#I JUST DONT HAVE ANYWHERE ELSE TO PUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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oh boy 2AM !!!!!!
#xmen#xmen comics#magneto#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#i love how i never. put michael xavier#like ok we get it i think we know who we're looking at#snap sketches#BUT HIIIIII it is 2AM !!!!!!#i got some stuff done early tonight and so i wanted to Indulge#after all the love i gave charles recently i had to shift to erik scribbling for a sec mk its only fair#i think the funnier bit is that while i did intend to do these doodlings at SOME point#i originally just wanted to draft a comic but once i realized i was gonna have erik use his powers a lil in it#i reminded myself i still wanted to Properly figure out how i wanted to draw it. and now we're here#first drawin is just cause i really like that outfit. like its criminal its not actually shown anywhere else jlaejkvej#it IS just his black krakoa outfit sleeveless but i dont wanna hear it a sleeveless outfit can be so special#if i were a weaker man id draw this outfit like. any time i drew krakoa-era erik tbh but i am only slightly better than that#anyway im tired now im all drawn out. you can tell i started losing steam by the time i got to the ref sheet vjaelkjela#good night everyone !!!!!
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actually wraith and grey are kind of parallel routes when you think about it given their linear nature, the princess as a vengeful spirit, the absence of the blade and thusly the absence of what it symbolizes (trust & choice)
#my posts#was writing a different meta post ramble about how the blade represents choice like#having the decision to take or not take it is one of the most basal fundamental and important branches in ch1 and most routes#and you do Not have that decision at all in wraith grey and moment of clarity#which are fairly linear routes featuring a ghostly princess#wraith is the least linear cause like. you can still throw her into the abyss#you can also just immediately willingly succumb to freeing her which feels different than being forced into it even if the effects the same#aghh these tags need to be a post at some point im like just rambling rn getting thoughts down#NOT ONE OF MY FINER POSTS IM LITERALLY JUST GETTING THOUGHTS DOWN.#i dont have anywhere else to put my thoughts i gotta find a discord server or something
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MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!
grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.
#ramblez#little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao#this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it#hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD#hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you#batim#batdr#bendy and the ink machine#bendy and the dark revival#and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions#it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting#But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent#dw Im not going anywhere <3#also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently#old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD#also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns#he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs#and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get#and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they#dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves#to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent#mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did#so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!
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When it comes to hygiene tasks and self care with disability and chronic illness, its pretty much a constant case of: don't let perfect be the enemy of the good.
Basically: it's better to do something, than to do nothing at all.
TLDR: Just because you can't do something "properly" doesn't mean you shouldn't do it at all. Do it half-way. Do it shitty. Do it barely. Do it on a technicality. But do what you can. Just try, because doing something will help you.
If you don't have the energy to scrub your body with a sponge, just rub soap over your skin with your hands.
If you don't have the energy to wash your whole body with soap, just hit the places where sweat accumulates, or where you're smelliest.
If you don't have the energy to wash with soap AT ALL, just sitting in water is better than nothing. It will wash away dirt and oils.
If you can't bathe or shower at all, a warm wash cloth is your new best friend. If that's too much, then try bath wipes. They're a bit bigger than regular wet wipes, and a bit more heavy duty. They're designed to help keep bed ridden patients clean in hospitals.
If you don't have the energy to dry yourself after a bath or a shower, just put on a bathrobe and get into bed. If you don't have the energy to get dressed afterwards, just don't. It can wait until you can.
If you don't have energy to brush your teeth for two minutes, honestly, just a cursory scrub is better than not doing anything.
If you can't brush your teeth twice a day, brush in the evenings. It will help take away the build up of food from the day.
If you don't have the energy to brush AT ALL, honestly, just take a cloth and wipe the plaque off your teeth. Rinse with mouth wash after if you'd like. Something is always better than nothing.
If you can't floss twice a day. Try once. If that's too much, try a few times a week. If that's too much, try setting aside a day once a week as a goal. If you can't keep a schedule, do it when you're able to. Hell, I keep some floss next to my bed so that if I forget and don't have the energy to go get it, I can just reach over.
If you can't iron your clothes, don't bother. Wrinkles are fine. Wear jumpers over wrinkly t-shirts. No one will know, and honestly, most people won't even care. If it's really wrinkly and it's A Big Deal And It Needs To Be Ironed, here's my life hack. Step 1: take a spray bottle, and spritz the item of clothing (while you're wearing it is easiest) until it's lightly damp. Step 2: use a hair-dryer on the clothes until they're dry. It gets rid of creases like nobody's business, it's easier than lugging out the iron and ironing board, and you get to have nice toasty warm clothes afterwards.
If you can't fold your clothes, try just hanging them up. It's less commitment. It's quicker to do. Granted, you need to have the space in order to do this, but it is also good at helping you downsize, and lets you visualise exactly what you have.
If you can't put your clothes away, invest in a couple of laundry baskets, and then just keep your clean clothes in the baskets. You can then separate washed clothes into underwear, pants, and shirts baskets. You can just leave them like that. I'm giving you permission to never fold your laundry again if you can't. Just leave it unfolded. Who's going to care? Something is better than nothing. If you can, try to put those baskets into your closet so that you can keep the clutter out of sight, and give yourself a more restful environment.
If you can't separate your clothing out into different categories and wash them "properly" (whites, warm tones, cool tones, darks, delicates / switching between hot & cold washes / paying attention to laundry instructions on the label) then just don't worry about it. If you cold wash your clothes, colours won't bleed. Maybe gradually over the course of dozens of washes there'll be some changes in hue, but it's really not as high stakes as the One Red Sock In The Whites Turns Them Pink trope makes it out to be.
I've pretty much come to the point in my life where if a piece of clothing can't survive the washer and dryer, then it's just not meant to be. I colour separate my clothes, and if I have the energy/remember I'll take my bras and jumpers out of the washing machine to drip dry. But otherwise, I leave it to the universe.
If you can't separate out your recycling, then don't. If you have a large amount of rubbish you need to get rid of but the idea of separating it out properly is stopping you from doing so, then just don't worry about it. I know it's not ideal, but if you have garbage in your room/house and you need to get rid of it, please just get rid of it. Don't let the problem get bigger and harder to deal with. Don't let "doing something properly" get in the way of keeping your living spaces clean. Please. Give yourself understanding.
If you can't wash your dishes, get paper plates. Obviously, it's not ideal, but it is better that you eat food than skipping meals. It is better that you have a clean kitchen, rather than having dishes piling up and making it harder to look after yourself.
If you can't prepare meals for yourself keep making the tasks easier and easier. If you can't do recipes, then simplify. Use pasta sauce from the jar instead of making it. Eat canned soup. Buy food you can just stick in the oven. If you eat fish fingers and microwave veggies every night, it's better than not eating anything at all. It's better than having to fork out money on take-out. If you need ready-made meals, then get them. If you're literally just eating a raw cauliflower for dinner; 1) I see you, 2) me too, sis, 3) something is better than nothing.
These are the basic things you need to do every day to function as a person. They are your activities of daily living. Brushing your teeth. Bathing or showering. Using the bathroom. Getting dressed. Eating. Drinking. Sleeping. Keeping your environment clean. You don't need to do these things perfectly, but they need to happen in order for you to have a decent quality of life.
And it breaks my heart, because I know that so many disabled people can't do these things every day. I'm not saying this to guilt or judge, I'm saying that these are basic needs; you deserve these things. These things bring dignity. If a disabled person is unable to do these things, it diminishes their quality of life. It robs them of dignity.
If you need help to do these things, Its okay to ask for help. It's okay to need help. But if you can't get that help and you have to do these things by yourself -- or you just plain want to be independent and do it without help-- then don't hold yourself to standards you can't meet.
Don't let perfect be the enemy of the good. Doing something is always better than doing nothing. Even if it's not perfect. Even if it's not done well. Do what you can.
#lord knows that im still trying to pull myself out of the muck and into independence and dignity#i had to set a rule for myself that i need to wear clean clothes every day. and that i need to wear pyjamas to bed#that one's been hard. sometimes I dont have the energy to do it and i just stay in the same clothes for two days at a time#or i go to sleep in what i was wearing. but when i do follow that rule my quality of life is drastically better#not feeling dirty or gross goes a long way to making you feel more like a person#i also made a rule that im not allowing myself to look frumpy outside anymore. that means clothes that look nice#no more trackies and pj pants and all that stuff. i basically lived in perpetual pyjamas for four years and im over it#i still dress comfortably but the important thing is that i dress. i look put together. i wear things that make me happy#(and i didnt need to buy anything to do so. i just needed to start taking better care of myself)#and i stopped letting perfect be the enemy of the good. i started doing things shitty rather than not doing it at all#and the more i keep pushing with my ADLs the better i feel#what helps is now i dont have to contend with stairs and that has made a dramatic change to what im able to accomplish#ive also finally built up enough strength in my body that im able to go to the shops by myself. so i can buy things to make easy meals#and mum doesnt mind if i just put some things in the oven or air fryer for us for dinner.#i still cant really cook. i felt bad about that for the longest time. i didnt even try bc i knew what id make would be disappointing#or it wouldnt be up to the standards of what everyone else was making. i was so sick of feeling like a let down all the time.#now i just make what i can and my mum doesnt complain bc shes in the same boat.#and yeah. having help would be nice. it would mean id be able to do more than what i can do by myself.#and its great to see how far ive come. but im not a burden. and when i have the accommodations i need i can do a lot more#i do something rather than nothing and my life has dramatically changed since then. ive just gotten better and better.#chronic illness#disability#chronic pain#spoonie#one things for certain and thats that im never going to let myself rely on anyone else ever again.#i never want to be on the other side of that ever again. I don't want to be anyone's burden. i dont want that hanging over me#i do things by myself or i dont do them at all. and god fucking willing i'll never go back to needing as much help as i used to#i really didnt realise just how much of an obstacle living with stairs was in my life. it was the biggest barrier against everything#stairs stopped me from being independent. if i couldnt traverse them i just didnt go anywhere. my world shrank so much#and not having the proper wheelchair shrinks my world even more. im stronger than i used to be but im still severely limited in where i go
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extremely embarrassed I am once again coming to you with 3 asks😔😔😔 elli read chapter 4
OH GOD. here we go. i panicked thinking this was about chapter 5 because of the mid-chapter 4 line but from the skim i just did i think I'm going to have to steel my heart or risk cardiac arrest from your reactions to the smut ( which, by the way, was the first smut I've ever written so please go easyonme ). Chapter 4, however, was incredibly fun to write so I'm excited to read through this. ( Sweet Dreams is playing too--i've had the tsp sskk playlist on loop to get in the mindset for part III )
Yes!!!! the PM is also in the tags! i couldn't make a murder mystery AU set in Los Angeles of all places and not have corporations with dirty hands and deep-pocketed old-money types floating around their establishments. Los Angeles doesn't and didn't have a main crime family with a lot of Aura, so inserting the PM without feeling like I was replacing a very real crime syndicate ( like I would if this was NY or Chicago ) was quite nice.
Yeah . . . TSP Atsushi is a whole different thing, on the surface at least. He's older, more experienced ( Yeah. ), and honestly, has bigger problems to deal with than the budding realization that he might like men so he just waltzes into flirtation with Akutagawa like it's nothing. If I were Ryuu I'd have pushed him down the stairwell by now, but he's too smitten for that.
I need to draw Mori in that shirt ( he did step up, after all. The Tsushimas weren't great, even if Dazai thinks of them with that wistfulness seen in Chapter 2 ).
OMG I CANNOT TELL WHATS BEEN BLACKED OUT IN THESE SCREENSHOTS SO I JUST FREAK OUT WHENEVER THERE'S A MASSIVE SPOILER QUOTE TT_TT. My blood goes cold. Poor Elli I bet there are entire conversations that are just a wall of grey rectangles to them.
I'd LOVE to write a bsd au set in a neo-futuristic AU!!!!!! honestly, that would go crazy, I can imagine it already.
I think Dazai is most attractive when he's shutting the fuck up unfortunately
Oh wow I feel like I'm watching a downward spiral into hornyposting in real-time surely this isn't going to go anywhere.
#ALSO: I think canonzai is already quite dog-coded! I know he actually refers to Chuuya as a dog#but the meanings behind them are quite different. Chuuya is a Sheep Dog#controlled#owned#he has a home and he'll loyally defend it to the point of ruin. Dazai pokes fun at that and forcibly opens Chuuya's eyes to the fact that h#HAS free will.#like the STB scene where Dazai puts saving the world on hold for Chuuya to make a decision for himself.#I don't think Dazai would be as interested if Chuuya just did as he was told. Dazai is the opposite. He's a stray#under the illusion of freedom#picking and choosing where he goes#but never belonging anywhere except for the nights in boxes taking shelter from the rain or for the few seconds he's loved when he's being#fed scraps by humans that pity him#but can't bring themselves to take him home. He tries and tries and he can't understand why everyone else--all the dogs around him who were#born and bred for companionship the way he was#have those lives#and he keeps trying and changing himself in the hopes that some day he gets to wear a collar and a tag like the clean dogs on walks with#their colorful leashes#so he learns tricks and welcomes pets and plays fetch#but when he bites people blame his nature as a stray#but he hasn't known anything else ( that is#until he joins the ADA ).#ask#hi guys!#omg i actually dont know where i was going with this#i do think Dazai is also incredibly cat coded#though#its hard becuase nobody is one or the other#thats just#people
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my biological father is so racist especially towards asians and it makes me sick in the stomach. I got in a fight with him over how he talked about things i dont want to mention but It just triggered me so fucking much I genuinely wanted to slam his head against a wall
#tw violent thoughts#? i guess#yap#THE BEES#I need to kill him So fucking bad and then he wss like 'well do you have black friends and *slur* friends?'#I DONT FUCKING CARE WHAT RACE MY FRIENDS ARE OR WHAT RACE SOMEONE ELSE THE WAY YOU SPEAK ABOUT OTHERS IS DOWNRIGHT AWFUL#AND MY BIOLOGICAL MOTHER ISNT ANY BETTER I REMEMBER HER GETTING SCARED THAT ID DATE A BLACK DUDE WHEN I WAS LIKE 12 CUZ I TOLD HER I REWLLY#LIKE CHOCOLATE LIKE WHAT THEFUCK IS WRONG WITNYOU I HOPE ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS LEAVE YOU AND I KNOW DAMNWELL IM PUTTING YOU IN THE WORST#NURSERY HOME KNOWN TO MAN THE SECOND I GET THE CHANCE TO#tw racism#??. I dont know if how i shoudl tagall of this#i just hate everyone rn#these people are not my family. the genes we share hold no meaning to me.#ig this can be even sadder now because all of my close friends are asian and now I dont want to subject them to any form of discrimination#or awful behaviour from my biological parents. I dont want them anywhere close to these fuckers Istg i wish i had my bb gun so I could shoot#my biological father it would be so satisfying Im so done with all of the abuse and all of his awful awful behaviour Henever fucking learns
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i wish i had somewhere to write that was not my bed
#i have one of those arm rest pillows but i like. immediately half laid down with my laptop in my lap#and almost fell asleep aldjfkdgf#i dont like writing with the keyboard i have for my pc. i like my laptops flat keys#i guess i could move my keyboard and put my laptop there...#im so sleepy tonight tho and unfortunately for much of the night i did get caught up in scrolling 😭#i worked a little tho!!!#hobbies are so hard when scrolling is easier.#i need a text post tag#also i cant write anywhere else in the house while ppl are awake bc i dont want anyone to see me#imagining explaining fic and corishtola to my family...no thank you#my mom is the only one who knows i write but i did not tell her she is just the only one who puts 2 + 2 together when she#sees me with my laptop lol#ANYWAY. sleepy time. gn
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House MD is literally all just gay sex like. Thats it. I dont know how else you explain how this is ending
#in sickness and in health or some shit what the hell is wrong with them <333#if you didnt know wilson (oncologist) gets cancer and has like 5 months or shit to live#and house (epitome of self-destruction) is desperatly trying to save him#actually whatever they have going on is deeper than gay sex#i understand them (im aromantic)#<- its not romantic its not sexual. it is gay though#i did enjoy that while wilson almost died in houses apartment (where he'd rather die than anywhere else (dont read into that))#house like. called hookers and took silly pictures and put it all into a video so he'd feel better#literallyy theyre soooooo#sorry#i just like when there are middle aged to older guys who only understand each other because they are broken#and the world is fucked up and so are they and they hurt each other all the time but they also need each other because. who else would#be there for them?#uggghhhhh#im not even done#im on the second to last ep#nightjay blogging#i need one of them to stab the other i think it would fix them
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i miss the creperie at uni town 😢
#the crepes were very good#and it had the best club sandwiches. and they were cheap like only 5€ and they were 2 full squares like 6 slices of bread! and with fries#and most importantly they put manouri and ive never had manouri anywhere else and i started putting it in my crepes too#and the crepe places here dont have it and I miss it#oh and the tiny pancakes! so so tasty#and now i just have to accept that i will never eat from there again#jo says stuff#personal ramblings
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thalia is so growing on me i love my rich woman who has Problems.. i gave her ice powers for like. the elsa vibes.
#but im like damn... gale...karlach....stay away from her... or else ur gonna explode in the end....#really a coin toss between those two and im gonna be sad at the end but that's the thalia experience 😭😭#also i dont think she's gonna save the tieflings... not bc she's evil but she generally doesn't care... and curing the tadpole is her utmos#priority. like she's already stressed with her chaotic magic killing her if she loses 50/50 now you have to add brain worms on top of that?#funny that shri'iia does more heroic deeds and she's like. the evil aligned chara#but thalia is generally very cold in a sense that she's always looking at the bigger picture and she's willing to sacrifice/disregard#who gets caught in the crossfire.. like that's just another responsibility she has to bear for Her. and she's very the type to sacrifice he#own happiness for her Duty vibe. like i think she's just learned how to be content with whatever she's left with.#also she's her father's heir bc she's the only child to her father's First Wife. and thalia get step siblings along the way but i think tha#grief of losing her mother / becoming an adult/handling adult affairs quickly made her jaded on a lot of stuff#and she feels like it's her responsibility to lead her noble house to higher pastures so her step siblings can live freely#like she's just taking all the work to herself - as the Heir. and that's what she was doing UNTIL she gets the wild magic#now suddenly she feels like she's cursed. and the fact that it's chaotic by nature and so dangerous..!! she can't stay in court or at home#over the fear of harming someone. and she's learnt that to get rid of a problem you always have to go to the root of it#hence why she's travelling around finding more info and source of the wild magic in hopes to cure herself from it#and she kind of put her life on Pause bc she believes she can't get anywhere with this curse. but its like gworl u put ur life on pause lon#before that.. anyway her end goal is that once she cures herself and she's normal again she'll prob marry some other old money heir#set up trusts for her siblings and live a quiet life. but that wont happen obvi hehe#also one of the siblings' name is melpomene... being named from the goddess of comedy thalia is kinda boring lol#essentially her story is like. she learns how to have fun. essentially. depending on how i rp her idk yet actually
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daron's ref plus a sketch icon! i was gonna hold these off until i finished their page but im impatient :3
#my dated signatures used to be the date that i posted the piece but im changing it to the date that i finished it#its more convenient and useful for me bc of archiving. date posted on social media isnt that much relevant tbh#im in a downer mood and my grades on college are bad so im gonna have to study my ass off to recuperate them -_-#which means the drop of motivation i can sometimes squeeze out of myself for art is practically one in a hundred bc of the studying#all that which helps me. not.. finish their character page. yay :(#ended up just making their coat have a gradaient in the middle bc i couldnt figure out what else to put there to balance the contrast#im also not like. 100% happy with the tail bc it kinda bothers me that the stripes dont start anywhere but its consistent with the ears so.#ch:sona#myart#furry#character design#anthro#furry anthro#furry character#<im putting him out in the public bc everyone deserves his grace. teehee
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love doesn’t have to be romantic. It’s strangers holding the door open for you. Friends laughing with you. The sun shining it’s warmth for you to bask in. The random bird or squirrel on your walk that doesn’t bolt when you pass it. There’s love everywhere, in infinitely many different forms
I actually wasn't talking about romantic love. The way you phrased it is beautiful. I think I'm too bitter to comprehend this rn. But I'll think about this the next time any act of consideration happens to me. Thank you for going out of your way to write this. I hope you have a wonderful week 💞
#ig im just really bitter about it rn#i feel like i gave away everything i had to be loved#it's the little things but like i cant see them#maybe all the love i had turned into grief bc i couldn't put it anywhere else#bc it wasn't needed#maybe it was#for them to find someone better to pour their love into#i truly be bitter rn to comprehend this#i think i was just expecting people to love me as well#i should have known better#i dont know really#how to articulate this#i feel so stupid ig#for trying so hard for people#and for expecting#and for not caring about myself first#i still dont know how to process all of this#its better to love without any strings attached#yeah i think im trying to love without expecting it back from now on#and ofc love myself first before any of it#so that i dont feel resentful of them#but thanks for writing it out#it's nice to be seen sometimes
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oh yeah ftr, there's been talk floating around of a potential deal between tumblr and mid/journey and that's obviously bad news for me here. nothing is official yet and iiiii will probably keep posting until it is either debunked or confirmed, but be aware that i'm gonna delete this blog if its real.
if you'd like to help out small creators like me so we can keep our blogs here, email tumblr via contact us and tell them exactly how bad this is. be calm, be clear, and be serious so they take things seriously. k thaaaaanks sorry for the doom and gloom
#recall speaks#im putting no further tags on this bc i dont want anyone except followers to see it#this is between us ok. im scared and i dont have anywhere else to go so i hope this doesnt happen#the webtools or whatever dont work theyre constantly needing to be adapted and like#my ultimate goal was being able to post writing#im a writer at my heart#theres no protections for writing. no ones ever thought to protect us writers who dont have the importance to copyright shit#i would just be showing everything to my friends and no one else forever and that would be very sad#dont feel bad if u rbd stuff btw ik that that itself also renders the tools and deleting useless#but u were just using the site the way ur supposed to u just wanted to share my stuff and i was happy u did#loving real art is one of the few defences we have
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i will say one of my Biggest pet peeves in one fanworks is 'liam becomes the new airy.' like im sorry i respect u and ur interpretations and ur creative interests !!! im glad ppl have fun and have ideas about post canon one, theres a lot of potential there!!!! but also the moment that i see a work have liam do this i instantly stop paying attention
#not putting this in the tag cus i dont wanna make ppl feel bad!!!#and like. i HAVE seen works that mildly explore it but in a way that i kinda like#but its just. it bothers me So Bad#like it contradicts every trait liam has ever shown in the series AND all of his motivations#'ppl qct ooc under stress!' yeah but it doesnt make ppl act in ways Completely diff from who they r... like hes still liam#at that pt hes just a whole new CHARACTER#but its like. his ENTIRE motivation is that he wants to stop anyone else from going what he went thru. will do anything to prevent that#itd literally undo what makes his entire character him at all to have him go back on that. thats literally his most prominent motivation#its SO intrinsically tied to him as a character#like yeah!!! him and airy are both isolated in that world. there are strong similiarities between their characters#but they still went theu snth DISTINCTLY different.#airy died and was isolated. liam was kidnapped and then isolated. it feels just different enough that i CANT see how#liam would just end up as 'airy 2.' their experiences may be similar but theyre still extremely different#and its like. ive said it before but i think julien is meant to serve WAY more of a parallel to liam than airy is#if theres anything i think liam would do if he couldnt get home? it would be to try and try and try#until hes just... not going anywhere#his stubbornness (and juliens stubbornness for that matter) is vital to understanding his actions.#hed never stop even if it meant he REALLY never stopped. and i think thats just as emotionally impactful#and? even if he WERE to act ooc. uh#tbh? i think hes terrified of dying. he does NOT like it. i think esp after the waiting room hed dread it bc all he knows of it#is that hell just keep dying and dying. or end up just stuck there forever#but. if he were to start rly going against his established traits. i think hed more sooner off himself than start s3#ESP since it is his own concern for others that makes him act the most Against his own self in the entire series#when he tries to kill airy. bc he couldnt stand the idea of everything continuing#and airy doing this to more ppl. THAT is what is strong enough to make him go against his own personality#and i think its too deeply intertwined into his character for him to try to deal with isolation by kidnapping people#esp not owen.#suicide mention#ANYWAY. these tags r long#OK TO RB BTW if u want i just didnt tag it bc i dont wanna make any1 goin thru the tag sad or anything
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My SVSSS shelves which now include other danmei and Sanrio and an assortment other blind box figurines for some reason,
#bingqiu in the midst of all my girly pastel colored figurines is taking me out#BUT PLS I DONT HAVE ANYWHERE ELSE TO PUT THEM REALLY#this whole time theyve just been scattered around my plants but now I have a nendoroid shelf with a whole 2 nendos to put on it#the etc. danmei gets put elsewhere the second I get clear acrylic displays for my korean svsss volumes which will take up like a whole shel#I also want to buy frames for all the official postcard sized art I have#but for now this is sanrio danmei and bingqiu shelving lmaoo#svsss#my stuff
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not me just realizing i can put stickers on my sketchbook cover and then immediately using up almost all of the rest of my stickers lmao
#no real point in saving them or anything i dont have anywhere else to put them rn lmao#but part of me was like let's think about this and then the bigger part of me was like alllll the stickers on rn#the front cover sticker placement is so bad LMAO so it's kinda ugly but it's fine#also i just got an email from an internship i applied to like over a month ago and theres an assignment to complete as part of the applicat#and like idk how to do this shit at all lmfao TT rip#hhhhh ig might as well see what i can do but#oh well i mean i rly didnt try that hard on the first part of the application either lmfao TT#anyway i need some more smaller stickers now to fill in the spaces on my sketchbook front/back covers noww XD#jeanne u do not need more stickers LOL#jeanne talks#wait i just skimmed it but now i just saw the email said we're impressed w ur qualifications lmfao#idk how true it is but#'we invite u to the next stage of our selection process the technical round' cool goodbye i guess lmao#i also just skimmed the instructions but :c iiiiidk if i can do it agh idk i should try tho#idk i have a good habit of first of all not even trying to find applications or anything that much LMAO#and also just kinda having them open like on the to do list sorta and then just#letting the deadline pass :) recently did that w another one that needed a cover letter#that i just wouldn't write ig lmfao#:D
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