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sunny-knight · 2 days ago

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Please Reset Your Save File :)

idk what came over me but here take this forgettable au wingdings undertale ARG ass image

speaking of being a mystery image with secrets to be unlocked, i’m gonna refrain from yapping. do the sleuthing yourself I believe in you

ok…. fine….I cant resist…. BUT DO THE TRANSLATING YOURSELF IM NOT DOING EVERYTHING FOR YOU

Ill start by explaining my proccess cause it was quite eventful!

The jumping off a cliff towards something was inspired off of this tiktok :D

Thought it worked GREAT for a character who was so dead-set on his goal he destroyed himself in the process of achieving it… And thats all I had in mind, Wingdings reaching twords his goal (a star/the player) and the rest I just went along with as I drew

I didn’t intend on the background being black, was just a placeholder, so once I finished the line art I fiddled with the color. thought some sort of “blue screen of death” would go well with the themes of what happens to him since he is IN a game. so the universe literally restarts (resets :3) itself to get rid of a glitch (him)

My theory currently is that his goal was to become some sort of player/gain the ability to reset, and once he did that, the game saw him as an error/glitch, so got rid of that- bro IS Turbo from wreck it ralph

After that whole idea- I was looking at some references to replicate the text and it made me go “OOOHOOO” when I saw the QR code like “oooo I could make my own and have some fun with that…” and so I did- and decided to link my original idea for that!

Reference:

I had fun making some differences in the wording to fit the situation

In the end, 2 silly illustrations that are fun to flicker between!

talking about the actual drawing though:

The cliff Dings is running off of has echo flowers because I SWEAR those are important. trust.

Him not wearing gloves is meant to depict how little he cares for his own safety in his last days. I did the same thing in my IM SANE amv!

The “star” having an eye is meant to show how its both the player, and seeing the stars/surface that Wingdings is reaching for.

The wingdings font covering Dings’ face/eye socket is meant to symbolize that perhaps he feels defined by his inability to communicate like other people naturally can.

“Ths Stars, They Cry Out Your Name” is my favorite thing in this… from Wingdings’ perspective, the only thing that matters, that understands him, that TRULY values him…is THE STARS. its like this goal that he has that will make him feel valued. Getting to the surface = being “worth it” But truly, the stars are the PEOPLE that care about him. Asgore, Alphys, Sans, people that are genuinely concerned over his obviously deteriorating mental health- they CRY out his name, not “call” like I had originally planned.

“66%” hehehehhe funy gaster numbr

ok and last thing- Im gonna cry remembering this dialogue from the official Clock App

its so important for this AU, PLEASE

#undertale #forgettable au #undertale au #forgettable au fanart #undertale fanart #wingdings is the bane of my existence #wingdings i hate you #I spent way too much time deciding what I should put on that qr code #thought of making a google slide presentation from wingdings’ perspective #but that wouldve been way too much work #and probably contradict things that will be revealed later…#IT WOULDA BEEN COOL #But I valued the ‘they cry our your name’ too much not to include it SOMEWHERE #sooo #ALSO IM GETTING SO MUCH BETTER AT DRAWING SKELETO ANATOMY???#maybe having an undertale hyperfixation wont have so many lasting consequences on my art after all #give me lots of opportunities to improve my skeletal structure!

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sadiiomane10 · 1 year ago

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Why does no one ever take u seriously, I've been living in this body for 25 yrs I kno what I'm feeling and experincing and when things are wrong, I don't want attention, fuck Idec about myself that much but I'm not making shit up, why am i screaming into the goddamn void

#why am i fighting for my own voice to be heard #just for others to do say 'i dont think'#u dont fucking kno me #weve had a 20min convo #thats not the full fucking story #think what u want #but im still valid #just blame my depression on everything its cool #its cool #also if was healthy enough to exercise GUESS WHAT I FUCKING WOULD #I WOULD I WOULD DO EVERYTHING I CURRENTLY CANT #AND THE LAST THING I WOULD BE DOING IS CALLING YOUUUU #'u have to help yourself' oh really u deal w 24hrs of absolute agony #and lets see how far u get #and then tell me i need to goddamn exercise #im so angry i wanna cry #the cure to depression is exercise and Pilates but u cant do that if ur physically ill so die #and i didnt even call for this #i called something else entirely and got this lecture #what a waste of time

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 5 months ago

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i hate doing laundry ough it's The Worst

#not only does leaning down to move my stuff hurt my back #but i have to touch dirty clothes and go into the dirty room and touch the dirty machines and i have to wear 2 pairs of socks (so my #normal socks dont touch the contaminated floor) and when i lean over the washing machine my clothes touch it <-the worst part of it all #tbh. now my current clothes are dirty but i have nothing to change into and i will have to wear them all day and it makes me SICK #and i cannot talk abt how dirty the garage (where the laundry machines are) it makes me nauseous that place kills me if i never #had to go into it ever again i would and i have to carry a laundry basket (dirty) and it touches my clothes when i carry it (disgusting)#and now my clothes are even more dirty and i feel like i cant touch any of my things bc i dont want to infect them but i cant just do #nothing all day when i have to do laundry but it makes me so SICK i need smth to cover all of my clothes but everything i've tried misses #some part and my clothes are ruined and it makes me SICK how am i supposed to do school or draw or anything when it's so bad #i have everything scheduled so i can take a shower and go straight to bed after i'm done but still it's so bad and it stresses me tf out #and i have to do laundry every 3 days because i only have 3 towels to use after showering and even if i did have more towels #i still would have to do laundry as often bc i couldnt handle doing multiple loads or having bigger loads my back couldnt handle that #w the system i have set up now it's just bad it;s all bad i hate doing laundry #i dream of one day where i can do laundry in a better way i think it'd involve not having the washer and dryer down steps bc that's #dangerous for one and for two not having them in a garage bc garages stress me out and three to have smth to cover all of my clothes #and 4 to have machines that dont need me to bend down idk if they have ones like that but it hurts #anyway that's it for listening to dux complain abt smth that ultimately doesnt matter and is only a problem bc their brain #chemistry is off #k bye i have to go do laundry *explodes* and take an exam *explodes* it;s an essay exam *explodes* and then im going #to like sit around feeling sick thumbs up emoji

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baeshijima · 2 months ago

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nothing is more soul crushing than finding out pages and pages worth of fic planning is permanently gone and deleted from any recovery/storage space bc it was something probably deleted from at least 2 years ago 🧍‍♀️

#sophie's idle chatter #MY BLACK CLOVER FIC PLANNING WITH THE ARCS AND INTERACTIONS AND GROWTH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #actually having a meltdown pls i got back into it again today bc i have sooo much to catch up with the manga esp aND TELL ME WHY #I HAVE BARELY EVEN A FIFTH LEFT OF WHAT I PLANNED OUT IN MY NOTES YEARS AGO??? AND EVEN THE GOOGLE DOC I HAD #DEDICATED AS A BACKUP IN CASE I LOST THE NOTES FILE WHILE TRANSFERRING TO MY CURRENT PHONE IS GONE AS WELL???#WHY ARE MY DEVICES HATING ON THE BLACK CLOVER AGENDA I DID NOT INVEST MY TIME AND MONEY FOR THIS BETRAYAL #HEAD IN HANDS I AM /GRIEVING/ U DONT UNDERSTANDKJSDFH #looking at my sad little notes page with barely anything on it... im going to throw up oh my god #i still remember some of the stuff and ideas i had for the series but thats not enough for everything i had originally....#all the nozel interactions... readers backstory and growth... yami and fuegoleon and kirsch and nacht and damnatio and julius and zora and-#man... im going to go sleep with tear streaks and wake up to go to uni tmrw with puffy eyes i cant do this #my little 16-17 year old self would be having the meltdown of the century if she saw this... but current 19 year old me is having it instea #huhu.... my fic planning.... man....

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bmpmp3 · 5 days ago

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post ankle-twisting clarity

#i slipped in the mudddddd the other day LOL i twisted my one ankle and scraped up my other knee #so the past few days ive just been kind of needing to waddle around.....#LUCKILY its healing well and fast <3 but yknow i was like #so stressed out over shit that doesnt matter in school. and like this is an awful unintentional habit i have but i will get like #overly stressed over shit and then i'll start getting SUPER careless with everything. and then i'll injure myself foolishly and Calm Down #happened last year with my foolish midnight woodcarving incident LOL its always november....#BUT yeah luckily this years foolish injury is a quick one at least!!#but yeah like genuinely i was so stressed out about all my fine arts major shit. teachers have been really getting on my case recently #my main professor said that it was a good thing people get so riled up with my work because it means its impactful #tbh i didnt believe her at all i thought she was just trying to placate me but then i listened closely to the things faculty say when #they look at my fucking. cartoon wolf drawing or something and i think. she might be right actually. people keep getting frustrated with me #because i think they see a lot of potential in me but i basically only have to drive to draw cartoon wolves etc HFKJSDHJVKRFEds #which is great for my ego. maybe too good for my ego. that my mark making and colour use etc is so evocative to these industry and #instutition people. but on the other hand i was told like thrice now that my work has no place in a gallery. which is fine although im not #totally sure how true that is. but also afterwards one time i was suggested to go into animation instead which is. um.#so its not out of nowhere i mean i did want to be an animator when i was like 10 but if you know anything about the current state of the #animation industry its like genuinely wild to tell someone who you've only seen 2 dimensional watercolour and acrylic painted #sketchy lined drawings from and who has said they cant do digital art anymore that they should get an animation degree?#brother they would kill me. i would be killed. i had an inkling but it really made me notice so clearly how limited the experiences my #faculty kind of have with certain industries. which is fine. or maybe not. for a professor LOL but yknow. but i was like huh. i guess i can #just kind of chill lol if i just keep doing things maybe something will come of it. i may not get as much help in my artistic development #rn as i would like. but its chill i think i'll figure it out if i just keep doing stuff <3 #doesnt really matter that my teachers dont know what to do with me. my kneeeee has a booboo so i am CHILLING out :)

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evilmagician430 · 2 months ago

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college is making me want to shoot myself in the head really bad, which is crazy because i thought i was completely done with feeling suicidal after highschool ended. my life is looking up and i have a lot to look forward to.

but the funny thing is. that beautiful future, which is the reason i don't want to die, is only obtainable through going to college and working very hard and stressing myself out all the time. which, in turn, makes me want to die.

#as per usual my mental health has been doing great and here comes school again to throw a wrench in the works #its so unfair that i cant be guaranteed a small house and a well paying job and a domestic life with my girlfriend just by surviving #i mean for my girlfriend i've tried to set it up so that that's all she has to do and i'll set up everything else #but surviving in itself is a lot harder for her than for i #i just want us to be O.K. !!!#and then there's the genocide that doesnt involve me but i'd be kind of a horrible person not to care about it #which i do care. i want to donate but i barely have enough money for myself and my girlfriend to live happily #and thats WITH my parents keeping me housed and paying for groceries bills repairs etc #AND college tuition.#swear to GOD i could be given like 10 thousand dollars rn and i would use almost all of it to help others just out of sheer moral obligatio #theres not even very much i would want to spend money on for myself rn #i like my current wardrobe enough and my doll collection is almost at full capacity so its gonna stagnate soon #and thats like. it. i buy myself snacks and stuff sometimes but thats all the ways i spend money for purely selfish reasons #besides that i just wanna help my girlfriend out and all those suffering in palestine #im rambling. i need a fucking break from it all sorry #life suddenly seems so bleak again #evilmartin430.txt #vent

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robotpanties · 6 months ago

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uuuuuhhh no reason just wanna see the robot get preggers because nobody is really taking advantage of the narrative consequences of the robots of ULTRAKILL having fleshy bits inside them (in my humble opinion hahahaha...hahaha....hah....). Anywhosen also a sucker for general Bad End especially when it involves a psycho-sexual (breeding) binding to a greater entity but also I wanna see the murder-robot get knocked up. And the galaxy brain bit of this is instead of calming down they just get Worse.

YEAH NO ONE REALLY TAKES ADVANTAGE OF THAT. and well i mostly assumed a very small percentage of people actually want to breed the robots like that which is why.

also i don't think this as a bad end, but a bad path that can lead to some other.. inch resting things (my stupid ass is trying to craft a plot with horror and drama from this path and how it'd change the story slightly despite knowing I will never get around to writing it in fic form except tiny excerpt ideas and art)

also i have so much to say abt the 'it doesn't calm down it just gets worse' bc its So true

#kicking my legs. it sooo genuinely gets worse i think it believes its actually in “love” with hell. and maybe it is.#gets worse and loses itself more and more. abandon any last trace of identity that had never been regarded anyway by anyone #its easy to let something guide you and instruct you in nearly everything if it feels too painfully good? and why spend more power thinking #altho for the. plot i was conducting in my head it was msotly involving gabriel and the primes bc of an idea my friend gave me which was #that if this occurred before v1 reached the prime sanctums it could have been guided or instructed to go to the sanctums but at the time #it does its currently carrying a child and because of that both the primes and v1 itself are spared because. i dont know if i think #the kings would fight a pregnant person . i at least think sisyphus Wouldnt because wheres the fun in an opponent who appears to already #be disadvantaged. (even if it can fare just fine.)#if any friendships were able to be made (cough . i like sisyphus qnd v1 platonic and romantic) itd be kind of. sad from an outside perspect #ve to watch it deteriorate into being less of its own entity and becoming slowly just another extension of hell. even in fighting it shows.#i wish i could explain it all better #and sorry if this ask is late to be answered i was writing my rwsponse at a con LMAOOO #.txt #ask #i want to write i have no timeee no energyyy but hear me out there is potential for crazy wackjob shit #ive decided also not to kill gabriel i think i should do somethign fucked up with him and his inexperience in relationshios #i forgot who suggested he should get so desperate that he begs for hell to take him as well. (which i cant decide if it would or wouldnt bc #its kind of really funny and mean if it #says no)

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landmine-doll · 5 months ago

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im the sort of person who destroys the relationships that matter to me the most because of my paranoia short temper and self-destructive urges so its best to keep your distance

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burningcomputerpersona · 14 days ago

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ahhhhhhhh guess who made the mistake of getting a haircut

#i was planning on growing it out for real i swear #but then the back of my hair got to that length (like it always does) where it starts touching the back of my neck wrong and i cant stand it #so i figured I'd juuuuuust get a trim maybe only the back so it wouldn't keep bugging me #and it started off pretty good too she was doing well with everything and i liked the way it looked #then she asked me a question with two options. and i answered the question. and she repeated my answer. good enough right?#well i think she maaaay have forgotten my answer in the span of like 2 seconds bc she started cutting SUPER short suddenly #and now my perm is completely gone lol #i think she's used to going a bit shorter so it looks good in like a week when it's grown out a bit #and you don't have to go back for a haircut every 2 weeks #but like. i would rather not hate my reflection (more than usual) for a week or two while it grows out yknow #eurghhhh it's not that bad tbh ive had haircuts where i wanted to kill myself and this is just 'hmm maybe i should wear a hat for a week'#but still. very annoying. and especially so bc i was actually feeling optimistic with where we were going at the start #anyway there's this weird phenomenon that keeps happening where I accidentally get my hair cut too short #then i decide this is going to be the time i finally grow my hair out for real #and after a while the back reaches that length where it starts bothering me again #and ill get a haircut juuust for a trim #then i somehow end up with a bowlcut #it's an emo bowlcut to be clear. so im not super hung up about it bc i still love that haircut for reasons i cannot comprehend #but everybody else seems to go 'ew a bowlcut why' except for the alt queers who go 'omg gender'#which i consider to be one of the biggest compliments i could ever get. and have gotten. seriously that moment will never leave my mind #like having someone that you consider Gender to look at you and say *you're* very gender? my crops have been watered my cattle have been fed #etc etc. anyway this currently has the shape of a bowl cut but it's too short esp on top #so im back in my 'okay im gonna grow it our FOR REAL this time' phase again. as it goes. like fucking sisyphus.#anyway. im gonna be tearing it up in the pit at origami angel tomorrow so if anybody's also going feel free to join me there #just gotta let off some steam. goddammit i knew i should have gone the queer route and just done it myself. in my defense i still had a perm #and i didn't trust myself to cut curly hair. turns out i shouldn't have trusted the barber either bc she just held it straight out #and chopped right across. and soon the curls were gone and everything was straight. ...that sounds like a metaphor for conversion therapy #'yeah just head into that place by the time you leave you'll be straight'#anyway. sorry for the waterfall of tags if ur still here kudos to you and may you have a wonderful day #mine

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koifishanonymous · 1 year ago

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no because if ao3 does actually get taken down because of USAMERICAN laws, i will just start a revenge plot against the entire country

#land of the fucking free WHERE???#ik its unrelated to the current issues but seriously it would do so much harm #I'm mostly in small fandoms now (like below 500 fics on ao3 small) so i couldnt even fathom looking somewhere else #kosa act #internet censorship #ao3 #archive of our own #im going to download EVERYTHING when its back up #red cant fucking shut up

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knight-engale · 4 months ago

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Ooh you know you're extremely stressed and shit when you dream about exasperatedly trying to explain Project 2025 to your conservative leaning parents (I woke up before I made any headway and now I'm not sure if I want to go back to sleep even though I'm still tired)

On the plus side, I also dreamt about getting a certain former president to trip over his words. Oh and in the dream with my parents all the ballots were made of pool noodle foam and you had to like, put together your votes like a puzzle

...but it definitely doesn't reflect well on my mental state that I am dreaming about US politics at all. Don't like that.

#delete later #cw us politics #i cant even try to explain this shit to my parents #because i dont think dad would care too much #and mom has a 'both sides' mindset #and i highly doubt shed listen to me if i tried #id get a 'well you need to make sure you have the full context of everything'#i do! and the current repub candidate is a fascist and his cronies are too!#and not voting blue will just help him #anyway im going to stop rambling #sorry for the sudden vent #and the politics #im just scared

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trees-to-meet-you · 1 year ago

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Sibling forced me to dress up as golden Freddy and watch the fnaf movie gonna be honest I wasn’t a fnaf kid but since they’ve gotten into it I’ve tried to too but anyway yeah I may have next to no idea what’s going on but it was pretty great

#chatter #hi everybody! accidentally closed my desktop tab so im currently on mobile but i think ill whip out the website again soon #fnaf movie #fnaf #rambling #it was a pretty good movie. i liked the main character a lot it was easy to relate to his motivations while also yelling at him for #being a dickhead idiot #spoilers:#like. if my parents die suddenly you bet your ass i would drop everything for my little sibling even if i cant take as good care of them as #someone else. i would at least try. and if i actually had another sibling who was kidnapped right in front of me id do anything i could to #save them too #so i found this guy relatable on terms of being the eldest sibling #and abby had SO much autism swag let’s be real #that is an autistic little girl if ive ever seen one and ive BEEN one #girl was fucking awesome #also: even if he was possessed im glad freddy ate that dickhead bitch of an aunt what a fucking ASSHOLE #i bet that was something the freddy kid may have felt bad for until abby told him no she’s a bitch with a capital b thanks for killing her #and he was like oh ok cool so maybe i was possessed into doing it but the end result wasn’t too bad nice #anyway.#FUCK man sibling movies fucking GET ME #im sitting here like oh damn he lives for his little sister and he still wishes he could save his little brother FUCK man I WOULD TOO #god. i get it. i love my little sibling so much i would do anything for them. they’re my best friend and if i were to even come close to #losing them I Don’t Know What’d Id Do #so yeah good movie

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toytulini · 6 months ago

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wheres that post about how its hard to have like a fucking depression spiral or whatever while knitting bc lemme tell u im sitting here fighting back tears while actively crocheting and its not fucking working

#toy txt post #depression spiral self worth spiral the world sucks and everything is bad and stupid spiral #whatever you want to call it. im fucking miserable and my eyes keep watering and making it kinda hard to see the fucking stitches #guess thatd be less of an issue if i was doing a standard moss stitch instead if a modified variant w half doubles and working into the #stitch under the space instead of in the chain space which is a little more annoying and fiddly to find than the chain space #whatever. its all the same stupid fucking shit anyway. whatever whatever whatever whatever #nothing matters everything is stupid and sucks and whats the fucking point! god #and then dad will just get home and sternly scold me for not looking for a job anyway #as if i could currently fucking handle being asked what my fucking strengths are or whatever #and i bet fucking period is not fucking helping cos hormone fluctuations do weird shit to emotions i fucking guess. whatever #i feel like my head is going to explode #'just let yourself cry let it out!' no. its fucking inconvenient and doesnt even release all the stupid fucking feelings it just leaves me #exhausted and wasting a bunch of fucking tissues. whatever #im a stupid lazy bitch whatever and im Not. but i am #what does it matter #i cant even deal with the fucking ants in my bedroom im just hiding from them in my brothers empty room #i washed all my bedding but havent remade the bed bc im like oh i should wait for the ants to be gone #cant do anything. cant do fucking anything at all ever #i should get out of the house and touch grass and that would be good for me but like. where #i shouldnt even leave the house bc im not insured and what if i get into a car crash? i hate everything #negative #whining

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dillyt · 1 year ago

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I really wish more websites/companies took people's potential light sensitivity issues into consideration. Just recently, both my favorite game, Splatoon 3, and the only chat app I use, Discord, have both clearly not considered that when making changes. My light sensitivity has been so bad lately that I consider it a real disability for me as any overly bright thing or sudden change in brightness will give me a bad headache. Upsetting to see that companies don't give a damn even if im not very surprised :(

#ramblings #vent #especially in splatoon's case i already have to play with my brightness down because everything is so damn saturated #then they just go and add a special that if someone pops it on my inexpectedly i get flashbanged #like. come on bro i already put up with so much from you jeeez #with discird at least its not quite as painful but shit man come on #shit like this makes me want to become a UX/UI designer so i can actually make shit accessible #but then i remember that if companies actually wanted to do that current UX designers would probably be doing it #they just dont pay them to do that and i definitely cant blame ppl for not working outside the scope of their assignment #sigh.... its all literally so so painfully real guys....

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coyoxxtl · 10 months ago

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tumblr centrist liberals stop acting like voting is the most influential and important political activity you can participate in challenge

#me donating to mutual aid posts on tumblr and donating esims to people in gaza has done worlds more influence than any vote i ever did #people who risk their lives in protests do more than voting #i firmly believe that #this isnt a Voting is Pointless post this is Voting is the Barest Minimum #voting is easy. when there’s no outside barriers its so fucking easy.#you fill in a card and call it a day. its easy to feel like you made a difference when all you did is fill in some dots.#yall barely even follow up on who you vote for or even Care if the people you vote for fail you #its the perfect thing for weak liberals to attach to #treat it like the be all end all with activism and you have the easiest get out of real political action card #no need to get your hands dirty if you did all you needed to #as someone who DOES vote. voting is the easiest political thing i engage with. everything else is a risk. or at least a sacrifice.#voting is barely anything to me. i dont feel like i do Anything with it. but donating. making political art. THATS something. thats REAL.#i would go to big protests if i lived somewhere with them #like i understand. wanting voting to be enough. im a heavily depressed bitch who feels like they cant engage with anything big or important #i know tumblr is full of those types. yall dont want to do anything. yall dont want to be uncomfortable or upset or anything negative.#personal comfort above all else. thats what tumblr is. thats what centrist liberals are. there’s no real desire to break out-#of the comfort zone or status quo respectively. yall are scared to get Involved. and i am too. but with how current events are going…#i can see that i don’t want to be that anymore. i know i need to be more than that. its hard and risky but i Need to.#and so do yall. yall NEED to engage with activism outside of voting. or you’re doing nothing.#txt

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tamagotchikgs · 3 months ago

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everyday all day i am just being sharply juggled against my will between im ok :] .. im not ok i am feeling the fear and dread so hard my organs r trying to evacuate and crush me at the same time every part of my body hurts and then no youre ok ! :] no im not . yeah ur ok :] wait nope . not ok. alright im ok :o) ................... no

#currently in the nos #i was fine i was so joyful just a few seconds ago and then suddenly the weight of the world hit #for no reason #and now i am just scared #stressed #worried so bad my entire jaw aches #my heart Hurts #i feel nauseous #everything is going to go wrong #my worst fears are on their way and its solely because of me its because im afraid of them #everything i care about is gonna get hurt & destroyed because of me #i cannot breathe #i dont want to be here to watch it happen #maybe i was wrong maybe the curse is real n its never leaving #what if i get too happy #and it takes everything #i miss when i finally convinced myself it wasnt and i was just a paranoid little mess #and everything was actually caused by the surroundings #and even without me it would have happened #but now its too important #i cant let myself risk it #even if anything would without me i still have to prevent it #i dont even know how. im powerlesss. nothing i do works nothing my brain tells me will fix things does

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