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cleverlyconfidential · 4 days ago

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February: To Walk Without Fear

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thecleverconfidante · 4 days ago

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February: To Walk Without Fear

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bigfatbreak · 10 months ago

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Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

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the-girl-with-too-many-ideas · 4 months ago

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Shen Yuan's life would have actually been far more difficult if he was the only transmigrator. Instead of airplane, he would have been dealing with an active and malicious spy who would not have hesitated to take advantage of him and his situation.

Either he believes the entire amnesia story or picks up that SY is an imposter. Maybe even both. He believes the amnesia first but then realizes something more is going on when he tries to take advantage of the so-called "amnesia."

Whatever the case, Shen Yuan's life would have gone from easy mode to medium or even outright hard.

#idea dump #ramblings of a sleep deprived girl #mxtx svsss #svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shang qinghua #original shang qinghua #People seem to forget that he was a very competent and effective spy #he would have sabotaged SY every chance he got because OG SQH would have seen him as a weakness to exploit #The sect tactician with amnesia? prime time to take them out at their most vulnerable #A peak lord has dramatically changed into a completely different person but no one really seems to care enough to investigate further?#political crisis and damaged reputations when exposed at the right time #he also would have noticed how SY treats LBH and wonder what was so special about him #you can't tell me he wouldn't try to manipulate and take advantage of a LBH fresh out of the abyss #the more I think about it the more I realize how terrifying OG SQH could have been #nothing is more terrifying than a villain with a brain #SY would have been cooked facing off against a competent spy like OG SQH #system or no system

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ekingston · 11 months ago

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What do you think would be lena's courage gaunlet test

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#seriously!#some of the bravest shit a person can do is be honest with themselves #and Lena particularly likely feels she’d just be retraumatizing herself #little does she know the hardest truth she’ll have to face is that she’s her own worst enemy #and no matter how hard she tries to get out from under the weight of the luthor name #she won’t ever allow herself to feel happy or accomplished until she faces the true final boss:#her own inner critic and tendency to self-sabotage #(no i’m not desperately invested in this idea. stop looking at me like that)#ask me things!#anonymous

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taylortruther · 7 months ago

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like, she thought safety was denying parts of herself. but she realized she didn't have to cut off so much. and that's when she outgrew the fishbowl and the cage started feeling restrictive.

#also to say nothing of how she was unlearning bad habits because she was cutting off her nose to spite her face and self-sabotaging #hiding away was (imo) a sensible reaction to the pain of 2016 #but eventually that too felt like a form of sabotage because she was denying parts of herself she couldn't

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fandomish · 15 days ago

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Thinking about how Leo always flips his shit and searches recklessly for his brothers when they go missing/are separated but probably genuinely didn’t expect to be saved at all when he locked himself in the prison dimension

#sorry but the idea of him desperately loving them so completely #only to not usually receive the same treatment (outside of life or death obviously)#like bug busters #he would’ve given up the bugs for Raph immediately I think #and portal jacked #they didn’t really seem to miss him at all as much as he missed them #(tbf they were chilling and probably thought he was also chilling #but the lack of energy matching still stands)#also he’s always one to step in to take the fall or stand up for his bros #but they throw him under the bus #(again #usually because he’s being a massive shit so it’s not unwarranted)#anyways I think he was flabbergasted that he was saved #because when he messes up/self-sabotages he always manages to take the fall #he’s the face man #they shoved him under the bus for the laberinto de muerte stunt #so why would they save him when he’s finally making up for his biggest mistake yet??#he doesn’t think they’re stupid enough to open the portal again just for him #so he must’ve been so honored and surprised when Mikey pulled the impossible #(also Raph and Donnie were highkey ready to quit?? like so quickly)#regardless I love him #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo

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bidisasterevankinard · 7 months ago

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Wip Wednesday

do I have the stage where I start new wips but barely write the one's I have because I'm super indecisive and not inspired? yes. let's hope soon I will be fine and work on my wips I want to work on. Anyway meet new wip where bucktommy will have long angst in their relationship because Tommy needs to grief "what ifs" with Sal he never thought about till he sees Sal as Captain of 118 (it's an au where Sal is a captain instead of Gerass)(it's only the start of the fic btw)

thanks to nonny @racerchix21 and this song (the title taken from the song and it's "I tried to go on like I never knew you"

Tommy knows it all should be in the past. In stolen kisses in bars they knew Gerrard and the team would never come too. In usually passionate and wild - almost never tender and sweet - sex. In secrets they shared under sheets, when they both knew that the moment their fabric cover was gone they couldn't talk about those moments of comfort and vulnerability they shared. In breakfast’s Sal made for him and his nonna's lasagna recipe Tommy cooked for the man. In wild dreams Tommy knew could never be a reality. Especially not when Sal changed stations and firstly their meetups were less and less frequent until they stopped after Sal’s wedding.

And Tommy swears he thought he was over it. Over Sal. Over dreams of the future they could never share. But one look at the man whose appearance barely changed since Tommy last saw him five years ago, staying near 118 trucks the same way he always did, while talking with Chim, and all that got back at him. All the memories of stolen love and painful hope to be happy, proud and loved. Preferably by his “best friend”. By the one of the best men he ever met even if they could be rough with each other or rude or just wrong. Sal always came back with sorry, that Tommy knew was genuine. They were so wrong together, but also so wrongly perfect. So electric. Sal made him feel how almost no one could. Only his first crush Eric from the army, Sal and …

“Hey, handsome, sorry for the delay, Hen needed help to choose a present for Karen,” Evan kissed his cheeks, smiling like thousands of suns.

If Tommy didn’t know and was pretty acquainted with Evan’s quirks and little signs of his fatigue, he would never think the man just ended his 48 hour shift.

“It’s fine, baby.”

Tommy smiles and he hopes his inner turmoil of seeing an old friend is not shown on his face.

“Have you met my new captain yet?”

“No, but I don’t need to.”

Evan adorably tits his head and Tommy wants his heart to be so fast only because of it and the taste of Evan’s lip balm on his cheek, but he swears he can feel the taste of liquor he and Sal were drinking last time they kissed. Right before Sal asked Jennifer out on their first date.

“I worked with Sal. Even more than Chim and Hen,” Tommy says and Evan for a second frowns and then hits his face.

“And they were no less inseparable as you and Eddie,” Chim says, with the loud sound of gum bubbles breaking.

Tommy doesn’t know when he and Sal got closer to them, but he would really happy if they never see that Tommy was there at all.

“God, of course. In my defense it was so long ago I just haven’t even thought that all three of you were a team.”

“Yeah, I left the station almost a decade ago and it feels like it was in another life, so it’s fine, Buck.”

Sal smiles at his boyfriend and Tommy wants to make as much room between them as possible. Maybe it will help him to to separate all these feelings of worry and anxiety and love and confusion from the sight of the man he had loved for years, but had never had the opportunity to own his love completely for himself, never feeling that Sal had given him his heart, and a man who he knows is step away from get into his own chest and rip out his heart with all the vessels and give it to Tommy if he just says the word. Sal would never do it even if Tommy would beg

I was tagged by @tizniz @cal-daisies-and-briars @diazheartsbuckley @diazsdimples

Tagging @wikiangela @neverevan @hippolotamus @watchyourbuck @evnnkinard @evansboyfriend @evanbegins @evanbi-ckley @repressedqueen @rogerzsteven @racerchix21 @eddiebabygirldiaz @theotherbuckley @pirrusstuff @saybiwithme @steadfastsaturnsrings @devirnis @giddyupbuck @honestlydarkprincess @kinard-buckley @loveyouanyway @lonelychicago @bigfootsmom @bekkachaos @bi-buckrights @bewilderedbuckley @monsterrae1 and anyone who wants to

#I really wanted to write this idea where Saltommy were pretty toxic but not exactly exes #but Sal is happy married man who grieved that he and Tommy were right person but wrong time and moved to his happiness #while Tommy boxed his pain and thought he is over Sal #but Sal is now in 118 and Tommy suddenly faces all the pain and memories and what ifs #and his grief for a while effects his relationship with Buck #and yes no cheating in this fic #Sal is actually good guy here and wants only best for Tommy #who will self sabotage for a while while dealing with the grief of love that he lost and trying to fully embrace the one he has now #saltommy #<- the past(maybe even some flashbacks and not just overall description)#bucktommy #my wips #fic: I tried to go on like I never knew you #sal deluca #evan buckley #tommy kinard #tevan #kinley #kinkley #evan buck buckley #Spotify #salommy

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cheese-water · 1 year ago

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I love Tina’s interactions with Cellbit because her mind isn’t clouded by unconditional love or unwavering fear or even pity when looking at him. Bagi told her the ins and outs of his past trauma but she doesn’t use it to excuse his current actions. Tina probably has the most objective view on Cellbit among the islanders, being that he’s a fucking asshole. She will not tolerate anyone hurting Bagi, even her own brother, but Tina also knows that if anything happens to Cellbit (oh no accidentally murdered your toxic twin oops!), she will be absolutely devastated.

So instead, we get violent death glares, bomb threats, and constant bickering whenever Bagi isn’t looking at them. And I adore it so much.

#qsmp #tinakitten #cellbit #bagi cattuzzo #bagina #gatina #teaduo #I also think cellbit shares the same conflict with tina #Being that he can’t murder her because bagi loves her #And despite what he might say to her face he cares about his sister #as much as he loves to self sabotage destroying his relationship with his remaining family members is a lot more permanent #There’s a reason why cellbit always kills bagi first then tina

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wingedaches · 2 months ago

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one of my best friends has recently gotten back into reading (very exciting!) & was asking for recommendations today. i shot down one of our coworker's recommendations since i knew she wouldn't like it and she agreed by saying "yeah, probably not. my biggest pet peeve with books is when the characters continually make bad choices and just end up ruining everything around them" to which i could only respond by going over to her list and crossing off my recommendation of rote. . . she would not be able to survive the mess that is fitzchivalry farseer.

#or any character in the series honestly #they're all self-sabotaging #which is what makes them so fun but also so so infuriating #stupid idiots who don't understand that they deserve love & help but who also deserve to be punched in the face <3 #fitzchivalry farseer #rote #realm of the elderlings #a.txt

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iheartbookbran · 9 months ago

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Also ngl I kinda love the concept of Debling courting Penelope and Colin getting jealous because of it, not because I ship it (he’s barely a character) or because I’m part of the crowd that wants to see Colin ~suffer (though I’m not opposed to seeing him dramatically yearn), but because the reason Penelope specifically is going after this vegan man is so fascinating to me. Like, she obviously doesn’t love him. But she will marry him to protect LW… she’ll marry him to please Portia, that’s so funny.

Girl’s so desperate to escape her awful family life while at the same time keeping her secret, but she also wants her mother’s approval. And she’s so caught up in that toxic mindset that she completely misses the guy she’s been in love with since childhood making heart eyes at her from across the ballroom.

Pen only has her parents’ terrible marriage as a frame of reference, so she probably thinks it’s a bonus if her future husband is much older than her because that could make her a young widow. He’ll leave the country for the majority of the year to fuck off to Antarctica? Oh to be left alone by your own life partner!!!

Meanwhile Portia is enthusiastically nodding behind Penelope like yes, perhaps he’ll die at sea, and neither of them think there’s anything wrong with this outlook in life.

Hilarious.