#Feeling a little fuzzy now

[tiny-chubby-bird]

I love the shy and gentle expressions the most.

[martynsimp69]

HEY! as the second round of the mcytblr sexyman bracket settles in i wanted to take the time to thank everyone that turned out for #saintsweep in the first round. genuinely don’t know how any of this happened, but i was rly touched by the outpouring of support and positivity and enthusiasm from everyone who was willing to commit to the bit. (33%!!! 33!!!! A WHOLE THIRD!!!! 2206 PEOPLE!!!) 

i wanna thank specifically zloy and the bracket team for being good sports about the whole thing -- the nomination started as a joke, but it was from a place of genuine excitement and goodwill, and i’m glad we all got to have fun with it. sorry for not actually fitting the “yt” part of the mcyt sexyman tournament LOL. 

but, speaking of. i’d joked about making a minecraft video if i won when i first saw the nominations, but after everything that happened here in round one i’m probably gonna do it even tho i lost. i feel like i owe it to everyone who turned out and got really invested and also really confused about who this gay little tv was and why they couldn’t find him anywhere (SORRY ABOUT THAT). 

SO!!! one of the things i wanted to do with the potential video was possibly a bit of a q&a; about me/saint, darkwoods smp, the bracket, lore, builds, whatever, idk!! but i figured, y’know, if anyone has questions they wanna ask feel free to send em my way, either in replies to this post or just straight in my askbox, anon or otherwise. 

anyways!! thank you all again for everything -- i appreciate being allowed to take this whole thing and run with it as much as i have. it was surreal and hilarious and overwhelming and i am going to be riding the high for weeks. the bragging rights i got from this are insane. im putting official mcytblr sexyman nominee on my resume. godbless. 

here is a little saint i doodled at work today while i watched the percentages on the poll tick up. love u guys forever 📺

[comma-souptra]

Last summer I studied abroad and shared a house with (among many people) a trans masc guy who had top surgery. I was very freshly on T and just starting to explore how much transition I really wanted to undergo while still being very scared of Change and how much of it transitioning would bring me. I felt like I had to be absolutely sure I wanted any of the elements of transition I chose to undergo because so much of my (US) medical system around trans health care does not leave room for you to be uncertain, you often have to fight desperately to be taken seriously in your transition.

I was on a walk with this guy and some friends, and we were talking about tattoos we wanted. I mentioned a sternum tattoo idea I had, and he asked me flat out “do you want top surgery?”. I said “oh my god, who knows, why would you ask me that?” in all my transgender panic and fear, and he just kind of laughed and said “I was only gonna say, they worked around my sternum tattoo when I got mine. So you should be fine if you get that one.”

I asked him “how did you know you wanted top surgery?” as we walked together. To my very deep shock, he said he wasn’t sure, he had just decided to make the necessary appointments and go. If it ever felt wrong or like he wasn’t ready, he would just stop. The obvious caveat here is that we are from two different countries with very different health care systems, but the fact that he had started this (to me) daunting process without complete assuredness and had made it out the other end happier and beautiful was mind altering to me.

Later in our trip, me offered to show me his chest and the results of his surgery. I stood in my room and he stood in the door way, back to the hall as our housemates walked by, and lifted his shirt to me, grinning. I said “you kept your nipples!” and he laughed. It was clear the rest of our house (functionally, all cisgender) were a bit confused by what was going on. I hadn’t necessarily been as vocally and openly trans as him, but it was clearly something transgender.

All this to say, I have an appointment scheduled for my top surgery consultation in November. I’ve upped my T dosage twice over the past year. I’ve been binding since I was twelve and have craved masculinization since puberty, of course I wanted top surgery! I’ve been thinking a lot this pride month about the phrase “don’t die wondering” and how hard it is to follow when you don’t see grown queer people that reflect who you could be. This guy was only four years older than me, but he was living this adult life I hoped to live and doing so in a body he created just by trying out what felt right and seeing if it stuck.

So I’m going to the top surgery consult, and I got on full dose T instead of hiding behind low dose. And I’m changing my name and figuring out what sounds right because I don’t want to die wondering! And it’s my one silly little life in this body as this person, and I’ve seen that it can be done. So thank you to my housemate, and I am very much looking forward to being even more transgender next pride month <3

[talkorsomething]

I have Got to get more transgender

[sysig]

New dream OCs drop (Patreon)

[i-like-rocks22]

Went out to a comedy gig last night and was finally able to put into words one of my favourite "humans are adorable" moments:

It's when the comedian says something that's applicable to a couple or one of the people in a group, and their partner or the people they're with turn and make eye contact with them and they all laugh together.

[crossbackpoke-check]

just wanted to let you know your tags on the trevor/mason post absolutely broke me 🥺 - @bondedpairs (formerly softvikings)

me when i cause all my beloved friends in my phone psychic damage… yay 💕☺️✨

[bunnyboy-juice]

bweeeeeeeee

[pixlpawz]

thank you for the love on my fursona forecast post🩷

[blamemma]

if anyone wants a cute little maxiel fic i genuinely cannot recommend this one enough it's outsider pov from their separate children and idk each line is so purposeful but its also really fun

[invinciblerodent]

Hi, lowkey obsessed with your tavs (and a durge when I get to know her, I assume)

Did you create/pick them specifically with romances in mind or did it shuffle itself successfully?

Aww, thank you, that feels so nice to hear! ❤️❤️❤️

Kind of both, actually! It's kinda what I've been doing since my Dragon Age days, lol: for first runs of a certain game, I ofc just let it happen (make a vague character whose personality unfolds as the story goes, romance whoever I feel they'd fall for, reverse-engineer how that works out for them), but once I know the main story and the characters, I... generally like to pick an LI, then pick a trait or theme of their story/arc that interests me, choose an angle from which to approach that theme, and make a person whose story centers around it in a different way, but who I think would have their own arc, but would... understand, and eventually, naturally fall for the character based on things they have in common.

Like, if you'll allow me to rant a little... picking a cleric, and Arvid's whole deal and personality playing off Gale's themes of devotion and divinity so nicely was a complete accident lol. But my second run, I went into building Iona in a pretty conscious manner, after having purposefully decided that I want to do Astarion's romance, and that I wanted the character I make for him to be a highly charismatic person (who would see through him, and act primarily out of their own self-interest themselves), but also someone who would be able relate to him more and more as he reveals details of his story and past to them.

At first I just knew that she'd be an elf (because of the long lifespan, and because both of them only needing to rest 4 hours gives them lots of one-on-one time). Then I decided on a sorcerer to make her able to relate to him in their inability to deny their nature (sorcery is a living thing that yearns to be used, it's a little like vampiric hunger if you squint), decided to make her someone who was, like him, trapped/denied self-expression for a long time because of that nature (vampire spawn vs. person with inborn magic forced to hide it), and the rest (her being a compulsive liar who yearns to tell the truth, her having pretended to be someone she isn't for so long that she struggles to let the masks go, her repressing her feelings and being prone to deflecting and saying what others want to hear, all of that) sort of unfolded as I thought more about her, and the kind of story I wanted hers/theirs to be. And that's... kind of the same general process I follow with all of them.

I know it's kind of silly, and that I'm overthinking a lot of things, but I've always found character creation to be a lot of fun, and playing through a story as a little guy (gn) who has their own headful of issues to sort out like all the others has always been my absolute favorite part of playing RPGs. It's like writing the parts of stories i enjoy thinking about the most (characters and their relationships), but all the worldbuilding and plot-writing has already been done for me by someone much better at it than I am, lol.

I honestly never think that someone is reading through my mini-rants about my OCs, but I'm very, very happy that you like them!! The Durge run is going to be emotionally rough as hell!!!!

[t4tstarvingdog]

my pointer finger feels so weird because i . hm.

[chiropteracupola]

tagged by @kigiom in this funky little game! thanks ol' pal!

rules: post the last line/snippet of what you wrote and tag as many people as there are words.

it is once again a flintlock fortress thing, which Julien was not supposed to be in, but slithered into anyway. this is probably partially because I missed writing him after finishing that last fic and also because there's nothing else I'm working on right now that both contains Julien and is suitably early on in the plot.* so a story which was previously just Fun With Lancets now has a Julien Laurent Is Frenchly Judgemental And A Little Bit Mean About His Co-Workers sideplot.

[Nonchalant, he struck his flint across the corner of Ludwig’s medical case and lit his pipe. Smoke wafted gently as he cast his eye over its contents, and Julien inhaled with a carefully-controlled enthusiasm, glad to have finished with his concealment. He brushed a gloved fingertip across the blade of the bonesaw, his own furrowed brows reflected in the highly-polished steel.

Ludwig was competent, that was for certain, although perhaps a little too enamored of that particular tool for Julien’s comfort. As for the rest of the men that had been hired on… Julien picked his way across a newly boot-scuffed floor and grimaced.]

Whether or not they were much more than a collection of useless, war-mad cretins would remain to be seen.

and I do not think I have 20 whole people to tag, so I shall simply say @dxppercxdxver, @wilhelmina-murray-harker, @sailorpants, @sanguinarysanguinity, @tgarnsl, @cedarboots, @clockheartedcrocodile, @natdrinkstea, @kaxen, and @wromwood, if you'd like to share?

*look, I'm trying to break my habit of refusing to ever write proper explanations of characters or stories that are more on the original side, and flintlock tends to fall more into that category with the way I talk about it despite the fact that this is in actuality still fic.** so I'm making an attempt to focus on stuff that is At The Beginning and Provides Relevant Context at the moment.

**this is wretchedly distant from the actual video game it is based on but the fact remains that we didn't make up these guys, only their extremely overthought backstories and funny little outfits.

[hauntedwoman]

i think tmrw since im getting paid i will pay off my credit card for the month and get some gas and then drive to my favorite cafe to write all afternoon before meeting my cousin for some shopping and dinner bc i deserve a little treat and peace after the week that i've had

[heartbeetz]

One of Anton's main character traits literally just being "drunkard" is soooo funny for our ship tbh. Guy who drinks a lot + guy who likes the taste of alcohol but NOT the effects. Lmao.

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

Once upon a time Not so long ago There was a little girl and her name was Emely

And Emely had a shop

There it is

It was rather an unusual shop, because it didn't sell anything

It was all the things that somebody had once lost, and Emely had found and brought home to Bagpuss Her cat, Bagpuss

The most important The most beautiful The most magical saggy old cloth cat in the whole wide world

Well now, one day, Emely found a thing

And she brought it home, to Bagpuss Who sat in the shop window, fast asleep, as usual

But Emely said the magic words

~~Bagpuss, dear Bagpuss, old fat furry catpuss, Wake up and look at this thing that I bring Wake up, be bright, the goldenen light Bagpuss, oh hear what I sing~~