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spideyanakin · 3 years ago

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bahrain (c.l)

summary - (driver!reader) charles goes crazy when his engineer tells him you're the one who crashed or in other words; Instead of grosjean crashing in Bahrain, you're the one who's car blows up on fire

warnings - very bad car crash, but happy ending!

also I might have made Vettle's Ferrari be a HAAS? bare with me it worked for the fic 💀

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Can be read alone or as a part 2 to my blurb from white to red

You were a great pilot. The bright, young new addition to Ferrari.

With you and Charles on the team, Ferrari had become so popular in the media that even your boss had thanked you for the fresh new amount of instagram followers and supporters they had gained. You were an iconic power couple, and no one could deny it.

Even Ferrari used it to their advantage. Pairing the two of you in YouTube videos, interviews, making posters where you'd be closer together than the usual partner pics. Instagram posts, sneaky videos of you and Charles supporting each other in the paddock before a race when you thought no one was watching - or at least thought no one filming.

It made the fans crazy, and you were enjoying every part of it.

"So how are you feeling today?"

"Good to be honest." You jumped on your heels as you smiled to the camera.

"No thoughts about starting last?"

"Honestly I think I'll be able to catch up quickly, I'm not afraid of that." You chuckled. "That's why I didn't mind when they asked me. They wouldn't have changed the engine if I didn't agree to it." You nodded, looking at the paddock to greet some staff that I had just arrived.

"How about your rivalry with Charles?" The interviewer sent a cheeky grin to which you smirked. "You think he could take your place in the standings, with the engine penalty and all."

"If I'm being honest, I think he might. But I mean he's only like 2 points behind me, if I manage to catch up with him I should be fine." you smirked. "Hopefully I get to catch up with Norris by the end of this season too."

"Right, I forgot you're aiming to up star him too. Hope he isn't too mad."

"All friendly rivalries." You nodded.

"I also heard your engineer complain because Charles and you were sending each other messages through him." A loud chuckle escaped your lips.

"Yeah-" You nodded, a light blush passing by your cheeks. "He's probably sick of us by now."

"This doesn't distract you during races?"

"We don't do it during races" You shook your head. "Only before a race, like during formation lap, or if there's a red flag or at the end" You bit your lip. "I think we would probably get penalties if we did that, plus it would too distracting, as you said."

"Ready?"

"As always." You smiled before giving Charles a quick kiss.

"Hey, love birds time to race."

"Sorry!" You grinned "Love you."

"Love you too." He squeezed your hand one last time before letting you leave.

You shot a glare to Charles before putting your helmet on. He mouthed a good luck before shooting you a funny look that warmed your heart.

Before you knew it you were both in the car, starting on your formation lap.

"Hey can you send a message to Charles?"

"No."

"C'mon!" You laughed.

"What is it?" you heard the engineer sigh as you focused on the track, setting your mind to the race.

"That I hope he does well, and you can add an I love you."

"I'll definitely not add the I love you."

"As you wish" You chuckled before focusing perfectly on your turn.

"He says he loves you too."

"HHAHHA I KNEW YOU WOULD DO THAT!" You couldn't help but smile, feeling more than ready for the race to come.

"Yeah, yeah. Focus on the race now." You hummed a yes as you parked your car at the far end of the lot. You'd have to work hard to finish with a good score, and you were more than ready for it.

"Lights out and away we go!"

What you didn't know was that, when Norris skipped ahead to the Alpha Tauri of Gasly and Ocon's Renault, he quickly got stuck because of Bottas loosing places.

Ocon and Gasly who came back up made him stuck between the two of them, causing his front wing to take damage from the Alpha Tauri and slow him down. As Vettle in the Haas who was behind Norris headed towards the three cars in front of him, he unfortunately had to slow down, causing Lance Stroll to go off track and back again in front of him after turn 2. Luckily Charles had a good start and was ahead, you could barely see his Ferrari from where you were.

You had a good start too to be honest. Skipping through the Williams, you thought you were doing a pretty good job.

When you spotted Sainz and Vettle slowing down, your immediate thought was too the right, going inside Magnussen's HAAS to skip all the bunched up cars that had accumulated through turn 4.

But you missed Kvyat's Alpha Tauri who was heading the same direction as you.

It all happened so fast.

The second you turned and were ready to go for the straight line, you felt his wheel hit the back of your car, and before you knew it you lost control and headed right for the wall.

The car split in half, sending you fly against the broken railing. Everything exploded, something you had never seen in your driving years.

Back during the race, most of the drivers were starting to see the burning massive fire that started to rise.

At this point no one knew if you were ok, no one even knew who had crashed.

"So, red flag"

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. This was a big one" Charles felt his heart thump in his chest, this wasn't an accident you experienced every race, and definitely wasn't something to take lightly. "This was a big one. Are they ok?"

"I'll get back to you." The Engineer suddenly felt a mix of compassion and fear flash right through him. Charles didn't know it was you, he didn't know if you were ok - he was bracing for worst.

"fuck-" Charles said again through the intercom and this didn't help the poor engineer who gulped. "I've seen it in the mirrors..." His voice trailed. "Who is it?" The feared question. He didn't know if it was you, it could have been, you starting from the back. "Is Y/n ok?"

There was a blank in the intercom. As if no one wanted to tell Charles who had crashed. He didn't say anything, too scared for the reply.

"Stay calm Charles."

'Fuck' he thought. If he was telling him this, it had to be you.

"It's Y/n." He felt his whole world crash on him. The sky could have fallen on him and he would have felt better.

"No- p- please" His eyes stung. "Oh- fuck, fuck, fuck me." He angrily made a turn. "S- Still no information?"

"Still no information I will let you know." The engineer choked.

Charles wanted to blame everything and everyone. Himself included. He was beating himself up even thought he knew he had no blame to take for your accident. No one did.

He started regretting every single thing he hadn't done.

He regretted not asking you out to that party when you were 17, and all those other times he wanted to ask you out. Because if he had, he would have gotten be to yours for longer. He regretted putting that vacation the the Caribbean off because of work. He regretted anything he had ever been angry with you about. He regretted everything he hadn't done with you that you always said you would do.

And most of all he regretted not marrying you.

If you didn't make it out alive, his life would be empty forever - and he didn't know how he'd even have the strength to pilot the car back to the pit lane.

In the mean time panic startled you, and every safety test you had ever taken in your life flashed before you. You were getting hot from the fire and your breathing was getting so uneven that for a second you didn't know if you were going to make it out alive.

You managed to unbuckle yourself, slipping through the seat and the halo, jumping through the barrier and out of the fire as best you could, grabbing the medical helpers hand with everything you had in you.

"You alright?" You heard echoes of voices all around you, but it was too hard to focus. You felt someone pull your helmet off as you got into the medical car, making you take as many grateful breath of cool air as you possible could.

"Pit lane, now you will go to the pit lane." Charles heard his engineers voice but could barely listen to it.

"S-Still no information?" He was so scared to ask.

"Still no information."

Silence. Dreaded silence.

"She's out of the car, she's alright." The breath he was holding disappeared into the air.

"Oh fucking hell, thank god" He wanted to cry, kiss you, hug you, anything to show you how much he loved you. He wanted to kiss the people who had designed your car and with enough safety regulations, he wanted to thank every single person and thing in this entire world that you were ok.

Because his world was alive.

You were alive.

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my-faves-said-gay-rights · 4 years ago

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my faves said gay rights part 3 - Sunmi

For pride month this year I thought I would live up to my name and post about all the times my faves supported the lgbtq+ community! So let's go ahead with our lgbt queen Sunmi!

1. She LITERALLY said "gay rights" at a concert after a fan asked her to

2. She also said happy pride at a concert before taking a rainbow flag and wrapping it around herself

3. The iconic day when sunmi said "I have many different sides of me like dorky and LGBT queen". I know some of us misunderstood and thought she was coming out but this is still massive because she's saying that her support for the community and the love we give her are an important part of who she is as a person. And in the tweet later clarifying her statement she outright says she supports lgbt people

4. At concerts sunmi has held many lgbt flags, here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure

The first pic she posted herself on instagram (I remember freaking out lol), and in the last one she told the fan who gave it to her that she adores them

5. She held up these fan made signs at a concert

6. At her lalalay showcase: "When asked about her LGBT fans, she said she believes in equality. She also said she disagrees with forcing one's belief and ideas on others when people are morally responsible and not harming anyone"

7. In an interview with cosmopolitan korea she said this

(you are pretty and cool miss)

8. All the times her back up dancers have gender swapped so she does the more suggestive choreo with women, and of course the iconic bisexual choreo in tail

9. On the first day of pride she posted her eating the Baskin Robbins 'over the rainbow' taste of june flavour

Okay I think that's everything but if you know anything else please let me know! Have a happy pride miyane and know that sunmi loves you :D

Edit: okay there's something I forgot! For sunmis tail comeback, her yt channel had fans react to the mv and then meet sunmi. Sunmi said to two women in the video "If there is a man who will fall in love with me…you should prepare to be madly in love!". Then one of the women asked "How about a woman?", and sunmi responded "It is possible!". Thanks to @faithforgottenland for reminding me, sorry it took me so long to add it but I just kept procrastinating lol

#my faves said gay rights #lgbt queen #sunmi #miyane #kpop #lgbt #lgbtq #pride month #wonder girls #miya-ne #gay #lesbian #wlw

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flashwingfox-blog · 3 years ago

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Smaller Lucifer Part 1

Obey me random thought #1

Basically headcannons of how we got to this point

Characters: Wing (aka me), Simeon, Thirteen, Mammon, Leviathan and Asmo

Ship: Wing x Lucifer x Simeon x Thirteen

Headcannos first twelve hours:

So how did he become small when scared, Thirteens prank

He was walking into the house and the potion pored onto him(because if it broke there would be glass everywhere)

Nothing happened for a while he Punished satan

Now the real question how did the demon get scared

They got scared from mammon trying to jump scare him

"MAMMON!” he turned around only to stop in place as he realized he was smaller then his brother by a long shot

he just sighed and walked away, but not with out Mammon snapping a pic and sending it to his brothers

he went to his office and just stood there locking everything and using magic to prevent his brothers from coming in

he at least could do some work while it goes away

he new it didn't last long,

well he forgot it lasts 24 hours... he thought it would only last for 4 hours

speaking of four hours he realized he didn't turn back yet

he finally turned on his DDD and and looked through the group chats..

oh they regretted it.

poor Lucifer not only did all brothers see it THEY SENT IT TO LORED DIAVOLO

then he was in his group message with he partners when he saw the picture

in the chat

Thirteen: OMG I AM SOO SORRY LUCIFER

Lucifer: why are you sorry

then it hit him

Thirteen: I did that prank at the door way

Thirteen: it was meant for one of your brothers

Simeon: but he looks adorable tho

Lucifer: Just because I'm smaller doesn't me I'm cute.

Wing: OH, your logic is being applied to you.

Wing: you said I was cute because i’m smaller so accept that ;P

Lucifer closed his DDD after that and blushed

why does wing use his own logic against him (btw he is sitting in his chair blushing is what i’m imagining)

a few minutes later he got up and unlocked the door, prepared for all his brothers to Litterly look down at him.

Oh no it was Wing, Simeon and Thirteen...

he then realized he was a bit shorter then Wing

he then was swooped up by Simeon and then he was back in his Office

Thirteen closed the door and wing made sure the rest couldn't get in

he at first didn't mind being shorter... then released he could easily be picked up by his brothers or any one taller the a few inches then him

before he knew it they where on the couch

they where now in Simeon’s lap... they have stopped working all together

“Well, Simeon you broke Luci” Wing spoke up walking over to their Angle and demon “I can hear the Windows.exe crash sound in my head”

“My turn to have him on my lap” Thirteen chimed in

She put him in her lap and adored him their

a bit later Lucifer finally regained conciseness and realized he was in a cuddle pile

Simeon is leaning on the sofa arm Thirteen is sitting on top of him leaning onto the back of the sofa wing is laying on top of Simeon and thirteen’s legs and Lucifer is laying on wings lap (no joke its so cute in my head)

“oh he’s back from crashing” Wing says letting out a chuckle while his hair is being pet

“oh yeah you’ll be this height for 24 hours” thirteen said

Lucifer mumbled under his breath “just great” burning his face into wings chest

they stayed like that for a bit longer then thirteen and Simeon had to leave

they all headed out (unlocking the door) and went there separate ways Lucifer and wing headed to Wings room while Thirteen and Simeon went to the door to leave

when they got to wings room wing goes into drawers/closets

“Love, what are you doing?” Lucifer asked

“Getting one of my hoodies” wing said then started humming

a bit later Wing came over with a hoodie of their’s that has fox with the pan flag

“Here!” Wing said handing it to Lucifer “Try it on”

Lucifer sighed he didn't want to where it but wing was offer it to him and he couldn't say no

he takes off his coat and puts on the hoodie

when the hoodie is fully on him his sleeves go past his hands and wing can't help but think how cute he is

Wing takes out their Human phone and Snaps a pic and puts the phone somewhere safe

Lucifer didn't mind the pic He know Ze doesn't show pics without asking him first.

then an hour later its dinner......

oh Diavolo is this going to be interesting

he walks out still wearing the hoodie because wing said he did, honestly he really liked wearing it but wouldn't admit it, they where just proud to ware it

they went to the dinner table and only Mammon Asmo and Levithan where their

apparently Beel forced Belphoger and Satan out of the house for a dinner he would treat them to so they didn't make fun of his brother(really reason is he know they where going to try do the thing they where planing)

did that stop the teasing no, no it did not Mammon made comment about it ALLL dinner Levithan complemented the hoodie wing choose and Asmo was just in shock that his brother the formal PRIDEFUL Demon was wearing something like this

they all went to their rooms except for Lucifer waiting for his other three brothers to return then going to his room

he should of gone to his room because he almost went into demon form and ruined wings favorite hoodie because satan was about to lung at him

Belphoger was just laughing the entire time

After that happened he returned wings hoodie and went right back to work with singing the papers.

then he gets a nock at the door

its wing telling him to go to dam bed (lol its 1: when i’m making this LOL)

Wing finally has enough of Lucifer telling them that they’ll go to bed after its done

Wing pics up Lucifer bridal style and carry this man back to their room handing Lucifer some spare cloths sense he won't fit in his own anymore

Lucifer didn't like being picked up and was also REALLY flustered

Lucifer reluctantly took the spare cloths and changed

once they did Wing wouldn’t let go nor lesson their grip

this was the time they could get this man to sleep

he feel asleep in wings arms

Smaller Lucifer Part 2

Smaller Lucifer Part 3

#obey me shall we date #Obey me!Insert AU #obey me luficer #obey me thirteen #obey me simeon #Obey me Mammon #obey me headcanons #obey me lucifer x simeon #Obey me Lucifer x self!insert wing #Obey Lucifer x thirteen #obey me asmodeus #obey me leviathan #7!mc's AU

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mirkysconcubinefiction · 4 years ago

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I Thought You Should Know 2

Part 2.

Part 1 HERE.

Notes in part 1.

Before:

This time when Superman caught you he held you close and wrapped his arms around you before flying away with you clinging to him and crying because you couldn't hold it in anymore.

Awareness came with a background of arguing and a sinfully - sinfully - soft mattress. Tugging the blankets up and over your head you snuggle into your pillow and doze.

You've grown up with yelling and lived in places that were noise 24/7 and presumed the arguing was the neighbors. A quiet falls over your cocoon and it hits you... your hotel room had a mattress that was as stiff as plywood.

The bed dips and you tug the sheet down from your face and take in the warm tangerine color walls, dark wood molding and the bedside table was a rustic style piece of furniture. Turning over you're startled to find Clark Kent standing with a tray of food but more surprising was the man sitting on the bed in a sharp charcoal suit.

Curious, you lift the blanket and peer down at yourself. You were wearing your underwear... you guess it was bettered than being naked. "Rest assured Miss ****, your virtue is safe."

"Lex!" Snapped Clark with a glare before he turned to you and floundered for what to say before pushing the tray out, "Coffee?"

"What happened?" Your brain felt muffled and you can remember bits and pieces and jumping off a ledge... "Shit, did I try to kill myself again?" You sit up and the blankets pool at you waist uncaring of your bra that was all lace and completely inappropriate for your type of job.

"Again?" The tray is set down on a bedside table and Clark was crawling to you, grabbing your arms, checking your bare wrists, as if he hadn't seen them before you were tucked in half-naked. "**** we talked about this."

"Settle down." Lex heaved himself up with a sigh and peered down at the two of you, "Clark brought you here, you were hysterical and I gave you a sedative and while you were high out of your mind you chose my,"

"Our." Clark snapped but the other man continued on without missing a beat.

"Bed to make your nest. You had this loon," a finger pointed at Clark who look aghast, "Rip off your corset because, and I quote, I can't catch it rip it off. As you spun in a circle trying to reach for the laces."

"I kind of panicked and ripped it off. Sorry."

"He's not sorry, he burned the thing in the fireplace."

"Secrets Lex! Married couples know how to keep secrets!" Clark glared and you watched them bicker back and forth, lost.

"Can we not? As hot as it is, I'm too nauseous to join in on your makeup sex." That cut through the weird foreplay the duo had.

"Get out." Lex tries but you ignore him as usual.

"Here have some coffee!" Reaching for the tray Clark held onto it without strain.

It was a giant mug of black coffee, a small plate with an oversized croissant, little jars of jelly that was a mismatched set from various fancy hotels you knew Clark had a habit of stealing from, a bowl of yogurt topped with fruit and granola, a whole tomato, a cow shaped creamer, and a pig shaped cup with sausage sticking up.

"Remind me to never request breakfast in bed. You forgot silverware and cutting the dam tomato." Lex clapped his hands, "I'm off. Don't overstay your welcome and you're barred from all future events." And then he was gone.

"He does have a nice ass." You mumble into your coffee that was sweet and perfect.

"It makes up for his bad bedside manner." Then Clark is gone... and back with a spoon and knife, a knife he uses to cut your tomato. "There's a bedroom here for you." It's spoken softly and your eyes flick up to meet his then away, the croissant butter soft. "****?"

"Hmm?"

"I'm sorry."

Now you remember, quite convenient when there's a knife in arms reach, "You're not." Strawberry jelly smears heavily. It's flavorful and you chewed slowly, savoring the rich taste. A sip of coffee and a your slurp breaks the silence.

"I am. I shouldn't have said that."

"You thought it and you spoke it. Simple logic."

"No."

"You're a whore." You pick up a tomato slice, "You fucked all the girls you cheered with and you bottomed for half your fraternity." It tasted juicy, "Lois Lane wasn't your only fuck buddy at the paper and Green Lantern misses your dick something fierce." From your peripheral it was interesting how embarrassed his face colored.

"How..."

"Now Lex," you interrupt. "Lex is a slut but he's a slut with standards like myself. Dick pics help weed out the useless ya know." Sip, "Men - woman - don't care." Sip, "It helps when you get really lonely and you can leave. No strings, no questions." Sip, "If you speak to me that way again," your gaze meets his, "I won't need kryptonite to kill you."

"****..."

"Refill please." You hand over your mug that's half filled and Clark takes it. Quietly he moves off the bed and walks out.

The tray is settled at your side and you manage to shuffle over to the edge and stand by the time he comes back. Meeting him part way you ignore the way his eyes rake over you, "I'm..."

You were tired of apologies and hugged him. He was tall and you settled for wrapping your arms around his waist and hugging him tight, "Leave it."

It's never brought up again.

The formal gala was beautiful. Lights, cameras, ice sculptures, bottles of champagne flowed as did the money for the secret auction, so secret no one was aware there was an auction.

At least that's what the news had said.

Lounging on a couch with a tub of ice cream your face is covered in an organic green tea mask, your body has been massaged by a last-minute goddess with hands that deserved to be preserved in the Vatican vault, and your feet was resting on Clark's lap where the man was massaging your left foot with a hand as the other hand tossed Gummi bears.

You were horrible at catching them with your mouth but the colorful bears decorated the carpet and sofa with a certain pizazz. Elevator doors opened and expensive loafers dragged, "Why are you still here?"

Spoon dangling from your mouth you pull it out and point it at the tired man who was being rerun on the massive television. "Did you have fun at your party?"

"That party brought millions to Saint Jude charity foundation."

"Uhu... and how much really..."

Lex dismissed you to turn to his husband, "Why is she still here."

"I'm not putting her out, you can do that." It was said matter of factly with a hint of try it, go on, I dare you.

Oh this was good, not as good as the ice cream but good.

"****." You blink up at the tall bald-headed man, "Leave."

"But the make-up sex."

You think his eye is twitching, "There is no sex!"

A pout twitches your lips and your spoon stabs at the ice cream, "But Dom Daddy Master sex is the best sex." Beside you Clark chokes on a gummy and Lex is a thundercloud as he steps closer and closer to you until he's close enough you can smell his cologne. "See," and you glance over at the coughing man who was thumping his chest, "That's hot. You're hot, we should...."

"Shut up!" And you shut up, sitting back. "Your jokes are not appreciated. Pack your shit and run back to your Captain America. The epitome of all that's righteous and leave..." you snort and quickly cover your nose as ice cream somehow went up there. "Me and mine alone!"

A napkin is passed to you, "Ignore him. He saw what's in the box and is not too happy right now."

"Couldn't you have left it behind?" Wiping your nose you take in all that was Lex Luthor and processed what he said, "Why would I run back to that asshole?" Of course Lex had bared his teeth in a very animalistic way and stormed off so you turn to the quiet second half and said, "What was in the box?"

"A dress." His face loses trace of all humor, "The accessories are a problem, my nose is quite good and you're not that type of person to..." Clark cuts off as Lex returns and all but flings the box at you and Clark catches it and settles it on your lap while taking away your ice cream.

You ignore the argument that's caused by that stunt and take in the dented and dirty box that was lopsided and the tissue paper that hung half out. Clark was right, there was a dress balled up on top and you pull it out... it was a familiar dress.

Black, shiny, skin-tight, one side would cover down the length of your thigh while the other was cut in a way to barely cover your vagina.

You knew this dress.

This was a similar dress you had in your closet from ages ago. It had been the dress you met Steve Rogers in when you had worked another undercover mission as a singer in an underground club. The lights on stage would make the material nearly sheer and showed off your curves and the nipple piercings you had gotten done for the gig.

Well... "He knows." Or at least presumes who you are but how? Dropping the dress to the side you go through the rest of the stuff and pull out a pair of killer heels in your size, "Nope." And drop them both atop the dress. Next was a scrap of fabric that took a moment of turning it here and there to realize it was panties, "What the fuck is this?"

Clark looks pink while Lex scowls but answers, "Thong."

"This," you shake it like it's flag. "Wouldn't cover an ass cheek. I have a fat ass... the strings would cut across my hips and make me look like a ham hung to dry." That too was dropped and you rummaged around the jewelery, the hair extension that sat wrapped, and an empty clutch. "Stockings? It's cold, these fucker really think I would waltz around and freeze my clit off?"

"The point was to entice me, your target, or that idiot." Confused, you glance up at the taller man. "Your choker. There's a mechanism that releases a pheromone when you get close enough to your victim. It's potent, it's an ingenious way to get me to leave and hand me over to SHIELD or attract that asshole who was there, dressed to impress and also wearing a wrist watch that had the same scent, my intel says he was hoping to use it on you if you had arrived. Fucker doesn't realize all phone calls are tapped, that was a mistake."

Rummaging through the box you find rings, bracelets, a pair of studs for nipples - which what the fuck - but no choker. Glancing over at Clark you said, "You said your nose. How does it smell?

"Musky. I only know about it because HYDRA is interested so they tried to use bait, young bait, to entrap my husband in a scandal. It didn't work, girl scouts don't make penthouse calls at 1am. Thankfully I was home and tossed the girl in the closet before dealing with him."

"I could have raped that girl."

"Lex, no." And Clark was off the couch and crowding his husband who leaned into the embrace with a miserable face and you felt upset. Box plopped on the oddly shaped coffee table you make your way around the duo and bare foot you walk to the elevator door that opens with a soft ping and step on, finger jabbing on the button to the ground floor.

It was a short trip of quiet, you ignore the dried and cracked gunk that was on your face and stepped out into a lobby with its shiny floor and gold accents.

There weren't many people about at this hour except a janitor that was windexing a window and a concierge who stood once he caught sight of you. "Ma'am!"

"Phone?" You gesture to the old-fashioned looking thing that sits behind the desk. You knew it was a thing installed by Lex that was as private as you could get, and one that no nosey AI could hack into. An alternative option in case he was too lazy to take an elevator to the top floor.

"I'm sorry but..."

"Great, thanks, sit and be a good boy as mummy handles something." The man is a stuttering mess as you reach over and take it, plopping it on the high ledge.

"Ma'am you can't!"

Fingers presses into small holes and drag clockwise with each number. "Phone the penthouse, I'm sure Mr. Luthor would be ecstatic over us meeting."

The concierge, who had his hand on separate phone and was calling security faltered, "Lex Luthor?"

You smile, green tea dust falling, but before you can utter a comment the line picks up without a greeting, "Brucie poo, remember that favor you owe me? Well I'm collecting."

The concierge moves away to stand with the Janitor who had been quick to call him over and tell him to keep his eyes down. Which was for the best since you were walking around in flannel that was oversized, courtesy of Clark. Switching to a different language and lowering your tone you spoke with an unamused Bruce Wayne, while not friendly with Lex, had been highly upset over the use of children as pawns.

You weren't surprised.

The elevator dings and you wave at Clark who jogged to you and you were quick to say your goodbyes, "Why didn't you tell me?" Frowning at the taller man.

"You're not here, why would we tell you?" And that, that hurt.

The elevator doors closed and you knew you needed to do something, time was wasting.

Solid black, it matched the coal around your eyes and the contacts you had struggled to put on. Boots were comfortably strapped up to your knee and you waltzed across a manicured lawn.

The cameras were down.

The dogs had been knocked out.

Security had been scarce since a good portion had all come down with a mysterious stomach bug. You can't really protect your benefactor if you're shitting your intestines out.

Striding up the marble steps that led to a wrap around porch, you tried a door handle and found it locked. A laser took care of that, a nifty little thing you dropped on the ground and waltzed inside, smoke curling into the air from the burned brass and wood.

Having had memorized the layout you strode to the kitchen, up a flight of stairs, down a hall, up another set of stairs, down another hall and to a bedroom door where you put yourself in a position that your com had instructed. Gun in hand you aim a degree left, swooped right, down center, each bullet piercing through the door and wall.

Stopping only when your com had said so.

You open the door and lean against the door jamb, the bodies on the ground paving a way to a lone man pressed against the corner of a wall holding a gun.

"Hello honey." He aims and pulls the trigger. The gun jams. "Poor baby," you stalk over. "Let mommy kiss it better."

From a distance away Superman removes the com in his ear cutting off the scream of the HYDRA operative who had tried to set up his husband.

Maybe if your com hadn't been knocked off and landed in a puddle of blood you would have found yourself here, in a chair, at the SHIELD headquarters.

Great, just great.

The chair was uncomfortable so you chose a nice corner to lay down, cross your ankles, and try for a nap.

You had gotten as much as you expected from Mr. HYDRA guy which was meh. Not enough info compared to what you had but if you were honest, you weren't there for intel.

It was just a great excuse to inflict as much pain as you could and death.

You hated getting your hands dirty but... yea... getting caught on the back lawn with SHIELD agents storming up to you with guns and K9 was a weird experience.

"****." Confirmation that Steve had a really good guess you were you. Ugh. The door closed behind him with a thump and the man strode over. "You can cut the act, I know who you are."

You sign WHO.

"I thought you were dead." You yawn, "I knew it was you when I heard you laugh." He pauses as if he expects you to talk. "Superman knows who you are, how do you know him?" Quiet. "Answer me." He sighs, voice changing to one of concern, one you had believed was his true self. "I miss you."

A hand lifts and you sign QUEEN.

"****!"

Middle finger, no two fingers, point in his direction.

A hand grips your ankle and you're dragged from the wall, your other free foot hits the ground with a thump, you curl your toes - triggering a nifty backup - and out pops a short knife. Steve let's out a shout as you stabbed him in the leg, once, twice, and his arm that swings to stop you before the man let you go.

Blood coated the ground and the super soldier stumbled back, "What the fuck ****!" The security that patted you down didn't take all your lovely toys.

Hopping to your feet you waved a finger at him and signed BAD BOY. The doors open and two men with guns enter, they try to get Steve to leave but he's a stubborn fuck, "Back off, I've had worse."

Just to fuck with him you sign, POISON.

His eyes go wide and he stumbles out with the two guards and you're left alone once again.

The fuckery begins when the vents turn off, it takes a while for the air to get stifling and hot but you don't remove your uniform and lay on the ground sweating through your material and the pungent stench of blood has you breathing through your mouth.

Stubborn to death you try to ignore the nausea that roils your stomach, a migraine forms at the back of your skull, and your mouth was dry and throat parched.

Time churns and it's hard to focus so you keep your eyes closed but it does little to help. Maybe this was it? A smile quirks your chapped lips, at least you got to stab Steve, hopefully your knife was dirty and he got an infection.

When did you close your eyes?

Breathing was like choking on sand and you can hear the ragged sound of you inhaling deeply and sharply. A shadow hovered above you and you felt a tug and your body lifting before dropping. It's dizzying when your head lifts upwards but thankfully you're gently settled down

"Shit's adhered to her skin."

Was someone talking? No, let you sleep. Closing your eyes you hate that you're jostled as your legs are lifted and plopped on someone's knee.

"Get me water and ice, her legs up will help with blood flow to the heart."

Cold seeps through your uniform and the lip of a bottle entices your tongue to move and swish by swish cool water washes away the sandpaper feel of your mouth.

"Cut it off her." You recognize that voice.

"The first layer was easy, this is adhered to her skin." Pause, "I've seen this before Captain. You'll rip her skin off, best to wait until she regains conscious and..."

"She's not HYDRA."

"But you said..."

"I know what I said, now get out!" There's a scuffle and a slam. Hands are tugging at the edges where the suit left your skin exposed. Someone had removed your boots and gloves... a sharp tug of pain at your temple reminded you you're wearing a mask that showed off your eyes and your mouth once the second layer was pulled aside.

"God dammit." Steve growled, "Fine! We'll do this the hard way!"

Your fingers curl and you try to move but your legs are heavy and a prickling sensation runs up and down. Move you tell yourself but you can't.

"All I wanted was a simple yes or no." Something cold presses against your cheek, a pointed tip digging, trying to dig, beneath the seam of material and skin. "This is your fault ****."

What?

Pain causes your back to arch and your right calf to seize, you choke on a scream trying to move away from the slice of the knife as it digs under your skin and not the material but Steve has a firm grip on your chin.

Blood seeps out and there's a swear from the man and the knife is pulled out. He ignore your whimpers of pain to move a single hand down your body. Skimming over your breasts, sides, sternum, waist, and back up to your throat, "A little less pressure eh?" The blood stained tip pops through the layer, Steve needing to push harder as the material - as thin as it was - was strong.

The knife carefully drags downward, blood seeping from between the black material, and stills just under your bust line where your waist cincher catches the blade. "Hmm." Cutting straight down, the blade knocking through fabric and the hooks.

The suit material was adhered to your cincher leaving your stomach bare. His free hand settled on your too warm skin, fingers tracing over the indentations left from the boning and material.

He tries to tug at the material but your body shifts with it, "I'll get this thing off you even if I have to skin you."

Shouting catches his attention but Steve ignores the sound of gunfire, secure in the knowledge he was locked in. The knife veers direction and he slices down the side towards him, gripping the cincher for leverage.

Mid thigh Steve is startled when the door to the room flies across the room, knife jerking and slicing deep causing you to cry out, a pitiful cry. "Fuck!" Steve scrambles to cover the wound with his large hand but it does little to stop the blood.

A hand grips into the back of his neck and tosses him as if he were a rag doll. He hits the wall leaving a crumbling indentation in the concrete. Shaking it off, Steve is prepared for a fight but once the disorientation is shaken off he manages to catch a glimpse of red before realizing he's alone.

You're gone.

The bandage on your face and the butterfly band-aid running down your body to yet another oversized bandage at your thigh made it look as if it was bad. "I'm fine." A nurse stands idly to the side and you glance at her, "Tell him I'm fine."

The him was Clark who was trying to take your temperature for the fifth time in the span of an hour. "You're not fine!" He also sends a look to the nurse who looks on amused, "Tell her she's not fine, a high fever is a sign of infection, God know what germs that cell had."

"It was a clean cell." You try but Clark takes the opportunity to plop the thermometer into your mouth and you roll it under your tongue.

Beep.

"It went up a degree!"

"For fucks sake. Lex!" You yell the other mans name.

The phone rings at your bedside and you pick it up and hand it Clark who scowls. "Yes Dear."

The nurse tip toes closer to fluff your pillows as you settle back. The past few days a whirl wind of adventure. Between SHIELD putting out a warrant for you - both your identities - and fighting with Lex that no he shouldn't call a war against the organization and that you had a plan. Of course bumming it at the Luthor's meant you had a lovely nurse and a personal chef.

The high life.

"The husband requests I should leave you alone less I suffer a dry spell." He side eyes you and you hold a hand out to him which he takes and crawls beside you, careful of your body under the sheets. The nurse leaves and the two of you are left alone. "I was so scared. Seeing you there... bleeding..."

"Me too." You admit, "I shouldn't be surprised but I am. Steve... that's not my Steve."

His arm pulls you closer, dragging you off your pillow and into his arms. "He was never yours." It hurt but it was the truth. He gently brushes away your tears - it's not fair you still cried for this man - and gently turns your head so you can gaze at him, his touch soft as it hovers above your bandage. "Give us a chance ****."

"Clark..." your eyes burn with more tears, afraid, you're so afraid. "I can't."

"He could have killed you and yet he still holds a place in your heart."

What? "No."

"He's still there, he lived everyday content with another woman while you were left alone and bitter. Everything you've done to get to this point was because of him. He's still there, in your heart, a parasite, keeping you from moving on and taking a risk." You're quiet and his normally stoic self turns frustrated and says, "The asshole stabbed you, doesn't he deserve to suffer?"

"Yes. He deserves to suffer." The anger surged and you used your arm to prop yourself up, "Steve humiliated me. They all knew, fucking knew, and... I still have the fucking dress." Clark frowned, "How could he do that to me, why Clark. Why?"

"Because he can." You flop back on the mattress and cover your eyes with the heels of your hand and will the hurt to die and your tears to dry. "He's heartless but you're not."

"Clark..."

"No. He never cared ****, he used you while Sharon was away. If it wasn't for the other asshole, Steve would have dumped you at the alter or killed you off and you know that's true. Look what he did to you, you don't think he would have that spy take you out?"

"No." You choke out and you sniff before a grin curls your lips. "He would have done it."

"Or the..."

"No." Sniff, "I hacked his journal. He was going to cause a car accident." Clark went stiff and in the distance you hear a crash, a slam of a door, and you glare at Clark, "You didn't hang up the phone!" It wasn't a question because a moment later the door to your bedroom swings in and the very tall, very angry shadow of Lex Luthor fills the doorway.

"****." It was your full name. Your full legal name and you went absolutely still.

"Babe..." Clark tries but Lex is a storm cloud as he saunters forward and ignores the pet name only his husband was allowed.

"Are you soft in the head?" Lex loomed over you and for the first time you were scared of him.

"Lex..."

"Car accident? You knew he was planning on killing you and you still did nothing." The man didn't have to shout but each word was laced with venom that had your heart skip a beat.

"I..."

"Swallowing a bottle of pills isn't what you do when someone plans to murder you." Oh shit, "Jumping head first into missions without backup or extra ammo is not the way one plots revenge." Fuck. "Running off and putting yourself in suicidal situations does nothing but get you killed!"

"I know."

"Then why must you be so stupid!"

"Because I needed to feel something!" You shout, it hurts to sit up but you scramble to do so as Clark assists. "I was stupid, is that what you want to hear? How stupid I was to believe that someone could love me? Me? That someone would want me for something other than sex? That I was beautiful? Smart? That I was more? Stupid of me to think that a person could think I was worth a commitment and kids and a last name, a home, I was stupid to think I was worth a home, someone who can... can love me..." it was hard to breath and see as the old hurt rear its ugly head and you can't be strong, dropping your head, spine hunching you press your hands against your eyes, the pressure easing the headache that was throbbed steadily.

"Lex, ease off." Clark rubs circles on your back.

"No. She needs to deal with this and not wallow in self pity."

"Lex!"

Sniffing up the snot you wipe your nose and say, "It's not wallowing. I'm not a victim, read the definition asshole."

"Of course you're not love but crying doesn't get back at someone who wants to cut your break cords."

Sniff, "Drunk driver." Your eyes itch and you rub them again, "A t-bone."

Clark takes in your red eyes and the flush to your face before looking up to his husband, "Kill him."

"No."

"Already on it." Lex says matter of factly.

Again you say, "No. Death is too good."

Lex sighed, he was ready to snap at you again. "He's enhanced. What's your plan? You can't get close to him like before."

"He's a conservative man, his reputation is everything to him." You say, "I got a plan to get SHIELD off my back and I'll make public his journals and porn crap."

Lex frowns, "No maiming? Missing limbs?"

You shake your head, "No. There's some heavy shit in those journals and secrets about the team. I'll black out the intel from missions but Steve gets off on knowing that the world sees him as this perfect man. A God amongst mortals. He won't know how to deal with it."

"Alright, ok, we can work with that." Hands continued rubbing circles on your back, "Can I punch him at least?"

"You're getting your hands dirty?" Surprised, Lex glanced down at you, "Guess he loves you more than me." In response Clark lugged a pillow at him.

"Punch him twice. One for me and one for you." It comes from you.

"Break his leg for me." Lex sends you a look but you don't say a word, "Payment for the stitches."

"Mhm." You'd probably scar too. "Break both legs." You rub at your thigh where it itched.

"I smell blood." Clark leans over and moves the blanket aside and patches of red bloom on your bandage, your shorts hiked up to V of your thighs. "Lex, get the nurse. You might have popped a stitch."

"It's ok, I'm ok."

"No, you're not."

The nurse comes in with a first aid bag and your bandage is removed showing that yes, you popped a stitch. It doesn't take long to fix it but you do lean into Clark for comfort.

SHIIELD's system is down.

Their backup of a backup doesn't work, nothing works. Cards danced on the screens, Queens of spades, hearts, diamonds, and clubs bounce up and down, left to right, in no specific direction.

They all know whose calling card halted all communications and in a solo room where a group of people who had complete access to everything were privy to a badly drawn cartoon of a queen of hearts card threatening to release sensitive information to earth and Google Earth images of all their safe house locations including their own.

Less than a day later SHIELD pulled all their warrants and people in the search of you.

An email was immediately sent with your resignation and quickly after that a website was made public with Captain America Secrets on full view and no A.I. or hacker could tear it down.

Not with the insane amount of protection you encased it in. Still, you had fail safes in case it was taken down plus the internet where nothing died was quick to copy and paste and you sat back in your hello kitty onsie as the world burned Steve Rogers and the Avengers.

Tony's PR team was quick to claim it was a hoax and the others had denied all allegations against their own humiliation but you had finally let it go.

You had to.

Looking up as a set of floor to ceiling windows slid open and you watched as Superman flew in and landed. His hair was in disarray, a portion of his suit was torn and blood was splattered on his cheek, not his blood you're sure. "Had fun?"

A grin is tossed your way and the papers on the coffee table ruffled as the man sped to you and was right there, making your eyes cross. "Beautiful. Perfect. Brilliant. Patient. Crazy. Lovely."

"Clark, heros say no to drugs." You interrupt his rambling.

"I'm sober."

"Meth?"

"****."

"Cocaine?"

"****."

"Sugar?" There's seconds, time for you to turn your head as Clark leans in, but you hold your breadth as he kisses you. A soft and gentle pressure and it's so sweet.

"Let me love you ****." his brows press against yours, "Let us love you. Give us a chance."

No.

Just no.

You don't need the extra heartache.

"Okay." It slips out and you can't take it back. Do you want to take it back?

Clark's face is one of excitement and his eyes shine with something that you've seen before, when he looks at his husband and you were a sucker for pain. You can't take it back, "You won't regret it I promise." And with that Clark picks you up and you hold on.

"I'm not having sex so you can put me down." You kick your legs because you're almost sure you wouldn't.

"Oh I know." He walks confidently to the still open window, "We need Lex for that. He has a sturdy desk and sound proof office."

"Clark!"

And he jumps, flying off in the direction of his husband's company. It would be a pleasant surprise but at least he was right, that desk was sturdy.

End.

Notes:

I can't write sex scenes so there you go. Use your imagination. I picture a spit roast scenario and a very slippery desk.

I can confirm that Superman kicked Steve's ass, broke his legs - twice - and punched 3 times. Which is why Clark arrived looking disheveled. Also Steve did give as good as he got but Superman is a pretty boy with hopefully good dick (for you the readers sake ;)

#fanfiction #avengers #mirkysconcubinefiction #complete #dark steve rogers #female reader #i thought you should know #sequel #part two of two #clark kent x reader x lex luthor #clark kent × lex luthor #clark kent x reader #lex luthor #lex luthor x reader #female reader #dark themes #i regret alot but not this #crazy

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vandoornestoffel · 5 years ago

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Hey has anyone asked you yet about the time you got to meet the Mclaren team? If not, I'd love to know about it more!!

oH WOW.

I wasn’t expecting this.

Well, I’m watching a 24hrs race with 11 hours to go, I might as well take the time to write this down. Sit down and get ready to read a lot of text. Seriously it’s a lot of text. I’m sorry but this story took part in about 4 or 5 hours so a lot happened.

So the story has a little bit of background. I’m kinda vocal in Twitter. Not as much as the Papaya McLaren+ members, but somewhat vocal, specially around McLaren. The every weekend wishing the best for my babies, and such. Also, in 2017, I got to meet Stoffel and Fernando at the pitlane walk thing in the Mexican GP. Even appeared in Fernando’s Instagram Stories AND on the worldwide feed because I was the only Mexican with a Belgian flag cheering for Stoffel. So after that I told the team I was going to be back the following year and I did. For extra context, I had literally 48 hours earlier, broken up with my boyfriend at the time (fuck that guy), so I was really really sad.

So the morning of Thursday before the 2018 Mexican GP, I jump into a plane and take the trip to Mexico City for the GP. I didn’t had a pitlane walk ticket but I was planning on going to the race track and buy one (illegally) outside. So I land, or well, the plane lands, and when I turn my phone on again I find a really surprising message. From McLaren’s official Twitter, I got a DM asking me if I had plans on going to the racetrack that day. For context, I had told the team I was excited to see them on action that weekend. So I said that I still hadn’t a pitlane ticket but that I was looking to buy one. I went to my hotel and then to have breakfast and while I was having a meal, I get a second text asking me if I could meet them up in a door of the racetrack, that they had a gift for me and give me a WhatsApp number to stay in touch. WhatsApp number is British, I don’t know how to save it up because my phone kept putting the Mexican first few numbers as I tried to send message to them, it was an stressful mess but when it finally worked, I was already outside of the racetrack. I met a guy, Danny, and when we meet he gives me a paddock pass. I’m freaking out. On the walk past security and all of that, we are chatting. He’s such a nice guy. I still have his phone number but I don’t dare to text him again. He explains I do have to give the pass back at the end of the day and teaches me to use it and then says Go and see the full paddock, let’s meet up here in 20 minutes. So I have plenty of videos seeing everything. Saw Mauricio Arrivabene, KMag, Romain, Charles, Russell, Gio, and a lot of drivers up close, but they were busy with interviews and I didn’t wanted to disturb them. 20 minutes are up and I meet up with Danny and two other men who I can’t remember their names. That’s when we are talked into the McLaren pit. They explained a lot to us, and the cars were being worked on so we could see the engines up close and many other amazing little details. We walk out again and that’s when we are told. They are also giving us a Pirelli Hot Lap. I cried. No joke. We were walked over the Pirelli Hot Laps place and got to see the cars up close, tried a helmet, met my driver (Josh Cook) and I was eating my brain off. Eventually it’s time to go. We walk the main straight to where the cars were waiting for us, and met Charlotte and Helen (PR girls of McLaren at the time), I got the second to last lap in a McLaren 570s, so as the cars came and went I got more and more anxious. They did delivered me a copy of the video that was filmed but I don’t appear in the Mexican clip they published in their YouTube Channel. And I never published it myself. But if you have seen the “Oh, you drivin’ drivin’” it’s pretty much the same. Going side to side. At times yelling but mostly silence of “holy shit this is happening”. When I got off the car I was shaking. Huge smile in my face. Asked for a pic with Charlotte and Helen, and now I wish I had asked pictures with Danny and Josh as they were super special for me that day.

So this is where things get weird. Have you ever dreamt of something so much that you have a headcanon on how it’s going to be if something happens?? Well, I had a headcanon that I met Stoffel Vandoorne and in my headcanon I turned around to face his adorable smile. First time, that didn’t happen. This time around, we got invited to McLaren’s hospitality, got a free coke, Fernando was there but he didn’t wanted to even wave. He was in a chat with Buemi in the corner of the hospitality and Charlotte and Helen didn’t even made eye contact with him, it was clear to me that he has like “do not disturb” moments. So I was driving my coke and I hear one of the guys say “Oh the girl is going to freak out so much” and well, I was the girl, and I was wearing my 2018 team shirt with Stoffel’s name. So I was chilling and suddenly I hear a “Hi!” and I know that voice. I’ve heard that voice a million times in interviews. I leave my coke in the table and stand up to turn around and see him. Stoffel Vandoorne. I turn around again and sit down because this is not happening. This is a dream. I probably passed out and I’m dreaming. Charlotte asks “Are you ok?” and I know she’s talking about me. I turn again to face Stoffel and tears are in my eyes. It’s really him. And he has that stupid smile in his face. I can barely say “Hi” and my voice cracks but I’m trying my best to not cry. I raise my arm to shake his hand as Stoffel says “Don’t you want a hug?”, I crack again and just approach to hug him. IT IS THE BEST HUG IN MY LIFE. I can’t tell you what he’s smelled like because my definition is just clean. I didn’t smelled a cologne or sweat, I just smelt clean clothes and a clean man. We got a few pictures taken. On the first Lando is in the background, all funny, and we invite them to our picture. He stood on the side of the group and one of the other guys says “Why don’t you stand in the side of the girl, so she can have a McSandwich”. Best McSandwich ever. Stoffel had to leave (to track walk, I believe) and Lando stayed chatting with us for a while. When he finally left, we were invited for one last walk around the paddock. Even got into the stadium area of the circuit. And then it was time to leave. On the walk back to the main door where it all started I asked Danny why me? Why had they invited me? He said that he had noticed my tweets beforehand but the fact that I had tweeted to Lando saying I was excited to see him in FP1, and he retweeted me, was the reason why I got the invite. So, my dream way of meeting Stoffel Vandoorne became a reality thanks to Lando Norris and his really cute way of being with his fans.

As soon as I gave the pass away, I started to run. I was on the opposite side of the circuit than the pitlane walk door. So I ran, bought a ticket, ran some more, and pushed myself to the front of the crowd to meet Stoffel again. Yeah, I’m that crazy. So Charlotte sees me and says “Hey, look who it is Stoffel!” and Stoffel sees me and he’s like HI AGAIN! so HE FUCKING RECOGNIZED ME. So I chat with Charlotte a bit and say that I forgot to ask for an autograph so as Stoffel is signing one, and hands it to me, she says, “give her more”, so Stoff signed 2 more and handed them over. I told him I was going to miss him in F1 but that he had my support wherever he went, and he said thanks and carried on with his duty before leaving. I stayed there, as people left when they realised there were no drivers to sign cards, until I was told I had to leave. Prior to this, I met Lee Mathurin (a McLaren mechanic who I just discovered he has deleted his Twitter account, and I’m scared) and asked for a picture with him and other mechanics (he chicked out in coming to meet me along so he asked some friends to tag along) and as I try to snap the picture he grabs my phone and walks to the pits. He snapped a few good pictures of Stoffel’s car and the people around and came back to me to take a selfie of us. So after that, I got asked to leave by security and I rode an Uber back to my hotel room. As soon as I walked in and my mom asked “How it went?” I started crying my eyes out. That was waaay beyond what I had ever dreamt about. I was coming there still crying about my ex (I literally cried about him on the plane) and I started crying about how lucky and happy I was 12 hours later. McLaren, unknowing to them, made my life experience something I could never afford, in a moment when I most needed it. I couldn’t attend to the 2019 race and I’m not going to the 2020 race either, but I couldn’t ask for a better and happier day in my life. I truly owe that day forever to that team.

#anon #stoffel vandoorne #lando norris #mclaren #my story #asks #Anonymous

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pompadourpink · 5 years ago

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hi! kind of random but unfortunate! I have a really hard time trusting people, and am a very private person. I had started seeing a guy, who everyone warned me about, but thought he was *so* nice and kind and handsome. He brought me flowers and spontaneous trip to Disneyland for Christmas. I put a photo of us on Instagram, which I know is dumb, but was big for me, I put up a photo once a year. Come New Year’s Eve, he has blocked me on everything and “ghosted” me. I feel foolish and hurt. I (1)

want to know why and have to take the photo down but it hurts me to look at it. I don’t know what I did, and I guess I never will. I am deeply hurt and know he doesn’t care. What should I say when my family and friends ask what happened? When can I take it down without it being humiliating? Is it worse if I keep it up? Please advise. Thank you. (2)

Hello darling,

I am sorry that this happened. Several comments come to mind :

You’re private, introverted, shy, don’t talk easily about your feelings. You don’t give your trust easily, which likely indicates that you don’t have a big social life.

You met a guy, everybody waved red flags, you looked away and enjoyed the moment because he was being so delightful and you’re not used to that kind of attention. You even made it official because you were happy, breaking your usual privacy rule on social media.

You feel humiliated and hurt about the experience.

Here are my conclusions :

Cry a river, build a bridge, get over it.

You haven’t mentioned your age but the mention of the trip to Disney makes me think around 18-20ish years old? My guess is that you don’t have much experience with people, you’ve been hurt before and are now scared to make human connections because what if. You’re the perfect profile for that kind of guy, naive, so eager to know romance and settle down.

I think what happened for him is that he saw an easy target, whipped out some flowers and you stepped straight in the trap. You made him feel good about himself, and then I suppose he met again with someone he actually was interested in, and ran back to her, leaving you alone.

What would I do? I would delete the picture and replace it with a new one, regardless of the probability that he would see it (remember, we don’t like him, we don’t need his validation!), a nice pic of you and some friends going out, or a landscape from a little getaway, something like that (not a selfie, please no emo captions!). Something that shows that you kept living, that you’re having fun, and that he’s horseshit and you’ve also forgotten him.

He didn’t even break up with you. Clearly, he doesn’t care, won’t apologize, and probably forgot all about it already. And if I’m right about the other girl, I don’t think you would even want to know about it. The shame has to switch side: you haven’t done anything wrong, just crossed the path of a wolf - and thank god you’re still in one piece. Nothing shameful about that. Could have been worse.

If someone asks about it, answer the truth: he played you and ran away. He doesn’t deserve your secondhand embarrassment or your excuses. That being said, I don’t recommend you get mad at him. He’s not important. Just keep in mind that at least he made you happy for a brief period of time, you got to go to Disney, you felt great - that you can keep in your heart. But the disappointment, the anger, the frustration, what for? Drop those. You’ve given him enough.

Make it a lesson but keep the good bits.

My last piece of advice is that you try more things. The fact that you ignored people’s warnings is a big clue: you are not much around men. Meet more of them, spend time with them, even platonically, and you’ll realise that some are nice, some not, some are affectionate, some prison walls (…) and at some point, you won’t be impressed by empty romantic gestures and will be strong enough to walk away with your head up. Because you deserve better.

Once you crossed the bridge, think about where you want to go. If you want to fish interesting men, you have to be an interesting fisherwoman. Again, try new things, learn an instrument/language, travel by yourself, start running, watch the entire filmography of your favourite director, read, meditate, journal… Have something to talk about. Catch people’s attention with more than a pretty smile.

Other question: would you date your male clone, or find him too bland for your taste? What you give is what you get.

Love,

Mum

#ask #malks

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xo-vesta · 5 years ago

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A (short) Tour Around Starwood

i’m sorry i didn’t take any pics of the resident areas because i just forgot to, also there was a tremendous thunderstorm on my island today! so some of the pics are a little dark

this is the boardwalk area! it’s a little narrow in some parts but that’s fine. the three stalls are a florists stall, a fortune telling stall and a nail painting stall... all of which will be redone eventually lmao

the rest of the tour is below the cut!

image description [two pictures of Animal Crossing New Horizons. The first picture is the player character in front of the upgraded Nook’s Cranny and Able Sisters. The character is in a yellow rain outfit. The shops are in front of the beach and rope fencing is used to make it look like a boardwalk.

The second picture is further down the boardwalk. There are three stalls shown, a green and white striped florist’s stall, a plain black fortune teller’s stall, and a colorful pink nail art stall. There is a menu and a black snack machine in between the florist’s stall and the fortune teller’s stall. There is a tree and a yellow garbage bin between the fortune teller’s stall and the nail art stall. The boardwalk is roped off and on the beach like in the last picture.] End ID

this is the faux-plaza i made in front of the real plaza ft. Vesta! i just really wanted a common area where i could decorate and stuff especially for holidays and things

in some of my older posts you may see it decorated for bunny day!

image description [Player character and Vesta in front of a fountain in a square plaza made with grey stone. There are four lights surrounding the fountain. Behind the fountain there is a gong.] End ID

the campsite! it’s really small since i put it in a really crappy location but don’t want to move it lmao ;_;

image description [A campsite just off the beach in Animal Crossing New Horizons. To the left of the campsite is two log stools and a campfire. One of the log stools has a frying pan on it. there is also a toolbox and a ring toss. The whole campsite is fenced in country fencing.] End ID

The park! i also put this in a really bad location... lmao.... but it’s really cute and sweet... i don’t want to tear it up and start over...

image description [A sandy park with a colorful jungle gym, a small elephant slide and a blue beach ball in it. It is fenced in with stone fencing and there are flowers of all types ringing the park.There is also an orange tree in the lower left hand corner of the park. The player character is sitting on the jungle gym.] End ID

the outside of my house is probably my favorite part of my town if only for my pride flag flowers euhue

image description [A standard house with a yellow roof from ACNH. The whole house and yard are on a cliff, and the cliff is outlined in country fencing. There is a field of hyacinth flowers to the left of the house in blue, pink, white, pink, blue, resembling the trans flag. There is furniture to the right and it includes a swinging bench, a white iron garden chair and table and telescope. Two yellow hyacinth flowers are to the left and right of the ramp leading up to the house, and two bushes are in front of them. The player character is on the ramp.] End ID

and those are the main parts of the outside of my town! i’ll do the inside of my house next... although there’s not much to see lmao

#Animal crossing #acnh #animal crossing new horizions

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skiijumpinng · 6 years ago

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PLANICA- SUNDAY, 24. 3. 2019- RECAP

so, since i’ve been in Planica today and i do this every year, i decided to do a recap of all the moments that are not shown on tv but are too good to be kept to myself

coming there is like getting into another world and i get impressed by the atmosphere every year

i woke up at 3 am so i could be there in time and it was totally wort it

it was so freaking cold and my legs were about to freeze off but when the sun came out everyone was in short sleeves

i was there around 7 am and so many of the jumpers were walking around and taking pics of the hill (Antti just appeared out of nowhere and i freaked out)

Cene Prevc and Andraž Pograjc were so good as pre jumpers!!!

also Ernest Prišlič was hanging around all the time

Lanišek’s kid is so freaking cute and they played peekaboo and he gave him lots of kisses and it was too much to handle

Žiga Jelar is so good with kids?? he literally stopped at everyone and joked with them

Žiga, Tilen and Bor Pavlovčič kept walking around all the time

i also saw Pero’s kid and he was wearing a little beanie with his logo (how freaking cute!!!)

i was looking around for Stephan and i didn’t see him, but he came around in the middle of the trial round and went to the outrun and i swear the world stopped (some guy was literally leading him and holding his back and he also looked kinda sad- or maybe i’m just used to seeing him smile all the time)

i was standing on the stand on the right side of the hill and i realised i was probably in the background of the german tv oops

i saw Martin Hamann from the toilet window

also i get reminded about this every year but they are all so pretty??!!

the trial round was so good but then the first round started and the crowd cheered so much

SO. MANY. FLAGS.

if we got mad Johann last year, there was a very very mad Markus after the first round this year

Piotr Zyla is the slowest walking human i ever saw, i’m surprised he even came back on top on time

i saw a Pedersen&Fannemel hug and Robin had to squat down to hug him and they were talking and laughing and it was very very cute

also Granerud and Killian were talking about their jumps and showing it with their hands which i found very amusing

Andi radiates positive energy wherever he is

also Marius and Robin literally appeared in front of me and looked straight in my direction and i froze damn

i got so many cards this year and i’m actually kinda proud of myself for going out there and not being so anxious as last years

seeing them close up might not have been good for me tho

a little kid was standing next to me at the fence and he literally knew everyone and was very sad when he didn’t get Pero’s card, so i gave him mine because i had two (i felt like i had to, he was so freaking cute just calling everyone by their names)

i wanted to high five Walter but he literally grabbed my hand and we did a proper handshake (I’M STILL SCREAMING INSIDE)

i congratulated Krafti and he thanked me back and that’s all i ever really wanted

Michi is so sweet

RYOYU JUMPED 252 METERS AND I HAVE NEVER SEEN A CROWD CHEER SO MUCH IT WAS WILD

Zografski set a new Bulgarian record and he couldn’t stop smiling

also i love how everyone cheered for everyone so so much

Cene fell as a pre jumper before the second round and everyone went quiet but then he just backflipped out of it and laughed what a legend

i ALMOST got a pic with Marius and Robin

norwegian fans bringing in the beer in the drums is the peak of intelligence

i saw a rare Domči smile that actually reached his ears what a day

Lellinger is indeed always together, sorry i don’t make the rules

also Andi highfived Stephan and then hung his arms around him i cry

Killian and Daniel Huber gave their bibs to the fans

I HIGHFIVED WERNER

the crowd went wild when Domen beat Markus and got the 2nd place

also Andi always had snowballs in his hands what a child

i shouldn’t be surprised by now, but the Polish fans sung the anthem so loud (they were also screaming ‘Kamil Stoch’ what a mood)

Naoki carrying Ryoyu’s globes tho

Domen was sitting in the snow and the whole team Slovenia started throwing snowballs at him i stan one team

also my face is one giant sunburn but it was worth it

the Japanese anthem on repeat because Ryoyu won everything is what i’m here for

it was so nice and warm and people are so nice and everything went as planned which i was most scared about

also literally everyone is in a certain hotel in Kranjska Gora and the the cars from all the teams are all parked together

also Ammann was walking around Kranjska Gora with his wife and i met him at least three times

it just feels like home i don’t know, there are so many known faces and it feels weird but so amazing seeing them live after a whole year

i had tears in my eyes several times because the atmosphere was everything

so yeah, this was way longer than i thought (probably still forgot something) but i had so much fun and it just made me fall in love with Planica a little bit more

#ski jumping #ski flying #recap #planica #planica spam #hope anyone will read this #also i write this kinda for myself as well #so ill remember it #season 2018/2019 #its actually over #!!!#also #pics are cming but i have so much work

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talistheintrovert · 6 years ago

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HAPPY BFSN MY LOVELIES!! 💖💜💙

I'm sorry I've been so absent lately! Things have been... hella not good, BUT I'M DEALING WITH IT. Slowly.

This last week was INSANELY busy: I moved flats, I went to two concerts, I travelled to four different cities and I managed to attend all my lectures in the downtime. Also my grandparents visited and the remaining few hours I had left to do my assessments completely vanished. So I guess you could say I'm really excelling at life right now. If excelling means not sleeping.

I'm really nailing it.

Anyway the top two photos are from Dodie!! She was INCREDIBLE and the rainbow pic is from when she sung Rainbow and the bi flag colours came up when she sang She, and I'm not gonna lie: I cried like a child. The next two are from Panic! At The Disco!! I want it on record that I would D I E for Brendon Urie.

And the final two pictures are me - one from the day I travelled into London (for Dodie) and went shopping (much to my own chagrin) and the other because... well... gAY.

I hope you're all doing okay, and even though I'm on semi-hiatus until life takes a short break from routinely kicking my ass, I'm always here if anyone needs me. Just slide into my DMs and we'll cry together. Bellarke style.

MVP of the week is @ravensluna because she's super talented (go check her out) and also because she keeps being so nice to me that I kinda wanna cry???

@clarkgriffon @fen-ha-fuck-you @chase-the-windandtouch-the-sky @anne-shirley-blythe @chants-de-lune @grumpybell @hopewolves @scottmcgivemeacall @foreverandalwayscrysis @loveisalwayswise @griffinnblake @peraltiagosclarke @jmbelles @lightcomingthroughthedarkness @mamabearsdontthink @galaxyblake @baellamy @blvke-bellamy @aainiouu @marvelscaptainss @starboybellamy @clarkegriffintitties @bellamys11thfreckle @bellamyshope @ghoulbrothers @transtlanticism @mechaniicreyes @the-most-beautiful-broom @iwilltry-tocarryon @el-corazon-y-la-cabeza @thelittlefanpire @johnmurphysass @captainwilldameron @amesandjake @failing-at-being-an-angel @prophecy-gurl @she-who-the-river-could-not-hold @viviansternwood @bugs-valdez @carrieeve @shialablunt @goosexdanvers @sarka-stically @bellofthesky @nvermindiseeyou @pawprinterfanfic @eyessharpweaponshot @ all the other traitors who I love!! I'm sorry if I forgot anyone, and if anyone wants to be added or removed, let me know!!

#late bfsn #bellarke family selfie night #bellarke fam selfie night #i don't even know what to say guys #i'm a mess

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loladiamond01 · 6 years ago

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Sorry for that spam today, but I promise this is the last one. Story post this time! ♥ This chapter has some content that Tumblr would probably flag me for, but whatever, you can safely read it and look at these forbidden pics on WP. This one is a bit of a breakthrough for the story, so I hope you enjoy it. Poses took a lone time to set up, but I think I am satisfied, eventually :D

And I totally forgot to add a link. God, I’m a hot mess! Here it is!

Chapter 6.9: Taming the Feeling

#neverdoitagain #sim story #sims 3 #the sims 3 #blog story #legacy #this is my pose on this pic here isn't it great #yeah #tiny sharing is giving me a headache but whatever it's worth it

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togetherinspirit7 · 7 years ago

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[FAN ACCOUNT] 171230 INFINITE Begin Again - Day 2

Hi all! Before I start with the second day things, I wanted to add some first day things that I forgot when I posted. So, I forgot to mention how cute the opening vcr is. It is so cute! It’s like the mature version of the end of ‘White Confession’ where they all bring presents. Then it ends with them outside with sparklers and it’s just so pretty~ Besides that I also forgot to mention that the stage this time around is a lot higher than ‘That Summer 3′ which makes viewing so much better. I remember I was in a similar spot for TS3 and could only see from their knees up, but I could pretty much see everything this time around! Also, I forgot to mention that they were telling us not to push each other cause it hurts them to see us get hurt. And Dongwoo was like, ‘You wouldn’t want to see us pushing and hurting each other, right?’ and he pushed Woohyun a bit and Woohyun almost fell out of his chair for real lol. It was cute but I swear I saw the flash of fright in Woohyun’s eyes lol. Also, as the boys were doing their intros, Dongwoo stopped crying and was back to his energetic self, which Gyu later teased him for by saying, ‘He was just crying a few minutes ago!!’ lol. Dongwoo was very energetic all night, the boys had to calm him down a few times lol. He kept dancing while they were talking and they were like ‘Whoa whoa’ lol. I also forgot that while talking about Sungjong’s solo songs they mentioned ‘Good Morning’ and tried to get Sungjong to sing it but he was like, ‘Uhhh’ so they tried to get Inspirit to sing but it was super quiet so everyone was laughing. Speaking of solos, did I mention Dongwoo’s pelvic thrusting??? Or Woohyun copying him? Well yeah, that. And it was amazing. Oh and I remember a bit of what they were talking about during the Instagram section. The question was about what they do after they wake up. Myungsoo checks to see if his eyelids are doubled or not lol. Namu said he needs to put on makeup and that’s what prompted Sunggyu to tease him about getting ready and the difference between Myungsoo and Woohyun lol. Tbh, it seemed like the first day was a bit like a rehearsal. They changed a lot for the second day. Keep reading for more second day shenanigans!

So I had a much better experience for the second day, although the meet itself was an hour shorter than the previous day. I did see a lot more intentional, rude pushing by fan in front of me, but luckily my area was quite tame. So the biggest take away from day 2 was the fact that they changed quite a lot of stuff. The boys had their hair done, some minor costume changes, chair changes, confetti changes, bg changes, and most importantly... they completely cut out 1 whole hour of talking time. It was most likely because 3.5 hours is quite long in itself but also because Myungsoo had the MBC Drama Awards to attend at 9pm (the meet ended around 8:30). So they didn’t do the dice talk AT ALL! They also did only about half the questions in the Golden Bell section too. They also got rid of the Inspirit Chance, I guess since it didn’t help them anyway lol. Oh and I’m not sure if it wasn’t working yesterday or I didn’t notice or people just weren’t wearing them, but the LED bands lit up automatically and even vibrated at certain parts of the show. Kind of like what the SM artist bands/lightsticks do. Another cute thing the boys (mostly Woohyun) did was instead of saying 2018 in the normal Sino-Korean numbers, they used the Pure Korean way of saying it instead because 18 sounds like the f-bomb a bit if pronounced incorrectly. (There are 2 counting systems, one using pure Korean and the other based off of Chinese characters).

Anyway, these next few things might be out of order, but I’ll try to organize it as best as I can! I think it was some time at the beginning, Woohyun started doing this dance and the members all freaked out cause Woohyun was giving out spoilers. Dongwoo had to hold him back lol. And judging by the members’ faces, it was a real spoiler lol. Since they skipped the dice part, the beg of the meet went by really quick.

Before the solos, they were teasing Sungjong for having the highest fees for his stage. They said since he has all these props and a hat and stuff, his fee was highest. They also tried to get us to sing ‘Good Morning’ again but... crickets. Sorry Sungjong! But it’s hard to know a song that was never officially released! Also, there was another mistake at the beg of Myungsoo’s solo. He sat down and looked offstage and was pointing to his mic. Apparently they forgot to turn it on. Then I guess they told him they turned it on so he made like an okay sign and tested the mic, all while the bgm was still going. Hopefully, his stage will go smoothly today. Woohyun said someone gifted the song to him, but I can’t remember the name he said. Dongwoo also said he helped take part in making his song with someone, but once again, I’m not too sure who. Sunggyu said that Nell’s Jonghwan wrote the song for him, but he wrote all the lyrics, and he made it clear that he does not want to name the song ‘Laser’ lol. He was just like, hard no lol. Sungyeol said that he wore a different jacket (it was a big blue furry one similar to Dongwoo’s red one) today because he saw Dongwoo’s jacket from yesterday and told the stylists he wants that one lol. So cute. They made a joke about how they look like the Korean flag and that it works out cause Dongwoo is red and red is on top and since he’s the hyung, he’s on top lol. Yeol also revealed that he was curious about who’s stage was actually the most expensive so he asked and it was actually Yeol’s lol. He said he didn’t realize the fireworks were that expensive and that his new jacket added onto the total lol.

The instagram section was next and this time they only answered one question. It was if they had daughters, who would be the most loving to their daughter. Sungjong said that you’d think it would be Woohyun but.. and after hearing that Woohyun got all mad lol. But Sungjong said he think it’d be Sungyeol. Sungyeol agreed and said he wouldn’t even let her wear a skirt and everyone was like NOOO. Sunggyu said it definitely wouldn’t be him and that he hasn’t even thought about having kids. Dongwoo said he would want sons and daughters and that he wants 5 kids who all have different interests. Woohyun told him good luck on finding a wife lol. Sunggyu said he thinks Myungsoo would be really good to his daughter. Soo agreed and said that he would totally treat his son differently than his daughter. He’d be really worried with a daughter but really tough on the son lol. Yeol joked that Myungsoo would hate to have a son like Yeol. Someone (maybe Myungsoo) said that Sungjong would be good to a daughter and Sungjong agreed kinda blatantly as he does lol.

Like I said before, the quiz section was cut super short. They did the ‘Korean’ class, like last time and the first answer was ‘Second Invasion Evolution Plus’ and everyone was like wtf! But the thing is they didn’t give it with any spaces inbetween the words so Sungyeol was complaining lol. The second answer was ‘Be Back’ and it was hilarious cause Dongwoo wrote all kinds of things that started with ‘BB’ and Woohyun wrote ‘Babo for inspirits’ and Sunggyu wrote ‘Big Bang’ LOL. Everyone was like wth! The ‘Science’ section was a pic of Dongwoo’s ear, which everyone got wrong. Sungjong really thought it was his and Dongwoo was surprised it was his. He said he has more earrings than in the picture and was almost in denial that it was him lol. The next pic was an outfit pic of Sungyeol. The ‘Music’ section was Infinite F’s ‘I’m Going Crazy’. Gyu and Jong tried to cheat a lot by asking Inspirit. Namu was cute and kissing the dolls and having the dolls kiss each other and kiss him and Yeol was staring at him with this judging look lol. So Dongwoo lost again lol cause he got 0 points. But he said it’s boring to punish him cause he lost yesterday so he convinced everyone, very easily, to punish the second place loser, Sunggyu. So he spun the wheel and got ‘Fashion King’ like everyone wanted. He went off stage to change and the boys stole a few more dolls to throw into the crowd. Sungyeol came back on stage after getting more dolls and said that Sunggyu’s costume was hilarious and to try to film it secretly lol. Then Woohyun said to film freely since it was okay in this section. So as you prob know by now, Gyu comes out wearing a Mario costume and he had to perform ‘Entrust’ and ‘Cover Girl’ like that. Also, Sungyeol tried to get his dolls to the 2nd floor again but to no avail.

During the next ment, Gyu tried to sneak off stage to change but Dongwoo dragged him back and made him dance ‘The Eye’ in the costume lol. He said he doesn’t mind but didn’t wanna wear the mustache cause it was hard to breathe, so Woohyun told him not to breathe lol. Gyu had previously tossed the hat out to a fan but the members wanted him to wear it so they asked the fan if they could borrow it and that they’d give it back to her. Then Dongwoo put it sweetly on Gyu’s head and that’s how we got the funniest vers of ‘The Eye’. Dongwoo was excited cause he said we’ve never done a Halloween or Christmas party but now it’s like we have lol. At the last ments, we were all cheering and congratulating Myungsoo for his Newcomer Award nomination. Yeol said that everything we’ve been wanting (for the dice and wheel) had come true so hopefully this will too. During the last ment, there was another airplane event. Namu picked one up and was reading the instructions printed on the paper out loud. He said, ‘Please write down a message filled with love for Infinite... this paper is blank.’ LOL

All in all, even though it felt a bit less interactive than usual, it was a good time! Sunggyu was a lot quieter than normal and it did feel a bit more routine event-like than the usual free for all Infinite style, but I had a much better experience. I know I’m writing this really late, but hopefully it interests someone out there! Once again, make sure to show your love to our boys and Happy New Year everyone! May 2018 be the year of INFINITE!

#infinite #begin again #fan account #sunggyu #dongwoo #woohyun #sungyeol #myungsoo #l #sungjong #171230 #togetherinspirit7 #인피니트 #비긴어게인 #fan meeting #happy new year!

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