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The non-answer answer
“Lord, will only a few people be saved?”
It’s a real question. It was real when it was asked in today’s Gospel. It’s still real when you and I ask it.
There are a lot of people out there who don’t believe. And a lot of people who don’t know what to believe.
Because there are a lot of people who wear the label “Christian” (liberal, conservative, progressive, traditional, pick any of them) that only add to the confusion. Often by giving some of the most off-putting presentations of what it means to be a Christian.
The lived sermons of some of the loudest “Christians” are no help at all. So it’s no wonder that people don’t know what to believe, and are asking,
Whose example should I follow? What does it really mean to live my Faith? How do I have a real relationship with God?
This is why – “Lord, will only a few people be saved?” – is a real question.
What I love best is how Jesus answers it. He doesn’t give numbers or percentages. He doesn’t have statistics or projections or trends.
Because Jesus doesn’t care about numbers or statistics or trends. What Jesus cares about is people.
But not as anonymized data or members of a group. Not as collections of identifiers and labels.
Jesus doesn’t care about groups. Jesus doesn’t care about labels.
What Jesus cares about is you.
Which is why Jesus’ answer is about our part, is about what you need to do and what I need to do – “Strive to enter through the narrow gate.”
Jesus doesn’t want a relationship with a group. Or a collection of labels.
Jesus didn’t preach the Kingdom of God to a group. Jesus didn’t give His life for a collection of labels.
For Jesus, all of it is personal.
Because Jesus wants a relationship with you.
Today’s Readings
#Labels#Getting past labels#Groups#Personal#God#Jesus#Catholic#Christian#Church#Christianity#Catholicism#Moments Before Mass
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HAPPY PTIDE MONT EVERYBODY!!!!!
been fighting demons (sinus infection) for the past two weeks now, I promise im still alive (kinda) AND IM COOKING SOME OTHER MORE FINISHED PRIDE STUFF TOO!!! I just wanted to throw together this one for sillies cuz my fighting of demons is killing my ability to make finished art 💔 IM GETTING THERE THOUGH!!!! PRIDE MONTH CANNOT ESCAPE MY PRIDEFUL HANDS NO MATTER HOW GROSS MY COUGHS GET o7
#saiibo#kiibo#k1 b0#keebo#shuichi saihara#saihara shuichi#danganronpa#danganronpa v3#drv3#danganronpa kiibo#danganronpa shuichi#danganronpa art#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa v3 killing harmony#danganronpa v3 fanart#danganronpa ships#headcanons haven’t changed for me at all in the past year eheh#shuichi is so undeniably bi 2 me…..#and kiibo gets the rainbow flag cuz!! I don’t really see him having any labels on his sexuality tbh!!#that and I just don’t really headcanon him a specific sexuality either LOLZ#HAPPY PRIDE YIPPPEEE
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Obsessed with what America and England have going on in HetaOni. America's like "I keep having to watch my dad die from overusing his magic in past timelines and not knowing how to stop it is killing me inside but I'm not going to talk to him about it" and England's like "I can't seem to hold a conversation with my son without insulting him but I won't hesitate to use my dying breath to ensure I can protect him from beyond the grave"
#good morning i still have hetaoni on the brain#that scene where it looks like america's going to die but turns out past loop england used the last of his strength to cast a shield on him#(+italy and germany) before sending them back to the present.... godddd#and then current loop england goes and takes on the monster america was worried about and succeeds. at the cost of going blind.#one of the very things america was afraid would happen!! he was so relieved when england survived the fight before finding that out too!!!#i don't know if this is coherent im just. they care about each other so much even though they won't say it and 😭😭😭 it makes me ill#sigh. rotating both them and hetaoni in my mind at the same time makes me so. waaughh#(also obligatory disclaimer that hetaoni doesn't label their relationship in any way them being father and son is just canon in my brain)#hetalia#hetaoni#hws america#hws england#tea dad n coffee son#personal#i have an old hetaoni wip fic that i think i intended to do more with but was mostly just about america and england as far as i got...#i can't remember the rest of my plans for it so maybe i'll shift the focus to them and try to get it finished sometime
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out of curiosity, would you consider yourself butch?
used to be a blonde underweight twink and now I'm a based jock still got the chanel bag and the sick albeit matured mind of a suckpig to prove it so I'm gonna let you decide whether you wanna call me that word just cuz I got a pussy and short hair. I promise you that there have been enough advancements made in the art of lesbian sexual dynamics in the past 50 years to broaden the vocabulary used to describe the plethora of types of masculine females.
#being called butch just reminds me of how much males have the freedom to navigate between male archetypes and how people pay attention to#the distinguishing features of these varying masculinities#but when a female is seen as masculine it all gets lumped under the “butch” category#her masculinity is seen as unnatural and therefore incapable of being considered genuine or taken at face value as it is with males.#its always brought into question instead of taken in consideration with the rest of the woman's life and experiences and her particularities#Hence... Butch is still being treated as though its a huge lesbian cultural phenomena instead of a specific niche thing#also i dont mean to invite the “you dont pass!!” anons again bc that idiot is missing my point entirely (which is that im truly not trying)#but the fact is that for the past 3 years i have found myself increasingly navigating the male social world#and discovering what it means to me as a female to have access to the ability to take my “masculinity” for granted... relax#forget about it#etc#i think thats entirely antithetical to the Butch thing which seems to rest on the tension of other peoples expectations of her#people broadly are more surprised to find out that im interested in women just as much as they're surprised that im a gym queen iykwim...#ive worked hard for this and now that ive gotten the Woman Social Role thing pretty much entirely out of the way i am living the dream#i think a large part of that is learning as a dyke to appropriate the language of gay men theres a reason their terminology had#staying power even when their scene was *literally* dying meanwhile all that seemed to survive from dyke spaces was butch n femme ??#its because theirs didnt necessitate the building and maintenance of a scene in order for the subculture to hold its head above water#their labels *largely* weren't predicated on their relationships to gender roles and its telling that for dykes it was#their labels rested on the need to simply show up anonymous n be able to easily flag whether they were looking to fuck or be fucked#alongside the set of circumstances under which they would be fucking or getting fucked or what have you#it all comes back to the restrictions of female social blah blah blah and i think the sooner we collectively set down what we see as our#responsibility as lesbians and as feminists to Be A Woman the sooner we can step outside of that#n start thinking clearly about our individual circumstances and the necessity of putting on your own oxygen mask first before helping others
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I find it interesting that after people’s interaction with Ominis outside of the Undercroft where he gets upset with them, people label him as a “privileged Slytherin” akin to Draco Malfoy, but that really can only be taken from his comment about using his family’s ties to the headmaster against the MC. Beyond that, Ominis and all the Gaunts are far from privileged.
By this point in the HP universe, the Gaunts are incredibly poor and they are very isolated from a lot of the wizarding world because of their aversion to anything Muggle (a view which Ominis states clearly that he disagrees with and isn’t proud to be related to people who have those views.) In the Half-Blood Prince, Dumbledore literally says the Gaunts lived in poverty due to previous generations having little sensibility when it came to indulgences and that was the case for a while before Ominis was born. All Gaunts lived in a run down shack that was a poor excuse for a home.
I think Ominis’s connection to the headmaster really just comes from them all coming from pure-blooded families, so they’re related in some way. The Gaunts aren’t very well-respected for a number of reasons. It’s only their history and their blood status that they really have to stand on (two things that Ominis rejects), not the current state of their family. His threat to use that only came from fear because of his perfectly understandable trust issues and the fact that one of his family’s secrets he wished to keep hidden had been exposed to a stranger without his knowledge.
#ominis gaunt#hogwarts legacy#some of the hate i've seen toward ominis label him as privileged and i had to get my thoughts out bc that is factually incorrect#i like draco let's be clear he's a great character#i just feel like people aren't looking at all past the surface when they compare ominis and draco#beyond them being pure-blooded slytherins they don't really have a lot of similarities at all#but anyway i have a lot more thoughts about ominis's current relationship with his family that i will get to later#headcanon
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also while we're here i would like to share the two iterations of tumblr user gorespawn that have existed since i abandoned this blog back in like early 2021. Who wants me
#i grew my hair out so i could twirl my hair while giggling about bald men#and also t.o.p of bigbang#and short men i see at the grocery store who honestly make me feel light-headed with raw and unbridled Want#but that's just a joke. i am. Lesbian#''no ur not'' I AM#anyway i used to be so ripped and hunky but now i am frail and sickly#what getting a job can do to a mf#thankfully i quit my job last week YIPPIIIEEEEEEE so now i will work towards becoming an absolute hunk again#wish me luck#ALSO#if anyone is obsessed with me and remembers all my lore i used to be transgender and i still am like lowkey on the down low#but in a new exciting way#anyway i used to be a gay man and then a stone butch dyke (as seen above) but now im practicing being a girl#it is very difficult but it is also fun. ive never been a girl before so it's a lot#anyway i bought two super cool sexy dresses yesterday for the first time ever in my life#sexy dresses meaning up to my neck and down to my feet and past my elbows. kind of like a wardrobe straight out of the handmaid's tale#from (to quote my friend) ''*The* old lady store'' thanks man. well i think theyre pretty and its v exciting bc ive never been a girl befor#anyway#who wants me#i still use the name emil online btw and i honestly always will i think it's just so me and also i do still answer to he/him dw#in a man way not in a he/him lesbian way#''he's LGBTQA+'' what. all at once?#yes.#i have mastered them all i have collected all the genders and all the sexualities and ive never been ''wrong''#it just keeps switching. which is fine. well im a girl now. in a detransitioning man way. who is insanely attracted to men#but you will have to tear this lesbian label out of my cold dead hands#''you can't call urself lesbian if u have sex w men'' well first of all fuck you and second of all i am celibate so you dont need to worry#''what the hell are you talking about'' nothing. now look how hot i am#im just joking around i hope that's fine w y'all
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They get it
#had to repost this comment under caits video about austin and ally because they sum up the way their relationship is written very well#one of the reasons i didn't like the finale break up#is no matter if austin and ally are romantically invovled or not they'll always be together#they moved past that typical romantic duality by 1x03#that emotional distance doesn't apply to them so it didn't make a lot of sense#i always refer to Austin and Ally's relationship as a secret third thing#a relationship that exists beyond labels#in alot of ways you don't see a romantic storyline in the show you just see two people get closer and closer#they're written to never really leave the friendship dynamic - its the same with mulder and scully#the fact that they're a full on couple in season 4 is great#but that was never the end all ultimate goal of the show#raura#ross x laura#ross lynch#laura marano#austin and ally#ally dawson#austin moon#ally x austin#auslly#austin x ally#disney channel#disney#tv show#disney show
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ok bro so i don't know how to make this post SDJFHSH and say hi hello i missed everyone without being awkward and facing cricket noises since it's been over a year since i’ve logged in LMFAO and ppl still following r gonna be like ??? but .... ASKDUSDL HELLO!!!!! 🙂↕️ to everyone that is still here ... <3
I MISSED YA'LL SM OMG ;---; i hope some of you still remember me so this won’t be too awkward 🙂↕️🙏
on that note!!!! i have returned because i have really bad gojo and isagi brainrot since rewatching/rereading jjk + getting into bllk
+ i have so many fics i have completed that i want to post !!! i have been cooking in isolation and after much needed self-growth and love in writing <3 ;v; (gojo, isagi, and nanami ones mostly lmaoo AND ALSO A SUKUNA SERIES I WANT TO POST) AND IDK WHAT TO POST FIRST LOL
also to the mutuals (that remain... <3) please do not be alarmed if u see me in ur notifs reblogging fics for my current faves and yapping in ur tags 🙂↔️ like in the next few days LMFAO i have been deprived of reading good fic for soooo long bruh and now im like. I NEED TO READ FOR GOJO AND ISAGI SO BAD…. i missed fic so bad...
would ya'll be chill if i posted writing out of the blue here lmao and changed my username ??... it wouldn't be too awkward ?? 🙂↔️ (for the username i will change it in a few days despite my impatience so i give everybody like a chance to get used to me being on their dash so it won't be too alarming LMAOO)
#i am way too lazy to make a new blog from scratch lol#idk how to post its been so long KSJDFHS (ALSO WHY IS TUMBLR SO SKINNY NOW LIKE THE DASH IS SO NARROW IM LIKE CONFUSED LMFAOO???)#also tf r community labels what is this... saw a notif on a dumb shitpost of mine and it is labeled?? as that KJHDSF idk what that means#so much as happened in the past year idek where to start but i am here to stay if u will have me ^_^ <3#HELP IM BEING SO AWKWARD THIS WILL GO AWAY THE MORE I POST I JUST. whew getting this post out into the dash is nerve wracking bro lmfaoo#over a year completely away from tumblr was strange cuz idk how to behave LOL#i do wanna post here so i just wanted to make this post in advance and like greet everyone and interact w everybody so its not too-#-awkward once i start posting writing and reblogging n such LMAOO#and also posting blog maintenance stuff :3#KSJDHF LETS RIP THE BANDAID OFF AS THEY SAY#i am so excited !!!!!#i thought about some of u guys while being away from the app and just kjshdf i hope some of u r still here ;___;#i've also figured my interests n stuff out a lot this past year...#found out im bi gender also so. weeee ...
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ive had to step away from all the analysis of the finale because thinking about it for too long it fills me with such a [rage? bitterness? frustration? all of the above?] the likes of which ive genuinely never felt for a show before
ive cared about media before. ive been disappointed by media before, but i think the difference is i haven't put my faith in media like i did ofmd- and the more time passes the more i feel fucking stupid for putting that faith in the show in the first place, when so many of the things coming to light now were already there
i cant think about it too long else it makes me so fucking sad, and im tired of analysing it to bits because its not going to change anything, theres no way to fix any of this, no way to find a spark of light in it, no way to come back, to resurrect the show i fucking loved.
im sure everything everyone is saying is well thought out and nuanced things but for the sake of my own enjoyment of this fucking show i have to just not engage with it anymore.
#the last post was the exception to this and its only bc that segment of the interview was directly on my feed#like im sorry if you followed me for my serious takes and now youre getting silly goofy dude#but not taking this media too seriously is the only way im coping rn#ikyk ive talked your ears off about my relationship with fucking show and the fandom in the past month but. but#nyxtalks#ofmd#ofmd s2 spoilers#ofmd critical#like. the serangela break up Sucks and i could yell about it forever#but in the end i dont think i really went in having faith that marvel wouldnt fuck it up#and thats the difference here for me#the faith i did put in. and the way i see how that i shouldnt have#ill still complain. but i dont have the energy to read them or try and write them in a way thats in any way fact checked or nuanced i just#i need to complain but i need to keep my love for this fucking show i. need to#again. ikyk. so. silly hours. ignoring s2 hours. making up that fictional man hours. i gotta#also please enjoy nyx tries to label an emotion and fails
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Seeing
Sometimes the Bible can sound like nonsense.
Like today’s Gospel, “they look but do not see and hear but do not listen or understand.” How is that even possible?
It’s not just possible. It’s commonplace. You and I do it all the time. Here’s how it goes.
We look. We label. And…we’re done.
We don’t really see the person. Not after we label them.
It’s not just that we don’t stop for a closer look. We don’t even slow down. With a quick label, we’ve turned them into a thing. Dropped them into a convenient box with everything else that has the same label. And moved on.
The scary part? How often you and I do this. And how easily we do it.
Whether we slap a positive label on them or a negative label really doesn’t matter. Because either one does the same thing.
When we label, it keeps us from seeing everything that’s really going on with them. From ever understanding who they are. Or why they do what they do.
Which means that we can never help them. We can never use the gifts that God has given us to do any good for them. To make any difference in their lives. Even the thought to do that never occurs to us. Because to us, they’re just another thing with a label.
Truth be told, getting past the labels and to the person?
It’s the only way that any soul is ever saved. It’s the only way that any life is ever changed.
And it starts with seeing them not as a label, but as a person. As someone.
Someone worthy of your time. Someone worthy of your sacrifice.
It starts with seeing them the same way that God sees you.
Today’s Readings
#Labels#Person#God#Jesus#Catholic#Christian#Church#Getting past labels#Worthy#How God Sees You#Moments Before Mass
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things the US needs to address:
the collective psychosis that leads people to make posts like these
#in case it's unclear what i mean:#1.) blaming gen z men or any of the listed grifters is useless idpol#2.) half of your country did not 'vote against [your] collective best interests' lmao#if you truly believe that you have a fundamental misunderstanding of the position your country occupies in the global economy#and the benefits conferred onto its citizens for supporting the imperial world order#3.) i feel like OP kept this point purposefully vague (ofc social media has on effect on the common good. what effect specifically?)#but i'll still respond by saying#social media has helped immensely in exposing how often traditional news outlets lie retract revise and outright fabricate information#the more aligned with bourgeois interests they are the worse it is#the past year of western media's reporting on the genocide in palestine has done nothing if not highlight the incongruence#between what people see n share on the ground and what narratives corporate interests deem fit to disseminate through traditional channels#the importance of following independent (which does not equal 'unbiased') journalists has never been greater#4.) 'lazy minds and lack of empathy' empathy is not some bulwark against fascism. it can actually serve to further it quite easily#idk what OP is trying to get at here. lazy point = lazy response#5.) i can't say anything here that isn't summed up better by that tweet that's like#'american *sees something american happening americanly in america*: what are we a bunch of ASIANS?!?!???'#cause there's just nooo way politicians and public figures in the US could spew reactionary nonsense and get a huge following#unless the evil russians had a hand in it#cause it's not like the US is racism central or anything#come on now#(for those unaware i'm citing this tweet bc orientalism of this kind has historically been directed at russians/slavs in addition to#people from MENA and asian countries broadly)#6.) see point number 3 above; trying to police AI is a fruitless endeavor; people need media literacy in order to#understand the interests of the parties involved in the coverage of any event and better discern the truth about what's happening;#identifying the bias inherent to any news channel and then examining how that bias impacts its reporting does far more to help dispel#misinformation than just labeling anything you don't like or you think influences people the 'wrong' way as misinformation#anyway i'm done. clown.#sansgwilie
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"...my one year anniversary being on testosterone!!! I had a vision of capturing my total gender euphoria [...] My trans and nonbinary body is divine I honor my body as it is now, and as it will be as I continue to become more and more myself..."
#hoping this doesn't get flagged labeled or otherwise restricted. hoping & blowing this whole building up#there Is queerness & an observable butt & such & [what i already know abt the stuff that does get flagged removed etc]#of course if there's a problem & this tag's commentary is irrelevant: the video! full thing!! their voice aaaa!!!#trans people trans people trans people Trans People Trans People Trans People!!!!!!!#asia kate dillon#injection vwv#their scruff their smiling their laughing the appreciatively lingering shots of leg & armpit & stomach hair#my never having heard their voice from this past year. seeing the post with the preview of this realizing it ft. testosterone like Exhale#hearing their voice after a year of hrt crying!!!! weeping!!!! been playing snippets over & over; getting familiar; getting misty; basking#selfies / home video journaling when it's also Theatre Performance Staging Modeling Photography Filmmaking Documenting Envisioning#seeing a not so unrelated like just. little documentation A Day In The Life type clip from '67 by a trans woman; resonating w/this#talking even theoretically abt Her future journey; shots of mannequins ft. the underwear/lingerie she'd like to wear then. wah
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... So in my time not sleeping since 4 AM yesterday (yeah I never got that nap. Insomnia sucks), I've been rewatching a retrospective of the old Sonic comics in semi-preparation for the Multi-muse that will launch... eventually. Which gave me an idea that I think I'm going to commit to.
I'm gonna read all of Archie Sonic.
But not just that, I think it'd be fun to make an adventure out of it, read a new issue each day and chronical my thoughts on it on the new account when it launches. Because in spite of how big of a fan I am of the character and his world, I've never actually read the biggest part of his history. I've seen chunks of it through the new waves of Retrospectives, and I did try to get into a few times before it got cancelled. Once during the Reboot Post Mega Man crossover (gotta read that too, I've been getting more into the Blue Bomber lately), once during the sequel to that crossover which I sadly never got to finish (even though it was awesome but the library I was borrowing them from didn't have the second half available), and finally once a few months before the end, picking up the Sonic Archives starting with the Sonic Adventure arc. I actually managed to buy a few of them, as well as the two issues of Sonic Mega Drive which I just ADORE
But the thing is... this is a lot to go through, and I mean a LOT. The comic released over 500 issues during its 20+ year run, in varying degrees of quality. And while I do want to tackle all of it eventually, including the fan made continuation which I've heard good things about, I think I'm going to need to take it in chunks if I've got any chance of finishing it.
... also gotta watch SatAM because I've never seen that either.
So, you might be wondering why I'm even posting this here. Well, I'm indecisive and I don't know if I should start from the beginning, start from issue #160 where Ian Flynn took over the book and it actually gets good, or if I should start in the middle with the Sonic Adventure stuff like I had tried before.
And instead of just flipping a coin on it, I'm just gonna let you guys decide!
... And before you ask, I'm not touching Knuckles yet. I'm not ready for Knuckles.
He's rougher than the rest of them.
#q'd#ooc - out of costume;#this journey will take like... a year and a half to complete if i start at the beginning and tackle the spin offs as I go#and that's without breaks so... yeah big commitment#if you're wondering why i labeled Adventure as Confusion it's because the first story i read in that arc; where he gets his green eyes-#is one of the most hard-to-follow things ive ever read#the story is told in small chunks and those chunks are in reverse order. AND SOME TEXT IS BACKWARDS#Combined with the fact that it was the earliest issue of Archie I'd ever read it's a miracle i made it past that at all
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#everything about how 1d meant the most to liam#they all said he was the one out of any of them who was actually a professional#he cared so much and it was his dream to be a famous musician since he was a kid#kinda a cruel twist of fate that he ended up being the least favorite of the 5 of them#and his solo career was the least successful by far…….#i can see how seeking fame and external validation is dangerous#because it’s so fickle.#idk I just think in comparison to someone like Harry who despite his crazy levels of fame seems more grounded#because he has a good support system. Like I think of Anne and Gemma#(not saying that Harry doesn’t struggle with fame and I’m sure his life is darker than we see)#but yeah#like the fact that Liam’s parents and especially his dad wanted this lifestyle for him too#it just seems like so much pressure and then for it not to be going well for him at all#for his record label to drop him#etc etc#who wouldn’t be messed up from that?#like I personally am the queen of unhealthy coping so maybe I can empathize more idk.#nothing excuses his abusive behavior but you can see how it all spiraled out of control#once you start misusing drugs and alcohol your life can get out of hand so quickly#and even the thing about his PR rep dropping him within the past few weeks#it seems like he had NO ONE looking out for him#and that is so scary.#liam payne
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Miles Vorkosigan is literally if "curiosity killed the cat / but satisfaction brought him back" was a person. Straight he may ultimately be, but im sorry Lois you CANNOT tell me he has not personally investigated every type of consensual sexual experience offered to him. You're telling me he'll have an intimate and mutually satisfying sexual relationship with a female werewolf but intersex BEL THORNE is a bridge too far? Girl.
#i dont know if she ever comes out and says its because Bel Thorne is intersex#it might textually be because Miles isnt that promiscuous#but what im saying is that he ABSOLUTELY WOULD BE THAT PROMISCUOUS#he has no regard for social rules if they arent about harm and get in his way#vorkosigan saga#lois mcmaster bujold does great in general but wrt queerness she just doesnt know what shes talkin about#the way she handles Bel Thorne is overall very cool once you get past the painful choice of labels#but Miles would NOT be this constrained by straightness to not even go there once. he's not that guy#listen if EVERYONE ELSE ON BARRAYAR was that straight. Miles would be the 1 guy who wasn't#you can tell she doesnt know queerness much because opt-in intersexuality didnt catch on ON BETA COLONY#that is ABSOLUTELY where all the queers live and the environment COULD NOT BE BETTER for intersex and trans ppl#*and i do mean opt-in intersexuality and not transness. it's a whole thing#u can also tell bc Bel Thorne isnt absolutely drowning in whatever genitals they desire!!!#the Dendarii Free Mercenaries ALONE would be full of people trying to Hit That#let alone galactics all over the damn place who would be seduced by their heroics good looks AND charm#bel thorne has got it all is what im saying#....ALSO THE STUFF WITH THE WEREWOLF IS AMAZING
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ughhhh why is gender so hard to figure out. my body is like boom gender dsyorphia but won’t tell me noone about my identity
(I accidentally made an entire vent in the tags lmao)
#my gender dysorphia has been bad the past few weeks. really fucking bad#when I try to learn about my identity I get mad that I’m nowhere near becoming it or mad that I don’t know what the fuck I want to be#but I want to be more neutral and I don’t know if I want to be masculine because I want to look genderless#or if the two aren’t together#I hate this. I pick a label and there’s always something wrong with it.#demiboy is too masculine and implies I look masculine p#agender isn’t masculine enough#I can’t be genderfluid when I only want to be masc and neutral#I can’t be bigender when I don’t want to be a transman#nothing ever fits. and whether I find what fits or not the dysorphia is just gonna get worse#and my mom will think I’m a butch lesbian for years#and once those years finally pass she isn’t gonna let us leave Florida#or by then the transphobia would’ve spread across the county#and then she still wouldn’t let me leave#because I’ll always be too young. I’ll never have enough documented dysorphia.#I’ll never get on t. I’ll never get a binder or surgery.#bevause i look too feminine to be tranmasc.#because I can’t get hormones.#because my mom won’t let me.#because I haven’t had this for enough years.#because I looked too feminine before and thought that feminine things were cute#because I liked girls.#I liked how the outfits looked but never really asked if I wanted to wear them.#and when I finally did it was too late.#the answer was no. but they didn’t believe me#bc for so many years I thought because and outfit was cute or astethic meant you wanted to wear it. but I didn’t want to be seen as a girl.#I want to be masculine. I wish I was born male. but it’s too late for me to realize that.#now nobody cares what I want to be. anyone that does is across the fucking world.#anyways I’m reaching tag limit so I’ll stop this#vent
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