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robot forcefem is a beaitoful thing

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v1 is controlling my life all i think abt is v1 all day everyday only thing i ever think abt i spent at least a good few weeks thinking abt smth else for a while and i always come back to it and it always hits me full swing. v1 is so goddamn cute its my silly little billy and it looks like a fucking shitty mosquito you can crush into a small red stain. i actually cannot stand looking at it normally anymore i want to punch it until it stops moving i want to wrap it in a blanket and keep it in my house i want to put its head in a plastic bag and tie the bag down i love v1

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good girls get lots of handler attention

v2 commission for @adrenalvapour. milk version under the cut

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am i even a writer i dont write fics i just throw out thoughts and interpretations and ideas to the wind

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i should be at the club

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btw sorry for acting a little wack yesterday to those who saw me on discord and on here i was having what might be a manic episode im good now. it was kinda funny for emu to watch though

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hey so youve read that one v1 boobs fic by smutposting right. also while i have you if you ever drew more ovi i would give you all of my worldly possessions

i have!! i absolutely love it, ive been stalking it every now and then for the updates because im eating it like chippies. ive never been much for v4v but i think it convinced me, i guess thats another addition to my teeny list of pairings i enjoy.

also i will draw more ovi someday i will keep a tab on this one. i gotta also get to the anon who wanted fat v1 i prommy i didnt forget about them either

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what if v1 was a gougar i mean cougar (older woman)

i was initially confused by this ask but. yknow what hell yeah i think i understand the vision.

few decades or even maybe centuries if its lucky? down the line and while its functions have slowed a little and its paints since scratched and many parts have been replaced or swapped out, its been ages since anyones been able to read its nameplate. its faded a while ago, the bright blue has become a dirtier dustier blue or maybe isnt even the same hue it was since proper upkeep would require repainting and who knows if you can find the exact same color later on. it doesnt have as much energy as it did, but its still efficient enough. its still got it.

oh yeah we can give it boobs too if you want. maybe theyre not as perky as they were i mean who said that

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That text wall was interesting to read. As someone who’s only had desires in a more third-person way, it’s nice to read about dominant desires. I like the bread analogy!

Sorry if this is worded weird, words aren’t coming to me too gracefully.

<:} thank you, im glad it was interesting and dont worry its not worded weirdly at all!

primarily most of my own desires or wants in my experience are in a third person way. its the only way i can find it acceptable for myself, but kind of writing it and attaching it to gabriel really helps me process it and my own wants that are hidden under layers and layers of a discomfort with intimacy that involves myself and fear of being "evil" for engaging in it as a person. and i hope maybe by thinking about it and having little musings here and there and channeling it into something i like, i can better understand something ive barely scratched the surface of.

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Is that a good AHHH or a bad AHHH? Also i would enjoy the block of gabriel text, if you dont mind :)

bad but its not in any way thats significant or even comprehensible. its like if a yapdollar video was more overstimulating

anyway yeah sure here you go. copy pasted but edited from a discord conversation. this is sort of a description about personal experience and my enjoyment and feeling of gabriel being in positions of dominance and i hope i dont. get too out of character or it isnt too out of character but its a feeling i hold and CAN see in him from myself.

i think there is a not very well described side to the feeling of doms. in anything i see especially with a lot of kink spaces and fantasy writing is that they're very sub-sided when it comes to feelings. but i think there is a painful experience tied to being christian (presently or formerly) and having less submissive desires. i think a lot of people enjoy submission and writing it because for many it takes the ease off the mind and the guilt off of peoples shoulders if theyre not in control. it gets painful and frightening to only yourself at times when it comes to less vanilla kinks and wants for both parties, but when it comes to being or wanting a dominant position or just to "do something to someone" out of affection or love or just raw attraction to fulfill the self, it can feel... evil. sometimes being in these positions makes you overthink yourself, police your own thoughts, and begin to fear yourself for just.. Wanting. even if that want isnt bad and the other person wants it. i never see a reassurance or enough talk of reassuring that these wants and needs are okay when youre not doing it JUST to service someone.

ive described it multiple times as feeling as if youre a serial killer or some kind of monster in a humans skin, in fear of snapping or harming someone at any moment as if youll "give into evil." it feels selfish. it haunts you. its kind of a similar feeling of going through TSA in an airport and suddenly wondering if you somehow have a gun on you, except its easy to brush off as silly.

the gabriel that lives in my mind, AUs or just . regular gabriel experiences this sort of want that either under the right circumstance or if it sits with tension and waiting for too long its like something eating at you and creeping up on you. it is the hunger, yes, but its something far worse than just saying its hunger. its like pangs, aches, its impulse to take and to feel criminal for even Having if you had food placed right in your hands, like its stolen and undeserved but nonetheless you tear into the bread with your teeth without caring to even slice it into pieces. and sometimes. its deeper, almost self loathingly painful thoughts you shove away in fear of how itd hurt someone because youre completely enveloped in the idea that if you asked or wanted anything it would be the worst thing in the world. that the other person would be scared and hate you for it and reject you in that manner. it spirals into thinking that by imagining or thinking the thoughts of wanting anyone is a violence to someone you care about in itself. like a deeprooted evil in the heart. before you know it youve characterized the other person as not someone who is unable to experience your desires and you might not even believe they experience any at all, that its impossible to be worse than you. instead of two people feeding each other its seeing yourself and the other person as a consumable and the consumer. it circles back around, standing next to that person makes the thoughts more prevalent and it eats you alive. i dont know how to describe this without it being so violent, but the only way really to scratch that itch is the bloody fighting, the only way he can justify and accept someone else wanting to do the same thing as him. i wish i could describe the Feelings in my mind, but its just. one word commands that ring out in the head to drive yourself crazy. grab. pull. devour. you wish you could put a thousand hands on someone to feel all you want and drag them down.

why does it feel like a selfish violent act to want to pull someone into an embrace when its all your body craves, why does it feel so evil to want to Have anything or to have a little control or to take things even when theyre given to you.

this does leave an opening for vulnerability. being able to accept someone else wanting the same things as you or even worse more than you is emotionally so enriching. but also. for the other person to wrap you around their finger, knowing youre starved too. and youll let it happen because you love it. instead of just feeling free of evil, you can also find freedom in getting a sense youre both filled with some kind of. deeprooted evil maybe.

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Im gonna get picked up by a hawk, too!

dude theyre gonna fucking take us away

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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might get on this v4v shit so i can make them press their boobs together

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i took my meds to gear up to work on comms. then proceeded to write an entire text block about my interpretation of gabriel and desire and the "feeling of deeprooted evil in the act of wanting at all" and my personal relationship with it, and then drew a burger, got joint pain out of nowhere and then got tired.

anyway does anyone want that giant text brick to read about the experience of the guilt of having non submissive desires when youre christian

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v1s tits are my chewtoy

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cant. Sleep. ahhhhfhrgbgj ineed to touch v1s boobs so bad its driving me insane. tittie... tittie.... boobie.. im going to get picked up by a hawk and taken away

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MY COMM SLOTS ARE FILLED BY THE WAY. Thank you for the help and support! If I have energy I may reopen for another batch, but I'm gonna be alright ^_^