My AU Headcanon: after surviving the attack on their house, James had constant nightmares about seeing Lily & Harry dying & Voldemort, Wormtail and Snape taunting for failing them, despite being the great James Potter. It hurt Lily to see her once happy and mischievous husband be in so much pain.
I'm alive! Risen from the ashes like Fawkes!
Lovely anon, thank you for your patience and for sending this prompt, which allowed me to write James from another perspective and analyze his marriage with Lily with a more mature eye.
As always feedback and other suggestions on how to continue this (or any other) story are welcome but I'm also open to having a chat, exchanging headcanons and making moodboards and playlists for your favorite characters/couples.
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After years of uncertainty and terror, with heavy casualties on both sides and entire bloodlines wiped out, the war ended, and the Wizarding World celebrated with displays of fireworks and jubilation. He Who Must Not Be Named was dead, just a corpse made of skin and bones buried beside his father in a forgotten graveyard, his remaining followers were locked up in Azkaban, and peace reigned once again, an outcome Lily failed to truly believe in as she held little Harry to her chest on the darkest nights, in fear it could be their last moment together. They had been lucky to survive Pettigrew's betrayal, something he did not, and Lily was grateful for every quiet day she was allowed to live, but James hadn’t gotten over the tension and the constant fear as well as she did. When there was light outside, from breakfast until he put Harry to bed, everything seemed fine despite the purplish dark circles under his eyes, and at work he was his usual mischievous self, at least according to Sirius, but when he got under the covers, once he had given a kiss to his wife and they both turned off the lamps on their respective bedside tables, he became a mess, clinging to her body as if she was a lifeline. The nightmares hadn’t given him a full night’s sleep for months now, and if sometimes he didn’t feel like talking, if sometimes the only thing that soothed him was sinking into Lily, taking her in desperation, letting her gentle words of encouragement and muffled moan ground him, during others he was more inclined to dialogue.
“He killed you,” he had murmured one night, heavy tears sliding down his sunken cheeks. “You were dead, and he… Harry… I couldn’t do anything but watch.”
It was like this, between stammers and fragmented sentences, that Lily discovered what was plaguing her husband’s sleep, a sense of guilt he shouldn’t have felt, an anxiety he couldn’t leave behind.
“It’s not my fault, Snivellus, it’s not my fault!” he had shouted on another occasion, before sitting up in bed, his forehead drenched in sweat.
“Dad?” Harry had called from the small corridor dividing their rooms, rubbing his eyes with the small fist.
“Dad had a bad dream, love,” Lily had quickly explained, as he guided him back to bed. “Every now and then it happens to adults too.”
“Can you give him this, then?” her son had asked, with the innocence only children possess, handing her one of the stuffed animals he usually slept with. “It will protect him from monsters.”
“He will appreciate it very much,” she replied, taking the fuzzy Welsh Green, his favourite birthday gift from uncle Remus.
“Did I scare him a lot?” James asked, defeated and worried, as soon as she closed the door behind her.
“No, but he wants you to have this, to protect you from monsters,” she answered, passing him the stuffed animal. He stared at it for a while, as if seeing it for the first time, or glimpsing something in his black plastic eyes, and then he hugged it tightly, curling up his knees and bowing his head until his dishevelled hair almost touched his arms. Seeing him like this, it was evident how young he actually was, how the weight of the carefreeness the war took away from them weighted on his hunched shoulders.
“I’m sorry…” he whispered, breaking the heavy silence engulfing the house. “I wish I was stronger, I wish I had been able to do more, but instead I had to hide like a rat, I had to wait for others to defend my family for me.”
“We’re all alive, and that’s enough,” was all Lily could say as she caressed his bare back, where the bones of his spine visibly protruded. When had he gotten so thin? When, among the pile of things he had to care about, had he stopped considering eating a priority? Just two more questions to add to the thousand she would have to find an answer, a solution, to alone, so as not to break the young man who that night slept hugging his son’s stuffed dragon.
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My master list
(updated!!)
Orange- Smut, porn, lemon, and any other type of consensual smut
Purple- Triggers, this will be all of the dark content (besides smut) that requires a warning. Such as Abuse, Cannibalism, Death on page, Dysphoria, Eating disorders, Graphic medical descriptions(Abortion/Birth/Miscarriage), Graphic violence, Incest, Rape/non-con, Self-harm, Suicide/suicidal thoughts, Yandere themes, and more
Blue- Content that’s not for everyone, stuff like angst, alcohol/drugs(minor drugs such as medication or weed), depression, swearing, violence, weapons
Green- No warnings, this will be everything that has little to no warnings
Ideas
Idea 1- Cross and Nightmare
Idea 2- Killer x Dream
Idea 3- Cross, Dream and Nightmare
Idea 4- Cross and SwapDream
Idea 5- SwapDream x Nightmare
Idea 6- DS! Dream and DS! Nightmare
Idea 7- Ccino x Nightmare
Idea 8- Cross x Dream
Oneshots
Eddsworld, Tom x Tord Mine
Eddsworld, Eduardo x Reader, Help
Eddsworld, Tom x Tord, Losing you
Eddsworld, Future Tord x Reader, I’m sorry
Metal family, Glam x M!Reader, Lust
Metal family, Mary, Drinking
Good omens, Aziraphale and Crowley, Can’t be replaced
Resident evil 8, Mia and Dimitrescu’s daughters, Tasty Toy
Bendy and the Ink Machine, Sammy Lawrence x Reader, Memories
Camp camp, David and Max, Not okay
Hazbin Hotel, Alastor and Vox, The wonders of hell
Undertale
Undertale, (Nightmare Gang and the Dream team), Stop
Undertale, (Bad Sans poly), A sick Cross
Undertale, (Lust and Bad sans), Lust joins the gang
Undertale, (Cross x Dream), Soulmates
Undertale, (Nightmare x Killer), Lazy day
Undertale, (Blue x Dream), Desperate
Undertale, (Cross x Nightmare), Sorry Mommy
Undertale, (Error x Nightmare), Bad Day
Undertale, (Cross x Dream), Soulmates 2
Undertale, (Geno x Reaper), Burning desire
Undertale, (Bad sans poly), I don’t deserve it
Undertale, (Bad sans poly), Pups
Undertale, (Dream and Nightmare), I deserve this
Undertale, (None), Toxic happiness
Undertale, (Cross x Dream), Comfortable
Undertale, (Bad Sans poly), Not done yet
Undertale, (Bad Sans poly), Phobia
Undertale, (Killer x Cross, BSP), Dusting
Undertale, (Killer x Cross), Husbands in crime
Undertale, (Bad Sans poly), Phobia 2
Undertale, (Blue x Dream), The past
Undertale, (Cross), This too shall pass
Undertale, (Nightmare x SD! Dream), Overworking
Undertale, (Killer x Cross), Stay
Undertale, (Fatal Error x Reaper), Don’t go
Spooky Month Oneshots
Under Editing!
Spooky month, (Streber x Kevin), Aftercare
Spooky month, (Kevin x Reader), Risky
Spooky month, (Streber x Reader), Cute
Spooky month, (John x Jack), Relaxing
Spooky month, (Kevin x Reader), Tired
Spooky month, (Kevin x Reader), Lucky
Spooky month, (Kevin x Streber), Halloween Nightmares
Spooky month, (Kevin x Reader), Feeling good
Spooky month, (Kevin), Passing the time
Spooky month, (Kevin x Streber), Nervous
Spooky month, (Kevin x Reader), Rules
Spooky month, (Kevin x Streber x Radford), The video
Spooky month, (Kevin x Streber x Radford), Long day
Spooky month, (Bob x Reader), Did you know
Spooky month, (John x Jack), Meltdown
Spooky month, (Jack x Reader) Join me
Spooky month, (Skid and teen sibling Reader), Protector
Spooky month, (Hatzgang x Reader), Here for you
Spooky month, (Bob), Release
Spooky month, (Radford x Reader), Lunch
Spooky month, (Vampire Streber x Reader), Hungry
Spooky month, (Yandere Bob x Reader), Creepy cannibal
Spooky month, (Radford x Kevin), Taking control
Spooky month, (Jack x Prisoner Reader), Flirting
Spooky month, (Bob x Reader), Owner
Spooky month, (Streber x M!Reader), No matter what
Spooky month, (Streber x Vampire Kevin), Inaccurate
Spooky month, (Radford x Vampire Kevin), Drunk
Spooky month, (John x Reader), Semi-Public
Spooky month, (John x Jack), Safeword
Spooky month, (Bob x Reader), Worried
Spooky month, (Genderbend Lila x Reader), Grown up things
Spooky month, (Streber), Thinking of you
Spooky month, (John x Jack), Happy anniversary
Spooky month, (Rick x Radford), Bundle of blankets
Spooky month, (Hatzgang x Reader), First date
Spooky month, (John x Jack), Easing stress
Spooky month, (John x Jack x Reader), Three is a party
Spooky month, (Kevin), Killer Kevin
Spooky month, (John x Prisoner Reader), See you around
Spooky month, (Jack x Reader), Waiting for you
Spooky month, (Genderbend Jaune x Reader), Multiple rounds
Spooky month, (Kevin x Trans! Reader), Great night
Spooky month, (Trans! Streber x Reader), No matter what
Spooky month, (Jack x Suicidal Reader), Helping you through it
Spooky month, (Radford x Kevin), Rest day
Spooky month, (Radford x M!Reader), Holding you
Preferences
Spooky month their nicknames for you
Headcanons
Spooky month Kevin HC with s/o who teases him
Match ups
Eddsworld Match up part one
Spooky month Match up part two
Undertale match up
Stories (Anything more than one chapter)
Abandoned! Don’t Starve Wilson X Reader Prologue
last updated 4/4/2024
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