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Guilt & Revenge: Set Up For Failure
Whumptober, Day 3: Set Up For Failure
Guilt & Revenge Masterlist
Finally, one of these turning out the way I'd planned it. Hope you enjoy, please lmk if you wanna be added to the taglist!
TWs: muzzle & gag, being tied up/immobalized with rope, sort-of failed escape attempt, past torture, threats of torture, captivity
Amber had a muzzle strapped to his face. The muzzle even had a gag, so his mouth was forced open and he couldn’t speak. He had to struggle to even breathe. He was completely immobilized with rope; legs tied to each other and his arms tied to his torso. He wiggled around on the floor like a helpless little worm. It would have been funny, he thought, if it wasn’t for the circumstances. Wiggling on the floor like a helpless worm.
There were three of them today- everyone except Eileen. That was something, at least. It could have been worse. It had been worse.
Hugo opened the door of his cell, and Amber tried to glare at him, but he didn't even step inside. Instead, he spoke to Amber, before even touching him. “You’re free to go.”, he said.
What??? Was he really? Could he finally leave? Get out? Go home? Why would they do that? Weren’t they afraid he’d go to the police? Amber’s mind was racing a mile a minute. Surely this was a trick. It had to be. But he hoped to high heaven it wasn’t. He just wanted out.
“All you have to do is walk out of your cell, and we’ll let you.”
For a second it seemed unreal. Just walk out and he’d be free? But as he moved to do just that, his hope sank into fear. He was tied up. Of course.
Of course it wouldn’t be that easy. Amber tried to wiggle himself to the door. Maybe, if he could just get out of the cell, maybe that would count. Maybe that would be enough.
He could feel Mercedes and Paul’s disapproving glares. He wished he could glare back, or bite out an insult at them, but he was too busy trying to wiggle himself to freedom. And the wiggling hurt- it was aggravating all his injuries. And fuck… he was so tired. He kept trying, regardless.
“What, don’t you want to leave?”, Hugo taunted, “You know what we’ll do to you if you stay, right? We’ll keep torturing you. Like you did to us.”
Amber wanted to roll his eyes. He never did anything like this. Yeah, stealing lunches, pulling pigtails, and pushing kids into mud wasn’t very nice of him, and he regretted it, but this was extreme. They had just been kids.
He inhaled sharply when he wiggled in a way that tore open a scab. Fuck. Shit. Agh.
He wasn’t getting any CLOSER. He was causing himself extra pain and it wasn’t getting him any closer to leaving! FUCK!
He wanted to cry out of sheer desperation, but he couldn’t bring himself to give up yet. He had to get out. Even as he could feel the weight of disapproval in the room, the taunts from Hugo landing like physical blows to his resolve.
“We’ll whip you again. Electrocute you. Choke you. All you gotta do is leave, and you can avoid it. What’s wrong? Don’t wanna leave? Do you like being hurt?”
The rocking of the boat was disorienting, and the unsteadiness only increased Amber’s desperation. He wanted off, he wanted out, he wanted to LEAVE. He tried to time his wiggles better along with the soft sway of the boat, but he struggled. Most of his wiggles were badly timed, and accomplished absolutely nothing. The drool in his mouth leaked slightly over his lips, and he struggled to swallow. He couldn’t even wipe away the drool on his face… he’d bet he looked pathetic right about now. He could almost summon one fuck to give. Almost.
He wined out. It would be much easier to leave if he wasn’t tied up. Surely they knew that. It was probably the point. Amber wanted to cry.
“Oh, well… Obviously, you want to stay. And, well, if you want pain.. I’m all too glad to oblige.” Hugo stepped into the cell, picking Amber up by the ropes. Amber gave up on trying to not sob. He could hear the smirk in Mercedes’ voice when she spoke up,
“That’s more like it.”
Paul stayed silent. Amber barely noticed.
He sobbed. The inevitability of it all hit him, or rather, his helplessness. Nothing he could have possibly done would have prevented what was about to happen, whatever pain he was about to endure. Even if he’d, impossibly, managed to get out of the cell, they wouldn’t have let him leave. It was just a taunt. A way for them to break his mind, his spirit, as well as his body. He hated the thought for even daring to cross his mind but.. it had worked, too.
He scrunched his eyes closed. It hadn’t. It hadn’t “worked”. That was bullshit. If they wanted to hurt him, he was still gonna make it as hard on them as he could. He would fight and scream and struggle.
Struggling, in all possible meanings of the word, seemed to be the only thing he’d been doing lately.
Taglist: @silentlysurffering98
#whumptober#set up for failure#Amber Ruane (OC)#Guilt and Revenge#oc whump#whump#whump writing#whumpblr#defiant whumpee#multiple whumpers#implied off screen torture#captivity
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Scary Sunset.
I'm concepting things way outta order in this story, but I'm sure you can piece things together. Context is for a storybeat where, after defeating and capturing Adagio (thus having all three sirens in her possession), Sunset enacts her revenge plot to release the sirens on Canterlot as Thea discovers she's been manipulated. In a confrontation, the two scuffle and fight over the siren orbs while Sunset struggles with her conflicting wants and emotions.
#mlp#sunset shimmer#twilight sparkle#twiset#the orbs are the glass balls sunset carries on her back btw its in her cast line up art#deep down sunset hates thea. she was named “twilight” by celestia. the time of day succeeding sunset. she was always her replacement#but at this point in the story sunset's also fallen for thea. so it's also a conflict of wills in sunset. love or hatred.#hence the “don't make me do this” language. she's rationalizing her hatred and violence as thea forcing her hand and getting in her way#when in reality she doesn't need to do any of this. it's her last stand and outburst to cling to a life of revenge that she's grown too#fond of. because she knows thea has the power to change that and disrupt her identity as a pathetic victim who fell from glory#and that's scary. thea's a very scary thing to sunset because suddenly sunset wants something and to be someone new.#she suddenly wants to change. to be better for someone else. and she never thought or believed that could be an option for her#anyways toxic yuri yayyy#my art#the grand galloping 20s#character design#i hope i got across the pained conflicted emotions in sunset's face tho i belabored over them these past 3 days#i hope a look of anger and dissonance and guilt and “oh god i don't really wanna hurt you please just obey me” while trying to intimidate#is readable. if so it's all in the eyebrows babey
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ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x01 - “Heavy is the Crown” ↳ "I know you doubt your merit of your birthright, Caitlyn. There's wisdom in that. But remember: You're a Kiramman."
#last post for a bit bc i will take a short break#arcane#arcaneedit#arcane league of legends#caitlyn kiramman#jayce talis#ambessa medarda#councilor salo#councilor shoola#caitlyn#jayce#ambessa#salo#shoola#type: gif#media: arcane#arcane season 2 spoilers#s2 ep1#katie leung's delivery in this scene was amazing with this new hardened caitlyn... my jaw was on the floor#and then when cait said shut up i immediately closed my mouth oop LMFAO (also ambessa's face damn she defo notices her potential)#and then jayce hesitating for JUST A LIIIIITLE BIT THERE my heart....... hextech now being used for weapons :((((#ALSO this is so caitlyn she literally just told THE council what she wants to do just like how she does back then in s1 when marcus was#complaining about caitlyn not obeying orders and going off on her own lol#S1 Caitlyn…. who wanted nothing to do with the Kiramman name who wanted to forge a path on her own…#but S2 Caitlyn Kiramman driven by grief anger and guilt#finally accepts her birthright becoming into the woman she thinks her mother wants her to be and accepting a position#thats “befitting her station” as a full on commander and leader for piltover#but is this what cassandra truly wanted?????#Does she truly know what she is shooting for???? An anger fueled revenge tour just to kill jinx???#goddamn this show. fucking spectacular
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the through line of vengeance and vindication in DA2 really sells it
Sebastian fully recovering from his obsession with avenging his family only to throw it out completely for Elthina (the person who wanted him to give up vengeance the most!)
Merrill going through hell with the eluvian to exonerate herself to her mentor and family, Anders blowing up the site of Karl's murder & symbol of mage oppression, even Leandra justifying the fate of the twins by blaming Hawke for it all, much to chew on, much to think about, I love a through line
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AU where instead of the red hood revealing that he’s jason todd with an elaborate plan that ends with the joker’s death, he instead tricks the batfamily into believing that he’s the vengeful spirit of jason’s deceased older brother, danny todd and that he’s getting revenge on behalf of his baby brother who’s soul can’t move on without getting justice/retribution for his death or else he’ll turn into a malevolent spirit.
and for some weird reason, they actually believe him.
#dc comics#dc universe#dcu#batman#red hood#jason todd#jason peter todd#jason was never the angry robin#batfamily#batfam#jason todd au#jason todd hijinks#he’s not technically lying he did come back from the dead for revenge#danny todd#jason pretends to be his older brother and that somehow works#jason is having so much fun guilting them over his own death#jason kills the joker and gaslights batman to the max when he says something about it#jason is full on using their guilt against them to get his revenge and it’s kinda fun#jason todd headcanon#jason todd hc#jason todd is a menace#jason todd is a chaos gremlin#jason todd is a little shit#jason todd is the biggest instigator alive and i stand by it#jason kills the joker and dips because his job was finally fulfilled#and they never see him again#they don’t realize it was actually jason until many years later#the only reason this works out is because of how vague jason is about it#and also the fact that he’s done so much research to keep his cover from slipping
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Ties that bind!
#until dawn#josh washington#mike munroe#ashley brown#chris hartley#climbing chrash#midnight draws#1st piece is a continuation of the Cycle of Violence/Revenge between mike josh and their ghosts.#2nd piece is because i was like. man there needs to be SOME showing of climbing chrash on this blog#3rd piece is of course. another page in the book of Ashley's No Good Very Bad Chris Murdering Guilt.#ghosts in the first piece are jess beth and hannah yayyy
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Whumpee finally got revenge on Whumper. After everything Whumper did to them, Whumpee managed to make them suffer like how they made Whumpee suffer.
But upon seeing Whumper curled up into a ball, bleeding and crying, guilt hit them in their heart.
They got what they wanted. And yet, why aren't they happy?
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Wammy's Boys Headcannons
Mello
Clinical anger issues 100%
listens to bands like She Wants Revenge
The song "Tear You Apart" by them as a person
plays video games with Matt in his free time
is scared of something oddly specific like crickets
trans man
probably has some of the deepest rooted trauma/insecurities in the whole series
Has the worst RBF you've ever seen '
After he abandoned Wammy's House he turned into a bit of a stoner (Mello I see you with those chocolate bars.)
inferiority complex
Near
Autistic
Since they grew up idolizing L, they subconsciously began to copy a lot of his behaviors
Is the youngest of the Wammy's House trio
When it comes to toys they either prefer train/car type toys or girl's toys
Non-binary or genderfluid
Has severe texture issues when it comes to fabrics, and that why they prefer to only wear pajamas
struggle's a lot with survivor's guilt
Matt
He's a huge gamer and has been since he was young
plays all kinds of video games, but prefers FPS
you can’t tell me this man doesn’t listen to hyper-pop or f-boy music
thinks he’s the shit
really into AI, like this man is always making the dumbest deep fakes or playing around with it
uses his knowledge of tech for chaos (putting traffic light settings a few seconds off type stuff)
#wammys house#wammy boys#wammy kids#quillsh wammy#mello#mello death note#mello dn#mellodramattic#nate river#mihael keehl#mail jeevas#near#near death note#she wants revenge#transmasc#trans man#trans male#transmaculine#rbfsyndrome#inferiority complex#nonbinary#autism#neurodivergent#autistic#survivors guilt#gamer#gamerlife#fps#retro fps#fps games
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my one and only brother
#tokyo revengers#izana kurokawa#shinichiro sano#i think a lot about the guilt shin would feel seeing how izana ended up because of their fallout...
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thinking of roach's coping mechanisms and i kinda think that he would have a log of all of his scars. maybe in his journal, written along the edges as if they were afterthoughts to his actual entries.
the first couple entries are clinical. they list:
the body part
the general weapon type (gun, knife, rope, whatever)
if he got revenge
all the usual stuff that he would find important
just enough to document them, in case they fade or to use as a story for later. every time he dots a period, it's with a warped sense of pride.
and then one day he gets a scar from someone protecting him. they had pushed roach out of the way a second after someone screams about a sniper through their comms and takes a bullet. roach ends up falling onto his own knife and gets sliced for it but that’s nothing compared to his savior.
when he goes to write the entry, it’s noticeably shakier, scribbled over and smudged like he couldn’t decide what to write and then got far too frustrated for what should be gratitude.
he’s seen people die but it’s never been for him. he makes sure that guy’s name is clear, makes sure the ink dries before allowing his hands to touch the page.
then another one happens. an enemy tosses a cooked grenade. they have a split second to react and the guy upfront turns around, looks him in the eye, and slams his palms into roach’s chest.
roach crashes to the ground, barely notices that he got hit with a nasty piece of debris until he’s crouched behind a wall and realizes that what’s dripping down his body is too hot, too thick, to be sweat. and another entry appears.
the scar, the location, his savior’s name. how it felt to look someone in the eye moments before death, knowing again that it was for him. another messy entry, cut only by the pristine printing of those names.
he’s lucky he doesn’t have to write one for every close call but even those have lost that naive arrogance from before.
the more it happens, the more he survives and other don’t, the less it becomes about the scars.
#i think of roach with survivor’s guilt far too often#him and his journal to the end of the world#gary roach sanderson#roach cod#cod mw2#call of duty#call of duty modern warfare 2#southro headcanons#desperately need to talk about the first time his entries feature soap and/or ghost#i do think it’s kinda funny he would say whether he got revenge bc he’s such a loser he would#esp if it came from like a stick he would be like ‘threw a grenade on it never again.’
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I just reread the chapter where TW went to recruit Mitsuya (thanks to your TW post, I love it!) and I just realized that Hakkai seemed like he wasn't aware that Mitsuya's in a bad place? I think I saw someone say that there's a panel of Mitsuya (with Hakkai and Chifuyu in the background) at Draken's funeral, so shouldn't Hakkai be aware of how much Draken's death affects Mitsuya, but somehow Hakkai didn't seem to notice anything? What do you think, Jojo?
Yeah I do think that Hakkai wasn't aware of how bad things had gotten for Mitsuya. If he was aware then he probably would've warned the others before hand instead of getting excited. Plus he wasn't aware of what Mitsuya was doing, he was even confused by the fashion contest and questioned it at first.
He also makes a comment about Mitsuya's weight later on which makes it seem like he hasn't seen Mitsuya in awhile.
So I do think he was unaware of Mitsuya's situation, as for why I think Mitsuya potentially asked for space after Draken's death or made it clear he wanted to be alone. Since it's mentioned that Mitsuya shuts himself in, I think it's likely that he wanted to be alone and either asked Hakkai or Hakkai picked up on that. It's not uncommon for people to want to grieve alone so this probably wasn't questioned much. I don't think Hakkai would ever willingly not talk to Mitsuya for ages either unless Mitsuya asked or he could tell Mitsuya wanted space.
#Hakkai may have even potentially felt guilty after this meeting even if he thought space would be helpful. It'll actually be interesting if#that's partially why he was so caught up in getting revenge on the Haitani's for Mitsuya like he channeled his guilt into doing something to#prove to Mitsuya how much he cares#tokyo revengers#tokrev#tokyo rev#hakkai shiba#mitsuya takashi#tokyo revengers spoilers
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Guilt & Revenge: Hallucinations
Whumpcember, Day 4: Hallucinations
Guilt & Revenge Masterlist
Awww look it's Amber's very first time being tortured! I loved writing this but now I don't have a buffer anymore... whoops. I hope you enjoy, lmk if you wanna be added to the taglist! I also wanted to say that, although I won't be adding it to the tw's since it's not really noticable in the story, this is TECHNICALLY minor whump cuz at this point in the story Amber is still seventeen.
Taglist: @silentlysurffering98
TWs: captivity (on a boat), hallucinations, sensory deprivation (tied down + blindfold), muzzle, sea sickness, messed up sense of time, off-screen abduction, mention of ADHD and hunger
Amber tried to fight back while they tied him up, but Paul and Eileen were just stronger than him, especially with him being exhausted as fuck. He could barely even struggle when they muzzled, and blindfolded him. He cursed them out and yelled at them, but it made no difference at all. Then, once he was secured to the bed, if you could even call it that, he heard them leave.
His mind was racing. This was sure to be the first of many tortures he would be forced to endure. From what they’d told him, they seemed to be starting easy. Maybe he would get lucky and everything would remain this basic, and everything they’d mentioned had just been hyperbole and bluff. Sensory deprivation was easy enough… for now.
Amber couldn’t tell how long it took time to pass. Everything seemed to be taking an eternity, but any time he tried to think about how long it might have been, it only felt like a few minutes. His thoughts drifted everywhere- movies, things that had been said, his childhood, how fucked up this situation was, his friends. It was almost like normal nights when he got lost in thought, occasionally chuckling at how ADHD his mind was. The rope binding him and the uncomfortably warm leather of the muzzle strapped to his face reminded him that it was not at all the same. He didn’t even know if it was night at all.
He thought of Noah-Elise. He thought of the painting she gave him that he’d been meaning to hang up. He thought of Trevor’s recent idea of adding alcoholic milkshakes and slushies to the menu at Tipped, and how Dave had actually taken it seriously. He thought about how neither of his parents would have ever done that, taken him seriously like that, if they’d even theoretically had a business like that. He thought about the first months after he moved out, how grateful he was, how he could finally start living his own life, how Dave and Zander had supported him in ways his biological parents never had. He thought about his family, his real family, his FOUND family. He thought of Jake. If Jake was here, he would have been able to overpower them. They would be out by now… and Jake would be pissed.
The bobbing of the boat was making him nauseous, especially without his sight. He had no idea where he was- he just knew it was on a boat, which seemed to be home-renovated specifically for him to have a cell. He knew.. actually, yeah, he should put together everything he knew. He knew the boat was bigger than the cell. He could only see the other half of the room he was in, but he knew there was more. He had no idea what body of water the boat was in. He didn’t even know if he was still in the same state- Hell, he could be in Canada for all he knew.
Suddenly, a sound brought him out of his thoughts. Footsteps, right next to him- but he hadn’t heard anyone enter the boat, hadn’t heard the boat they'd left in returning. Had they actually left? How long had it been? “Who’s there?” He tried to sound demanding, but ended up sounding like a scared little kitten trying to roar.
Nobody answered. Nobody came close to him. It was silent.
He was sure there’d been a sound. Right? He was sure?
He was sure.
….
He wasn't sure.
What if there hadn’t been a sound? Was he going insane? How long in complete solitude, unable to see or move, would it take for someone to become insane? How long had it been? Thirty minutes, six days? More, less? How could he know? He didn’t fucking know! He was hungry. So, maybe just a few hours. When was the last time he ate? He was hungry when he was abducted, too. Did they give him food? He had no clue. Couldn’t remember.
He heard something, in the corner, like water dripping. He turned his head towards the sound, but it made no difference- the simple fabric of the blindfold robbed him of his sight.
Was he imagining it? Or might the boat have a leak? Would they leave him here long enough to drown? He tried to struggle against his restraints again, but found his limbs feeling weak and hollow. It was a feeling he knew intimately during his childhood, the feeling you get when you haven’t eaten in a day or so too long. He thought there might be black spots in his vision, which would help him further narrow down how long he’d gone without food, but being blindfolded and all, he couldn’t quite tell.
Tears formed puddles by his eyes, and he shook his head wildly to try to get them away, since his hands were tied. The movement made his head feel incredibly light.
Amber inhaled sharply as he awoke. What? No. He hadn’t been asleep.
Shit…
Shaking his head had made him pass out. Fuck. For how long?
Seconds? Minutes? Hours?
More?
Time trickled past him, like the water softly finding it’s way from the pile of snow it melted from. Time was thundering past, trying to drown him, like he was stuck in a large waterfall, making it hard to breathe. Time was wind, playing with leaves on the other side of the room.
Why could he hear wind? There was no wind in the windowless cell in the belly of a boat in an unknown location.
There wasn’t any firewood to be crackling, making him flinch with how close it sounded to his face.
There wasn’t any marble for high heels to click on, and nobody was walking around him.
There wasn’t… he didn’t think there was a clock, driving him mad with the needless precise ticking, but there might have been.
The last thing he’d been focused on yesterday was if there was a clock or not. He wished he had, even fleetingly, noticed if there was.
There weren’t any animals growling in his ear. There really, simply, just weren’t.
He heard them all anyway.
Amber felt parched. He was so, so thirsty. He was hungry, too, but fuck he needed water. He’d do anything for a glass of water. The tears stopped at some point, he couldn’t tell when. Time was a haze. His mouth felt like a goddamn desert. He wanted to cry.
How long had it been? Two days? Five? Seven? Would they leave him like this to die? How long did he have left if he was left this way?
What if it had only been hours? Was it possible to get this thirsty, this hungry, in less than a day? Was he delusional? If they came back, would they ever tell him how long it had been? Would he ever know?
Fuck, he hated them so much. He felt so helpless, tied down to an uncomfortable-as-shit bed. He wanted to beat them up and get the hell out of this place. He felt so seasick, he was honestly surprised he hadn’t thrown up. He wanted the police, or Jake, or Dave, or hell, he’d settle for Lore or even his father, to bust down the doors, rip off his blindfold, untie him, and get him out. He wanted out.
He heard it, a few times. Voices in the distance that he recognised- Jake, or Noah-Elise, or his friends, or Dave, or some combination. Someone opening the cell door. Sirens. Sounds that indicated he was being saved, alongside the other sounds. The random ones.
The fire and the clock and the growling.
His whole body felt numb. He was slipping in and out of consciousness, or maybe he was falling asleep. Where was the boundary between excessive thought and dream? It was dark before his eyes either way. He couldn’t move, and it felt like circulation to his legs had been cut off. Maybe they were turning blue and purple and black and falling off. He didn’t know.
Amber didn’t know. He was going fucking insane, and he was stuck. He couldn’t do anything.
He just wanted to go home.
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Elden ring + SotE lore rambles part 2 electric boogaloo
Spoilers ahead
If you want, my first post was here, its not necessary to read it to understand but it might also interest you.
Alright, so ive been playing the dlc and thinking a lot about Miquella, Marika, godhood and everything. And in my first post, I speculated that the reason Miquella turns out to be the "bad guy" (big quotation marks bc theres not really an actual "good" here cmon guys its fromsoft were talking about) was because the path to godhood required him to fundamentally change as a person.
We do see how much change is required here, Miquella abandons huge parts of himself, both physical and emotional. But the part that interests me here is St Trina specifically. St Trina is a large part of who Miquella once was, shorn away and made into an entirely new person, cast away in Miquella's post to godhood.
Now that got me thinking, bc doesnt that sound familiar to you ? A young empyrean, casting away part of themselves to become a god, and that part becoming an entirely new person of the opposite gender ? Now where have i heard that before...
Oh hi Radagon, what are you doing here ?
Do you see where i'm going here ? The whole Radagon is Marika thing has been a topic of debate for a while now, and i dont want to toot my own horn here but i might have cracked the code.
I think Marika split Radagon from herself on her own path to godhood just as Miquella did with St Trina.
It works pretty well with every aspect of the lore so far. It explains the how in the Radagon is Marika thing, St Trina is somewhat antagonistic towards Miquella just as Radagon and Marika were somewhat antagonistic towards each other, I dont think either Radagon or St Trina are empyreans despite their other halves being so, etc etc. And we do see that St Trina is a whole ass different person which implies Radagon probably was as well.
Anyways damn, like mother like son amirite ?
#queen marika#kindly miquella#miquella the unalloyed#queen marika the eternal#sote spoilers#shadow of the erdtree spoilers#shadow of the erdtree#sote#elden ring#er#elden ring spoilers#im also very interested in what marika wanted to do in regards to the whole rejoining thing#Was she trying to regain a partvof her she lost to gain more power ?#Did she do it because of her guilt for condemning morgott and mohg#leading her to try to regain the part of her that knew how to be a family ?#did she realise her revenge against the hornsent had gone too far#making her want her empathy back ?#so many interesting ideas#radagon of the golden order#almost forgot him whoops
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CW: Sonic Movie 3/Sonic 2024 spoilers
Click away and block the "#sonic movie 3 spoilers" "#sonic movie spoilers" "#sonic 2024 spoilers" and/or "#sonic spoilers" tags if you do not wish to be spoiled
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Imagine you wake up on a strange new planet, so green, with not a memory of who or what you are. You wake up surrounded by these beings who look nothing like you, and they take you quickly into a metal facility where wires and clips are put on you. Where test after test is run.
They find a power within you. A power they want to channel, to harvest. You make them their power.
But none of them look at you kindly. There is weariness in their eyes. A hesitation in every touch. You are alone. You do not know what you are. Who you are. You have no family. You have no friends.
Then she appears like starlight during a cloudy night. A girl, blond and blue with roller skates. She touches the canister in which you have been placed, and you scowl at her before she scowl at you because everyone scowls at you. Why bother with a smile.
But she mocks you instead with so much humor in her eyes.
It goes all so fast after that. Too fast. You forever look back, wanting, longing. It isn't fair.
She looked at you kindly. She called you her friend. Through her, her grandfather came to like you too.
You would pull her on her skates down the halls and listen to her laugh. You would listen to and sing songs with her. You used to watch movies with her. Shared a pillow fort with her. You once even snuck out to see that green world you landed on again, to stare at the moon and the stars you came from with her. She talked about stars and light lingering on. You looked at her and saw one. Saw your star. Your sun. Your light.
You were happy.
It didn't last. Of course it didn't last. What did you expect? What else did you deserve?
They came for you. For your power. Her grandfather pulled both of you along, running, alarms blaring. She looked so scared.
A gun aimed.
"They're children!"
A gun shoved, a bullet redirected.
An explosion.
You remember it, even now, like it just happened. You relive it every time you close your eyes.
She lies too still on the ground, surrounded by rubble. Broken and burned. You hesitate to touch her, to confirm that this is real. You look up to meet her grandfather's teary eyes. She's gone. Your star is dead.
Your name makes sense now. It suits you well. For you may not have been the one to pull the trigger, but it still was your power that caused the explosion. It was your power that lured them in, your power that killed your star and now leaves the world in shadowed in grief.
You're nothing but a shadow. The darkness in the night. The monster under the bed. Your power killed her, which means you killed her, however indirectly.
She said you aren't a monster and you proved her wrong.
You didn't even fight as they ripped you away from her still warm body. You didn't do anything. You couldn't do anything. You just stared at your hands as they took you away and put you to sleep.
For fifty years you relive it. Over and over again. They made a hell just for you.
They took her from you. Your power, harvested and explosively unleashed, killed her.
You are angry. So angry. It consumes you. It festers like an infection, spreading. It fills you down to the marrows of your bones and pumps through you like blood.
You wake up in a world without her. In a world you don't want to exist. In a world you don't want to exist in.
You go to the only place you think of. The old facility. The only place you ever lived in. The place where she died, where your powers snuffed her out.
You find her grandfather there. He speaks of grief. Of anger. He wants revenge, has a plan of how to get it all laid out, and you are the key to its success.
The world that stole her will burn like she did. Your powers will be harnessed and then explosively unleashed. It will kill you, he tells you. It will kill him. A small price to pay.
It's justice that you die by your own powers, by the same powers that stole her away.
You agree. You want revenge. You want it more than anything. And it the end, you'll be with her again. It's perfect. You want this darken world to feel the same pain it has caused you. You want this pain to end. More than anything, you want to see her again. To feel her light on your fur again.
But a family stands in your way. Something red, something yellow, but mostly something blue. How annoying. How infuriating. They have what you lost, and you want to take it from them. It isn't fair.
You see him. Commander Walters. He was there, he was with them the day she died.
Rage. Deep, sickening rage. You strike him down.
Except... he isn't Walters.
Blue. Eyes carrying the same pain you do glare into your soul.
"What did you do?"
You tell him the truth.
"What I had to."
Revenge awaits.
Is this the right thing to do? Is this what she would've wanted?
No. No. They deserve for taking her. This is revenge. This is what you want... right?
You're so angry. Of course it's what you want. It's what you need.
You power the machine. Let it harvest your power.
You're aren't surprised when blue turned yellow, stronger than ever, comes for you. Of course he would want revenge, too. He is the same as you. He understands your pain. The pain you caused him.
He pins you down. You let him. The world will burn regardless, at least now, you will see her sooner. You can be rid of this pain sooner. You can let him get rid of his pain. You owe him this, don't you? This a mercy upon the both of you.
He hesitates. It angers you. You point to your chest.
"Do it! I'm right here!"
The look in his eyes changes. You no longer see your pain and your rage reflected back at you.
He tells you that revenge doesn't fix anything.
Something shaky within you breaks. You fizzle out. Your anger fizzles out. You realize anger had only ever been the secondary emotion. The mask.
You are consumed with grief. Painful, inescapable grief.
You sit with him and look at the world your powers are going to destroy.
It's blue, like she was. Blue, like he is.
He tells you the pain never goes away, but you learn to grow love around it.
The sun, yellow like her hair, warm as her smile, rises.
It clicks.
You remember it, what she told you all those years ago. How the light still lingers even when the star is gone.
She was, is, your star, and through you her light travels forward even now in her absence.
You are the shadow casted by her lingering light. You are her love preserving. Everything she is, everything she was, you decide now with every action. You are her legacy. Her light still shining.
You were, you are, her shadow. You were always meant to follow her, even now.
You let your anger and grief lead you astray. You should have followed her love from the beginning.
She wouldn't want this.
You wish you could tell her that you're sorry, for everything.
You look at the blue, and he offers his hand.
You take it.
It's time to right your wrongs. To follow the path you were always meant to.
You aren't happy. You're still hurt. And you're still angry, still grieving.
But this feels right.
Even as you redirect the bullet of your power aimed at the Earth, there is a strange peace. A feeling of justice. A knowning that you are doing right by her memory. Acting in her honor rather than your grief.
Blue falters, but you persist. You persevere. You push your mistake further away. You can not, you will not, let your pain hurt anyone else anymore. It isn't what she would've wanted. It isn't what you want. Not anymore.
You can hear her laughter even now. Soft and warm like starlight. You can almost hear her telling you to keep going, to just push it a little further.
Maria.
Is she waiting for you?
Your power engulfs you just like it did to her all those years ago.
Maria.
Is she proud of you?
You close your eyes and welcome it.
Maria.
You'll miss her forever, won't you?
#jenny posting#sonic cinematic universe#sonic movie 3#sonic 2024#sonic movie 3 spoilers#sonic movie spoilers#sonic 2024 spoilers#sonic spoilers#okay so I'm going to ramble now#i love tragedy#be it tragic back stories tragic ending whatever#so shadow has always held a soft spot in my heart in general#as he witnessed his home be destroyed and his best friend shot#there's no way that he doesn't have some level of survivors guilt in general#but movie shadow??#oh boy#oh boy oh boy oh boy#sure he didn't watch maria get shot#but he did watch as the containers of his power explode#and he watched as that explosion of his powers killed maria#so while he didn't pull the trigger he still played a part in her death#and so i personally headcanon that due to this added layer in his survivors guilt#on the moon scene shadow not only wanted sonic to straight up kill him to justify his desire of revenge to himself but to also just die#anyways I'm drunk so ignore any typos or weird grammer#it's also tumbr.com and I'll kill your god before ever proofreading my posts on here.#<3#sonic franchise#shadow the hedgehog#movie shadow#semi fic?
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DEAD FRIEND FOREVER | EPISODE 11
#dead friend forever#gifs#dead friend forever the series#dff the series#new dff#tan dff#phee dff#ta nannakun#mio athens#uservix#usersasa#userblmpff#userbon#i suck at captions unfortunately#in this house we support new#yeah some of the stuffs he said is questionable but he deserves that revenge idc#him guilt-tripping and manipulating phee was delicious i enjoyed it vm ty#so down bad for him#deranged af i want him#naomivents#dff.gif
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"You're looking for a place to die, aren't you?" "A place to die...?"
#boonboomger#boonboomger spoilers#super sentai#bakuage sentai boonboomger#toqger#ressha sentai toqger#genba bureki#sakito homura#akira nijino#bun violet#bun orange#byun d#toq 6gou#byun diesel#userdramas#umbrella.gifs#tokuedit#please do not repost#umbrella.edits#umbrella.posts#didn't put the subtitles for akira and byun d talking in the background bc i wanted to focus on genba and sakito's dialogue#i really love this scene and i think it really helps show genba's desperation through physical means#although he says he shouldn't waste his time he won't back down bc his internal struggle of wanting to be with the others but feeling#like he should isolate himself and focus on his revenge has him messed up#he feels like he doesn't fit that his situation is to complicated and there's too much rage but at the same time he loves his team#his revenge takes priority still though as he feels as though he couldn't bear the guilt of not going after disrace and it would be better#to die trying than to not try at all but akira knows better#he knows that you can't let your feelings eat you alive and he knows that living is worth all it has to offer and with friends like the#boonboomgers genba will find his way back home
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