#I DON'T HAVE TO PROVE MYSELF TO YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Addition that I feel is important to me: if you're a late bloomer, or have never been in a relationship, or have been in a relationship but broken up after realizing what you feel isn't romantic, it whatever the case might be, you don't have to 'at least give it a try' or 'one more try, maybe this one's the one' because as long as you don't feel a want for romance/sex/neither, you don't have to keep trying. It's like being told "just buy one more lottery card" because you might get lucky and be rewarded greatly, but really, you can be perfectly happy without it. The way I see it, at least for myself, is that yes, there is no way to prove that I don't romantically love or enjoy having sex with anyone in the whole world. But I don't have any desire for it beyond a vague curiosity, and chasing it is more likely to be bad for my mental health and a big waste of time. No one has to 'just give it a try' or feel invalid because 'that was just one bad experience' or do anything that they don't want to.
Unpopular (?) opinion:
When I was young and wondering why I hadn't experienced a crush yet, the internet said I was probably just a late bloomer. They urged me not to identify as aroace because I could change my mind later on.
And looking back, like… so?
If I had been a late bloomer, who cares?
I was 13. I felt comfort in the aroace community. I didn’t feel like a weirdo for once in my life, surrounded by people who were like me. But I was urged to not join these communities until I became an adult in case I changed my mind about being ace. So I didn’t. And I paid for that.
Who cares? If you’re young and feel like you’re aroace, then you’re aroace. If you “change your mind” later, it’s okay. No one is going to be born and know themselves 100%. I genuinely thought I was alloromantic once, but now know I’m not.
Speaking from experience, I would rather have kids be “wrong” about their sexuality than feel like they have no place of belonging.
We shouldn’t gatekeep aroace folk because of their age. It hurts. It makes kids feel like they are the freaks society tells them they are.
#aroace#aromantic#aromantic asexual#asexual#this is very important to me#I don't have to prove myself to you#you're assuming that I desire it but just don't feel it#but I really don't I'm happy in my qpr relationships
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I’ve seen a lot of tumblrs talking about “im musician and this is my music inspiration”
But what about “my music knowledge” ?
What do you know about music? And I’m not talking about programs and devices they can be buy and with a few YouTube tutorials you can learn how to use them, but we need more than that, shapes, forms, soul and flavor in the music not more generic content
So my honest question
Who are you and what do you have to offer?
I've been writing songs since I was 9, producing music since I was 13, and I've played piano and sung since even younger.
I've honed my skills through years of practice, and I'm studying music at university.
I write about everything from insomnia to romance to imaginary science fiction universes, in a multitude of genres and styles, incorporating unique harmonic, lyrical, metric and melodic structures.
but also, I don't have to "offer" you anything.
The way you have approached me and demanded I prove myself to you feels sorta condescending...
There is a huge amount of effort, time, skill and vulnerability involved in creating. Whether someone's a beginner or a seasoned professional, whether they're "good" or "bad" at what they do, they're making something.
I'm never going to fault someone for that, and I'm also not gonna throw other musicians under the bus because you think they're somehow inferior.
also, if you hate "soulless", "generic" music, take your issues up with AI and capitalism, since those are the real culprits <3
This blog is a space for me to share things that inspire me and my creative process. It could be stuff from artists whose lyricism or production i admire. It could be an artwork that communicates a feeling i want to encapsulate in a song. It could be something else entirely. It's not somewhere for me to be interrogated.
#maybe i massively misread the tone#but this is weird...#everyone starts somewhere? i started writing generic stuff on software i learnt to use off youtube?#i don't have to prove myself to you
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Listen man, you guys can't be like "you guys need to be normal about asexuality" and then turn around and get weirdly judgemental when you find out someone doesn't have sex by choice. Like that's weird that some of you do that.
#like I love sex im glad we're hyping it up#but also genuinely some of you have got to learn how to be normal around people who dont want to have sex#even if you're not talking about asexuality when you say stuff like that you're still being a weirdass#im not ace myself but i keep seeing posts that come across like they're taking it personally that other people don't want to have sex#it sounds like theyre trying to prove something to someone
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Hottest Stand Battle - GRAND FINAL!
Stand abilities under the cut:
Star Platinum: Star Platinum is a close-range Stand with exceptional strength and speed, as well as gaining the ability to stop time during the fight against DIO.
Moody Blues: It possesses the ability to imitate the form of individuals and reenact past events with precision.
Sticky Fingers: It possesses a very versatile ability in the form of its zippers. The zippers have various applications, such as using them to travel through walls or floors, detaching and attaching limbs, and storing objects inside something. Bucciarati is also free to attach several things together with his zippers.
#i am in denial that you all eliminated my KING my WHITESNAKE how could you#also how the hell did killer queen not make it to the final i am in shock#but hey go moody blues!#now. in matters of potential for sexy uses of stands sticky fingers takes the cake by FAR#but is it the hottest in appearance? i don't think so#i've always been a moody blues girly#whitesnake would have beaten it in my opinion but well that ship sailed off#im not basic enough to vote star platinum its hot but its not THAT hot imo it can be beaten#i'll probably be proved wrong but i have to be true to myself#jjba star platinum#star platinum#jjba moody blues#jjba sticky fingers#stardust crusaders#vento aureo#golden wind#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#who's hotter jjba#hottest stand battle
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Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how “ability users” (opposite to “normal people”) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#About: Dead Apple. Watched this a while ago with a friend and it was a lot of fun!!!#If you're reading this: thank you so much for hanging out with me I had such a good time (ㅅ´ ˘ )♡#Next to general considerations: wow they were right that Bungou Stray Dogs movie sure can Bungou Stray Dogs#It's always nice to see the detailed animation and elaborate backgrounds of movies. The animation quality compared to the manga is–#definitely noticeable and it's nice to see. That said... I still like the season 2 art style more? And I'm speaking strictly of art style.#The s2 one looks more soft and smooth while the da one is so much more rough.#The plot is... Very bsd-esque I don't think there's anything to add.#In my opinion Kyouka's arc is the one that turned out best tbh. I really like her narrative development and personal growth in this movie.#I like the complexity of her state of mind. how full of contradiction she is. I especially appreciate the recurring small changes of–#expression that indicate how she thinks differently from Atsushi even if she doesn't voice them. The fight between her cynicism and her–#kind nature. It's all very interesting.#Atsushi's development is interesting too. Although all the open questions about his ability we still have kind of leave me frustrated#I don't feel very strongly about Akutagawa in this movie? I mean‚ he's there. The ss/kk scenes are always great and in character and a joy–#to witness no matter what they do. He just doesn't shine particularly? Or at least personally I dont find the “proving my strength against–#myself” narrative arc to be particularly interesting. Imo it was a lot better flashed out in the da stage play! With the complexity that–#the dialogues with Chuuya added to the character. Dazai attacking him. And especially Aktgw understanding that Rashomon wasn't testing Aktg#but rather only expressing that unstoppable rage that is also Aktgw's own. About that I checked out the play and I really liked it!!#I only watched highlights (aka: ss/kk and chuu/aku scenes) but there's some stuff I really like. I like the conflict between Aktgw and–#Chuuya and how Chuuya messes up with Aktgw at first maliciously and then amiably. It's interesting how Atsushi himself observes that Kyouka#and Akutagawa get along. And especially the sskk almost-handholding and Atsushi saying Akutagawa has a nice profile were cute akjdhbsawhjb#Next. Da really is shipping paradise (╥﹏╥) Sorry but... It is. oda/zai. daz/atsu. ss/kk. s/kk. fuku/mori. chuu/aku. It really has everythin#and the moments are so good!!!! What else. Wish we'd see more of Tsujimura. And Christie. And women in general tbh.#Also‚‚‚‚‚ Atsushi's tiger form in this movie is ATROCIOUS. I've said it before but it's crazy how a franchises that relies so heavily on–#fanservice came up with something this hideous. Man the movie overall was pretty but Atsushi sure wasn't. Firmly stand by the belief–#that only Akutagawa would find that form attractive.#Oh last note. honestly if we're ready to accept a movie where an antidote has effect AFTER the person has effectively died then we really–#can't complain about any kind of insanity the manga brings up#random rambles
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Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.
#disability#this is a callout post about myself#i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned#turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly#i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack#(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way)#(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle)#anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you...#...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition]#i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀#even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭#it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker#and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller#and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected...#...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)
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My senpai and I are very different people lmao she just suggested we take the 100¥ bus to save us less than 15 minutes walking and I'm like GIRL I am NOT paying ANY amount of money if I can reasonably walk there
#chough chatterings#like i have walked 1 hour each way to a classroom before to save myself ¥300#my colleagues are always like how do you afford to go travelling and i'm like. i just don't pay for things unless i absolutely have to#my company covers commuting costs but i don't have to actually prove i took the bus/train so i get an extra 〜3000¥/mo by walking#also my colleagues eat like bento or some nice rounded meal before work#whereas i - a goblin - will just eat an entire 80¥ bag of white bread i raided from the discount bin#i don't have any subscriptions like spotify or netflix. i rarely eat out. i don't drink alcohol. i only buy meat or fruit if it's discounte#and then when i do travel i stay in shitty 1-star hotels/hostels and eat like 4 bowls of rice from the included breakfast buffet#so then i don't have to eat lunch. and then i find cheap restaurants off the high street for dinner (i never go to the touristy areas)#but yeah now i have to find a polite way to tell senpai i'll meet her there bc i'm too much of a cheapskate to take the bus lmao
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i will always shout praises of bi4bi but given recent discourse I feel the need to say that I love bi4het too! I just love bisexuality in general in its many forms, and anyone who only likes it when it's 'queer enough' for them is biphobic. Bisexuals should be able to bring their LaMe CiShEt BoYfRiEnD to pride without being made to feel like spectators and outsiders to their own event.
#3 am queer discourse take <3#anyways hot take number two. cishets do belong at pride. everyone who wants to celebrate queerness should be welcomed at pride#if a completely cishet business major fratboy wants to come to pride and vibe with us then he should be welcomed!#not even like. oh he has a queer sibling. no. if he's just a cishet dude who wants to spend his saturday at a parade then hell yeah#like completely ignoring that you have no way to tell he's definitively those things. it shouldn't matter regardless imo#pride is not a secretive club you need to be let into. it's a feeling and a celebration and a statement and a state of being#and whatever you want it to be#burying my other related hot take under the tags readmore ksdjksdjksdj#idk. i'm just tired of a lot of the things people seem to think about bisexuality's validity relating to bi women specifically#this is frustration with the gatekeepy and straight-passing discourse of it all#I'm tired of people being expected to act and to preform and to BE queer enough for others' opinions.#am I still welcome if I haven't been with a woman in a few years? if I dress boring? if I like m/f? if I don't listen to chappell roan?#joking on that last one but like. idk. never straight enough for the straights but never gay enough for the gays#constantly some mercurial in-between that offers no comfortable easy group to put us in.#what do i have to do to not be judged as a filthy hettie? are my doc martens enough for you yet?#like oh sorry let me cuff my jeans and have a bob and wear a button up over a cami and wear etsy earrings. am I visually bi enough yet?#let me apologize for the cardinal sin of liking men too. let me wash my hands of any time a cishet man has held them.#if it was a bisexual man then just hand sanitizer is fine right? where do you draw the line on my queerness?#let me preform for you in a way that makes me queer enough.#anyways. sarcasm aside. I think I've made my distaste for this whole affair evident#if you don't want cishets at pride then what happens to those you incorrectly deem as cishet? do I need to prove myself to you?#am I passing as straight? am I passing as gay? am I enough for onlookers?#is it not enough to just show up at pride and celebrate? anyone and everyone who wants to?
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my friendship with canon ended now fanon is my new best friend
but first a cute bird
basically my mind decided that it's now free to draw whatever AUs and stuff that I want including random stuff like this
and this!
I think my way of coping with 423 is just... ignoring it ever existed so now it's just this and an occasional canon stuff
but good for him he deserves to have all the fun fanon can offer
fun fact: this was the first sketch out of all of them in this post!
#fanart#sketch#my art#bnha#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#league of villains#it's basically all of them but not really since Tomura just got their outfits#toga himiko#bnha manga spoilers#bnha spoilers#it was a funny thing to go from crying from 423 to laughing from a streamer Tomura ideas#I never allowed myself to really enjoy them#but canon proved itself to be useless for the time being and I don't believe that Tomura will come back#some believe that Tenko will and we'll see but it's a break week next time#so for now I'm just coping the way I want#also I'm interested in drawing some ships that have been fun for the last 5 years#mostly Tomura related but at least 2 not related to him#I'm not exactly a person you'll go to to ship stuff but like... I have some ships I enjoy to read#(and even write if you remember the natshig week stuff!)#basically now bnha is in my “undertale” zone of drawing actually#like I can draw whatever I want if I'm inspired and canon now matters only sometimes otherwise it's fun#I already said what I think about the situation itself so I just want to enjoy drawing Tomura for a while#i want to hug him#also this one Spinner outfit was drawn because I hated how Stain-like the other one was it was disturbingly funny#so I spared him and gave the one that looks comfortable and warm instead but manga panels were now a thing for those sketches
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Controversial opinion: Vox's design sucks
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Because he should be wearing a NORMAL TIE. not a BOWTIE. It would:
Add to his businessman persona
Give a place for that wifi symbol to go that isn't awkward
Be a good opposing design to Alastor's bowtie
Potentially give the idea he's moved away (or attempting to) from Alastor. Especially if they had it that Vox USED to wear a bowtie.
Also, we joke about it but seriously, why does everyone have a bowtie when it doesn't make sense for some characters like Husk--
I rest my case your honors.
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Rebuttle:
Vox having the bowtie could signify him latching onto his past with Alastor and not being able to move on
#DAMMIT. FOILED BY MYSELF ONCE AGAIN#Oh don't mind me just having a two way debate with myself#We all know the bowtie was just cuz Viv happens to like that on her characters#which we all have a sort of favorite go to design element so can't blame her#(even if on a professional level maybe that shouldn't be the case but I digress. She's fair to live her bowtie dreams)#But think of the SYMBOLISM that isn't actually there#Which fair. This is 100% one of those things fans might look more into than the creator and the creator is justified not thinking it#Bowties are deep and complex now#Vox like a cat or dog not wanting to get clothes put on them when Velvette tries to put him in a normal ass tie is a fun visual at least#Vel: “Vox if you want a more professional look you need to get rid of the bowtie.”#Vox: “No. I refuse. I must prove I wear a bowtie better than Alastor.”#celtrist#cel rambles#hazbin hotel#hellaverse#hazbin hotel design#hazbin hotel critique#hazbin vox#hazbin hotel vox#vox the tv demon
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n*loth not being able to bag anyone over the (human term) age of 25-30 at most is the only logical and real conclusion to me because it can be just explained away as him wanting to prove and control everything and anyone (Cus he's a man!) but being stuck in that demographic because his unbearable and vile personality is a force that nobody can look past once they've outgrown the possible fear and idolization period of anyone but also n*loth in particular.
#text#i think even younger ones that possess the same nasty traits can be slammed back 'In their place' (in his mind) by him just bc his -#- abilities and power alone (alt. name the factors that make him 'Cool') that dumbs them down insanely in comparison#maybe by this i mean like; ild*ri. despite the animosity she could still feel very foolish and is conscious of her wuss-ness#if that makes sense#cause no matter the disrespect anyone might have for an older capable person the reality is still reality#tbh i just think he doesn't like to sweat it much and still aims for the younger ones bc it's easier than it would be for someone that's -#- 30+ years old#and once he's proven his point he doesn't find any merit in sticking with older ones cause their interests or anything they offer -#- don't matter to or interest Him personally#i think an older demographic is just more boring to him and he would rather spend his time being metaphorically sucked off for his greats -#- by someone that already finds themselves 'lesser' than him and always will for a long time#than someone that is defiant of that fact#basically the more power imbalance the better#in his mind there will always be one unless he certainly knows someone is his equal (or better than him) but he likes the add-on of an -#- age difference too#keeps it in a safe zone with less problems for him#sorry for spitting again my brain just started machine-gunning thoughts for no reason#also i said before that he's an innocence fan. might not be a total puritan but there's something there#it's kinda like him not wanting to be with a dusty ''OLD'' person that's seen a lot anyway#i'm like barely able to hold myself back from opening my mouth to mention t*lvas where i'm making a point about n*loth's brain where he -#- isn't even needed to prove it#but like#him voicing dislike of n*loth general nauseating character and actions but still sucking up to him while n*loth can probably feel -#- that dislike anyway is cute to me i like to view it as an object being thrown into the wall over and over#where n*loth is proving his own worth to other people by drilling their brains out with proof. not that he needs to#but he would like that to be perfected a 100%#and t*lvas is capable of being molded into that state ....... probably#silusvesuisuis you didnot just confess to wanting to see t*lvas be slammed into a wall you fucked up demented beast you're sick#actually can't believe i forgot to mention this but he's literally so immature idk what he has anything in common with actual mature people
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...Coping through weirdness... I really love Hyness being ~himself~ while also doing stuff that’s otherwise really mundane...
#Kirby#Dess Sketch Post#Hyness#And so life goes on...#...because I'm tired of laying in bed feeling sad for myself#Thank you so so sooooo much to everyone who wrote omg#I don't really have the words but it meant a lot#Honestly I may sleep all tomorrow too but#it meant something to prove to myself#the sadness wasn't all consuming
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#my psych who prescribes my psych meds is a resident and is moving on in a couple of months#i don't even remember the names of them all at this point#this happens over and over and I cannot find a clinic that will put me with someone who intends to stay#thst will also prescribe my adhd meds#and my anxiety meds#and the real kicker is that twice now they have LIED about it and said they would#only to reveal after all the hoop-jumping that oops sorry they didn't really mean it#so it's a risk i have to take any time i leave#and rhen there's the issue of new people almost always wanting to DO something#but instead of talking to me about it they just decide that my meds need overhauling and pressure me to go off shit that works#but that they morally object to i guess#and my psych for some stupid reason has decided she wants bloodwork for my cholesterol and blood sugar stuff and im just like#what hell does THIS presage because if she harasses me about the results or tries to put me on drugs for that#I'll give her a nasty scrap about it#im not interested in those meds at all#and im certainly not messing with my diet since food is the only pleasure i get most days and even that is marginal at best#and removing that would just make me worse#but medpros for the most part really don't give a fuck about that#and so now im afraid - because i do not and cannot trust them - that if i disapprove of the meds they will retaliate somehow#which good luck proving that when management and oversight often don't even care if they course of treatment will HARM you#if it relates to being fat or having bad numbers#they just gotta pathologize!#so yeah im sick of everything and just kind of want to bury myself in a bog forever#i shouldn't have to deal with this
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every so often i will see a post from a leftist on this website that is so egregiously ableist that i remember that like. oh yeah the userbase of leftists on this website is violently anti-disabled people and will jump at any chance to demonize any of us for any reason. i just forget that fact because i'm extremely dedicated to curating my space
i'm paraphrasing here but i saw a post that said, "every time i see an American [disabled person] mention being scared about the election because they're afraid of losing their benefits i have to laugh. anybody who wants blood-soaked money from the US government deserves to starve" which. like. goodness that's a lot to unpack. i think we should burn the whole suitcase instead !
#i inserted [disabled person] because they used a fucking slur instead and i didn't want that in my post#like i feel like there should be room for disabled people like me whose lives literally entirely depend on accessing said >#> extremely limited benefits in conversations about whether voting in this election makes you complicit in genocide#which like! i do understand. i do. it's nauseating to think about what this shit ass country is doing. it's horrific. i do not blame anyone#> for not wanting to be a part of that. *and* i am also terrified for my own life because i remember the first time trump won it suddenly >#> became IMPOSSIBLE for ANYONE to get on benefits. EVER. and so many disabled ppl i know went to renew benefits theyd had for decades >#> just to be denied. one of whom was a below-the-neck paraplegic. he died because he lost those benefits!!! because trump won#i really do understand why people dont feel right voting for harris. or why they don't vote at all. i truly do. but holy shit i am so scare#and yes! i am aware that people in palestine and gaza are suffering so much worse. and i wish i could change that#but every single person in power in the US is pro-israel and eagerly drinking the anti-palestine kool-aid. no matter who wins >#> things will not change in that part of the world. and it is infuriating. when the revolution comes this will change. but it hasnt.#the revolution will not save me as a physically disabled person. it will not save any of us. we do not matter to leftists. i am sorry but >#> this is the one thing i have learned after being in leftist spaces for over 10 years. and posts like the one i mentioned prove it#so i am very sorry. i really am. for being physically disabled. but i cannot survive another 4 years relying on my parents for everything#if trump wins i will be killing myself. this is a promise. i cannot do that again#i know it makes me a bad person to be afraid that harris will lose. but people on the left already think i'm a bad person for being disable#i want the genocide to stop. i absolutely do. i also want to survive. i am terrified that the US leftists will sacrifice disabled people#like me so they can feel good about being put in a real life trolley situation#again. im sorry. im so fucking sorry. i wish i was a better person. i wish i was able to give more. i know that if i was just a good#person i would be able to have a job and give to every palestinian gofundme on my dash. i would be able to do more than my daily clicks >#> and reaching out and calling representatives that don't care. if i was a good person i would be able to convince my parents that z*onism>#is deeply fucking racist. and that israel is wildly racist and killing palestinians for fun. if i was a good person i would be able to make#>them leftists too. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry im not good enough. im sorry that im scared. im so scared and it's not right for me to be#when so much worse is going on because of this countrys bloodlust. im sorry that im benefiting from being born here i dont want to be#im sorry for not having any other options. if i was a good person i know i would have them. im sorry. god im sorry im so fucking sorry
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I've decided that writing Wylan is very fun and relatively easy for me, but it's also very soul-revealing becasue he has a deep desire to be perceived as competent and useful by the people he cares about the rest of the Crows and I unfortunately feel very seen about it :/
#me writing wylan: 'I see myself in the thoughts I'm making this poor boy think and I don't like it'#imo I lowkey think this is also why I've kinda...stayed away from writing jesper too often#wylan van eck#my writing#personal#writing wylan for my marya+kaz fic and the forced to choose fic#really is an exercise in restraint re: how deadpan 'you ever have those days where you think welp this might as well happen' I can make him#while also balancing his crippling self-doubt and sheer determination to prove himself#he's the closest thing to a normal kid we get in the SOC books and he's got such a big heart#but he's also out there defending his competence to a bunch of teenage criminals a few minutes after meeting some of them#and talking back to an enraged and bloody Kaz Brekker seconds after killing a man#icon. legend. we truly don't deserve him
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Hey y'all! I have to preface this two-part question by saying it is not based on something I am currently experiencing, but something that happened years ago 1. Can anaphylaxis cause low blood sugar? 2. How bad is a blood sugar level in the 40s? Again, based on something from years ago, not now (just in case someone skipped the first paragraph) Like, I understand that that's very low blood sugar and is bad but idk how bad? At the time it happened I was at an urgent care and, uh, not tracking what was happening super well (both the things definitely happened at the same time, but I am unsure if they were related things)
#the person behind the yarn#medical mention#anaphylaxis mention#blood sugar mention#I just assumed it was the anaphylaxis that caused it#but then was like huh maybe I should google that#and the results seemed...unclear?#and if I had super low blood sugar in a medical setting and it wasn't from allergies and my doctors are still saying#no you don't have low blood sugar don't worry#I am going to be a little bit mad. but if it is allergies#(and is something that only happens with anaphylaxis) I guess I can prove to my dad I have severe allergies???#my dad does think I have severe allergies kinda#but more that the allergies interact very very badly with my tachycardia and salt issues#which. to be fair. they do.#I get dehydrated at the drop of a hat so anything that makes me puke risks making me unable to rehydrate myself#thankfully I have kinda cracked the code (the secret is I Cannot Drink Water until I stop puking)#(only drinks that have salt and preferably sugar in them)#but still! would be nice to have him stop encouraging me to try NSAIDs again#because of the like ten hour delay between me eating anything and going into anaphylaxis#the doctors were like well. you took an advil and it's almost definitely that#and the reaction was severe enough you Should Not Try It Again
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