods or shows t#that only happen in America#While also never really covering other countries' events and acting like everyone has to speak English etc#Into 'well I'm gonna blame my media illiteracy on America. Every book is American every history lesson is American' etc#Aka turning it America centric in of itself#Im gonna go fuckin insane#ONE TWEET I SAW WAS LIKE 'um not everyone is American im from the UK and we learned useful things in school like history or geography beyon#our own country'#FIRST OF ALL lmaaaooo ok I'll give you better geography classes than America but history???#Nah there's a bunch of shit you weren't taught. You were taught the Nice side of history that never paints the history of your own rulers i#in a bad light#Second of all calling something like the Odyssey useless by proxy is getting into some reeeeal nasty shit#Its literally a piece of history. Is it about factual history and events that actually happened? No. But that doesnt make it useless to lea#learn or read about#Like we're getting into some 'abstract art is useless and should be destroyed' territory there#Anyway thats my rant#Personal
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I fully get the anxiety of feeling like you don’t deserve to go to a show. It comes with the whole competetive fandom stuff.
Honestly, as someone who has performed on a lot of stages with varying kinds of crowds, the most important thing isn’t if you’re the biggest fan or if you know the lyrics or some choreography or bring gifts. The thing that is the most valuable is that you go to the show to have a good time. That’s all the artists are generally looking for. That people enjoy their music, enjoy the show, are excited to be there.
Some people may be disappointed that they don’t get a ticket, sure. But it’s not you taking that ticket away from them. Not everyone can have everything. Sometime people don’t get concert tickets. That is not your fault for buying. It is a thing that happens when everyone has the right to buy concert tickets instead of them being raffeled off or gifted. If the show was just for the biggest fans, tickets would be give out as competition prices, not to the person who buys them.
And there is no right way to enjoy the show. Some superfans never learn lyrics because they don’t particularly care. Some people buy tickets to go see random artists just for the experience. Some people just love to give gifts and find that to be the best way of interacting. Your way of doing it is just as valid as all that. You don’t have to earn any right to be there, that is what the tickets are for.
And honestly, you’d be surprised by the number of people who have never even heard of an artist or band who just show up for the show because they had a day off and it could be fun. It’s not about deserving to be there. It’s about wanting to go and getting the chance to actually do that.
I don’t know if this little pep talk eases your mind at all, but I hope it does. Learning to let go of the competetive mindset and attitude when it comes to regular life stuff is a chore and a half. I just want you to know that I would love for you to go to the show.
Thank you for reaching out. I really appreciate it ❤
#ik it's mostly in my head#I've always felt like I'm never good enough since early childhood#I think band fandoms have partly always been like this#about going to every show and learning all the lyrics and 'you are wearing their merch so name all the albums' or you are a poser#ig and twitter and maybe tiktok as well have just made it worse because now I can see it all the time#like there were people queuing for Tavastia at 6 am today already#and there are people who travel across the continent for the shows#and I do not have those kinds of possibilities because I can't afford it and I have a day job#which makes be both feel like a bad person because I can't sacrifice everything to be a fan#but also makes me reconsider if I'm too old to be a fan and I'm just embarassing myself by going to any shows at all ever#because clearly band fandoms are only meant for teens and people in their early twenties who can skip school and camp outside the venue#also i made the mistake of going to twitter and saw a thread about 'so what gifts have you guys made for the boys this time?'#and I was so shook because I had no idea that you're supposed to make gifts to give for the artists at EVERY show#and I can't make anything#I have no skills or money#I can't paint or sew or make crafts#so is it like I'm a lesser person because I only paid for the ticket#you see where I'm coming from?#asks
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